so today I’m gonna tell you how in my but the majority this talk is actually
but the majority this talk is actually
but the majority this talk is actually me showing you how did you just stop and
me showing you how did you just stop and
me showing you how did you just stop and stigma in this regard is is cyclical
stigma in this regard is is cyclical
stigma in this regard is is cyclical those that haven’t experienced not tell
those that haven’t experienced not tell
those that haven’t experienced not tell difficulties or in the dark as to what
difficulties or in the dark as to what
difficulties or in the dark as to what it actually entails and as such they
it actually entails and as such they
it actually entails and as such they might not understand or even fear us
might not understand or even fear us
might not understand or even fear us whereas those that have find it
whereas those that have find it
whereas those that have find it difficult to talk out about their
difficult to talk out about their
difficult to talk out about their feelings because they don’t think
feelings because they don’t think
feelings because they don’t think they’ll be understood it’s my belief
they’ll be understood it’s my belief
they’ll be understood it’s my belief that’s the best way we can combat this
that’s the best way we can combat this
that’s the best way we can combat this is for those to have experienced massive
is for those to have experienced massive
is for those to have experienced massive difficulties to step forward and share
difficulties to step forward and share
difficulties to step forward and share their experiences and normalize
their experiences and normalize
their experiences and normalize something that unfortunate for a lot of
something that unfortunate for a lot of
something that unfortunate for a lot of people is deemed to be uncomfortable or
people is deemed to be uncomfortable or
people is deemed to be uncomfortable or even shameful to talk of it so what I’m
even shameful to talk of it so what I’m
even shameful to talk of it so what I’m gonna do today is share with you my own
gonna do today is share with you my own
gonna do today is share with you my own mental health experience hopefully won’t
mental health experience hopefully won’t
mental health experience hopefully won’t be too depressing
be too depressing
be too depressing no pun intended it’s the first of
no pun intended it’s the first of
no pun intended it’s the first of several bad jokes to hear of the next
several bad jokes to hear of the next
several bad jokes to hear of the next time and I’m gonna finish to some
time and I’m gonna finish to some
time and I’m gonna finish to some advices on so just a bit by me and my
advices on so just a bit by me and my
advices on so just a bit by me and my name is Alex I’m 22 and I’m from Dublin
name is Alex I’m 22 and I’m from Dublin
name is Alex I’m 22 and I’m from Dublin I’m a finding a student of English here
I’m a finding a student of English here
I’m a finding a student of English here Trinity and I’ve been a suffer
Trinity and I’ve been a suffer
Trinity and I’ve been a suffer depression of size about 15 years old
depression of size about 15 years old
depression of size about 15 years old now this would probably call Muslim
now this would probably call Muslim
now this would probably call Muslim you’re surprised two people that know me
you’re surprised two people that know me
you’re surprised two people that know me personally because in general I’m the
personally because in general I’m the
personally because in general I’m the very positive and echoing person and
very positive and echoing person and
very positive and echoing person and depressions are something that I’ve ever
depressions are something that I’ve ever
depressions are something that I’ve ever really discussed before it and until I
really discussed before it and until I
really discussed before it and until I noticed I was doing this talk there were
noticed I was doing this talk there were
noticed I was doing this talk there were maybe five people in my personal life
maybe five people in my personal life
maybe five people in my personal life that knew and my own siblings my two
that knew and my own siblings my two
that knew and my own siblings my two sisters didn’t know until I so I was
sisters didn’t know until I so I was
sisters didn’t know until I so I was very 2017 with how you’d have to know I
very 2017 with how you’d have to know I
very 2017 with how you’d have to know I set up a whatsapp group for the three of
set up a whatsapp group for the three of
set up a whatsapp group for the three of us and told them throughthe us for them
us and told them throughthe us for them
us and told them throughthe us for them I was considering committing fully to
I was considering committing fully to
I was considering committing fully to the digital age and sending them a
the digital age and sending them a
the digital age and sending them a snapshot was like the dog filter and
snapshot was like the dog filter and
snapshot was like the dog filter and some high-pitched voice penny like hey
some high-pitched voice penny like hey
some high-pitched voice penny like hey I’m also from the present but I didn’t
I’m also from the present but I didn’t
I’m also from the present but I didn’t do that because I don’t have snapchat
do that because I don’t have snapchat
do that because I don’t have snapchat and I’ve been a terrible idea
and I’ve been a terrible idea
and I’ve been a terrible idea so I say it since about 15 because now
so I say it since about 15 because now
so I say it since about 15 because now in retrospect I can recognize that what
in retrospect I can recognize that what
in retrospect I can recognize that what I was going through was depression but
I was going through was depression but
I was going through was depression but at the time that wasn’t the case because
at the time that wasn’t the case because
at the time that wasn’t the case because the recurring theme of my own experience
the recurring theme of my own experience
the recurring theme of my own experience is one of denial I refused to accept
is one of denial I refused to accept
is one of denial I refused to accept that there’s no larger tax nation for
that there’s no larger tax nation for
that there’s no larger tax nation for the way I was feeling that there was no
the way I was feeling that there was no
the way I was feeling that there was no rationale behind us and at each stage of
rationale behind us and at each stage of
rationale behind us and at each stage of my life I which I find some reasoning
my life I which I find some reasoning
my life I which I find some reasoning that would explain the way that I was
that would explain the way that I was
that would explain the way that I was feeling so when I was about 15 going on
feeling so when I was about 15 going on
feeling so when I was about 15 going on sixteen in my transition in forty or
sixteen in my transition in forty or
sixteen in my transition in forty or school and I began experiencing
school and I began experiencing
school and I began experiencing experiencing these low moods and I
experiencing these low moods and I
experiencing these low moods and I became very withdrawn at home and I
became very withdrawn at home and I
became very withdrawn at home and I would spend a lot of time in my room
would spend a lot of time in my room
would spend a lot of time in my room just feeling very down and very poorly
just feeling very down and very poorly
just feeling very down and very poorly of myself and this wasn’t a constant
of myself and this wasn’t a constant
of myself and this wasn’t a constant thing but it happened often enough for
thing but it happened often enough for
thing but it happened often enough for me to stop and wonder you know why was I
me to stop and wonder you know why was I
me to stop and wonder you know why was I feeling this way and I thought about it
feeling this way and I thought about it
feeling this way and I thought about it and the conclusion I came to was that
and the conclusion I came to was that
and the conclusion I came to was that it’s because I was a teenager
it’s because I was a teenager
it’s because I was a teenager that’s why but I think that in itself
that’s why but I think that in itself
that’s why but I think that in itself somewhat contradictory because you know
somewhat contradictory because you know
somewhat contradictory because you know you’re supposed to realize you’re going
you’re supposed to realize you’re going
you’re supposed to realize you’re going through angst I don’t think you’re your
through angst I don’t think you’re your
