[Music] today I’m gonna be talking about what I
today I’m gonna be talking about what I
today I’m gonna be talking about what I think when I hear the word reboot I
think when I hear the word reboot I
think when I hear the word reboot I recently went on a little jaunt with a
recently went on a little jaunt with a
recently went on a little jaunt with a friend of mine valishia hey girl
friend of mine valishia hey girl
friend of mine valishia hey girl and we stumbled upon we were supposed to
and we stumbled upon we were supposed to
and we stumbled upon we were supposed to have a work meeting right and our
have a work meeting right and our
have a work meeting right and our laptops were out we were doing the thing
laptops were out we were doing the thing
laptops were out we were doing the thing but recently I’ve started taking up
but recently I’ve started taking up
but recently I’ve started taking up learning about Turo tarot cards really
learning about Turo tarot cards really
learning about Turo tarot cards really trying to get connected with my divinity
trying to get connected with my divinity
trying to get connected with my divinity with my spirituality and Tarot has has
with my spirituality and Tarot has has
with my spirituality and Tarot has has worked as a medium for me to visualize
worked as a medium for me to visualize
worked as a medium for me to visualize kind of what I’m already thinking and
kind of what I’m already thinking and
kind of what I’m already thinking and strengthen my intuition by seeing it
strengthen my intuition by seeing it
strengthen my intuition by seeing it physically because I I need I need to
physically because I I need I need to
physically because I I need I need to see it I need to feel the thing that’s
see it I need to feel the thing that’s
see it I need to feel the thing that’s how I learn but anyways so we were
how I learn but anyways so we were
how I learn but anyways so we were playing with some cards and playing I
playing with some cards and playing I
playing with some cards and playing I was reading some cards and and we kept
was reading some cards and and we kept
was reading some cards and and we kept getting these really really really deep
getting these really really really deep
getting these really really really deep and and heavy heavy messages there were
and and heavy heavy messages there were
and and heavy heavy messages there were there was a lot of energy that was
there was a lot of energy that was
there was a lot of energy that was passing through us and around us and to
passing through us and around us and to
passing through us and around us and to the point that we we couldn’t ignore it
the point that we we couldn’t ignore it
the point that we we couldn’t ignore it almost everything seemed to be a sign
almost everything seemed to be a sign
almost everything seemed to be a sign like it is but even more more
like it is but even more more
like it is but even more more aggressively so at that point so we were
aggressively so at that point so we were
aggressively so at that point so we were like y’all maybe we should chill on this
like y’all maybe we should chill on this
like y’all maybe we should chill on this work thing and go for a walk so so we
work thing and go for a walk so so we
work thing and go for a walk so so we went for a walk and we visited this
went for a walk and we visited this
went for a walk and we visited this little store it’s hidden kind of
little store it’s hidden kind of
little store it’s hidden kind of off-white where the fairies bliss anyone
off-white where the fairies bliss anyone
off-white where the fairies bliss anyone yeah right I was like she’s like we’re
yeah right I was like she’s like we’re
yeah right I was like she’s like we’re gonna go to where the fairies live Oh
okay yeah so my home let’s do that and
okay yeah so my home let’s do that and so we went and there was we were
so we went and there was we were
so we went and there was we were speaking about community and building
speaking about community and building
speaking about community and building community and and how we somehow were
community and and how we somehow were
community and and how we somehow were drawn to each other and and what that
drawn to each other and and what that
drawn to each other and and what that feeling was trying to unpack it and she
feeling was trying to unpack it and she
feeling was trying to unpack it and she said something along the lines of in
said something along the lines of in
said something along the lines of in order to remember we have to remember
order to remember we have to remember
order to remember we have to remember not like girl would that me
not like girl would that me
not like girl would that me I’m deeper like and so but she spoke of
I’m deeper like and so but she spoke of
I’m deeper like and so but she spoke of of kind of how and what I took from it
of kind of how and what I took from it
of kind of how and what I took from it was the literal trashcan that was 2016
was the literal trashcan that was 2016
was the literal trashcan that was 2016 kind of how it felt like like a
kind of how it felt like like a
kind of how it felt like like a dismemberment everything was being
dismemberment everything was being
dismemberment everything was being ripped from you somehow are these forces
ripped from you somehow are these forces
