I’m in love with stories we have been told bedtime stories that we never come
told bedtime stories that we never come
told bedtime stories that we never come to forget those dark cruel ones that
to forget those dark cruel ones that
to forget those dark cruel ones that have frightened us stay with us forever
have frightened us stay with us forever
have frightened us stay with us forever then we grow up to read our own stories
then we grow up to read our own stories
then we grow up to read our own stories before going to bed
before going to bed
before going to bed realizing later on that it’s time to
realizing later on that it’s time to
realizing later on that it’s time to create our own create our life of
create our own create our life of
create our own create our life of stories now leaving hope and positivity
stories now leaving hope and positivity
stories now leaving hope and positivity behind happy endings are indeed
behind happy endings are indeed
behind happy endings are indeed beautiful but I want to tell you what is
beautiful but I want to tell you what is
beautiful but I want to tell you what is left behind from broken hearts shattered
left behind from broken hearts shattered
left behind from broken hearts shattered Souls and permanent scars is nothing but
Souls and permanent scars is nothing but
Souls and permanent scars is nothing but marks of beauty as well this is my story
marks of beauty as well this is my story
marks of beauty as well this is my story store you for permanent score a store a
store you for permanent score a store a
store you for permanent score a store a story that I despised came to fall in
story that I despised came to fall in
story that I despised came to fall in love with aren’t those the stories that
love with aren’t those the stories that
love with aren’t those the stories that leave an impact the ones we cherish our
leave an impact the ones we cherish our
leave an impact the ones we cherish our people with scars aware of this
people with scars aware of this
people with scars aware of this do they feel beautiful because beauty is
do they feel beautiful because beauty is
do they feel beautiful because beauty is a feeling feeling that reflects who you
a feeling feeling that reflects who you
a feeling feeling that reflects who you are now unfortunately the majority of
are now unfortunately the majority of
are now unfortunately the majority of them don’t the majority is hurt insecure
them don’t the majority is hurt insecure
them don’t the majority is hurt insecure and depressed looking for ways to hide
and depressed looking for ways to hide
and depressed looking for ways to hide their scars to escape reality you’re
their scars to escape reality you’re
their scars to escape reality you’re dealing with souls crazy enough to
dealing with souls crazy enough to
dealing with souls crazy enough to believe they can change the past the
believe they can change the past the
believe they can change the past the damage that bullying could cause for
damage that bullying could cause for
damage that bullying could cause for children with scars is huge but let us
children with scars is huge but let us
children with scars is huge but let us not forget what they are capable of
not forget what they are capable of
not forget what they are capable of causing for themselves on a personal
causing for themselves on a personal
causing for themselves on a personal level is massive – scars have many
level is massive – scars have many
level is massive – scars have many negative psychological effects on
negative psychological effects on
negative psychological effects on children especially when they are
children especially when they are
children especially when they are victims of bullying and emotional abuse
victims of bullying and emotional abuse
victims of bullying and emotional abuse how can someone heal did I heal when I
how can someone heal did I heal when I
how can someone heal did I heal when I was one year and a half I was like
was one year and a half I was like
was one year and a half I was like probably this big I I was in an elevator
probably this big I I was in an elevator
probably this big I I was in an elevator with both my parents they were here
with both my parents they were here
with both my parents they were here right now and this is very traumatized
right now and this is very traumatized
right now and this is very traumatized for them the accident and it’s an old
for them the accident and it’s an old
for them the accident and it’s an old elevator
elevator
elevator it probably shook or something in my arm
it probably shook or something in my arm
it probably shook or something in my arm got stuck in the gap I fell on the
got stuck in the gap I fell on the
got stuck in the gap I fell on the ground in between the floor and the door
ground in between the floor and the door
ground in between the floor and the door was going to the second floor
was going to the second floor
was going to the second floor there is no stop button there’s nothing
there is no stop button there’s nothing
there is no stop button there’s nothing and now my elbow was crushed and my arm
