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well good evening everyone my name is

well good evening everyone my name is Burrell and I must begin tonight with a

Burrell and I must begin tonight with a

Burrell and I must begin tonight with a confession I confess that I’m just a

confession I confess that I’m just a

confession I confess that I’m just a hometown home state kind of girl I was

hometown home state kind of girl I was

hometown home state kind of girl I was born in Junction City my family then

born in Junction City my family then

born in Junction City my family then moved to Lake Elsinore California where

moved to Lake Elsinore California where

moved to Lake Elsinore California where we lived for about nine years and then

we lived for about nine years and then

we lived for about nine years and then we came back to Topeka where I had the

we came back to Topeka where I had the

we came back to Topeka where I had the blessing and the privilege to be raised

blessing and the privilege to be raised

blessing and the privilege to be raised by three wise powerful women and they

by three wise powerful women and they

by three wise powerful women and they taught me that if I was to follow in

taught me that if I was to follow in

taught me that if I was to follow in their footsteps I would need to be able

their footsteps I would need to be able

their footsteps I would need to be able to cover not only the ground that I

to cover not only the ground that I

to cover not only the ground that I stand on but also the ground that I

stand on but also the ground that I

stand on but also the ground that I stand in as a child of the dirt you see

stand in as a child of the dirt you see

stand in as a child of the dirt you see I must also confess that I believe that

I must also confess that I believe that

I must also confess that I believe that all humans were created from the dust of

all humans were created from the dust of

all humans were created from the dust of the earth dirt and as such we are all

the earth dirt and as such we are all

the earth dirt and as such we are all common brothers and sisters all of our

common brothers and sisters all of our

common brothers and sisters all of our colors can be found on what I like to

colors can be found on what I like to

colors can be found on what I like to call the sepia palette we are all

call the sepia palette we are all

call the sepia palette we are all children of the dirt now these three

children of the dirt now these three

children of the dirt now these three women were my grandmother

women were my grandmother

women were my grandmother Lottie Turner Smith my mother Geraldine

Lottie Turner Smith my mother Geraldine

Lottie Turner Smith my mother Geraldine Thomas Smith Massey and my great-aunt

Thomas Smith Massey and my great-aunt

Thomas Smith Massey and my great-aunt own Eva Smith Estes they showed me

own Eva Smith Estes they showed me

own Eva Smith Estes they showed me through their daily walk their love for

through their daily walk their love for

through their daily walk their love for others their willingness to sacrifice

others their willingness to sacrifice

others their willingness to sacrifice and give of themselves that they were

and give of themselves that they were

and give of themselves that they were powerful women women to be reckoned with

powerful women women to be reckoned with

powerful women women to be reckoned with their activism may have been gentle but

their activism may have been gentle but

their activism may have been gentle but their love was unlimited and two of them

their love was unlimited and two of them

their love was unlimited and two of them at least cooked in a way that was

at least cooked in a way that was

at least cooked in a way that was generous for everyone my grandmother was

generous for everyone my grandmother was

generous for everyone my grandmother was a great cook my aunt neva was a great

a great cook my aunt neva was a great

a great cook my aunt neva was a great cook my mama wasn’t so great but we

cook my mama wasn’t so great but we

cook my mama wasn’t so great but we didn’t die my grandmother loved to show

didn’t die my grandmother loved to show

didn’t die my grandmother loved to show her love for others through her cooking

