I asked for a stool because i’m going to tell a story and it’s all awkward to
tell a story and it’s all awkward to
tell a story and it’s all awkward to stand up and tell a story never my
stand up and tell a story never my
stand up and tell a story never my mother never did that she never stood up
mother never did that she never stood up
mother never did that she never stood up and tells me a story before I went to
and tells me a story before I went to
and tells me a story before I went to sleep was over so i thought i was to my
sleep was over so i thought i was to my
sleep was over so i thought i was to my teacher the irony about my story starts
teacher the irony about my story starts
teacher the irony about my story starts about my with my name my name is Phyllis
about my with my name my name is Phyllis
about my with my name my name is Phyllis algerie it’s in Arabic means the future
algerie it’s in Arabic means the future
algerie it’s in Arabic means the future predicting priest if you would have math
predicting priest if you would have math
predicting priest if you would have math me five years ago about my future I
me five years ago about my future I
me five years ago about my future I wouldn’t have it in my wildest dream
wouldn’t have it in my wildest dream
wouldn’t have it in my wildest dream that will be sitting on the red red dots
that will be sitting on the red red dots
that will be sitting on the red red dots on a TEDx of Ted stage talking about my
on a TEDx of Ted stage talking about my
on a TEDx of Ted stage talking about my life story I had a complete other
life story I had a complete other
life story I had a complete other picture of myself the other irony is
picture of myself the other irony is
picture of myself the other irony is actually the title of my speech choices
actually the title of my speech choices
actually the title of my speech choices of a refugee do you think that any
of a refugee do you think that any
of a refugee do you think that any refugee has a choice I didn’t have a
refugee has a choice I didn’t have a
refugee has a choice I didn’t have a choice I am here because I didn’t have a
choice I am here because I didn’t have a
choice I am here because I didn’t have a choice i was born in Iraq lived there
choice i was born in Iraq lived there
choice i was born in Iraq lived there till nine 26 I was actually born to a
till nine 26 I was actually born to a
till nine 26 I was actually born to a middle class family I was one of those
middle class family I was one of those
middle class family I was one of those very very annoying children that I will
very very annoying children that I will
very very annoying children that I will just stop you and say sir I want to be a
just stop you and say sir I want to be a
just stop you and say sir I want to be a doctor when I would grow up so and I
doctor when I would grow up so and I
doctor when I would grow up so and I worked hard to do that I manage that I
worked hard to do that I manage that I
worked hard to do that I manage that I my 25th years I was great just graduate
my 25th years I was great just graduate
my 25th years I was great just graduate fresh doctor went to work as as
fresh doctor went to work as as
fresh doctor went to work as as emergency doctorate in one of the middle
emergency doctorate in one of the middle
emergency doctorate in one of the middle middle small middle big hospitals in
middle small middle big hospitals in
middle small middle big hospitals in Baghdad and I was very happy at that I
Baghdad and I was very happy at that I
Baghdad and I was very happy at that I did it and I thought I did it good until
did it and I thought I did it good until
did it and I thought I did it good until one day it was one of them won one of my
one day it was one of them won one of my
one day it was one of them won one of my late shift and then then they become a
late shift and then then they become a
late shift and then then they become a huge amount of people a very big family
huge amount of people a very big family
huge amount of people a very big family they are carrying this tale cold
they are carrying this tale cold
they are carrying this tale cold where you can call dead person and he
where you can call dead person and he
where you can call dead person and he they just put it in front put him in
they just put it in front put him in
they just put it in front put him in front of of on front on my desk and they
front of of on front on my desk and they
front of of on front on my desk and they asked me to reanimate them just bring
asked me to reanimate them just bring
asked me to reanimate them just bring him back to life like I was like let me
him back to life like I was like let me
him back to life like I was like let me just check if he if that’s even possible
just check if he if that’s even possible
just check if he if that’s even possible so I did my what you took all in Dutch
so I did my what you took all in Dutch
so I did my what you took all in Dutch muscala so you listen to the heart for a
muscala so you listen to the heart for a
