hi everybody that’s the most creative introduction of myself that I’ve heard
introduction of myself that I’ve heard
introduction of myself that I’ve heard catharsis equivalent my Raja Muda like
catharsis equivalent my Raja Muda like
catharsis equivalent my Raja Muda like the India muhurtam I rather caffeine
the India muhurtam I rather caffeine
the India muhurtam I rather caffeine it’ll be cathartic he’ll tell you so
it’ll be cathartic he’ll tell you so
it’ll be cathartic he’ll tell you so quite a lot has been said and I feel
quite a lot has been said and I feel
quite a lot has been said and I feel very happy and proud that he will
very happy and proud that he will
very happy and proud that he will introduce me the way you have introduced
introduce me the way you have introduced
introduce me the way you have introduced me I need to take some tips on anchoring
me I need to take some tips on anchoring
me I need to take some tips on anchoring from you guys I tend to over anchor a
from you guys I tend to over anchor a
from you guys I tend to over anchor a lot so well
lot so well
lot so well TEDx has been a very inspiring thing in
TEDx has been a very inspiring thing in
TEDx has been a very inspiring thing in my individual life also I have seen so
my individual life also I have seen so
my individual life also I have seen so many of these TED talks and they’ve all
many of these TED talks and they’ve all
many of these TED talks and they’ve all been extremely inspiring I’ve learned so
been extremely inspiring I’ve learned so
been extremely inspiring I’ve learned so much applied so much have become a
much applied so much have become a
much applied so much have become a better version of myself and Here I am
better version of myself and Here I am
better version of myself and Here I am with my own people who’ve been here have
with my own people who’ve been here have
with my own people who’ve been here have been far more accomplished than I am
been far more accomplished than I am
been far more accomplished than I am people who’ve been here and used this
people who’ve been here and used this
people who’ve been here and used this stage like joke Raji mr. Shah Rukh Khan
stage like joke Raji mr. Shah Rukh Khan
stage like joke Raji mr. Shah Rukh Khan III didn’t get your name the I just
III didn’t get your name the I just
III didn’t get your name the I just walked in during swim like some like
walked in during swim like some like
walked in during swim like some like such an inspiring speech you know even
such an inspiring speech you know even
such an inspiring speech you know even in terms of struggles and exposure
in terms of struggles and exposure
in terms of struggles and exposure people have heard so much but I have my
people have heard so much but I have my
people have heard so much but I have my own experiences and Here I am and like
own experiences and Here I am and like
own experiences and Here I am and like Joe garage even a single one of you can
Joe garage even a single one of you can
Joe garage even a single one of you can get some inspiration out of it can
get some inspiration out of it can
get some inspiration out of it can change a degree of an area of your life
change a degree of an area of your life
change a degree of an area of your life I’d be extremely happy and it would have
I’d be extremely happy and it would have
I’d be extremely happy and it would have been fruitful coming here so I’m not
been fruitful coming here so I’m not
been fruitful coming here so I’m not prepared with the speech so if I go over
prepared with the speech so if I go over
prepared with the speech so if I go over and over with nonsense and incoherent
and over with nonsense and incoherent
and over with nonsense and incoherent stuff just stopped me ask me some random
stuff just stopped me ask me some random
stuff just stopped me ask me some random questions and I’m going to you know do
questions and I’m going to you know do
questions and I’m going to you know do what I have to do which is shut up so
what I have to do which is shut up so
what I have to do which is shut up so like I said not prepared so here goes
like I said not prepared so here goes
like I said not prepared so here goes nothing i-i’ve been thinking the
nothing i-i’ve been thinking the
nothing i-i’ve been thinking the bi-level backstage that what do I speak
bi-level backstage that what do I speak
bi-level backstage that what do I speak about and and when I was listening joke
about and and when I was listening joke
about and and when I was listening joke dodgy talk he had a lot of emphasis on
dodgy talk he had a lot of emphasis on
dodgy talk he had a lot of emphasis on thank you in life on gratitude so III I
thank you in life on gratitude so III I
thank you in life on gratitude so III I would like to speak about the two tools
would like to speak about the two tools
would like to speak about the two tools of my life and the first tool clearly
of my life and the first tool clearly
of my life and the first tool clearly because I have already mentioned it is
because I have already mentioned it is
because I have already mentioned it is gratitude the second tool okay so before
gratitude the second tool okay so before
gratitude the second tool okay so before I speak about the second tool let me
I speak about the second tool let me
I speak about the second tool let me speak to you about the people who
speak to you about the people who
speak to you about the people who inspired me from the creative space from
inspired me from the creative space from
inspired me from the creative space from the industry have been I’m 33 years old
the industry have been I’m 33 years old
the industry have been I’m 33 years old I’m a television actor and I come from
I’m a television actor and I come from
I’m a television actor and I come from Gurgaon it’s popular for many reasons
Gurgaon it’s popular for many reasons
Gurgaon it’s popular for many reasons not all of them are good
not all of them are good
not all of them are good but here I am and a lot of my
but here I am and a lot of my
but here I am and a lot of my conditioning has been because of this
conditioning has been because of this
conditioning has been because of this creative space the beautiful industry
creative space the beautiful industry
creative space the beautiful industry that I’m a part of and I’m very very
that I’m a part of and I’m very very
that I’m a part of and I’m very very proud of it there are many many many
proud of it there are many many many
proud of it there are many many many good things about being an actor you get
good things about being an actor you get
good things about being an actor you get a lot of attention you get a lot of love
a lot of attention you get a lot of love
a lot of attention you get a lot of love you get a got a lot of good wishes from
you get a got a lot of good wishes from
you get a got a lot of good wishes from people who don’t even know you you know
people who don’t even know you you know
people who don’t even know you you know they send you so much of prayer they
they send you so much of prayer they
they send you so much of prayer they send you so much of warmth and we are
send you so much of warmth and we are
send you so much of warmth and we are made because of that we are made because
