I love writing I like looking at things with an otherworldly and serial
with an otherworldly and serial
with an otherworldly and serial perspective ever since I was 13 and felt
perspective ever since I was 13 and felt
perspective ever since I was 13 and felt my first surge of hormonal emotions I
my first surge of hormonal emotions I
my first surge of hormonal emotions I scribbled it in uneven lines and curves
scribbled it in uneven lines and curves
scribbled it in uneven lines and curves and called it a poem but I also
and called it a poem but I also
and called it a poem but I also internalized the expectation that people
internalized the expectation that people
internalized the expectation that people like me are supposed to be intense and
like me are supposed to be intense and
like me are supposed to be intense and even have a dark side soon I started
even have a dark side soon I started
even have a dark side soon I started craving and unhealthy isolation hoping
craving and unhealthy isolation hoping
craving and unhealthy isolation hoping to create something out of the edgy air
to create something out of the edgy air
to create something out of the edgy air that envelope to me I took it as a curse
that envelope to me I took it as a curse
that envelope to me I took it as a curse and not a blessing to feel too much too
and not a blessing to feel too much too
and not a blessing to feel too much too deeply feelings of achievement in
deeply feelings of achievement in
deeply feelings of achievement in writing severely emo poetry clouded my
writing severely emo poetry clouded my
writing severely emo poetry clouded my judgment and I lost touch with myself
judgment and I lost touch with myself
judgment and I lost touch with myself and what really made me happy anymore
and what really made me happy anymore
and what really made me happy anymore that’s when I noticed a pattern
that’s when I noticed a pattern
that’s when I noticed a pattern remember the Britney Spears meltdown in
remember the Britney Spears meltdown in
remember the Britney Spears meltdown in 2007
2007
2007 yeah pictures of a freshly shaved head
yeah pictures of a freshly shaved head
yeah pictures of a freshly shaved head were on every hot gossip tabloid the
were on every hot gossip tabloid the
were on every hot gossip tabloid the paparazzi paraded after her called her
paparazzi paraded after her called her
paparazzi paraded after her called her an out-of-shape washed-up hillbilly all
an out-of-shape washed-up hillbilly all
an out-of-shape washed-up hillbilly all that in the midst of a battle with drug
that in the midst of a battle with drug
that in the midst of a battle with drug addiction a recent divorce a failed
addiction a recent divorce a failed
addiction a recent divorce a failed comeback in the music industry and
comeback in the music industry and
comeback in the music industry and losing custody of her two sons we find
losing custody of her two sons we find
losing custody of her two sons we find ourselves public figures on the verge of
ourselves public figures on the verge of
ourselves public figures on the verge of spiraling or even diseased artists who
spiraling or even diseased artists who
spiraling or even diseased artists who may or may not have acclaimed fame but
may or may not have acclaimed fame but
may or may not have acclaimed fame but we sensationalized a cry for help and if
we sensationalized a cry for help and if
we sensationalized a cry for help and if you think there’s something romantic
you think there’s something romantic
you think there’s something romantic about an artist on the brink of
about an artist on the brink of
about an artist on the brink of instability being resurrected by
instability being resurrected by
instability being resurrected by thoughtless idealization I’m gonna have
thoughtless idealization I’m gonna have
thoughtless idealization I’m gonna have to ask you to think it over
to ask you to think it over
to ask you to think it over now if we all visualize a writer we’d
now if we all visualize a writer we’d
now if we all visualize a writer we’d probably find him cornered in a darkroom
probably find him cornered in a darkroom
probably find him cornered in a darkroom frustrated with life tossing thorn balls
frustrated with life tossing thorn balls
frustrated with life tossing thorn balls of paper into the wastepaper basket
of paper into the wastepaper basket
of paper into the wastepaper basket that’s a zoo behavior or maybe another
that’s a zoo behavior or maybe another
that’s a zoo behavior or maybe another sir let’s think of a musician who’s on
sir let’s think of a musician who’s on
sir let’s think of a musician who’s on the feet who’s on the peak of her career
the feet who’s on the peak of her career
the feet who’s on the peak of her career who’s abusing drugs behind closed doors
who’s abusing drugs behind closed doors
who’s abusing drugs behind closed doors because of course that’s where she gets
because of course that’s where she gets
because of course that’s where she gets her eccentric male Springs not the fact
