so I’m on tour across the u.s. leading my workshops even on the road I live
my workshops even on the road I live
my workshops even on the road I live pretty healthy keeping up with my
pretty healthy keeping up with my
pretty healthy keeping up with my supplements hotel room workouts fruits
supplements hotel room workouts fruits
supplements hotel room workouts fruits and veggies and I still indulge once in
and veggies and I still indulge once in
and veggies and I still indulge once in a while in one of the cities just a few
a while in one of the cities just a few
a while in one of the cities just a few blocks from my hotel was a local donut
blocks from my hotel was a local donut
blocks from my hotel was a local donut shop famous for their Donuts splurging
shop famous for their Donuts splurging
shop famous for their Donuts splurging once in a while won’t kill you right I
once in a while won’t kill you right I
once in a while won’t kill you right I swing open their door practically
swing open their door practically
swing open their door practically running up to the glass case Anthony the
running up to the glass case Anthony the
running up to the glass case Anthony the guy behind the counter who’s way cooler
guy behind the counter who’s way cooler
guy behind the counter who’s way cooler than me kinda like their hipster berry
than me kinda like their hipster berry
than me kinda like their hipster berry vegan donut happily answers all of my
vegan donut happily answers all of my
vegan donut happily answers all of my ridiculous donut questions I try one of
ridiculous donut questions I try one of
ridiculous donut questions I try one of their famous vegan doughnuts and also
their famous vegan doughnuts and also
their famous vegan doughnuts and also really splurge on this awesome
really splurge on this awesome
really splurge on this awesome one too the shop is full of people I
one too the shop is full of people I
one too the shop is full of people I find a seat amongst all the locals I got
find a seat amongst all the locals I got
find a seat amongst all the locals I got my coffee got my donuts and my water I
my coffee got my donuts and my water I
my coffee got my donuts and my water I take my first bite and it’s good I mean
take my first bite and it’s good I mean
take my first bite and it’s good I mean really good like biting into a ring of
really good like biting into a ring of
really good like biting into a ring of heaven good a couple bites in I feel
heaven good a couple bites in I feel
heaven good a couple bites in I feel pressure in my chest
pressure in my chest
pressure in my chest so I drink my water thinking maybe it’s
so I drink my water thinking maybe it’s
so I drink my water thinking maybe it’s just a little stuck thinking I can get
just a little stuck thinking I can get
just a little stuck thinking I can get it down and then my eyes black out a
it down and then my eyes black out a
it down and then my eyes black out a couple of times and water starts coming
couple of times and water starts coming
couple of times and water starts coming out of my nose and I realize I can’t
out of my nose and I realize I can’t
out of my nose and I realize I can’t breathe I rush back up to the counter
breathe I rush back up to the counter
breathe I rush back up to the counter and throw my hands up into the universal
and throw my hands up into the universal
and throw my hands up into the universal choking sign Anthony who’s now
choking sign Anthony who’s now
choking sign Anthony who’s now definitely way cooler than me leaps into
definitely way cooler than me leaps into
definitely way cooler than me leaps into action and comes to help my mind is
action and comes to help my mind is
action and comes to help my mind is racing and then I throw up everywhere
racing and then I throw up everywhere
racing and then I throw up everywhere and I could breathe i shakily assure
and I could breathe i shakily assure
and I could breathe i shakily assure everyone I’m okay and I don’t need an
everyone I’m okay and I don’t need an
everyone I’m okay and I don’t need an ambulance I have to recount every
ambulance I have to recount every
ambulance I have to recount every embarrassing detail for Anthony for the
embarrassing detail for Anthony for the
embarrassing detail for Anthony for the incident report when he asks me what
incident report when he asks me what
incident report when he asks me what were you thinking I was thinking I don’t
were you thinking I was thinking I don’t
were you thinking I was thinking I don’t want you to break my ribs I don’t have
want you to break my ribs I don’t have
want you to break my ribs I don’t have time for that I’m running a workshop
time for that I’m running a workshop
time for that I’m running a workshop tonight
tonight
tonight time to go to the hospital and I was
time to go to the hospital and I was
time to go to the hospital and I was trying really hard not to pee my pants
trying really hard not to pee my pants
trying really hard not to pee my pants in front of all of these people and I
