just had to move a lot now you have to sit still because I’m taking take a
sit still because I’m taking take a
sit still because I’m taking take a picture of you guys my audience so
picture of you guys my audience so
picture of you guys my audience so still hold tight
still hold tight
still hold tight that’s what it yeah now I need a clicker
that’s what it yeah now I need a clicker
that’s what it yeah now I need a clicker I know I couldn’t tell I wasn’t focusing
I know I couldn’t tell I wasn’t focusing
I know I couldn’t tell I wasn’t focusing on all the faces well let me start his
on all the faces well let me start his
on all the faces well let me start his talk by telling you how I grew up and
talk by telling you how I grew up and
talk by telling you how I grew up and how I came here to stand in front of you
how I came here to stand in front of you
how I came here to stand in front of you okay yeah here so first I grew up in a
okay yeah here so first I grew up in a
okay yeah here so first I grew up in a very nice and warm gentle environment
very nice and warm gentle environment
very nice and warm gentle environment Waldorf School everything was soft and
Waldorf School everything was soft and
Waldorf School everything was soft and ever there was an environment close to
ever there was an environment close to
ever there was an environment close to the river lots of nature all green and
the river lots of nature all green and
the river lots of nature all green and very creative so we did a lot of
very creative so we did a lot of
very creative so we did a lot of creative things and then if you look
creative things and then if you look
creative things and then if you look closely or really good you can see me
closely or really good you can see me
closely or really good you can see me sitting on the ground on your left with
sitting on the ground on your left with
sitting on the ground on your left with the big smile and I think I was four
the big smile and I think I was four
the big smile and I think I was four years old or something back there and I
years old or something back there and I
years old or something back there and I still see a lot of these people my
still see a lot of these people my
still see a lot of these people my classmates back then and I even speak
classmates back then and I even speak
classmates back then and I even speak with my teacher Erica
so this gentle environment really for my
so this gentle environment really for my base of creativity and after school I
base of creativity and after school I
base of creativity and after school I started my career as a dancer
that is workout due to back problems so
that is workout due to back problems so I was looking into my curriculum
I was looking into my curriculum
I was looking into my curriculum thinking what to study next
thinking what to study next
thinking what to study next I was only dancing in my life and I
I was only dancing in my life and I
I was only dancing in my life and I thought well let’s study geography
thought well let’s study geography
thought well let’s study geography because I’m interested in the world so
because I’m interested in the world so
because I’m interested in the world so let’s do that I did it for two years and
let’s do that I did it for two years and
let’s do that I did it for two years and do two internships I came into these
do two internships I came into these
do two internships I came into these rooms of teachers and artists was like I
rooms of teachers and artists was like I
rooms of teachers and artists was like I don’t want to be in this kind of
don’t want to be in this kind of
don’t want to be in this kind of environment with these old grumpy people
environment with these old grumpy people
environment with these old grumpy people doing the same the rest of the life so I
doing the same the rest of the life so I
doing the same the rest of the life so I decided I had to do something creative
decided I had to do something creative
decided I had to do something creative again I couldn’t draw I couldn’t paint
again I couldn’t draw I couldn’t paint
again I couldn’t draw I couldn’t paint so I decided let’s start e photography
so I decided let’s start e photography
so I decided let’s start e photography who cannot push a button right so I went
who cannot push a button right so I went
who cannot push a button right so I went to the city just go to our school and
to the city just go to our school and
to the city just go to our school and when I came to the city I was still
when I came to the city I was still
when I came to the city I was still discovering myself and who I was what I
discovering myself and who I was what I
discovering myself and who I was what I wanted to do in my life and I was got
wanted to do in my life and I was got
wanted to do in my life and I was got really really inspired by all these
really really inspired by all these
really really inspired by all these colors in the streets all the different
colors in the streets all the different
colors in the streets all the different foods you could eat you could choose
foods you could eat you could choose
foods you could eat you could choose from all these kinds of different things
from all these kinds of different things
from all these kinds of different things I’ve never seen before so the buzz in
I’ve never seen before so the buzz in
I’ve never seen before so the buzz in the city or it was amazing because the
the city or it was amazing because the
the city or it was amazing because the city was always going on never stops
city was always going on never stops
city was always going on never stops always something to do and I was just
always something to do and I was just
always something to do and I was just amazed by all these colors you could
amazed by all these colors you could
amazed by all these colors you could find everywhere and I was amazed by how
find everywhere and I was amazed by how
