[Applause] when I woke up from my coma my first
when I woke up from my coma my first
when I woke up from my coma my first concern was staying alive
concern was staying alive
concern was staying alive getting my bearing survival figuring out
getting my bearing survival figuring out
getting my bearing survival figuring out where I was who I was and how I had
where I was who I was and how I had
where I was who I was and how I had gotten there I looked for the detail I
gotten there I looked for the detail I
gotten there I looked for the detail I distinctly remember looking up at the
distinctly remember looking up at the
distinctly remember looking up at the clock military time no indication of the
clock military time no indication of the
clock military time no indication of the day no indication of the year no
day no indication of the year no
day no indication of the year no indication of the location the room was
indication of the location the room was
indication of the location the room was so unfamiliar I looked to my brother’s
so unfamiliar I looked to my brother’s
so unfamiliar I looked to my brother’s face he has a way of keeping his
face he has a way of keeping his
face he has a way of keeping his feelings invisible but I can usually
feelings invisible but I can usually
feelings invisible but I can usually read him that didn’t help I saw the
read him that didn’t help I saw the
read him that didn’t help I saw the faces of my near and dear family and
faces of my near and dear family and
faces of my near and dear family and friend and they all had the same look on
friend and they all had the same look on
friend and they all had the same look on their faces void of emotion but full of
their faces void of emotion but full of
their faces void of emotion but full of determination I looked to the nurse’s
determination I looked to the nurse’s
determination I looked to the nurse’s uniform and there was a small label that
uniform and there was a small label that
uniform and there was a small label that said Grey’s Anatomy I might as well have
said Grey’s Anatomy I might as well have
said Grey’s Anatomy I might as well have been on TV I could have been anywhere I
been on TV I could have been anywhere I
been on TV I could have been anywhere I just entered a scene but this was not TV
just entered a scene but this was not TV
just entered a scene but this was not TV at this moment I wasn’t aware that I
at this moment I wasn’t aware that I
at this moment I wasn’t aware that I wasn’t breathing on my own that the Chi
wasn’t breathing on my own that the Chi
wasn’t breathing on my own that the Chi was winding in and out of me for keeping
was winding in and out of me for keeping
was winding in and out of me for keeping me a lie what I was aware of was that I
me a lie what I was aware of was that I
me a lie what I was aware of was that I was in a life-and-death process but I
was in a life-and-death process but I
was in a life-and-death process but I could die I was somewhere in-between and
could die I was somewhere in-between and
could die I was somewhere in-between and not yet stable in this dimension
not yet stable in this dimension
not yet stable in this dimension I was then sucked back in that’s the
I was then sucked back in that’s the
I was then sucked back in that’s the only way that I can describe it it’s in
only way that I can describe it it’s in
only way that I can describe it it’s in some ways so intangible it’s like when I
some ways so intangible it’s like when I
some ways so intangible it’s like when I dream but deeper I was ushered from this
dream but deeper I was ushered from this
dream but deeper I was ushered from this presence this consciousness and then a
presence this consciousness and then a
presence this consciousness and then a PowerPoint presentation started to play
PowerPoint presentation started to play
PowerPoint presentation started to play the first live red Archangel and I
the first live red Archangel and I
the first live red Archangel and I thought Archangel communicating with me
thought Archangel communicating with me
thought Archangel communicating with me and the following slides were filled
and the following slides were filled
and the following slides were filled with destruction and turmoil that left
with destruction and turmoil that left
with destruction and turmoil that left me cringing with sadness but the most
me cringing with sadness but the most
me cringing with sadness but the most important slide for me was the last line
important slide for me was the last line
important slide for me was the last line there was actually a concept that I
there was actually a concept that I
there was actually a concept that I became a part of I was now in a small
became a part of I was now in a small
became a part of I was now in a small tugboat in a dark deep sea my inability
tugboat in a dark deep sea my inability
tugboat in a dark deep sea my inability to see went on for miles and then I
to see went on for miles and then I
to see went on for miles and then I looked in front of me and there was this
looked in front of me and there was this
looked in front of me and there was this angel guiding my boat listened by
angel guiding my boat listened by
angel guiding my boat listened by something like a moonlight and all I
something like a moonlight and all I
something like a moonlight and all I could do was just be that experience
could do was just be that experience
could do was just be that experience remains etched in my mind the stillness