her love for others through her cooking

her love for others through her cooking and she didn’t just show that to her

and she didn’t just show that to her

and she didn’t just show that to her family but also to the sick and the

family but also to the sick and the

family but also to the sick and the shut-in who were not able to cook for

shut-in who were not able to cook for

shut-in who were not able to cook for themselves to the hobos who would make

themselves to the hobos who would make

themselves to the hobos who would make their way to her and my grandfather’s

their way to her and my grandfather’s

their way to her and my grandfather’s home on East 17th Street just east of

home on East 17th Street just east of

home on East 17th Street just east of the railroad tracks to students at

the railroad tracks to students at

the railroad tracks to students at Washburn University who lived in the

Washburn University who lived in the

Washburn University who lived in the sororities and the fraternities she was

sororities and the fraternities she was

sororities and the fraternities she was a woman who to me cooked like no other

a woman who to me cooked like no other

a woman who to me cooked like no other her meals consisted of things like

her meals consisted of things like

her meals consisted of things like golden fried chicken and wild greens and

golden fried chicken and wild greens and

golden fried chicken and wild greens and pan corn bread and deserts of sweet

pan corn bread and deserts of sweet

pan corn bread and deserts of sweet potato pie and that was my personal

potato pie and that was my personal

potato pie and that was my personal favorite homemade vanilla ice cream or

favorite homemade vanilla ice cream or

favorite homemade vanilla ice cream or breakfast of thick sliced bacon over

breakfast of thick sliced bacon over

breakfast of thick sliced bacon over easy eggs heavily butter toast in the

easy eggs heavily butter toast in the

easy eggs heavily butter toast in the best-smelling Folgers coffee you could

best-smelling Folgers coffee you could

best-smelling Folgers coffee you could imagine my grandmother loved to cook she

imagine my grandmother loved to cook she

imagine my grandmother loved to cook she also loved to watch nature and on June

also loved to watch nature and on June

also loved to watch nature and on June 8th 1966 she was sitting on her front

8th 1966 she was sitting on her front

8th 1966 she was sitting on her front porch watching the tornado as it moved

porch watching the tornado as it moved

porch watching the tornado as it moved across the park across from her home on

across the park across from her home on

across the park across from her home on East 17th Street and made its way to

East 17th Street and made its way to

East 17th Street and made its way to east Topeka now we were all at our home

east Topeka now we were all at our home

east Topeka now we were all at our home at 2000 Maryland Street cowering under

at 2000 Maryland Street cowering under

at 2000 Maryland Street cowering under furniture crying and praying because

furniture crying and praying because

furniture crying and praying because we’d been trying to call her and hadn’t

we’d been trying to call her and hadn’t

we’d been trying to call her and hadn’t been able to reach her and later I found

been able to reach her and later I found

been able to reach her and later I found out that she had journaled everything

out that she had journaled everything

out that she had journaled everything she saw in her diary I found this after

she saw in her diary I found this after

she saw in her diary I found this after her death on the day that she died she’d

her death on the day that she died she’d

her death on the day that she died she’d been out and about in our yard puttering

been out and about in our yard puttering

been out and about in our yard puttering around with our family dog picking some

around with our family dog picking some

around with our family dog picking some wild greens on the alleyway and she’d

wild greens on the alleyway and she’d

wild greens on the alleyway and she’d come into the house I was home sick that

come into the house I was home sick that

come into the house I was home sick that day I was 15 years old and she’d gone to