muscala so you listen to the heart for a minute and if there is no beat heart
minute and if there is no beat heart
minute and if there is no beat heart beat you say he’s dead I’m not going to
beat you say he’s dead I’m not going to
beat you say he’s dead I’m not going to do anything especially because I don’t
do anything especially because I don’t
do anything especially because I don’t know what happened like how long is he
know what happened like how long is he
know what happened like how long is he like that I but they didn’t agree they
like that I but they didn’t agree they
like that I but they didn’t agree they insisted that I have to reanimate him
insisted that I have to reanimate him
insisted that I have to reanimate him they insisted I have to bring him back
they insisted I have to bring him back
they insisted I have to bring him back to life I tried to explain to them that
to life I tried to explain to them that
to life I tried to explain to them that that won’t help that we have to at least
that won’t help that we have to at least
that won’t help that we have to at least respect to death he is that we have to
respect to death he is that we have to
respect to death he is that we have to respect the dead that’s like a worldwide
respect the dead that’s like a worldwide
respect the dead that’s like a worldwide principle that we all believe in but
principle that we all believe in but
principle that we all believe in but they didn’t believe in they they started
they didn’t believe in they they started
they didn’t believe in they they started to shout at me and one of them started
to shout at me and one of them started
to shout at me and one of them started to hit me and the other saturday at me
to hit me and the other saturday at me
to hit me and the other saturday at me and then they had the the FISC the fists
and then they had the the FISC the fists
and then they had the the FISC the fists kept coming the the cakes kept coming
kept coming the the cakes kept coming
kept coming the the cakes kept coming one of them used this pistol to kick
one of them used this pistol to kick
one of them used this pistol to kick wonderly I managed to flee the hospital
wonderly I managed to flee the hospital
wonderly I managed to flee the hospital I went to to the police station to
I went to to the police station to
I went to to the police station to police station and I asked them I told
police station and I asked them I told
police station and I asked them I told my story and the policemen behind the
my story and the policemen behind the
my story and the policemen behind the death said so you are that doctor who
death said so you are that doctor who
death said so you are that doctor who killed mr. X i we don’t want to keep
killed mr. X i we don’t want to keep
killed mr. X i we don’t want to keep bringing names so that moment was for me
bringing names so that moment was for me
bringing names so that moment was for me okay i’m not going to go back home today
okay i’m not going to go back home today
okay i’m not going to go back home today I’m gonna go to another friends and
I’m gonna go to another friends and
I’m gonna go to another friends and other friends to another friends and to
other friends to another friends and to
other friends to another friends and to another friends and to another friends
another friends and to another friends
another friends and to another friends this kept I kept doing this for a month
this kept I kept doing this for a month
this kept I kept doing this for a month and so once at one day I thought this is
and so once at one day I thought this is
and so once at one day I thought this is won’t happen my life isn’t safe I’m not
won’t happen my life isn’t safe I’m not
won’t happen my life isn’t safe I’m not Iraq is not safe for me I have to do
Iraq is not safe for me I have to do
Iraq is not safe for me I have to do something because the friends i am
something because the friends i am
something because the friends i am staying at are in safe and as well so i
staying at are in safe and as well so i
staying at are in safe and as well so i found this man he he managed to bring me
found this man he he managed to bring me
found this man he he managed to bring me to the netherlands so after a very long
to the netherlands so after a very long
to the netherlands so after a very long road trip Here I am at the Netherlands
road trip Here I am at the Netherlands
road trip Here I am at the Netherlands and my very own first day at the
and my very own first day at the
and my very own first day at the netherlands i met this huge big security
netherlands i met this huge big security
netherlands i met this huge big security guard who found my stethoscope in my
guard who found my stethoscope in my
guard who found my stethoscope in my backpack when he had to search it
backpack when he had to search it
backpack when he had to search it and he asked me he was very enthusiastic
and he asked me he was very enthusiastic
and he asked me he was very enthusiastic you’re a doctor and I was i just spent
you’re a doctor and I was i just spent
you’re a doctor and I was i just spent 10 days in the stomach of a track not
