welcome everyone I feel like I need to have a whole general assembly here
have a whole general assembly here
have a whole general assembly here because we’ve got one wonderful woman
because we’ve got one wonderful woman
because we’ve got one wonderful woman and wonderful topics and I’m breathing
and wonderful topics and I’m breathing
and wonderful topics and I’m breathing and I’m not dead it’s fantastic so
and I’m not dead it’s fantastic so
and I’m not dead it’s fantastic so you’ve got little mirrors under your
you’ve got little mirrors under your
you’ve got little mirrors under your seats if you have a look I think their
seats if you have a look I think their
seats if you have a look I think their face down and then I do a little
face down and then I do a little
face down and then I do a little experiment okay there’s such pretty
experiment okay there’s such pretty
experiment okay there’s such pretty mirrors they remind me of Princess
mirrors they remind me of Princess
mirrors they remind me of Princess mirrors and not evil stepmother Prince
mirrors and not evil stepmother Prince
mirrors and not evil stepmother Prince it mirrors yeah we don’t like those okay
it mirrors yeah we don’t like those okay
it mirrors yeah we don’t like those okay Oh wonderful all right so we’re going to
Oh wonderful all right so we’re going to
Oh wonderful all right so we’re going to do a little experiment now most of us
do a little experiment now most of us
do a little experiment now most of us today came with beautiful here make up
today came with beautiful here make up
today came with beautiful here make up clothes i’m looking at a really gorgeous
clothes i’m looking at a really gorgeous
clothes i’m looking at a really gorgeous audience right now but let’s just
audience right now but let’s just
audience right now but let’s just pretend that we didn’t put any makeup on
pretend that we didn’t put any makeup on
pretend that we didn’t put any makeup on just pretend now we may have a look at
just pretend now we may have a look at
just pretend now we may have a look at this little mirror and it’s your friend
this little mirror and it’s your friend
this little mirror and it’s your friend but honestly look at it and tell me the
but honestly look at it and tell me the
but honestly look at it and tell me the first things that come to your mind okay
first things that come to your mind okay
first things that come to your mind okay we’re in a safe place for all ladies oh
we’re in a safe place for all ladies oh
we’re in a safe place for all ladies oh sorry I’m very sorry we’re not all
sorry I’m very sorry we’re not all
sorry I’m very sorry we’re not all ladies but we all love ladies
ladies but we all love ladies
ladies but we all love ladies oh I was blinded by the light sorry
oh I was blinded by the light sorry
oh I was blinded by the light sorry sorry okay but you can do this too it’ll
sorry okay but you can do this too it’ll
sorry okay but you can do this too it’ll be interesting okay so if you need to
be interesting okay so if you need to
be interesting okay so if you need to share please pass them around ok now we
share please pass them around ok now we
share please pass them around ok now we did this in another setting and based on
did this in another setting and based on
did this in another setting and based on research we know that when you look in
research we know that when you look in
research we know that when you look in the mirror it okay let’s be honest what
the mirror it okay let’s be honest what
the mirror it okay let’s be honest what do we see first generally the things we
do we see first generally the things we
do we see first generally the things we want to change all the things we have a
great grandfather and his nose that has
great grandfather and his nose that has come down through the generations you
come down through the generations you
come down through the generations you know we we see things that we’ve had to
know we we see things that we’ve had to
know we we see things that we’ve had to make peace with we see scars from
make peace with we see scars from
make peace with we see scars from accidents but we don’t see the beauty
accidents but we don’t see the beauty
accidents but we don’t see the beauty first eight out of ten women don’t see
first eight out of ten women don’t see
first eight out of ten women don’t see the beauty first and that makes me
the beauty first and that makes me
the beauty first and that makes me really angry I look quite kind right now
really angry I look quite kind right now
really angry I look quite kind right now honest because I’m nervous but actually
honest because I’m nervous but actually
honest because I’m nervous but actually deep inside I’m really angry and I’ll
deep inside I’m really angry and I’ll
deep inside I’m really angry and I’ll get some of that soon and it’s this
get some of that soon and it’s this
get some of that soon and it’s this whole sense of why when women have
whole sense of why when women have
whole sense of why when women have accomplished so much in education in
accomplished so much in education in
accomplished so much in education in science and social justice is this still
science and social justice is this still
science and social justice is this still the measuring stick because it is we
the measuring stick because it is we
the measuring stick because it is we can’t get away from it so let me give
can’t get away from it so let me give
can’t get away from it so let me give you some stats just to prove my
you some stats just to prove my
you some stats just to prove my credibility alright so the first set i
credibility alright so the first set i
