We Are Not As Lost As We Think We Are | Nia Robinson | TEDxMiddlebury

[Music]

[Music] [Applause]

[Applause]

[Applause] [Music]

[Music]

[Music] I have no stories of fancy places no

I have no stories of fancy places no

I have no stories of fancy places no idea that’s gonna cure anything no

idea that’s gonna cure anything no

idea that’s gonna cure anything no history of hard times that’s going to

history of hard times that’s going to

history of hard times that’s going to make anybody cry what I do have is

make anybody cry what I do have is

make anybody cry what I do have is myself and that is enough this is an

myself and that is enough this is an

myself and that is enough this is an exercise in realizing we are not as lost

exercise in realizing we are not as lost

exercise in realizing we are not as lost as we think we are so most of my life

as we think we are so most of my life

as we think we are so most of my life has spent and predominantly

has spent and predominantly

has spent and predominantly predominantly white schools half of my

predominantly white schools half of my

predominantly white schools half of my family is white and eventually

family is white and eventually

family is white and eventually everywhere I went I was the other even

everywhere I went I was the other even

everywhere I went I was the other even when I was surrounded by black people I

when I was surrounded by black people I

when I was surrounded by black people I was the other I went from this to this

was the other I went from this to this

was the other I went from this to this and one year and it stayed that way for

and one year and it stayed that way for

and one year and it stayed that way for a while I’d like to know that this

a while I’d like to know that this

a while I’d like to know that this picture is from the first school I

picture is from the first school I

picture is from the first school I transferred to and out of the 42 43

transferred to and out of the 42 43

transferred to and out of the 42 43 students we had at least 13 who were

students we had at least 13 who were

students we had at least 13 who were black the most out of most its most of

black the most out of most its most of

black the most out of most its most of the schools that followed and so I

the schools that followed and so I

the schools that followed and so I didn’t have the language to understand

didn’t have the language to understand

didn’t have the language to understand what was happening to me cousins making

what was happening to me cousins making

what was happening to me cousins making fun of my dark skin was just Tuesday

fun of my dark skin was just Tuesday

fun of my dark skin was just Tuesday white people asking me where I learned

white people asking me where I learned

white people asking me where I learned to speak was just curiosity and kids

to speak was just curiosity and kids

to speak was just curiosity and kids calling me the n-word

calling me the n-word

calling me the n-word they were jerks but it was still just

they were jerks but it was still just

they were jerks but it was still just Tuesday I just didn’t know what to do I

Tuesday I just didn’t know what to do I

Tuesday I just didn’t know what to do I think because I existed and aggressively

think because I existed and aggressively

think because I existed and aggressively homogeneous spaces

homogeneous spaces

homogeneous spaces I thought these experiences were unique

I thought these experiences were unique

I thought these experiences were unique to me and so I knew I wasn’t supposed to

to me and so I knew I wasn’t supposed to

to me and so I knew I wasn’t supposed to like myself and I didn’t I remember

like myself and I didn’t I remember

like myself and I didn’t I remember trying to pour bleach on my skin because

trying to pour bleach on my skin because

trying to pour bleach on my skin because people told me I was too dark I remember