through angst I don’t think you’re your typical teenager has a argument their
typical teenager has a argument their
typical teenager has a argument their parents or something then gets up to the
parents or something then gets up to the
parents or something then gets up to the room and is like I can’t wait to design
room and is like I can’t wait to design
room and is like I can’t wait to design spaces that were that doesn’t happen
spaces that were that doesn’t happen
spaces that were that doesn’t happen so that’s shouldn’t my first clue but I
so that’s shouldn’t my first clue but I
so that’s shouldn’t my first clue but I didn’t want to think about any further
didn’t want to think about any further
didn’t want to think about any further then I got to 50 and this became a lot
then I got to 50 and this became a lot
then I got to 50 and this became a lot more regular what was previously only
more regular what was previously only
more regular what was previously only happening once every couple of weeks
happening once every couple of weeks
happening once every couple of weeks when I happened maybe two or three times
when I happened maybe two or three times
when I happened maybe two or three times per week and this also coincided with
per week and this also coincided with
per week and this also coincided with when I first started drinking and going
when I first started drinking and going
when I first started drinking and going out to time with my friends and often I
out to time with my friends and often I
out to time with my friends and often I would find you know coming home from an
would find you know coming home from an
would find you know coming home from an idea sure when I got home and in my room
idea sure when I got home and in my room
idea sure when I got home and in my room on my own I would find myself crying and
on my own I would find myself crying and
on my own I would find myself crying and I couldn’t explain why and as we all
I couldn’t explain why and as we all
I couldn’t explain why and as we all know alcohol is a depressant so the next
know alcohol is a depressant so the next
know alcohol is a depressant so the next morning I wake up and I think about at
morning I wake up and I think about at
morning I wake up and I think about at night I’d wonder he and I just assumed
night I’d wonder he and I just assumed
night I’d wonder he and I just assumed actually yeah it’s just the alcohol it’s
actually yeah it’s just the alcohol it’s
actually yeah it’s just the alcohol it’s the drink this make me feel this way but
the drink this make me feel this way but
the drink this make me feel this way but you know it’s it’s one it’s a Wednesday
you know it’s it’s one it’s a Wednesday
you know it’s it’s one it’s a Wednesday morning or Sunday nice and I was alone
morning or Sunday nice and I was alone
morning or Sunday nice and I was alone in my room and I was crying
in my room and I was crying
in my room and I was crying not having drank anything that’s when I
not having drank anything that’s when I
not having drank anything that’s when I should realize that you know there’s
should realize that you know there’s
should realize that you know there’s probably something else in play here but
probably something else in play here but
probably something else in play here but again I refused I didn’t want except
again I refused I didn’t want except
again I refused I didn’t want except this I didn’t want to think about him I
this I didn’t want to think about him I
this I didn’t want to think about him I didn’t want to be someone that had
didn’t want to be someone that had
didn’t want to be someone that had something that they couldn’t control and
something that they couldn’t control and
something that they couldn’t control and then I got to 60 now this involves in
then I got to 60 now this involves in
then I got to 60 now this involves in something that was pretty much an
something that was pretty much an
something that was pretty much an ever-present part of my life most days
ever-present part of my life most days
ever-present part of my life most days were struggle of you know not wanting to
were struggle of you know not wanting to
were struggle of you know not wanting to spend time on my own because I knew that
spend time on my own because I knew that
spend time on my own because I knew that these feelings would return and six
these feelings would return and six
these feelings would return and six years is a very stressful time for
years is a very stressful time for
years is a very stressful time for everyone ready because you know you’re
everyone ready because you know you’re
everyone ready because you know you’re sitting the leaving service and you know
sitting the leaving service and you know
sitting the leaving service and you know you’re you’re trying to get into college
you’re you’re trying to get into college
you’re you’re trying to get into college and that’s how I rationalized that then
and that’s how I rationalized that then
and that’s how I rationalized that then it was like this just 60 I’m gonna get
it was like this just 60 I’m gonna get
it was like this just 60 I’m gonna get through it but it became very inhibiting
through it but it became very inhibiting
through it but it became very inhibiting in my life my home life was very
in my life my home life was very
in my life my home life was very difficult because I was very poor
difficult because I was very poor
difficult because I was very poor communicating with my parents and school
communicating with my parents and school
communicating with my parents and school is a struggle because I had to pretend
is a struggle because I had to pretend
is a struggle because I had to pretend to be this positive and a negative
to be this positive and a negative
to be this positive and a negative person whereas no one actually knew to
person whereas no one actually knew to
person whereas no one actually knew to distress that I was under the pain that
distress that I was under the pain that
distress that I was under the pain that I was going through and the closest I
I was going through and the closest I
I was going through and the closest I came to actually telling some that this
came to actually telling some that this
came to actually telling some that this wasn’t six theory it was during an those
wasn’t six theory it was during an those
wasn’t six theory it was during an those routine meeting with my guidance
routine meeting with my guidance
routine meeting with my guidance counselor you know you have those
counselor you know you have those
counselor you know you have those meetings on your six tier where you fill
meetings on your six tier where you fill
meetings on your six tier where you fill out this test and do these you know
out this test and do these you know
out this test and do these you know answer this questionnaire and then this
answer this questionnaire and then this
answer this questionnaire and then this computer algorithm of somehow tells you
computer algorithm of somehow tells you
computer algorithm of somehow tells you it magically knows what career you’re
it magically knows what career you’re
it magically knows what career you’re gonna have in your older you know
gonna have in your older you know
gonna have in your older you know I think mine was like assistant
I think mine was like assistant
I think mine was like assistant librarian or something which is like so
librarian or something which is like so
librarian or something which is like so specific yet kind of disappointing but
specific yet kind of disappointing but
specific yet kind of disappointing but and anyway it was one of those meetings
and anyway it was one of those meetings
and anyway it was one of those meetings and there and we were talking about that
and there and we were talking about that
and there and we were talking about that and talking to a college and then the
and talking to a college and then the
and talking to a college and then the guidance can just completely and
guidance can just completely and
guidance can just completely and obviously he just asked me and how’s
obviously he just asked me and how’s
obviously he just asked me and how’s everything else with you and I was just
everything else with you and I was just
everything else with you and I was just feeling very vulnerable and kind of
feeling very vulnerable and kind of
feeling very vulnerable and kind of talking by surprise and I started crying
talking by surprise and I started crying
talking by surprise and I started crying and then as any good guidance counselor
and then as any good guidance counselor
and then as any good guidance counselor would recognize me she realized that it
would recognize me she realized that it