credibility alright so the first set i just mentioned eight out of ten of every
just mentioned eight out of ten of every
just mentioned eight out of ten of every woman on happy with their appearance
woman on happy with their appearance
woman on happy with their appearance okay that was taken in 2016 so these are
okay that was taken in 2016 so these are
okay that was taken in 2016 so these are quite new next time on average women
quite new next time on average women
quite new next time on average women spend more on beauty than on education
spend more on beauty than on education
spend more on beauty than on education wow I mean that got my attention okay
wow I mean that got my attention okay
wow I mean that got my attention okay supermodel suffer with substance abuse
supermodel suffer with substance abuse
supermodel suffer with substance abuse addictions and low self-esteem more than
addictions and low self-esteem more than
addictions and low self-esteem more than their peers who aren’t on the rent geeky
their peers who aren’t on the rent geeky
their peers who aren’t on the rent geeky Heidi did you guys see this engine
Heidi did you guys see this engine
Heidi did you guys see this engine and knees were removed recently just
and knees were removed recently just
and knees were removed recently just just removed no trauma was just a post
just removed no trauma was just a post
just removed no trauma was just a post photoshopping accident and it was
photoshopping accident and it was
photoshopping accident and it was showing how far Photoshop has gone in
showing how far Photoshop has gone in
showing how far Photoshop has gone in distorting reality okay woman’s
distorting reality okay woman’s
distorting reality okay woman’s conversation center on appearance weight
conversation center on appearance weight
conversation center on appearance weight loss and desirability even when they’re
loss and desirability even when they’re
loss and desirability even when they’re 80 okay I mean gosh I think something
80 okay I mean gosh I think something
80 okay I mean gosh I think something should change but at that age it’s still
should change but at that age it’s still
should change but at that age it’s still coming up okay retama villages can be
coming up okay retama villages can be
coming up okay retama villages can be scary all right and the next one the
scary all right and the next one the
scary all right and the next one the Cuba mass media phenomenon all right now
Cuba mass media phenomenon all right now
Cuba mass media phenomenon all right now I didn’t know this and i falled to
I didn’t know this and i falled to
I didn’t know this and i falled to ignorance because i thought i read the
ignorance because i thought i read the
ignorance because i thought i read the newspaper but apparently cuba doesn’t
newspaper but apparently cuba doesn’t
newspaper but apparently cuba doesn’t allow mass media in their in their
allow mass media in their in their
allow mass media in their in their country which on the one side is
country which on the one side is
country which on the one side is obviously not highly positive because
obviously not highly positive because
obviously not highly positive because you’re breaking your connection from the
you’re breaking your connection from the
you’re breaking your connection from the global world from conversations that are
global world from conversations that are
global world from conversations that are happening interestingly enough women in
happening interestingly enough women in
happening interestingly enough women in their country what is their self-worth
their country what is their self-worth
their country what is their self-worth like very high they are powerful women
like very high they are powerful women
like very high they are powerful women they start businesses their run
they start businesses their run
they start businesses their run companies they raise children and they
companies they raise children and they
companies they raise children and they do that without the constant pressure of
do that without the constant pressure of
do that without the constant pressure of measuring up to an image that they keep
measuring up to an image that they keep
measuring up to an image that they keep seeing and I found that interesting all
seeing and I found that interesting all
seeing and I found that interesting all right so let’s have a look at the
right so let’s have a look at the
right so let’s have a look at the dictionary this is another very
dictionary this is another very
dictionary this is another very interesting thing so can you see the to
interesting thing so can you see the to
interesting thing so can you see the to date differences there it is 1924 on
date differences there it is 1924 on
date differences there it is 1924 on this 2016 my max is rather bad but I
this 2016 my max is rather bad but I
this 2016 my max is rather bad but I know that’s just under a hundred years
know that’s just under a hundred years
know that’s just under a hundred years right it’s like 90-something anyone got
right it’s like 90-something anyone got
right it’s like 90-something anyone got good maths okay so that’s close to a
good maths okay so that’s close to a
good maths okay so that’s close to a century changes the taken place in
century changes the taken place in
century changes the taken place in society and our thinking look at the
society and our thinking look at the
society and our thinking look at the definition so beauties are combinational
definition so beauties are combinational
definition so beauties are combinational qualities that delight the senses of the
qualities that delight the senses of the
qualities that delight the senses of the person or thing possessing this
