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Choosing Our Addictions with Purpose | Eefa Shrof | TEDxYouth@NMS


hi everybody

hi everybody I’m here today for two reasons one

I’m here today for two reasons one

I’m here today for two reasons one because I’m extremely privileged to be

because I’m extremely privileged to be

because I’m extremely privileged to be invited by your esteemed organization

invited by your esteemed organization

invited by your esteemed organization but there’s also a deeper reason a

but there’s also a deeper reason a

but there’s also a deeper reason a reason because way back in 1996 I

reason because way back in 1996 I

reason because way back in 1996 I promised you that I would you see my

promised you that I would you see my

promised you that I would you see my journey wasn’t an easy one I’ll never

journey wasn’t an easy one I’ll never

journey wasn’t an easy one I’ll never forget that day back in 1996 it was a

forget that day back in 1996 it was a

forget that day back in 1996 it was a hot summer day in the student town of

hot summer day in the student town of

hot summer day in the student town of Pune I was 23 years old I left home when

Pune I was 23 years old I left home when

Pune I was 23 years old I left home when I was 16 and growing up on my own had

I was 16 and growing up on my own had

I was 16 and growing up on my own had made pretty much bitter to with my

made pretty much bitter to with my

made pretty much bitter to with my parents and that’s just to put it

parents and that’s just to put it

parents and that’s just to put it lightly we don’t meet very often and

lightly we don’t meet very often and

lightly we don’t meet very often and whenever we did we had a fake

whenever we did we had a fake

whenever we did we had a fake conversation and usually ended with a

conversation and usually ended with a

conversation and usually ended with a real fight well being 23 and being on

real fight well being 23 and being on

real fight well being 23 and being on your own you can imagine but somehow

your own you can imagine but somehow

your own you can imagine but somehow that often known back in Pune in my tiny

that often known back in Pune in my tiny

that often known back in Pune in my tiny little apartment life had put me in the

little apartment life had put me in the

little apartment life had put me in the most compromising of all positions a

most compromising of all positions a

most compromising of all positions a position that I wouldn’t want anyone to

position that I wouldn’t want anyone to

position that I wouldn’t want anyone to imagine themselves to be in Adelia I had

imagine themselves to be in Adelia I had

imagine themselves to be in Adelia I had crashed and no I don’t mean crashed as

crashed and no I don’t mean crashed as

crashed and no I don’t mean crashed as in one of my old drug habits yes I was

in one of my old drug habits yes I was

in one of my old drug habits yes I was an established model back then but I was

an established model back then but I was

an established model back then but I was also a struggling addict six months

also a struggling addict six months

also a struggling addict six months earlier I had been walking the ramp in

earlier I had been walking the ramp in

earlier I had been walking the ramp in Milan I just loved it I had come back

Milan I just loved it I had come back

Milan I just loved it I had come back home I thought I’d moved I was getting

home I thought I’d moved I was getting

home I thought I’d moved I was getting my paperwork done things were taking

my paperwork done things were taking

my paperwork done things were taking time because I wanted to take my best

time because I wanted to take my best

time because I wanted to take my best friend back with me my doggie

friend back with me my doggie

friend back with me my doggie chick-chick and I couldn’t really figure

chick-chick and I couldn’t really figure

chick-chick and I couldn’t really figure out how to do that but now back in the

out how to do that but now back in the

out how to do that but now back in the afternoon at home lying in bed with my

afternoon at home lying in bed with my

afternoon at home lying in bed with my wounds my head was split open my legs

wounds my head was split open my legs

wounds my head was split open my legs were smashed busted cartilages busted

were smashed busted cartilages busted

were smashed busted cartilages busted ligaments I’ve been lying in bed for

ligaments I’ve been lying in bed for

ligaments I’ve been lying in bed for about eight hours before my parents