ripped from you somehow are these forces that that kept making things happen
that that kept making things happen
that that kept making things happen without you kind of being involved or
without you kind of being involved or
without you kind of being involved or having control I felt really powerless
having control I felt really powerless
having control I felt really powerless in 2016 I felt like a lot of the stories
in 2016 I felt like a lot of the stories
in 2016 I felt like a lot of the stories I was being told a lot of the truths
I was being told a lot of the truths
I was being told a lot of the truths that were being uprooted that I knew in
that were being uprooted that I knew in
that were being uprooted that I knew in my gut were now just being thrown in my
my gut were now just being thrown in my
my gut were now just being thrown in my face and and so that did feel like a bit
face and and so that did feel like a bit
face and and so that did feel like a bit of a dismemberment and so when we were
of a dismemberment and so when we were
of a dismemberment and so when we were thinking about the different steps that
thinking about the different steps that
thinking about the different steps that it takes to truly build family to truly
it takes to truly build family to truly
it takes to truly build family to truly build community I kind of thought about
build community I kind of thought about
build community I kind of thought about it I had to dissect it into into three
it I had to dissect it into into three
it I had to dissect it into into three parts with all their little categories
parts with all their little categories
parts with all their little categories within it but remembering so remembering
within it but remembering so remembering
within it but remembering so remembering in the true sense of that word
in the true sense of that word
in the true sense of that word remembering where we’ve been remembering
remembering where we’ve been remembering
remembering where we’ve been remembering where we’ve come from remembering our
where we’ve come from remembering our
where we’ve come from remembering our history remembering what it has taken
history remembering what it has taken
history remembering what it has taken for us to foster the beliefs that we
for us to foster the beliefs that we
for us to foster the beliefs that we have and to foster the the behaviors
have and to foster the the behaviors
have and to foster the the behaviors that we have how did we get here I think
that we have how did we get here I think
that we have how did we get here I think was a was an overwhelming question
was a was an overwhelming question
was a was an overwhelming question you know December 2016 like what even
you know December 2016 like what even
you know December 2016 like what even though a lot of us knew that those
though a lot of us knew that those
though a lot of us knew that those realities were were there and were
realities were were there and were
realities were were there and were festering but the rug was just
festering but the rug was just
festering but the rug was just kind of ripped right from under us and
kind of ripped right from under us and
kind of ripped right from under us and so I believe that that everything is is
so I believe that that everything is is
so I believe that that everything is is a blessing in disguise a lesson that we
a blessing in disguise a lesson that we
a blessing in disguise a lesson that we can truly truly pull the good and the
can truly truly pull the good and the
can truly truly pull the good and the beauty out of anything if we if we look
beauty out of anything if we if we look
beauty out of anything if we if we look hard enough and so in our remembering I
hard enough and so in our remembering I
hard enough and so in our remembering I do a lot of work now thanks to the city
do a lot of work now thanks to the city
do a lot of work now thanks to the city and Edmonton Poetry Festival and this
and Edmonton Poetry Festival and this
and Edmonton Poetry Festival and this youth poet laureate position with youth
youth poet laureate position with youth
youth poet laureate position with youth in schools in English classes creative
in schools in English classes creative
in schools in English classes creative writing classes and a lot of the
writing classes and a lot of the
writing classes and a lot of the conversations that I’m trying to have
conversations that I’m trying to have
conversations that I’m trying to have now with these younger folks is its how
now with these younger folks is its how
now with these younger folks is its how do we how did we get here
do we how did we get here
do we how did we get here you may be only 15 years old or 14 years
you may be only 15 years old or 14 years
you may be only 15 years old or 14 years old or 12 but you’ve lived you’ve seen
old or 12 but you’ve lived you’ve seen
old or 12 but you’ve lived you’ve seen some stuff come let’s talk about it and
some stuff come let’s talk about it and
some stuff come let’s talk about it and let’s talk about why the things that
let’s talk about why the things that
let’s talk about why the things that have happened to you have created the
have happened to you have created the
have happened to you have created the feelings in you that you have about a
feelings in you that you have about a