person or thing possessing this
person or thing possessing this interesting first delights the possessor
interesting first delights the possessor
interesting first delights the possessor 2016 beauty is pleasing to the sense or
2016 beauty is pleasing to the sense or
2016 beauty is pleasing to the sense or mind aesthetically that implies
mind aesthetically that implies
mind aesthetically that implies excellence finest blessedness so to be
excellence finest blessedness so to be
excellence finest blessedness so to be beautiful is to be beautiful which means
beautiful is to be beautiful which means
beautiful is to be beautiful which means to be blessed if you look at those two
to be blessed if you look at those two
to be blessed if you look at those two definitions there’s a common truth that
definitions there’s a common truth that
definitions there’s a common truth that comes out at least to me
comes out at least to me
comes out at least to me that it’s a combination of qualities
that it’s a combination of qualities
that it’s a combination of qualities that delight or please combination of
that delight or please combination of
that delight or please combination of qualities okay so he has my little
qualities okay so he has my little
qualities okay so he has my little childhood picture and don’t life of it
childhood picture and don’t life of it
childhood picture and don’t life of it because you know I’m being vulnerable
because you know I’m being vulnerable
because you know I’m being vulnerable here so there is me when I was very
here so there is me when I was very
here so there is me when I was very small that does not mean the 22 because
small that does not mean the 22 because
small that does not mean the 22 because I did ballet for about three months and
I did ballet for about three months and
I did ballet for about three months and my parents could not find a photo and me
my parents could not find a photo and me
my parents could not find a photo and me and the 22 at the same time the camera
and the 22 at the same time the camera
and the 22 at the same time the camera and the tutor didn’t go together now
and the tutor didn’t go together now
and the tutor didn’t go together now when I was growing up and this is the
when I was growing up and this is the
when I was growing up and this is the reason why I’m so passionate about this
reason why I’m so passionate about this
reason why I’m so passionate about this it’s because it really really hurt me
it’s because it really really hurt me
it’s because it really really hurt me often we passionate about the things
often we passionate about the things
often we passionate about the things where there’s been pain and we’ve had to
where there’s been pain and we’ve had to
where there’s been pain and we’ve had to work through those and I just I loved
work through those and I just I loved
work through those and I just I loved ballet but I had terrible balance so i
ballet but I had terrible balance so i
ballet but I had terrible balance so i couldn’t even be the tree in the
couldn’t even be the tree in the
couldn’t even be the tree in the pantomime you know so the tree must just
pantomime you know so the tree must just
pantomime you know so the tree must just like stand i would kind of be the
like stand i would kind of be the
like stand i would kind of be the leeming tree and then sort of come back
leeming tree and then sort of come back
leeming tree and then sort of come back to you know waiver the position was and
to you know waiver the position was and
to you know waiver the position was and other little girls in the ballet class
other little girls in the ballet class
other little girls in the ballet class were beautiful they had those little
were beautiful they had those little
were beautiful they had those little bands you know certain here can go into
bands you know certain here can go into
bands you know certain here can go into abandoned certain here can’t some way he
abandoned certain here can’t some way he
abandoned certain here can’t some way he would never go into a bun I couldn’t be
would never go into a bun I couldn’t be
would never go into a bun I couldn’t be a tree and when I came home and did my
a tree and when I came home and did my
a tree and when I came home and did my law whatever it was for my dad to watch
law whatever it was for my dad to watch
law whatever it was for my dad to watch he was reading the newspaper and I asked
he was reading the newspaper and I asked
he was reading the newspaper and I asked him daddy daddy watch me you know I was
him daddy daddy watch me you know I was
him daddy daddy watch me you know I was obviously just think very important you
obviously just think very important you
obviously just think very important you know and he didn’t and when I was
know and he didn’t and when I was
know and he didn’t and when I was finished in my little pantomime waiting
finished in my little pantomime waiting
finished in my little pantomime waiting for some kind of you know I don’t know
for some kind of you know I don’t know
for some kind of you know I don’t know yeah look that was nice you know I don’t
yeah look that was nice you know I don’t
yeah look that was nice you know I don’t know something my dad said to me go and
know something my dad said to me go and
know something my dad said to me go and change into your play clothes loves life
change into your play clothes loves life
change into your play clothes loves life but these are what paper so it was this
but these are what paper so it was this
but these are what paper so it was this whole message okay no that’s not for you
whole message okay no that’s not for you