and now my elbow was crushed and my arm
and now my elbow was crushed and my arm was literally hanging my dad was smart
was literally hanging my dad was smart
was literally hanging my dad was smart enough not to pull it off because
enough not to pull it off because
enough not to pull it off because knowing that it’s really stuck and it
knowing that it’s really stuck and it
knowing that it’s really stuck and it might I might lose my arm now they took
might I might lose my arm now they took
might I might lose my arm now they took me to the hospital and there was the
me to the hospital and there was the
me to the hospital and there was the probability that I would lose my arm and
probability that I would lose my arm and
probability that I would lose my arm and I also passed out they thought I was
I also passed out they thought I was
I also passed out they thought I was dead but Here I am so at the hospital
dead but Here I am so at the hospital
dead but Here I am so at the hospital they thought that I would no longer have
they thought that I would no longer have
they thought that I would no longer have my arm and this was very traumatizing my
my arm and this was very traumatizing my
my arm and this was very traumatizing my mother was pregnant with my brother but
mother was pregnant with my brother but
mother was pregnant with my brother but as I grew up I grew up with a scar and a
as I grew up I grew up with a scar and a
as I grew up I grew up with a scar and a twisted elbow that I thought was
twisted elbow that I thought was
twisted elbow that I thought was perfectly normal until people started
perfectly normal until people started
perfectly normal until people started pointing it out until I felt different
pointing it out until I felt different
pointing it out until I felt different till I felt inferior till I no longer
till I felt inferior till I no longer
till I felt inferior till I no longer accepted myself and I would walk with
accepted myself and I would walk with
accepted myself and I would walk with the thought that people would not notice
the thought that people would not notice
the thought that people would not notice me Gibran but would rather notice my
me Gibran but would rather notice my
me Gibran but would rather notice my scar it was very emotionally draining
scar it was very emotionally draining
scar it was very emotionally draining it’s it’s honestly an incident that left
it’s it’s honestly an incident that left
it’s it’s honestly an incident that left my heart lost between an unfair world of
my heart lost between an unfair world of
my heart lost between an unfair world of hate hurts and anger and a blessed world
hate hurts and anger and a blessed world
hate hurts and anger and a blessed world of love gratefulness and thankfulness
of love gratefulness and thankfulness
of love gratefulness and thankfulness why me now this is a question I’ve
why me now this is a question I’ve
why me now this is a question I’ve always asked why me
always asked why me
always asked why me and thank God you still have your arm
and thank God you still have your arm
and thank God you still have your arm that was their answer well one I’m an
that was their answer well one I’m an
that was their answer well one I’m an atheist and hence God is irrelevant and
atheist and hence God is irrelevant and
atheist and hence God is irrelevant and two I do believe I would be better off
two I do believe I would be better off
two I do believe I would be better off without a twisted elbow don’t you think
without a twisted elbow don’t you think
without a twisted elbow don’t you think no this is
I thank you I remember I approached my
I thank you I remember I approached my mom once and I said mom I need some
mom once and I said mom I need some
mom once and I said mom I need some money my father was there too she asked
money my father was there too she asked
money my father was there too she asked me what for I said I want to buy this
me what for I said I want to buy this
me what for I said I want to buy this rubber band thing to put around my arm
rubber band thing to put around my arm
rubber band thing to put around my arm when I go to the gym now my father died
when I go to the gym now my father died
when I go to the gym now my father died clay interferes yes sure son give him
clay interferes yes sure son give him
clay interferes yes sure son give him whatever he wants yellow now it’s
whatever he wants yellow now it’s
whatever he wants yellow now it’s ultimately impossible to say no to my
ultimately impossible to say no to my
ultimately impossible to say no to my father like look at him he’s a communist
father like look at him he’s a communist
father like look at him he’s a communist soldier he has his deep scary loud voice
soldier he has his deep scary loud voice
soldier he has his deep scary loud voice and he says something it’s even worse
and he says something it’s even worse
and he says something it’s even worse than all the Arabic teachers you’ve ever
than all the Arabic teachers you’ve ever
than all the Arabic teachers you’ve ever had it’s more terrifying is that one of
