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How to OVERCOME your FEAR – #UnlockingLily Ep. 7


hello everyone so welcome to another

hello everyone so welcome to another episode of unlocking lily so it’s always

episode of unlocking lily so it’s always

episode of unlocking lily so it’s always been my dream to be a speaker which led

been my dream to be a speaker which led

been my dream to be a speaker which led me to quit my day job to pursue this

me to quit my day job to pursue this

me to quit my day job to pursue this full-time and all of you are coming

full-time and all of you are coming

full-time and all of you are coming along for this journey with me so in

along for this journey with me so in

along for this journey with me so in every episode I take on a different

every episode I take on a different

every episode I take on a different challenge to really help me grow as a

challenge to really help me grow as a

challenge to really help me grow as a speaker so in this video I’m going to be

speaker so in this video I’m going to be

speaker so in this video I’m going to be filming at Yonge and Dundas Square the

filming at Yonge and Dundas Square the

filming at Yonge and Dundas Square the busiest intersection in Toronto because

busiest intersection in Toronto because

busiest intersection in Toronto because I learned from Rene Brown that if

I learned from Rene Brown that if

I learned from Rene Brown that if there’s something meaningful that I want

there’s something meaningful that I want

there’s something meaningful that I want to do I need to have the courage to show

to do I need to have the courage to show

to do I need to have the courage to show up if I want to be a successful speaker

up if I want to be a successful speaker

up if I want to be a successful speaker I need to be able to deliver my speech

I need to be able to deliver my speech

I need to be able to deliver my speech whenever wherever in front of whoever so

whenever wherever in front of whoever so

whenever wherever in front of whoever so wish me luck and I hope everything goes

wish me luck and I hope everything goes

wish me luck and I hope everything goes well alright so today is a day I’m gonna

well alright so today is a day I’m gonna

well alright so today is a day I’m gonna be filming at Yonge and Dundas Square to

be filming at Yonge and Dundas Square to

be filming at Yonge and Dundas Square to be honest with you I think leading up to

