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[Music]

[Music] mom dad I’m going to the US wait a

mom dad I’m going to the US wait a

mom dad I’m going to the US wait a minute seriously no you’re not come on

minute seriously no you’re not come on

minute seriously no you’re not come on mom I got this great scholarship it’s a

mom I got this great scholarship it’s a

mom I got this great scholarship it’s a full-bridge scholarship I gotta go I’m

full-bridge scholarship I gotta go I’m

full-bridge scholarship I gotta go I’m gonna go do some graduate work in the US

gonna go do some graduate work in the US

gonna go do some graduate work in the US no you’re not you can’t leave a month

no you’re not you can’t leave a month

no you’re not you can’t leave a month later I was in Columbus to my parents

later I was in Columbus to my parents

later I was in Columbus to my parents dismay and anger coming to columbus was

dismay and anger coming to columbus was

dismay and anger coming to columbus was interesting at the beginning it was

interesting at the beginning it was

interesting at the beginning it was shocking you have to get used to a lot

shocking you have to get used to a lot

shocking you have to get used to a lot of things you’re not used to

of things you’re not used to

of things you’re not used to transportation all these people all

transportation all these people all

transportation all these people all these cars and but despite all the the

these cars and but despite all the the

these cars and but despite all the the newness of it I was very excited because

newness of it I was very excited because

newness of it I was very excited because I was going to do what I wanted to do

I was going to do what I wanted to do

I was going to do what I wanted to do after I started to you know and I had to

after I started to you know and I had to

after I started to you know and I had to enroll in classes and everything so I

enroll in classes and everything so I

enroll in classes and everything so I had to fill out all kinds of forms and

had to fill out all kinds of forms and

had to fill out all kinds of forms and this forms I have to check I had to

this forms I have to check I had to

this forms I have to check I had to check boxes we traveled I was not used

check boxes we traveled I was not used

check boxes we traveled I was not used two boxes that said African American

two boxes that said African American

two boxes that said African American Caucasian indian asian Hispanic all

Caucasian indian asian Hispanic all

Caucasian indian asian Hispanic all kinds of boxes and I never knew what

kinds of boxes and I never knew what

kinds of boxes and I never knew what kind of box I fit in because I was

kind of box I fit in because I was

kind of box I fit in because I was coming straight from Costa Rica where

coming straight from Costa Rica where

coming straight from Costa Rica where you don’t check boxes you are a national

you don’t check boxes you are a national

you don’t check boxes you are a national of Costa Rica and that’s what you are

of Costa Rica and that’s what you are

of Costa Rica and that’s what you are first and after you are whatever it is

first and after you are whatever it is

first and after you are whatever it is that you are so that was very different

that you are so that was very different

that you are so that was very different that’s that’s when I actually realized

that’s that’s when I actually realized

that’s that’s when I actually realized that I was I mean it’s not that I did

that I was I mean it’s not that I did

that I was I mean it’s not that I did not know I was black but that’s when I

not know I was black but that’s when I

not know I was black but that’s when I actually realized that here in the US

actually realized that here in the US

actually realized that here in the US black was going to be first than

black was going to be first than

black was going to be first than anything else after that I started

anything else after that I started

anything else after that I started classes the thing is going fine I was

classes the thing is going fine I was

classes the thing is going fine I was having a lot of fun but then I started

having a lot of fun but then I started

having a lot of fun but then I started noticing that I was labeled

noticing that I was labeled

noticing that I was labeled african-american which is not a problem

african-american which is not a problem

african-american which is not a problem because like I say I’m very proud of who

because like I say I’m very proud of who

because like I say I’m very proud of who I

I

I I’m proud of my blackness however when

I’m proud of my blackness however when

I’m proud of my blackness however when you’re labeled african-american there is

you’re labeled african-american there is

you’re labeled african-american there is this baggage of things that comes with

this baggage of things that comes with

this baggage of things that comes with it there’s this expectations like for

it there’s this expectations like for

it there’s this expectations like for example I had to know the history of the

example I had to know the history of the

example I had to know the history of the struggle of african-americans in the US

struggle of african-americans in the US

struggle of african-americans in the US I had to know answers to rap questions

I had to know answers to rap questions

I had to know answers to rap questions rap music which i didn’t know i had to

rap music which i didn’t know i had to

rap music which i didn’t know i had to know about food I had to know about all

know about food I had to know about all

know about food I had to know about all this things that I didn’t I wanted to

this things that I didn’t I wanted to

this things that I didn’t I wanted to learn about it but I didn’t so I ended

