my daughter came crying home from school when she was about seven years old
when she was about seven years old
when she was about seven years old saying yelling at me mama mama we have
saying yelling at me mama mama we have
saying yelling at me mama mama we have to move I want to move the kids were
to move I want to move the kids were
to move I want to move the kids were making fun of me for living in a garage
making fun of me for living in a garage
making fun of me for living in a garage it was a little bit true because our
it was a little bit true because our
it was a little bit true because our tour of the house has a subtle door but
tour of the house has a subtle door but
tour of the house has a subtle door but technically it’s about shelter for me
technically it’s about shelter for me
technically it’s about shelter for me this was a perfect place for living
this was a perfect place for living
this was a perfect place for living because I needed a space where I could
because I needed a space where I could
because I needed a space where I could live and work at the same time because I
live and work at the same time because I
live and work at the same time because I needed to work on other people’s dreams
needed to work on other people’s dreams
needed to work on other people’s dreams in the film business during day and on
in the film business during day and on
in the film business during day and on my art at night time I had to look after
my art at night time I had to look after
my art at night time I had to look after my daughter because I was a single
my daughter because I was a single
my daughter because I was a single mother all right
mother all right
mother all right I prefer to say an independent mom I
knew a little bit where she was coming
knew a little bit where she was coming from because I knew one thing when I was
from because I knew one thing when I was
from because I knew one thing when I was young I did not want to become an artist
young I did not want to become an artist
young I did not want to become an artist that was the only thing I knew for sure
that was the only thing I knew for sure
that was the only thing I knew for sure artists struggle there is no financial
artists struggle there is no financial
artists struggle there is no financial security and that kind of weird people
security and that kind of weird people
security and that kind of weird people in society and I knew this because my
in society and I knew this because my
in society and I knew this because my parents are artists I had no idea what I
parents are artists I had no idea what I
parents are artists I had no idea what I wanted to become I just knew that it was
wanted to become I just knew that it was
wanted to become I just knew that it was not an artist so I escaped in high
not an artist so I escaped in high
not an artist so I escaped in high school I went into math and science
school I went into math and science
school I went into math and science thinking that this was the opposite of
thinking that this was the opposite of
thinking that this was the opposite of art then I was thinking about what else
art then I was thinking about what else
art then I was thinking about what else can I do
can I do
can I do I thought about architecture I thought
I thought about architecture I thought
I thought about architecture I thought about industrial design and everything
about industrial design and everything
about industrial design and everything around it and I finally decided to go
around it and I finally decided to go
around it and I finally decided to go for furniture designing which is
for furniture designing which is
for furniture designing which is ironically next step to sculpture
ironically next step to sculpture
ironically next step to sculpture without the clay which later in caught
without the clay which later in caught
without the clay which later in caught my master degree in as a sculpture as
my master degree in as a sculpture as
my master degree in as a sculpture as you know I’m an artist today
you know I’m an artist today
you know I’m an artist today when I realized that I was escaping I
when I realized that I was escaping I
when I realized that I was escaping I decided to surrender and stop I was
decided to surrender and stop I was
decided to surrender and stop I was escaping my famous artists father my
escaping my famous artists father my
escaping my famous artists father my small nation Ireland Iceland and met the
small nation Ireland Iceland and met the
small nation Ireland Iceland and met the essence of who I was so I surrendered
essence of who I was so I surrendered
essence of who I was so I surrendered and I’m gonna take you with me and share
and I’m gonna take you with me and share
and I’m gonna take you with me and share you much value of surrender a great
you much value of surrender a great
you much value of surrender a great friend of mine and salesperson Kunekune
friend of mine and salesperson Kunekune
friend of mine and salesperson Kunekune a son who created clone motion and rope
a son who created clone motion and rope
a son who created clone motion and rope yoga he opened up so beautiful me
yoga he opened up so beautiful me
yoga he opened up so beautiful me beautifully for me to words let go and
beautifully for me to words let go and
