I never planned to be a professional skeptic
and I never planned to be a mother.
Most of the things I planned did not happen.
And the things that happened I had not planned.
When I started skateboarding, I was one of the only girls on the track,
in the championships, and everywhere I went.
So I had no reference.
I was the only girl, and this bunch of boys,
everything great: it was all a child at the time, now everyone has grown.
One is world champion, the other is Brazilian champion.
Everyone is walking a lot.
But I had no reference.
And, more than that, people were looking at me,
blonde, little girl, and they said:
“Do you skateboard? This is a boy thing.
You do not skate. “
“It’s a boy thing, but I walk, yes. I’m going to walk.”
And then I never gave up, because that’s what I wanted,
The thing I liked the most was skateboarding.
I kept walking
and today I am four-time world champion in vertical skateboarding,
I was the first gold of the Brazilian X Games.
Then there were other girls who won that title too,
but I, in 2006, opened that door.
And I think I proved that it was possible, yes,
be a girl and skateboard.
There, after much glory, many championships,
I spent a phase where I ended up going to the other extreme,
of party, drink,
and I had to have this opposite to be able to find balance,
find my middle ground,
that would not be super-restricted, super-responsible, waking up early,
take protein, eat right.
So it was a phase where I stuck my foot in the same jackfruit,
to be a skeleton with a little more lightness.
And when it was all right, I met this beautiful picture,
who is my husband, I do not know if you know,
he is the lead singer of the band Fresno, Lucas,
and we had not planned, but I got pregnant from Sky.
And motherhood, to me, was childbirth.
I knew I wanted to have a humanized birth.
And I did, but I did not know anything about babies.
I read all the books on childbirth, the baby was born, I picked it up and said:
“And now, what do I do with it?
Because I did not read anything, I did not see anything about it.
I do not know what to do”.
In my head, with two weeks I was going to put Sky in a little corner,
I was going to go skateboarding, and she was going to applaud me:
“Go, Mom, make a maneuver! Cool!”
Obviously this never happened.
I thought that with two, three months, I would be back with my body,
because, after all, I had had a normal birth
and normal childbirth you return super-fast with the body, right?
After six months, every time I went up a ladder
I remembered that moment when she went tearing
for my “xexeca”.
(Laughs)
Seriously, it took about seven months before I stopped feeling pain
to climb ladder, to walk, to contract the perineum.
It took too long.
And then, people doubted, because I was a skeptic:
how could I be a good mother.
And then we adopted the whole package hippie cirandeira of the maternity:
(Laughs)
“sling de frô”, the child naked in Vila Madalena at Carnival,
free demand, shared bed, BLW, everything you can imagine:
I said yes.
It made me very tired.
Tired on a level that no international championship,
no world, had left me before.
You can not put it on the same scale.
Every day when I wake up, I would like it, along with my coffee
and my scrambled eggs, have a trophy for me:
“You suck, congratulations for one more night,”
to put next to my collection of skateboard trophies.
This never happened.
I wake up, I spend a makeup
my husband looks at me and says, “So, how was the night?
I think it’s okay. “
“No, it’s not okay.I’m pretty because I passed 1kg of base,
but I’m finished, you can not imagine how I’m finished. “
And sometimes I ask myself, “How am I standing?
Where am I taking this strength from? “
I do not know.
And who’s mother here can see what I’m talking about.
That we take strength I do not know from where.
I ask myself, “How am I standing? I was not supposed to be standing.”
What happened to me last night, in the last days:
the child with fever, in the teat all day.
I do not know how I can, but we can.
And it’s not because we get it, it’s easy.
Because it’s not easy.
And I am a professional athlete of high level,
so I’ve been through many challenges,
I’ve been through many achievements,
I do not do soft body.
Because for us to achieve high yield,
It is an effort and no molezinha.
And within all that I have ever done, I say to you:
It’s not easy, but it’s posssible.
With a lot of help, with a support network,
with a husband, a wife, a father, a grandfather
that does the part of it, everything becomes much easier.
And then, we decided to deconstruct the maternity.
And now we let Sky cry.
And now we give Chicken Little Pig to her at lunchtime,
because I want to eat too.
But it is not always, only sometimes.
And that’s fine.
And one thing I learned as an athlete
is that the podium is a place where you climb for 30 seconds
and then you descend.
And what’s left? The rest of your life.
So for you to make those 30 seconds worth it,
You have to have enjoyed the rest of your life.
And today I relate this to my motherhood.
Every cry, every fever, every time I’m angry with Sky,
I try to take advantage of that,
because if I stay focused the moment she starts walking, talking,
that she’s skateboarding with me
and become a human being who communicates and fulfills my expectations,
this moment will never come.
Then, when you see, life has passed,
and you did not print deeply
none of those subtle moments that passed,
whose collection is the experience of being a mother.
They doubted that I could be a professional skeptic for being a girl,
and I did it.
They doubted I could be a good mother, because I’m a professional skeptic,
and I got it too.
And now I think the big challenge is to be a mother
and athlete, professional skeptic at the same time,
being the mother my daughter deserves
and continue to seek to be a person,
with and without my daughter,
and reference to other girls.
Just as I was the first of my generation
who planted a plot of land, a seed,
and showed that it was possible, yes, to be a professional skeptic,
I think I’m already building this path
to be an athlete and to remain myself
and Sky’s mother.
It is.
(Applause)
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