in front of all of these people and I
in front of all of these people and I will not meet Jesus by way a vegan
will not meet Jesus by way a vegan
will not meet Jesus by way a vegan doughnut even if even if it’s the best
doughnut even if even if it’s the best
doughnut even if even if it’s the best damn doughnut I have ever had what were
damn doughnut I have ever had what were
damn doughnut I have ever had what were you thinking his reply I was actually
you thinking his reply I was actually
you thinking his reply I was actually kind of excited to use my life guardian
kind of excited to use my life guardian
kind of excited to use my life guardian skills from high school I’m a
skills from high school I’m a
skills from high school I’m a potentially dying and I’m worried about
potentially dying and I’m worried about
potentially dying and I’m worried about work and embarrassing myself
work and embarrassing myself
work and embarrassing myself and he’s imagining re-enacting Baywatch
my near death by donut story is
my near death by donut story is embarrassing and hysterical so I shared
embarrassing and hysterical so I shared
embarrassing and hysterical so I shared it on social media where most of the
it on social media where most of the
it on social media where most of the comments were people laughing with me
comments were people laughing with me
comments were people laughing with me and saying things like oh my gosh how
and saying things like oh my gosh how
and saying things like oh my gosh how scary I’m so glad you’re okay and then
scary I’m so glad you’re okay and then
scary I’m so glad you’re okay and then the roof you take smaller bites chews
the roof you take smaller bites chews
the roof you take smaller bites chews slower next time super quickly what was
slower next time super quickly what was
slower next time super quickly what was an embarrassing and funny story turned
an embarrassing and funny story turned
an embarrassing and funny story turned into shame for me
into shame for me
into shame for me shame lies to me shame tells me I’m not
shame lies to me shame tells me I’m not
shame lies to me shame tells me I’m not enough shame says I’m unlovable and no
enough shame says I’m unlovable and no
enough shame says I’m unlovable and no one cares take smaller bites in my head
one cares take smaller bites in my head
one cares take smaller bites in my head easily became you idiot why did you even
easily became you idiot why did you even
easily became you idiot why did you even share that no one cares regardless of
share that no one cares regardless of
share that no one cares regardless of the comments I quickly created my own
the comments I quickly created my own
the comments I quickly created my own truth a made-up story of shame we all
truth a made-up story of shame we all
truth a made-up story of shame we all create shame shitstorm stories that we
create shame shitstorm stories that we
create shame shitstorm stories that we call truth because we’re under the
call truth because we’re under the
call truth because we’re under the illusion that everyone else’s reactions
illusion that everyone else’s reactions
illusion that everyone else’s reactions are about us when in reality even in the
are about us when in reality even in the
are about us when in reality even in the face of death by donut Anthony was in
face of death by donut Anthony was in
face of death by donut Anthony was in his Baywatch fantasy and I was worried
his Baywatch fantasy and I was worried
his Baywatch fantasy and I was worried about work both of us were so wrapped up
about work both of us were so wrapped up
about work both of us were so wrapped up distracted and stuck in our own stuff as
distracted and stuck in our own stuff as
distracted and stuck in our own stuff as a practicing therapist of 18 years I
a practicing therapist of 18 years I
a practicing therapist of 18 years I know this Freud called it projection
know this Freud called it projection
know this Freud called it projection basically something you might dislike
basically something you might dislike
basically something you might dislike about someone
about someone
about someone probably reminds you of the crap you
probably reminds you of the crap you
probably reminds you of the crap you don’t like about yourself
99% of someone’s response to us is about
99% of someone’s response to us is about them and their own stuff when we’re
them and their own stuff when we’re
them and their own stuff when we’re interacting what you get from me is more
interacting what you get from me is more
interacting what you get from me is more about me than it is about you this is
about me than it is about you this is
about me than it is about you this is freedom how often do we sabotage
freedom how often do we sabotage
freedom how often do we sabotage ourselves and not truly show up because
ourselves and not truly show up because
ourselves and not truly show up because we fear what people will think and how
we fear what people will think and how
we fear what people will think and how they’ll judge us the reality is they