whole message okay no that’s not for you la vie that’s really not for you in fact
la vie that’s really not for you in fact
la vie that’s really not for you in fact no lovey just that’s not for you and
no lovey just that’s not for you and
no lovey just that’s not for you and over the years this constant battle got
over the years this constant battle got
over the years this constant battle got reinforced so my sister was the pretty
reinforced so my sister was the pretty
reinforced so my sister was the pretty one I was a clever one okay i think the
one I was a clever one okay i think the
one I was a clever one okay i think the roles are reversed now but that’s how it
roles are reversed now but that’s how it
roles are reversed now but that’s how it was then and the irony is that we look
was then and the irony is that we look
was then and the irony is that we look almost identical
almost identical
almost identical so you look at pictures off as you like
so you look at pictures off as you like
so you look at pictures off as you like how could they have said that and then
how could they have said that and then
how could they have said that and then teachers cottoned on and they would
teachers cottoned on and they would
teachers cottoned on and they would always talk about me being studious and
always talk about me being studious and
always talk about me being studious and hardworking but I was never pretty and I
hardworking but I was never pretty and I
hardworking but I was never pretty and I was never captivating and it was
was never captivating and it was
was never captivating and it was something that just got spoken over me I
something that just got spoken over me I
something that just got spoken over me I didn’t even question it I was like oh
didn’t even question it I was like oh
didn’t even question it I was like oh well that’s it then at the age of four I
well that’s it then at the age of four I
well that’s it then at the age of four I was a deep child I used to think about
was a deep child I used to think about
was a deep child I used to think about everything very deeply I fell in love
everything very deeply I fell in love
everything very deeply I fell in love with Japanese ladies and storybooks okay
with Japanese ladies and storybooks okay
with Japanese ladies and storybooks okay I wanted to be a Japanese princess with
I wanted to be a Japanese princess with
I wanted to be a Japanese princess with the is it a kimono always want to call
the is it a kimono always want to call
the is it a kimono always want to call it a Kawasaki or I give the name wrong
it a Kawasaki or I give the name wrong
it a Kawasaki or I give the name wrong but you know that long lovely ok and
but you know that long lovely ok and
but you know that long lovely ok and then thank you and and their way they
then thank you and and their way they
then thank you and and their way they put their ear and those lovely pins and
put their ear and those lovely pins and
put their ear and those lovely pins and it was just these beautiful woman that
it was just these beautiful woman that
it was just these beautiful woman that looked like princesses and fairy tales
looked like princesses and fairy tales
looked like princesses and fairy tales and that’s what I wanted to be okay i
and that’s what I wanted to be okay i
and that’s what I wanted to be okay i mean i was a early developer but in my
mean i was a early developer but in my
mean i was a early developer but in my brain that’s what I wants to be an
brain that’s what I wants to be an
brain that’s what I wants to be an informed this ideal so all-fire goes to
informed this ideal so all-fire goes to
informed this ideal so all-fire goes to sorry wrong side off I go to Korea 20
sorry wrong side off I go to Korea 20
sorry wrong side off I go to Korea 20 years later all the robots I’m not going
years later all the robots I’m not going
years later all the robots I’m not going to give my edge away and I’m meet katie
to give my edge away and I’m meet katie
to give my edge away and I’m meet katie and katie lee looks just like that lady
and katie lee looks just like that lady
and katie lee looks just like that lady okay so for the first one minute i can’t
okay so for the first one minute i can’t
okay so for the first one minute i can’t speak and I’m like I’m just you know
speak and I’m like I’m just you know
speak and I’m like I’m just you know enjoying her and then I realized she
enjoying her and then I realized she
enjoying her and then I realized she actually wants to have a conversation
actually wants to have a conversation
actually wants to have a conversation with me and then she wants to be my
with me and then she wants to be my
with me and then she wants to be my friend I mean he’s older shocking you
friend I mean he’s older shocking you
friend I mean he’s older shocking you know revelations really like my ideal
know revelations really like my ideal
know revelations really like my ideal wants to talk to me that wants to be my
wants to talk to me that wants to be my
wants to talk to me that wants to be my friend and six months later I’m sitting
friend and six months later I’m sitting
friend and six months later I’m sitting in a coffee shop and the Koreans work
in a coffee shop and the Koreans work
in a coffee shop and the Koreans work really hard I worked three jobs so to
really hard I worked three jobs so to
really hard I worked three jobs so to have coffee with the Korean as lack it’s
have coffee with the Korean as lack it’s
have coffee with the Korean as lack it’s a miracle so I’m sitting there and katie
a miracle so I’m sitting there and katie
a miracle so I’m sitting there and katie says to me do you know that when I met
says to me do you know that when I met