feelings in you that you have about a certain people or about an idea or about
certain people or about an idea or about
certain people or about an idea or about a religion or a color or a type of music
a religion or a color or a type of music
a religion or a color or a type of music how did we get here and so I know that
how did we get here and so I know that
how did we get here and so I know that in that in that work we find some really
in that in that work we find some really
in that in that work we find some really really ugly ugly ugly things we find
really ugly ugly ugly things we find
really ugly ugly ugly things we find that a lot of our perfect-perfect nature
that a lot of our perfect-perfect nature
that a lot of our perfect-perfect nature has been violated that that these
has been violated that that these
has been violated that that these systems and structures that have been
systems and structures that have been
systems and structures that have been imposed on us we didn’t really also much
imposed on us we didn’t really also much
imposed on us we didn’t really also much ask for but somehow because of where
ask for but somehow because of where
ask for but somehow because of where we’ve grown up and and an evolution and
we’ve grown up and and an evolution and
we’ve grown up and and an evolution and that this is where this is how this is
that this is where this is how this is
that this is where this is how this is how we’ve gotten here so being able to
how we’ve gotten here so being able to
how we’ve gotten here so being able to accept that and and not judge it and
accept that and and not judge it and
accept that and and not judge it and understand it fully learn the system to
understand it fully learn the system to
understand it fully learn the system to move the system and screw the system but
move the system and screw the system but
move the system and screw the system but it’s knowing first right acknowledgement
it’s knowing first right acknowledgement
it’s knowing first right acknowledgement is the is the first step to change and
is the is the first step to change and
is the is the first step to change and to healing right and then so we go on to
to healing right and then so we go on to
to healing right and then so we go on to the remembering so the healing process
the remembering so the healing process
the remembering so the healing process the pulling back and the reclaiming of
the pulling back and the reclaiming of
the pulling back and the reclaiming of all the things that we had held dear but
all the things that we had held dear but
all the things that we had held dear but we’re now taken from us in order for
we’re now taken from us in order for
we’re now taken from us in order for them to change so the thing has been
them to change so the thing has been
them to change so the thing has been molded and changed and we know that
molded and changed and we know that
molded and changed and we know that there’s an ugly thing in there and that
there’s an ugly thing in there and that
there’s an ugly thing in there and that we don’t identify and we don’t identify
we don’t identify and we don’t identify
we don’t identify and we don’t identify with and we don’t believe it so now how
with and we don’t believe it so now how
with and we don’t believe it so now how do we heal it how do we get it out
do we heal it how do we get it out
do we heal it how do we get it out and how how do we how do we find the
and how how do we how do we find the
and how how do we how do we find the truth in it or find the truth elsewhere
truth in it or find the truth elsewhere
truth in it or find the truth elsewhere and and replace that and I think that’s
and and replace that and I think that’s
and and replace that and I think that’s where the conversations come in that’s
where the conversations come in that’s
where the conversations come in that’s where the conversations with people that
where the conversations with people that
where the conversations with people that you win really all so much wanna have
you win really all so much wanna have
you win really all so much wanna have not read my lips sorry you Nicole I’ve
not read my lips sorry you Nicole I’ve
not read my lips sorry you Nicole I’ve been trying to have more conversations
been trying to have more conversations
been trying to have more conversations and put myself in places that make me
and put myself in places that make me
and put myself in places that make me feel uncomfortable not unsafe but
feel uncomfortable not unsafe but
feel uncomfortable not unsafe but uncomfortable so that I can stretch and
uncomfortable so that I can stretch and
uncomfortable so that I can stretch and I can move and I can mold myself into
I can move and I can mold myself into
I can move and I can mold myself into truly what I want to be and so having
truly what I want to be and so having
truly what I want to be and so having conversation figuring out where those
conversation figuring out where those
conversation figuring out where those ugly things are so that we can heal them
ugly things are so that we can heal them
ugly things are so that we can heal them and seeking out like-minded individuals
and seeking out like-minded individuals
and seeking out like-minded individuals who are working and who want to heal and
who are working and who want to heal and