people told me I was too dark I remember

people told me I was too dark I remember trying to scrub as hard as I could

trying to scrub as hard as I could

trying to scrub as hard as I could because people told me I was covered in

because people told me I was covered in

because people told me I was covered in dirt and as a result I have very soft

dirt and as a result I have very soft

dirt and as a result I have very soft skin but it left me with some pretty

skin but it left me with some pretty

skin but it left me with some pretty deep invisible scars I had a vague

deep invisible scars I had a vague

deep invisible scars I had a vague understanding of what was happening I

understanding of what was happening I

understanding of what was happening I knew what was being said wasn’t okay I

knew what was being said wasn’t okay I

knew what was being said wasn’t okay I knew there was a problem but I thought

knew there was a problem but I thought

knew there was a problem but I thought it was me and like most problems I had

it was me and like most problems I had

it was me and like most problems I had growing up I didn’t think there was

growing up I didn’t think there was

growing up I didn’t think there was anything I could have done about it

anything I could have done about it

anything I could have done about it power was located outside of myself and

power was located outside of myself and

power was located outside of myself and it was going to take me a while to

it was going to take me a while to

it was going to take me a while to realize I could have taken it back so

realize I could have taken it back so

realize I could have taken it back so whenever someone called me the wrong

whenever someone called me the wrong

whenever someone called me the wrong name

name

name or sent me death threats or said I was

or sent me death threats or said I was

or sent me death threats or said I was pretty for a black girl it felt familiar

pretty for a black girl it felt familiar

pretty for a black girl it felt familiar but it would hurt more because I would

but it would hurt more because I would

but it would hurt more because I would remember each time it happened before

remember each time it happened before

remember each time it happened before then so this past fall I was introduced

then so this past fall I was introduced

then so this past fall I was introduced to the idea of emotional memory

to the idea of emotional memory

to the idea of emotional memory remembering a situation an event or a

remembering a situation an event or a

remembering a situation an event or a person can often trigger both good and

person can often trigger both good and

person can often trigger both good and bad emotional responses they serve as a

bad emotional responses they serve as a

bad emotional responses they serve as a guide to move forward so for example if

guide to move forward so for example if

guide to move forward so for example if you eat something that makes you sick

you eat something that makes you sick

you eat something that makes you sick you are likely to avoid that food in the

you are likely to avoid that food in the

you are likely to avoid that food in the future but then also think about the

future but then also think about the

future but then also think about the time that made you sick whenever you see

time that made you sick whenever you see

time that made you sick whenever you see it or if you have a bad experience in a

it or if you have a bad experience in a

it or if you have a bad experience in a relationship you may start to grow weary

relationship you may start to grow weary

relationship you may start to grow weary if similar signs start to show what

if similar signs start to show what

if similar signs start to show what someone knew and to protect ourselves we

someone knew and to protect ourselves we

someone knew and to protect ourselves we may try to apply that same principle of

may try to apply that same principle of

may try to apply that same principle of avoidance to feature relationships Toni

avoidance to feature relationships Toni

avoidance to feature relationships Toni Morrison provides another definition of

Morrison provides another definition of

Morrison provides another definition of emotional memory through an analogy of

emotional memory through an analogy of

emotional memory through an analogy of water she says when we say flooding we

water she says when we say flooding we

water she says when we say flooding we really mean remembering the water is

really mean remembering the water is

really mean remembering the water is remembering where it used to be and is

remembering where it used to be and is

remembering where it used to be and is always trying to get back to where it

always trying to get back to where it

always trying to get back to where it was

was

was she says writers remember – it’s an

she says writers remember – it’s an

she says writers remember – it’s an emotional memory that is deeply embedded

emotional memory that is deeply embedded

emotional memory that is deeply embedded in the body the skin the nerves even the