be honest with you I think leading up to

be honest with you I think leading up to it I felt so nervous even like a month

it I felt so nervous even like a month

it I felt so nervous even like a month ago when I thought about this idea

ago when I thought about this idea

ago when I thought about this idea people staring at me is going to be such

people staring at me is going to be such

people staring at me is going to be such an anxiety provoking experience but I

an anxiety provoking experience but I

an anxiety provoking experience but I actually feel really good I feel more

actually feel really good I feel more

actually feel really good I feel more excited than anything else I don’t know

excited than anything else I don’t know

excited than anything else I don’t know I don’t know what it is maybe it’s just

I don’t know what it is maybe it’s just

I don’t know what it is maybe it’s just thinking about it over and over again or

thinking about it over and over again or

thinking about it over and over again or it could be

it could be

it could be I have been practicing more in the last

I have been practicing more in the last

I have been practicing more in the last month I don’t know but you know I’m

month I don’t know but you know I’m

month I don’t know but you know I’m right here at my house things could be

right here at my house things could be

right here at my house things could be very different when I get there so we’ll

very different when I get there so we’ll

very different when I get there so we’ll see how it goes so we left our house my

see how it goes so we left our house my

see how it goes so we left our house my lovely husband is gonna look at your

lovely husband is gonna look at your

lovely husband is gonna look at your hair oh my goodness it was like man bun

hair oh my goodness it was like man bun

hair oh my goodness it was like man bun to the max anyway he’s gonna drive me to

to the max anyway he’s gonna drive me to

to the max anyway he’s gonna drive me to the Go station I’m gonna take the GO

the Go station I’m gonna take the GO

the Go station I’m gonna take the GO train to the downtown Toronto Wow look

train to the downtown Toronto Wow look

train to the downtown Toronto Wow look at that hair she thinks she’s all tough

at that hair she thinks she’s all tough

at that hair she thinks she’s all tough hey but wait til I drop her off at the

hey but wait til I drop her off at the

hey but wait til I drop her off at the ghost issue she’s good like she’s gonna

ghost issue she’s good like she’s gonna

ghost issue she’s good like she’s gonna start quaking in her oh yeah okay we’ll

start quaking in her oh yeah okay we’ll

start quaking in her oh yeah okay we’ll see we’ll see

I didn’t realize I actually missed the

I didn’t realize I actually missed the last train I came to the station a

last train I came to the station a

last train I came to the station a little too late

little too late

little too late it’s either on the trains run really

it’s either on the trains run really

it’s either on the trains run really early in the morning like around like

early in the morning like around like

early in the morning like around like 5:00 a.m. or really late in the

5:00 a.m. or really late in the

5:00 a.m. or really late in the afternoon so I’m gonna be taking the bus

afternoon so I’m gonna be taking the bus

afternoon so I’m gonna be taking the bus I hope I’m standing in the right spot I

I hope I’m standing in the right spot I

I hope I’m standing in the right spot I had some lovely lovely gentlemen over

had some lovely lovely gentlemen over

had some lovely lovely gentlemen over there and the Blue Jays shirt that that

there and the Blue Jays shirt that that

there and the Blue Jays shirt that that pointed me in the right direction so I

pointed me in the right direction so I

pointed me in the right direction so I have a new friend here that helped me

have a new friend here that helped me

have a new friend here that helped me out and point him in the right direction

out and point him in the right direction

out and point him in the right direction what’s your name hi there I’m Greg and

what’s your name hi there I’m Greg and

what’s your name hi there I’m Greg and I’m from Barrie and heading down to Blue

I’m from Barrie and heading down to Blue

I’m from Barrie and heading down to Blue Jay games and Lilly tells me that today

Jay games and Lilly tells me that today

Jay games and Lilly tells me that today she’s gonna try to face her fears that’s

she’s gonna try to face her fears that’s

she’s gonna try to face her fears that’s what this episode is about and it’s

what this episode is about and it’s

what this episode is about and it’s about facing fears and she’s gonna ride

about facing fears and she’s gonna ride

about facing fears and she’s gonna ride the run filming in public is gonna be

the run filming in public is gonna be

the run filming in public is gonna be your big thing yeah so that’s pretty

your big thing yeah so that’s pretty

your big thing yeah so that’s pretty cool yeah that’s exciting

cool yeah that’s exciting

cool yeah that’s exciting do you have a few I don’t I don’t have

do you have a few I don’t I don’t have

do you have a few I don’t I don’t have any fears that I know about nothing yeah

any fears that I know about nothing yeah

any fears that I know about nothing yeah I’m not fearless I’m sure you know

I’m not fearless I’m sure you know

I’m not fearless I’m sure you know there’s always the fear of not being

there’s always the fear of not being

there’s always the fear of not being successful or not taking care of your

successful or not taking care of your

successful or not taking care of your family those are always the common ones

family those are always the common ones

family those are always the common ones but other than that no nothing really

but other than that no nothing really

but other than that no nothing really one of those things all right you just

one of those things all right you just

one of those things all right you just push through their fear I do yeah yeah

push through their fear I do yeah yeah

push through their fear I do yeah yeah you just learned to cope and you learn

you just learned to cope and you learn

you just learned to cope and you learn to do it all right thank you thank you I

to do it all right thank you thank you I

to do it all right thank you thank you I got to another station I’m supposed to

got to another station I’m supposed to

got to another station I’m supposed to take another bus from here it was

take another bus from here it was

take another bus from here it was interesting I got to meet a gentleman

interesting I got to meet a gentleman

interesting I got to meet a gentleman named Greg and after he did the video we

named Greg and after he did the video we

named Greg and after he did the video we started talking and then he said that

started talking and then he said that

started talking and then he said that he’s into leadership stuff too and how

he’s into leadership stuff too and how

he’s into leadership stuff too and how he guides his um his employees to become

he guides his um his employees to become

he guides his um his employees to become better leaders I never used to approach

better leaders I never used to approach

better leaders I never used to approach strangers is something that I had

strangers is something that I had

strangers is something that I had another fear of but you know sometimes

another fear of but you know sometimes

another fear of but you know sometimes approaching strangers you never know you

approaching strangers you never know you

approaching strangers you never know you could learn a lot from them so something