remains etched in my mind the stillness
remains etched in my mind the stillness of it all that soul reference was a
of it all that soul reference was a
of it all that soul reference was a reference for me for permanent
reference for me for permanent
reference for me for permanent fulfillment and peace that I felt in the
fulfillment and peace that I felt in the
fulfillment and peace that I felt in the depth of my soul I was now back in the
depth of my soul I was now back in the
depth of my soul I was now back in the hospital room with the bright light flat
hospital room with the bright light flat
hospital room with the bright light flat on my back in my hospital bed and now in
on my back in my hospital bed and now in
on my back in my hospital bed and now in a full-on panic that kind of peace I
a full-on panic that kind of peace I
a full-on panic that kind of peace I only knew to be a deaf kind of peace and
only knew to be a deaf kind of peace and
only knew to be a deaf kind of peace and then the angels and my family and
then the angels and my family and
then the angels and my family and friends surrounding me and a horseshoe I
friends surrounding me and a horseshoe I
friends surrounding me and a horseshoe I wasn’t ready for that and so I started
wasn’t ready for that and so I started
wasn’t ready for that and so I started screaming the loudest internal scream of
screaming the loudest internal scream of
screaming the loudest internal scream of my life I’m not ready to die I’m not
my life I’m not ready to die I’m not
my life I’m not ready to die I’m not ready to die God do you hear me I’m not
ready to die God do you hear me I’m not
ready to die God do you hear me I’m not ready to die and I thought okay I have
ready to die and I thought okay I have
ready to die and I thought okay I have to be more convincing I need to be more
to be more convincing I need to be more
to be more convincing I need to be more convincing that’s when I started looking
convincing that’s when I started looking
convincing that’s when I started looking at everyone’s eyes and I was like
at everyone’s eyes and I was like
at everyone’s eyes and I was like there’s so much more love we have to
there’s so much more love we have to
there’s so much more love we have to exchange and then I thought okay I need
exchange and then I thought okay I need
exchange and then I thought okay I need to be more convincing and I thought I
to be more convincing and I thought I
to be more convincing and I thought I still want to procreate in love I hadn’t
still want to procreate in love I hadn’t
still want to procreate in love I hadn’t had a child here and I still had more
had a child here and I still had more
had a child here and I still had more growing of my soul to do and I still had
growing of my soul to do and I still had
growing of my soul to do and I still had my service to perform on earth and I
my service to perform on earth and I
my service to perform on earth and I prayed and I prayed and I thought okay
prayed and I prayed and I thought okay
prayed and I prayed and I thought okay I’m going to die I need to see my mother
I’m going to die I need to see my mother
I’m going to die I need to see my mother and my sister so earlier in that day my
and my sister so earlier in that day my
and my sister so earlier in that day my brother had given me a pad to write on
brother had given me a pad to write on
brother had given me a pad to write on and when I tried to write on it it has
and when I tried to write on it it has
and when I tried to write on it it has come out of scribble
come out of scribble
come out of scribble see I could think clearly but the
see I could think clearly but the
see I could think clearly but the translation from my thoughts the paper
translation from my thoughts the paper
translation from my thoughts the paper wasn’t happening and so during the day I
wasn’t happening and so during the day I
wasn’t happening and so during the day I told myself the next time that I write I
told myself the next time that I write I
told myself the next time that I write I would practice to make every line work
would practice to make every line work
would practice to make every line work and every curve work that I could
and every curve work that I could
and every curve work that I could communicate it was the only way that
communicate it was the only way that
communicate it was the only way that anyone could communicate with me and so
anyone could communicate with me and so
anyone could communicate with me and so I wrote to my brother where is my mother
I wrote to my brother where is my mother
I wrote to my brother where is my mother he then ran out of the room and I
he then ran out of the room and I
he then ran out of the room and I overheard him talking to her with a
overheard him talking to her with a
overheard him talking to her with a crush 3 2 tone in his voice
crush 3 2 tone in his voice
crush 3 2 tone in his voice come now she’s here come now and when he
come now she’s here come now and when he
come now she’s here come now and when he said that I knew that whatever it
said that I knew that whatever it
said that I knew that whatever it happened to me had been long and
happened to me had been long and
happened to me had been long and difficult and so when he came back in I
difficult and so when he came back in I
difficult and so when he came back in I also asked where is my sister he told me
also asked where is my sister he told me