made because of that we are made because
made because of that we are made because of what you send us and other than that
of what you send us and other than that
of what you send us and other than that also there are many things that we get
also there are many things that we get
also there are many things that we get you know there’s them fact checks you
you know there’s them fact checks you
you know there’s them fact checks you know which I have not charged for coming
know which I have not charged for coming
know which I have not charged for coming here sir-sir and there are opportunities
here sir-sir and there are opportunities
here sir-sir and there are opportunities of meeting various kinds of people
of meeting various kinds of people
of meeting various kinds of people people who’ve achieved a lot people who
people who’ve achieved a lot people who
people who’ve achieved a lot people who are striving to achieve a lot there are
are striving to achieve a lot there are
are striving to achieve a lot there are people who have given up completely but
people who have given up completely but
people who have given up completely but in all these people there are these
in all these people there are these
in all these people there are these various straights different kinds of
various straights different kinds of
various straights different kinds of conditioning that they share with you
conditioning that they share with you
conditioning that they share with you and this somehow contribute to your
and this somehow contribute to your
and this somehow contribute to your personality to shaping you up so let me
personality to shaping you up so let me
personality to shaping you up so let me first of all talk about the people who
first of all talk about the people who
first of all talk about the people who achieve a lot because these are the
achieve a lot because these are the
achieve a lot because these are the people we want to latch on to we want to
people we want to latch on to we want to
people we want to latch on to we want to have their stories we want to make it
have their stories we want to make it
have their stories we want to make it our own
our own
our own you want to latch onto their frequencies
you want to latch onto their frequencies
you want to latch onto their frequencies be like them you know there’s so many
be like them you know there’s so many
be like them you know there’s so many great people in our industry so many of
great people in our industry so many of
great people in our industry so many of them and you know whether it is a Raj
them and you know whether it is a Raj
them and you know whether it is a Raj Kapoor or guru death or Dev Anand or
Kapoor or guru death or Dev Anand or
Kapoor or guru death or Dev Anand or Shahrukh Khan or Ranbir Kapoor in the
Shahrukh Khan or Ranbir Kapoor in the
Shahrukh Khan or Ranbir Kapoor in the present times you know they’ve they’ve
present times you know they’ve they’ve
present times you know they’ve they’ve all been there and then you then you
all been there and then you then you
all been there and then you then you even the people that you don’t meet even
even the people that you don’t meet even
even the people that you don’t meet even internationally speaking like Martin
internationally speaking like Martin
internationally speaking like Martin Scorsese or Christopher Nolan so many
Scorsese or Christopher Nolan so many
Scorsese or Christopher Nolan so many great filmmakers Daniel day-lewis so
great filmmakers Daniel day-lewis so
great filmmakers Daniel day-lewis so many great actors you know so even the
many great actors you know so even the
many great actors you know so even the people that you don’t actively get to
people that you don’t actively get to
people that you don’t actively get to meet you get to sample their work you
meet you get to sample their work you
meet you get to sample their work you get to see them on screen the films that
get to see them on screen the films that
get to see them on screen the films that they have made the films that they have
they have made the films that they have
they have made the films that they have acted in and whenever you try to
acted in and whenever you try to
acted in and whenever you try to eavesdrop into their mind whenever you
eavesdrop into their mind whenever you
eavesdrop into their mind whenever you try to look at how they are thinking you
try to look at how they are thinking you
try to look at how they are thinking you realize that there’s one thing that’s
realize that there’s one thing that’s
realize that there’s one thing that’s common amongst all of them and that is
common amongst all of them and that is
common amongst all of them and that is madness its delusion delusion so is it
madness its delusion delusion so is it
madness its delusion delusion so is it getting a little complicated so that I
getting a little complicated so that I
getting a little complicated so that I simplify it a bit so when Shahrukh Khan
simplify it a bit so when Shahrukh Khan
simplify it a bit so when Shahrukh Khan looked at the Mumbai city advanced and
looked at the Mumbai city advanced and
looked at the Mumbai city advanced and and said that one day I’m going to own
and said that one day I’m going to own
and said that one day I’m going to own the city that was delusion I’m sure
the city that was delusion I’m sure
the city that was delusion I’m sure there was a second guy standing right
there was a second guy standing right
there was a second guy standing right next to him he would have turned around
next to him he would have turned around
next to him he would have turned around and said hallelujah to the Maharaja
and said hallelujah to the Maharaja
and said hallelujah to the Maharaja there I guess he bought the garage Oh at
there I guess he bought the garage Oh at
there I guess he bought the garage Oh at some point of time hum subkey life
some point of time hum subkey life
some point of time hum subkey life making as a moment author is upon kuch
making as a moment author is upon kuch
making as a moment author is upon kuch kehta and that ping is deluge
kehta and that ping is deluge
kehta and that ping is deluge enough for somebody else to turn around
enough for somebody else to turn around
enough for somebody else to turn around and look at us and say where are the
and look at us and say where are the
and look at us and say where are the Makarov Oh get the river skinny am i
Makarov Oh get the river skinny am i
Makarov Oh get the river skinny am i right
right
right I am right right so it must have
I am right right so it must have
I am right right so it must have happened in all our limited exposures to
happened in all our limited exposures to
happened in all our limited exposures to life I’m not much older than you at
life I’m not much older than you at
life I’m not much older than you at least I’d like to believe that but at
least I’d like to believe that but at
least I’d like to believe that but at some point of time all of us and all
some point of time all of us and all
some point of time all of us and all great people in this world have had a
great people in this world have had a
great people in this world have had a vision which has exclusively been their