had it’s more terrifying is that one of
had it’s more terrifying is that one of my ex-girlfriends thought it was sexy no
my ex-girlfriends thought it was sexy no
my ex-girlfriends thought it was sexy no says a lot anyway I
says a lot anyway I
says a lot anyway I I bought it that day but I never wore it
I bought it that day but I never wore it
I bought it that day but I never wore it they knew I felt insecure at the gym and
they knew I felt insecure at the gym and
they knew I felt insecure at the gym and I wanted to hide my elbow but they
I wanted to hide my elbow but they
I wanted to hide my elbow but they didn’t come against my will and allowed
didn’t come against my will and allowed
didn’t come against my will and allowed me to do whatever I thought would make
me to do whatever I thought would make
me to do whatever I thought would make me feel comfortable around people now I
me feel comfortable around people now I
me feel comfortable around people now I don’t know if he’s my father is aware of
don’t know if he’s my father is aware of
don’t know if he’s my father is aware of the positive impact he’s leaving on me
the positive impact he’s leaving on me
the positive impact he’s leaving on me or not he’s much of not much of an
or not he’s much of not much of an
or not he’s much of not much of an emotional supporter but I would I would
emotional supporter but I would I would
emotional supporter but I would I would remember that when he would introduce me
remember that when he would introduce me
remember that when he would introduce me to someone he would tell them about the
to someone he would tell them about the
to someone he would tell them about the accident and then directly passionately
accident and then directly passionately
accident and then directly passionately tell them about my academic success and
tell them about my academic success and
tell them about my academic success and the potentially sees in me a mother that
the potentially sees in me a mother that
the potentially sees in me a mother that wants me not to use the elevator every
wants me not to use the elevator every
wants me not to use the elevator every time I go visit my grandma’s place and
time I go visit my grandma’s place and
time I go visit my grandma’s place and Friends that helped me supportive
Friends that helped me supportive
Friends that helped me supportive friends and teachers at school that
friends and teachers at school that
friends and teachers at school that would gather around and speak about how
would gather around and speak about how
would gather around and speak about how sexy Ascari’s and someone’s arm just
sexy Ascari’s and someone’s arm just
sexy Ascari’s and someone’s arm just like I would smile not because I
like I would smile not because I
like I would smile not because I believed what they said but because I
believed what they said but because I
believed what they said but because I have people like them in my life trying
have people like them in my life trying
have people like them in my life trying to put some effort trying to make me
to put some effort trying to make me
to put some effort trying to make me feel good but on the other hand I had
feel good but on the other hand I had
feel good but on the other hand I had people throughout school years trying to
people throughout school years trying to
people throughout school years trying to put me down trying to make fun of me
put me down trying to make fun of me
put me down trying to make fun of me knowing it can hurt me now the the sad
knowing it can hurt me now the the sad
knowing it can hurt me now the the sad thing is that it’s usually the closest
thing is that it’s usually the closest
thing is that it’s usually the closest ones to you and at work or when I’m out
ones to you and at work or when I’m out
ones to you and at work or when I’m out I would always hear that your doctor is
I would always hear that your doctor is
I would always hear that your doctor is an idiot and I would hear that you can
an idiot and I would hear that you can
an idiot and I would hear that you can go for operation again and fix your
go for operation again and fix your
go for operation again and fix your elbow
elbow
elbow so people convinced me that I have to
so people convinced me that I have to
so people convinced me that I have to fix the elbow that’s functioning 100%
fix the elbow that’s functioning 100%
fix the elbow that’s functioning 100% and they said I have to reach 18 so I
and they said I have to reach 18 so I
and they said I have to reach 18 so I have developed bone structure and I can
have developed bone structure and I can
have developed bone structure and I can go for surgery so few days after my 18th
go for surgery so few days after my 18th
go for surgery so few days after my 18th birthday I went and I’m lucky to meet
birthday I went and I’m lucky to meet
birthday I went and I’m lucky to meet one of the best doctors in the country
one of the best doctors in the country
one of the best doctors in the country that looked at me and said I’m not gonna
that looked at me and said I’m not gonna