also asked where is my sister he told me she was on her way and I hoped that what
she was on her way and I hoped that what
she was on her way and I hoped that what he was saying was true I have this
he was saying was true I have this
he was saying was true I have this yearning for my sister that I couldn’t
yearning for my sister that I couldn’t
yearning for my sister that I couldn’t put into words it was because she stayed
put into words it was because she stayed
put into words it was because she stayed by me during the 5 days and nights of my
by me during the 5 days and nights of my
by me during the 5 days and nights of my coma she had literally saved my life
coma she had literally saved my life
coma she had literally saved my life she’s always been my warrior and protect
she’s always been my warrior and protect
she’s always been my warrior and protect her and I thought to myself ok I can’t
her and I thought to myself ok I can’t
her and I thought to myself ok I can’t be dying just yet she has to be calm
when I was younger I was terrified of
when I was younger I was terrified of dying it was this visceral thing for me
dying it was this visceral thing for me
dying it was this visceral thing for me that I I was just afraid that there was
that I I was just afraid that there was
that I I was just afraid that there was going to be this end that I couldn’t fix
going to be this end that I couldn’t fix
going to be this end that I couldn’t fix I thought I could somehow figure out how
I thought I could somehow figure out how
I thought I could somehow figure out how not to die so I would practice and it
not to die so I would practice and it
not to die so I would practice and it turned into this anxiety in my
turned into this anxiety in my
turned into this anxiety in my adolescence because I could never figure
adolescence because I could never figure
adolescence because I could never figure it out and here I was right in the
it out and here I was right in the
it out and here I was right in the middle of it and guess what death isn’t
middle of it and guess what death isn’t
middle of it and guess what death isn’t eerie it’s the thought of it that
eerie it’s the thought of it that
eerie it’s the thought of it that consumes us if the thought of it that
consumes us if the thought of it that
consumes us if the thought of it that misses that death is merely an extension
misses that death is merely an extension
misses that death is merely an extension of life which then forces us to live in
of life which then forces us to live in
of life which then forces us to live in alignment to be here to really be here
alignment to be here to really be here
alignment to be here to really be here to use our energy in and around us
to use our energy in and around us
to use our energy in and around us energy that we create our thoughts
energy that we create our thoughts
energy that we create our thoughts multiply our hearts multiply
multiply our hearts multiply
multiply our hearts multiply our love multiplied we do not and but on
our love multiplied we do not and but on
our love multiplied we do not and but on this day I thought my time might be up
this day I thought my time might be up
this day I thought my time might be up everything suggested it I have this gift
everything suggested it I have this gift
everything suggested it I have this gift where I’m able to see in the future
where I’m able to see in the future
where I’m able to see in the future through my dreams sometimes literally
through my dreams sometimes literally
through my dreams sometimes literally and other times figuratively their
and other times figuratively their
and other times figuratively their personal codes for me to disentangle and
personal codes for me to disentangle and
personal codes for me to disentangle and on this day it was on overdrive
on this day it was on overdrive
on this day it was on overdrive I have literally experience everything
I have literally experience everything
I have literally experience everything in vivid detail this day it’s almost
in vivid detail this day it’s almost
in vivid detail this day it’s almost like the movie sliding doors and so the
like the movie sliding doors and so the
like the movie sliding doors and so the doctor is going to walk in you’re going
doctor is going to walk in you’re going
doctor is going to walk in you’re going to kneel by my bedside he’s going to
to kneel by my bedside he’s going to
to kneel by my bedside he’s going to chill his head to the left she’s going
chill his head to the left she’s going
chill his head to the left she’s going to smile but I see in his eyes that he’s
to smile but I see in his eyes that he’s
to smile but I see in his eyes that he’s really worried I wonder why he’s going
really worried I wonder why he’s going
really worried I wonder why he’s going to look across the room and talk to
to look across the room and talk to
to look across the room and talk to someone I can’t see on the other side
someone I can’t see on the other side
someone I can’t see on the other side he’s going to hold my hand she’s going
he’s going to hold my hand she’s going
he’s going to hold my hand she’s going to get up he walks out the door he puts
to get up he walks out the door he puts
to get up he walks out the door he puts a pan in his left pocket and then I turn
a pan in his left pocket and then I turn
a pan in his left pocket and then I turn to the right and I see four bottles of
to the right and I see four bottles of
to the right and I see four bottles of my favorite water fountain vallye spring