10 days in the stomach of a track not
10 days in the stomach of a track not really feeling like a doctor I said I
really feeling like a doctor I said I
really feeling like a doctor I said I was a doctor and he looked at me very
was a doctor and he looked at me very
was a doctor and he looked at me very surprised and he said once a doctor is
surprised and he said once a doctor is
surprised and he said once a doctor is always a doctor and that I still still
always a doctor and that I still still
always a doctor and that I still still have this is goose bump when I say it
have this is goose bump when I say it
have this is goose bump when I say it but it’s that moment the moment he said
but it’s that moment the moment he said
but it’s that moment the moment he said that I got the I got this yes he’s right
that I got the I got this yes he’s right
that I got the I got this yes he’s right I’m still a doctor I have the knowledge
I’m still a doctor I have the knowledge
I’m still a doctor I have the knowledge i have the information all i have to do
i have the information all i have to do
i have the information all i have to do is translate the knowledge I have into
is translate the knowledge I have into
is translate the knowledge I have into Dutch it shouldn’t be difficult so I
Dutch it shouldn’t be difficult so I
Dutch it shouldn’t be difficult so I went to the library right away found
went to the library right away found
went to the library right away found this book Dutch for dummies I thought
this book Dutch for dummies I thought
this book Dutch for dummies I thought yes this is my book this is my book done
yes this is my book this is my book done
yes this is my book this is my book done for dummies so I started with Dutch the
for dummies so I started with Dutch the
for dummies so I started with Dutch the dummies but I didn’t stop with Dutch for
dummies but I didn’t stop with Dutch for
dummies but I didn’t stop with Dutch for dummies because I was nothing else was
dummies because I was nothing else was
dummies because I was nothing else was important have this goal ahead of me had
important have this goal ahead of me had
important have this goal ahead of me had this goal I had to speak Dutch I had to
this goal I had to speak Dutch I had to
this goal I had to speak Dutch I had to become a doctor again I have to find
become a doctor again I have to find
become a doctor again I have to find myself back well in this in this period
myself back well in this in this period
myself back well in this in this period like after I didn’t occur even when I
like after I didn’t occur even when I
like after I didn’t occur even when I was at the ing the Immigration Services
was at the ing the Immigration Services
was at the ing the Immigration Services I was i SAT there and asking them what
I was i SAT there and asking them what
I was i SAT there and asking them what does this mean me what does this word
does this mean me what does this word
does this mean me what does this word mean what does that word mean how do i
mean what does that word mean how do i
mean what does that word mean how do i pronounce this how depressed so I didn’t
pronounce this how depressed so I didn’t
pronounce this how depressed so I didn’t pay any attention to the whole fact I
pay any attention to the whole fact I
pay any attention to the whole fact I just fleet Iraq that know how here in
just fleet Iraq that know how here in
just fleet Iraq that know how here in the Netherlands knowing no one knowing
the Netherlands knowing no one knowing
the Netherlands knowing no one knowing nothing three days after after a law of
nothing three days after after a law of
nothing three days after after a law of course is a low of exams L all failing a
course is a low of exams L all failing a
course is a low of exams L all failing a la fox is a lot of successes here i am
la fox is a lot of successes here i am
la fox is a lot of successes here i am applying for a job as in an academic
applying for a job as in an academic
applying for a job as in an academic hospital of mass effect and i was up
hospital of mass effect and i was up
hospital of mass effect and i was up hired i am now a medical doctor in in my
hired i am now a medical doctor in in my
hired i am now a medical doctor in in my academic hospital of mass effect as a
academic hospital of mass effect as a
academic hospital of mass effect as a cardiothoracic surgeon not a surgeon
cardiothoracic surgeon not a surgeon
cardiothoracic surgeon not a surgeon assistant surgery so i was very happy I
assistant surgery so i was very happy I
assistant surgery so i was very happy I was like yes this is it I imagine that
was like yes this is it I imagine that
was like yes this is it I imagine that would be I would be happy because I’m
would be I would be happy because I’m
would be I would be happy because I’m now my goal but then I was on the top of
now my goal but then I was on the top of
now my goal but then I was on the top of the hill I reach my goal I was the but
the hill I reach my goal I was the but