would recognize me she realized that it probably wasn’t the fact that she just
probably wasn’t the fact that she just
probably wasn’t the fact that she just told me I was gonna be an assistant
told me I was gonna be an assistant
told me I was gonna be an assistant librarian I was making her cry so she
librarian I was making her cry so she
librarian I was making her cry so she was like what she asked me what was
was like what she asked me what was
was like what she asked me what was wrong and I didn’t explain I said I’m
wrong and I didn’t explain I said I’m
wrong and I didn’t explain I said I’m just stressed it’s fine it’s just six
just stressed it’s fine it’s just six
just stressed it’s fine it’s just six through my left and I was that after him
through my left and I was that after him
through my left and I was that after him outside there was the first year in
outside there was the first year in
outside there was the first year in there twelve or thirteen year old boy
there twelve or thirteen year old boy
there twelve or thirteen year old boy and I waiting to go in and and you know
and I waiting to go in and and you know
and I waiting to go in and and you know when you’re in sixty you set something
when you’re in sixty you set something
when you’re in sixty you set something good examples on younger years you’re
good examples on younger years you’re
good examples on younger years you’re locked up too and you seem like other
locked up too and you seem like other
locked up too and you seem like other words then I remember isin first year
words then I remember isin first year
words then I remember isin first year even though they’re a few years older
even though they’re a few years older
even though they’re a few years older than you like six years might as well
than you like six years might as well
than you like six years might as well you know have pension plans and
you know have pension plans and
you know have pension plans and mortgages a whole different stratosphere
mortgages a whole different stratosphere
mortgages a whole different stratosphere and then obviously I came out and you
and then obviously I came out and you
and then obviously I came out and you know he probably heard me crying inside
know he probably heard me crying inside
know he probably heard me crying inside and like it was quite visibly upset and
and like it was quite visibly upset and
and like it was quite visibly upset and he looked at me in this with this kind
he looked at me in this with this kind
he looked at me in this with this kind of confusion and you know not really
of confusion and you know not really
of confusion and you know not really understanding how someone could be
understanding how someone could be
understanding how someone could be feeling like this and how they were
feeling like this and how they were
feeling like this and how they were showing this and in that moment I knew
showing this and in that moment I knew
showing this and in that moment I knew that I could never let anyone look at me
that I could never let anyone look at me
that I could never let anyone look at me that way again and it was a very crucial
that way again and it was a very crucial
that way again and it was a very crucial negatively crucial watershed moment for
negatively crucial watershed moment for
negatively crucial watershed moment for me because I decided that an area that I
me because I decided that an area that I
me because I decided that an area that I was not gonna turning about this this
was not gonna turning about this this
was not gonna turning about this this was something I was gonna have to do on
was something I was gonna have to do on
was something I was gonna have to do on my own
my own
my own whatever was I was gonna have to do it
whatever was I was gonna have to do it
whatever was I was gonna have to do it so and I got 360 I got a to Trinity and
so and I got 360 I got a to Trinity and
so and I got 360 I got a to Trinity and started first year starts English and
started first year starts English and
started first year starts English and then you know whereas previously every
then you know whereas previously every
then you know whereas previously every year I had some kind of explanation with
year I had some kind of explanation with
year I had some kind of explanation with the way I was feeling in first year
the way I was feeling in first year
the way I was feeling in first year there was no social exhibition because
there was no social exhibition because
there was no social exhibition because everything that could’ve been going well
everything that could’ve been going well
everything that could’ve been going well was I was in college I had a part-time
was I was in college I had a part-time
was I was in college I had a part-time job I was gonna have my friends lives in
job I was gonna have my friends lives in
job I was gonna have my friends lives in societies I was studying kind of and and
societies I was studying kind of and and
societies I was studying kind of and and so everything showed them in grades but
so everything showed them in grades but
so everything showed them in grades but still this feeling I had almost every
still this feeling I had almost every
still this feeling I had almost every single day of just desperate desperate
single day of just desperate desperate
single day of just desperate desperate sadness and thinking so poorly of myself
sadness and thinking so poorly of myself
sadness and thinking so poorly of myself and you know as well the fact that again
and you know as well the fact that again
and you know as well the fact that again I just you know it’s it’s difficult
I just you know it’s it’s difficult
I just you know it’s it’s difficult enough to mask the way you’re feeling
enough to mask the way you’re feeling
enough to mask the way you’re feeling when it’s that strong but not only that
when it’s that strong but not only that
when it’s that strong but not only that put on this facade everyday having
put on this facade everyday having
put on this facade everyday having someone so positive and friendly that
someone so positive and friendly that
someone so positive and friendly that gets all about that room and it was
gets all about that room and it was
gets all about that room and it was incredibly draining and you know college
incredibly draining and you know college
incredibly draining and you know college often came
often came
often came came a great sugar for me you know there
came a great sugar for me you know there
came a great sugar for me you know there were days when I come to the front
were days when I come to the front
were days when I come to the front entrance or Nassau Street entrance to
entrance or Nassau Street entrance to
entrance or Nassau Street entrance to Trinity and I would stand there and I
Trinity and I would stand there and I
Trinity and I would stand there and I know that you know there were six or
know that you know there were six or
know that you know there were six or seven errors I had me where I was gonna
seven errors I had me where I was gonna
seven errors I had me where I was gonna have to pretend to be this person and
have to pretend to be this person and
have to pretend to be this person and some days I couldn’t do it and I knew I
some days I couldn’t do it and I knew I
some days I couldn’t do it and I knew I couldn’t go home because someone at home
couldn’t go home because someone at home
couldn’t go home because someone at home might be like what are you home for
might be like what are you home for
might be like what are you home for college I couldn’t go into college so
college I couldn’t go into college so
college I couldn’t go into college so there are certain days when I just go to
there are certain days when I just go to
there are certain days when I just go to Stephen’s Green I just sit there for
Stephen’s Green I just sit there for
Stephen’s Green I just sit there for errors or I go on a walk and I just
errors or I go on a walk and I just
errors or I go on a walk and I just terrified that someone seen anybody like
terrified that someone seen anybody like
terrified that someone seen anybody like what are you doing why so says on the
what are you doing why so says on the
what are you doing why so says on the days when I did manage to get through us
days when I did manage to get through us
days when I did manage to get through us I remember one particular time was in
I remember one particular time was in
I remember one particular time was in first and second it’s the first or
first and second it’s the first or
first and second it’s the first or second year I was just so drained and
second year I was just so drained and