my favorite water fountain vallye spring
my favorite water fountain vallye spring and I thought to myself how does that
and I thought to myself how does that
and I thought to myself how does that get in this room we’re in the hospital
get in this room we’re in the hospital
get in this room we’re in the hospital and I wondered all day are my visions
and I wondered all day are my visions
and I wondered all day are my visions really true and then my cousin walked in
really true and then my cousin walked in
really true and then my cousin walked in hours later and opened her bag and
hours later and opened her bag and
hours later and opened her bag and placed the four bottles of water right
placed the four bottles of water right
placed the four bottles of water right there on the table thank you that was
there on the table thank you that was
there on the table thank you that was the first day I woke up from my coma are
the first day I woke up from my coma are
the first day I woke up from my coma are the blue arguably the most difficult day
the blue arguably the most difficult day
the blue arguably the most difficult day of my life I was diagnosed with
of my life I was diagnosed with
of my life I was diagnosed with cavernous sinus thrombosis I developed a
cavernous sinus thrombosis I developed a
cavernous sinus thrombosis I developed a clot in my left eye behind my left eye
clot in my left eye behind my left eye
clot in my left eye behind my left eye that turned into an explosion that I
that turned into an explosion that I
that turned into an explosion that I didn’t recognize
didn’t recognize
didn’t recognize I was in a coma for five days and
I was in a coma for five days and
I was in a coma for five days and recovered over a month and at the end of
recovered over a month and at the end of
recovered over a month and at the end of my recovery the doctor still had no clue
my recovery the doctor still had no clue
my recovery the doctor still had no clue why that had happened but I knew I was
why that had happened but I knew I was
why that had happened but I knew I was stressed I was knee-deep in making it
stressed I was knee-deep in making it
stressed I was knee-deep in making it happen I just started my company stuffy
happen I just started my company stuffy
happen I just started my company stuffy style and led the
style and led the
style and led the the pain of trying to start something
the pain of trying to start something
the pain of trying to start something from nothing lead me to stress and a
from nothing lead me to stress and a
from nothing lead me to stress and a deficit mentality seppius old latin for
deficit mentality seppius old latin for
deficit mentality seppius old latin for I have come to know I’ve taken control
I have come to know I’ve taken control
I have come to know I’ve taken control of I see I built this company with a
of I see I built this company with a
of I see I built this company with a passion for allowing people to connect
passion for allowing people to connect
passion for allowing people to connect with their style for empowering them
with their style for empowering them
with their style for empowering them through technology and I get to when a
through technology and I get to when a
through technology and I get to when a daily basis help people to take that
daily basis help people to take that
daily basis help people to take that power that they give away and here I was
power that they give away and here I was
power that they give away and here I was giving it away to fear when I got home I
giving it away to fear when I got home I
giving it away to fear when I got home I prayed for two thing I prayed for a full
prayed for two thing I prayed for a full
prayed for two thing I prayed for a full and complete healing and I prayed that I
and complete healing and I prayed that I
and complete healing and I prayed that I would understand why this had happened
would understand why this had happened
would understand why this had happened to me
to me
to me the first answer came that night in a
the first answer came that night in a
the first answer came that night in a dream I was in a classroom and when I
dream I was in a classroom and when I
dream I was in a classroom and when I looked to the board I saw that my name
looked to the board I saw that my name
looked to the board I saw that my name was in the middle I was mediocre at
was in the middle I was mediocre at
was in the middle I was mediocre at something that I was supposed to be
something that I was supposed to be
something that I was supposed to be great at and when I looked at what those
great at and when I looked at what those
great at and when I looked at what those things were they were three thing one
things were they were three thing one
things were they were three thing one was empathy two was caring for other and
was empathy two was caring for other and
was empathy two was caring for other and three was showing others the way simple
three was showing others the way simple
three was showing others the way simple things I can be so complicated and when
things I can be so complicated and when
things I can be so complicated and when I actually took a step back and looked I
I actually took a step back and looked I
I actually took a step back and looked I realized that all of my successes in
realized that all of my successes in
realized that all of my successes in life were rooted in those three things
the other answer came over time I would