her eccentric male Springs not the fact
her eccentric male Springs not the fact that she is actually talented or
that she is actually talented or
that she is actually talented or creative not at all
creative not at all
creative not at all you see we as an audience loved the
you see we as an audience loved the
you see we as an audience loved the emotion stirred up by work that is
emotion stirred up by work that is
emotion stirred up by work that is unconventional a study conducted later
unconventional a study conducted later
unconventional a study conducted later belief that because of this very cliche
belief that because of this very cliche
belief that because of this very cliche people infer the work made by an
people infer the work made by an
people infer the work made by an eccentric individual to be a way more
eccentric individual to be a way more
eccentric individual to be a way more value than work made by conforming
value than work made by conforming
value than work made by conforming individual what’s wrong with this is
individual what’s wrong with this is
individual what’s wrong with this is that we don’t even consider their work
that we don’t even consider their work
that we don’t even consider their work authentic till they suffer from any sort
authentic till they suffer from any sort
authentic till they suffer from any sort of problem or disorder granted there are
of problem or disorder granted there are
of problem or disorder granted there are a lot of mentally ill artists entering
a lot of mentally ill artists entering
a lot of mentally ill artists entering these domains but that’s only because
these domains but that’s only because
these domains but that’s only because there’s so much more toleration and
there’s so much more toleration and
there’s so much more toleration and acceptance present here but to think of
acceptance present here but to think of
acceptance present here but to think of how limited our opinions have become and
how limited our opinions have become and
how limited our opinions have become and to be candid sure some of these notions
to be candid sure some of these notions
to be candid sure some of these notions do make sense did any experimental
do make sense did any experimental
do make sense did any experimental journal is grim the rabbit hole appears
journal is grim the rabbit hole appears
journal is grim the rabbit hole appears because of the maelstrom of rejection
because of the maelstrom of rejection
because of the maelstrom of rejection and self-doubt but rather than facing
and self-doubt but rather than facing
and self-doubt but rather than facing these predicaments head-on it just
these predicaments head-on it just
these predicaments head-on it just becomes so accustomed to them because
becomes so accustomed to them because
becomes so accustomed to them because for the outside world they’re just a
for the outside world they’re just a
for the outside world they’re just a price to pay
price to pay
price to pay we’re so consumed with these conjectures
we’re so consumed with these conjectures
we’re so consumed with these conjectures so much that we made an entire club
so much that we made an entire club
so much that we made an entire club about it
about it
about it the infamous 27 club here’s where it
the infamous 27 club here’s where it
the infamous 27 club here’s where it gets interesting this club names moguls
gets interesting this club names moguls
gets interesting this club names moguls like Kurt Cobain Jimi Hendrix and Jim
like Kurt Cobain Jimi Hendrix and Jim
like Kurt Cobain Jimi Hendrix and Jim Morrison among others all who died at 27
Morrison among others all who died at 27
Morrison among others all who died at 27 due to various causes and dominated the
due to various causes and dominated the
due to various causes and dominated the music industry at one point a conspiracy
music industry at one point a conspiracy
music industry at one point a conspiracy theory links the club with the occult
theory links the club with the occult
theory links the club with the occult saying that these musicians catastrophic
saying that these musicians catastrophic
saying that these musicians catastrophic deaths were the result of them selling
deaths were the result of them selling
deaths were the result of them selling their soul to Satan that’s right Satan
their soul to Satan that’s right Satan
their soul to Satan that’s right Satan we’ve gone to such extent to deny how
we’ve gone to such extent to deny how
we’ve gone to such extent to deny how we’ve kept our artists in such a
we’ve kept our artists in such a
we’ve kept our artists in such a constricted mold that we point fingers
constricted mold that we point fingers
constricted mold that we point fingers on the devil oh and there’s also theory
on the devil oh and there’s also theory
on the devil oh and there’s also theory which says that they all died with big
which says that they all died with big
which says that they all died with big lighters in their pockets and with that
lighters in their pockets and with that