says to me do you know that when I met you I was very shy and scared and I said
you I was very shy and scared and I said
you I was very shy and scared and I said oh why was i’m waiting for the hmm
oh why was i’m waiting for the hmm
oh why was i’m waiting for the hmm something durable it’s gonna be revealed
something durable it’s gonna be revealed
something durable it’s gonna be revealed she said because you are so beautiful I
she said because you are so beautiful I
she said because you are so beautiful I didn’t know how to speak to you what are
didn’t know how to speak to you what are
didn’t know how to speak to you what are you doing that moment
you doing that moment
you doing that moment so our prompt you start crying wonderful
so our prompt you start crying wonderful
so our prompt you start crying wonderful Korean coffee shop you know white
Korean coffee shop you know white
Korean coffee shop you know white english teacher crying and tell who but
english teacher crying and tell who but
english teacher crying and tell who but the same thing happened to me you are my
the same thing happened to me you are my
the same thing happened to me you are my ideal so we both China cry and Pat each
ideal so we both China cry and Pat each
ideal so we both China cry and Pat each other on the back and say how did this
other on the back and say how did this
other on the back and say how did this happen you know and that just made me
happen you know and that just made me
happen you know and that just made me realize like that thing that concept of
realize like that thing that concept of
realize like that thing that concept of beauty is formed over time so in a
beauty is formed over time so in a
beauty is formed over time so in a single instance where you given truth
single instance where you given truth
single instance where you given truth and you go oh that’s beauty it’s a
and you go oh that’s beauty it’s a
and you go oh that’s beauty it’s a series of events in your life that form
series of events in your life that form
series of events in your life that form the mirror inside not the mirror on the
the mirror inside not the mirror on the
the mirror inside not the mirror on the outside okay I was really deep thank you
outside okay I was really deep thank you
outside okay I was really deep thank you for listening alright so the qualities
for listening alright so the qualities
for listening alright so the qualities of beauties then I had to get to this
of beauties then I had to get to this
of beauties then I had to get to this place I wind why is this so important
place I wind why is this so important
place I wind why is this so important okay so I did work very hard at school I
okay so I did work very hard at school I
okay so I did work very hard at school I even did offer constipating that tells
even did offer constipating that tells
even did offer constipating that tells you something don’t do it anymore and
you something don’t do it anymore and
you something don’t do it anymore and and yeah I did everything I could so I
and yeah I did everything I could so I
and yeah I did everything I could so I basically decided I’m not pretty but I’m
basically decided I’m not pretty but I’m
basically decided I’m not pretty but I’m going to be clever I’m going to be
going to be clever I’m going to be
going to be clever I’m going to be strong okay so a granny did mistake me
strong okay so a granny did mistake me
strong okay so a granny did mistake me for a boy when I was about 16 which
for a boy when I was about 16 which
for a boy when I was about 16 which tells you how much time I spent in the
tells you how much time I spent in the
tells you how much time I spent in the gym beautiful beautiful wonderful at a
gym beautiful beautiful wonderful at a
gym beautiful beautiful wonderful at a wonderful adolescence and treatment for
wonderful adolescence and treatment for
wonderful adolescence and treatment for that so we went through this whole
that so we went through this whole
that so we went through this whole process of not been able to get rid of
process of not been able to get rid of
process of not been able to get rid of the beauty thing and I figured out years
the beauty thing and I figured out years
the beauty thing and I figured out years later wine this is why look at this that
later wine this is why look at this that
later wine this is why look at this that is a human heart please still enjoy your
is a human heart please still enjoy your
is a human heart please still enjoy your lunch so beauty is essential to life
lunch so beauty is essential to life
lunch so beauty is essential to life nature is primarily beautiful not
nature is primarily beautiful not
nature is primarily beautiful not primarily functional if it was primarily
primarily functional if it was primarily
primarily functional if it was primarily functional a waterfall would just be a
functional a waterfall would just be a
functional a waterfall would just be a spout that like went from some way into
spout that like went from some way into
spout that like went from some way into a hole in the ground everything is
a hole in the ground everything is
a hole in the ground everything is designed with the intention to be
designed with the intention to be
designed with the intention to be beautiful so administers to us Beauty
beautiful so administers to us Beauty
beautiful so administers to us Beauty heels soldiers in World War 1 in World
heels soldiers in World War 1 in World
heels soldiers in World War 1 in World War two when they went through all those
War two when they went through all those
War two when they went through all those terrible things they didn’t the doctors