the hill I reach my goal I was the but then one question kept me awake at night
then one question kept me awake at night
then one question kept me awake at night and now what but who am I now I am I
and now what but who am I now I am I
and now what but who am I now I am I reach my goal but how I came here
reach my goal but how I came here
reach my goal but how I came here where’s home now Iraq isn’t home anymore
where’s home now Iraq isn’t home anymore
where’s home now Iraq isn’t home anymore because I became too touchy to be Iraqi
because I became too touchy to be Iraqi
because I became too touchy to be Iraqi and I’m not a lucky anymore because I am
and I’m not a lucky anymore because I am
and I’m not a lucky anymore because I am too touchy yeah other way yeah you got
too touchy yeah other way yeah you got
too touchy yeah other way yeah you got idea so I heard once once someone saying
idea so I heard once once someone saying
idea so I heard once once someone saying that the journey is as important as a
that the journey is as important as a
that the journey is as important as a destination so I thought to myself I am
destination so I thought to myself I am
destination so I thought to myself I am at my destination but what was my
at my destination but what was my
at my destination but what was my journey I have no idea all i think about
journey I have no idea all i think about
journey I have no idea all i think about was me looking at this goal I want to
was me looking at this goal I want to
was me looking at this goal I want to reach that goal so I went I went back I
reach that goal so I went I went back I
reach that goal so I went I went back I did I planned this rod rode a bike trip
did I planned this rod rode a bike trip
did I planned this rod rode a bike trip from mass text where I work live work as
from mass text where I work live work as
from mass text where I work live work as a doctor too groaning what I came as a
a doctor too groaning what I came as a
a doctor too groaning what I came as a refugee along this along the way I would
refugee along this along the way I would
refugee along this along the way I would pass by all the Asylum centers where I
pass by all the Asylum centers where I
pass by all the Asylum centers where I stayed and gag as a doctor I sorry as a
stayed and gag as a doctor I sorry as a
stayed and gag as a doctor I sorry as a refugee so my first step was velo the
refugee so my first step was velo the
refugee so my first step was velo the first men the first time I came a value
first men the first time I came a value
first men the first time I came a value i was very happy like hundred kilometres
i was very happy like hundred kilometres
i was very happy like hundred kilometres off behind me at cycling so there was
off behind me at cycling so there was
off behind me at cycling so there was very funny yeah but I did it so I was
very funny yeah but I did it so I was
very funny yeah but I did it so I was very happy but then I saw a sign like
very happy but then I saw a sign like
very happy but then I saw a sign like welcome and I was extremely happy and
welcome and I was extremely happy and
welcome and I was extremely happy and then I went to med to the room where I
then I went to med to the room where I
then I went to med to the room where I stayed there as a refugee and the room I
stayed there as a refugee and the room I
stayed there as a refugee and the room I ones pictured ones pictured like like
ones pictured ones pictured like like
ones pictured ones pictured like like this is this is it’s a view it’s a cozy
this is this is it’s a view it’s a cozy
this is this is it’s a view it’s a cozy it’s it’s a nice it’s warm it’s safe it
it’s it’s a nice it’s warm it’s safe it
it’s it’s a nice it’s warm it’s safe it wasn’t cozy it wasn’t safe it wasn’t
wasn’t cozy it wasn’t safe it wasn’t
wasn’t cozy it wasn’t safe it wasn’t warm it was cold I felt I felt
warm it was cold I felt I felt
warm it was cold I felt I felt everything was against me but then I
everything was against me but then I
everything was against me but then I realized I feel that because it’s I am
realized I feel that because it’s I am
realized I feel that because it’s I am NOT comparing the room to the stomach of
NOT comparing the room to the stomach of
NOT comparing the room to the stomach of a truck anymore i’m comparing to what i
a truck anymore i’m comparing to what i
a truck anymore i’m comparing to what i find my amazing house in maastricht i am
find my amazing house in maastricht i am
find my amazing house in maastricht i am not that refugee anymore and this roller
not that refugee anymore and this roller
not that refugee anymore and this roller coaster of emotions repeated itself in
coaster of emotions repeated itself in
coaster of emotions repeated itself in wageningen and Arnhem and then in
wageningen and Arnhem and then in
wageningen and Arnhem and then in terrible I got this amazing chance to
terrible I got this amazing chance to
terrible I got this amazing chance to meet Mitchell that security guard when I
meet Mitchell that security guard when I