could learn a lot from them so something

could learn a lot from them so something something good came out of it

something good came out of it

something good came out of it all right guide so I’m finally here

all right guide so I’m finally here

all right guide so I’m finally here downtown it took a long time I was on

downtown it took a long time I was on

downtown it took a long time I was on the bus for about two and a half hours

the bus for about two and a half hours

the bus for about two and a half hours I’m actually really hungry I’m gonna go

I’m actually really hungry I’m gonna go

I’m actually really hungry I’m gonna go find something to eat and then take

find something to eat and then take

find something to eat and then take another subway up to Yonge and Dundas

another subway up to Yonge and Dundas

another subway up to Yonge and Dundas Square

Square

Square so I’m actually for you for those who

so I’m actually for you for those who

so I’m actually for you for those who don’t know downtown Toronto I’m really

don’t know downtown Toronto I’m really

don’t know downtown Toronto I’m really south and Yonge and Dundas is about 20

south and Yonge and Dundas is about 20

south and Yonge and Dundas is about 20 minutes from here but I’m gonna go grab

minutes from here but I’m gonna go grab

minutes from here but I’m gonna go grab some food then go to the bathroom – I

some food then go to the bathroom – I

some food then go to the bathroom – I gotta go

gotta go

gotta go [Music]

well I found a washroom and I got my

well I found a washroom and I got my food so I’m going to try to find it

food so I’m going to try to find it

food so I’m going to try to find it somewhere that I guess said and eat

somewhere that I guess said and eat

somewhere that I guess said and eat before I do my big filming at Yonge and

before I do my big filming at Yonge and

before I do my big filming at Yonge and Dundas Square so I finally got to Yonge

Dundas Square so I finally got to Yonge

Dundas Square so I finally got to Yonge and Dundas Square and I realized that I

and Dundas Square and I realized that I

and Dundas Square and I realized that I messed up

messed up

messed up I forgot my I forgot my big tripod I

I forgot my I forgot my big tripod I

I forgot my I forgot my big tripod I don’t know I left it in my husband’s car

don’t know I left it in my husband’s car

don’t know I left it in my husband’s car so I have my little one that Nina gave

so I have my little one that Nina gave

so I have my little one that Nina gave me so I’m gonna try to use that also

me so I’m gonna try to use that also

me so I’m gonna try to use that also another thing is I got here and there’s

another thing is I got here and there’s

another thing is I got here and there’s like me I mean they’re people here but

like me I mean they’re people here but

like me I mean they’re people here but it’s nowhere close to as busy as I was

it’s nowhere close to as busy as I was

it’s nowhere close to as busy as I was expecting so I don’t know I don’t know

expecting so I don’t know I don’t know

expecting so I don’t know I don’t know I’m thinking maybe I should find a

I’m thinking maybe I should find a

I’m thinking maybe I should find a busier place downtown to film because

busier place downtown to film because

busier place downtown to film because really I think there’s about I don’t

really I think there’s about I don’t

really I think there’s about I don’t even know like maybe 50 people around I

even know like maybe 50 people around I

even know like maybe 50 people around I was expecting hundreds maybe even a

was expecting hundreds maybe even a

was expecting hundreds maybe even a thousand but I hope you thought I don’t

thousand but I hope you thought I don’t

thousand but I hope you thought I don’t know it or not it’s a Friday afternoon I

know it or not it’s a Friday afternoon I

know it or not it’s a Friday afternoon I haven’t done to us and there’s no one

haven’t done to us and there’s no one

haven’t done to us and there’s no one around

around

around anyway I’ll try to figure it out and

anyway I’ll try to figure it out and

anyway I’ll try to figure it out and yeah I’ll start filming soon oh I just

yeah I’ll start filming soon oh I just

yeah I’ll start filming soon oh I just found out that they are doing a

found out that they are doing a

found out that they are doing a Chevrolet Auto Show here so they’re

Chevrolet Auto Show here so they’re

Chevrolet Auto Show here so they’re blocking out Yonge and Dundas Square

blocking out Yonge and Dundas Square

blocking out Yonge and Dundas Square that’s why no one’s around

that’s why no one’s around

that’s why no one’s around so I also can’t film there either I’m

so I also can’t film there either I’m

so I also can’t film there either I’m going to walk down the street and

going to walk down the street and

going to walk down the street and probably go to Queen Street West which

probably go to Queen Street West which

probably go to Queen Street West which is another really busy part of downtown

is another really busy part of downtown