about eight hours before my parents

about eight hours before my parents arrived and although I knew I should be

arrived and although I knew I should be

arrived and although I knew I should be really grateful to have them there all I

really grateful to have them there all I

really grateful to have them there all I could think of was how crack

could think of was how crack

could think of was how crack my next cigarette deep inside I’ve had

my next cigarette deep inside I’ve had

my next cigarette deep inside I’ve had this fight going on couldn’t they just

this fight going on couldn’t they just

this fight going on couldn’t they just leave couldn’t I just get my next hit

leave couldn’t I just get my next hit

leave couldn’t I just get my next hit God knows I really needed a cigarette

God knows I really needed a cigarette

God knows I really needed a cigarette back then but life doesn’t always put

back then but life doesn’t always put

back then but life doesn’t always put you in the kind of situation that you

you in the kind of situation that you

you in the kind of situation that you always hope to be so anyways mom used

always hope to be so anyways mom used

always hope to be so anyways mom used that help and the both get me to the

that help and the both get me to the

that help and the both get me to the bathroom my jeans were still torn and

bathroom my jeans were still torn and

bathroom my jeans were still torn and tattered the blood and the dirt had now

tattered the blood and the dirt had now

tattered the blood and the dirt had now begun to kind of coagulate and heal and

begun to kind of coagulate and heal and

begun to kind of coagulate and heal and stick together it was really an ugly

stick together it was really an ugly

stick together it was really an ugly sight but mom and dad get me to the

sight but mom and dad get me to the

sight but mom and dad get me to the bathroom and my father worriedly and

bathroom and my father worriedly and

bathroom and my father worriedly and politely went outside he was pacing up

politely went outside he was pacing up

politely went outside he was pacing up and down the hall calling up doctors and

and down the hall calling up doctors and

and down the hall calling up doctors and finding a hospital to get me to and my

finding a hospital to get me to and my

finding a hospital to get me to and my mom had decided to wash my wounds so she

mom had decided to wash my wounds so she

mom had decided to wash my wounds so she gets me changed and there I was shock

gets me changed and there I was shock

gets me changed and there I was shock waves of pain hit me as the first few

waves of pain hit me as the first few

waves of pain hit me as the first few months of water washed over me my mother

months of water washed over me my mother

months of water washed over me my mother was really nervous I could feel her

was really nervous I could feel her

was really nervous I could feel her hands shaking

hands shaking

hands shaking you know the whole mug of water was kind

you know the whole mug of water was kind

you know the whole mug of water was kind of rattling in her hands I could see her

of rattling in her hands I could see her

of rattling in her hands I could see her lips quivering I could have helped her I

lips quivering I could have helped her I

lips quivering I could have helped her I could have said something nice I could

could have said something nice I could

could have said something nice I could have said hey mom it’s okay thank you or

have said hey mom it’s okay thank you or

have said hey mom it’s okay thank you or I love you mom something like that I

I love you mom something like that I

I love you mom something like that I could have but you know the lesser and

could have but you know the lesser and

could have but you know the lesser and me chose not to

me chose not to

me chose not to instead I snapped at her not once not

instead I snapped at her not once not

instead I snapped at her not once not twice but three times for not being

twice but three times for not being

twice but three times for not being gentle enough while pouring the water on

gentle enough while pouring the water on

gentle enough while pouring the water on me the poor thing was shaking quivering

me the poor thing was shaking quivering

me the poor thing was shaking quivering she went and stood behind me and she

she went and stood behind me and she

she went and stood behind me and she started crying I knew she was crying and

started crying I knew she was crying and

started crying I knew she was crying and I knew she was hiding from me she kissed

