[Music] there’s a person that I like to listen
there’s a person that I like to listen
there’s a person that I like to listen and sometimes talk to a lot they’ve
and sometimes talk to a lot they’ve
and sometimes talk to a lot they’ve always been there like a second point of
always been there like a second point of
always been there like a second point of view on everything I do they like making
view on everything I do they like making
view on everything I do they like making me change my mind making me really think
me change my mind making me really think
me change my mind making me really think making me feel well insane at times does
making me feel well insane at times does
making me feel well insane at times does anyone hear and know someone like that
anyone hear and know someone like that
anyone hear and know someone like that this person is with me everywhere
this person is with me everywhere
this person is with me everywhere they’re with me in school at home and
they’re with me in school at home and
they’re with me in school at home and the calf and bed in the bathroom there
the calf and bed in the bathroom there
the calf and bed in the bathroom there even with me right now and as I said
even with me right now and as I said
even with me right now and as I said they are really nice to talk back to
they are really nice to talk back to
they are really nice to talk back to sometimes but the problem is they are
sometimes but the problem is they are
sometimes but the problem is they are with me all the time and sometimes they
with me all the time and sometimes they
with me all the time and sometimes they speak to me they would say things that
speak to me they would say things that
speak to me they would say things that really hurt me even poison my mind they
really hurt me even poison my mind they
really hurt me even poison my mind they would say things like oh my gosh Karen
would say things like oh my gosh Karen
would say things like oh my gosh Karen you’re so fat why are you so desperate
you’re so fat why are you so desperate
you’re so fat why are you so desperate you’re so attention-seeking you know the
you’re so attention-seeking you know the
you’re so attention-seeking you know the world can live without you right how
world can live without you right how
world can live without you right how many of you have ever heard these things
many of you have ever heard these things
many of you have ever heard these things said to you that person that I was just
said to you that person that I was just
said to you that person that I was just talking about that says all these things
talking about that says all these things
talking about that says all these things that person is in your head this person
that person is in your head this person
that person is in your head this person is in all of our heads they are your
is in all of our heads they are your
is in all of our heads they are your best friend and your only enemy and
best friend and your only enemy and
best friend and your only enemy and depending on you they have many
depending on you they have many
depending on you they have many nicknames their names can be
nicknames their names can be
nicknames their names can be insecurities depression anxiety pain
insecurities depression anxiety pain
insecurities depression anxiety pain struggles how many of you have ever
struggles how many of you have ever
struggles how many of you have ever struggled not externally but internally
struggled not externally but internally
struggled not externally but internally if so I can relate and today I’m going
if so I can relate and today I’m going
if so I can relate and today I’m going to stand here with you to help you
to stand here with you to help you
to stand here with you to help you figure out what to do when the person in
figure out what to do when the person in
figure out what to do when the person in their head is making them struggle now
their head is making them struggle now
their head is making them struggle now my internal struggles have always had a
my internal struggles have always had a
my internal struggles have always had a bit of a toll on me my nicknames for
bit of a toll on me my nicknames for
bit of a toll on me my nicknames for them our insecurities anxiety and
them our insecurities anxiety and
them our insecurities anxiety and depression now everyone has insecurities
depression now everyone has insecurities
depression now everyone has insecurities it’s the one thing that kind of plagues
it’s the one thing that kind of plagues
it’s the one thing that kind of plagues us all my insecurities caused my anxiety
us all my insecurities caused my anxiety
us all my insecurities caused my anxiety they made me think a lot about people
they made me think a lot about people
they made me think a lot about people what do they think of me what if they
what do they think of me what if they
what do they think of me what if they think I’m just a sec attention-seeking
think I’m just a sec attention-seeking
think I’m just a sec attention-seeking what if they hate me why don’t they
what if they hate me why don’t they
what if they hate me why don’t they pretend to like me what if i’m annoying
pretend to like me what if i’m annoying
pretend to like me what if i’m annoying what if this what
what if this what
what if this what but you see my insecurities and my
but you see my insecurities and my
but you see my insecurities and my anxiety caused me think so much it
anxiety caused me think so much it
anxiety caused me think so much it becomes so cautious that I ended up
becomes so cautious that I ended up
becomes so cautious that I ended up losing faith in myself I just didn’t
losing faith in myself I just didn’t
losing faith in myself I just didn’t love myself anymore grade 7 was when my
love myself anymore grade 7 was when my
love myself anymore grade 7 was when my anxiety really started taking a toll on
anxiety really started taking a toll on
anxiety really started taking a toll on me the person in my head started
me the person in my head started
me the person in my head started tweaking things and now because of these
tweaking things and now because of these