is another really busy part of downtown Toronto so I’m going to try doing that

Toronto so I’m going to try doing that

Toronto so I’m going to try doing that and yeah you know life happens you gotta

and yeah you know life happens you gotta

and yeah you know life happens you gotta just you gotta adjust when when things

just you gotta adjust when when things

just you gotta adjust when when things don’t go exactly as planned

don’t go exactly as planned

don’t go exactly as planned so we’ll see well see we’ll see

so we’ll see well see we’ll see

so we’ll see well see we’ll see everything every opportunity is an

everything every opportunity is an

everything every opportunity is an opportunity learn guys all the time

opportunity learn guys all the time

opportunity learn guys all the time [Music]

[Music]

[Music] all right I found a busier place I’m

all right I found a busier place I’m

all right I found a busier place I’m actually at the Toronto Civic Center I

actually at the Toronto Civic Center I

actually at the Toronto Civic Center I believe it’s called this is where we

believe it’s called this is where we

believe it’s called this is where we hold our LR events but there’s like

hold our LR events but there’s like

hold our LR events but there’s like different exhibits that’s going on right

different exhibits that’s going on right

different exhibits that’s going on right now lots of people around not as much as

now lots of people around not as much as

now lots of people around not as much as I would like I don’t know what I was

I would like I don’t know what I was

I would like I don’t know what I was expecting I think what I wanted to do

expecting I think what I wanted to do

expecting I think what I wanted to do this event I pictured thousands of

this event I pictured thousands of

this event I pictured thousands of people around me but I don’t know maybe

people around me but I don’t know maybe

people around me but I don’t know maybe this is how busy it always is I all made

this is how busy it always is I all made

this is how busy it always is I all made it up in my head that it’s supposed to

it up in my head that it’s supposed to

it up in my head that it’s supposed to be a lot busier anyway so it looks like

be a lot busier anyway so it looks like

be a lot busier anyway so it looks like they’re gonna have a concert soon so

they’re gonna have a concert soon so

they’re gonna have a concert soon so kind of give you a glimpse oh there’s a

kind of give you a glimpse oh there’s a

kind of give you a glimpse oh there’s a food truck there oh look there’s our

food truck there oh look there’s our

food truck there oh look there’s our beautiful Toronto Toronto sign right

beautiful Toronto Toronto sign right

beautiful Toronto Toronto sign right there okay so I’m gonna try to find a

there okay so I’m gonna try to find a

there okay so I’m gonna try to find a place to set up my little tripod cuz I

place to set up my little tripod cuz I

place to set up my little tripod cuz I lost my big one and yeah it’s gonna

lost my big one and yeah it’s gonna

lost my big one and yeah it’s gonna happen testing testing testing since I’m

happen testing testing testing since I’m

happen testing testing testing since I’m here at my first attempt in shooting I

here at my first attempt in shooting I

here at my first attempt in shooting I realize that a my little bit too far

realize that a my little bit too far

realize that a my little bit too far away from the action of a Civic Centre

away from the action of a Civic Centre

away from the action of a Civic Centre and primarily because I couldn’t find

and primarily because I couldn’t find

and primarily because I couldn’t find anything to put my tripod on so I have

anything to put my tripod on so I have

anything to put my tripod on so I have to use my creativity to go right in the

to use my creativity to go right in the

to use my creativity to go right in the middle of all the action

middle of all the action

middle of all the action yeah that’s a point of all of this the

yeah that’s a point of all of this the

yeah that’s a point of all of this the point of all of this is for me to face

point of all of this is for me to face

point of all of this is for me to face my fear and being around a lot of people

my fear and being around a lot of people

my fear and being around a lot of people and I was kind of far away from people

and I was kind of far away from people

and I was kind of far away from people so it’s a good check-in for myself yeah

so it’s a good check-in for myself yeah

so it’s a good check-in for myself yeah let me go find some place

let me go find some place

let me go find some place so I found a busier place to set up but

so I found a busier place to set up but

so I found a busier place to set up but the only thing is that there was no

the only thing is that there was no

the only thing is that there was no for me to set up my tripod so I have the

for me to set up my tripod so I have the

for me to set up my tripod so I have the tripod on a bench and I’m sitting on the