day I was 15 years old and she’d gone to

day I was 15 years old and she’d gone to a long drawer and a piece of furniture

a long drawer and a piece of furniture

a long drawer and a piece of furniture that she called the bureau and she had

that she called the bureau and she had

that she called the bureau and she had taken out an envelope and said to me no

taken out an envelope and said to me no

taken out an envelope and said to me no Burrell when I die this is where all my

Burrell when I die this is where all my

Burrell when I die this is where all my important papers are and I said in my 15

important papers are and I said in my 15

important papers are and I said in my 15 year old

year old

year old innocence the old grandma you’re not

innocence the old grandma you’re not

innocence the old grandma you’re not gonna die for a long time she said

gonna die for a long time she said

gonna die for a long time she said listen to what I’m telling you when I

listen to what I’m telling you when I

listen to what I’m telling you when I die this is where my important papers

die this is where my important papers

die this is where my important papers are it was a Wednesday that evening she

are it was a Wednesday that evening she

are it was a Wednesday that evening she went to church with my mother and at the

went to church with my mother and at the

went to church with my mother and at the end of the service she

end of the service she

end of the service she up for prayer sat in the chair waited

up for prayer sat in the chair waited

up for prayer sat in the chair waited for the pastor to finish the altar call

for the pastor to finish the altar call

for the pastor to finish the altar call come down and pray for her but before he

come down and pray for her but before he

come down and pray for her but before he reached her she was already dead as I

reached her she was already dead as I

reached her she was already dead as I reflected on that I thought about the

reflected on that I thought about the

reflected on that I thought about the power that she had to make a conscious

power that she had to make a conscious

power that she had to make a conscious choice not only in the way that she

choice not only in the way that she

choice not only in the way that she lived and the way that she treated all

lived and the way that she treated all

lived and the way that she treated all people regardless of their color or

people regardless of their color or

people regardless of their color or their station in life she had the power

their station in life she had the power

their station in life she had the power to make a conscious choice about when

to make a conscious choice about when

to make a conscious choice about when and how she died now my mother was a

and how she died now my mother was a

and how she died now my mother was a fascinating woman she was the only child

fascinating woman she was the only child

fascinating woman she was the only child that my grandmother and grandfather had

that my grandmother and grandfather had

that my grandmother and grandfather had and while they were a deep Coffee Bean

and while they were a deep Coffee Bean

and while they were a deep Coffee Bean brown shade on the sepia palette she was

brown shade on the sepia palette she was

brown shade on the sepia palette she was a warm cappuccino she graduated from

a warm cappuccino she graduated from

a warm cappuccino she graduated from Topeka high school then attended

Topeka high school then attended

Topeka high school then attended Washburn University but when the war

Washburn University but when the war

Washburn University but when the war began she decided to do her part for the

began she decided to do her part for the

began she decided to do her part for the war effort so she moved to Washington DC