beautifully for me to words let go and Trust let go in Icelandic slappa sound
Trust let go in Icelandic slappa sound
Trust let go in Icelandic slappa sound so descriptive slappa
so descriptive slappa
so descriptive slappa like in Japanese Hana say these two
like in Japanese Hana say these two
like in Japanese Hana say these two words are magical I promise you and if
words are magical I promise you and if
words are magical I promise you and if you can adopt these two words you your
you can adopt these two words you your
you can adopt these two words you your heart will open and you’re able to
heart will open and you’re able to
heart will open and you’re able to surrender and then you can flow not go
surrender and then you can flow not go
surrender and then you can flow not go with the flow go with your flow it’s not
with the flow go with your flow it’s not
with the flow go with your flow it’s not the same thing giving up and
the same thing giving up and
the same thing giving up and surrendering I have had to surrender
surrendering I have had to surrender
surrendering I have had to surrender many times on the way I have found
many times on the way I have found
many times on the way I have found myself in different impossible
myself in different impossible
myself in different impossible situations to make the impossible happen
situations to make the impossible happen
situations to make the impossible happen I’ve been around the world where I had
I’ve been around the world where I had
I’ve been around the world where I had to make heart in impossible condition
to make heart in impossible condition
to make heart in impossible condition once it was in Oshima island I was
once it was in Oshima island I was
once it was in Oshima island I was invited to the art festival wash my land
invited to the art festival wash my land
invited to the art festival wash my land 2014 I was very happy to come back to
2014 I was very happy to come back to
2014 I was very happy to come back to Japan
Japan
Japan as an artist you get to choose your spot
as an artist you get to choose your spot
as an artist you get to choose your spot I chose this beautiful old house it was
I chose this beautiful old house it was
I chose this beautiful old house it was about 200 years old under the roof let’s
about 200 years old under the roof let’s
about 200 years old under the roof let’s see the side was under the roof and I
see the side was under the roof and I
see the side was under the roof and I thought what can I do here so this is
thought what can I do here so this is
thought what can I do here so this is such a beautiful place and I decided to
such a beautiful place and I decided to
such a beautiful place and I decided to make this meditation space what I didn’t
make this meditation space what I didn’t
make this meditation space what I didn’t know when I chose this path
know when I chose this path
know when I chose this path is that this house was built in a highly
is that this house was built in a highly
is that this house was built in a highly respected Japanese way with no nails
respected Japanese way with no nails
respected Japanese way with no nails what did that mean that meant that I
what did that mean that meant that I
what did that mean that meant that I could not use any nails or any staples
could not use any nails or any staples
could not use any nails or any staples or not even a needle nothing and my
or not even a needle nothing and my
or not even a needle nothing and my meditation space was basically hanging
meditation space was basically hanging
meditation space was basically hanging paper Scrolls from the ceiling three and
paper Scrolls from the ceiling three and
paper Scrolls from the ceiling three and a half meters high Osaka not – it’s
a half meters high Osaka not – it’s
a half meters high Osaka not – it’s impossible
impossible
impossible I can never manage this I thought so I
I can never manage this I thought so I
I can never manage this I thought so I meditated on it but I gave it didn’t
meditated on it but I gave it didn’t
meditated on it but I gave it didn’t give up yet and I had a very good space
give up yet and I had a very good space
give up yet and I had a very good space where I was working in the school nearby
where I was working in the school nearby
where I was working in the school nearby on this paper Scrolls which are a
on this paper Scrolls which are a
on this paper Scrolls which are a special technique which I have developed
special technique which I have developed
special technique which I have developed it’s layers of paper of was he mostly
it’s layers of paper of was he mostly
it’s layers of paper of was he mostly painted and then waxed so they get three
painted and then waxed so they get three
painted and then waxed so they get three dimension and translucid so they had to
dimension and translucid so they had to
dimension and translucid so they had to hang in space there was no no choice and
hang in space there was no no choice and
hang in space there was no no choice and when I meditated on it thinking I should
when I meditated on it thinking I should
when I meditated on it thinking I should just go go for another idea and the same
just go go for another idea and the same
just go go for another idea and the same spot to something else
spot to something else