I knew she was hiding from me she kissed

I knew she was hiding from me she kissed me on the back of my hair and she said

me on the back of my hair and she said

me on the back of my hair and she said you know what sweetheart I’ll just be

you know what sweetheart I’ll just be

you know what sweetheart I’ll just be back in a moment give me a minute and

back in a moment give me a minute and

back in a moment give me a minute and she ran out of the bathroom i sat there

she ran out of the bathroom i sat there

she ran out of the bathroom i sat there all by myself in that bathroom I’ll

all by myself in that bathroom I’ll

all by myself in that bathroom I’ll never forget the sound of the water

never forget the sound of the water

never forget the sound of the water drops in the bucket I tried getting up I

drops in the bucket I tried getting up I

drops in the bucket I tried getting up I couldn’t manage a fashionable stack of

couldn’t manage a fashionable stack of

couldn’t manage a fashionable stack of skin and bones I could hear the muffled

skin and bones I could hear the muffled

skin and bones I could hear the muffled voices of my parents outside and

voices of my parents outside and

voices of my parents outside and somewhere from the closed doors I could

somewhere from the closed doors I could

somewhere from the closed doors I could hear my father consoling my mother both

hear my father consoling my mother both

hear my father consoling my mother both of them crying and he said what can we

of them crying and he said what can we

of them crying and he said what can we do sweetheart when faith just hasn’t

do sweetheart when faith just hasn’t

do sweetheart when faith just hasn’t written out our children’s love

written out our children’s love

written out our children’s love for us and they were both crying sitting

for us and they were both crying sitting

for us and they were both crying sitting then that moment I realized that if I

then that moment I realized that if I

then that moment I realized that if I had died the day before in the accident

had died the day before in the accident

had died the day before in the accident this is the exact scene and the exact

this is the exact scene and the exact

this is the exact scene and the exact dialogue between my parents as it would

dialogue between my parents as it would

dialogue between my parents as it would be this is probably exactly what they

be this is probably exactly what they

be this is probably exactly what they would have been saying to each other

would have been saying to each other

would have been saying to each other consoling each other in that moment I

consoling each other in that moment I

consoling each other in that moment I realized that my life meant nothing that

realized that my life meant nothing that

realized that my life meant nothing that if I had died the day earlier it would

if I had died the day earlier it would

if I had died the day earlier it would have made absolutely no difference to

have made absolutely no difference to

have made absolutely no difference to anybody or anything that’s how much I

anybody or anything that’s how much I

anybody or anything that’s how much I had contributed to my parents that’s how

had contributed to my parents that’s how

had contributed to my parents that’s how much I had contributed to my world and

much I had contributed to my world and

much I had contributed to my world and in that moment I decided that I was

in that moment I decided that I was

in that moment I decided that I was going to change things I decided that I

going to change things I decided that I

going to change things I decided that I had a choice back then and I was going

had a choice back then and I was going

had a choice back then and I was going to take the better road ahead I decided

to take the better road ahead I decided

to take the better road ahead I decided I was going to take my life around and

I was going to take my life around and

I was going to take my life around and when I did I was going to come back to

when I did I was going to come back to

when I did I was going to come back to tell my story and help others who were

tell my story and help others who were

tell my story and help others who were in that same miserable dark place a

in that same miserable dark place a

in that same miserable dark place a place that’s so dark where you feel so

place that’s so dark where you feel so

place that’s so dark where you feel so unidentified so misunderstood

unidentified so misunderstood

unidentified so misunderstood so unloved day after day week after week

so unloved day after day week after week

so unloved day after day week after week month after month year after year that

month after month year after year that

month after month year after year that all those suicide sounds like a really

all those suicide sounds like a really

all those suicide sounds like a really big word you do think about what it

big word you do think about what it

big word you do think about what it would be like to just turn the lights

would be like to just turn the lights

would be like to just turn the lights off one night and never wake up to the

off one night and never wake up to the

off one night and never wake up to the pain and the shame again

pain and the shame again

pain and the shame again well thereafter it wasn’t easy I knew I

well thereafter it wasn’t easy I knew I

well thereafter it wasn’t easy I knew I had a purpose but I just didn’t know

had a purpose but I just didn’t know

had a purpose but I just didn’t know what that purpose was but finding the

what that purpose was but finding the

what that purpose was but finding the purpose became something I really looked

purpose became something I really looked

purpose became something I really looked forward to and what do you think happens

forward to and what do you think happens

forward to and what do you think happens when you find your purpose things don’t

when you find your purpose things don’t

when you find your purpose things don’t become easy I can tell you that for sure

become easy I can tell you that for sure

become easy I can tell you that for sure it only makes you go harder for life and

