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The Edges that Blur | Mara Ahmed | TEDxRochester


[Music]

[Music] you

you

you [Music]

when you hear the word border what are

when you hear the word border what are some of the images that flash through

some of the images that flash through

some of the images that flash through your mind what’s your immediate gut

your mind what’s your immediate gut

your mind what’s your immediate gut reaction where does it take you do you

reaction where does it take you do you

reaction where does it take you do you think of immigration lines passports and

think of immigration lines passports and

think of immigration lines passports and the process of crossing borders into

the process of crossing borders into

the process of crossing borders into another country do you think of

another country do you think of

another country do you think of checkpoints barbed wire Border Patrol

checkpoints barbed wire Border Patrol

checkpoints barbed wire Border Patrol and the process of blocking people from

and the process of blocking people from

and the process of blocking people from entering a nation-state do you think of

entering a nation-state do you think of

entering a nation-state do you think of physical boundaries or psychological

physical boundaries or psychological

physical boundaries or psychological ones is the idea of borders always

ones is the idea of borders always

ones is the idea of borders always grounded in reality or can it be a

grounded in reality or can it be a

grounded in reality or can it be a figment of our imagination I’m an artist

figment of our imagination I’m an artist

figment of our imagination I’m an artist and filmmaker and I was born in Lahore

and filmmaker and I was born in Lahore

and filmmaker and I was born in Lahore it’s the cultural metropolis treasured

it’s the cultural metropolis treasured

it’s the cultural metropolis treasured in the Indian subcontinent and now a

in the Indian subcontinent and now a

in the Indian subcontinent and now a major city in Pakistan Lahore is old

major city in Pakistan Lahore is old

major city in Pakistan Lahore is old congested noisy it’s summers are

congested noisy it’s summers are

congested noisy it’s summers are unbearably hot that is until the monsoon

unbearably hot that is until the monsoon

unbearably hot that is until the monsoon rains arrive they roll down from the sky