second year I was just so drained and you have no energy when Santa this goes
you have no energy when Santa this goes
you have no energy when Santa this goes on and I got the bus home and boss
on and I got the bus home and boss
on and I got the bus home and boss Charlie to Diana my Cody cycle it’s a
Charlie to Diana my Cody cycle it’s a
Charlie to Diana my Cody cycle it’s a very small rose and I got off the bus
very small rose and I got off the bus
very small rose and I got off the bus and I just didn’t have the energy to
and I just didn’t have the energy to
and I just didn’t have the energy to walk the hundred meters to my door and I
walk the hundred meters to my door and I
walk the hundred meters to my door and I just sat there i sat there in my
just sat there i sat there in my
just sat there i sat there in my cul-de-sac and I couldn’t get up and I
cul-de-sac and I couldn’t get up and I
cul-de-sac and I couldn’t get up and I was terrified because I thought you know
was terrified because I thought you know
was terrified because I thought you know someone who’s gonna come in the corner
someone who’s gonna come in the corner
someone who’s gonna come in the corner any second a neighbor or family member
any second a neighbor or family member
any second a neighbor or family member and they see me and they asked what I
and they see me and they asked what I
and they see me and they asked what I was doing I just took everything that I
was doing I just took everything that I
was doing I just took everything that I had just turned up and walked 100 meters
had just turned up and walked 100 meters
had just turned up and walked 100 meters to my door and then go up and collapsed
to my door and then go up and collapsed
to my door and then go up and collapsed in my room and you know this this kind
in my room and you know this this kind
in my room and you know this this kind of thing doesn’t go unnoticed at home
of thing doesn’t go unnoticed at home
of thing doesn’t go unnoticed at home and what had previously been a very
and what had previously been a very
and what had previously been a very withdrawn side of myself when I was a
withdrawn side of myself when I was a
withdrawn side of myself when I was a teenager had evolved there – almost
teenager had evolved there – almost
teenager had evolved there – almost monosyllabic 30 I barely spoke at home
monosyllabic 30 I barely spoke at home
monosyllabic 30 I barely spoke at home sometimes I might end speak at all and
sometimes I might end speak at all and
sometimes I might end speak at all and of course this was was notice my parents
of course this was was notice my parents
of course this was was notice my parents were like you know it was obviously very
were like you know it was obviously very
were like you know it was obviously very difficult for them because I was no
difficult for them because I was no
difficult for them because I was no longer a teenager I wasn’t like nineteen
longer a teenager I wasn’t like nineteen
longer a teenager I wasn’t like nineteen years old and they’re running my house
years old and they’re running my house
years old and they’re running my house or feeling like this and in a way I took
or feeling like this and in a way I took
or feeling like this and in a way I took this kind of perverse pride of no
this kind of perverse pride of no
this kind of perverse pride of no knowing what I was going through this
knowing what I was going through this
knowing what I was going through this was kind of something that the everyone
was kind of something that the everyone
was kind of something that the everyone was oblivious to and in my head is
was oblivious to and in my head is
was oblivious to and in my head is something that I was just getting
something that I was just getting
something that I was just getting through and I so strong and independent
through and I so strong and independent
through and I so strong and independent so I was up to do it and but one of the
so I was up to do it and but one of the
so I was up to do it and but one of the times when my emotions did review
times when my emotions did review
times when my emotions did review themselves was when my mom was giving he
themselves was when my mom was giving he
themselves was when my mom was giving he left somewhere I think it’s to college
left somewhere I think it’s to college
left somewhere I think it’s to college and she was just driving us that she was
and she was just driving us that she was
and she was just driving us that she was sitting in the front seat beside her and
sitting in the front seat beside her and
sitting in the front seat beside her and and she asked me how I was and I was
and she asked me how I was and I was
and she asked me how I was and I was very upset and I started crying and I
very upset and I started crying and I
very upset and I started crying and I couldn’t tell her why I had no
couldn’t tell her why I had no
couldn’t tell her why I had no explanation and she said to me Alex do
explanation and she said to me Alex do
explanation and she said to me Alex do you think you might be depressed and the
you think you might be depressed and the
you think you might be depressed and the first thing that came to my head was yes
first thing that came to my head was yes
first thing that came to my head was yes absolutely and the first thing I said
absolutely and the first thing I said
absolutely and the first thing I said was no absolutely yes
was no absolutely yes
was no absolutely yes and it kind of reminds me of you know
and it kind of reminds me of you know
and it kind of reminds me of you know when you get to go ahead when you go get
when you get to go ahead when you go get
when you get to go ahead when you go get your haircuts and you know they ask you
your haircuts and you know they ask you
your haircuts and you know they ask you how it is and I’m out of hair by that is
how it is and I’m out of hair by that is
how it is and I’m out of hair by that is you always say it goes like I know for
you always say it goes like I know for
you always say it goes like I know for me like they could they could shave
me like they could they could shave
me like they could they could shave their initials inside my head nice to be
their initials inside my head nice to be
their initials inside my head nice to be like yeah great job and and that was my
like yeah great job and and that was my
like yeah great job and and that was my that was the cows case from Iman that’s
that was the cows case from Iman that’s
that was the cows case from Iman that’s a hoof that’s I no matter how bad it was
a hoof that’s I no matter how bad it was
a hoof that’s I no matter how bad it was I would always say everything’s fine
I would always say everything’s fine
I would always say everything’s fine everything’s fine and College became for
everything’s fine and College became for
everything’s fine and College became for me series of short term objectives it
me series of short term objectives it
me series of short term objectives it was getting through each day
was getting through each day
was getting through each day it was getting through each week if I
it was getting through each week if I
it was getting through each week if I had an essay deadline I was a couple of
had an essay deadline I was a couple of
had an essay deadline I was a couple of weeks away I couldn’t even think about
weeks away I couldn’t even think about
weeks away I couldn’t even think about until a few days before and I just
until a few days before and I just
until a few days before and I just managed to get by I scraped by first
managed to get by I scraped by first
managed to get by I scraped by first year in second year without anybody
year in second year without anybody
year in second year without anybody knowing and a watershed Mart and other
knowing and a watershed Mart and other
knowing and a watershed Mart and other next crucial moment for me was my
next crucial moment for me was my
next crucial moment for me was my Erasmus because I for the first master
Erasmus because I for the first master
Erasmus because I for the first master of third year I was going in as much to
of third year I was going in as much to
of third year I was going in as much to nice in France for the first semester
nice in France for the first semester
nice in France for the first semester and I view this as an opportunity and it
and I view this as an opportunity and it
and I view this as an opportunity and it was gonna be fresh stars it was a new
was gonna be fresh stars it was a new
was gonna be fresh stars it was a new environment and it was coming over new
environment and it was coming over new
environment and it was coming over new people make new friends and I thought