terrible things they didn’t the doctors
terrible things they didn’t the doctors don’t know how to fix them because of
don’t know how to fix them because of
don’t know how to fix them because of all of the
all of the
all of the weapons they used to take him out to the
weapons they used to take him out to the
weapons they used to take him out to the countryside to a beautiful house with
countryside to a beautiful house with
countryside to a beautiful house with water and plants and they would heal
water and plants and they would heal
water and plants and they would heal their they wouldn’t heal in hospital but
their they wouldn’t heal in hospital but
their they wouldn’t heal in hospital but the finest doctors and the finest
the finest doctors and the finest
the finest doctors and the finest medicine available Beauty opens hearts
medicine available Beauty opens hearts
medicine available Beauty opens hearts when you have had a really bad day and
when you have had a really bad day and
when you have had a really bad day and you get home and you can just sit in
you get home and you can just sit in
you get home and you can just sit in your God and I hope you all have a
your God and I hope you all have a
your God and I hope you all have a garden or dis the pot plant or something
garden or dis the pot plant or something
garden or dis the pot plant or something and you get out of that space can you
and you get out of that space can you
and you get out of that space can you feel something happens inside well you
feel something happens inside well you
feel something happens inside well you shouldn’t do that in your in your heart
shouldn’t do that in your in your heart
shouldn’t do that in your in your heart there’s an opening and there’s a
there’s an opening and there’s a
there’s an opening and there’s a restoration of that phrase all is well
restoration of that phrase all is well
restoration of that phrase all is well with the world when you in I call it
with the world when you in I call it
with the world when you in I call it God’s picnic and nature’s all around you
God’s picnic and nature’s all around you
God’s picnic and nature’s all around you somehow something is restored no I
somehow something is restored no I
somehow something is restored no I needed to say anything i needed to
needed to say anything i needed to
needed to say anything i needed to cancel you maybe your bank balance still
cancel you maybe your bank balance still
cancel you maybe your bank balance still what it is but peace has been restored
what it is but peace has been restored
what it is but peace has been restored bc gives life beauty comforts we send
bc gives life beauty comforts we send
bc gives life beauty comforts we send flowers to people in morning why do we
flowers to people in morning why do we
flowers to people in morning why do we do that they’ve just lost one of the
do that they’ve just lost one of the
do that they’ve just lost one of the most important people in their lives but
most important people in their lives but
most important people in their lives but we send them flowers okay so my old
we send them flowers okay so my old
we send them flowers okay so my old Atticus challenge so very real quickly
Atticus challenge so very real quickly
Atticus challenge so very real quickly the reason why beauty became such a big
the reason why beauty became such a big
the reason why beauty became such a big thing for me was because in 2007 I
thing for me was because in 2007 I
thing for me was because in 2007 I developed an autoimmune disorder and my
developed an autoimmune disorder and my
developed an autoimmune disorder and my organ started shutting down so just
organ started shutting down so just
organ started shutting down so just first my liver then it was my hot
first my liver then it was my hot
first my liver then it was my hot cartilage then it was my Harper hydro
cartilage then it was my Harper hydro
cartilage then it was my Harper hydro system so i couldn’t keep water in and
system so i couldn’t keep water in and
system so i couldn’t keep water in and then my hair fell out and they didn’t
then my hair fell out and they didn’t
then my hair fell out and they didn’t know if I had cancer if yeah I was
know if I had cancer if yeah I was
know if I had cancer if yeah I was basically an experiment I went from one
basically an experiment I went from one
basically an experiment I went from one specialist to another and I developed an
specialist to another and I developed an
specialist to another and I developed an allergy to make up I mean can you
allergy to make up I mean can you
allergy to make up I mean can you mentioned I’m battling this okay and I
mentioned I’m battling this okay and I
mentioned I’m battling this okay and I also can’t wear makeup so hilarious
also can’t wear makeup so hilarious
also can’t wear makeup so hilarious berlioz I can lawful it now not then and
berlioz I can lawful it now not then and
berlioz I can lawful it now not then and so I had to spend a year on experimental
so I had to spend a year on experimental
so I had to spend a year on experimental treatment not knowing if I was going to
treatment not knowing if I was going to
treatment not knowing if I was going to make it or not and not able to wear
make it or not and not able to wear
make it or not and not able to wear makeup and that was the first time I
makeup and that was the first time I
makeup and that was the first time I looked in the mirror and saw me because
looked in the mirror and saw me because
looked in the mirror and saw me because now I didn’t have
now I didn’t have
now I didn’t have all the things that I was putting on and
all the things that I was putting on and