rains arrive they roll down from the sky

rains arrive they roll down from the sky in thick sheets of water and wash

in thick sheets of water and wash

in thick sheets of water and wash everything Lahore is mangoes magical

everything Lahore is mangoes magical

everything Lahore is mangoes magical crickets and nights steeped in the sweet

crickets and nights steeped in the sweet

crickets and nights steeped in the sweet scent of jasmine it’s the city where

scent of jasmine it’s the city where

scent of jasmine it’s the city where myth and reality brush up against each

myth and reality brush up against each

myth and reality brush up against each other continuously but I actually grew

other continuously but I actually grew

other continuously but I actually grew up in Belgium in the cool and sleepy

up in Belgium in the cool and sleepy

up in Belgium in the cool and sleepy suburbs of voluble Sanibel that’s when

suburbs of voluble Sanibel that’s when

suburbs of voluble Sanibel that’s when life became exclusively French and my

life became exclusively French and my

life became exclusively French and my childhood a blend of Christmas cookies

childhood a blend of Christmas cookies

childhood a blend of Christmas cookies European pop music if you can believe it

European pop music if you can believe it

European pop music if you can believe it and a uniformly accepted sense of what

and a uniformly accepted sense of what

and a uniformly accepted sense of what it meant to be Belgian I was the only

it meant to be Belgian I was the only

it meant to be Belgian I was the only student of color the only Muslim in my

student of color the only Muslim in my

student of color the only Muslim in my class for most of primary school and

class for most of primary school and

class for most of primary school and that created a strange disconnect in my

that created a strange disconnect in my

that created a strange disconnect in my own understanding of who I was a double

own understanding of who I was a double

own understanding of who I was a double consciousness so to speak we shifted

consciousness so to speak we shifted

consciousness so to speak we shifted back to Pakistan for a few years and

back to Pakistan for a few years and

back to Pakistan for a few years and then after college I moved to the US and

then after college I moved to the US and

then after college I moved to the US and fell in love with New York

fell in love with New York

fell in love with New York not only could I feel and respond to its

not only could I feel and respond to its

not only could I feel and respond to its energy its high concentration of people

energy its high concentration of people

energy its high concentration of people and ideas but I also found its mishmash

and ideas but I also found its mishmash

and ideas but I also found its mishmash and multiplicities to be oddly

and multiplicities to be oddly

and multiplicities to be oddly reassuring they aligned very closely

reassuring they aligned very closely

reassuring they aligned very closely with my own interior diversity being

with my own interior diversity being

with my own interior diversity being from so many different places and

from so many different places and

from so many different places and therefore from no particular place at

therefore from no particular place at

therefore from no particular place at all as you can imagine borders are

all as you can imagine borders are

all as you can imagine borders are meaningless to me they divide and limit

meaningless to me they divide and limit

meaningless to me they divide and limit by speaking in a very colorless binary

by speaking in a very colorless binary

by speaking in a very colorless binary language we have citizens and

language we have citizens and

language we have citizens and undocumented aliens we have legal versus

undocumented aliens we have legal versus

undocumented aliens we have legal versus illegal human beings we look two lines

illegal human beings we look two lines

illegal human beings we look two lines drawn in the sand in order to form a

drawn in the sand in order to form a

drawn in the sand in order to form a movable national identities in order to

movable national identities in order to

movable national identities in order to separate what is known and safe from

separate what is known and safe from

separate what is known and safe from what is foreign and dangerous yet human

what is foreign and dangerous yet human

what is foreign and dangerous yet human beings are anything but fixed or easily

beings are anything but fixed or easily

beings are anything but fixed or easily definable each and every one of us is

definable each and every one of us is

definable each and every one of us is complex and full of contradictions our

complex and full of contradictions our

complex and full of contradictions our gender sexual orientation education

gender sexual orientation education

gender sexual orientation education profession the languages we speak the

profession the languages we speak the

profession the languages we speak the books we read the religions we embrace

books we read the religions we embrace

books we read the religions we embrace or don’t embrace the partnerships we

or don’t embrace the partnerships we

or don’t embrace the partnerships we choose to form in marriage or otherwise

choose to form in marriage or otherwise

choose to form in marriage or otherwise how we parent or connect with our

how we parent or connect with our

how we parent or connect with our neighbors and community whether we smoke

neighbors and community whether we smoke

neighbors and community whether we smoke or not exercise or not vote or not all

or not exercise or not vote or not all

or not exercise or not vote or not all of these decisions these affiliations