learn about it but I didn’t so I ended

learn about it but I didn’t so I ended up not being really considered to black

up not being really considered to black

up not being really considered to black in my department there was also

in my department there was also

in my department there was also assumptions made about me like you know

assumptions made about me like you know

assumptions made about me like you know maybe maybe not too smart maybe needed a

maybe maybe not too smart maybe needed a

maybe maybe not too smart maybe needed a little bit extra time all these

little bit extra time all these

little bit extra time all these different things that I wasn’t used to

different things that I wasn’t used to

different things that I wasn’t used to there were also suspicions about me for

there were also suspicions about me for

there were also suspicions about me for example when I went to a store sometimes

example when I went to a store sometimes

example when I went to a store sometimes people just follow me through this door

people just follow me through this door

people just follow me through this door but I’m not doing anything but that’s

but I’m not doing anything but that’s

but I’m not doing anything but that’s the way it was and I realized that it

the way it was and I realized that it

the way it was and I realized that it came with being african-american later

came with being african-american later

came with being african-american later on my kids are born to kids max Andorian

on my kids are born to kids max Andorian

on my kids are born to kids max Andorian and then I started worrying about my

and then I started worrying about my

and then I started worrying about my kids because they were going to school

kids because they were going to school

kids because they were going to school and I wondered how are they going to be

and I wondered how are they going to be

and I wondered how are they going to be treated at school and we had a few

treated at school and we had a few

treated at school and we had a few issues here and there name calling my

issues here and there name calling my

issues here and there name calling my son labeled violent because he reacted

son labeled violent because he reacted

son labeled violent because he reacted to name-calling or sometimes my son

to name-calling or sometimes my son

to name-calling or sometimes my son being cold not too smart because he was

being cold not too smart because he was

being cold not too smart because he was too active all kinds of things started

too active all kinds of things started

too active all kinds of things started happening different grading system for

happening different grading system for

happening different grading system for my son so I realized that it also comes

my son so I realized that it also comes

my son so I realized that it also comes with being african-american which is an

with being african-american which is an

with being african-american which is an awful thing that we have to deal with

awful thing that we have to deal with

awful thing that we have to deal with there was also the fact that when my son

there was also the fact that when my son

there was also the fact that when my son started driving great now he can go to

started driving great now he can go to

started driving great now he can go to school by himself who

school by himself who

school by himself who but then there’s another worry I have to

but then there’s another worry I have to

but then there’s another worry I have to worry about him driving to school and I

worry about him driving to school and I

worry about him driving to school and I did not worry until he was stopped by

did not worry until he was stopped by

did not worry until he was stopped by the police and maybe was just driving to

the police and maybe was just driving to

the police and maybe was just driving to school it was just two miles to get to

school it was just two miles to get to

school it was just two miles to get to school and he was stopped by the police

school and he was stopped by the police

school and he was stopped by the police so then although we had already had to

so then although we had already had to

so then although we had already had to talk about being careful we had to

talk about being careful we had to

talk about being careful we had to reinforce again honey when you drive in

reinforce again honey when you drive in

reinforce again honey when you drive in certain neighborhoods even though it is

certain neighborhoods even though it is

certain neighborhoods even though it is our neighborhood you have to be careful

our neighborhood you have to be careful

our neighborhood you have to be careful do what the police says you need to

do what the police says you need to

do what the police says you need to raise your hands raise your hands get

raise your hands raise your hands get

raise your hands raise your hands get out of the car and did not turn your

out of the car and did not turn your

out of the car and did not turn your back or if you have your wallet in the

back or if you have your wallet in the

back or if you have your wallet in the car when you get in the car put it

car when you get in the car put it

car when you get in the car put it somewhere where you don’t have to reach

somewhere where you don’t have to reach

somewhere where you don’t have to reach into your pockets which is something

into your pockets which is something

into your pockets which is something that I has a Costa Rican I was not used

that I has a Costa Rican I was not used

that I has a Costa Rican I was not used to and it’s an awful thing for parents

to and it’s an awful thing for parents

to and it’s an awful thing for parents to have to deal with that that’s I think

to have to deal with that that’s I think