tripod on a bench and I’m sitting on the

tripod on a bench and I’m sitting on the floor which kind of adds to the

floor which kind of adds to the

floor which kind of adds to the awkwardness of this which is great

awkwardness of this which is great

awkwardness of this which is great because that’s what I’m looking for and

because that’s what I’m looking for and

because that’s what I’m looking for and I think people probably wondering why am

I think people probably wondering why am

I think people probably wondering why am i sitting on the floor and recording but

i sitting on the floor and recording but

i sitting on the floor and recording but hey that’s part of the challenge

hey that’s part of the challenge

hey that’s part of the challenge hey everyone so as I’m here at downtown

hey everyone so as I’m here at downtown

hey everyone so as I’m here at downtown Toronto facing my fear in filming in

Toronto facing my fear in filming in

Toronto facing my fear in filming in public I thought I’d share some tips and

public I thought I’d share some tips and

public I thought I’d share some tips and how to overcome your fear or at least

how to overcome your fear or at least

how to overcome your fear or at least push through it the number one thing to

push through it the number one thing to

push through it the number one thing to always think about is how is your fear

always think about is how is your fear

always think about is how is your fear holding you back so for example I want

holding you back so for example I want

holding you back so for example I want to be a speaker and I’m going to be in

to be a speaker and I’m going to be in

to be a speaker and I’m going to be in situations where I’m gonna be speaking

situations where I’m gonna be speaking

situations where I’m gonna be speaking in front of many people that I have I’ve

in front of many people that I have I’ve

in front of many people that I have I’ve never met I have no idea if they care

never met I have no idea if they care

never met I have no idea if they care about me like me or they may hate

about me like me or they may hate

about me like me or they may hate everything I have to say so I have to

everything I have to say so I have to

everything I have to say so I have to overcome that I’m not always going to

overcome that I’m not always going to

overcome that I’m not always going to have the comfort of my own backyard

have the comfort of my own backyard

have the comfort of my own backyard filming where’s everything is safe and

filming where’s everything is safe and

filming where’s everything is safe and it’s my home and nobody else is looking

it’s my home and nobody else is looking

it’s my home and nobody else is looking at me or have the comfort and going to

at me or have the comfort and going to

at me or have the comfort and going to the TDS studio where it’s only Evan and

the TDS studio where it’s only Evan and

the TDS studio where it’s only Evan and our camera person so I needed to push

our camera person so I needed to push

our camera person so I needed to push through that fear and thinking that how

through that fear and thinking that how

through that fear and thinking that how it’s been holding me back all my life

it’s been holding me back all my life

it’s been holding me back all my life really helped me go through this process

really helped me go through this process

really helped me go through this process and really kind of diminish all the fear

and really kind of diminish all the fear

and really kind of diminish all the fear that I had in filming in public now then

that I had in filming in public now then

that I had in filming in public now then here’s Ashley not bad I don’t feel that

here’s Ashley not bad I don’t feel that

here’s Ashley not bad I don’t feel that anxiety anymore that I used to it was my

anxiety anymore that I used to it was my

anxiety anymore that I used to it was my moment

[Music]