lighters in their pockets and with that logic I’m just waiting for 70% of pop
logic I’m just waiting for 70% of pop
logic I’m just waiting for 70% of pop delis population to drop dead you see
delis population to drop dead you see
delis population to drop dead you see they’re all artists with the scope to
they’re all artists with the scope to
they’re all artists with the scope to grow as artists and as individuals we
grow as artists and as individuals we
grow as artists and as individuals we wanted evolution of their work yet we
wanted evolution of their work yet we
wanted evolution of their work yet we don’t give them much leeway to do so we
don’t give them much leeway to do so we
don’t give them much leeway to do so we get the rock and roll persona but if we
get the rock and roll persona but if we
get the rock and roll persona but if we don’t get the same disposition after the
don’t get the same disposition after the
don’t get the same disposition after the blow up a team we’re disappointed
blow up a team we’re disappointed
blow up a team we’re disappointed because according to us now they lack
because according to us now they lack
because according to us now they lack their original quintessence the icon in
their original quintessence the icon in
their original quintessence the icon in was put under immense pressure by her
was put under immense pressure by her
was put under immense pressure by her label to write and release an album even
label to write and release an album even
label to write and release an album even when she repeatedly pleaded for more
when she repeatedly pleaded for more
when she repeatedly pleaded for more time to get the creative juices flowing
time to get the creative juices flowing
time to get the creative juices flowing more naturally this simply threatened to
more naturally this simply threatened to
more naturally this simply threatened to kick her out you may know Elizabeth
kick her out you may know Elizabeth
kick her out you may know Elizabeth Gilbert the author of Eat Pray Love and
Gilbert the author of Eat Pray Love and
Gilbert the author of Eat Pray Love and former diner waitress was being hit with
former diner waitress was being hit with
former diner waitress was being hit with rejections back to back before her
rejections back to back before her
rejections back to back before her best-selling breakthrough she thought of
best-selling breakthrough she thought of
best-selling breakthrough she thought of it as a game of tennis for every
it as a game of tennis for every
it as a game of tennis for every rejection being smashed into her court
rejection being smashed into her court
rejection being smashed into her court she rose to the challenge and sent out
she rose to the challenge and sent out
she rose to the challenge and sent out another submission elsewhere
another submission elsewhere
another submission elsewhere she took the upper hand and she put out
she took the upper hand and she put out
she took the upper hand and she put out Eat Pray Love which is pretty much a
Eat Pray Love which is pretty much a
Eat Pray Love which is pretty much a self-help Bible for people alike and in
self-help Bible for people alike and in
self-help Bible for people alike and in fact reading that very book turned most
fact reading that very book turned most
fact reading that very book turned most of us into spiritual meditative Yogi’s
of us into spiritual meditative Yogi’s
of us into spiritual meditative Yogi’s with a self-indulgent gelato addiction
with a self-indulgent gelato addiction
with a self-indulgent gelato addiction any person who works tirelessly to
any person who works tirelessly to
any person who works tirelessly to succeed as an artist a poet musician or
succeed as an artist a poet musician or
succeed as an artist a poet musician or to delve into any creative adventure
to delve into any creative adventure
to delve into any creative adventure needs to have the mental toughness to
needs to have the mental toughness to
needs to have the mental toughness to bulldoze through insurmountable
bulldoze through insurmountable
bulldoze through insurmountable rejections
rejections
rejections if a person is manically depressed or
if a person is manically depressed or
if a person is manically depressed or miserable they can’t face the rejection
miserable they can’t face the rejection
miserable they can’t face the rejection or the long hours of work yet we
or the long hours of work yet we
or the long hours of work yet we associate artists with melancholy and
associate artists with melancholy and
associate artists with melancholy and depression personally every time I try
depression personally every time I try
depression personally every time I try to tell someone I write poetry I met
to tell someone I write poetry I met
to tell someone I write poetry I met with bamboozled glares and then they ask
with bamboozled glares and then they ask
with bamboozled glares and then they ask me that golden question
me that golden question
me that golden question Wow are you depressed no no I’m not
Wow are you depressed no no I’m not