vision which has exclusively been their
vision which has exclusively been their own it’s not shared with anybody because
own it’s not shared with anybody because
own it’s not shared with anybody because not many people have believed in it it
not many people have believed in it it
not many people have believed in it it could be from the theory of relativity
could be from the theory of relativity
could be from the theory of relativity to now this theory of evolution to
to now this theory of evolution to
to now this theory of evolution to anything in the middle such is life so
anything in the middle such is life so
anything in the middle such is life so my second tool of my life is delusion
my second tool of my life is delusion
my second tool of my life is delusion gratitude and delusion these are the two
gratitude and delusion these are the two
gratitude and delusion these are the two things I’m going to speak about I came
things I’m going to speak about I came
things I’m going to speak about I came to the the kingdom of dreams
to the the kingdom of dreams
to the the kingdom of dreams the city of dreams you know Mumbai in
the city of dreams you know Mumbai in
the city of dreams you know Mumbai in 2001 to become an electronics and
2001 to become an electronics and
2001 to become an electronics and telecommunication engineer and I became
telecommunication engineer and I became
telecommunication engineer and I became an electronics and telecommunication
an electronics and telecommunication
an electronics and telecommunication engine I’m not very good at it tokido a
engine I’m not very good at it tokido a
engine I’m not very good at it tokido a bloke a telephone scanner Kohi problem
bloke a telephone scanner Kohi problem
bloke a telephone scanner Kohi problem host cell phones no he Pablo Mooji
host cell phones no he Pablo Mooji
host cell phones no he Pablo Mooji mother Amira busky questioning you you
mother Amira busky questioning you you
mother Amira busky questioning you you know so but let me go back a little bit
know so but let me go back a little bit
know so but let me go back a little bit in time and so when I should have taken
in time and so when I should have taken
in time and so when I should have taken commerce because I will I was I was good
commerce because I will I was I was good
commerce because I will I was I was good enough for that I thought that I would
enough for that I thought that I would
enough for that I thought that I would also enjoy a lot of my friends I went
also enjoy a lot of my friends I went
also enjoy a lot of my friends I went ahead and I was delusional enough to
ahead and I was delusional enough to
ahead and I was delusional enough to take up science and then I was
take up science and then I was
take up science and then I was delusional enough to believe that I’ll
delusional enough to believe that I’ll
delusional enough to believe that I’ll be able to do well at it and I actually
be able to do well at it and I actually
be able to do well at it and I actually did well in science and then I was
did well in science and then I was
did well in science and then I was delusional enough to believe that I’d be
delusional enough to believe that I’d be
delusional enough to believe that I’d be able to compete with HSC students who
able to compete with HSC students who
able to compete with HSC students who had V better percentages than mine and
had V better percentages than mine and
had V better percentages than mine and 12 and I’d be able to get a seat in
12 and I’d be able to get a seat in
12 and I’d be able to get a seat in their College in their City and since I
their College in their City and since I
their College in their City and since I was delusional enough I got that too
was delusional enough I got that too
was delusional enough I got that too that’s where that’s where I disconnected
that’s where that’s where I disconnected
that’s where that’s where I disconnected from my delusion for some time and I got
from my delusion for some time and I got
from my delusion for some time and I got into realism and then realism limited me
into realism and then realism limited me
into realism and then realism limited me because at that point of time it didn’t
because at that point of time it didn’t
because at that point of time it didn’t take me long enough to realize that this
take me long enough to realize that this
take me long enough to realize that this course is not for me because in the very
course is not for me because in the very
course is not for me because in the very first semester of four months into my
first semester of four months into my
first semester of four months into my engineering I failed in four out of my
engineering I failed in four out of my
engineering I failed in four out of my five papers so now you will not clap
five papers so now you will not clap
five papers so now you will not clap will you so four out of my five papers
will you so four out of my five papers
will you so four out of my five papers and the Dominos effect continued and in
and the Dominos effect continued and in
and the Dominos effect continued and in the subsequent semester also I failed in
the subsequent semester also I failed in
the subsequent semester also I failed in four out of my five papers and I landed
four out of my five papers and I landed
four out of my five papers and I landed up back in the city where I came from
up back in the city where I came from
up back in the city where I came from which workaround
which workaround
which workaround and a little bit about my father as he
and a little bit about my father as he
and a little bit about my father as he comes from village where there was no
comes from village where there was no
comes from village where there was no electricity until sometime back and he
electricity until sometime back and he
electricity until sometime back and he studied there I’m able to talk in
studied there I’m able to talk in
studied there I’m able to talk in English in front of all of you because
English in front of all of you because
English in front of all of you because he studied very very hard and he’s
he studied very very hard and he’s
he studied very very hard and he’s worked very hard and he talked took the
worked very hard and he talked took the
worked very hard and he talked took the position his time and then his son goes
position his time and then his son goes
position his time and then his son goes to another city all together you know
to another city all together you know
to another city all together you know takes the honor of his family with him
takes the honor of his family with him
takes the honor of his family with him and then fails their miserably you know
and then fails their miserably you know
and then fails their miserably you know falls flat on the face and comes back to
falls flat on the face and comes back to
falls flat on the face and comes back to a city I select I just a picture of the
a city I select I just a picture of the
a city I select I just a picture of the curricular ki ki shaadi we Orellana
curricular ki ki shaadi we Orellana
curricular ki ki shaadi we Orellana Baba’s Vidya Tojo vo pressure Parivar
Baba’s Vidya Tojo vo pressure Parivar
