The Isolation of Addiction | Breakthrough

the similarities with all kind of

the similarities with all kind of addiction is you get that first good

addiction is you get that first good

addiction is you get that first good feeling from using something and your

feeling from using something and your

feeling from using something and your brain just remembers the good part

brain just remembers the good part

brain just remembers the good part whether there’s a negative oh I didn’t

whether there’s a negative oh I didn’t

whether there’s a negative oh I didn’t have any money after that I didn’t I

have any money after that I didn’t I

have any money after that I didn’t I miss rent or whatever your your brain

miss rent or whatever your your brain

miss rent or whatever your your brain really quickly forgets that and then it

really quickly forgets that and then it

really quickly forgets that and then it turns into just this obsession like that

turns into just this obsession like that

turns into just this obsession like that it’s really the only thing that matters

it’s really the only thing that matters

it’s really the only thing that matters that’s not I look right over there

that’s not I look right over there

that’s not I look right over there earlier it’s like where I go like

earlier it’s like where I go like

earlier it’s like where I go like halfway done that blog I look at it like

halfway done that blog I look at it like

halfway done that blog I look at it like it’s a strip mine like at first you know

it’s a strip mine like at first you know

it’s a strip mine like at first you know I have these relationships and they’re

I have these relationships and they’re

I have these relationships and they’re fruitful and I’m getting stuff out of

fruitful and I’m getting stuff out of

fruitful and I’m getting stuff out of them and I will burn these bridges and

them and I will burn these bridges and

them and I will burn these bridges and strip away the relationships with people

strip away the relationships with people

strip away the relationships with people until there’s nothing left and then it’s

until there’s nothing left and then it’s

until there’s nothing left and then it’s just like skirt you know screw it

just like skirt you know screw it

just like skirt you know screw it whatever you know on to the next one all

whatever you know on to the next one all

whatever you know on to the next one all you want to do is the drug thing I can’t

you want to do is the drug thing I can’t

you want to do is the drug thing I can’t stress enough of the obsession that’s

stress enough of the obsession that’s

stress enough of the obsession that’s all that’s all it matters ma’am

the only thing that makes any sense and

the only thing that makes any sense and then life is still happening to you as

then life is still happening to you as

then life is still happening to you as this is going on you’re not really

this is going on you’re not really

this is going on you’re not really consciously thinking about well you know

consciously thinking about well you know

consciously thinking about well you know I don’t I don’t make this phone call I’m

I don’t I don’t make this phone call I’m

I don’t I don’t make this phone call I’m not going to call them tomorrow then

not going to call them tomorrow then

not going to call them tomorrow then you’re not going to talk them for six

you’re not going to talk them for six

you’re not going to talk them for six months and that that’s going to change

months and that that’s going to change

months and that that’s going to change how that person feels about you’re not

how that person feels about you’re not

how that person feels about you’re not worried about that and you expect the

worried about that and you expect the

worried about that and you expect the next time you talk to someone it just to

next time you talk to someone it just to

next time you talk to someone it just to be like you talked to him yesterday and

be like you talked to him yesterday and

be like you talked to him yesterday and with a lot of people it’s not like that

with a lot of people it’s not like that

with a lot of people it’s not like that and I think that’s a problem with

and I think that’s a problem with

and I think that’s a problem with getting clean too I get afternoon I have

getting clean too I get afternoon I have

getting clean too I get afternoon I have an appointment to see dr. CamLAN okay

an appointment to see dr. CamLAN okay

an appointment to see dr. CamLAN okay you get clean and you’re like oh I’m

you get clean and you’re like oh I’m

you get clean and you’re like oh I’m just going to get detox and things when

just going to get detox and things when

just going to get detox and things when you find but you get out and everything

you find but you get out and everything

you find but you get out and everything builds up all the real life stuff

builds up all the real life stuff

builds up all the real life stuff because you just haven’t been dealing

because you just haven’t been dealing

because you just haven’t been dealing with it the worst thing is really the

with it the worst thing is really the

with it the worst thing is really the shame in at all I mean you feel shameful

shame in at all I mean you feel shameful

shame in at all I mean you feel shameful that you’ve screwed so many people over

that you’ve screwed so many people over

that you’ve screwed so many people over it feels shameful that your parents

it feels shameful that your parents

it feels shameful that your parents don’t want to talk to you anymore really

don’t want to talk to you anymore really

don’t want to talk to you anymore really and that a lot of people resent you and

and that a lot of people resent you and

and that a lot of people resent you and you can feel it and and it hurts