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be yourself just be yourself
be yourself just be yourself hashtag be yourself I see this every day
hashtag be yourself I see this every day
hashtag be yourself I see this every day all over the internet and social media
all over the internet and social media
all over the internet and social media lots of people say it you may may have
lots of people say it you may may have
lots of people say it you may may have even said it yourself at some point it’s
even said it yourself at some point it’s
even said it yourself at some point it’s a popular phrase but it can be a bit
a popular phrase but it can be a bit
a popular phrase but it can be a bit over simplistic and trite and for some
over simplistic and trite and for some
over simplistic and trite and for some people instead of helping them to feel
people instead of helping them to feel
people instead of helping them to feel better the phrase be yourself actually
better the phrase be yourself actually
better the phrase be yourself actually causes a lot of anxiety how to be
causes a lot of anxiety how to be
causes a lot of anxiety how to be yourself is not always clear and not
yourself is not always clear and not
yourself is not always clear and not always easy and some people really don’t
always easy and some people really don’t
always easy and some people really don’t like themselves therefore they’re not
like themselves therefore they’re not
like themselves therefore they’re not sure they want to be themselves three
sure they want to be themselves three
sure they want to be themselves three years ago I came home from a business
years ago I came home from a business
years ago I came home from a business trip tired and jet-lagged there was a
trip tired and jet-lagged there was a
trip tired and jet-lagged there was a letter waiting for me on the kitchen
letter waiting for me on the kitchen
letter waiting for me on the kitchen table the postmark was Bradford where my
table the postmark was Bradford where my
table the postmark was Bradford where my eldest was at University as I opened
eldest was at University as I opened
eldest was at University as I opened that letter I had no idea that my life
that letter I had no idea that my life
that letter I had no idea that my life was about to change beyond all
was about to change beyond all
was about to change beyond all recognition
recognition
recognition one word jumped off the page at me
one word jumped off the page at me
one word jumped off the page at me transgender what I’d heard the word but
transgender what I’d heard the word but
transgender what I’d heard the word but I didn’t really know what it meant what
I didn’t really know what it meant what
I didn’t really know what it meant what it means is feeling like you were born
it means is feeling like you were born
it means is feeling like you were born in the wrong body or gender I didn’t
in the wrong body or gender I didn’t
in the wrong body or gender I didn’t understand what was going on I had a
understand what was going on I had a
understand what was going on I had a little girl who grew up to be a big girl
little girl who grew up to be a big girl
little girl who grew up to be a big girl who was now telling me that she was a
who was now telling me that she was a
who was now telling me that she was a boy all my dreams for how life was going
boy all my dreams for how life was going
boy all my dreams for how life was going to turn out were shattered in that
to turn out were shattered in that
to turn out were shattered in that moment the letter went on to ask us to
moment the letter went on to ask us to
moment the letter went on to ask us to refer to him by his new name and gender
refer to him by his new name and gender
refer to him by his new name and gender I didn’t want to know about this
I didn’t want to know about this
I didn’t want to know about this I couldn’t handle a big disruptive
I couldn’t handle a big disruptive
I couldn’t handle a big disruptive change in my life all I knew as my kid
change in my life all I knew as my kid
change in my life all I knew as my kid was coming home in just four days
was coming home in just four days
was coming home in just four days and I was tired and jet-lagged from my
and I was tired and jet-lagged from my
and I was tired and jet-lagged from my trip I deal with this later so my son
trip I deal with this later so my son
trip I deal with this later so my son came home we didn’t talk about it on the
came home we didn’t talk about it on the
came home we didn’t talk about it on the day he came home we didn’t talk about it
day he came home we didn’t talk about it
day he came home we didn’t talk about it the next day or the following day a week
the next day or the following day a week
the next day or the following day a week went by then two weeks and three a month
went by then two weeks and three a month
went by then two weeks and three a month two months for two full months I
two months for two full months I
two months for two full months I resisted the reality of the situation I
resisted the reality of the situation I
resisted the reality of the situation I didn’t want to talk about it or even
didn’t want to talk about it or even
didn’t want to talk about it or even think about it we cooked together ate
think about it we cooked together ate
think about it we cooked together ate dinner together washed the dishes
dinner together washed the dishes
dinner together washed the dishes together we talked about all kinds of
together we talked about all kinds of
together we talked about all kinds of other things but never that subject for