people make new friends and I thought
people make new friends and I thought that this whatever it was was going on
that this whatever it was was going on
that this whatever it was was going on my life I would come back here so I’d be
my life I would come back here so I’d be
my life I would come back here so I’d be a better person and you know for whoever
a better person and you know for whoever
a better person and you know for whoever strong I thought it was forever
strong I thought it was forever
strong I thought it was forever independent I thought it was you don’t
independent I thought it was you don’t
independent I thought it was you don’t realize the support systems Yellen place
realize the support systems Yellen place
realize the support systems Yellen place until they’re gone and you know
until they’re gone and you know
until they’re gone and you know something as simple I was having a meal
something as simple I was having a meal
something as simple I was having a meal cook for me every evening someone who
cook for me every evening someone who
cook for me every evening someone who cleans my clothes I live at home my mom
cleans my clothes I live at home my mom
cleans my clothes I live at home my mom still does this even at this age and
still does this even at this age and
still does this even at this age and having you know close friends that you
having you know close friends that you
having you know close friends that you can meet up with you know no pressure
can meet up with you know no pressure
can meet up with you know no pressure and obligations and just to talk to you
and obligations and just to talk to you
and obligations and just to talk to you I didn’t have any of those things and
I didn’t have any of those things and
I didn’t have any of those things and Erasmus well positive you know I met a
Erasmus well positive you know I met a
Erasmus well positive you know I met a lot of friends my French improved
lot of friends my French improved
lot of friends my French improved somewhat and it was also the lowest
somewhat and it was also the lowest
somewhat and it was also the lowest point so my passion about the flora you
point so my passion about the flora you
point so my passion about the flora you know the three most we kind of all know
know the three most we kind of all know
know the three most we kind of all know this the three most important things for
this the three most important things for
this the three most important things for men’s health and I’m just your well
men’s health and I’m just your well
men’s health and I’m just your well being in health in general are sleep
being in health in general are sleep
being in health in general are sleep tight and exercise and the best I’ve
tight and exercise and the best I’ve
tight and exercise and the best I’ve ever felt in my life the most crucial
ever felt in my life the most crucial
ever felt in my life the most crucial I’ve ever been is when I the healthy
I’ve ever been is when I the healthy
I’ve ever been is when I the healthy healthy balance of those three and on
healthy balance of those three and on
healthy balance of those three and on Erasmus it was anything but I rarely ace
Erasmus it was anything but I rarely ace
Erasmus it was anything but I rarely ace and I lost a lot of ways I’m pretty
and I lost a lot of ways I’m pretty
and I lost a lot of ways I’m pretty skinny guys that’s not an easy thing to
skinny guys that’s not an easy thing to
skinny guys that’s not an easy thing to do but I’m not sure I develop severe
do but I’m not sure I develop severe
do but I’m not sure I develop severe insomnia and you know days might go by
insomnia and you know days might go by
insomnia and you know days might go by where I wouldn’t leave my smaller room
where I wouldn’t leave my smaller room
where I wouldn’t leave my smaller room on campus and the only release I would
on campus and the only release I would
on campus and the only release I would get would be when people were going at
get would be when people were going at
get would be when people were going at home to the port we’re going in on
home to the port we’re going in on
home to the port we’re going in on others I think unfortunately I very much
others I think unfortunately I very much
others I think unfortunately I very much perpetuating the stereotype of the Irish
perpetuating the stereotype of the Irish
perpetuating the stereotype of the Irish drinking because they would just see me
drinking because they would just see me
drinking because they would just see me in the pub and then they weren’t seen
in the pub and then they weren’t seen
in the pub and then they weren’t seen again for a week
again for a week
again for a week and you know with all this happening of
and you know with all this happening of
and you know with all this happening of course I wasn’t going to cause I had
course I wasn’t going to cause I had
course I wasn’t going to cause I had exams and sanbir which I didn’t sis and
exams and sanbir which I didn’t sis and
exams and sanbir which I didn’t sis and tried to set them again in January and I
tried to set them again in January and I
tried to set them again in January and I wasn’t allowed and I returned home from
wasn’t allowed and I returned home from
wasn’t allowed and I returned home from four months in France with no credits
four months in France with no credits
four months in France with no credits and having essentially failed this mess
and having essentially failed this mess
and having essentially failed this mess room so of course I had to I have to
room so of course I had to I have to
room so of course I had to I have to meet my Erasmus coordinator and my tutor
meet my Erasmus coordinator and my tutor
meet my Erasmus coordinator and my tutor and we spoke about us and they were like
and we spoke about us and they were like
and we spoke about us and they were like head to the top one denies there’s this
head to the top one denies there’s this
head to the top one denies there’s this still this chance the slight chance I
still this chance the slight chance I
still this chance the slight chance I was gonna get through there anyone
was gonna get through there anyone
was gonna get through there anyone knowing I thought I’d be able to talk my
knowing I thought I’d be able to talk my
knowing I thought I’d be able to talk my way through it I was gonna blog through
way through it I was gonna blog through
way through it I was gonna blog through it and I could sit I could get make my
it and I could sit I could get make my
it and I could sit I could get make my credits up somewhere somehow else I put
credits up somewhere somehow else I put
credits up somewhere somehow else I put the question kept going back how did
the question kept going back how did
the question kept going back how did this happen why did you go to these
this happen why did you go to these
this happen why did you go to these classes why don’t you go these classes
classes why don’t you go these classes
classes why don’t you go these classes and then I was faced with a decision I
and then I was faced with a decision I
and then I was faced with a decision I could maintain this lie that I’d had for
could maintain this lie that I’d had for
could maintain this lie that I’d had for so long and not tell anybody about my
so long and not tell anybody about my
so long and not tell anybody about my condition and fail my degree or I could
condition and fail my degree or I could
condition and fail my degree or I could and kids who young and it had reached
and kids who young and it had reached
and kids who young and it had reached that stage where after five years of
that stage where after five years of
that stage where after five years of suffering what I had I was still
suffering what I had I was still
suffering what I had I was still considering not telling anyone even if
considering not telling anyone even if
considering not telling anyone even if lament expense of my education but I
lament expense of my education but I
lament expense of my education but I decided been in there I had to tell
decided been in there I had to tell
decided been in there I had to tell someone I’m so I was out at the age of
someone I’m so I was out at the age of
someone I’m so I was out at the age of twenty the first person I told was my
twenty the first person I told was my
twenty the first person I told was my houses coordinator I said well the
houses coordinator I said well the
houses coordinator I said well the reason I didn’t got his classes because
reason I didn’t got his classes because
reason I didn’t got his classes because I was suffering very important from the
I was suffering very important from the