to have to deal with that that’s I think it is ironic that we are

it is ironic that we are

it is ironic that we are african-american and we are so visible I

african-american and we are so visible I

african-american and we are so visible I mean you can see us anywhere however it

mean you can see us anywhere however it

mean you can see us anywhere however it is this visibility that makes us

is this visibility that makes us

is this visibility that makes us invisible a lot of times because

invisible a lot of times because

invisible a lot of times because sometimes we don’t matter that was the

sometimes we don’t matter that was the

sometimes we don’t matter that was the one slit one label the change the way I

one slit one label the change the way I

one slit one label the change the way I was and who I became and who I am now i

was and who I became and who I am now i

was and who I became and who I am now i am proud of being labeled

am proud of being labeled

am proud of being labeled african-american because i cannot help

african-american because i cannot help

african-american because i cannot help but to say yes i am african-american i

but to say yes i am african-american i

but to say yes i am african-american i am part of this group of people who have

am part of this group of people who have

am part of this group of people who have struggled through centuries and we have

struggled through centuries and we have

struggled through centuries and we have survived and we keep on surviving and we

survived and we keep on surviving and we

survived and we keep on surviving and we will keep on surviving the next label

will keep on surviving the next label

will keep on surviving the next label that i will tell you about happening

that i will tell you about happening

that i will tell you about happening 1992 when i graduated from the ohio

1992 when i graduated from the ohio

1992 when i graduated from the ohio state university i even though my

state university i even though my

state university i even though my parents did not want me to come i ended

parents did not want me to come i ended

parents did not want me to come i ended up getting two masters degrees from

up getting two masters degrees from

up getting two masters degrees from their high state university and then

their high state university and then

their high state university and then they were very happy

they were very happy

they were very happy so everything was good name so I went

so everything was good name so I went

so everything was good name so I went back to Costa Rica worked for two years

back to Costa Rica worked for two years

back to Costa Rica worked for two years I became a professor at the University

I became a professor at the University

I became a professor at the University of Costa Rica because that was the what

of Costa Rica because that was the what

of Costa Rica because that was the what I needed to do to fulfill my requirement

I needed to do to fulfill my requirement

I needed to do to fulfill my requirement for the scholarship after those two

for the scholarship after those two

for the scholarship after those two years I married to my ex-husband out my

years I married to my ex-husband out my

years I married to my ex-husband out my ex-husband who is from Columbus so I

ex-husband who is from Columbus so I

ex-husband who is from Columbus so I came back to the US and on all those 13

came back to the US and on all those 13

came back to the US and on all those 13 1994 that’s what I entered the US as you

1994 that’s what I entered the US as you

1994 that’s what I entered the US as you know to stay here so as I’m married and

know to stay here so as I’m married and

know to stay here so as I’m married and I have to live here now so the first

I have to live here now so the first

I have to live here now so the first thing we have to do is to legalize my

thing we have to do is to legalize my

thing we have to do is to legalize my situation my status so we send the

situation my status so we send the

situation my status so we send the application in with a check of one

application in with a check of one

application in with a check of one hundred and thirty dollars which now is

hundred and thirty dollars which now is

hundred and thirty dollars which now is like a thousand plus dollars and then we

like a thousand plus dollars and then we

like a thousand plus dollars and then we go through the vetting process

go through the vetting process

go through the vetting process fingerprinted interviews and the

fingerprinted interviews and the

fingerprinted interviews and the interview was separate first and then

interview was separate first and then

interview was separate first and then together to make sure that we were not

together to make sure that we were not

together to make sure that we were not faking the marriage thing look if I

faking the marriage thing look if I

faking the marriage thing look if I could but anyway I went through the

could but anyway I went through the

could but anyway I went through the whole process and then on april nineteen

whole process and then on april nineteen

whole process and then on april nineteen ninety-five I became a legal resident of

ninety-five I became a legal resident of

ninety-five I became a legal resident of the United States now for 19 years I

the United States now for 19 years I

the United States now for 19 years I thought this is just enough I don’t need

thought this is just enough I don’t need

thought this is just enough I don’t need to pay all that money to become a

to pay all that money to become a

to pay all that money to become a citizen I’m going to have similar rights

citizen I’m going to have similar rights

citizen I’m going to have similar rights I’m I’m working I’m raising my kids so I