in the body the skin the nerves even the

in the body the skin the nerves even the muscle I think all people are like that

muscle I think all people are like that

muscle I think all people are like that as kids we subconsciously pick up pieces

as kids we subconsciously pick up pieces

as kids we subconsciously pick up pieces of our environments we respond and

of our environments we respond and

of our environments we respond and reflect and react to what we’ve been

reflect and react to what we’ve been

reflect and react to what we’ve been given so when people call me names or

given so when people call me names or

given so when people call me names or say that I am pretty for a black girl

say that I am pretty for a black girl

say that I am pretty for a black girl and get offended by me not appreciating

and get offended by me not appreciating

and get offended by me not appreciating their compliment I have to understand

their compliment I have to understand

their compliment I have to understand that they may not realize that this is

that they may not realize that this is

that they may not realize that this is not the first time I’ve heard it and it

not the first time I’ve heard it and it

not the first time I’ve heard it and it also isn’t the last time and I can’t

also isn’t the last time and I can’t

also isn’t the last time and I can’t avoid these situations so they start to

avoid these situations so they start to

avoid these situations so they start to build up another way you can look at

build up another way you can look at

build up another way you can look at emotional memories through my time here

emotional memories through my time here

emotional memories through my time here at Middlebury even though I’ve been here

at Middlebury even though I’ve been here

at Middlebury even though I’ve been here for two and a half years most days I

for two and a half years most days I

for two and a half years most days I question whether or not I belong here

question whether or not I belong here

question whether or not I belong here and so if I’m walking around during

and so if I’m walking around during

and so if I’m walking around during parents weekend or sitting in rooms

parents weekend or sitting in rooms

parents weekend or sitting in rooms surrounded by paintings of past

surrounded by paintings of past

surrounded by paintings of past presidents there are constant reminders

presidents there are constant reminders

presidents there are constant reminders that this place was not made for me and

that this place was not made for me and

that this place was not made for me and this gets internalized so when I’m

this gets internalized so when I’m

this gets internalized so when I’m walking around and someone’s parent

walking around and someone’s parent

walking around and someone’s parent comes up to

comes up to

comes up to and says excuse me are you a student

and says excuse me are you a student

and says excuse me are you a student here I already know what’s about to

here I already know what’s about to

here I already know what’s about to happen when they ask me if I like it

happen when they ask me if I like it

happen when they ask me if I like it here what I think I stop I look away

here what I think I stop I look away

here what I think I stop I look away and I start off with yeah yeah it’s it’s

and I start off with yeah yeah it’s it’s

and I start off with yeah yeah it’s it’s Middlebury I do this to buy time I don’t

Middlebury I do this to buy time I don’t

Middlebury I do this to buy time I don’t know what they’re looking for I don’t

know what they’re looking for I don’t

know what they’re looking for I don’t know what type of answer I feel like

know what type of answer I feel like

know what type of answer I feel like giving to them I just know that I feel

giving to them I just know that I feel

giving to them I just know that I feel uncomfortable but I can’t avoid these

uncomfortable but I can’t avoid these

uncomfortable but I can’t avoid these situations and after what feels like

situations and after what feels like

situations and after what feels like hundreds of talks and questions from

hundreds of talks and questions from

hundreds of talks and questions from people who don’t seem to care to

people who don’t seem to care to

people who don’t seem to care to understand I just I don’t know what to

understand I just I don’t know what to

understand I just I don’t know what to do now going off of this idea of

do now going off of this idea of

do now going off of this idea of emotional memories generational memory

emotional memories generational memory

emotional memories generational memory so a picture of my great-grandmother

so a picture of my great-grandmother

so a picture of my great-grandmother right here is a great depiction of our

right here is a great depiction of our

right here is a great depiction of our relationship either she’s smiling I’m

relationship either she’s smiling I’m

relationship either she’s smiling I’m not or I’m smiling and she’s not so ever

not or I’m smiling and she’s not so ever

not or I’m smiling and she’s not so ever since she found out I was coming to

since she found out I was coming to

since she found out I was coming to Middlebury she has never failed to tell

Middlebury she has never failed to tell

Middlebury she has never failed to tell me about her time in school she went to

me about her time in school she went to

me about her time in school she went to Natchez College which is a private

Natchez College which is a private

Natchez College which is a private historically black college in Natchez

historically black college in Natchez

historically black college in Natchez Mississippi it was founded in 1885 she

Mississippi it was founded in 1885 she

Mississippi it was founded in 1885 she even went on a full-ride I know it meant

even went on a full-ride I know it meant

even went on a full-ride I know it meant a lot for a black woman to go to college

a lot for a black woman to go to college

a lot for a black woman to go to college and Mississippi during her time and so

and Mississippi during her time and so

and Mississippi during her time and so there are a lot of parallels between our

there are a lot of parallels between our

there are a lot of parallels between our journeys to and through college her

journeys to and through college her

journeys to and through college her journey is defined by the people she met

journey is defined by the people she met

journey is defined by the people she met people who supported her and even people

people who supported her and even people

people who supported her and even people she didn’t really get along with instead

she didn’t really get along with instead

she didn’t really get along with instead of telling me about the experiences she

of telling me about the experiences she

of telling me about the experiences she tells me about the people who made them

tells me about the people who made them

tells me about the people who made them up hearing her stories makes me feel a

up hearing her stories makes me feel a

up hearing her stories makes me feel a little less lost at Middlebury from her

little less lost at Middlebury from her

little less lost at Middlebury from her I learned how to navigate rough places

I learned how to navigate rough places

I learned how to navigate rough places from her I learned how to be grateful of

from her I learned how to be grateful of

from her I learned how to be grateful of where I am

where I am

where I am while not tolerating mistreatment at the

while not tolerating mistreatment at the

while not tolerating mistreatment at the same time this is just one example of

same time this is just one example of

same time this is just one example of generational memory I feel like I know

generational memory I feel like I know

generational memory I feel like I know things I never learned or experienced a

things I never learned or experienced a

things I never learned or experienced a brighter example of this would be the

brighter example of this would be the

brighter example of this would be the talk and so when I say the talk I know

talk and so when I say the talk I know

talk and so when I say the talk I know everyone in here has a different

everyone in here has a different

everyone in here has a different understanding depending on their

understanding depending on their

understanding depending on their background while my parents never had to

background while my parents never had to

background while my parents never had to talk with me I’ve come to realize that

talk with me I’ve come to realize that

talk with me I’ve come to realize that it consists of

it consists of

it consists of more than how to act with police for

more than how to act with police for

more than how to act with police for some it is how to survive predominantly

some it is how to survive predominantly

some it is how to survive predominantly white spaces for others it is how to act

white spaces for others it is how to act

white spaces for others it is how to act in public because in more visible either