that looked at me and said I’m not gonna do this surgery go do it somewhere else
do this surgery go do it somewhere else
do this surgery go do it somewhere else I would not do it now this is one of the
I would not do it now this is one of the
I would not do it now this is one of the ethical doctors we have in Lebanon that
ethical doctors we have in Lebanon that
ethical doctors we have in Lebanon that told me that I would not fix an elbow
told me that I would not fix an elbow
told me that I would not fix an elbow that’s already working and lose it in
that’s already working and lose it in
that’s already working and lose it in the process of making it look better so
the process of making it look better so
the process of making it look better so I came to understand that the problem
I came to understand that the problem
I came to understand that the problem was not my elbow the problem was the way
was not my elbow the problem was the way
was not my elbow the problem was the way I look at it alchemy of change am i
I look at it alchemy of change am i
I look at it alchemy of change am i there yet that’s a no did I completely
there yet that’s a no did I completely
there yet that’s a no did I completely heal that’s a no but you know what’s a
heal that’s a no but you know what’s a
heal that’s a no but you know what’s a big fat yes is that I took the first
big fat yes is that I took the first
big fat yes is that I took the first step the most important one is that I
step the most important one is that I
step the most important one is that I learned how to love myself because no
learned how to love myself because no
learned how to love myself because no one is gonna do it for you don’t ask me
one is gonna do it for you don’t ask me
one is gonna do it for you don’t ask me how because I don’t know but the moment
how because I don’t know but the moment
how because I don’t know but the moment you try the moment you look yourself in
you try the moment you look yourself in
you try the moment you look yourself in the mirror and change the way you think
the mirror and change the way you think
the mirror and change the way you think and look at my elbow and say it’s
and look at my elbow and say it’s
and look at my elbow and say it’s beautiful and I’m beautiful this is when
beautiful and I’m beautiful this is when
beautiful and I’m beautiful this is when your whole life changes this is when you
your whole life changes this is when you
your whole life changes this is when you start witnessing change my scars don’t
start witnessing change my scars don’t
start witnessing change my scars don’t define me this is an image of an arm
define me this is an image of an arm
define me this is an image of an arm tattoo I saw online the gummy thinking
tattoo I saw online the gummy thinking
tattoo I saw online the gummy thinking of what actually defines a person what
of what actually defines a person what
of what actually defines a person what could define you more than a story
could define you more than a story
could define you more than a story carved on your skin story that destroyed
carved on your skin story that destroyed
carved on your skin story that destroyed your character one that allowed you to
your character one that allowed you to
your character one that allowed you to grow and change I love that font it’s
grow and change I love that font it’s
grow and change I love that font it’s beautiful art my friend but may my
beautiful art my friend but may my
beautiful art my friend but may my imperfections define me I tell you and
imperfections define me I tell you and
imperfections define me I tell you and may my scars reveal the stories you need
may my scars reveal the stories you need
may my scars reveal the stories you need to know about me I would like to ask
to know about me I would like to ask
to know about me I would like to ask just each and every one of you to recall
just each and every one of you to recall
just each and every one of you to recall the most intimate and beautiful hug you
the most intimate and beautiful hug you
the most intimate and beautiful hug you have ever had now you might not remember
have ever had now you might not remember
have ever had now you might not remember the day you might not you may just
the day you might not you may just
the day you might not you may just remember the person the feeling
remember the person the feeling
remember the person the feeling now how did that make you feel if you
now how did that make you feel if you
now how did that make you feel if you don’t feel like that towards your own
don’t feel like that towards your own
don’t feel like that towards your own self each and every moment like a
self each and every moment like a
self each and every moment like a beautiful intimate hug there is
beautiful intimate hug there is
beautiful intimate hug there is something wrong please fix it please
something wrong please fix it please
something wrong please fix it please allow me to help you fix it thank you
allow me to help you fix it thank you
allow me to help you fix it thank you [Applause]
[Applause]
[Applause] [Music]
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