of these decisions these affiliations

of these decisions these affiliations and ways of being in the world

and ways of being in the world

and ways of being in the world I like discrete circles that overlap and

I like discrete circles that overlap and

I like discrete circles that overlap and continue to stir and form new

continue to stir and form new

continue to stir and form new intersections that define us what a

intersections that define us what a

intersections that define us what a ridiculous notion it is then to combine

ridiculous notion it is then to combine

ridiculous notion it is then to combine millions of people with millions of

millions of people with millions of

millions of people with millions of shifting identities and call them one

shifting identities and call them one

shifting identities and call them one monolithic nation based presumptuously

monolithic nation based presumptuously

monolithic nation based presumptuously on the geometry of maps I worked on a

on the geometry of maps I worked on a

on the geometry of maps I worked on a film about the partition of India for

film about the partition of India for

film about the partition of India for more than seven years and therefore I

more than seven years and therefore I

more than seven years and therefore I had plenty of time to think about

had plenty of time to think about

had plenty of time to think about nationalism and borders what used to be

nationalism and borders what used to be

nationalism and borders what used to be the

the

the continent or most of South Asia was

continent or most of South Asia was

continent or most of South Asia was colonized by the British for two

colonized by the British for two

colonized by the British for two centuries as their global power began to

centuries as their global power began to

centuries as their global power began to dissipate and the call for independence

dissipate and the call for independence

dissipate and the call for independence became louder and louder the British

became louder and louder the British

became louder and louder the British decided to leave India in 1947 along

decided to leave India in 1947 along

decided to leave India in 1947 along with plans for a very quick exit they

with plans for a very quick exit they

with plans for a very quick exit they also drew lines that cut across villages

also drew lines that cut across villages

also drew lines that cut across villages and farmland and created a Muslim

and farmland and created a Muslim

and farmland and created a Muslim majority Pakistan and a Hindu majority

majority Pakistan and a Hindu majority

majority Pakistan and a Hindu majority India as people began to move across the

India as people began to move across the

India as people began to move across the border in the midst of complete chaos

border in the midst of complete chaos

border in the midst of complete chaos riots broke out between 12 to 20 million

riots broke out between 12 to 20 million

riots broke out between 12 to 20 million people were displaced and more than 1

people were displaced and more than 1

people were displaced and more than 1 million killed in a matter of months

million killed in a matter of months

million killed in a matter of months after the partition both India and

after the partition both India and

after the partition both India and Pakistan had to reinvent themselves

Pakistan had to reinvent themselves

Pakistan had to reinvent themselves almost in opposition to each other what

almost in opposition to each other what

almost in opposition to each other what had always been a deeply diverse place

had always been a deeply diverse place

had always been a deeply diverse place now had to be reimagined as two separate

now had to be reimagined as two separate

now had to be reimagined as two separate countries with sharply defined singular

countries with sharply defined singular

countries with sharply defined singular identities those who didn’t fit in were

identities those who didn’t fit in were

identities those who didn’t fit in were forcefully integrated by using state

forcefully integrated by using state

forcefully integrated by using state violence it’s such a contradiction the

violence it’s such a contradiction the

violence it’s such a contradiction the partition was supposed to take care of

partition was supposed to take care of

partition was supposed to take care of the minority problem by separating what

the minority problem by separating what

the minority problem by separating what was different but in fact it only

was different but in fact it only

was different but in fact it only exacerbated the persecution of

exacerbated the persecution of

exacerbated the persecution of minorities in both states respectively

perhaps it’s my rebellion against

perhaps it’s my rebellion against boundaries and sameness which have

boundaries and sameness which have

boundaries and sameness which have propelled my work in the direction of

propelled my work in the direction of

propelled my work in the direction of multimedia collage my last series of

multimedia collage my last series of

multimedia collage my last series of artwork was called

artwork was called

artwork was called this heirloom and not only did it blur

this heirloom and not only did it blur

this heirloom and not only did it blur the edges between different materials

the edges between different materials

the edges between different materials and cultures it also crossed over

and cultures it also crossed over

and cultures it also crossed over separations in time and space I

separations in time and space I

separations in time and space I recreated my own family history by using

recreated my own family history by using

recreated my own family history by using old photographs and placing my ancestors