tweaking things and now because of these abnormal situations friends of mine
abnormal situations friends of mine
abnormal situations friends of mine started to avoid me because in their
started to avoid me because in their
started to avoid me because in their mind it was a natural to be feeling this
mind it was a natural to be feeling this
mind it was a natural to be feeling this way now it really hurt me to know that
way now it really hurt me to know that
way now it really hurt me to know that people would like leave me my times of
people would like leave me my times of
people would like leave me my times of need so I started self-harming because
need so I started self-harming because
need so I started self-harming because in my mind it helps me cope now of
in my mind it helps me cope now of
in my mind it helps me cope now of course doing self harming it caused me
course doing self harming it caused me
course doing self harming it caused me to lose even more friends and even my
to lose even more friends and even my
to lose even more friends and even my reputation which then sparked my
reputation which then sparked my
reputation which then sparked my depression so to deal with all of these
depression so to deal with all of these
depression so to deal with all of these disappointments I decide to shut myself
disappointments I decide to shut myself
disappointments I decide to shut myself out I shut myself down I decide to run
out I shut myself down I decide to run
out I shut myself down I decide to run away and just leave everything behind I
away and just leave everything behind I
away and just leave everything behind I decided to move schools and leave those
decided to move schools and leave those
decided to move schools and leave those people who hurt me even more and I
people who hurt me even more and I
people who hurt me even more and I really thought it would be all over
really thought it would be all over
really thought it would be all over after I moved but then great n rolled
after I moved but then great n rolled
after I moved but then great n rolled around great n was a bit of a crazy year
around great n was a bit of a crazy year
around great n was a bit of a crazy year for me I had something called a relapse
for me I had something called a relapse
for me I had something called a relapse the pain the sadness you know the secret
the pain the sadness you know the secret
the pain the sadness you know the secret thoughts of like giving up the many
thoughts of like giving up the many
thoughts of like giving up the many distrusting feelings like an avalanche
distrusting feelings like an avalanche
distrusting feelings like an avalanche it crushed me and it was really
it crushed me and it was really
it crushed me and it was really upsetting for me to be having this
upsetting for me to be having this
upsetting for me to be having this relapse because I moved for a better
relapse because I moved for a better
relapse because I moved for a better life I moved and finally felt a sense of
life I moved and finally felt a sense of
life I moved and finally felt a sense of happiness I moved and finally had
happiness I moved and finally had
happiness I moved and finally had friends I felt wanted I ran away from
friends I felt wanted I ran away from
friends I felt wanted I ran away from the past to make myself feel better and
the past to make myself feel better and
the past to make myself feel better and now the past had caught up to me you see
now the past had caught up to me you see
now the past had caught up to me you see when I was hit with a situation like
when I was hit with a situation like
when I was hit with a situation like this I thought there was only one
this I thought there was only one
this I thought there was only one solution and that was to give up let the
solution and that was to give up let the
solution and that was to give up let the darkness kind of paint over me I wanted
darkness kind of paint over me I wanted
darkness kind of paint over me I wanted to die fortunately my friends
to die fortunately my friends
to die fortunately my friends saw the darkness that I painted over me
saw the darkness that I painted over me
saw the darkness that I painted over me they saw that I had change so they
they saw that I had change so they
they saw that I had change so they opened up their arms to me they decided
opened up their arms to me they decided
opened up their arms to me they decided to help me heal they helped me go to
to help me heal they helped me go to
to help me heal they helped me go to guidance they helped me open up to my
guidance they helped me open up to my
guidance they helped me open up to my teacher I am now in grade 11 and a month
teacher I am now in grade 11 and a month
teacher I am now in grade 11 and a month ago today I waited at the bus stop for
ago today I waited at the bus stop for
ago today I waited at the bus stop for for the bus to take me down to the
for the bus to take me down to the
for the bus to take me down to the psychiatrist to see if I was to be able
psychiatrist to see if I was to be able
psychiatrist to see if I was to be able to officially diagnose myself or just to
to officially diagnose myself or just to
to officially diagnose myself or just to be dismissed it was to me a very big
be dismissed it was to me a very big
be dismissed it was to me a very big step in my journey if everything felt so
step in my journey if everything felt so
step in my journey if everything felt so real it was amazing supposed to be a
real it was amazing supposed to be a
real it was amazing supposed to be a good thing right well for once in my
good thing right well for once in my
good thing right well for once in my life hours away from my appointment I
life hours away from my appointment I
life hours away from my appointment I have never felt so insecure about my
have never felt so insecure about my
have never felt so insecure about my mental health so ashamed to I’ve waited
mental health so ashamed to I’ve waited
mental health so ashamed to I’ve waited for so many years to finally start
for so many years to finally start
for so many years to finally start healing the appointment wasn’t terrible
healing the appointment wasn’t terrible