they’ll judge us the reality is they
they’ll judge us the reality is they aren’t even thinking about us and if
aren’t even thinking about us and if
aren’t even thinking about us and if they are it’s more of a reflection of
they are it’s more of a reflection of
they are it’s more of a reflection of them than us and what happens when we
them than us and what happens when we
them than us and what happens when we realize this truth we can have freedom
realize this truth we can have freedom
realize this truth we can have freedom freedom to be who we want to be freedom
freedom to be who we want to be freedom
freedom to be who we want to be freedom to be aligned with our values freedom to
to be aligned with our values freedom to
to be aligned with our values freedom to show up as ourselves flaws and all
show up as ourselves flaws and all
show up as ourselves flaws and all owning all the parts of our stories on
owning all the parts of our stories on
owning all the parts of our stories on the unfrosted side of this donut 99% of
the unfrosted side of this donut 99% of
the unfrosted side of this donut 99% of our response to someone else
our response to someone else
our response to someone else or a situation for that matter is about
or a situation for that matter is about
or a situation for that matter is about our stuff when we’ve got a problem most
our stuff when we’ve got a problem most
our stuff when we’ve got a problem most of the time it’s about us this is a
of the time it’s about us this is a
of the time it’s about us this is a responsibility we have a responsibility
responsibility we have a responsibility
responsibility we have a responsibility to ask ourselves what is this bringing
to ask ourselves what is this bringing
to ask ourselves what is this bringing up for me what’s this really about
up for me what’s this really about
up for me what’s this really about what’s the story I’m making up so how do
what’s the story I’m making up so how do
what’s the story I’m making up so how do we actually own our 99% to fully show up
we actually own our 99% to fully show up
we actually own our 99% to fully show up as ourselves in this world first
as ourselves in this world first
as ourselves in this world first identify your feelings correctly many of
identify your feelings correctly many of
identify your feelings correctly many of your feelings are born out of fear or
your feelings are born out of fear or
your feelings are born out of fear or love and anger is almost always a
love and anger is almost always a
love and anger is almost always a secondary emotion usually rooted and
secondary emotion usually rooted and
secondary emotion usually rooted and hurt loneliness fear or shame have the
hurt loneliness fear or shame have the
hurt loneliness fear or shame have the courage to name what it’s really about
courage to name what it’s really about
courage to name what it’s really about second allow yourself to feel those
second allow yourself to feel those
second allow yourself to feel those feelings and cope with them in a healthy
feelings and cope with them in a healthy
feelings and cope with them in a healthy and effective way this means not hurling
and effective way this means not hurling
and effective way this means not hurling them onto or blaming others and finally
them onto or blaming others and finally
them onto or blaming others and finally choose to show up and stand in your
choose to show up and stand in your
choose to show up and stand in your sacred truth choose to own your weird
sacred truth choose to own your weird
sacred truth choose to own your weird and be you being mindful of the stories
and be you being mindful of the stories
and be you being mindful of the stories we create and understanding how shame
we create and understanding how shame
we create and understanding how shame shows up for us allows us to get out of
shows up for us allows us to get out of
shows up for us allows us to get out of our own way there’s nothing like being
our own way there’s nothing like being
our own way there’s nothing like being almost taken out by a delicious vegan
almost taken out by a delicious vegan
almost taken out by a delicious vegan donut to get some clarity and power back
donut to get some clarity and power back
donut to get some clarity and power back from the story of shame when we embrace
from the story of shame when we embrace
from the story of shame when we embrace the freedom that comes with all of us
the freedom that comes with all of us
the freedom that comes with all of us being wrapped up in our own stuff and we
being wrapped up in our own stuff and we
being wrapped up in our own stuff and we claim the responsibility to own the
claim the responsibility to own the
claim the responsibility to own the stories we make up we have the power to
stories we make up we have the power to
stories we make up we have the power to change that’s the donut effect thank you
change that’s the donut effect thank you
change that’s the donut effect thank you [Applause]
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