Wow are you depressed no no I’m not another time I got into a heated
another time I got into a heated
another time I got into a heated argument and someone called me a
argument and someone called me a
argument and someone called me a rejected melancholic poet not only is
rejected melancholic poet not only is
rejected melancholic poet not only is that totally uninformed but that’s
that totally uninformed but that’s
that totally uninformed but that’s really ignorant because artists have the
really ignorant because artists have the
really ignorant because artists have the leverage to take despair to take sadness
leverage to take despair to take sadness
leverage to take despair to take sadness and turn it into hopeful art which
and turn it into hopeful art which
and turn it into hopeful art which touches lives how could you give that a
touches lives how could you give that a
touches lives how could you give that a bad name here’s a piece I wrote on this
bad name here’s a piece I wrote on this
bad name here’s a piece I wrote on this very prevalent issue lines are
very prevalent issue lines are
very prevalent issue lines are diaphanous delicate as they are between
diaphanous delicate as they are between
diaphanous delicate as they are between a push to glory and a push over the edge
a push to glory and a push over the edge
a push to glory and a push over the edge pop a bottle of bubbly
pop a bottle of bubbly
pop a bottle of bubbly – celebration congratulations on your
– celebration congratulations on your
– celebration congratulations on your success
success
success greeted with smiles adorned with love
greeted with smiles adorned with love
greeted with smiles adorned with love jealousy pride and admiration what next
jealousy pride and admiration what next
jealousy pride and admiration what next stagger – confined havens a little
stagger – confined havens a little
stagger – confined havens a little something to take the edge off shoot a
something to take the edge off shoot a
something to take the edge off shoot a pitch up your wins a rush of dopamine
pitch up your wins a rush of dopamine
pitch up your wins a rush of dopamine the fourth of a day a battle lost
the fourth of a day a battle lost
the fourth of a day a battle lost already the graveness of a know of a
already the graveness of a know of a
already the graveness of a know of a human hand of anything but a camera
human hand of anything but a camera
human hand of anything but a camera flash of honest eye contact of love to
flash of honest eye contact of love to
flash of honest eye contact of love to grow and create not the desperation to
grow and create not the desperation to
grow and create not the desperation to simulate the art in bursts the face of
simulate the art in bursts the face of
simulate the art in bursts the face of amusement never heard of before
amusement never heard of before
amusement never heard of before bemusement given a new rise a battle one
bemusement given a new rise a battle one
bemusement given a new rise a battle one before it’s finally over so let’s not
before it’s finally over so let’s not
before it’s finally over so let’s not hold artists prisoners of their own
hold artists prisoners of their own
hold artists prisoners of their own image what artists do is beautiful art
image what artists do is beautiful art
image what artists do is beautiful art as they say is our only salvation from
as they say is our only salvation from
as they say is our only salvation from the horror of existence but more than
the horror of existence but more than
the horror of existence but more than that it’s an art in itself to pour out
that it’s an art in itself to pour out
that it’s an art in itself to pour out your heart expose the deepest parts of
your heart expose the deepest parts of
your heart expose the deepest parts of your soul oblivious to what may come
your soul oblivious to what may come
your soul oblivious to what may come next that sort of courage to create
next that sort of courage to create
next that sort of courage to create perpetually is noteworthy and something
perpetually is noteworthy and something
perpetually is noteworthy and something abreu hard artists – with each stroke
abreu hard artists – with each stroke
abreu hard artists – with each stroke and a canvas
and a canvas
and a canvas each note song out loud and every word
each note song out loud and every word
each note song out loud and every word on paper let artists manifest this while
on paper let artists manifest this while
on paper let artists manifest this while in a positive and supportive environment
in a positive and supportive environment
in a positive and supportive environment because it’s much easier to create out
because it’s much easier to create out
because it’s much easier to create out of passion and love rather than sell
of passion and love rather than sell
of passion and love rather than sell driven anguish and pity thank you
driven anguish and pity thank you
driven anguish and pity thank you [Applause]
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