in public because in more visible either

in public because in more visible either way it’s all about how to keep from

way it’s all about how to keep from

way it’s all about how to keep from getting lost another way to look at

getting lost another way to look at

getting lost another way to look at generational memory as how generations

generational memory as how generations

generational memory as how generations are shaped by history my generation is

are shaped by history my generation is

are shaped by history my generation is characterized by sensitivity snowflakes

characterized by sensitivity snowflakes

characterized by sensitivity snowflakes political correctness the terms go on

political correctness the terms go on

political correctness the terms go on we’re also characterized by ruining

we’re also characterized by ruining

we’re also characterized by ruining markets from chain restaurants to

markets from chain restaurants to

markets from chain restaurants to department stores whether this is rifle

department stores whether this is rifle

department stores whether this is rifle or not you cannot deny that the world

or not you cannot deny that the world

or not you cannot deny that the world seems to be changing every day at the

seems to be changing every day at the

seems to be changing every day at the same time there is truth to the quote

same time there is truth to the quote

same time there is truth to the quote the more things change the more it stays

the more things change the more it stays

the more things change the more it stays the same every day there is something

the same every day there is something

the same every day there is something new and we have to respond together

new and we have to respond together

new and we have to respond together together we are cultivating this

together we are cultivating this

together we are cultivating this generational memory and document to get

generational memory and document to get

generational memory and document to get on shared platforms it is here we

on shared platforms it is here we

on shared platforms it is here we learned we are not alone it is here we

learned we are not alone it is here we

learned we are not alone it is here we find solutions to problems that exist

find solutions to problems that exist

find solutions to problems that exist somewhere and if we don’t find the

somewhere and if we don’t find the

somewhere and if we don’t find the solution we at least find some

solution we at least find some

solution we at least find some motivation or inspiration to make our

motivation or inspiration to make our

motivation or inspiration to make our own and so what I’ve learned from

own and so what I’ve learned from

own and so what I’ve learned from generational memory is I am NOT as lost

generational memory is I am NOT as lost

generational memory is I am NOT as lost as I think I am I’ve been here before

as I think I am I’ve been here before

as I think I am I’ve been here before whether I remember it or not whether it

whether I remember it or not whether it

whether I remember it or not whether it was my mother or hers I have the

was my mother or hers I have the

was my mother or hers I have the generational and the emotional memory

generational and the emotional memory

generational and the emotional memory and I am never alone here I left the

and I am never alone here I left the

and I am never alone here I left the body remember I’ll let the floods return

body remember I’ll let the floods return

body remember I’ll let the floods return and realize work was done to get me here