find everywhere and I was amazed by how different people could live like these
different people could live like these
different people could live like these people living on a boat so it really
people living on a boat so it really
people living on a boat so it really energized me to look differently where I
energized me to look differently where I
energized me to look differently where I came to live in this place it made an
came to live in this place it made an
came to live in this place it made an amazing place so I went to art school
amazing place so I went to art school
amazing place so I went to art school and started photography there and I was
and started photography there and I was
and started photography there and I was just playing around figuring out what
just playing around figuring out what
just playing around figuring out what photography means what does this 2d
photography means what does this 2d
photography means what does this 2d image what does it mean I was making
image what does it mean I was making
image what does it mean I was making installations in front of the camera and
installations in front of the camera and
installations in front of the camera and then taking pictures of it so what was
then taking pictures of it so what was
then taking pictures of it so what was happening in front of camera changes
happening in front of camera changes
happening in front of camera changes when you see 2d you get another reality
when you see 2d you get another reality
when you see 2d you get another reality I was putting things upside down just to
I was putting things upside down just to
I was putting things upside down just to see if things will start floating or
see if things will start floating or
see if things will start floating or drop down finding all these toys in toy
drop down finding all these toys in toy
drop down finding all these toys in toy stores I was playing with reality what
stores I was playing with reality what
stores I was playing with reality what happens if you put somebody in water
happens if you put somebody in water
happens if you put somebody in water this is my sister she’s not dead by the
this is my sister she’s not dead by the
this is my sister she’s not dead by the way
way
way still life so playing around with this
still life so playing around with this
still life so playing around with this creativity finding out how you could
creativity finding out how you could
creativity finding out how you could make your own reality this is a
make your own reality this is a
make your own reality this is a landscape with painted balloons putting
landscape with painted balloons putting
landscape with painted balloons putting in to the landscape at a certain point
in to the landscape at a certain point
in to the landscape at a certain point of the day driving with a car – those
of the day driving with a car – those
of the day driving with a car – those bulbs putting light on and then you
bulbs putting light on and then you
bulbs putting light on and then you create this kind of different world and
create this kind of different world and
create this kind of different world and here this really happened the ceiling
here this really happened the ceiling
here this really happened the ceiling came down put it upside down again found
came down put it upside down again found
came down put it upside down again found some weird stuff in the place in the toy
some weird stuff in the place in the toy
some weird stuff in the place in the toy store playing with shadows if you make
store playing with shadows if you make
store playing with shadows if you make something flat or how does something
something flat or how does something
something flat or how does something stay stay 3d how does it work so with
stay stay 3d how does it work so with
stay stay 3d how does it work so with this external eye you can change how you
this external eye you can change how you
this external eye you can change how you pursue perceive how you perceive your
pursue perceive how you perceive your
pursue perceive how you perceive your own reality this is me of course so
own reality this is me of course so
own reality this is me of course so there was a really big change for me how
there was a really big change for me how
there was a really big change for me how you could look at your own world
you could look at your own world
you could look at your own world I graduated in 2005 stayed in the city
I graduated in 2005 stayed in the city
I graduated in 2005 stayed in the city for a few more years and then went to
for a few more years and then went to
for a few more years and then went to the South foreland close by where we are
the South foreland close by where we are
the South foreland close by where we are right now for love and came to live in
right now for love and came to live in
right now for love and came to live in this satellite city where you could
this satellite city where you could
this satellite city where you could raise your average Dutch family with two
raise your average Dutch family with two
raise your average Dutch family with two point six kids and 1.3 dogs so I came
point six kids and 1.3 dogs so I came
point six kids and 1.3 dogs so I came into the city and I was not feeling at
into the city and I was not feeling at
into the city and I was not feeling at home I felt judged because I was this
home I felt judged because I was this
home I felt judged because I was this city girl with a city accent everybody
city girl with a city accent everybody
city girl with a city accent everybody looking weird of me because I’m this
looking weird of me because I’m this
looking weird of me because I’m this artist or something and it was boring
artist or something and it was boring
artist or something and it was boring there were not colors in the streets
there were not colors in the streets
there were not colors in the streets there was no different food he only