I was suffering very important from the food oppression and he asked me how long
food oppression and he asked me how long
food oppression and he asked me how long had long people feeling like this and I
had long people feeling like this and I
had long people feeling like this and I said since 15 and of course he
said since 15 and of course he
said since 15 and of course he recognized this is a really serious
recognized this is a really serious
recognized this is a really serious problem that we had to address and in
problem that we had to address and in
problem that we had to address and in conjunction with himself from the tutor
conjunction with himself from the tutor
conjunction with himself from the tutor and some of the some counselors here in
and some of the some counselors here in
and some of the some counselors here in Trinity we you know decided how we’re
Trinity we you know decided how we’re
Trinity we you know decided how we’re gonna get around us and then we reached
gonna get around us and then we reached
gonna get around us and then we reached the point where of course I’d have to
the point where of course I’d have to
the point where of course I’d have to tell my parents because at this stage I
tell my parents because at this stage I
tell my parents because at this stage I still I’ve still letting on that I mean
still I’ve still letting on that I mean
still I’ve still letting on that I mean everything is fine and I came home that
everything is fine and I came home that
everything is fine and I came home that day and I start them down and we had a
day and I start them down and we had a
day and I start them down and we had a discussion and I told them and you know
discussion and I told them and you know
discussion and I told them and you know was very upsetting but my parents
was very upsetting but my parents
was very upsetting but my parents weren’t cutting understanding and
weren’t cutting understanding and
weren’t cutting understanding and supportive and my mom actually you know
supportive and my mom actually you know
supportive and my mom actually you know she’s a Matar sick woman but there’s one
she’s a Matar sick woman but there’s one
she’s a Matar sick woman but there’s one thing that annoys me most in the world
thing that annoys me most in the world
thing that annoys me most in the world is when she’s right and I’m wrong and
is when she’s right and I’m wrong and
is when she’s right and I’m wrong and that’s like 99% of the time so we had
that’s like 99% of the time so we had
that’s like 99% of the time so we had this this big chart I was very cathartic
this this big chart I was very cathartic
this this big chart I was very cathartic for both of us and then I was just
for both of us and then I was just
for both of us and then I was just waiting first then she just goes well I
waiting first then she just goes well I
waiting first then she just goes well I just knew it Alex I said it denied ever
just knew it Alex I said it denied ever
just knew it Alex I said it denied ever do it and I said you have to get that in
do it and I said you have to get that in
do it and I said you have to get that in there isn’t it
there isn’t it
there isn’t it but then so we had this shot and it was
but then so we had this shot and it was
but then so we had this shot and it was determined with counselors in in Trinity
determined with counselors in in Trinity
determined with counselors in in Trinity I’m with my tutor and my rozzers
I’m with my tutor and my rozzers
I’m with my tutor and my rozzers coordinators of course I wasn’t fit to
coordinators of course I wasn’t fit to
coordinators of course I wasn’t fit to continue my studies I had to address
continue my studies I had to address
continue my studies I had to address this problem and so we determined that I
this problem and so we determined that I
this problem and so we determined that I would go off course to the remainder of
would go off course to the remainder of
would go off course to the remainder of the year I was attending monetary
the year I was attending monetary
the year I was attending monetary therapy sessions
therapy sessions
therapy sessions and prior to returning to college I
and prior to returning to college I
and prior to returning to college I would undergo psychiatric evaluation the
would undergo psychiatric evaluation the
would undergo psychiatric evaluation the results of which will determine whether
results of which will determine whether
results of which will determine whether or not I be like to resume studies and
or not I be like to resume studies and
or not I be like to resume studies and and that was a very difficult period for
and that was a very difficult period for
and that was a very difficult period for me because I did go off books and I
me because I did go off books and I
me because I did go off books and I tended these these terrible therapist
tended these these terrible therapist
tended these these terrible therapist actions but it was very difficult you
actions but it was very difficult you
actions but it was very difficult you know after five years of having this
know after five years of having this
know after five years of having this method of getting through this thing and
method of getting through this thing and
method of getting through this thing and you’re not telling any better to
you’re not telling any better to
you’re not telling any better to suddenly going like this to having to
suddenly going like this to having to
suddenly going like this to having to talk every single week about it and
talk every single week about it and
talk every single week about it and verbalize something that previously I
verbalize something that previously I
verbalize something that previously I just internalized but it was incredibly
just internalized but it was incredibly
just internalized but it was incredibly helpful for me and and and one of the my
helpful for me and and and one of the my
helpful for me and and and one of the my greatest issues was with the how poorly
greatest issues was with the how poorly
greatest issues was with the how poorly I was preparing at home how bad I was
I was preparing at home how bad I was
I was preparing at home how bad I was communicating my parents this huge thing
communicating my parents this huge thing
communicating my parents this huge thing came in my head of you know if this is
came in my head of you know if this is
came in my head of you know if this is how I am with people that rerd me if
how I am with people that rerd me if
how I am with people that rerd me if this is you know the person that I think
this is you know the person that I think
this is you know the person that I think I really am how can I ever expect to
I really am how can I ever expect to
I really am how can I ever expect to have a family of my own how can I ever
have a family of my own how can I ever
have a family of my own how can I ever expect one day get married and have
expect one day get married and have
expect one day get married and have children I can barely look after myself
children I can barely look after myself
children I can barely look after myself and I know you’re probably thinking you
and I know you’re probably thinking you
and I know you’re probably thinking you know 19’s variants who think about
know 19’s variants who think about
know 19’s variants who think about having kids but it’s also very young so
having kids but it’s also very young so
having kids but it’s also very young so we completely rooting them out of your
we completely rooting them out of your
we completely rooting them out of your life entirely and a lot of people
life entirely and a lot of people
life entirely and a lot of people visualize depression is this kind of
visualize depression is this kind of
visualize depression is this kind of black dog this thing that follows you
black dog this thing that follows you
black dog this thing that follows you around but for me it wasn’t this
around but for me it wasn’t this
around but for me it wasn’t this separate entity was just a different
separate entity was just a different
separate entity was just a different side to myself the one that I thought
side to myself the one that I thought
side to myself the one that I thought was was real but no one else knew and
was was real but no one else knew and
was was real but no one else knew and the therapy made me realized that wasn’t
the therapy made me realized that wasn’t
the therapy made me realized that wasn’t the case and this wasn’t this wasn’t
the case and this wasn’t this wasn’t
the case and this wasn’t this wasn’t something I struggled with on my own and
something I struggled with on my own and