it only makes you go harder for life and

it only makes you go harder for life and when you go harder things only become

when you go harder things only become

when you go harder things only become more tougher the pain only increases

more tougher the pain only increases

more tougher the pain only increases after one month of searching knocking at

after one month of searching knocking at

after one month of searching knocking at every plastic surgeon’s office I was

every plastic surgeon’s office I was

every plastic surgeon’s office I was told that my face couldn’t be fixed the

told that my face couldn’t be fixed the

told that my face couldn’t be fixed the infection had spread too much I had to

infection had spread too much I had to

infection had spread too much I had to accept scars as a part of my personality

accept scars as a part of my personality

accept scars as a part of my personality it took me one month to find a medical

it took me one month to find a medical

it took me one month to find a medical student who had just returned from the

student who had just returned from the

student who had just returned from the US who decided to experiment with a new

US who decided to experiment with a new

US who decided to experiment with a new technique

technique

technique he said that there were no guarantees

he said that there were no guarantees

he said that there were no guarantees most of the procedures were done without

most of the procedures were done without

most of the procedures were done without general anaesthetic these were

general anaesthetic these were

general anaesthetic these were procedures done on my face not once

procedures done on my face not once

procedures done on my face not once twice but sometimes three times a week

twice but sometimes three times a week

twice but sometimes three times a week but six months later this angel of mercy

but six months later this angel of mercy

but six months later this angel of mercy gave me back my face and along with that