there was no different food he only
there was no different food he only could go to one store and get the food
could go to one store and get the food
could go to one store and get the food they had so this bored nurse
they had so this bored nurse
they had so this bored nurse well I was really unhappy I was really
well I was really unhappy I was really
well I was really unhappy I was really lonely couldn’t go for a coffee that
lonely couldn’t go for a coffee that
lonely couldn’t go for a coffee that quickly with friends or just have these
quickly with friends or just have these
quickly with friends or just have these visits but the one thing the one thing
visits but the one thing the one thing
visits but the one thing the one thing that was really really great
that was really really great
that was really really great well I think the most beautiful thing in
well I think the most beautiful thing in
well I think the most beautiful thing in my world is that my son was born there
my world is that my son was born there
my world is that my son was born there and I started taking picture of him of
and I started taking picture of him of
and I started taking picture of him of course he was my best model really close
course he was my best model really close
course he was my best model really close by and by making pictures of people I
by and by making pictures of people I
by and by making pictures of people I found out that I was pretty good at it
found out that I was pretty good at it
found out that I was pretty good at it and made more portraits of people I
and made more portraits of people I
and made more portraits of people I never did it before
never did it before
never did it before I was only using people as props or as a
I was only using people as props or as a
I was only using people as props or as a standing in my pictures and I was making
standing in my pictures and I was making
standing in my pictures and I was making these portraits and it wasn’t people
these portraits and it wasn’t people
these portraits and it wasn’t people people were very happy with getting
people were very happy with getting
people were very happy with getting these pictures so it was like whoa okay
these pictures so it was like whoa okay
these pictures so it was like whoa okay I can do this but I was still living in
I can do this but I was still living in
I can do this but I was still living in his boredom
his boredom
his boredom boring place nothing happening so my
boring place nothing happening so my
boring place nothing happening so my life became really really static and I
life became really really static and I
life became really really static and I decided to do something about it
decided to do something about it
decided to do something about it and moved to the city again I moved to
and moved to the city again I moved to
and moved to the city again I moved to where we are right now in Eindhoven I
where we are right now in Eindhoven I
where we are right now in Eindhoven I moved to step s and so I came back into
moved to step s and so I came back into
moved to step s and so I came back into the city that is really vibrant piece of
the city that is really vibrant piece of
the city that is really vibrant piece of ain’t open ain’t joven felt a life all
ain’t open ain’t joven felt a life all
ain’t open ain’t joven felt a life all the design all the new technologies all
the design all the new technologies all
the design all the new technologies all the people from all over the world
the people from all over the world
the people from all over the world coming to live here settle down I think
coming to live here settle down I think
coming to live here settle down I think we have like 160 nationalities or
we have like 160 nationalities or
we have like 160 nationalities or something so everything was cool again
something so everything was cool again
something so everything was cool again and the blush blood was rushing through
and the blush blood was rushing through
and the blush blood was rushing through my veins again I was inspired and I came
my veins again I was inspired and I came
my veins again I was inspired and I came to live in anthem the white building on
to live in anthem the white building on
to live in anthem the white building on your right and it came in this community
your right and it came in this community
your right and it came in this community I was welcomed with open arms and a very
I was welcomed with open arms and a very
I was welcomed with open arms and a very short amount of time I got to know a lot
short amount of time I got to know a lot
short amount of time I got to know a lot a lot of people my neighbors and I
a lot of people my neighbors and I
a lot of people my neighbors and I decided just to go for coffee have long
decided just to go for coffee have long
decided just to go for coffee have long long talks and take portraits make
long talks and take portraits make
long talks and take portraits make portraits of them this is Hank
portraits of them this is Hank
portraits of them this is Hank this first one I took pictures of he’s
this first one I took pictures of he’s
this first one I took pictures of he’s the one do neighbor who lives beneath me
the one do neighbor who lives beneath me
the one do neighbor who lives beneath me and he reminded me a lot of my father
and he reminded me a lot of my father
and he reminded me a lot of my father because he’s also an artist and a
because he’s also an artist and a
because he’s also an artist and a musician so the connection was really
musician so the connection was really
musician so the connection was really easily made and I wouldn’t have been
easily made and I wouldn’t have been
easily made and I wouldn’t have been taking picture of him on the roof this
taking picture of him on the roof this
taking picture of him on the roof this is on the roof for and around the
is on the roof for and around the