old photographs and placing my ancestors

old photographs and placing my ancestors in landscapes that were unquestionably

in landscapes that were unquestionably

in landscapes that were unquestionably South Asian my mother’s family is

South Asian my mother’s family is

South Asian my mother’s family is originally from India my father’s family

originally from India my father’s family

originally from India my father’s family is from what became Bacchus

is from what became Bacchus

is from what became Bacchus by locating my ancestors on the wrong

by locating my ancestors on the wrong

by locating my ancestors on the wrong side of the border I was able to subvert

side of the border I was able to subvert

side of the border I was able to subvert and overcome geographic boundaries and

and overcome geographic boundaries and

and overcome geographic boundaries and limits this for example is my maternal

limits this for example is my maternal

limits this for example is my maternal grandfather he went to a legal

grandfather he went to a legal

grandfather he went to a legal University in India he spoke fluent

University in India he spoke fluent

University in India he spoke fluent English Bordeaux and Sanskrit he was a

English Bordeaux and Sanskrit he was a

English Bordeaux and Sanskrit he was a lawyer but also an excellent tennis

lawyer but also an excellent tennis

lawyer but also an excellent tennis player he passed away soon after the

player he passed away soon after the

player he passed away soon after the partition my mother believes he died of

partition my mother believes he died of

partition my mother believes he died of a broken heart I never knew him

a broken heart I never knew him

a broken heart I never knew him I’ve seated him in Lahore in Pakistan in

I’ve seated him in Lahore in Pakistan in

I’ve seated him in Lahore in Pakistan in front of one of the gates to the walled

front of one of the gates to the walled

front of one of the gates to the walled city this is my paternal grandfather he

city this is my paternal grandfather he

city this is my paternal grandfather he owns some land in central Punjab on the

owns some land in central Punjab on the

owns some land in central Punjab on the Pakistani side and studied English

Pakistani side and studied English

Pakistani side and studied English literature in Lahore in Pakistan I still

literature in Lahore in Pakistan I still

literature in Lahore in Pakistan I still come across some of his books in my

come across some of his books in my

come across some of his books in my father’s library I’ve placed him in

father’s library I’ve placed him in

father’s library I’ve placed him in front of the JAMA mosque in India art

front of the JAMA mosque in India art

front of the JAMA mosque in India art can help us imagine a better world and

can help us imagine a better world and

can help us imagine a better world and that’s what I tried to do with this

that’s what I tried to do with this

that’s what I tried to do with this series it’s a bridging of memories but

series it’s a bridging of memories but

series it’s a bridging of memories but it’s also an effacement of borders I’m

it’s also an effacement of borders I’m

it’s also an effacement of borders I’m sure many of you are thinking if not

sure many of you are thinking if not

sure many of you are thinking if not borders then what what about love I like

borders then what what about love I like

borders then what what about love I like its capacious nests its ability to come

its capacious nests its ability to come

its capacious nests its ability to come clean about all that has happened in the

clean about all that has happened in the

clean about all that has happened in the past in order to move forward together

past in order to move forward together

past in order to move forward together love has no use for walls or borders

love has no use for walls or borders

love has no use for walls or borders it’s about diffusion melding harmonizing

it’s about diffusion melding harmonizing

it’s about diffusion melding harmonizing it doesn’t hem in it spreads outward

it doesn’t hem in it spreads outward

it doesn’t hem in it spreads outward Adrian rich speaks beautifully about the

Adrian rich speaks beautifully about the

Adrian rich speaks beautifully about the edges that blur in one of her poems when

edges that blur in one of her poems when

edges that blur in one of her poems when I hear those words I visualise edges

I hear those words I visualise edges

I hear those words I visualise edges that bleed and blur into one another

that bleed and blur into one another

that bleed and blur into one another criss crossing lines and feels a lot

criss crossing lines and feels a lot

criss crossing lines and feels a lot like collage work rich talks about human

like collage work rich talks about human

like collage work rich talks about human boundaries she talks about how the

boundaries she talks about how the

boundaries she talks about how the body’s pain is not the same as the pain

body’s pain is not the same as the pain

body’s pain is not the same as the pain on the streets yet it’s possible for us

on the streets yet it’s possible for us

on the streets yet it’s possible for us to connect our

to connect our

to connect our own personal experience to that of

own personal experience to that of

own personal experience to that of humanity if we watch the edges that blur

humanity if we watch the edges that blur

humanity if we watch the edges that blur if we negotiate the distance between us

if we negotiate the distance between us

if we negotiate the distance between us and are able to see ourselves in the

and are able to see ourselves in the

and are able to see ourselves in the other I know it takes confidence it

other I know it takes confidence it

other I know it takes confidence it perhaps even a certain level of courage

perhaps even a certain level of courage

perhaps even a certain level of courage it certainly forces us to step out of

it certainly forces us to step out of

it certainly forces us to step out of our comfort zone but in the end it’s so

our comfort zone but in the end it’s so

our comfort zone but in the end it’s so worth it for once we dare to love

worth it for once we dare to love

worth it for once we dare to love there’s no more room for fear or borders

there’s no more room for fear or borders

there’s no more room for fear or borders thank

thank

thank [Applause]

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