[Music] it’s mostly all in my head and when

it’s mostly all in my head and when

it’s mostly all in my head and when you’re there it’s actually not that bad

you’re there it’s actually not that bad

you’re there it’s actually not that bad the number two thing that you want to

the number two thing that you want to

the number two thing that you want to think about is to start small you don’t

think about is to start small you don’t

think about is to start small you don’t want to go from being like completely

want to go from being like completely

want to go from being like completely petrified in doing something and then

petrified in doing something and then

petrified in doing something and then completely flooding your system and

completely flooding your system and

completely flooding your system and going crazy so for me I had a fear in

going crazy so for me I had a fear in

going crazy so for me I had a fear in filming in public so I started off

filming in public so I started off

filming in public so I started off filming while I was walking on a

filming while I was walking on a

filming while I was walking on a sidewalk then I then I started filming

sidewalk then I then I started filming

sidewalk then I then I started filming in a grocery store and then I started

in a grocery store and then I started

in a grocery store and then I started filming where my class was going on and

filming where my class was going on and

filming where my class was going on and a little by little it kind of helped me

a little by little it kind of helped me

a little by little it kind of helped me build a muscle to face my biggest fear

build a muscle to face my biggest fear

build a muscle to face my biggest fear which is coming here downtown and

which is coming here downtown and

which is coming here downtown and filming in front of all these people

filming in front of all these people

filming in front of all these people around me and that really really helps

around me and that really really helps

around me and that really really helps so when you want to think about it

so when you want to think about it

so when you want to think about it like if you have a fear of swimming

like if you have a fear of swimming

like if you have a fear of swimming maybe you want to try out in your

maybe you want to try out in your

maybe you want to try out in your bathtub first and then go to a shallow

bathtub first and then go to a shallow

bathtub first and then go to a shallow end of a pool and then later on you

end of a pool and then later on you

end of a pool and then later on you could go to a deep end of a pool so

could go to a deep end of a pool so

could go to a deep end of a pool so little by little you’re gonna train

little by little you’re gonna train

little by little you’re gonna train yourself to overcome that fear and

yourself to overcome that fear and

yourself to overcome that fear and number three is to keep pushing this

number three is to keep pushing this

number three is to keep pushing this because you’ve conquered one fear

because you’ve conquered one fear

because you’ve conquered one fear doesn’t mean that you’re gonna stop

doesn’t mean that you’re gonna stop

doesn’t mean that you’re gonna stop there so for me I’ve conquered this a

there so for me I’ve conquered this a

there so for me I’ve conquered this a fear in filming in public it doesn’t

fear in filming in public it doesn’t

fear in filming in public it doesn’t really feel like a fear anymore so now I

really feel like a fear anymore so now I

really feel like a fear anymore so now I need to think about what’s next for me

need to think about what’s next for me

need to think about what’s next for me and keep pushing through and not be

and keep pushing through and not be

and keep pushing through and not be content that I I mean guess I’m happy

content that I I mean guess I’m happy

content that I I mean guess I’m happy that I overcame this fear but I need to

that I overcame this fear but I need to

that I overcame this fear but I need to keep going through so I think the next

keep going through so I think the next

keep going through so I think the next thing I want to do is like go on a big

thing I want to do is like go on a big

thing I want to do is like go on a big stage and speak in front of a lot of

stage and speak in front of a lot of

stage and speak in front of a lot of a lot hundreds of people that’s what I

a lot hundreds of people that’s what I

a lot hundreds of people that’s what I would like to do

would like to do

would like to do so I finished out filming my little

so I finished out filming my little

so I finished out filming my little piece by setting up an event it was

piece by setting up an event it was

piece by setting up an event it was interesting it was good I mean I had to

interesting it was good I mean I had to

interesting it was good I mean I had to do what I could with the situation I was

do what I could with the situation I was

do what I could with the situation I was in I can’t believe I left my tripod in

in I can’t believe I left my tripod in

in I can’t believe I left my tripod in my husband’s car but I had to use my

my husband’s car but I had to use my

my husband’s car but I had to use my creativity to kind of maneuver maneuver

creativity to kind of maneuver maneuver

creativity to kind of maneuver maneuver maneuver the right where does a man ooh

maneuver the right where does a man ooh

maneuver the right where does a man ooh Oh manure okay anyways that’s not the

Oh manure okay anyways that’s not the

Oh manure okay anyways that’s not the point

point

point maneuver around the obstacles but more

maneuver around the obstacles but more

maneuver around the obstacles but more importantly it’s it’s beautiful here

importantly it’s it’s beautiful here

importantly it’s it’s beautiful here I used to live downtown I lived downtown

I used to live downtown I lived downtown

I used to live downtown I lived downtown Toronto for about six years before

Toronto for about six years before