all the things that I was putting on and that process of seeing me started a
that process of seeing me started a
that process of seeing me started a shift in my mind and I started first of
shift in my mind and I started first of
shift in my mind and I started first of all to like me because I got to know me
all to like me because I got to know me
all to like me because I got to know me in the mirror interesting then I started
in the mirror interesting then I started
in the mirror interesting then I started to notice the texture of my skin
to notice the texture of my skin
to notice the texture of my skin improving over the months because
improving over the months because
improving over the months because obviously with jaundice I looked like I
obviously with jaundice I looked like I
obviously with jaundice I looked like I was Chinese without the eyes you know so
was Chinese without the eyes you know so
was Chinese without the eyes you know so I mean it was just yellow every way so
I mean it was just yellow every way so
I mean it was just yellow every way so sense of humor helps but so the the
sense of humor helps but so the the
sense of humor helps but so the the whole issue there was I looked sick and
whole issue there was I looked sick and
whole issue there was I looked sick and as I became healthier my skin solid to
as I became healthier my skin solid to
as I became healthier my skin solid to heal and then I developed this amazing
heal and then I developed this amazing
heal and then I developed this amazing just a realization that those things
just a realization that those things
just a realization that those things hadn’t happened in child mulaqat this
hadn’t happened in child mulaqat this
hadn’t happened in child mulaqat this amazing quota so Margot me she writes
amazing quota so Margot me she writes
amazing quota so Margot me she writes for The Hunger studies have shown a
for The Hunger studies have shown a
for The Hunger studies have shown a woman who enjoyed close and loving
woman who enjoyed close and loving
woman who enjoyed close and loving relationships with their fathers which
relationships with their fathers which
relationships with their fathers which includes assurance enjoyment approval
includes assurance enjoyment approval
includes assurance enjoyment approval and childhood even if they are faking
and childhood even if they are faking
and childhood even if they are faking that you can dance suffer less from
that you can dance suffer less from
that you can dance suffer less from eating disorders depression and
eating disorders depression and
eating disorders depression and developed a strong sense of personal
developed a strong sense of personal
developed a strong sense of personal identity in positive self-esteem okay so
identity in positive self-esteem okay so
identity in positive self-esteem okay so the good news is that if you didn’t have
the good news is that if you didn’t have
the good news is that if you didn’t have a dad like that there still hope but we
a dad like that there still hope but we
a dad like that there still hope but we need to understand the link when it
need to understand the link when it
need to understand the link when it didn’t happen when you were growing up
didn’t happen when you were growing up
didn’t happen when you were growing up what happened in your psychology so and
what happened in your psychology so and
what happened in your psychology so and my life’s passion after I didn’t die i
my life’s passion after I didn’t die i
my life’s passion after I didn’t die i decidedly was very happy about being
decidedly was very happy about being
decidedly was very happy about being alive and I then decided that I wanted
alive and I then decided that I wanted
alive and I then decided that I wanted to help everyone else stay and be alive
to help everyone else stay and be alive
to help everyone else stay and be alive because it was like can you imagine you
because it was like can you imagine you
because it was like can you imagine you know everything in use change so I study
know everything in use change so I study
know everything in use change so I study clinical nutrition herbology exercise
clinical nutrition herbology exercise
clinical nutrition herbology exercise science okay overachiever gain but now I
science okay overachiever gain but now I
science okay overachiever gain but now I had something good to put it into and I
had something good to put it into and I
had something good to put it into and I started studying the skin and I really
started studying the skin and I really
started studying the skin and I really approached beauty as a scientist first
approached beauty as a scientist first
approached beauty as a scientist first so how can we get a skin to be beautiful
so how can we get a skin to be beautiful
so how can we get a skin to be beautiful because I used to love meeting the woman
because I used to love meeting the woman
because I used to love meeting the woman that weren’t wearing makeup but their
that weren’t wearing makeup but their
that weren’t wearing makeup but their skin was beautiful i just noticed things
skin was beautiful i just noticed things
skin was beautiful i just noticed things the color the tone the light in their
the color the tone the light in their
the color the tone the light in their eyes the brightness the
eyes the brightness the
eyes the brightness the but the character coming through and
but the character coming through and
but the character coming through and what I saw wasn’t facing the the beauty
what I saw wasn’t facing the the beauty
what I saw wasn’t facing the the beauty issue and the only way that I faced that
issue and the only way that I faced that