who are working and who want to heal and who want to change because change is
who want to change because change is
who want to change because change is uncomfortable but it’s kind of
uncomfortable but it’s kind of
uncomfortable but it’s kind of inevitable at this point and I think the
inevitable at this point and I think the
inevitable at this point and I think the the you know spirits not subtle
the you know spirits not subtle
the you know spirits not subtle God is not subtle whatever source you
God is not subtle whatever source you
God is not subtle whatever source you believe in it has not been subtle over
believe in it has not been subtle over
believe in it has not been subtle over the last year and so it’s up to us to
the last year and so it’s up to us to
the last year and so it’s up to us to decide which side of history we want to
decide which side of history we want to
decide which side of history we want to be on which side of change and humanity
be on which side of change and humanity
be on which side of change and humanity we want to be on in which side of love
we want to be on in which side of love
we want to be on in which side of love we want to be on right because holding
we want to be on right because holding
we want to be on right because holding hatred for no reason like that that it
hatred for no reason like that that it
hatred for no reason like that that it manifests in your body you know it makes
manifests in your body you know it makes
manifests in your body you know it makes you sick
you sick
you sick literally and and we don’t have time for
literally and and we don’t have time for
literally and and we don’t have time for that anymore because there’s just as
that anymore because there’s just as
that anymore because there’s just as much darkness as there’s been there’s
much darkness as there’s been there’s
much darkness as there’s been there’s also been incredible incredible bursts
also been incredible incredible bursts
also been incredible incredible bursts of light that have been coming through a
of light that have been coming through a
of light that have been coming through a lot of people I’ve been hearing oh man
lot of people I’ve been hearing oh man
lot of people I’ve been hearing oh man the phrase you know I’ve I’ve
the phrase you know I’ve I’ve
the phrase you know I’ve I’ve I have belief in humanity again you know
I have belief in humanity again you know
I have belief in humanity again you know whenever you see those videos on on the
whenever you see those videos on on the
whenever you see those videos on on the Internet of of a gift or kindness has
Internet of of a gift or kindness has
Internet of of a gift or kindness has been shown someone saved someone’s life
been shown someone saved someone’s life
been shown someone saved someone’s life those things it’s it’s real you know
those things it’s it’s real you know
those things it’s it’s real you know that serotonin is real that we feel when
that serotonin is real that we feel when
that serotonin is real that we feel when even just by just by looking at an act
even just by just by looking at an act
even just by just by looking at an act of kindness or just by witnessing love
of kindness or just by witnessing love
of kindness or just by witnessing love and so putting yourself in spaces and
and so putting yourself in spaces and
and so putting yourself in spaces and around people who would drive you home
around people who would drive you home
around people who would drive you home without you asking who has come to your
without you asking who has come to your
without you asking who has come to your house in and bring you soup just because
house in and bring you soup just because
house in and bring you soup just because you put like a sick emoji on your
you put like a sick emoji on your
you put like a sick emoji on your Twitter but
Twitter but
Twitter but like people that will will will step
like people that will will will step
like people that will will will step outside themselves willingly to lift you
outside themselves willingly to lift you
outside themselves willingly to lift you and then then doing it back is it’s so
and then then doing it back is it’s so
and then then doing it back is it’s so easy right karma works so beautifully in
easy right karma works so beautifully in
easy right karma works so beautifully in that way and that’s how family is built
that way and that’s how family is built
that way and that’s how family is built when I’m when I talk to these young
when I’m when I talk to these young
when I’m when I talk to these young people about what they what they believe
people about what they what they believe
people about what they what they believe family to be is this one student was
family to be is this one student was
family to be is this one student was like when everyone knows your name right
like when everyone knows your name right
like when everyone knows your name right and everyone knows where you’ve been and
and everyone knows where you’ve been and
and everyone knows where you’ve been and what you what you do on the weekends and
what you what you do on the weekends and
what you what you do on the weekends and and a community what does it feel like
and a community what does it feel like
and a community what does it feel like when when we say community you know
when when we say community you know