Toronto for about six years before moving up north and I love it here the

moving up north and I love it here the

moving up north and I love it here the energy is so vibrant the people are so

energy is so vibrant the people are so

energy is so vibrant the people are so wonderful and everyone’s so diverse and

wonderful and everyone’s so diverse and

wonderful and everyone’s so diverse and there’s always something going on so I

there’s always something going on so I

there’s always something going on so I that part I really miss about living in

that part I really miss about living in

that part I really miss about living in the city I’m gonna take a walk around

the city I’m gonna take a walk around

the city I’m gonna take a walk around and look at this exhibit that’s going on

and look at this exhibit that’s going on

and look at this exhibit that’s going on it’s Paul noblank brain project so I’m

it’s Paul noblank brain project so I’m

it’s Paul noblank brain project so I’m into the love and then I’m going to head

into the love and then I’m going to head

into the love and then I’m going to head home and go see my husband

hey so I’m back at Union Station it’s so

hey so I’m back at Union Station it’s so interesting here there’s lots of stuff

interesting here there’s lots of stuff

interesting here there’s lots of stuff going on anyway I have about half an

going on anyway I have about half an

going on anyway I have about half an hour to kill so I’m going to get online

hour to kill so I’m going to get online

hour to kill so I’m going to get online and answer some of your comments because

and answer some of your comments because

and answer some of your comments because my unlocking Lilly episode six no five

my unlocking Lilly episode six no five

my unlocking Lilly episode six no five five five just came out yeah I’m excited

five five just came out yeah I’m excited

five five just came out yeah I’m excited to see what you guys wrote

to see what you guys wrote

to see what you guys wrote [Music]

[Music]

[Music] just got off the train gonna go see the

just got off the train gonna go see the

just got off the train gonna go see the husband look how beautiful it is it’s

husband look how beautiful it is it’s

husband look how beautiful it is it’s not just nice yeah

not just nice yeah

not just nice yeah what a change of scenery from crazy

what a change of scenery from crazy

what a change of scenery from crazy downtown Toronto to farmland Beauty look

downtown Toronto to farmland Beauty look

downtown Toronto to farmland Beauty look who I found

who I found

who I found it’s my husband happy to see me oh yeah

it’s my husband happy to see me oh yeah

it’s my husband happy to see me oh yeah you happy to see you too so I just got

you happy to see you too so I just got

you happy to see you too so I just got back from filming in public kind and it

back from filming in public kind and it

back from filming in public kind and it was not nearly as bad as I thought it

was not nearly as bad as I thought it

was not nearly as bad as I thought it would be initially I was like playing up

would be initially I was like playing up

would be initially I was like playing up all these scenarios leading up to it

all these scenarios leading up to it

all these scenarios leading up to it what if people stare at me weird what if

what if people stare at me weird what if

what if people stare at me weird what if I accidentally drop my phone

I accidentally drop my phone

I accidentally drop my phone what if people judge me what if people

what if people judge me what if people

what if people judge me what if people say things to me and honestly no one

say things to me and honestly no one

say things to me and honestly no one cared everyone was going along their

cared everyone was going along their

cared everyone was going along their merry way

merry way

merry way everything was fine people were having a

everything was fine people were having a

everything was fine people were having a great time I think some people did kind

great time I think some people did kind

great time I think some people did kind of look over but you know it was out of

of look over but you know it was out of

of look over but you know it was out of curiosity and not like sheer judgment

curiosity and not like sheer judgment

curiosity and not like sheer judgment maybe they were judging I don’t know but

maybe they were judging I don’t know but

maybe they were judging I don’t know but I feel great about it I was so happy to

I feel great about it I was so happy to

I feel great about it I was so happy to be there at Downtown in the midst of all

be there at Downtown in the midst of all

be there at Downtown in the midst of all the action I did have a few obstacles

the action I did have a few obstacles

the action I did have a few obstacles that I had to kind of use my creativity

that I had to kind of use my creativity

that I had to kind of use my creativity to kind of work around but it all worked

to kind of work around but it all worked

to kind of work around but it all worked out in the end and that goes to show

out in the end and that goes to show

out in the end and that goes to show that fear is sometimes just in your head

that fear is sometimes just in your head

that fear is sometimes just in your head and when you go out and do it it’s not

and when you go out and do it it’s not

and when you go out and do it it’s not as bad as you thought originally which

as bad as you thought originally which

as bad as you thought originally which brings me to the next point so the

brings me to the next point so the

brings me to the next point so the question of the day is what is your

question of the day is what is your

question of the day is what is your biggest fear that you still have yet to

biggest fear that you still have yet to

biggest fear that you still have yet to overcome write in the comments below and

overcome write in the comments below and

overcome write in the comments below and I’ll join in on the discussion so for my