other things but never that subject for
other things but never that subject for two full months we all tiptoed around a
two full months we all tiptoed around a
two full months we all tiptoed around a pretty big elephant in the room now I
pretty big elephant in the room now I
pretty big elephant in the room now I knew exactly what I was doing I was
knew exactly what I was doing I was
knew exactly what I was doing I was hoping it would all blow over and go
hoping it would all blow over and go
hoping it would all blow over and go away I could pretend it wasn’t happening
away I could pretend it wasn’t happening
away I could pretend it wasn’t happening if I thought about it I could get myself
if I thought about it I could get myself
if I thought about it I could get myself really upset about it
really upset about it
really upset about it why had this happened what had I done to
why had this happened what had I done to
why had this happened what had I done to create it had I been a bad mother I knew
create it had I been a bad mother I knew
create it had I been a bad mother I knew I traveled a lot and worked a lot maybe
I traveled a lot and worked a lot maybe
I traveled a lot and worked a lot maybe I hadn’t been there for him we women can
I hadn’t been there for him we women can
I hadn’t been there for him we women can be really good at the guilt and blaming
be really good at the guilt and blaming
be really good at the guilt and blaming ourselves I also had a grieving process
ourselves I also had a grieving process
ourselves I also had a grieving process to go through when my husband and I had
to go through when my husband and I had
to go through when my husband and I had this news presented to us we couldn’t
this news presented to us we couldn’t
this news presented to us we couldn’t just instantly be fine with it
just instantly be fine with it
just instantly be fine with it it was a big shock it was a classic case
it was a big shock it was a classic case
it was a big shock it was a classic case of the five stages of grief and I had
of the five stages of grief and I had
of the five stages of grief and I had been alternating between denial and
been alternating between denial and
been alternating between denial and anger with a bit of depression thrown in
anger with a bit of depression thrown in
anger with a bit of depression thrown in for good measure I had definitely lost
for good measure I had definitely lost
for good measure I had definitely lost my Sparkle
my Sparkle
my Sparkle then one day I happen to read an article
then one day I happen to read an article
then one day I happen to read an article about transgender issues a strong
about transgender issues a strong
about transgender issues a strong feeling came over me and I knew I
feeling came over me and I knew I
feeling came over me and I knew I couldn’t lie to myself any longer
couldn’t lie to myself any longer
couldn’t lie to myself any longer I hadn’t been acting like the kind of
I hadn’t been acting like the kind of
I hadn’t been acting like the kind of person I wanted to be I’ve been acting
person I wanted to be I’ve been acting
person I wanted to be I’ve been acting like some horrible person somebody I
like some horrible person somebody I
like some horrible person somebody I would detest if I bumped into them in
would detest if I bumped into them in
would detest if I bumped into them in the street I call myself a thoughtful
the street I call myself a thoughtful
the street I call myself a thoughtful leader I hadn’t been acting thoughtfully
leader I hadn’t been acting thoughtfully
leader I hadn’t been acting thoughtfully at all and I couldn’t be that person any
at all and I couldn’t be that person any
at all and I couldn’t be that person any longer so I went up the stairs and
longer so I went up the stairs and
longer so I went up the stairs and opened the door to his room I stepped
opened the door to his room I stepped
opened the door to his room I stepped across all the clothes and papers on the
across all the clothes and papers on the
across all the clothes and papers on the floor maybe he was a boy i sat down on
floor maybe he was a boy i sat down on
floor maybe he was a boy i sat down on the end of his bed wake up what’s going
the end of his bed wake up what’s going
the end of his bed wake up what’s going on mum I’m sorry what for you know he
on mum I’m sorry what for you know he
on mum I’m sorry what for you know he knew he knew exactly what I was talking
knew he knew exactly what I was talking
knew he knew exactly what I was talking about and he shook his head no mom you
about and he shook his head no mom you
about and he shook his head no mom you don’t understand you don’t realize what
don’t understand you don’t realize what
don’t understand you don’t realize what some of my friends have had to go
some of my friends have had to go
some of my friends have had to go through being kicked out of the house
through being kicked out of the house
through being kicked out of the house disowned and then he said something to
disowned and then he said something to
disowned and then he said something to me he must have heard me say many times
me he must have heard me say many times
me he must have heard me say many times before he said you’re only doing the
before he said you’re only doing the
before he said you’re only doing the best you can with the resources you have
best you can with the resources you have
best you can with the resources you have Wow only doing the best I can with the
Wow only doing the best I can with the
Wow only doing the best I can with the resources I have I felt so free and
resources I have I felt so free and