war effort so she moved to Washington DC

war effort so she moved to Washington DC to work as a secretary when the war

to work as a secretary when the war

to work as a secretary when the war ended she came back to Topeka got a job

ended she came back to Topeka got a job

ended she came back to Topeka got a job working for the city as a secretary and

working for the city as a secretary and

working for the city as a secretary and did that until she met and married my

did that until she met and married my

did that until she met and married my father he was a pastor and his first

father he was a pastor and his first

father he was a pastor and his first assignment was in Chattanooga Tennessee

assignment was in Chattanooga Tennessee

assignment was in Chattanooga Tennessee then in Kansas City then in Junction

then in Kansas City then in Junction

then in Kansas City then in Junction City where I was born and then he moved

City where I was born and then he moved

City where I was born and then he moved the family to Lake Elsinore California

the family to Lake Elsinore California

the family to Lake Elsinore California his church in Lake Elsinore was made up

his church in Lake Elsinore was made up

his church in Lake Elsinore was made up of a variety of people of all racial

of a variety of people of all racial

of a variety of people of all racial backgrounds and all walks of life and

backgrounds and all walks of life and

backgrounds and all walks of life and that was where I learned I was chocolate

that was where I learned I was chocolate

that was where I learned I was chocolate a little boy came up to me I was about

a little boy came up to me I was about

a little boy came up to me I was about five years old and he began to lick my

five years old and he began to lick my

five years old and he began to lick my arm and his father grabbed him and he

arm and his father grabbed him and he

arm and his father grabbed him and he shook him and he said stop that and the

shook him and he said stop that and the

shook him and he said stop that and the little boy began to cry and he said I

little boy began to cry and he said I

little boy began to cry and he said I thought she was chocolate well I don’t

thought she was chocolate well I don’t

thought she was chocolate well I don’t think I really had a strongly developed

think I really had a strongly developed

think I really had a strongly developed color consciousness at that time because

color consciousness at that time because

color consciousness at that time because I was more amused than I was afraid but

I was more amused than I was afraid but

I was more amused than I was afraid but I believe it’s because of how our

I believe it’s because of how our

I believe it’s because of how our parents raised us you see my mother’s

parents raised us you see my mother’s

parents raised us you see my mother’s best friend in Lake Elsinore California

best friend in Lake Elsinore California

best friend in Lake Elsinore California was Oh

was Oh

was Oh woman that we called aunt Irma and for

woman that we called aunt Irma and for

woman that we called aunt Irma and for all we knew and all we believed she was

all we knew and all we believed she was

all we knew and all we believed she was truly our blood aunt however she was as

truly our blood aunt however she was as

truly our blood aunt however she was as vanilla on the sepia palate as I was

vanilla on the sepia palate as I was

vanilla on the sepia palate as I was chocalate but it made no difference

chocalate but it made no difference

chocalate but it made no difference whatsoever in fact she only lived down

whatsoever in fact she only lived down

whatsoever in fact she only lived down the road from us but we would spend many

the road from us but we would spend many

the road from us but we would spend many weekends at her home we all had our own

weekends at her home we all had our own

weekends at her home we all had our own pajamas there we had our own

pajamas there we had our own

pajamas there we had our own toothbrushes and color-coded utensils

toothbrushes and color-coded utensils

toothbrushes and color-coded utensils because she was our aunt and even when

because she was our aunt and even when

because she was our aunt and even when we moved to Topeka I’ve maintained

we moved to Topeka I’ve maintained

we moved to Topeka I’ve maintained correspondence with her close to the

correspondence with her close to the

correspondence with her close to the time that she died and when I became an

time that she died and when I became an

time that she died and when I became an adult she sent me a box of all my little

adult she sent me a box of all my little

adult she sent me a box of all my little kid things that she had saved over the

kid things that she had saved over the

kid things that she had saved over the decades so you see for us based on how

decades so you see for us based on how

decades so you see for us based on how our mother had modeled her life in front

our mother had modeled her life in front

our mother had modeled her life in front of us we learned very early that

of us we learned very early that

of us we learned very early that sisterhood is not based on color it’s

sisterhood is not based on color it’s

sisterhood is not based on color it’s based on love before my mother

based on love before my mother

based on love before my mother surrendered to cancer in 1971 she had

surrendered to cancer in 1971 she had

surrendered to cancer in 1971 she had been a secretary to many of the water

been a secretary to many of the water

been a secretary to many of the water commissioners in topeka one of them

commissioners in topeka one of them

commissioners in topeka one of them being Charles Wright who later became a