spot to something else don’t be so stubborn but there wasn’t a
don’t be so stubborn but there wasn’t a
don’t be so stubborn but there wasn’t a way out I had to do it so I had to find
way out I had to do it so I had to find
way out I had to do it so I had to find a way how to hang it and I decided that
a way how to hang it and I decided that
a way how to hang it and I decided that I could would find a solution and I
I could would find a solution and I
I could would find a solution and I would find the nylon thread the fish
would find the nylon thread the fish
would find the nylon thread the fish line around the beans to pull the paper
line around the beans to pull the paper
line around the beans to pull the paper scrolls up and the thing was that
scrolls up and the thing was that
scrolls up and the thing was that nothing was on level in this house with
nothing was on level in this house with
nothing was on level in this house with the floor and my paper squirrel had to
the floor and my paper squirrel had to
the floor and my paper squirrel had to be on level and straight and not only
be on level and straight and not only
be on level and straight and not only that and circle as I said so it was
that and circle as I said so it was
that and circle as I said so it was super complicated and it was so hot it
super complicated and it was so hot it
super complicated and it was so hot it was over 40 degrees of course not
was over 40 degrees of course not
was over 40 degrees of course not possible to open any window I must have
possible to open any window I must have
possible to open any window I must have been 100 percent humidity there was I
been 100 percent humidity there was I
been 100 percent humidity there was I was sweating from my palms literally I’m
was sweating from my palms literally I’m
was sweating from my palms literally I’m not exaggerating
not exaggerating
not exaggerating they were River down my arms dropping on
they were River down my arms dropping on
they were River down my arms dropping on the floor
the floor
the floor I was so sweating under the roof and the
I was so sweating under the roof and the
I was so sweating under the roof and the strings they were just flying out of my
strings they were just flying out of my
strings they were just flying out of my hands because I couldn’t feel them but I
hands because I couldn’t feel them but I
hands because I couldn’t feel them but I finished this with my the help of my
finished this with my the help of my
finished this with my the help of my daughter
daughter
daughter Audra who was 19 by then and has learned
Audra who was 19 by then and has learned
Audra who was 19 by then and has learned to appreciate
to appreciate
to appreciate that I have been taking her out of
that I have been taking her out of
that I have been taking her out of school regularly to residences across
school regularly to residences across
school regularly to residences across the world Mexico was a challenge
the world Mexico was a challenge
the world Mexico was a challenge last year I was invited to Mexico to
last year I was invited to Mexico to
last year I was invited to Mexico to park it in Michoacan to participate in
park it in Michoacan to participate in
park it in Michoacan to participate in the land art festival land art is when
the land art festival land art is when
the land art festival land art is when you work in the nature with the nature
you work in the nature with the nature
you work in the nature with the nature and you make an installation
and you make an installation
and you make an installation installation outside it was rainy season
installation outside it was rainy season
installation outside it was rainy season I knew that it was going to be rainy
I knew that it was going to be rainy
I knew that it was going to be rainy season and I thought so what a little
season and I thought so what a little
season and I thought so what a little bit more rain than usual is I can work
bit more rain than usual is I can work
bit more rain than usual is I can work around that my message will come across
around that my message will come across
around that my message will come across but this was really hard it was
but this was really hard it was
but this was really hard it was literally raining from noon the next
literally raining from noon the next
literally raining from noon the next morning which meant we had morning till
morning which meant we had morning till
morning which meant we had morning till noon to work but not only that
noon to work but not only that
noon to work but not only that everything would be swept away my idea
everything would be swept away my idea
everything would be swept away my idea would be completely swept away because
would be completely swept away because
would be completely swept away because yes okay long dart is supposed to be
yes okay long dart is supposed to be
yes okay long dart is supposed to be family ephemeral and disappear but this
family ephemeral and disappear but this
family ephemeral and disappear but this was a land art festival with an opening
was a land art festival with an opening
was a land art festival with an opening and a celebration we wanted to show what
and a celebration we wanted to show what
and a celebration we wanted to show what we had done at least for one day we
