it all started when I was then on my way to my first big competition I was
to my first big competition I was
to my first big competition I was sitting in a car and I remember exactly
sitting in a car and I remember exactly
sitting in a car and I remember exactly what I felt I was so nervous I couldn’t
what I felt I was so nervous I couldn’t
what I felt I was so nervous I couldn’t eat and when I was trying to eat a
eat and when I was trying to eat a
eat and when I was trying to eat a banana
banana
banana forgetting some energy I almost vomited
forgetting some energy I almost vomited
forgetting some energy I almost vomited I just wanted to sleep my eyes refuse to
I just wanted to sleep my eyes refuse to
I just wanted to sleep my eyes refuse to be open I told myself oh me why why are
be open I told myself oh me why why are
be open I told myself oh me why why are you doing this to yourself it could be
you doing this to yourself it could be
you doing this to yourself it could be in your house playing the computer
in your house playing the computer
in your house playing the computer playing with your friends or why why you
playing with your friends or why why you
playing with your friends or why why you choose to be here I even prayed to God
choose to be here I even prayed to God
choose to be here I even prayed to God that we would got stuck in traffic so I
that we would got stuck in traffic so I
that we would got stuck in traffic so I would miss my fight
would miss my fight
would miss my fight I guess what in the end we arrived on
I guess what in the end we arrived on
I guess what in the end we arrived on time to tell Mon City and by the way
time to tell Mon City and by the way
time to tell Mon City and by the way until today when I hear the name Timon I
until today when I hear the name Timon I
until today when I hear the name Timon I get chills so we went inside the hole
get chills so we went inside the hole
get chills so we went inside the hole and I saw all the other judo fighters
and I saw all the other judo fighters
and I saw all the other judo fighters preparing for their contest I started to
preparing for their contest I started to
preparing for their contest I started to run
run
run I felt like my legs weight 1,000 kilos
I felt like my legs weight 1,000 kilos
I felt like my legs weight 1,000 kilos when I heard my name on the speakers I
when I heard my name on the speakers I
when I heard my name on the speakers I knew that this is the time to fight
knew that this is the time to fight
knew that this is the time to fight I was nervous too nervous
I was nervous too nervous
I was nervous too nervous many people tell me come on Judah has
many people tell me come on Judah has
many people tell me come on Judah has only 5 minutes long it’s not so hard but
only 5 minutes long it’s not so hard but
only 5 minutes long it’s not so hard but I’m telling you they wrong because
I’m telling you they wrong because
I’m telling you they wrong because during those 5 minutes your heart which
during those 5 minutes your heart which
during those 5 minutes your heart which races to 200 beats per minute you lose
races to 200 beats per minute you lose
races to 200 beats per minute you lose feelings in your arms and legs sometimes
feelings in your arms and legs sometimes
feelings in your arms and legs sometimes your visions go black from all the
your visions go black from all the
your visions go black from all the effort of fighting with all that you
effort of fighting with all that you
effort of fighting with all that you must stay come make the right decisions
must stay come make the right decisions
must stay come make the right decisions and beat your opponent or else face the
and beat your opponent or else face the
and beat your opponent or else face the shame of losing in front of your coach
shame of losing in front of your coach
shame of losing in front of your coach and your family that sounds like a lot
and your family that sounds like a lot
and your family that sounds like a lot of pressure huh so I won the first fight
of pressure huh so I won the first fight
of pressure huh so I won the first fight but it wasn’t so strong then I lost the
but it wasn’t so strong then I lost the
but it wasn’t so strong then I lost the second meaning I was out from the tomb
second meaning I was out from the tomb
second meaning I was out from the tomb from the tournament the competition was
from the tournament the competition was
from the tournament the competition was over to be honest I was relieved on the
over to be honest I was relieved on the
over to be honest I was relieved on the way back home I felt ashamed I felt like
way back home I felt ashamed I felt like
way back home I felt ashamed I felt like I don’t belong to this sport I told
I don’t belong to this sport I told
I don’t belong to this sport I told myself and this is not my style this is
myself and this is not my style this is
myself and this is not my style this is not me many people from the judo said oh
not me many people from the judo said oh
not me many people from the judo said oh he is a talented judo player but is also
he is a talented judo player but is also
he is a talented judo player but is also a quitter I was insulted hearing this
a quitter I was insulted hearing this
a quitter I was insulted hearing this sentence over and over again
sentence over and over again
sentence over and over again but command to be honest it made sense
but command to be honest it made sense
but command to be honest it made sense it made sense because I lost big
it made sense because I lost big
it made sense because I lost big competitions all the time it happened
competitions all the time it happened
competitions all the time it happened when I was 12 when I was 15 when I was
when I was 12 when I was 15 when I was
when I was 12 when I was 15 when I was 20 and even three years ago when I was
20 and even three years ago when I was
20 and even three years ago when I was competing in the world champion in Rio
competing in the world champion in Rio
competing in the world champion in Rio but not that Rio the other Rio
but not that Rio the other Rio
but not that Rio the other Rio I trained a lot for this event I felt in
I trained a lot for this event I felt in