being Charles Wright who later became a

being Charles Wright who later became a beloved mayor and was always a very

beloved mayor and was always a very

beloved mayor and was always a very faithful family friend she had helped

faithful family friend she had helped

faithful family friend she had helped mckinley l burnett preserve his memoirs

mckinley l burnett preserve his memoirs

mckinley l burnett preserve his memoirs as the champion of the n-double a-c-p as

as the champion of the n-double a-c-p as

as the champion of the n-double a-c-p as its president during the brown versus

its president during the brown versus

its president during the brown versus Topeka Board of Education case by typing

Topeka Board of Education case by typing

Topeka Board of Education case by typing them on one of those old black metal

them on one of those old black metal

them on one of those old black metal typewriters that we now see in museums

typewriters that we now see in museums

typewriters that we now see in museums she had suffered a debilitating illness

she had suffered a debilitating illness

she had suffered a debilitating illness coupled with a devastating divorce but

coupled with a devastating divorce but

coupled with a devastating divorce but she never lost her impeccable character

she never lost her impeccable character

she never lost her impeccable character or her strength and her willingness to

or her strength and her willingness to

or her strength and her willingness to show love no matter what she went

show love no matter what she went

show love no matter what she went through on the day that she died I had

through on the day that she died I had

through on the day that she died I had been at the hospital with her most of

been at the hospital with her most of

been at the hospital with her most of the day and had come home exhausted from

the day and had come home exhausted from

the day and had come home exhausted from just watching her barely breathing and

just watching her barely breathing and

just watching her barely breathing and drifting in and out of consciousness

drifting in and out of consciousness

drifting in and out of consciousness I’d lay down to go to sleep and all of a

I’d lay down to go to sleep and all of a

I’d lay down to go to sleep and all of a sudden I heard her voice

sudden I heard her voice

sudden I heard her voice and she said I’m going now I want you to

and she said I’m going now I want you to

and she said I’m going now I want you to be a good girl and get saved and I’ll

be a good girl and get saved and I’ll

be a good girl and get saved and I’ll see you later

see you later

see you later and I thought to myself I’m dreaming

and I thought to myself I’m dreaming

and I thought to myself I’m dreaming that couldn’t have been her but the

that couldn’t have been her but the

that couldn’t have been her but the voice sounded so real and so I said to

voice sounded so real and so I said to

voice sounded so real and so I said to myself if it really was my mother

myself if it really was my mother

myself if it really was my mother passing from this world to the next then

passing from this world to the next then

passing from this world to the next then someone will call me within 10 minutes

someone will call me within 10 minutes

someone will call me within 10 minutes of course within a few minutes the phone

of course within a few minutes the phone

of course within a few minutes the phone rang but I already knew after my mother

rang but I already knew after my mother

rang but I already knew after my mother died my aunt Oh neva Estes became that

died my aunt Oh neva Estes became that

died my aunt Oh neva Estes became that mother figure for me and I had received

mother figure for me and I had received

mother figure for me and I had received a full scholarship to go to the

a full scholarship to go to the

a full scholarship to go to the University of Minnesota but my mother

University of Minnesota but my mother

University of Minnesota but my mother died in May I left to go to Minnesota in

died in May I left to go to Minnesota in

died in May I left to go to Minnesota in September it was too soon I was still

September it was too soon I was still

September it was too soon I was still too emotionally damaged from the

too emotionally damaged from the

too emotionally damaged from the prolonged illness that she had suffered

prolonged illness that she had suffered

prolonged illness that she had suffered and I had suffered along with her

and I had suffered along with her

and I had suffered along with her watching her die slowly of cancer so

watching her die slowly of cancer so

watching her die slowly of cancer so when I got there

when I got there

when I got there Minnesota number 1 was freezing cold

Minnesota number 1 was freezing cold

Minnesota number 1 was freezing cold number 2 I was so far removed from all

number 2 I was so far removed from all

number 2 I was so far removed from all family and close friends and so one day

family and close friends and so one day

family and close friends and so one day my aunt called me and she said I miss

my aunt called me and she said I miss

my aunt called me and she said I miss you I need you to come home and so would

you I need you to come home and so would

you I need you to come home and so would you please come home this spring now of

you please come home this spring now of

you please come home this spring now of course I knew she really didn’t need me

course I knew she really didn’t need me

course I knew she really didn’t need me but she provided for me the escape hatch

but she provided for me the escape hatch

but she provided for me the escape hatch that I needed to avoid a deep depression