I’m I’m working I’m raising my kids so I

I’m I’m working I’m raising my kids so I don’t need to do all the extra stuff but

don’t need to do all the extra stuff but

don’t need to do all the extra stuff but then in 2013 all this rhetoric about

then in 2013 all this rhetoric about

then in 2013 all this rhetoric about immigrants 2013-2014 of this rhetoric of

immigrants 2013-2014 of this rhetoric of

immigrants 2013-2014 of this rhetoric of immigrants started coming out and being

immigrants started coming out and being

immigrants started coming out and being very negative so I thought huh I think

very negative so I thought huh I think

very negative so I thought huh I think this is about time that I do something

this is about time that I do something

this is about time that I do something about it so I decided to become a

about it so I decided to become a

about it so I decided to become a citizen again vetting process this time

citizen again vetting process this time

citizen again vetting process this time it wasn’t 100

it wasn’t 100

it wasn’t 100 to not thirty dollars this time a six

to not thirty dollars this time a six

to not thirty dollars this time a six hundred and eighty dollars and I went up

hundred and eighty dollars and I went up

hundred and eighty dollars and I went up it went up to 7 25 we sent all the

it went up to 7 25 we sent all the

it went up to 7 25 we sent all the paperwork get also interviewed again

paperwork get also interviewed again

paperwork get also interviewed again fingerprinted all the whole nine yards

fingerprinted all the whole nine yards

fingerprinted all the whole nine yards and on August 13 2014 I became a citizen

and on August 13 2014 I became a citizen

and on August 13 2014 I became a citizen of the United States of America I was

of the United States of America I was

of the United States of America I was very happy thank you I was very happy

very happy thank you I was very happy

very happy thank you I was very happy because I thought now uh this is it’s

because I thought now uh this is it’s

because I thought now uh this is it’s all good you know I’m gonna be faith I

all good you know I’m gonna be faith I

all good you know I’m gonna be faith I don’t have to worry about anything but

don’t have to worry about anything but

don’t have to worry about anything but it’s not really the case because what

it’s not really the case because what

it’s not really the case because what happens is that in the past the idea of

happens is that in the past the idea of

happens is that in the past the idea of an immigrant was this person who is

an immigrant was this person who is

an immigrant was this person who is coming to to America work really hard be

coming to to America work really hard be

coming to to America work really hard be determined really strong pursue the

determined really strong pursue the

determined really strong pursue the American Dream be the building block of

American Dream be the building block of

American Dream be the building block of the United States of America that’s what

the United States of America that’s what

the United States of America that’s what it was in the past but it seems to be

it was in the past but it seems to be

it was in the past but it seems to be shifting a little bit now what we hear

shifting a little bit now what we hear

shifting a little bit now what we hear about immigrants a lot of times is drug

about immigrants a lot of times is drug

about immigrants a lot of times is drug dealers violent people rapists

dealers violent people rapists

dealers violent people rapists terrorists taking our jobs all these

terrorists taking our jobs all these

terrorists taking our jobs all these kinds of things that come with now being

kinds of things that come with now being

kinds of things that come with now being an immigrant which is a different thing

an immigrant which is a different thing

an immigrant which is a different thing for anybody who is an immigrant and I’m

for anybody who is an immigrant and I’m

for anybody who is an immigrant and I’m not my story is not like everyone else

not my story is not like everyone else

not my story is not like everyone else because some of us are doing very well

because some of us are doing very well

because some of us are doing very well we live our lives we have a good life we

we live our lives we have a good life we

we live our lives we have a good life we have jobs so it is ok for a lot of us

have jobs so it is ok for a lot of us

have jobs so it is ok for a lot of us but for some others is not I had a

but for some others is not I had a

but for some others is not I had a choice when i came to the united states

choice when i came to the united states

choice when i came to the united states i chose to come here because I chose

i chose to come here because I chose

i chose to come here because I chose that that to be my future however there

that that to be my future however there

that that to be my future however there are thousands of people that do not have

are thousands of people that do not have

are thousands of people that do not have the choice the choice for them is either

the choice the choice for them is either

the choice the choice for them is either you leave or you die and

I think about that every day because we

I think about that every day because we have so many we know so many people who

have so many we know so many people who

have so many we know so many people who are whose parents are immigrant I worry

are whose parents are immigrant I worry

are whose parents are immigrant I worry about our alum who are from Iran our

about our alum who are from Iran our

about our alum who are from Iran our friends from Lebanon I worry about

friends from Lebanon I worry about

friends from Lebanon I worry about everything and how difficult it is for

everything and how difficult it is for

everything and how difficult it is for them to actually go to a safe place this

them to actually go to a safe place this

them to actually go to a safe place this letter this letter said that I represent