I trained a lot for this event I felt in the best shape of my life running weight
the best shape of my life running weight
the best shape of my life running weight judo I won the first fight then I had to
judo I won the first fight then I had to
judo I won the first fight then I had to face with a big challenge my mother from
face with a big challenge my mother from
face with a big challenge my mother from Azerbaijan he ranked first in the world
Azerbaijan he ranked first in the world
Azerbaijan he ranked first in the world and it was my chance to prove all those
and it was my chance to prove all those
and it was my chance to prove all those coaches wrong
coaches wrong
coaches wrong the fight started
the fight started
the fight started and I felt so strong I hold him like he
and I felt so strong I hold him like he
and I felt so strong I hold him like he was a kid he didn’t know what to do I
was a kid he didn’t know what to do I
was a kid he didn’t know what to do I even threw him twice by Yuko which meant
even threw him twice by Yuko which meant
even threw him twice by Yuko which meant 20 points for me he was helpless the
20 points for me he was helpless the
20 points for me he was helpless the time showed one minute to the end and
time showed one minute to the end and
time showed one minute to the end and then I told myself wow I’m going to beat
then I told myself wow I’m going to beat
then I told myself wow I’m going to beat the number one judo player in the world
the number one judo player in the world
the number one judo player in the world then suddenly I start scared because I
then suddenly I start scared because I
then suddenly I start scared because I never been a desperate dispositions I
never been a desperate dispositions I
never been a desperate dispositions I always want the average judo cos that’s
always want the average judo cos that’s
always want the average judo cos that’s when negative feelings began to creep in
when negative feelings began to creep in
when negative feelings began to creep in slowly it first and then quickly until I
slowly it first and then quickly until I
slowly it first and then quickly until I lost my mind it was like he smelled my
lost my mind it was like he smelled my
lost my mind it was like he smelled my feelings so we throw me hard and gain
feelings so we throw me hard and gain
feelings so we throw me hard and gain the leading points judo is like a jungle
the leading points judo is like a jungle
the leading points judo is like a jungle the moment you show weakness you’re done
the moment you show weakness you’re done
the moment you show weakness you’re done with 30 seconds to the end it was my
with 30 seconds to the end it was my
with 30 seconds to the end it was my last chance to throw him back so I ran
last chance to throw him back so I ran
last chance to throw him back so I ran toward him angry I grabbed his judogi
toward him angry I grabbed his judogi
toward him angry I grabbed his judogi lifted him up with all my might and snap
lifted him up with all my might and snap
lifted him up with all my might and snap I broke my wrist
I broke my wrist
I broke my wrist I was the loser again as I was lying in
I was the loser again as I was lying in
I was the loser again as I was lying in the hospital I watched on TV as my
the hospital I watched on TV as my
the hospital I watched on TV as my opponent won the final match my mother
opponent won the final match my mother
opponent won the final match my mother became the world champion I couldn’t
became the world champion I couldn’t
became the world champion I couldn’t believe it happened I was lying there
believe it happened I was lying there
believe it happened I was lying there with a broken hand it was my chance I
with a broken hand it was my chance I
with a broken hand it was my chance I was leading until the end how did I let
was leading until the end how did I let
was leading until the end how did I let it go I’m telling you at that moment a
it go I’m telling you at that moment a
it go I’m telling you at that moment a lot of Tears
lot of Tears
lot of Tears on the way back home I took a piece of
on the way back home I took a piece of
on the way back home I took a piece of paper and a pen and I wrote my feelings
paper and a pen and I wrote my feelings
paper and a pen and I wrote my feelings I wrote I’m not going to be a loser
I wrote I’m not going to be a loser
I wrote I’m not going to be a loser anymore I’m going to change my life and
anymore I’m going to change my life and
anymore I’m going to change my life and I’m going to show everyone how to do it
I’m going to show everyone how to do it
I’m going to show everyone how to do it how I’m going to do it so I kept writing
how I’m going to do it so I kept writing
how I’m going to do it so I kept writing cause writing has me to explore my
cause writing has me to explore my
cause writing has me to explore my emotions and here’s what I discovered I
emotions and here’s what I discovered I
emotions and here’s what I discovered I can be a sensitive guy but still
can be a sensitive guy but still
can be a sensitive guy but still maintain focus without letting my
maintain focus without letting my
maintain focus without letting my emotions control me how did I do this
emotions control me how did I do this
emotions control me how did I do this so first I have to be patient because
so first I have to be patient because
so first I have to be patient because it’s taking time to change second I told
it’s taking time to change second I told
it’s taking time to change second I told myself over and over again that my
myself over and over again that my
myself over and over again that my feelings are natural because probably
feelings are natural because probably
feelings are natural because probably all the other Dula fighters feel fear
all the other Dula fighters feel fear
all the other Dula fighters feel fear and doubts it’s okay to feel that way
and doubts it’s okay to feel that way
and doubts it’s okay to feel that way when I feel fear and doubt I train
when I feel fear and doubt I train
when I feel fear and doubt I train myself to control it the third and maybe
myself to control it the third and maybe
myself to control it the third and maybe the most important thing I did was
the most important thing I did was