Baba’s Vidya Tojo vo pressure Parivar aloo paratha jomama pupil pressure at
aloo paratha jomama pupil pressure at
aloo paratha jomama pupil pressure at the coach may I present my Baba Elliot
the coach may I present my Baba Elliot
the coach may I present my Baba Elliot and obviously it found its way to me
and obviously it found its way to me
and obviously it found its way to me also because I was constantly seeing it
also because I was constantly seeing it
also because I was constantly seeing it up to do particular canopied you know an
up to do particular canopied you know an
up to do particular canopied you know an AUP Top Gear topped off you look a pop s
AUP Top Gear topped off you look a pop s
AUP Top Gear topped off you look a pop s rj q / hayley tiny you think I’m happy
rj q / hayley tiny you think I’m happy
rj q / hayley tiny you think I’m happy ah Sabha but chill okay just say your
ah Sabha but chill okay just say your
ah Sabha but chill okay just say your face fence riff type K so I had to
face fence riff type K so I had to
face fence riff type K so I had to listen to all these comments and because
listen to all these comments and because
listen to all these comments and because I was vulnerable because I was young
I was vulnerable because I was young
I was vulnerable because I was young very very impressionable a little thing
very very impressionable a little thing
very very impressionable a little thing like this pushed me to the edge and I
like this pushed me to the edge and I
like this pushed me to the edge and I contemplated suicide so at that point of
contemplated suicide so at that point of
contemplated suicide so at that point of time I wish that I was delusional enough
time I wish that I was delusional enough
time I wish that I was delusional enough delusional enough for my future self to
delusional enough for my future self to
delusional enough for my future self to come to me and look me in the eye and
come to me and look me in the eye and
come to me and look me in the eye and say that oppa that three life Kaori
say that oppa that three life Kaori
say that oppa that three life Kaori value do you even know what’s going to
value do you even know what’s going to
value do you even know what’s going to happen to you you are going to be a TV
happen to you you are going to be a TV
happen to you you are going to be a TV actor do you know that you’re going to
actor do you know that you’re going to
actor do you know that you’re going to do so many good shows there gonna be
do so many good shows there gonna be
do so many good shows there gonna be some awards down the line you’re going
some awards down the line you’re going
some awards down the line you’re going to get married to the most beautiful
to get married to the most beautiful
to get married to the most beautiful woman in the world your life is going to
woman in the world your life is going to
woman in the world your life is going to transform completely if I was not
transform completely if I was not
transform completely if I was not realistic in that moment I wouldn’t have
realistic in that moment I wouldn’t have
realistic in that moment I wouldn’t have committed the most shameful act of my
committed the most shameful act of my
committed the most shameful act of my life which was an attempt to end it well
life which was an attempt to end it well
life which was an attempt to end it well this moment passed
this moment passed
this moment passed thankfully I was a failure at that too
thankfully I was a failure at that too
thankfully I was a failure at that too so I came back home and as time passed I
so I came back home and as time passed I
so I came back home and as time passed I my then girlfriend introduced me to the
my then girlfriend introduced me to the
my then girlfriend introduced me to the philosophy of life that basically
philosophy of life that basically
philosophy of life that basically anchored me completely all of us I
anchored me completely all of us I
anchored me completely all of us I believe need a spiritual anchor for me
believe need a spiritual anchor for me
believe need a spiritual anchor for me it is Buddhism for you it could be
it is Buddhism for you it could be
it is Buddhism for you it could be something else but whenever you have a
something else but whenever you have a
something else but whenever you have a spiritual anchor it gives you a
spiritual anchor it gives you a
spiritual anchor it gives you a tremendous self-worth and when it gives
tremendous self-worth and when it gives
tremendous self-worth and when it gives you a tremendous self-worth you are able
you a tremendous self-worth you are able
you a tremendous self-worth you are able to look at not just yourself with a high
to look at not just yourself with a high
to look at not just yourself with a high amount of respect you are able to look
amount of respect you are able to look
amount of respect you are able to look at everybody with that same amount of
at everybody with that same amount of
at everybody with that same amount of respect now there’s a book called power
respect now there’s a book called power
respect now there’s a book called power freedom in grace and I read it and in
freedom in grace and I read it and in
freedom in grace and I read it and in that I read this code which somehow
that I read this code which somehow
that I read this code which somehow became the bedrock of my life that from
became the bedrock of my life that from
became the bedrock of my life that from where I stand
where I stand
where I stand infinity extends in all directions which
infinity extends in all directions which
infinity extends in all directions which makes me
makes me
makes me head of the universe but from where you
head of the universe but from where you
head of the universe but from where you stand also infinity exists in all
stand also infinity exists in all
stand also infinity exists in all directions which means that you are also
directions which means that you are also
directions which means that you are also the center of the universe from a space
the center of the universe from a space
the center of the universe from a space where I wanted to end my in my life
where I wanted to end my in my life
where I wanted to end my in my life because I didn’t think that I was good
because I didn’t think that I was good
because I didn’t think that I was good enough I was here I was thinking that I
enough I was here I was thinking that I
enough I was here I was thinking that I was the protagonist of my story I was
was the protagonist of my story I was
was the protagonist of my story I was the hero and I looked at myself as the
the hero and I looked at myself as the
the hero and I looked at myself as the hero no matter how small the child is no
hero no matter how small the child is no
hero no matter how small the child is no matter how big I would always take it in
matter how big I would always take it in
matter how big I would always take it in my stride look at it in the eye and grab
my stride look at it in the eye and grab
my stride look at it in the eye and grab the bull by the horns there was this
the bull by the horns there was this
the bull by the horns there was this heroic nature in me
heroic nature in me
heroic nature in me which I came face-to-face with and I was