that I needed to avoid a deep depression

that I needed to avoid a deep depression she treated all of her nieces and

she treated all of her nieces and

she treated all of her nieces and nephews and every young person that she

nephews and every young person that she

nephews and every young person that she came into contact with in her work as a

came into contact with in her work as a

came into contact with in her work as a house mother in the cook for sororities

house mother in the cook for sororities

house mother in the cook for sororities and fraternities at Washburn in her day

and fraternities at Washburn in her day

and fraternities at Washburn in her day work for certain families in Topeka that

work for certain families in Topeka that

work for certain families in Topeka that hired her to come in and do their

hired her to come in and do their

hired her to come in and do their housecleaning in their cooking for all

housecleaning in their cooking for all

housecleaning in their cooking for all her nieces and nephews she treated every

her nieces and nephews she treated every

her nieces and nephews she treated every young person it didn’t matter their

young person it didn’t matter their

young person it didn’t matter their station in life or the color of their

station in life or the color of their

station in life or the color of their skin or whether they were blood

skin or whether they were blood

skin or whether they were blood relatives or not she treated every one

relatives or not she treated every one

relatives or not she treated every one of us as if we were her own children she

of us as if we were her own children she

of us as if we were her own children she always said she wanted to live to be 90

always said she wanted to live to be 90

always said she wanted to live to be 90 so on her 90th birthday I’d gone to

so on her 90th birthday I’d gone to

so on her 90th birthday I’d gone to visit her she was at Manor care due to

visit her she was at Manor care due to

visit her she was at Manor care due to an enlarged heart I went and sang happy

an enlarged heart I went and sang happy

an enlarged heart I went and sang happy birthday to her

birthday to her

birthday to her for a birthday card which she opened and

for a birthday card which she opened and

for a birthday card which she opened and smiled and her favorite perfume and she

smiled and her favorite perfume and she

smiled and her favorite perfume and she took off the nozzle and sniffed it then

took off the nozzle and sniffed it then

took off the nozzle and sniffed it then she kissed me and we sat and we talked

she kissed me and we sat and we talked

she kissed me and we sat and we talked and just enjoyed one another’s company

and just enjoyed one another’s company

and just enjoyed one another’s company until one of my other cousins came so I

until one of my other cousins came so I

until one of my other cousins came so I told her I’d leave for a while let her

told her I’d leave for a while let her

told her I’d leave for a while let her enjoy their company and then come back

enjoy their company and then come back

enjoy their company and then come back later to continue the celebration but

later to continue the celebration but

later to continue the celebration but while I was gone I got a call from my

while I was gone I got a call from my

while I was gone I got a call from my cousin to say that she had passed what

cousin to say that she had passed what

cousin to say that she had passed what an amazing woman what an amazing life

an amazing woman what an amazing life

an amazing woman what an amazing life what an amazing ability to have such

what an amazing ability to have such

what an amazing ability to have such conscious control over your life that

conscious control over your life that

conscious control over your life that you can even say today is the day I’m

you can even say today is the day I’m

you can even say today is the day I’m going to die and so I will live my life

going to die and so I will live my life

going to die and so I will live my life – my 90th birthday and when I’ve reached

– my 90th birthday and when I’ve reached

– my 90th birthday and when I’ve reached that goal

that goal

that goal I can feel free to pass on to be

I can feel free to pass on to be

I can feel free to pass on to be reunited with my husband and with my

reunited with my husband and with my

reunited with my husband and with my grandparents and with my mother and all

grandparents and with my mother and all

grandparents and with my mother and all of her loved ones that had gone on

of her loved ones that had gone on

of her loved ones that had gone on before her so when I think about these

before her so when I think about these

before her so when I think about these three powerful women and even my own

three powerful women and even my own

three powerful women and even my own coming of age in sepia-toned Kansas I

coming of age in sepia-toned Kansas I

coming of age in sepia-toned Kansas I also think about my favorite movie The

also think about my favorite movie The

also think about my favorite movie The Wizard of Oz and there are themes within

Wizard of Oz and there are themes within

Wizard of Oz and there are themes within that story that I think are so relevant

that story that I think are so relevant

that story that I think are so relevant to the concept of understanding that we

to the concept of understanding that we

to the concept of understanding that we are all children of the dirt that there

are all children of the dirt that there

are all children of the dirt that there is no black or white on the sepia

is no black or white on the sepia

is no black or white on the sepia palette that there is only a vast

palette that there is only a vast

palette that there is only a vast variety variety of beautiful shades that

variety variety of beautiful shades that

variety variety of beautiful shades that encompass the skin colors of human

encompass the skin colors of human

encompass the skin colors of human beings because you see when Dorothy was

beings because you see when Dorothy was

beings because you see when Dorothy was in CP ated Kansas she had everything she

in CP ated Kansas she had everything she

in CP ated Kansas she had everything she needed though she did not realize it and