meet Mitchell that security guard when I met him the most important the most
met him the most important the most
met him the most important the most beautiful part about meaning that he
beautiful part about meaning that he
beautiful part about meaning that he didn’t know who I am he have no clue he
didn’t know who I am he have no clue he
didn’t know who I am he have no clue he just for him it was just a fact you’re a
just for him it was just a fact you’re a
just for him it was just a fact you’re a doctor there will always be a doctor so
doctor there will always be a doctor so
doctor there will always be a doctor so he didn’t know me and the second one
he didn’t know me and the second one
he didn’t know me and the second one second beautiful part of our about our
second beautiful part of our about our
second beautiful part of our about our meeting was that Mitchell
meeting was that Mitchell
meeting was that Mitchell wasn’t that big wasn’t that huge guy he
wasn’t that big wasn’t that huge guy he
wasn’t that big wasn’t that huge guy he was just my size he was about I he was
was just my size he was about I he was
was just my size he was about I he was about my size I was like I told him like
about my size I was like I told him like
about my size I was like I told him like I always pictured you even when I told
I always pictured you even when I told
I always pictured you even when I told people about about you I was like big
people about about you I was like big
people about about you I was like big huge typical dutch person but he wasn’t
huge typical dutch person but he wasn’t
huge typical dutch person but he wasn’t he was my size but that well then I
he was my size but that well then I
he was my size but that well then I realized that I am NOT that refugee
realized that I am NOT that refugee
realized that I am NOT that refugee anymore who feels like nothing i am now
anymore who feels like nothing i am now
anymore who feels like nothing i am now I stand tall I look people in the eyes
I stand tall I look people in the eyes
I stand tall I look people in the eyes and I talk to them I am proud person
and I talk to them I am proud person
and I talk to them I am proud person that moment that moment I felt like I am
that moment that moment I felt like I am
that moment that moment I felt like I am Who I am I am firoz this moment I felt
Who I am I am firoz this moment I felt
Who I am I am firoz this moment I felt complete this moment I felt proud and I
complete this moment I felt proud and I
complete this moment I felt proud and I also learned those moments that they
also learned those moments that they
also learned those moments that they just have they happened 25 years ago
just have they happened 25 years ago
just have they happened 25 years ago they had those moments but I didn’t I
they had those moments but I didn’t I
they had those moments but I didn’t I wasn’t aware about about those moment I
wasn’t aware about about those moment I
wasn’t aware about about those moment I learned like that those moments
learned like that those moments
learned like that those moments shouldn’t be a big one I shouldn’t bike
shouldn’t be a big one I shouldn’t bike
shouldn’t be a big one I shouldn’t bike 400 kilometres to to have such a moment
400 kilometres to to have such a moment
400 kilometres to to have such a moment such a moment can be a laugh with a
such a moment can be a laugh with a
such a moment can be a laugh with a friend a hug from a good friend or or
friend a hug from a good friend or or
friend a hug from a good friend or or just just a smile of sums of someone you
just just a smile of sums of someone you
just just a smile of sums of someone you held and I realized like if I if I just
held and I realized like if I if I just
held and I realized like if I if I just if I just focus on those moments and
if I just focus on those moments and
if I just focus on those moments and like put to myself like this is this is
like put to myself like this is this is
like put to myself like this is this is one of those moments for us you’ll need
one of those moments for us you’ll need
one of those moments for us you’ll need it and when life isn’t easy as as it I
it and when life isn’t easy as as it I
it and when life isn’t easy as as it I would like it to be I look back at those
would like it to be I look back at those
would like it to be I look back at those moments and I tell it say to myself
moments and I tell it say to myself
moments and I tell it say to myself though this is your life this is what
though this is your life this is what
though this is your life this is what was that how you feel now isn’t your
was that how you feel now isn’t your
was that how you feel now isn’t your life this is your life just be aware of
life this is your life just be aware of
life this is your life just be aware of those happy moments and keep in your
those happy moments and keep in your
those happy moments and keep in your mind once home is always home thank
mind once home is always home thank
mind once home is always home thank [Applause]
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