the other answer came over time I would go to sleep and wake up in the middle of
go to sleep and wake up in the middle of
go to sleep and wake up in the middle of the night in a different state of
the night in a different state of
the night in a different state of consciousness and there would be
consciousness and there would be
consciousness and there would be conversations happening in my head which
conversations happening in my head which
conversations happening in my head which I later realized were angels actually
I later realized were angels actually
I later realized were angels actually working and fixing me and they would
working and fixing me and they would
working and fixing me and they would have medical terms they would say the
have medical terms they would say the
have medical terms they would say the fixed nerve pass the scalpel for fun to
fixed nerve pass the scalpel for fun to
fixed nerve pass the scalpel for fun to low be careful and they would give me
low be careful and they would give me
low be careful and they would give me instructions how to lay at night and so
instructions how to lay at night and so
instructions how to lay at night and so when I woke up in the morning it was so
when I woke up in the morning it was so
when I woke up in the morning it was so hairy and being in these different
hairy and being in these different
hairy and being in these different realities at different times and so for
realities at different times and so for
realities at different times and so for some mornings I would lay on my right
some mornings I would lay on my right
some mornings I would lay on my right side for an hour scared that I might be
side for an hour scared that I might be
side for an hour scared that I might be interrupting the healing process and on
interrupting the healing process and on
interrupting the healing process and on the last day that they visited me they
the last day that they visited me they
the last day that they visited me they came and they started to class
congratulations congratulations your
congratulations congratulations your heels and they kept seeing it over and
heels and they kept seeing it over and
heels and they kept seeing it over and over and I realized they wanted me to
over and I realized they wanted me to
over and I realized they wanted me to remember it when I woke up so I ran to
remember it when I woke up so I ran to
remember it when I woke up so I ran to the bathroom and when I got to the
the bathroom and when I got to the
the bathroom and when I got to the bathroom and I looked at my eye
bathroom and I looked at my eye
bathroom and I looked at my eye it wasn’t heal and I did that every
it wasn’t heal and I did that every
it wasn’t heal and I did that every morning for months even though I knew
morning for months even though I knew
morning for months even though I knew that I was already healed
that I was already healed
that I was already healed I just wasn’t healed physically second
I just wasn’t healed physically second
I just wasn’t healed physically second guessing our route knowledge that’s our
guessing our route knowledge that’s our
guessing our route knowledge that’s our energy as human being we have a vast
energy as human being we have a vast
energy as human being we have a vast amount of resources available to us
amount of resources available to us
amount of resources available to us beyond the veil of fear beyond the veil
beyond the veil of fear beyond the veil
beyond the veil of fear beyond the veil of distrust beyond the veil of disbelief
of distrust beyond the veil of disbelief
of distrust beyond the veil of disbelief if we take heed to the resources that
if we take heed to the resources that
if we take heed to the resources that are given to us and use them wisely
are given to us and use them wisely
are given to us and use them wisely against conventional wisdom we all know
against conventional wisdom we all know
against conventional wisdom we all know why we are here even if for things that
why we are here even if for things that
why we are here even if for things that we don’t want to admit or things that we
we don’t want to admit or things that we
we don’t want to admit or things that we are afraid of and so I asked you to
are afraid of and so I asked you to
are afraid of and so I asked you to remember those things to hold fast to
remember those things to hold fast to
remember those things to hold fast to your dream because our wildest dream
your dream because our wildest dream
your dream because our wildest dream lead to our true with reality so be
lead to our true with reality so be
lead to our true with reality so be still in your boat hold on to your dream
still in your boat hold on to your dream
still in your boat hold on to your dream and you’ll be on your way to that
and you’ll be on your way to that
and you’ll be on your way to that permanent fulfillment and peace that I
permanent fulfillment and peace that I
permanent fulfillment and peace that I felt in the boat and I pray that we all
felt in the boat and I pray that we all
felt in the boat and I pray that we all feel in our boats collectively and the
feel in our boats collectively and the
feel in our boats collectively and the last thing I just want you to remember
last thing I just want you to remember
last thing I just want you to remember is that we do not and thank you
is that we do not and thank you
is that we do not and thank you you
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