which I came face-to-face with and I was
which I came face-to-face with and I was very very proud of it that heroic nature
very very proud of it that heroic nature
very very proud of it that heroic nature kind of became addictive and so much so
kind of became addictive and so much so
kind of became addictive and so much so that I didn’t even want to do parallel
that I didn’t even want to do parallel
that I didn’t even want to do parallel lead roles in my shows I would only
lead roles in my shows I would only
lead roles in my shows I would only prove myself at the hero’s rule so time
prove myself at the hero’s rule so time
prove myself at the hero’s rule so time passed and I’ll try to pace it up a
passed and I’ll try to pace it up a
passed and I’ll try to pace it up a little bit like I said I’m not prepared
little bit like I said I’m not prepared
little bit like I said I’m not prepared with a speech so I am going to go all
with a speech so I am going to go all
with a speech so I am going to go all incoherent and I’m going to talk a lot
incoherent and I’m going to talk a lot
incoherent and I’m going to talk a lot of nonsense so I’m sorry about that
of nonsense so I’m sorry about that
of nonsense so I’m sorry about that I hope I am NOT till this point of time
I hope I am NOT till this point of time
I hope I am NOT till this point of time though for the subsequent four years I
though for the subsequent four years I
though for the subsequent four years I was in the industry I was doing a lot of
was in the industry I was doing a lot of
was in the industry I was doing a lot of shows but somehow even no matter how
shows but somehow even no matter how
shows but somehow even no matter how hard I was working in those shows
hard I was working in those shows
hard I was working in those shows they never had any eyeballs sometimes
they never had any eyeballs sometimes
they never had any eyeballs sometimes they were not on a channel that was
they were not on a channel that was
they were not on a channel that was being viewed a lot sometimes dogmas
being viewed a lot sometimes dogmas
being viewed a lot sometimes dogmas architects Omega those are certainly
architects Omega those are certainly
architects Omega those are certainly just canals I heard him say come late so
just canals I heard him say come late so
just canals I heard him say come late so the readings of this over not that much
the readings of this over not that much
the readings of this over not that much hum located just at home are a family
hum located just at home are a family
hum located just at home are a family can very Americana and liquid should tea
can very Americana and liquid should tea
can very Americana and liquid should tea bachelor gamakichi I should all be
bachelor gamakichi I should all be
bachelor gamakichi I should all be eating a majority so so but I I don’t
eating a majority so so but I I don’t
eating a majority so so but I I don’t think I have worked hard and even jamai
think I have worked hard and even jamai
think I have worked hard and even jamai Raja to you know as compared to that but
Raja to you know as compared to that but
Raja to you know as compared to that but nonetheless from 2004 until 2010 I
nonetheless from 2004 until 2010 I
nonetheless from 2004 until 2010 I continued working but until 2010 despite
continued working but until 2010 despite
continued working but until 2010 despite being a part of the industry that I am
being a part of the industry that I am
being a part of the industry that I am and into the internet being at it
and into the internet being at it
and into the internet being at it absolute apex whenever I used to talk
absolute apex whenever I used to talk
absolute apex whenever I used to talk Thai for a visa way in Google lilette
Thai for a visa way in Google lilette
Thai for a visa way in Google lilette dubey husband used to turn up
dubey husband used to turn up
dubey husband used to turn up so basically mother bit obviously it
so basically mother bit obviously it
so basically mother bit obviously it works it troubles you a little bit that
works it troubles you a little bit that
works it troubles you a little bit that you know there’s nobody watching you’re
you know there’s nobody watching you’re
you know there’s nobody watching you’re working hard but there’s nobody looking
working hard but there’s nobody looking
working hard but there’s nobody looking at it after all we are in a business off
at it after all we are in a business off
at it after all we are in a business off let me put it in black and white let me
let me put it in black and white let me
let me put it in black and white let me call a spade a spade
call a spade a spade
call a spade a spade we are in a business of vanity we like
we are in a business of vanity we like
we are in a business of vanity we like being looked at we we love that and we
being looked at we we love that and we
being looked at we we love that and we thrive on that
thrive on that
thrive on that you know when if you stop looking at us
you know when if you stop looking at us
you know when if you stop looking at us we are nothing we are nobody we perish
we are nothing we are nobody we perish
we are nothing we are nobody we perish you know whether it is less ratings or
you know whether it is less ratings or
you know whether it is less ratings or less business of a Bollywood film it’s
less business of a Bollywood film it’s
less business of a Bollywood film it’s one in the same it all you you’re the
one in the same it all you you’re the
one in the same it all you you’re the nucleus of it all and if you shut your
nucleus of it all and if you shut your
nucleus of it all and if you shut your eyes we are nothing and at that point of
eyes we are nothing and at that point of
eyes we are nothing and at that point of time I was nothing then I reflected back
time I was nothing then I reflected back
time I was nothing then I reflected back I told myself
I told myself
I told myself somehow there is something great in
somehow there is something great in
somehow there is something great in these lower last four years that has
these lower last four years that has
these lower last four years that has actually happened and I kept telling
actually happened and I kept telling
actually happened and I kept telling myself even though I couldn’t see what
myself even though I couldn’t see what
myself even though I couldn’t see what that great thing was so I was delusional
that great thing was so I was delusional
that great thing was so I was delusional enough at that point of time to believe
enough at that point of time to believe
enough at that point of time to believe that there was something good in all
that there was something good in all
that there was something good in all these four years of me working hard not
these four years of me working hard not
these four years of me working hard not turning a lot of money not being on
turning a lot of money not being on
turning a lot of money not being on Google not being on internet not being
Google not being on internet not being
Google not being on internet not being on Twitter or Facebook but still there
on Twitter or Facebook but still there
on Twitter or Facebook but still there is something great so when I look back I