something I struggled with on my own and however helpful therapy was which was on
however helpful therapy was which was on
however helpful therapy was which was on the time out of college was cliched
the time out of college was cliched
the time out of college was cliched isn’t saying it’s the most helpful thing
isn’t saying it’s the most helpful thing
isn’t saying it’s the most helpful thing to me was the fact that I wasn’t doing
to me was the fact that I wasn’t doing
to me was the fact that I wasn’t doing on my own anymore that people knew that
on my own anymore that people knew that
on my own anymore that people knew that I was what I was going through and I was
I was what I was going through and I was
I was what I was going through and I was made aware of me that this was something
made aware of me that this was something
made aware of me that this was something that I was completely unique in
that I was completely unique in
that I was completely unique in experiencing and I wasn’t something I’d
experiencing and I wasn’t something I’d
experiencing and I wasn’t something I’d be saved she was the rest of my life and
be saved she was the rest of my life and
be saved she was the rest of my life and most important it wasn’t who I was so
most important it wasn’t who I was so
most important it wasn’t who I was so calm September I managed to pass the
calm September I managed to pass the
calm September I managed to pass the psychiatric evaluation got through my
psychiatric evaluation got through my
psychiatric evaluation got through my third year I know I’m a month away from
third year I know I’m a month away from
third year I know I’m a month away from competing my for with you got on my
competing my for with you got on my
competing my for with you got on my degree and it’s at this point that I
degree and it’s at this point that I
degree and it’s at this point that I want to just include you know I’m not a
want to just include you know I’m not a
want to just include you know I’m not a mental health experts nor am i medical
mental health experts nor am i medical
mental health experts nor am i medical medical professional and so I once
medical professional and so I once
medical professional and so I once wanted to include and just a couple of
wanted to include and just a couple of
wanted to include and just a couple of links here and on this first is the TCC
links here and on this first is the TCC
links here and on this first is the TCC student counseling service or incredibly
student counseling service or incredibly
student counseling service or incredibly helpful for me they’re you professor and
helpful for me they’re you professor and
helpful for me they’re you professor and there is a great help scene unaware
there is a great help scene unaware
there is a great help scene unaware which is a nice charity that are
which is a nice charity that are
which is a nice charity that are incredibly well informed is very
incredibly well informed is very
incredibly well informed is very supportive what I’m gonna do this is the
supportive what I’m gonna do this is the
supportive what I’m gonna do this is the only interactive part of the talk I show
only interactive part of the talk I show
only interactive part of the talk I show you what I’m gonna do is I’m gonna ask
you what I’m gonna do is I’m gonna ask
you what I’m gonna do is I’m gonna ask every
every
every here to take to all these details get on
here to take to all these details get on
here to take to all these details get on your phone or pen and paper and the
your phone or pen and paper and the
your phone or pen and paper and the reason I say this is because it just
reason I say this is because it just
reason I say this is because it just might be the case that there’s someone
might be the case that there’s someone
might be the case that there’s someone here that would like to take these down
here that would like to take these down
here that would like to take these down but because of who they’re setting the
but because of who they’re setting the
but because of who they’re setting the size or what they my fear of people
size or what they my fear of people
size or what they my fear of people might think of them they’re not gonna do
might think of them they’re not gonna do
might think of them they’re not gonna do those and that ice exact attitude that
those and that ice exact attitude that
those and that ice exact attitude that we’re trying to change but to avoid that
we’re trying to change but to avoid that
we’re trying to change but to avoid that happening I’d rather everyone take this
happening I’d rather everyone take this
happening I’d rather everyone take this day and then just one person so if you
day and then just one person so if you
day and then just one person so if you can’t I will be like when those lectures
can’t I will be like when those lectures
can’t I will be like when those lectures I’ll go up the back and check that
I’ll go up the back and check that
I’ll go up the back and check that you’re all doing this I will did so
you’re all doing this I will did so
you’re all doing this I will did so let’s hear that rustling paper just just
let’s hear that rustling paper just just
let’s hear that rustling paper just just why you’re doing us and I say it’s that
why you’re doing us and I say it’s that
why you’re doing us and I say it’s that experience as much as anything cuz I
experience as much as anything cuz I
experience as much as anything cuz I remember I remember nights in first year
remember I remember nights in first year
remember I remember nights in first year in school and a teacher coming into one
in school and a teacher coming into one
in school and a teacher coming into one of our classes and making announcements
of our classes and making announcements
of our classes and making announcements that astronomy build-up starting up and
that astronomy build-up starting up and
that astronomy build-up starting up and you know first year at the time it seems
you know first year at the time it seems
you know first year at the time it seems the most important thing is like fitting
the most important thing is like fitting
the most important thing is like fitting in and trying to be cool and if there’s
in and trying to be cool and if there’s
in and trying to be cool and if there’s one thing that I knew to be true before
one thing that I knew to be true before
one thing that I knew to be true before I started second school was that space
I started second school was that space
I started second school was that space was cool
was cool
was cool everyone knows odd you know stars
everyone knows odd you know stars
everyone knows odd you know stars planets unreal so I was like yep sign me
planets unreal so I was like yep sign me
planets unreal so I was like yep sign me up so started second and eatos and then
up so started second and eatos and then
up so started second and eatos and then my friends sing beside me turns to me
my friends sing beside me turns to me
my friends sing beside me turns to me goes do you just take that saying and I
goes do you just take that saying and I
goes do you just take that saying and I said yeah he goes the guide to the side
said yeah he goes the guide to the side
said yeah he goes the guide to the side room he just put that thing and I said
room he just put that thing and I said
room he just put that thing and I said are we not supposed to take the turn and
are we not supposed to take the turn and
are we not supposed to take the turn and he said I remember this this day he said
he said I remember this this day he said
he said I remember this this day he said never do what you’re supposed to do and
never do what you’re supposed to do and
never do what you’re supposed to do and in that moment so much what I thought I
in that moment so much what I thought I
in that moment so much what I thought I knew that life was a real to be alive
knew that life was a real to be alive
knew that life was a real to be alive space isn’t cool I’ll never do what
space isn’t cool I’ll never do what
space isn’t cool I’ll never do what you’re supposed to do but it’s very
you’re supposed to do but it’s very
you’re supposed to do but it’s very steep learning curve now just before I
steep learning curve now just before I
steep learning curve now just before I conclude I had something of a dual dual
conclude I had something of a dual dual
conclude I had something of a dual dual register two objectives going into this
register two objectives going into this
register two objectives going into this talk the first was of course D
talk the first was of course D
talk the first was of course D stigmatized mental health and hopefully
stigmatized mental health and hopefully
