I hear things that echo
because that’s a bit of what I’m going
speak while it’s very different
I still a little leaded
the atmosphere
November 13, 2015
I lived a most extreme adventure
of my life November 13, 2015 I was at
your place in the bataclan and I got
luck that may seem to you to be
an oxymoron luck and bataclan in the
same sentence but I was lucky I
I got out alive I lost
no one
I was very lucky because
I was married I had a wife of
children of the parents a psychiatrist who have me
helped to bear all that I was
lucky because I knew how to draw
it’s my job you illustrator
medical I was able to draw what I
lived
I was lucky because I
met a publisher lemieux editors
it is not invented I saw the man
he told me his name I could not believe it
I thought it was him I had
luck because I could still
continue to live just now yes
explain to you that’s exactly it
I did better but it’s
exactly that November 13, France
experienced a most deadly attack
that she has known for 70 years
130 dead 4,113 injured
99 in critical condition ie
that all here you are either dead or
hurt that’s huge it’s only
the direct victims
November 13 I spent two hours
in the antechamber of the elongated death
in the blood nobody understood what
happened to me first
smell of powder I have a firecrackers
but it’s not in rhythm with the music
something does not coincide all the
world throws itself to the ground without frankly
see what’s going on without frankly
understand if he’s getting
pass
I find myself at six with the
stature lying on people sitting on
the people lying down
I see the shooters I see them we
to shoot on
I do not understand I lie down despite
while laughing while saying to all the
world
the v you are devoted to it is to laugh
I saw them throwing a charger for
to tend to his fake I know I have to
to be a little pissy even a lot
but I did not understand a door of
relief opened wise of the windscreen
after is what was a mass
elongated became a moving mass
a wave of fear people were starting
very quickly to go out and following
this movement I saw a girl get herself
to walk on
both legs tossing to the rhythm of
fleeing so do not take the term
fugitives as a pejorative term because
that when you have three carriages that
pulls you in the back everyone is leaking
it’s normal it’s a reflex I
kneeling on the ground
something approached me foot I know
not well what happened and I
crossed of young people the look of a young
dead man
I understood
the girl next to me I’m going
offer help anyway a little
unhuman could not get up
she was hurt from side to side by
the buttocks so I lay down in
meaning because I told myself that
it was the best thing to
to make the best hiding place we do not kill
the dead normally and I held
company # 7 girls in front
me there was a young man I’m going
ask how he was going I took the
hand but she was cold I got
so really turned to this
elisa girl that I took for my
daughter my granddaughter of bataclan in
did she was 32 years old
and as I’m almost 50 it was ok
and then we stayed together
kept the little words we managed to
exchange our names of date of
birth there we lived small
words of support c1 it’s nothing I’m going
to vomit a go there it will be more realistic
a little later I will tell
the story of the penguin who was breathing through
the she did not know her then she
did not listen because there was
other noises including an explosion
which brought us a little bit more
the horror we cover with flesh and
blood
since we were a few meters away
evening we spent two hours
together two hours to try
to get two hours to try to get
bear to be human one for
the other one has created a bubble
humanity
to both of us a little bubble a bubble
who held us
I thought I could not
to die that I have the three kids I’m
said I had to continue
every little beat was a
count of the life time you earn
is the one that had just passed because
the future did not know I
reassured lisa where he saying that the
shots that were heard were
those who do not kill us is
really reassuring because I had
not bad so we could advance in the
time I even fell asleep
finally almost asleep visibly
it’s a fairly common reflex I have
spoke with a war reporter
medically on places I believe that
it’s in iraq fell asleep right in
battlefield mode of protection
we do not understand why the brain is
off and then I managed to get out at
23:23 right now of course I
warn my wife who costs me a little
the grass underfoot because I’m going
prepare a good joke
nice concert but you did well
not come now I have not had the
time because she had turned on the
radio and it was an hour
who were worried she had rameu
the whole family so my parents
were there since she is the little
who slept in the room and could
not going to join me nurses
super hero super woman who wanted me
save but no it was not possible
I joined my wife and my father to
4:30 am Place de la Bastille
half an hour trapped
well not even half an hour and a quarter
from hour to walk I put a
half an hour terrorize alone covered
of blood I was asked if I had
not met a terrorist fleeing and
when I saw my wife and father I