and realize work was done to get me here

and realize work was done to get me here on this stage and if I want to go

on this stage and if I want to go

on this stage and if I want to go nowhere to go next if I want to know how

nowhere to go next if I want to know how

nowhere to go next if I want to know how to get there I have to be prepared to

to get there I have to be prepared to

to get there I have to be prepared to know what made me and where I come from

know what made me and where I come from

know what made me and where I come from a crisis isn’t just a crisis if we’ve

a crisis isn’t just a crisis if we’ve

a crisis isn’t just a crisis if we’ve been there before this makes me think of

been there before this makes me think of

been there before this makes me think of James Baldwin who says everything is

James Baldwin who says everything is

James Baldwin who says everything is always changing and the measure of our

always changing and the measure of our

always changing and the measure of our maturity as men and as Nations that’s

maturity as men and as Nations that’s

maturity as men and as Nations that’s how well-prepared we are to meet these

how well-prepared we are to meet these

how well-prepared we are to meet these changes and further use them for our

changes and further use them for our

changes and further use them for our health what does this even mean what is

health what does this even mean what is

health what does this even mean what is James Baldwin have to do with me or my

James Baldwin have to do with me or my

James Baldwin have to do with me or my great-grandmother how can we apply

great-grandmother how can we apply

great-grandmother how can we apply emotional memory to our health as

emotional memory to our health as

emotional memory to our health as nations and as men

nations and as men

nations and as men I think a working example of this would

I think a working example of this would

I think a working example of this would be education it is always in crisis and

be education it is always in crisis and

be education it is always in crisis and I think I think most of us can agree

I think I think most of us can agree

I think I think most of us can agree that the purpose of the education system

that the purpose of the education system

that the purpose of the education system should be to prepare students for what

should be to prepare students for what

should be to prepare students for what they may face whether that be as a

they may face whether that be as a

they may face whether that be as a generation or as individuals

generation or as individuals

generation or as individuals however education is always the first to

however education is always the first to

however education is always the first to be cut in the last to be considered

be cut in the last to be considered

be cut in the last to be considered often at the expense of students and so

often at the expense of students and so

often at the expense of students and so when people say I can’t believe what is

when people say I can’t believe what is

when people say I can’t believe what is happening in the education system my

happening in the education system my

happening in the education system my response is how can you not believe it

response is how can you not believe it

response is how can you not believe it we have seen this before and you didn’t

we have seen this before and you didn’t

we have seen this before and you didn’t have to have lift through No Child Left

have to have lift through No Child Left

have to have lift through No Child Left Behind or common core standards to

Behind or common core standards to

Behind or common core standards to understand the crisis in schools have

understand the crisis in schools have

understand the crisis in schools have less to do with the schools themselves

less to do with the schools themselves

less to do with the schools themselves than poverty segregation the way schools

than poverty segregation the way schools

than poverty segregation the way schools are funded and other issues that are

are funded and other issues that are

are funded and other issues that are heavily tied to history history that

heavily tied to history history that

heavily tied to history history that does not change

does not change

does not change let’s see you Chicago as an example from

let’s see you Chicago as an example from

let’s see you Chicago as an example from budget cuts to TIF funds to school

budget cuts to TIF funds to school

budget cuts to TIF funds to school closings Chicago Public Schools are a

closings Chicago Public Schools are a

closings Chicago Public Schools are a mess and so in 2012 during the Chicago

mess and so in 2012 during the Chicago

mess and so in 2012 during the Chicago Teachers strike the whole nation watched

Teachers strike the whole nation watched

Teachers strike the whole nation watched I was able to stand at the front lines

I was able to stand at the front lines

I was able to stand at the front lines with my teachers and my approach to

with my teachers and my approach to

with my teachers and my approach to education changed forever what the

education changed forever what the

education changed forever what the strike was about and what it meant to me

strike was about and what it meant to me

strike was about and what it meant to me took a while to solidify but through

took a while to solidify but through

took a while to solidify but through conversations with my teachers I

conversations with my teachers I

conversations with my teachers I realized that I have more control over

realized that I have more control over

realized that I have more control over my education than I thought I also

my education than I thought I also

my education than I thought I also realized that they were more than the

realized that they were more than the

realized that they were more than the people who just stood at the front of

people who just stood at the front of

people who just stood at the front of the classroom I came to know and to

the classroom I came to know and to

the classroom I came to know and to loved him one of the most important

loved him one of the most important

loved him one of the most important lessons I learned was education is more

lessons I learned was education is more

lessons I learned was education is more than high school more than something I

than high school more than something I

than high school more than something I have to do I also learned that we need

have to do I also learned that we need

have to do I also learned that we need to listen to the experts in this case

to listen to the experts in this case

to listen to the experts in this case teachers the issues of the past are the

teachers the issues of the past are the

teachers the issues of the past are the issues of today and will continue to be

issues of today and will continue to be

issues of today and will continue to be that way and last something changes from

that way and last something changes from

that way and last something changes from this we see children receiving the same