we had done at least for one day we
we had done at least for one day we wanted it to be there so how I saw
wanted it to be there so how I saw
wanted it to be there so how I saw actually my idea was not to use
actually my idea was not to use
actually my idea was not to use something stainable like boot or stone
something stainable like boot or stone
something stainable like boot or stone or something that the rain doesn’t
or something that the rain doesn’t
or something that the rain doesn’t affect which of course is your way my
affect which of course is your way my
affect which of course is your way my idea was to use the avocado dust so
idea was to use the avocado dust so
idea was to use the avocado dust so sawdust because we were in the biggest
sawdust because we were in the biggest
sawdust because we were in the biggest avocado airfield in the biggest one in
avocado airfield in the biggest one in
avocado airfield in the biggest one in the world and this avvocato sawdust is
the world and this avvocato sawdust is
the world and this avvocato sawdust is really beautiful in color it’s very
really beautiful in color it’s very
really beautiful in color it’s very bright light color it’s not yellow is
bright light color it’s not yellow is
bright light color it’s not yellow is like most trees err and in this area we
like most trees err and in this area we
like most trees err and in this area we were in a place which was unbelievably
were in a place which was unbelievably
were in a place which was unbelievably similar to Iceland I was so surprised
similar to Iceland I was so surprised
similar to Iceland I was so surprised there was this big volcano and huge
there was this big volcano and huge
there was this big volcano and huge crater this lava field and the blacks
crater this lava field and the blacks
crater this lava field and the blacks and the black sand that I love from
and the black sand that I love from
and the black sand that I love from Iceland and I was like wow this is what
Iceland and I was like wow this is what
Iceland and I was like wow this is what I’m gonna use this is where I’m gonna
I’m gonna use this is where I’m gonna
I’m gonna use this is where I’m gonna work so and I want to bring this the
work so and I want to bring this the
work so and I want to bring this the test the avocado just saw
test the avocado just saw
test the avocado just saw to the black sand and make my
to the black sand and make my
to the black sand and make my installation with this contrast black
installation with this contrast black
installation with this contrast black and white and dusty materials but this
and white and dusty materials but this
and white and dusty materials but this was wouldn’t last for a minute no way so
was wouldn’t last for a minute no way so
was wouldn’t last for a minute no way so I was like okay what am I gonna do now
I was like okay what am I gonna do now
I was like okay what am I gonna do now and I didn’t come up with any idea and I
and I didn’t come up with any idea and I
and I didn’t come up with any idea and I was very tired when I came to Mexico I
was very tired when I came to Mexico I
was very tired when I came to Mexico I had been traveling for work I’ve been
had been traveling for work I’ve been
had been traveling for work I’ve been working hard exhibiting in Japan in
working hard exhibiting in Japan in
working hard exhibiting in Japan in France in Greece I was wasted when I
France in Greece I was wasted when I
France in Greece I was wasted when I came to Mexico so when I realized that I
came to Mexico so when I realized that I
came to Mexico so when I realized that I could not do what I wanted to do I got a
could not do what I wanted to do I got a
could not do what I wanted to do I got a little bit frustrated and I was like oh
little bit frustrated and I was like oh
little bit frustrated and I was like oh my god what am I gonna do now
my god what am I gonna do now
my god what am I gonna do now then I was lying in bed and I was
then I was lying in bed and I was
then I was lying in bed and I was listening to the rain and earlier I had
listening to the rain and earlier I had
listening to the rain and earlier I had been thinking this is it just have to go
been thinking this is it just have to go
been thinking this is it just have to go to the director and tell him nothing is
to the director and tell him nothing is
to the director and tell him nothing is gonna happen you’re not gonna do it he
gonna happen you’re not gonna do it he
gonna happen you’re not gonna do it he should send me back home
should send me back home
should send me back home but I didn’t feel right do it
but I didn’t feel right do it
but I didn’t feel right do it it was strange some peas there and maybe
it was strange some peas there and maybe
it was strange some peas there and maybe it was a difficult step so I didn’t go
it was a difficult step so I didn’t go
it was a difficult step so I didn’t go and talk to him yet and I was lying in
and talk to him yet and I was lying in
and talk to him yet and I was lying in the bed and I was listening to this
the bed and I was listening to this
the bed and I was listening to this heart train this unbelievable rain on
heart train this unbelievable rain on
heart train this unbelievable rain on the Hat of my of my on the roof of my