seen in their eyes everything except what
I was expecting I thought I would find
joy but name of love yes of dread
yes of terror but no joy
I put a little bit of time before
understand that he could not be
happy like me I was for them I
had just come out of death
it was four hours that I
it was that I was out it was
four hours that I saw them
stretchers that passed that made four
hours what a choice is the bags
plastics that went on when I was
back home was the big blur
a minute a second an hour I do not
do not know I went back to another
dimension
I entered a dimension we have
more future I got into a
dimension to bataclan is constantly
in my eyes I sleep I make
nightmares this bataclan
I’m awake I see the bataclan I
see the massacre I see the friends
I took a very long time to know
for example where were the friends and
who was embarrassed for a very long time
before returning to elect two days
what seemed like an eternity
I started to be able to sleep
ie 2h 2h 2h not in a row
to mess with and I asked myself this
question but why do I
am alive now why is this
that I was spared what is it
the meaning of all that is what I
have to do that night that was
so painful that I would have
preferred to stay punctured rather than
to continue to live that makes no sense
that is the meaning of life when we know
that we can kill so easily that we can
die so easily
what is the meaning of all this I do not
did not find
I did not find I’m a draftsman
the idea of the drawings but you came but
I could not draw everything it was
not possible I could not draw
all these bodies it does not look like me
it’s because I like it because
I want to draw the emotion the intention
the epr yes but not draw the horror he
took me three months of thinking three
month with my shrink three months and the
parents in three months to think
to finally find the stuff and
tips that allowed me to draw
all this finally draw for me it’s
not really still drawing because
it was so nervous so much
tense I managed I started
in it was the goal
a meaning to my life I had found everything
all of a sudden I had a future
hit found a dimension that was going
beyond the second beyond the
minute
I could project myself on the goal that
I was not for nothing
started with the first board it’s
the first one I had in mind in
the head on 15 the first is the
last one where I’m outside I’m
I’m reappropriated this evening by
this comic
I reappropriated my output I
am I actor of my exit in
drawing and then I realized other
things there are plenty of people finally
who live extreme situations in
outside of this kind of situation and all
suddenly I find a meaning to that I
suffered an absence of futures
I wanted to deprive myself of my future
wanted to deprive me of this projection
that we all have an anticipation in the
life what are the people who do not have
healthy people who are dying people
who suffer from diseases of people who
are unemployed
we talked about it instantly you go
tell you now comparable t’as
risk your life they ‘re just at
unemployment
yes but when you are at the end of
rights when you have to pay the
milked when you have to pay for food
when you have to dress up kids
was talking about it right now it’s exactly
that you have no future and this
absence of futures it is patent for
everyone
imagine two a couple who works in
factory
this plant that will close to be
transported to the other end of Europe
while it is profitable
we will not wonder if in two years
they will be in the end of rights how
they will live in two years the ultra
liberalism is as violent as the
terrorism
ultra-liberalism does as many
damage not the same way there
do not have an assault rifle
not against it is executes people
were going by the hundreds we fired them
and we’ll see what it’s like
not our problem also enriched us
it’s just as extreme as what
I lived in France at the moment
we have nine million people in
below the poverty line
the equivalent of a country like Switzerland
it’s a bit less for Switzerland
I think it’s bright in germany
they have 12 points 5 million of
people below the threshold of
poverty
the equivalent of the island’s population
de france so it’s not paris it’s
the island of France is huge
not bad for the two strong countries of
Europe not bad for both countries
driving force of our economy in Africa
people are dying in mines for
extract the ore that will be used to
the phone components the one that
I have in my pocket
the one we all have in our mouths
children in china are going to assemble these
same phone then after you
return in another form to
Africa in illegal dumps
polluting a whole country the case in Ghana
for example a lot of discharge
that deprives people of a future by
killing
it’s ultra liberalism I do not
no distinction simply in the
religious ideological political form
the extremes we kill ourselves by
lure of profits
coldly by ideology but in this null
thanks to the deceased I found a
future I found meaning in my life
and we all need that future
we all need meaning in our lives
and I wish we worked
human whole to find him
thank you
[Applause]
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