healing the appointment wasn’t terrible I managed to meet a lot of nice people I
I managed to meet a lot of nice people I
I managed to meet a lot of nice people I am learning better coping strategies I’m
am learning better coping strategies I’m
am learning better coping strategies I’m taking medicine and I’m even going to a
taking medicine and I’m even going to a
taking medicine and I’m even going to a therapist the thing is I look back on my
therapist the thing is I look back on my
therapist the thing is I look back on my story a lot because there’s a mistake
story a lot because there’s a mistake
story a lot because there’s a mistake that I made and it really unsettles me
that I made and it really unsettles me
that I made and it really unsettles me that mistake was not healing my anxiety
that mistake was not healing my anxiety
that mistake was not healing my anxiety Milan securities earlier for not fixing
Milan securities earlier for not fixing
Milan securities earlier for not fixing the internal struggles that obviously
the internal struggles that obviously
the internal struggles that obviously affected me physically think about it I
affected me physically think about it I
affected me physically think about it I could have died so for me to not fix
could have died so for me to not fix
could have died so for me to not fix myself at that time was me risking my
myself at that time was me risking my
myself at that time was me risking my life I risked my life listening to those
life I risked my life listening to those
life I risked my life listening to those who were not me who thought that my
who were not me who thought that my
who were not me who thought that my internal struggles shouldn’t be
internal struggles shouldn’t be
internal struggles shouldn’t be affecting the way people physically live
affecting the way people physically live
affecting the way people physically live so I stand here today telling you my
so I stand here today telling you my
so I stand here today telling you my internal struggles and I am not the only
internal struggles and I am not the only
internal struggles and I am not the only one because I guarantee you that in this
one because I guarantee you that in this
one because I guarantee you that in this crowd there’s someone just like me who
crowd there’s someone just like me who
crowd there’s someone just like me who is internally hurting and trying to get
is internally hurting and trying to get
is internally hurting and trying to get hurt so people are going to be asking me
hurt so people are going to be asking me
hurt so people are going to be asking me what do you want me to do what now well
what do you want me to do what now well
what do you want me to do what now well I want you
I want you
I want you to start opening up I want everyone to
to start opening up I want everyone to
to start opening up I want everyone to become a community and to start sharing
become a community and to start sharing
become a community and to start sharing their internal struggles to no longer
their internal struggles to no longer
their internal struggles to no longer kind of hide in silence I want people to
kind of hide in silence I want people to
kind of hide in silence I want people to open up their pain to other people I
open up their pain to other people I
open up their pain to other people I want people to research coping
want people to research coping
want people to research coping strategies like working out which is
strategies like working out which is
strategies like working out which is scientifically proven to help people
scientifically proven to help people
scientifically proven to help people with anxiety and to how people feel
with anxiety and to how people feel
with anxiety and to how people feel better about themselves externally and
better about themselves externally and
better about themselves externally and internally I want people to lend a hand
internally I want people to lend a hand
internally I want people to lend a hand if someone comes up to you to talk to
if someone comes up to you to talk to
if someone comes up to you to talk to them if someone comes up to you and
them if someone comes up to you and
them if someone comes up to you and talks to you about their internal
talks to you about their internal
talks to you about their internal struggles don’t brush them off cheer
struggles don’t brush them off cheer
struggles don’t brush them off cheer them on from the sidelines tell them
them on from the sidelines tell them
them on from the sidelines tell them they are not alone relate to them help
they are not alone relate to them help
they are not alone relate to them help them realize people that can help them
them realize people that can help them
them realize people that can help them as well tell them to trust their own gut
as well tell them to trust their own gut
as well tell them to trust their own gut because you are you and only you know
because you are you and only you know
because you are you and only you know how you’re feeling overall I want people
how you’re feeling overall I want people
how you’re feeling overall I want people to listen because sometimes that’s all
to listen because sometimes that’s all
to listen because sometimes that’s all someone needs because sometimes
someone needs because sometimes
someone needs because sometimes listening can do more than what actions
listening can do more than what actions
listening can do more than what actions can do yes what I’m saying sounds easier
can do yes what I’m saying sounds easier
can do yes what I’m saying sounds easier said than done but the small steps that
said than done but the small steps that
said than done but the small steps that you take in life can make a great
you take in life can make a great
you take in life can make a great difference in the world I’ve taken my
difference in the world I’ve taken my
difference in the world I’ve taken my step by sharing you my story and my
step by sharing you my story and my
step by sharing you my story and my thoughts it is now your turn thank you
thoughts it is now your turn thank you
thoughts it is now your turn thank you [Applause]
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