is something great so when I look back I
is something great so when I look back I realized that all my faults as an actor
realized that all my faults as an actor
realized that all my faults as an actor till this point of time are not exposed
till this point of time are not exposed
till this point of time are not exposed I am getting getting paid a very
I am getting getting paid a very
I am getting getting paid a very handsome amount to do what I’m doing and
handsome amount to do what I’m doing and
handsome amount to do what I’m doing and that is basically just training myself
that is basically just training myself
that is basically just training myself and polishing myself as an actor so that
and polishing myself as an actor so that
and polishing myself as an actor so that when people get to see me they don’t see
when people get to see me they don’t see
when people get to see me they don’t see me as a failure that I was they see me
me as a failure that I was they see me
me as a failure that I was they see me as a success that I am today
second thing my self-worth with every
second thing my self-worth with every scene would climb up would climb up and
scene would climb up would climb up and
scene would climb up would climb up and continue climbing up till the time it
continue climbing up till the time it
continue climbing up till the time it filled myself with a sense of joy about
filled myself with a sense of joy about
filled myself with a sense of joy about being myself
being myself
being myself the third thing and the most important
the third thing and the most important
the third thing and the most important thing it was during this time if I
thing it was during this time if I
thing it was during this time if I wasn’t if I was happy with the way my
wasn’t if I was happy with the way my
wasn’t if I was happy with the way my career was going if I was happy with the
career was going if I was happy with the
career was going if I was happy with the way my shows were shaping up I would not
way my shows were shaping up I would not
way my shows were shaping up I would not have done the show in which I found my
have done the show in which I found my
have done the show in which I found my wife so I found Sargon and I did a
wife so I found Sargon and I did a
wife so I found Sargon and I did a parallel lead role because some where I
parallel lead role because some where I
parallel lead role because some where I was I I thought that this is the right
was I I thought that this is the right
was I I thought that this is the right thing to do to cure yourself with any
thing to do to cure yourself with any
thing to do to cure yourself with any earthly
earthly
earthly present mentally Gotham I just had 1
present mentally Gotham I just had 1
present mentally Gotham I just had 1 million hours Chabad I think she’s a I
million hours Chabad I think she’s a I
million hours Chabad I think she’s a I think he’s a lucky happy life Marathi
think he’s a lucky happy life Marathi
think he’s a lucky happy life Marathi epic is not Billy Kathy or so merry life
epic is not Billy Kathy or so merry life
epic is not Billy Kathy or so merry life he likes me merry merry Sargon Ian you
he likes me merry merry Sargon Ian you
he likes me merry merry Sargon Ian you know once she came into my life my life
know once she came into my life my life
know once she came into my life my life completely transformed and all these
completely transformed and all these
completely transformed and all these moments from my past am i how many
moments from my past am i how many
moments from my past am i how many minutes am i done with here get me over
minutes am i done with here get me over
minutes am i done with here get me over at Haruko new enemy couple thousand I’m
at Haruko new enemy couple thousand I’m
at Haruko new enemy couple thousand I’m going on and on I’m ranting I don’t know
going on and on I’m ranting I don’t know
going on and on I’m ranting I don’t know why so so so after she has come into my
why so so so after she has come into my
why so so so after she has come into my life there has been a dramatic change in
life there has been a dramatic change in
life there has been a dramatic change in my life and all these moments from from
my life and all these moments from from
my life and all these moments from from the time I have been born until now have
the time I have been born until now have
the time I have been born until now have come together and formed this moment
come together and formed this moment
come together and formed this moment where I can confidently speak to you
where I can confidently speak to you
where I can confidently speak to you about being happy about Who I am
about being happy about Who I am
about being happy about Who I am so
so
so everything was now surfacing from this
everything was now surfacing from this
everything was now surfacing from this space of delusion delusion even if there
space of delusion delusion even if there
space of delusion delusion even if there is no money in the account I would not
is no money in the account I would not
is no money in the account I would not do the projects that I don’t believe in
do the projects that I don’t believe in
do the projects that I don’t believe in even if the biggest of the producers are
even if the biggest of the producers are
even if the biggest of the producers are offering me stuff that that they think
offering me stuff that that they think
offering me stuff that that they think is great for me and they they really
is great for me and they they really
is great for me and they they really think that you know this this is the
think that you know this this is the
think that you know this this is the this is one day we are doing him a favor
this is one day we are doing him a favor
this is one day we are doing him a favor by you know offering him this you know I
by you know offering him this you know I
by you know offering him this you know I would not do it because somehow I would
would not do it because somehow I would
would not do it because somehow I would not believe in it television industry is
not believe in it television industry is
not believe in it television industry is hugely dominated by women no offense
hugely dominated by women no offense
hugely dominated by women no offense meant thank you to you guys because
meant thank you to you guys because
meant thank you to you guys because because if you wouldn’t be watching this
because if you wouldn’t be watching this
because if you wouldn’t be watching this massive industry would not have been
massive industry would not have been
massive industry would not have been there order third order was got a pager
there order third order was got a pager
there order third order was got a pager employment your arch television industry
employment your arch television industry
employment your arch television industry key value seven annuity thank you for
key value seven annuity thank you for
key value seven annuity thank you for the women audience but I was very clear
the women audience but I was very clear
the women audience but I was very clear that I wanted to do a show in which I
that I wanted to do a show in which I
that I wanted to do a show in which I was the hero