resources I have I felt so free and light-hearted I gave him a big hug and I
light-hearted I gave him a big hug and I
light-hearted I gave him a big hug and I went downstairs I began to think about
went downstairs I began to think about
went downstairs I began to think about this transition as they call it in the
this transition as they call it in the
this transition as they call it in the transgender community I began to think
transgender community I began to think
transgender community I began to think about what it meant to our family for
about what it meant to our family for
about what it meant to our family for our son who’d been born in a body that
our son who’d been born in a body that
our son who’d been born in a body that just didn’t feel right
just didn’t feel right
just didn’t feel right it meant fully owning who he was all
it meant fully owning who he was all
it meant fully owning who he was all along at his core for us yes it meant
along at his core for us yes it meant
along at his core for us yes it meant using a new name and gender but still
using a new name and gender but still
using a new name and gender but still appreciating he was the same person
appreciating he was the same person
appreciating he was the same person inside I decided to see it as a chance
inside I decided to see it as a chance
inside I decided to see it as a chance to make my own transition to to become a
to make my own transition to to become a
to make my own transition to to become a better person
better person
better person a more tolerant person a person who
a more tolerant person a person who
a more tolerant person a person who speaks up for and acts in the interest
speaks up for and acts in the interest
speaks up for and acts in the interest of the LGBT community and many other
of the LGBT community and many other
of the LGBT community and many other victims of discrimination transgender
victims of discrimination transgender
victims of discrimination transgender kids and adults have been in the news a
kids and adults have been in the news a
kids and adults have been in the news a lot lately I’m very happy about all the
lot lately I’m very happy about all the
lot lately I’m very happy about all the progress and support but the haters have
progress and support but the haters have
progress and support but the haters have also come out of the closet saying
also come out of the closet saying
also come out of the closet saying nothing doing nothing that wasn’t an
nothing doing nothing that wasn’t an
nothing doing nothing that wasn’t an option for me anymore
option for me anymore
option for me anymore that would be like openly attacking my
that would be like openly attacking my
that would be like openly attacking my own son and all the other brave and
own son and all the other brave and
own son and all the other brave and beautiful individuals carving out their
beautiful individuals carving out their
beautiful individuals carving out their own paths in the face of such hatred and
own paths in the face of such hatred and
own paths in the face of such hatred and adversity I chose to see it differently
adversity I chose to see it differently
adversity I chose to see it differently I chose to see our situation as an
I chose to see our situation as an
I chose to see our situation as an opportunity and a blessing I chose to do
opportunity and a blessing I chose to do
opportunity and a blessing I chose to do the right thing which I thought was the
the right thing which I thought was the
the right thing which I thought was the hard thing but actually it wasn’t that
hard thing but actually it wasn’t that
hard thing but actually it wasn’t that hard you see we always have a choice
hard you see we always have a choice
hard you see we always have a choice unconditional love and acceptance or
unconditional love and acceptance or
unconditional love and acceptance or change we either
change we either
change we either unconditionally love and accept
unconditionally love and accept
unconditionally love and accept ourselves or those parts of ourselves or
ourselves or those parts of ourselves or
ourselves or those parts of ourselves or our situation or we change something we
our situation or we change something we
our situation or we change something we just mustn’t stay stuck and unhappy
just mustn’t stay stuck and unhappy
just mustn’t stay stuck and unhappy think about a physical aspect of
think about a physical aspect of
think about a physical aspect of yourself that you don’t really like it
yourself that you don’t really like it
yourself that you don’t really like it could be anything you’re not going to
could be anything you’re not going to
could be anything you’re not going to say it out loud got it in your mind okay
say it out loud got it in your mind okay
say it out loud got it in your mind okay well with the exception of your height
well with the exception of your height
well with the exception of your height or maybe the size of your feet I think
or maybe the size of your feet I think
or maybe the size of your feet I think you’d agree that you could change just
you’d agree that you could change just
you’d agree that you could change just about anything else if you really wanted
about anything else if you really wanted
about anything else if you really wanted to your hair color hair style we do it
to your hair color hair style we do it
to your hair color hair style we do it all the time I color got these fancy
all the time I color got these fancy
all the time I color got these fancy contact lenses nowadays how about your
contact lenses nowadays how about your