I’ll join in on the discussion so for my

I’ll join in on the discussion so for my next challenge I’m going to go into an

next challenge I’m going to go into an

next challenge I’m going to go into an event and start with my why because I

event and start with my why because I

event and start with my why because I learned from simon Sinek

learned from simon Sinek

learned from simon Sinek instead of going with what you do and

instead of going with what you do and

instead of going with what you do and how you do it you need to start with why

how you do it you need to start with why

how you do it you need to start with why so thank you so much for watching and I

so thank you so much for watching and I

so thank you so much for watching and I really hope you enjoyed my journeys from

really hope you enjoyed my journeys from

really hope you enjoyed my journeys from downtown Toronto it was a lot of fun for

downtown Toronto it was a lot of fun for

downtown Toronto it was a lot of fun for me and I actually have a special shout

me and I actually have a special shout

me and I actually have a special shout out for halona black so halona black

out for halona black so halona black

out for halona black so halona black wrote how exciting it’s great to have a

wrote how exciting it’s great to have a

wrote how exciting it’s great to have a mentor who can push you to do things

mentor who can push you to do things

mentor who can push you to do things that you may not feel ready for

that you may not feel ready for

that you may not feel ready for I need to do more of this for myself

I need to do more of this for myself

I need to do more of this for myself yes Ilona black it is true I do have a

yes Ilona black it is true I do have a

yes Ilona black it is true I do have a bomb of a mentor Evan and he is so

bomb of a mentor Evan and he is so

bomb of a mentor Evan and he is so wonderful and he unleashes all sorts of

wonderful and he unleashes all sorts of

wonderful and he unleashes all sorts of belief on me when I needed the most and

belief on me when I needed the most and

belief on me when I needed the most and I wouldn’t be able to do a lot of the

I wouldn’t be able to do a lot of the

I wouldn’t be able to do a lot of the things I have done recently if it wasn’t

things I have done recently if it wasn’t

things I have done recently if it wasn’t for him so so so thankful for the lovely

for him so so so thankful for the lovely

for him so so so thankful for the lovely Evan so when I first started out on this

Evan so when I first started out on this

Evan so when I first started out on this series I thought it was just a way for

series I thought it was just a way for

series I thought it was just a way for me to document my journey and show some

me to document my journey and show some

me to document my journey and show some transparency to you guys as well but I

transparency to you guys as well but I

transparency to you guys as well but I had no idea that it would be inspiring

had no idea that it would be inspiring

had no idea that it would be inspiring for you and it would inspire you to do

for you and it would inspire you to do

for you and it would inspire you to do the things that you want to do and I am

the things that you want to do and I am

the things that you want to do and I am completely at a loss of words of all the

completely at a loss of words of all the

completely at a loss of words of all the wonderful comments I think pouring in I

wonderful comments I think pouring in I

wonderful comments I think pouring in I can’t thank you enough and be grateful

can’t thank you enough and be grateful

can’t thank you enough and be grateful enough and I really do hope that one day

enough and I really do hope that one day

enough and I really do hope that one day I’ll be able to meet all of you in

I’ll be able to meet all of you in

I’ll be able to meet all of you in person but if I don’t it makes me feel

person but if I don’t it makes me feel

person but if I don’t it makes me feel good that we’re all in this together and

good that we’re all in this together and

good that we’re all in this together and we’re going on this journey arm and arm

we’re going on this journey arm and arm

we’re going on this journey arm and arm thank you thank you thank you so much

thank you thank you thank you so much

thank you thank you thank you so much and I will see you guys very very soon

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