the Hat of my of my on the roof of my
the Hat of my of my on the roof of my hut it was like really it was like 12
hut it was like really it was like 12
hut it was like really it was like 12 men it’s one with one hammer in each
men it’s one with one hammer in each
men it’s one with one hammer in each hand banging on the roof of my Hut I was
hand banging on the roof of my Hut I was
hand banging on the roof of my Hut I was like this is unbelievable and I thought
like this is unbelievable and I thought
like this is unbelievable and I thought okay this is this block this is this
okay this is this block this is this
okay this is this block this is this famous block that artists talk about I
famous block that artists talk about I
famous block that artists talk about I had never experienced this before not to
had never experienced this before not to
had never experienced this before not to be able to come up with an idea what
be able to come up with an idea what
be able to come up with an idea what what am I gonna do it not possible so
what am I gonna do it not possible so
what am I gonna do it not possible so that’s me that’s my turn took up to be
that’s me that’s my turn took up to be
that’s me that’s my turn took up to be there and I’m just gonna go to Milan
there and I’m just gonna go to Milan
there and I’m just gonna go to Milan tell the director then I meditated a
tell the director then I meditated a
tell the director then I meditated a little bit and then I said literally to
little bit and then I said literally to
little bit and then I said literally to myself Maria don’t work against the
myself Maria don’t work against the
myself Maria don’t work against the elements work with the elements and
elements work with the elements and
elements work with the elements and amazingly
amazingly
amazingly within 30 seconds I had this idea it was
within 30 seconds I had this idea it was
within 30 seconds I had this idea it was there everything was there my concept
there everything was there my concept
there everything was there my concept was there my element was there
was there my element was there
was there my element was there everything was there I went out next day
everything was there I went out next day
everything was there I went out next day found academic people found the pots
found academic people found the pots
found academic people found the pots they were making bought about 300 pots
they were making bought about 300 pots
they were making bought about 300 pots of course I couldn’t buy everything at
of course I couldn’t buy everything at
of course I couldn’t buy everything at once because they didn’t have so many I
once because they didn’t have so many I
once because they didn’t have so many I had to go too many people they were
had to go too many people they were
had to go too many people they were flabbergasted like who’s this crazy lady
flabbergasted like who’s this crazy lady
flabbergasted like who’s this crazy lady what is she doing I took them I broke
what is she doing I took them I broke
what is she doing I took them I broke off the handles I broke off the ears I
off the handles I broke off the ears I
off the handles I broke off the ears I painted them with silver next day after
painted them with silver next day after
painted them with silver next day after later of course I had them driven down
later of course I had them driven down
later of course I had them driven down for me delivered to the sand field which
for me delivered to the sand field which
for me delivered to the sand field which I had prepared dug them into the earth
I had prepared dug them into the earth
I had prepared dug them into the earth poured water into them and that was it
poured water into them and that was it
poured water into them and that was it we had it when it was raining we had
we had it when it was raining we had
we had it when it was raining we had reports when the Sun was shining which
reports when the Sun was shining which
reports when the Sun was shining which was very strong such Sun when it was
was very strong such Sun when it was
was very strong such Sun when it was running
running
running we had the reflection of the water and
we had the reflection of the water and
we had the reflection of the water and the silver everything was there circle
the silver everything was there circle
the silver everything was there circle of life
of life
of life infinity water and Miriah was really
infinity water and Miriah was really
infinity water and Miriah was really happy but I had surrendered I really
happy but I had surrendered I really
happy but I had surrendered I really surrendered I almost gave up
surrendered I almost gave up
surrendered I almost gave up that’s it Ruth but I didn’t because I
that’s it Ruth but I didn’t because I
that’s it Ruth but I didn’t because I didn’t go I didn’t dare to go to the
didn’t go I didn’t dare to go to the
didn’t go I didn’t dare to go to the director and say I was done I’m from
director and say I was done I’m from
director and say I was done I’m from Iceland like Iceland a lot of ice snow
Iceland like Iceland a lot of ice snow
Iceland like Iceland a lot of ice snow and water which has influenced my art a
and water which has influenced my art a
and water which has influenced my art a lot as you can see my art is all about
lot as you can see my art is all about