gave me back my face and along with that

gave me back my face and along with that a ton of confidence and a ton of

a ton of confidence and a ton of

a ton of confidence and a ton of strength in who I truly was and what

strength in who I truly was and what

strength in who I truly was and what beauty truly meant to me and what health

beauty truly meant to me and what health

beauty truly meant to me and what health and strength truly meant to me

and strength truly meant to me

and strength truly meant to me thereafter I started to try and get my

thereafter I started to try and get my

thereafter I started to try and get my legs fixed

legs fixed

legs fixed well the orthopedic surgeon said I’m

well the orthopedic surgeon said I’m

well the orthopedic surgeon said I’m gonna need some surgery and that if I

gonna need some surgery and that if I

gonna need some surgery and that if I refuse surgery that I would be in a

refuse surgery that I would be in a

refuse surgery that I would be in a wheelchair sort of the crutches that I

wheelchair sort of the crutches that I

wheelchair sort of the crutches that I had been using I didn’t like the doctor

had been using I didn’t like the doctor

had been using I didn’t like the doctor much I was young I was reckless I was

much I was young I was reckless I was

much I was young I was reckless I was sick and tired of being under the knife

sick and tired of being under the knife

sick and tired of being under the knife for months before that and so I just

for months before that and so I just

for months before that and so I just refused surgery I went home a few weeks

refused surgery I went home a few weeks

refused surgery I went home a few weeks later I rediscovered my passion for

later I rediscovered my passion for

later I rediscovered my passion for fitness and a new love called yoga and

fitness and a new love called yoga and

fitness and a new love called yoga and with the grace of God eight months later

with the grace of God eight months later

with the grace of God eight months later I ran my first run back to the same

I ran my first run back to the same

I ran my first run back to the same orthopedic surgeon who now called it a

orthopedic surgeon who now called it a

orthopedic surgeon who now called it a medical miracle of course it was I had

medical miracle of course it was I had

medical miracle of course it was I had to agree it was a miracle by the gods

to agree it was a miracle by the gods

to agree it was a miracle by the gods but I also had to remind him that I

but I also had to remind him that I

but I also had to remind him that I played my part so bets it that purpose

played my part so bets it that purpose

played my part so bets it that purpose is so important for me at least I think

is so important for me at least I think

is so important for me at least I think purpose really allows us to write our

purpose really allows us to write our

purpose really allows us to write our own destiny than to be written off by

own destiny than to be written off by

own destiny than to be written off by our fate fate I says what life gives you

our fate fate I says what life gives you

our fate fate I says what life gives you destiny is what we make of it

destiny is what we make of it

destiny is what we make of it you get me if I’m five six I’m always

you get me if I’m five six I’m always

you get me if I’m five six I’m always going to be five six never going to be

going to be five six never going to be

going to be five six never going to be six – that’s fate but I love doing what

six – that’s fate but I love doing what

six – that’s fate but I love doing what I do I love going out there and making

I do I love going out there and making

I do I love going out there and making people fitter and healthy and telling

people fitter and healthy and telling

people fitter and healthy and telling them about the better things they can

them about the better things they can

them about the better things they can eat better ways they can move and that

eat better ways they can move and that

eat better ways they can move and that for me is destiny

for me is destiny

for me is destiny God gave me broken legs I learned to

God gave me broken legs I learned to

God gave me broken legs I learned to heal them and not only that today I can

heal them and not only that today I can

heal them and not only that today I can go out and teach people how to heal

go out and teach people how to heal

go out and teach people how to heal their bodies and ways that they didn’t

their bodies and ways that they didn’t

their bodies and ways that they didn’t think that was possible that’s destiny

think that was possible that’s destiny

think that was possible that’s destiny for me and I think that’s a really

for me and I think that’s a really

for me and I think that’s a really really important part for all of us

so when we come across fate and destiny

so when we come across fate and destiny I think the main thing that stops us

I think the main thing that stops us

I think the main thing that stops us from really accepting ourselves as

from really accepting ourselves as

from really accepting ourselves as masters of our destiny is what Napoleon

masters of our destiny is what Napoleon

masters of our destiny is what Napoleon Hill called the six ghosts of fear all

Hill called the six ghosts of fear all

Hill called the six ghosts of fear all of us whenever we want to achieve a goal

of us whenever we want to achieve a goal

of us whenever we want to achieve a goal these are the guys we come across and

these are the guys we come across and

these are the guys we come across and most of us in a healthy normal scenario

most of us in a healthy normal scenario

most of us in a healthy normal scenario learn to go past it what do we do we

learn to go past it what do we do we

learn to go past it what do we do we still get through the fears before we

still get through the fears before we

still get through the fears before we fight we get ridiculed we get up again

fight we get ridiculed we get up again

fight we get ridiculed we get up again and then we go again and we fall again

and then we go again and we fall again

and then we go again and we fall again and we go again and that’s how we grow

and we go again and that’s how we grow

and we go again and that’s how we grow that’s how human beings grow you see

that’s how human beings grow you see

that’s how human beings grow you see when I was an addict I was happy I know

when I was an addict I was happy I know

when I was an addict I was happy I know it sounds strange but I was happy years

it sounds strange but I was happy years

it sounds strange but I was happy years later when I cleaned up I wasn’t happy

later when I cleaned up I wasn’t happy

later when I cleaned up I wasn’t happy I’d become a clean healthy person who

I’d become a clean healthy person who

I’d become a clean healthy person who had no passion anymore and any person

had no passion anymore and any person

had no passion anymore and any person who has cleaned up cold-turkey knows