was the hero
was the hero I was the protagonist not just the lead
I was the protagonist not just the lead
I was the protagonist not just the lead there’s a difference in the television
there’s a difference in the television
there’s a difference in the television space most heroes are leads of the show
space most heroes are leads of the show
space most heroes are leads of the show not the protagonist I was clear of the
not the protagonist I was clear of the
not the protagonist I was clear of the content I wanted to attach myself with
content I wanted to attach myself with
content I wanted to attach myself with they were close to 40 producers who
they were close to 40 producers who
they were close to 40 producers who spoke with me after naturally you all
spoke with me after naturally you all
spoke with me after naturally you all have seen naturally me and my wife in it
have seen naturally me and my wife in it
have seen naturally me and my wife in it so after naturally I did not do any
so after naturally I did not do any
so after naturally I did not do any fiction show the friction show that I
fiction show the friction show that I
fiction show the friction show that I did before that was husband assessor all
did before that was husband assessor all
did before that was husband assessor all I hope some of you have seen that also I
I hope some of you have seen that also I
I hope some of you have seen that also I was very proud of that show also because
was very proud of that show also because
was very proud of that show also because it was creatively a lot of lot in sync
it was creatively a lot of lot in sync
it was creatively a lot of lot in sync with that show
with that show
with that show so after naturally there were so many
so after naturally there were so many
so after naturally there were so many producers that came to me and said that
producers that came to me and said that
producers that came to me and said that you know this is a great show the money
you know this is a great show the money
you know this is a great show the money was great the money was great it was
was great the money was great it was
was great the money was great it was huge as compared to what I had been
huge as compared to what I had been
huge as compared to what I had been charging to that point of time but that
charging to that point of time but that
charging to that point of time but that was somehow not driving me and clearly
was somehow not driving me and clearly
was somehow not driving me and clearly at that point of time that I don’t have
at that point of time that I don’t have
at that point of time that I don’t have a fat bank balance that you know I could
a fat bank balance that you know I could
a fat bank balance that you know I could just do anything I wanted and said yeah
just do anything I wanted and said yeah
just do anything I wanted and said yeah my guru Orion Ingram wise he was neatly
my guru Orion Ingram wise he was neatly
my guru Orion Ingram wise he was neatly you know so so I remember going to them
you know so so I remember going to them
you know so so I remember going to them I remember there was a time when I went
I remember there was a time when I went
I remember there was a time when I went all the way from town if you’re familiar
all the way from town if you’re familiar
all the way from town if you’re familiar with Mumbai from Colaba until Saki naka
with Mumbai from Colaba until Saki naka
with Mumbai from Colaba until Saki naka to go to a producer and said that I’m
to go to a producer and said that I’m
to go to a producer and said that I’m really sorry but I cannot do a show so
really sorry but I cannot do a show so
really sorry but I cannot do a show so she kept looking at me for a long time
she kept looking at me for a long time
she kept looking at me for a long time and said that I use certain that you
and said that I use certain that you
and said that I use certain that you don’t want to do it you haven’t done a
don’t want to do it you haven’t done a
don’t want to do it you haven’t done a fiction show in a very long time I was
fiction show in a very long time I was
fiction show in a very long time I was like yes ma’am I’m certain that I don’t
like yes ma’am I’m certain that I don’t
like yes ma’am I’m certain that I don’t want to do it but why is that we are
want to do it but why is that we are
want to do it but why is that we are offering you so much money and we we
offering you so much money and we we
offering you so much money and we we know what you were charging before this
know what you were charging before this
know what you were charging before this and this is many times more Monica
and this is many times more Monica
and this is many times more Monica Burton am i I want to do a show in which
Burton am i I want to do a show in which
Burton am i I want to do a show in which I am the hero so you mean that you want
I am the hero so you mean that you want
I am the hero so you mean that you want to do a show in which you are the lead
to do a show in which you are the lead
to do a show in which you are the lead then you know you are the protagonist
then you know you are the protagonist
then you know you are the protagonist yes ma’am I want to do that and she was
yes ma’am I want to do that and she was
yes ma’am I want to do that and she was like you know as much as I would like to
like you know as much as I would like to
like you know as much as I would like to see you doing that there’s a certain
see you doing that there’s a certain
see you doing that there’s a certain pattern with which the industry operates
pattern with which the industry operates
pattern with which the industry operates you have to be delusional enough
you have to be delusional enough
you have to be delusional enough believe that you can have a show in
believe that you can have a show in
believe that you can have a show in which you are the protagonist and that
which you are the protagonist and that
which you are the protagonist and that was just about all that I needed to hear
was just about all that I needed to hear
was just about all that I needed to hear cut to seven months later there was a
cut to seven months later there was a
cut to seven months later there was a show which was being made on one of the
show which was being made on one of the
show which was being made on one of the channels that I had worked with
channels that I had worked with
channels that I had worked with previously and they called me absolutely
previously and they called me absolutely
previously and they called me absolutely out of nowhere for an audition I
out of nowhere for an audition I
out of nowhere for an audition I happened to be free if I would have
happened to be free if I would have
happened to be free if I would have taken any of those projects you know I
taken any of those projects you know I
taken any of those projects you know I would not have been able to go for the
would not have been able to go for the
would not have been able to go for the look test also for that show but they
look test also for that show but they
look test also for that show but they called me and I ended up doing a show
called me and I ended up doing a show
called me and I ended up doing a show which was absolutely a male protagonist