this we see children receiving the same

this we see children receiving the same messages such as the talk or how do you

messages such as the talk or how do you

messages such as the talk or how do you survive in an education system that is

survive in an education system that is

survive in an education system that is meant to fail them and sometimes I sit

meant to fail them and sometimes I sit

meant to fail them and sometimes I sit here and I don’t know where to go next

here and I don’t know where to go next

here and I don’t know where to go next but then I sit here and I realize that

but then I sit here and I realize that

but then I sit here and I realize that if we

if we

if we seen the facts of poverty and

seen the facts of poverty and

seen the facts of poverty and segregation on the education system why

segregation on the education system why

segregation on the education system why are the issues still there if children

are the issues still there if children

are the issues still there if children are coming with the same circumstances

are coming with the same circumstances

are coming with the same circumstances and coming with the same memory why are

and coming with the same memory why are

and coming with the same memory why are the problems still there

the problems still there

the problems still there of course these questions are rhetorical

of course these questions are rhetorical

of course these questions are rhetorical what we should be asking is how can we

what we should be asking is how can we

what we should be asking is how can we use these memories to move forward and

use these memories to move forward and

use these memories to move forward and get it right sometimes emotional and

get it right sometimes emotional and

get it right sometimes emotional and generational memory won’t work together

generational memory won’t work together

generational memory won’t work together to give the same answer I work at the

to give the same answer I work at the

to give the same answer I work at the student-run cafe on campus and last

student-run cafe on campus and last

student-run cafe on campus and last spring during preview days I was opening

spring during preview days I was opening

spring during preview days I was opening alone while we open at 9:30 when I got

alone while we open at 9:30 when I got

alone while we open at 9:30 when I got there at 9:00 there was a crowd of

there at 9:00 there was a crowd of

there at 9:00 there was a crowd of people waiting for me by 9:45 the line

people waiting for me by 9:45 the line

people waiting for me by 9:45 the line it was at the door everybody wanted

it was at the door everybody wanted

it was at the door everybody wanted lattes and for me to tell them about my

lattes and for me to tell them about my

lattes and for me to tell them about my experience here and so for the first few

experience here and so for the first few

experience here and so for the first few I was polite service with a smile by the

I was polite service with a smile by the

I was polite service with a smile by the fifth I just wanted to make lattes by

fifth I just wanted to make lattes by

fifth I just wanted to make lattes by the seventh I did I really did not know

the seventh I did I really did not know

the seventh I did I really did not know what to do

what to do

what to do I had emotional memory on one side

I had emotional memory on one side

I had emotional memory on one side telling me to tell them what they wanted

telling me to tell them what they wanted

telling me to tell them what they wanted to hear

to hear

to hear make your lattes and go home on the

make your lattes and go home on the

make your lattes and go home on the other side

other side

other side I had generational memory telling me to

I had generational memory telling me to

I had generational memory telling me to tell the truth and to respect people

tell the truth and to respect people

tell the truth and to respect people older than myself I did choose emotional

older than myself I did choose emotional

older than myself I did choose emotional memory and a shift went by a lot quicker

memory and a shift went by a lot quicker

memory and a shift went by a lot quicker I don’t know if I regret it or not and

I don’t know if I regret it or not and

I don’t know if I regret it or not and so sometimes these memories are poles

so sometimes these memories are poles

so sometimes these memories are poles that pull you at the same time for some

that pull you at the same time for some

that pull you at the same time for some people this makes them feel lost but I

people this makes them feel lost but I

people this makes them feel lost but I think if you have an option what type of

think if you have an option what type of

think if you have an option what type of person are you going to be how are you

person are you going to be how are you

person are you going to be how are you going to move forward what is going to

going to move forward what is going to

going to move forward what is going to get you through right now there’s at

get you through right now there’s at

get you through right now there’s at least a way to go we are not as lost as

least a way to go we are not as lost as

least a way to go we are not as lost as we think we are emotional and

we think we are emotional and

we think we are emotional and generational memory exists for a reason

generational memory exists for a reason

generational memory exists for a reason so during my senior year of high school

so during my senior year of high school

so during my senior year of high school I took African American Lit with one of

I took African American Lit with one of

I took African American Lit with one of the most extraordinary people I have

the most extraordinary people I have

the most extraordinary people I have ever met April Coleman and while I

ever met April Coleman and while I

ever met April Coleman and while I learned a lot in her class the phrase I

learned a lot in her class the phrase I

learned a lot in her class the phrase I repeat to myself whenever I feel lost is

repeat to myself whenever I feel lost is

repeat to myself whenever I feel lost is everything you need is everything you

everything you need is everything you

everything you need is everything you have sometimes when the poles are

have sometimes when the poles are

have sometimes when the poles are pulling and my memories are at odds I

pulling and my memories are at odds I

pulling and my memories are at odds I realize they are both part of me and I

realize they are both part of me and I

realize they are both part of me and I cannot go wrong

cannot go wrong

cannot go wrong we are not as lost as we think we are

we are not as lost as we think we are

we are not as lost as we think we are is this an idea that’s going to cure

is this an idea that’s going to cure

is this an idea that’s going to cure everything no but it may help you find

everything no but it may help you find

everything no but it may help you find it thank you

it thank you

it thank you [Applause]