who has cleaned up cold-turkey knows

who has cleaned up cold-turkey knows what I’m talking about

what I’m talking about

what I’m talking about it isn’t easy because suddenly there’s

it isn’t easy because suddenly there’s

it isn’t easy because suddenly there’s just no spark there’s no point going to

just no spark there’s no point going to

just no spark there’s no point going to the parties there’s no point having the

the parties there’s no point having the

the parties there’s no point having the conversations there’s no point trying to

conversations there’s no point trying to

conversations there’s no point trying to get yourself involved with the family

get yourself involved with the family

get yourself involved with the family because you just feel nobody understands

because you just feel nobody understands

because you just feel nobody understands what you feel like it just seems like

what you feel like it just seems like

what you feel like it just seems like life just isn’t worth living anymore and

life just isn’t worth living anymore and

life just isn’t worth living anymore and when I later on years later started

when I later on years later started

when I later on years later started looking for some way of getting that

looking for some way of getting that

looking for some way of getting that passion back that spark back I read

passion back that spark back I read

passion back that spark back I read books I went through audio tapes but

books I went through audio tapes but

books I went through audio tapes but there was nothing till one day I finally

there was nothing till one day I finally

there was nothing till one day I finally came across this amazing concept a

came across this amazing concept a

came across this amazing concept a concept called goal-setting

concept called goal-setting

concept called goal-setting the simple act of writing down on paper

the simple act of writing down on paper

the simple act of writing down on paper all the things that you want to achieve

all the things that you want to achieve

all the things that you want to achieve into your future and writing them down

into your future and writing them down

into your future and writing them down as if they’ve already happened and I

as if they’ve already happened and I

as if they’ve already happened and I remember the first time I did that Wow

remember the first time I did that Wow

remember the first time I did that Wow it was like my brain lit up man it was

it was like my brain lit up man it was

it was like my brain lit up man it was like I was on a high again this time

like I was on a high again this time

like I was on a high again this time there was no intoxication and I was

there was no intoxication and I was

there was no intoxication and I was happy and my brain was buzzing and I

happy and my brain was buzzing and I

happy and my brain was buzzing and I became intrigued what is it what is this

became intrigued what is it what is this

became intrigued what is it what is this amazing thing going on inside my brain

amazing thing going on inside my brain

amazing thing going on inside my brain right now why haven’t I learned it

right now why haven’t I learned it

right now why haven’t I learned it before

before

before why wasn’t I taught this in school I

why wasn’t I taught this in school I

why wasn’t I taught this in school I wouldn’t have ever reached for that

wouldn’t have ever reached for that

wouldn’t have ever reached for that cigarette

cigarette

cigarette and that’s when I started looking into

and that’s when I started looking into

and that’s when I started looking into science a little bit further and to make

science a little bit further and to make

science a little bit further and to make a very long story shot I realize it’s a

a very long story shot I realize it’s a

a very long story shot I realize it’s a game between two important hormones

game between two important hormones

game between two important hormones serotonin and dopamine these are

serotonin and dopamine these are

serotonin and dopamine these are hormones everyone should know about not

hormones everyone should know about not

hormones everyone should know about not just doctors serotonin plus dopamine

just doctors serotonin plus dopamine

just doctors serotonin plus dopamine equals to happiness so in a healthy

equals to happiness so in a healthy

equals to happiness so in a healthy brain in a normal healthy brain

brain in a normal healthy brain

brain in a normal healthy brain serotonin is being secreted all the time

serotonin is being secreted all the time

serotonin is being secreted all the time you want something right now that

you want something right now that

you want something right now that serotonin

serotonin

serotonin it’s the biochemical signature of the

it’s the biochemical signature of the

it’s the biochemical signature of the emotion of desire so what do you do you

emotion of desire so what do you do you

emotion of desire so what do you do you step out of your comfort zones and you

step out of your comfort zones and you

step out of your comfort zones and you start doing things that you wouldn’t

start doing things that you wouldn’t

start doing things that you wouldn’t have ever thought of doing before and

have ever thought of doing before and

have ever thought of doing before and that’s how you grow we all want things

that’s how you grow we all want things

that’s how you grow we all want things not just because of the things we want

not just because of the things we want

not just because of the things we want them because that’s going to bring out a

them because that’s going to bring out a

them because that’s going to bring out a part over yourself that hasn’t been

part over yourself that hasn’t been

part over yourself that hasn’t been brought before right you don’t want the

brought before right you don’t want the

brought before right you don’t want the car because of the guy you want how

car because of the guy you want how

car because of the guy you want how you’re gonna feel when you sit in the

you’re gonna feel when you sit in the

you’re gonna feel when you sit in the car so when you’re looking at serotonin

car so when you’re looking at serotonin

car so when you’re looking at serotonin and dopamine a healthy person is going

and dopamine a healthy person is going

and dopamine a healthy person is going to step out of their comfort zone go

to step out of their comfort zone go

to step out of their comfort zone go through their fears and still go ahead

through their fears and still go ahead

through their fears and still go ahead and achieve the things that they want

and achieve the things that they want

and achieve the things that they want let me show you this so that’s a normal

let me show you this so that’s a normal

let me show you this so that’s a normal brain you set a goal you’ve got

brain you set a goal you’ve got

brain you set a goal you’ve got serotonin buzzing you go through the six

serotonin buzzing you go through the six

serotonin buzzing you go through the six ghosts of fear you fail you fall you get