needed though she did not realize it and

needed though she did not realize it and it wasn’t until she got to beautiful

it wasn’t until she got to beautiful

it wasn’t until she got to beautiful colorful Oz that she and her companions

colorful Oz that she and her companions

colorful Oz that she and her companions recognized that color really didn’t

recognized that color really didn’t

recognized that color really didn’t matter and that everything in that

matter and that everything in that

matter and that everything in that environment was manipulated by this

environment was manipulated by this

environment was manipulated by this wizard who was only using smoke and

wizard who was only using smoke and

wizard who was only using smoke and mirrors to deceive and so as I thought

mirrors to deceive and so as I thought

mirrors to deceive and so as I thought about how sometime in our communities

about how sometime in our communities

about how sometime in our communities individuals have been deceived by the

individuals have been deceived by the

individuals have been deceived by the concept of

concept of

concept of black and white and one greater than and

black and white and one greater than and

black and white and one greater than and one less than or one to be preferred and

one less than or one to be preferred and

one less than or one to be preferred and one to be denied and if you really think

one to be denied and if you really think

one to be denied and if you really think about it when you’re applying it to the

about it when you’re applying it to the

about it when you’re applying it to the human skin tone it really doesn’t make a

human skin tone it really doesn’t make a

human skin tone it really doesn’t make a lot of sense because if you were to look

lot of sense because if you were to look

lot of sense because if you were to look at true black and true white you would

at true black and true white you would

at true black and true white you would notice that none of our skin colors

notice that none of our skin colors

notice that none of our skin colors match either of those colors so I

match either of those colors so I

match either of those colors so I confess that I have no fixation on the

confess that I have no fixation on the

confess that I have no fixation on the colors of black and white when it

colors of black and white when it

colors of black and white when it applies to human skin tone but I truly

applies to human skin tone but I truly

applies to human skin tone but I truly believe that as children of the dirt we

believe that as children of the dirt we

believe that as children of the dirt we all are common we are brothers

all are common we are brothers

all are common we are brothers we are sisters we share the same blood

we are sisters we share the same blood

we are sisters we share the same blood and we deserve the same level of love

and we deserve the same level of love

and we deserve the same level of love and appreciation from one another so in

and appreciation from one another so in

and appreciation from one another so in conclusion I do want to also confess

conclusion I do want to also confess

conclusion I do want to also confess tonight that I hope I never become

tonight that I hope I never become

tonight that I hope I never become anything other than a hometown girl

anything other than a hometown girl

anything other than a hometown girl living in the hometown state of Kansas

living in the hometown state of Kansas

living in the hometown state of Kansas where I can enjoy my own CP ated

where I can enjoy my own CP ated

where I can enjoy my own CP ated identity but also recognize embrace and

identity but also recognize embrace and

identity but also recognize embrace and admire yours because in my heart and in

admire yours because in my heart and in

admire yours because in my heart and in my brain I have the courage to boldly

my brain I have the courage to boldly

my brain I have the courage to boldly say to anyone who asked me and even

say to anyone who asked me and even

say to anyone who asked me and even those who do not that this is my land of

those who do not that this is my land of

those who do not that this is my land of a Haws I have come to realize that as a

a Haws I have come to realize that as a

a Haws I have come to realize that as a child of the dirt I love each and every

child of the dirt I love each and every

child of the dirt I love each and every one of my brothers and sisters and I

one of my brothers and sisters and I

one of my brothers and sisters and I hope that this confession will inspire

hope that this confession will inspire

hope that this confession will inspire you my sisters and my brothers to love

you my sisters and my brothers to love

you my sisters and my brothers to love me as well as all of our other sisters

me as well as all of our other sisters

me as well as all of our other sisters and brothers all of us children of the

and brothers all of us children of the

and brothers all of us children of the dirt thank you for hearing my confession

dirt thank you for hearing my confession

dirt thank you for hearing my confession you

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