lot as you can see my art is all about flow and circle of life and infinity I
flow and circle of life and infinity I
flow and circle of life and infinity I use water literally and metaphorically I
use water literally and metaphorically I
use water literally and metaphorically I constantly paint carving stones or weave
constantly paint carving stones or weave
constantly paint carving stones or weave drops and ripples to talk about water
drops and ripples to talk about water
drops and ripples to talk about water water is the most important element on
water is the most important element on
water is the most important element on earth water is also the strongest
earth water is also the strongest
earth water is also the strongest element on earth as we know from the
element on earth as we know from the
element on earth as we know from the saying the drop holds stone not by force
saying the drop holds stone not by force
saying the drop holds stone not by force but by continuously tripping there is no
but by continuously tripping there is no
but by continuously tripping there is no life and there is no death without water
life and there is no death without water
life and there is no death without water there is no beginning and there is no
there is no beginning and there is no
there is no beginning and there is no end without water water is everything
end without water water is everything
end without water water is everything there is nothing without water at young
there is nothing without water at young
there is nothing without water at young age I already realized how precious
age I already realized how precious
age I already realized how precious water was that water is kind of the new
water was that water is kind of the new
water was that water is kind of the new oil the United Nations may have
oil the United Nations may have
oil the United Nations may have estimated that in 2050 over 2 billion
estimated that in 2050 over 2 billion
estimated that in 2050 over 2 billion people will be with out access to clean
people will be with out access to clean
people will be with out access to clean water in 48 countries companies monetize
water in 48 countries companies monetize
water in 48 countries companies monetize water it is a human human rights of
water it is a human human rights of
water it is a human human rights of everyone to have access to water
there is nothing without water water has
there is nothing without water water has no boundaries
no boundaries
no boundaries water is circles in the universe water
water is circles in the universe water
water is circles in the universe water is the beginning and the end of
is the beginning and the end of
is the beginning and the end of everything
everything
everything water is everything talking about
water is everything talking about
water is everything talking about precious things my precious daughter
precious things my precious daughter
precious things my precious daughter Astra came running home from school
Astra came running home from school
Astra came running home from school again yelling again mama mama mama the
again yelling again mama mama mama the
again yelling again mama mama mama the kids is good let’s say we have the
kids is good let’s say we have the
kids is good let’s say we have the coolest house can we make a party here
coolest house can we make a party here
coolest house can we make a party here things change
things change
things change I guess maybe our children they don’t
I guess maybe our children they don’t
I guess maybe our children they don’t get satisfaction from the same from the
get satisfaction from the same from the
get satisfaction from the same from the parent satisfaction they can be proud of
parent satisfaction they can be proud of
parent satisfaction they can be proud of us they can be happy with us but they
us they can be happy with us but they
us they can be happy with us but they don’t get the same satisfaction until
don’t get the same satisfaction until
don’t get the same satisfaction until the feeling ripples down to them you see
the feeling ripples down to them you see
the feeling ripples down to them you see Astra now I was at a student
Astra now I was at a student
Astra now I was at a student a great poet dreaming of becoming a
a great poet dreaming of becoming a
a great poet dreaming of becoming a novelist see might struggle between
novelist see might struggle between
novelist see might struggle between taking the big step of becoming an
taking the big step of becoming an
taking the big step of becoming an artist as a real writer or going for a
artist as a real writer or going for a
artist as a real writer or going for a secure stop job C will have to surrender
secure stop job C will have to surrender
secure stop job C will have to surrender my only dream for her is that she stays
my only dream for her is that she stays
my only dream for her is that she stays my best friend forever I will have to
my best friend forever I will have to
my best friend forever I will have to surrender trust and let go knowing that
surrender trust and let go knowing that
surrender trust and let go knowing that she will find her right flow her own
she will find her right flow her own
she will find her right flow her own flow
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