ghosts of fear you fail you fall you get

ghosts of fear you fail you fall you get up again you go again and so on the

up again you go again and so on the

up again you go again and so on the journey continues finally you achieve

journey continues finally you achieve

journey continues finally you achieve the goal and you sit back and you say ah

the goal and you sit back and you say ah

the goal and you sit back and you say ah I passed the exam I topped the paper I

I passed the exam I topped the paper I

I passed the exam I topped the paper I got into Harvard

got into Harvard

got into Harvard I saved the war I fed the poor people

I saved the war I fed the poor people

I saved the war I fed the poor people whatever it is and then you feel really

whatever it is and then you feel really

whatever it is and then you feel really good the most well-deserved high in the

good the most well-deserved high in the

good the most well-deserved high in the world the real one the natural one

world the real one the natural one

world the real one the natural one dopamine but what happens when you don’t

dopamine but what happens when you don’t

dopamine but what happens when you don’t have that strain to go through your

have that strain to go through your

have that strain to go through your fears let’s see so their serotonin

fears let’s see so their serotonin

fears let’s see so their serotonin happening in the addicts brain needs to

happening in the addicts brain needs to

happening in the addicts brain needs to do something desires are coming up

do something desires are coming up

do something desires are coming up starts dreaming about them but it’s

starts dreaming about them but it’s

starts dreaming about them but it’s caught up with his or her fears refuses

caught up with his or her fears refuses

caught up with his or her fears refuses to step out of his comfort zone

to step out of his comfort zone

to step out of his comfort zone no dopamine secretion leads to extreme

no dopamine secretion leads to extreme

no dopamine secretion leads to extreme level

level

level of depression and what do you finally

of depression and what do you finally

of depression and what do you finally find a drug you find a smoke you find

find a drug you find a smoke you find

find a drug you find a smoke you find the dope why do you think dope is called

the dope why do you think dope is called

the dope why do you think dope is called dope guys did you ever think about that

dope guys did you ever think about that

dope guys did you ever think about that why it’s slang for marijuana called dope

why it’s slang for marijuana called dope

why it’s slang for marijuana called dope comes from the word dopamine it mimics

comes from the word dopamine it mimics

comes from the word dopamine it mimics the hormone dopamine so when you smoke

the hormone dopamine so when you smoke

the hormone dopamine so when you smoke it you think you are it right so your

it you think you are it right so your

it you think you are it right so your brain says here that’s cool you’ve

brain says here that’s cool you’ve

brain says here that’s cool you’ve achieved everything you can chill back

achieved everything you can chill back

achieved everything you can chill back now and that’s how you see smokers right

now and that’s how you see smokers right

now and that’s how you see smokers right here man yeah chill buddy

here man yeah chill buddy

here man yeah chill buddy what’s the hurry man right they’re high

what’s the hurry man right they’re high

what’s the hurry man right they’re high on dopamine what happens when the dope

on dopamine what happens when the dope

on dopamine what happens when the dope comes down they’re depressed again right

comes down they’re depressed again right

comes down they’re depressed again right and you back into the same place where

and you back into the same place where

and you back into the same place where you first started so goal setting is the

you first started so goal setting is the

you first started so goal setting is the most easiest way to make yourself happy

most easiest way to make yourself happy

most easiest way to make yourself happy it’s the easiest way for us to grow

it’s the easiest way for us to grow

it’s the easiest way for us to grow that’s why we are here

that’s why we are here

that’s why we are here if we don’t fail if we don’t get

if we don’t fail if we don’t get

if we don’t fail if we don’t get ridiculed if we don’t fall and we don’t

ridiculed if we don’t fall and we don’t

ridiculed if we don’t fall and we don’t learn to stand up again how we ever

learn to stand up again how we ever

learn to stand up again how we ever going to grow how are we going to ever

going to grow how are we going to ever

going to grow how are we going to ever achieve all the things that we wanted to

achieve all the things that we wanted to

achieve all the things that we wanted to achieve and become the people that we