issue and the only way that I faced that was through other people because you
was through other people because you
was through other people because you cannot be beautiful in isolation so I
cannot be beautiful in isolation so I
cannot be beautiful in isolation so I had these clients who were very
had these clients who were very
had these clients who were very irritating and they would constantly ask
irritating and they would constantly ask
irritating and they would constantly ask me about how come your skin is so
me about how come your skin is so
me about how come your skin is so beautiful and I sets them no it’s not
beautiful and I sets them no it’s not
beautiful and I sets them no it’s not that it’s beautiful it’s very healthy
that it’s beautiful it’s very healthy
that it’s beautiful it’s very healthy and I can explain to you exactly why
and I can explain to you exactly why
and I can explain to you exactly why okay so i’ll put on the British teaching
okay so i’ll put on the British teaching
okay so i’ll put on the British teaching accent but that’s you know I didn’t want
accent but that’s you know I didn’t want
accent but that’s you know I didn’t want to talk about beauty I talked about
to talk about beauty I talked about
to talk about beauty I talked about antioxidants and phytochemicals the
antioxidants and phytochemicals the
antioxidants and phytochemicals the epidermal layer how to clear okay so I
epidermal layer how to clear okay so I
epidermal layer how to clear okay so I had that conversation but they wouldn’t
had that conversation but they wouldn’t
had that conversation but they wouldn’t let up they kept I’d meet strangers on
let up they kept I’d meet strangers on
let up they kept I’d meet strangers on the street that would pass me and say
the street that would pass me and say
the street that would pass me and say wow imagine feel beautiful okay I can’t
wow imagine feel beautiful okay I can’t
wow imagine feel beautiful okay I can’t do that X improperly but just complete
do that X improperly but just complete
do that X improperly but just complete strangers telling me that I’m beautiful
strangers telling me that I’m beautiful
strangers telling me that I’m beautiful and pushing this this message through
and pushing this this message through
and pushing this this message through that I wouldn’t get eventually I got it
that I wouldn’t get eventually I got it
that I wouldn’t get eventually I got it and I realized that the mirror inside
and I realized that the mirror inside
and I realized that the mirror inside had been healing all this time even
had been healing all this time even
had been healing all this time even though I hadn’t spoken about it I hadn’t
though I hadn’t spoken about it I hadn’t
though I hadn’t spoken about it I hadn’t seen it as a because my soul and my
seen it as a because my soul and my
seen it as a because my soul and my spirits had been healing as I began to
spirits had been healing as I began to
spirits had been healing as I began to heal and so all of the false mirrors had
heal and so all of the false mirrors had
heal and so all of the false mirrors had also started changing just like the work
also started changing just like the work
also started changing just like the work being done backstage and I didn’t know
being done backstage and I didn’t know
being done backstage and I didn’t know but it was being done and isn’t that
but it was being done and isn’t that
but it was being done and isn’t that lovely I thank the lord for good
lovely I thank the lord for good
lovely I thank the lord for good designer so there is the shattered image
designer so there is the shattered image
designer so there is the shattered image it’s sort of blurred you can’t see it
it’s sort of blurred you can’t see it
it’s sort of blurred you can’t see it and there’s restoration of the broken
and there’s restoration of the broken
and there’s restoration of the broken image it’s a miracle that I can look at
image it’s a miracle that I can look at
image it’s a miracle that I can look at that and not like run away screaming and
that and not like run away screaming and
that and not like run away screaming and that I think is a story for all of us
that I think is a story for all of us
that I think is a story for all of us beauty is in order to do it’s not an
beauty is in order to do it’s not an
beauty is in order to do it’s not an add-on it is laughing with a friend it’s
add-on it is laughing with a friend it’s
add-on it is laughing with a friend it’s high tea in the garden it is part of us
high tea in the garden it is part of us
high tea in the garden it is part of us and as a gift already given to you that
and as a gift already given to you that
and as a gift already given to you that you get to experience for the rest of
you get to experience for the rest of
you get to experience for the rest of your life I removed my mosque i
your life I removed my mosque i
your life I removed my mosque i renounced my agreements are fine
renounced my agreements are fine
renounced my agreements are fine tears are grieved I forgave I reshare
tears are grieved I forgave I reshare
tears are grieved I forgave I reshare beauty I wrote the answers I needed to
beauty I wrote the answers I needed to
beauty I wrote the answers I needed to hear ask God to give them to me my take
hear ask God to give them to me my take
hear ask God to give them to me my take home is delight in one of your features
home is delight in one of your features
home is delight in one of your features each day for 7 to 21 days with Beauty
each day for 7 to 21 days with Beauty
each day for 7 to 21 days with Beauty purpose thank you so much
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