the most important thing I did was accept myself as a sensitive guy I will
accept myself as a sensitive guy I will
accept myself as a sensitive guy I will always be when I feel pressure I’m not
always be when I feel pressure I’m not
always be when I feel pressure I’m not hard on myself and saying okay maybe
hard on myself and saying okay maybe
hard on myself and saying okay maybe today if a little weak it’s okay just do
today if a little weak it’s okay just do
today if a little weak it’s okay just do your best so I found out what makes me
your best so I found out what makes me
your best so I found out what makes me calm and then I realized that when I’m
calm and then I realized that when I’m
calm and then I realized that when I’m not nervous I can focus on winning
not nervous I can focus on winning
not nervous I can focus on winning that’s when something incredible
that’s when something incredible
that’s when something incredible happened I start winning more when I
happened I start winning more when I
happened I start winning more when I arrive to the Olympic Village in Rio I
arrive to the Olympic Village in Rio I
arrive to the Olympic Village in Rio I saw all the athletes look emotional and
saw all the athletes look emotional and
saw all the athletes look emotional and nervous you could see it in their faces
nervous you could see it in their faces
nervous you could see it in their faces but I felt completely present and come
but I felt completely present and come
but I felt completely present and come the 12th of August was a special day for
the 12th of August was a special day for
the 12th of August was a special day for me 8 o clock in the morning I woke up I
me 8 o clock in the morning I woke up I
me 8 o clock in the morning I woke up I went to the mirror and it almost of
went to the mirror and it almost of
went to the mirror and it almost of early today is your day today are going
early today is your day today are going
early today is your day today are going to give everything you have no matter
to give everything you have no matter
to give everything you have no matter what I wanted this matters so bad the
what I wanted this matters so bad the
what I wanted this matters so bad the bus arrived and remember the things I
bus arrived and remember the things I
bus arrived and remember the things I had when I was 10 on my way to Thurmond
had when I was 10 on my way to Thurmond
had when I was 10 on my way to Thurmond guess what same feelings were there what
guess what same feelings were there what
guess what same feelings were there what was different is that now I have the
was different is that now I have the
was different is that now I have the tools I have to manage those those
tools I have to manage those those
tools I have to manage those those feelings and focus on winning so in the
feelings and focus on winning so in the
feelings and focus on winning so in the competition and one three fights lost in
competition and one three fights lost in
competition and one three fights lost in the semi-final and then it was my last
the semi-final and then it was my last
the semi-final and then it was my last chance to bring an Olympic medal
chance to bring an Olympic medal
chance to bring an Olympic medal backstage I was looking at my Cuban
backstage I was looking at my Cuban
backstage I was looking at my Cuban opponent in the eyes and I felt like the
opponent in the eyes and I felt like the
opponent in the eyes and I felt like the entire country of Israel is on my
entire country of Israel is on my
entire country of Israel is on my shoulders but I also felt motivated
shoulders but I also felt motivated
shoulders but I also felt motivated because ten minutes from now and I can
because ten minutes from now and I can
because ten minutes from now and I can change my whole life I can be an Olympic
change my whole life I can be an Olympic
change my whole life I can be an Olympic medalist so as you all know it was a
medalist so as you all know it was a
medalist so as you all know it was a tough fight but I want the title and I
tough fight but I want the title and I
tough fight but I want the title and I was so happy I felt like in a dream
was so happy I felt like in a dream
was so happy I felt like in a dream look three years ago I was in a hospital
look three years ago I was in a hospital
look three years ago I was in a hospital in Rio with a broken hand now I’m the
in Rio with a broken hand now I’m the
in Rio with a broken hand now I’m the most happiest person also in Rio the
most happiest person also in Rio the
most happiest person also in Rio the first water said right after a match to
first water said right after a match to
first water said right after a match to the TV news well today I overcome all
the TV news well today I overcome all
the TV news well today I overcome all over my fears and doubts so we I am
over my fears and doubts so we I am
over my fears and doubts so we I am always a Sun I’m actually a big guy as
always a Sun I’m actually a big guy as
always a Sun I’m actually a big guy as you can see 193 centimeters tall 125
you can see 193 centimeters tall 125
you can see 193 centimeters tall 125 kilograms and now you know my Luke is
kilograms and now you know my Luke is
kilograms and now you know my Luke is not the homie I’m actually a sensitive
not the homie I’m actually a sensitive
not the homie I’m actually a sensitive person and I’m feeling a lot of strong
person and I’m feeling a lot of strong
person and I’m feeling a lot of strong emotions all the time but in my life I
emotions all the time but in my life I
emotions all the time but in my life I discover that if I connect to those
discover that if I connect to those
discover that if I connect to those emotions and embrace them I can be
emotions and embrace them I can be
emotions and embrace them I can be successful the world judo means the
successful the world judo means the
successful the world judo means the gentle way in Japanese this is my way
gentle way in Japanese this is my way
gentle way in Japanese this is my way and I hope you make it your way too
and I hope you make it your way too
and I hope you make it your way too thank you
thank you
thank you [Applause]
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