contact lenses nowadays how about your weight I’m an expert in this one having
weight I’m an expert in this one having
weight I’m an expert in this one having lost 100 pounds
lost 100 pounds
lost 100 pounds it was the same 20 pounds five times but
it was the same 20 pounds five times but
it was the same 20 pounds five times but still all right thinking about that
still all right thinking about that
still all right thinking about that aspect of yourself if you had to choose
aspect of yourself if you had to choose
aspect of yourself if you had to choose between unconditional love and
between unconditional love and
between unconditional love and acceptance or chain
acceptance or chain
acceptance or chain which would you choose and if it’s
which would you choose and if it’s
which would you choose and if it’s something that you really can’t change
something that you really can’t change
something that you really can’t change like your height
like your height
like your height I suggest you choose unconditional love
I suggest you choose unconditional love
I suggest you choose unconditional love and acceptance
and acceptance
and acceptance now think about an aspect of your
now think about an aspect of your
now think about an aspect of your character personality or a behavior
character personality or a behavior
character personality or a behavior viewers that you don’t really like could
viewers that you don’t really like could
viewers that you don’t really like could you change it could you become more
you change it could you become more
you change it could you become more patient less nervous more generous less
patient less nervous more generous less
patient less nervous more generous less angry again if you had to choose between
angry again if you had to choose between
angry again if you had to choose between unconditional love and acceptance or
unconditional love and acceptance or
unconditional love and acceptance or change which would you choose
thinking about these things make some
thinking about these things make some people feel defensive or upset some
people feel defensive or upset some
people feel defensive or upset some people even make excuses for their
people even make excuses for their
people even make excuses for their personality defects they say to me
personality defects they say to me
personality defects they say to me that’s just the way I am
that’s just the way I am
that’s just the way I am I’ve always been short-tempered I’ve
I’ve always been short-tempered I’ve
I’ve always been short-tempered I’ve never been very organized this is
never been very organized this is
never been very organized this is resistance plain and simple we know it’s
resistance plain and simple we know it’s
resistance plain and simple we know it’s going to be hard or painful or scary to
going to be hard or painful or scary to
going to be hard or painful or scary to make a change and we think it’s easier
make a change and we think it’s easier
make a change and we think it’s easier not to change but there may come a time
not to change but there may come a time
not to change but there may come a time when you look at yourself and say enough
when you look at yourself and say enough
when you look at yourself and say enough there may come a time when you can’t lie
there may come a time when you can’t lie
there may come a time when you can’t lie to yourself and others any longer there
to yourself and others any longer there
to yourself and others any longer there may come a time when it’s actually
may come a time when it’s actually
may come a time when it’s actually easier to make the change than have
easier to make the change than have
easier to make the change than have things stay as they are now that time
things stay as they are now that time
things stay as they are now that time might be right now it might be tomorrow
might be right now it might be tomorrow
might be right now it might be tomorrow might be next week it might be when
might be next week it might be when
might be next week it might be when something comes along and shakes up your
something comes along and shakes up your
something comes along and shakes up your world like what happened to me or it
world like what happened to me or it
world like what happened to me or it could be every single conscious moment
could be every single conscious moment
could be every single conscious moment of every day becoming aware is what we
of every day becoming aware is what we
of every day becoming aware is what we call mindfulness these days living
call mindfulness these days living
call mindfulness these days living consciously or mindfully means staying
consciously or mindfully means staying
consciously or mindfully means staying aware and choosing to improve ourselves
aware and choosing to improve ourselves
aware and choosing to improve ourselves or our situation all the time when
or our situation all the time when
or our situation all the time when someone close to you makes a change that
someone close to you makes a change that
someone close to you makes a change that affects you too and makes you feel angry
affects you too and makes you feel angry
affects you too and makes you feel angry or fearful you can use that anger or
or fearful you can use that anger or
or fearful you can use that anger or fear as a catalyst
fear as a catalyst
fear as a catalyst for change if your son or daughter
for change if your son or daughter
for change if your son or daughter father or mother sister or brother is
father or mother sister or brother is
father or mother sister or brother is going through their own battle or change
going through their own battle or change