stigmatized mental health and hopefully change the attitudes of those that
change the attitudes of those that
change the attitudes of those that haven’t gone through experience like I
haven’t gone through experience like I
haven’t gone through experience like I have and the second was to hopefully
have and the second was to hopefully
have and the second was to hopefully inspire others to talk more openly about
inspire others to talk more openly about
inspire others to talk more openly about their experiences and first isn’t
their experiences and first isn’t
their experiences and first isn’t something you can quantify and it’s not
something you can quantify and it’s not
something you can quantify and it’s not saying that’s gonna happen overnight I
saying that’s gonna happen overnight I
saying that’s gonna happen overnight I do believe you are taking the quick the
do believe you are taking the quick the
do believe you are taking the quick the right steps but there it still exists a
right steps but there it still exists a
right steps but there it still exists a significant a palpable stigma in this
significant a palpable stigma in this
significant a palpable stigma in this country how else were surrounding mental
country how else were surrounding mental
country how else were surrounding mental health the second is for those that have
health the second is for those that have
health the second is for those that have experienced depression to become more
experienced depression to become more
experienced depression to become more comfortable talking about it and I don’t
comfortable talking about it and I don’t
comfortable talking about it and I don’t mean in a public forum as big as says
mean in a public forum as big as says
mean in a public forum as big as says you know it’s a very difficult thing to
you know it’s a very difficult thing to
you know it’s a very difficult thing to do and I’m not gonna lie that there were
do and I’m not gonna lie that there were
do and I’m not gonna lie that there were times in the last couple of weeks where
times in the last couple of weeks where
times in the last couple of weeks where I came very close to pulling out of this
I came very close to pulling out of this
I came very close to pulling out of this talk because I was scared of what people
talk because I was scared of what people
talk because I was scared of what people were paying with my friends treat me
were paying with my friends treat me
were paying with my friends treat me differently and was this going to impact
differently and was this going to impact
differently and was this going to impact me getting a job in the future
me getting a job in the future
me getting a job in the future you know even even though you and I’m up
you know even even though you and I’m up
you know even even though you and I’m up here I’m kinda heights
here I’m kinda heights
here I’m kinda heights there’s this panic in my head this I
there’s this panic in my head this I
there’s this panic in my head this I have I just made a huge mistake
have I just made a huge mistake
have I just made a huge mistake thank you David but it’s the very fact
thank you David but it’s the very fact
thank you David but it’s the very fact that I would even feel that way or that
that I would even feel that way or that
that I would even feel that way or that anyone would feel similarly when
anyone would feel similarly when
anyone would feel similarly when thinking about discussing amounts are
thinking about discussing amounts are
thinking about discussing amounts are the experiences that’s just testament to
the experiences that’s just testament to
the experiences that’s just testament to how much we still need to change no I
how much we still need to change no I
how much we still need to change no I just got finished for the piece of
just got finished for the piece of
just got finished for the piece of advice and there’s three rules that
advice and there’s three rules that
advice and there’s three rules that ingrained in me for whatever reason by
ingrained in me for whatever reason by
ingrained in me for whatever reason by my mom she’s got a lot of mentions of
my mom she’s got a lot of mentions of
my mom she’s got a lot of mentions of this talk or the very positive things
this talk or the very positive things
this talk or the very positive things Montgomery and first year completely
Montgomery and first year completely
Montgomery and first year completely irrelevant
irrelevant
irrelevant I bought the third I think is something
I bought the third I think is something
I bought the third I think is something that we could all live by the first is
that we could all live by the first is
that we could all live by the first is to never ride a motorbike that’s just
to never ride a motorbike that’s just
to never ride a motorbike that’s just that’s a no in my eyes not even revonnah
that’s a no in my eyes not even revonnah
that’s a no in my eyes not even revonnah Verratti my wife but you know I’d like
Verratti my wife but you know I’d like
Verratti my wife but you know I’d like the option the second it’s an avid
the option the second it’s an avid
the option the second it’s an avid little girl walk home in our own and I
little girl walk home in our own and I
little girl walk home in our own and I nowadays you know the feminist to me is
nowadays you know the feminist to me is
nowadays you know the feminist to me is like is that sexist I don’t really don’t
like is that sexist I don’t really don’t
like is that sexist I don’t really don’t know but I saw this but the third and I
know but I saw this but the third and I
know but I saw this but the third and I think it’s the best advice that I’ve
think it’s the best advice that I’ve
think it’s the best advice that I’ve ever received is to always treat people
ever received is to always treat people
ever received is to always treat people with respect and a smile because you
with respect and a smile because you
with respect and a smile because you never know what’s going on behind closed
never know what’s going on behind closed
never know what’s going on behind closed doors and that goes not just for mental
doors and that goes not just for mental
doors and that goes not just for mental health but for anything because every
health but for anything because every
health but for anything because every single one of us at some stage in our
single one of us at some stage in our
single one of us at some stage in our lives is going through something about
lives is going through something about
lives is going through something about my manifest itself and you know a
my manifest itself and you know a
my manifest itself and you know a stranger being really difficult to deal
stranger being really difficult to deal
stranger being really difficult to deal with or Kobe when your closest friends
with or Kobe when your closest friends
with or Kobe when your closest friends you have no idea and I just know from
you have no idea and I just know from
you have no idea and I just know from experience you know on particularly bad
experience you know on particularly bad
experience you know on particularly bad days when I felt so down and the
days when I felt so down and the
days when I felt so down and the prologue is the worst person in the
prologue is the worst person in the
prologue is the worst person in the world and someone acknowledges you and
world and someone acknowledges you and
world and someone acknowledges you and gives you a genuine smile words can’t
gives you a genuine smile words can’t
gives you a genuine smile words can’t describe the peace that it gives you so
describe the peace that it gives you so
describe the peace that it gives you so maybe this talk equality signalized
maybe this talk equality signalized
maybe this talk equality signalized mental health any further hopefully will
mental health any further hopefully will
mental health any further hopefully will I do hope that a will instill confidence
I do hope that a will instill confidence
I do hope that a will instill confidence in others to talk about their own
in others to talk about their own
in others to talk about their own experiences but also like I don’t know
experiences but also like I don’t know
experiences but also like I don’t know what happened but at the very least if
what happened but at the very least if
what happened but at the very least if everyone here follows that third rule
everyone here follows that third rule
everyone here follows that third rule you will make a difference in someone’s
you will make a difference in someone’s
you will make a difference in someone’s life
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