achieve and become the people that we

achieve and become the people that we hope to become so all I need to say

hope to become so all I need to say

hope to become so all I need to say today is guys think about it what are

today is guys think about it what are

today is guys think about it what are your goals what what is it that’s going

your goals what what is it that’s going

your goals what what is it that’s going to drive you when you’re gonna find your

to drive you when you’re gonna find your

to drive you when you’re gonna find your Juice and I don’t mean the conventional

Juice and I don’t mean the conventional

Juice and I don’t mean the conventional stuff I mean really where you gonna find

stuff I mean really where you gonna find

stuff I mean really where you gonna find your Juice what is it that you’re going

your Juice what is it that you’re going

your Juice what is it that you’re going to do on a daily basis how are you going

to do on a daily basis how are you going

to do on a daily basis how are you going to keep yourself is it going to be being

to keep yourself is it going to be being

to keep yourself is it going to be being fit is it going to be singing is it

fit is it going to be singing is it

fit is it going to be singing is it going to be reading is it gonna be going

going to be reading is it gonna be going

going to be reading is it gonna be going on in feeding the hungry dogs taking

on in feeding the hungry dogs taking

on in feeding the hungry dogs taking care of people on the streets what is it

care of people on the streets what is it

care of people on the streets what is it that’s going to give you juice that’s

that’s going to give you juice that’s

that’s going to give you juice that’s going to give you drive to keep going

going to give you drive to keep going

going to give you drive to keep going again and again and again and don’t ever

again and again and again and don’t ever

again and again and again and don’t ever be afraid to go and look at the dark

be afraid to go and look at the dark

be afraid to go and look at the dark side of you the dark side is there it’s

side of you the dark side is there it’s

side of you the dark side is there it’s as much as there as the happy and the

as much as there as the happy and the

as much as there as the happy and the bright chirpy one it’s like day and

bright chirpy one it’s like day and

bright chirpy one it’s like day and night you can’t avoid it right but you

night you can’t avoid it right but you

night you can’t avoid it right but you don’t always have to sorry to say F

don’t always have to sorry to say F

don’t always have to sorry to say F yourself up trying to discover that dark

yourself up trying to discover that dark

yourself up trying to discover that dark side there’s great ways of discovering

side there’s great ways of discovering

side there’s great ways of discovering that dark side there’s this headstands

that dark side there’s this headstands

that dark side there’s this headstands we do all sorts of stuff at the 21

we do all sorts of stuff at the 21

we do all sorts of stuff at the 21 long runs in the rain powerlifting sets

long runs in the rain powerlifting sets

long runs in the rain powerlifting sets to failure you know I mean getting your

to failure you know I mean getting your

to failure you know I mean getting your body fat percentage down to inhuman

body fat percentage down to inhuman

body fat percentage down to inhuman levels there’s all sorts of stuff where

levels there’s all sorts of stuff where

levels there’s all sorts of stuff where you can get your sense of significance

you can get your sense of significance

you can get your sense of significance you don’t always have to do drugs or

you don’t always have to do drugs or

you don’t always have to do drugs or smoke or drink alcohol or whatever it is

smoke or drink alcohol or whatever it is

smoke or drink alcohol or whatever it is your thing that you go to to deal with

your thing that you go to to deal with

your thing that you go to to deal with stress mobile phones we were just

stress mobile phones we were just

stress mobile phones we were just chatting about it in the room back like

chatting about it in the room back like

chatting about it in the room back like we don’t know the addictions and we said

we don’t know the addictions and we said

we don’t know the addictions and we said do you think mobile phones is it maybe I

do you think mobile phones is it maybe I

do you think mobile phones is it maybe I don’t know what you’re using it for but

don’t know what you’re using it for but

don’t know what you’re using it for but whatever you thing is find your juice

whatever you thing is find your juice

whatever you thing is find your juice and don’t be afraid to be your own

and don’t be afraid to be your own

and don’t be afraid to be your own unique beautiful self thank you

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