which was absolutely a male protagonist
which was absolutely a male protagonist show not just that it became a pioneer
show not just that it became a pioneer
show not just that it became a pioneer for many other male protagonists shows
for many other male protagonists shows
for many other male protagonists shows to come and I’m very proud of that the
to come and I’m very proud of that the
to come and I’m very proud of that the show’s name is my Raja
in fact the show has just been launched
in fact the show has just been launched in Indonesia and it’s being launched in
in Indonesia and it’s being launched in
in Indonesia and it’s being launched in Germany it’s being launched in West
Germany it’s being launched in West
Germany it’s being launched in West Bengal it has been remade by the name of
Bengal it has been remade by the name of
Bengal it has been remade by the name of jamai Raja in with different characters
jamai Raja in with different characters
jamai Raja in with different characters it’s being today in the morning we saw a
it’s being today in the morning we saw a
it’s being today in the morning we saw a trailer it will it’s being launched on
trailer it will it’s being launched on
trailer it will it’s being launched on an Arabic channel dubbed in Arabic and
an Arabic channel dubbed in Arabic and
an Arabic channel dubbed in Arabic and everywhere it seems to be getting the
everywhere it seems to be getting the
everywhere it seems to be getting the respect that we invested the kind of
respect that we invested the kind of
respect that we invested the kind of positivity and happiness we invested in
positivity and happiness we invested in
positivity and happiness we invested in the show their show not only saw the
the show their show not only saw the
the show their show not only saw the light of the day in an industry where
light of the day in an industry where
light of the day in an industry where there is a where there is a strong point
there is a where there is a strong point
there is a where there is a strong point of view that only women centric shows
of view that only women centric shows
of view that only women centric shows work not only did to see the light of
work not only did to see the light of
work not only did to see the light of the day it also became the
the day it also became the
the day it also became the fourth-highest opener pan India during
fourth-highest opener pan India during
fourth-highest opener pan India during that time it had a beautiful run for
that time it had a beautiful run for
that time it had a beautiful run for clothes – it had a beautiful run for
clothes – it had a beautiful run for
clothes – it had a beautiful run for close to three years and so I might
close to three years and so I might
close to three years and so I might under the eternal down to the 18 minutes
under the eternal down to the 18 minutes
under the eternal down to the 18 minutes cab bath career seriously yet the math I
cab bath career seriously yet the math I
cab bath career seriously yet the math I already thought of a so all right so
already thought of a so all right so
already thought of a so all right so clearly I have overshot my time so I
clearly I have overshot my time so I
clearly I have overshot my time so I have I still have a lot to say I don’t
have I still have a lot to say I don’t
have I still have a lot to say I don’t believe it so I should come to come to
believe it so I should come to come to
believe it so I should come to come to these talks completely unprepared
these talks completely unprepared
these talks completely unprepared because I have more to speak so I’m
because I have more to speak so I’m
because I have more to speak so I’m going to cut the professional journey
going to cut the professional journey
going to cut the professional journey short and I’m going to come straight to
short and I’m going to come straight to
short and I’m going to come straight to the end at all times in our life we are
the end at all times in our life we are
the end at all times in our life we are faced with this choice limited realism
faced with this choice limited realism
faced with this choice limited realism or in finite delusion healthy delusion
or in finite delusion healthy delusion
or in finite delusion healthy delusion our destiny as we say it only determines
our destiny as we say it only determines
our destiny as we say it only determines our past because we can’t do anything
our past because we can’t do anything
our past because we can’t do anything about it it determines our present to
about it it determines our present to
about it it determines our present to some extent because we can’t do much
some extent because we can’t do much
some extent because we can’t do much about it but it cannot determine our
about it but it cannot determine our
about it but it cannot determine our future because the future is a space of
future because the future is a space of
future because the future is a space of infinite possibilities
infinite possibilities
infinite possibilities can happen right now there’s a spaceship
can happen right now there’s a spaceship
can happen right now there’s a spaceship that can land right here in the center
that can land right here in the center
that can land right here in the center of this auditorium we don’t know that
of this auditorium we don’t know that
of this auditorium we don’t know that because the next second has yet not
because the next second has yet not
because the next second has yet not happened so the future is an imaginative
happened so the future is an imaginative
happened so the future is an imaginative space your memory can take you into your
space your memory can take you into your
space your memory can take you into your past your five senses can make you
past your five senses can make you
past your five senses can make you perceive the present but your
perceive the present but your
perceive the present but your imagination manufactures the future so
imagination manufactures the future so
imagination manufactures the future so before I go I want to give you all a
before I go I want to give you all a
before I go I want to give you all a little homework find the most delusional
little homework find the most delusional
little homework find the most delusional version of yourself the highest version
version of yourself the highest version
version of yourself the highest version of yourself that you can imagine look at
of yourself that you can imagine look at
of yourself that you can imagine look at yourself learning the maximum amount of
yourself learning the maximum amount of
yourself learning the maximum amount of money being the best sons being the best
money being the best sons being the best
money being the best sons being the best daughters being the best husband’s the
daughters being the best husband’s the
daughters being the best husband’s the best wives and the best professionals
best wives and the best professionals
best wives and the best professionals you can imagine a kid start your
you can imagine a kid start your
you can imagine a kid start your delusion thank you very much
delusion thank you very much
delusion thank you very much [Applause]
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