letter this letter said that I represent

letter this letter said that I represent the promise of the American dream

the promise of the American dream

the promise of the American dream because of my determination and this

because of my determination and this

because of my determination and this great nation is now my nation but is it

great nation is now my nation but is it

great nation is now my nation but is it really because when you see me you see

really because when you see me you see

really because when you see me you see the color of my skin you don’t see my

the color of my skin you don’t see my

the color of my skin you don’t see my essence you don’t know who i am when you

essence you don’t know who i am when you

essence you don’t know who i am when you hear me you hear my accent so you assume

hear me you hear my accent so you assume

hear me you hear my accent so you assume people assume that I am from somebody

people assume that I am from somebody

people assume that I am from somebody somewhere else so the question is where

somewhere else so the question is where

somewhere else so the question is where are you from well i usually say i am

are you from well i usually say i am

are you from well i usually say i am from the US on a US citizen no really

from the US on a US citizen no really

from the US on a US citizen no really where are you from so there is an

where are you from so there is an

where are you from so there is an implication there that I am NOT from

implication there that I am NOT from

implication there that I am NOT from here which is not true I am a loyal

here which is not true I am a loyal

here which is not true I am a loyal citizen of the United States of America

citizen of the United States of America

citizen of the United States of America I am proud to be American and being an

I am proud to be American and being an

I am proud to be American and being an immigrant it’s not easy you know even if

immigrant it’s not easy you know even if

immigrant it’s not easy you know even if an eye that I took the choice I I came

an eye that I took the choice I I came

an eye that I took the choice I I came here by choice but it’s like you’re part

here by choice but it’s like you’re part

here by choice but it’s like you’re part of your heart is ripped and left

of your heart is ripped and left

of your heart is ripped and left somewhere else and you don’t have

somewhere else and you don’t have

somewhere else and you don’t have contact with that anymore we become

contact with that anymore we become

contact with that anymore we become Inbetweeners not from here and not from

Inbetweeners not from here and not from

Inbetweeners not from here and not from there and it’s hard um now I understand

there and it’s hard um now I understand

there and it’s hard um now I understand that when my parents when my parents

that when my parents when my parents

that when my parents when my parents said no you cannot go to the US they

said no you cannot go to the US they

said no you cannot go to the US they were thinking about me in them because

were thinking about me in them because

were thinking about me in them because they were

they were

they were children of immigrants and they knew my

children of immigrants and they knew my

children of immigrants and they knew my grandparents had that little hole in

grandparents had that little hole in

grandparents had that little hole in their hearts because home was not home

their hearts because home was not home

their hearts because home was not home anymore they can they could nope they

anymore they can they could nope they

anymore they can they could nope they could not go back home so there was

could not go back home so there was

could not go back home so there was always that little bit of loneliness in

always that little bit of loneliness in

always that little bit of loneliness in them so I think that I think I

them so I think that I think I

them so I think that I think I understand now that I am an immigrant

understand now that I am an immigrant

understand now that I am an immigrant and in the United States of America what

and in the United States of America what

and in the United States of America what it means and what my parents meant when

it means and what my parents meant when

it means and what my parents meant when they say no you can’t go I have hope

they say no you can’t go I have hope

they say no you can’t go I have hope even though things are a little bit

even though things are a little bit

even though things are a little bit rough I have hope and I hope that this

rough I have hope and I hope that this

rough I have hope and I hope that this letter becomes true for all of us it

letter becomes true for all of us it

letter becomes true for all of us it says that since our funding rate

says that since our funding rate

says that since our funding rate generations of immigrants have come to

generations of immigrants have come to

generations of immigrants have come to this country full of hope full of

this country full of hope full of

this country full of hope full of brighter future and they have made

brighter future and they have made

brighter future and they have made sacrifices a lot of sacrifices in order

sacrifices a lot of sacrifices in order

sacrifices a lot of sacrifices in order to pass the legacy of our children

to pass the legacy of our children

to pass the legacy of our children legacy from your children and

legacy from your children and

legacy from your children and grandchildren so I hope this becomes

grandchildren so I hope this becomes

grandchildren so I hope this becomes true for a lot of us and in the words of

true for a lot of us and in the words of

true for a lot of us and in the words of professor Stevens from The Ohio State

professor Stevens from The Ohio State

professor Stevens from The Ohio State University he said a few days ago that I

University he said a few days ago that I

University he said a few days ago that I heard him to all immigrants to all the

heard him to all immigrants to all the

heard him to all immigrants to all the people who feel that they do not belong

people who feel that they do not belong

people who feel that they do not belong you are enough you do belong and you are

you are enough you do belong and you are

you are enough you do belong and you are worthy thank you

worthy thank you

worthy thank you [Applause]

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