going through their own battle or change it’s up to you how you deal with it and
it’s up to you how you deal with it and
it’s up to you how you deal with it and how fast they may tell you they’re gay
how fast they may tell you they’re gay
how fast they may tell you they’re gay or trans or struggling with debt or
or trans or struggling with debt or
or trans or struggling with debt or getting divorced they may have a
getting divorced they may have a
getting divorced they may have a life-threatening illness and addiction
life-threatening illness and addiction
life-threatening illness and addiction they may be depressed self-harming when
they may be depressed self-harming when
they may be depressed self-harming when something happens in your life that you
something happens in your life that you
something happens in your life that you didn’t expect maybe didn’t want you can
didn’t expect maybe didn’t want you can
didn’t expect maybe didn’t want you can stick your head in the sand like I did
stick your head in the sand like I did
stick your head in the sand like I did at first or you can choose to change
at first or you can choose to change
at first or you can choose to change something including yourself
something including yourself
something including yourself if someone you know is going through
if someone you know is going through
if someone you know is going through something ask yourself could I do
something ask yourself could I do
something ask yourself could I do something to change this what could I do
something to change this what could I do
something to change this what could I do what if I just changed my attitude about
what if I just changed my attitude about
what if I just changed my attitude about it ask yourself if you could choose
it ask yourself if you could choose
it ask yourself if you could choose unconditional love and acceptance so
unconditional love and acceptance so
unconditional love and acceptance so that you could move forward now I’m not
that you could move forward now I’m not
that you could move forward now I’m not perfect I still don’t always get this
perfect I still don’t always get this
perfect I still don’t always get this right and I’m still learning and
right and I’m still learning and
right and I’m still learning and changing for example the other day I
changing for example the other day I
changing for example the other day I learned that we shouldn’t say we’re
learned that we shouldn’t say we’re
learned that we shouldn’t say we’re being tolerant did you know that means
being tolerant did you know that means
being tolerant did you know that means we’re tolerating a person or a situation
we’re tolerating a person or a situation
we’re tolerating a person or a situation I learned that and I learned about the
I learned that and I learned about the
I learned that and I learned about the two options that I’ve been talking about
two options that I’ve been talking about
two options that I’ve been talking about by openly planning and discussing this
by openly planning and discussing this
by openly planning and discussing this TEDx talk with my amazing son he’s a
TEDx talk with my amazing son he’s a
TEDx talk with my amazing son he’s a really talented communicator and a very
really talented communicator and a very
really talented communicator and a very good friend to many including me but
good friend to many including me but
good friend to many including me but mostly I learned that we’re not always
mostly I learned that we’re not always
mostly I learned that we’re not always doing the best we can with the resources
doing the best we can with the resources
doing the best we can with the resources we have we’re not we could usually do
we have we’re not we could usually do
we have we’re not we could usually do better but that involves changing
better but that involves changing
better but that involves changing ourselves in my case I had done a lot of
ourselves in my case I had done a lot of
ourselves in my case I had done a lot of studying attended a lot of seminars read
studying attended a lot of seminars read
studying attended a lot of seminars read a lot of personal development books and
a lot of personal development books and
a lot of personal development books and yet I still wasn’t doing what I knew I
yet I still wasn’t doing what I knew I
yet I still wasn’t doing what I knew I could and should be doing this is tough
could and should be doing this is tough
could and should be doing this is tough it’s not easy looking in the mirror and
it’s not easy looking in the mirror and
it’s not easy looking in the mirror and admitting that we’re not doing our best
admitting that we’re not doing our best
admitting that we’re not doing our best but that’s exactly where we need to
but that’s exactly where we need to
but that’s exactly where we need to start these days I constantly ask myself
start these days I constantly ask myself
start these days I constantly ask myself am i doing my best right now am I really
am i doing my best right now am I really
am i doing my best right now am I really doing my best
doing my best
doing my best or could I do more could I do better is
or could I do more could I do better is
or could I do more could I do better is it time to choose unconditional love and
it time to choose unconditional love and
it time to choose unconditional love and acceptance or is it time to change
acceptance or is it time to change
acceptance or is it time to change something and sometimes we need to
something and sometimes we need to
something and sometimes we need to change ourselves to be ourselves
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