is on the roof for and around the building where he helps out people just
building where he helps out people just
building where he helps out people just well I sort of followed him a little and
well I sort of followed him a little and
well I sort of followed him a little and I’ve been doing this for three years now
I’ve been doing this for three years now
I’ve been doing this for three years now more than two years and at this time I
more than two years and at this time I
more than two years and at this time I think I’ve taken picture of 80 people 80
think I’ve taken picture of 80 people 80
think I’ve taken picture of 80 people 80 of my neighbors
of my neighbors
of my neighbors this is Tess on Alex Appian honey
this is Tess on Alex Appian honey
this is Tess on Alex Appian honey Barbera Hanukkah Carlo Matane Yosef
Barbera Hanukkah Carlo Matane Yosef
Barbera Hanukkah Carlo Matane Yosef femke and through his years it came more
femke and through his years it came more
femke and through his years it came more and more and more and I was lately lady
and more and more and I was lately lady
and more and more and I was lately lady I was focusing on this project really
I was focusing on this project really
I was focusing on this project really hard and putting up all these portraits
hard and putting up all these portraits
hard and putting up all these portraits of all these people on a wall just to
of all these people on a wall just to
of all these people on a wall just to see who they are and something struck me
see who they are and something struck me
see who they are and something struck me I was looking at these pictures I was ok
I was looking at these pictures I was ok
I was looking at these pictures I was ok I see man
I see man
I see man I see women I see old people I see young
I see women I see old people I see young
I see women I see old people I see young people I see I see even kids except for
people I see I see even kids except for
people I see I see even kids except for my own son I see people would red hair
my own son I see people would red hair
my own son I see people would red hair dark hair all these differences but what
dark hair all these differences but what
dark hair all these differences but what I don’t see a lot of people from Africa
I don’t see a lot of people from Africa
I don’t see a lot of people from Africa know people from Suriname I don’t see
know people from Suriname I don’t see
know people from Suriname I don’t see people with a Moroccan background so
people with a Moroccan background so
people with a Moroccan background so there was like this moment for me that I
there was like this moment for me that I
there was like this moment for me that I could really reflect on my own community
could really reflect on my own community
could really reflect on my own community I went to the city to be poured into
I went to the city to be poured into
I went to the city to be poured into this buzz of hundred and sixty
this buzz of hundred and sixty
this buzz of hundred and sixty nationalities and by doing this Siri I
nationalities and by doing this Siri I
nationalities and by doing this Siri I could see my own community and see that
could see my own community and see that
could see my own community and see that that was not happening there so with
that was not happening there so with
that was not happening there so with this external I again I could change how
this external I again I could change how
this external I again I could change how I see my own world and that’s the
I see my own world and that’s the
I see my own world and that’s the amazing thing of photography that it can
amazing thing of photography that it can
amazing thing of photography that it can show you that and nowadays I’m making
show you that and nowadays I’m making
show you that and nowadays I’m making this theory about internationals coming
this theory about internationals coming
this theory about internationals coming to live in Eindhoven sell-down
to live in Eindhoven sell-down
to live in Eindhoven sell-down work here have lies
work here have lies
work here have lies and tell all these stories of these
and tell all these stories of these
and tell all these stories of these people the way they live what they do
people the way they live what they do
people the way they live what they do and what I’d wanted to do in the future
and what I’d wanted to do in the future
and what I’d wanted to do in the future is that I can do that all over the world
is that I can do that all over the world
is that I can do that all over the world dive in these communities and make this
dive in these communities and make this
dive in these communities and make this series and show people show people who
series and show people show people who
series and show people show people who they are where they’re with whom they
they are where they’re with whom they
they are where they’re with whom they are so what I want you to take with you
are so what I want you to take with you
are so what I want you to take with you is that you my audience is also a
is that you my audience is also a
is that you my audience is also a community we are also a community just
community we are also a community just
community we are also a community just by showing up here today we are all part
by showing up here today we are all part
by showing up here today we are all part of a community and we all we are all
of a community and we all we are all
of a community and we all we are all part of a bigger whole so I just want
part of a bigger whole so I just want
part of a bigger whole so I just want you to see yourself oh it’s you guys so
you to see yourself oh it’s you guys so
you to see yourself oh it’s you guys so we’re part of this community we’re a big
we’re part of this community we’re a big
we’re part of this community we’re a big part of a bigger whole thank you
[Music]
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