when when we say community you know their schools the community for where
their schools the community for where
their schools the community for where where the where the spaces where people
where the where the spaces where people
where the where the spaces where people can be themselves in those in those
can be themselves in those in those
can be themselves in those in those spaces it’s really important to find
spaces it’s really important to find
spaces it’s really important to find that because then we can rebuild right
that because then we can rebuild right
that because then we can rebuild right then we can work together and and share
then we can work together and and share
then we can work together and and share our strengths I’ve been talking a lot
our strengths I’ve been talking a lot
our strengths I’ve been talking a lot about what do you have to offer the
about what do you have to offer the
about what do you have to offer the revolution what specific skills and
revolution what specific skills and
revolution what specific skills and magic
magic
magic do you have cuz we all got the magic we
do you have cuz we all got the magic we
do you have cuz we all got the magic we all got the magic what specific magic do
all got the magic what specific magic do
all got the magic what specific magic do you have that you can offer this this
you have that you can offer this this
you have that you can offer this this this incredible incredible forward
this incredible incredible forward
this incredible incredible forward moving energy that’s that’s taking us
moving energy that’s that’s taking us
moving energy that’s that’s taking us you can either ride the wave or get
you can either ride the wave or get
you can either ride the wave or get swept up and and I’m I’m invested in
swept up and and I’m I’m invested in
swept up and and I’m I’m invested in riding riding the wave and I know that I
riding riding the wave and I know that I
riding riding the wave and I know that I want as many people on the wave with me
want as many people on the wave with me
want as many people on the wave with me as possible
as possible
as possible so how do we think about healing how do
so how do we think about healing how do
so how do we think about healing how do we do we know our neighbors names right
we do we know our neighbors names right
we do we know our neighbors names right do we know our neighbors names do we
do we know our neighbors names do we
do we know our neighbors names do we know what our neighbor does for work do
know what our neighbor does for work do
know what our neighbor does for work do we know when they’re sick or when
we know when they’re sick or when
we know when they’re sick or when they’re not it’s it’s simple simple
they’re not it’s it’s simple simple
they’re not it’s it’s simple simple things that will truly truly lift us and
things that will truly truly lift us and
things that will truly truly lift us and build us from this from this beautiful
build us from this from this beautiful
build us from this from this beautiful towering that has crumbled right now we
towering that has crumbled right now we
towering that has crumbled right now we get a chance to really rebuild and we
get a chance to really rebuild and we
get a chance to really rebuild and we have to remember where we’ve been we
have to remember where we’ve been we
have to remember where we’ve been we have to recognize where we are and trust
have to recognize where we are and trust
have to recognize where we are and trust it and and be kind to yourselves be kind
it and and be kind to yourselves be kind
it and and be kind to yourselves be kind be kind be kind to yourselves and
be kind be kind to yourselves and
be kind be kind to yourselves and surround yourself with people who are
surround yourself with people who are
surround yourself with people who are kind to you not nice nice as weak kind
kind to you not nice nice as weak kind
kind to you not nice nice as weak kind kind is empathy right kind is is is love
kind is empathy right kind is is is love
kind is empathy right kind is is is love and and then what do you have to offer
and and then what do you have to offer
and and then what do you have to offer action activism is active it does things
action activism is active it does things
action activism is active it does things when I hear the word inspire I’ve been
when I hear the word inspire I’ve been
when I hear the word inspire I’ve been talking to people about what that means
talking to people about what that means
talking to people about what that means doesn’t inspire you for likes at 30
doesn’t inspire you for likes at 30
doesn’t inspire you for likes at 30 seconds or doesn’t inspire you to take
seconds or doesn’t inspire you to take
seconds or doesn’t inspire you to take charge of your life to manifest what you
charge of your life to manifest what you
charge of your life to manifest what you want to be the alchemist of your own
want to be the alchemist of your own
want to be the alchemist of your own realities because we all got it and I’m
realities because we all got it and I’m
realities because we all got it and I’m not special right I got like some
not special right I got like some
not special right I got like some sparkly clothes that help me feel that
sparkly clothes that help me feel that
sparkly clothes that help me feel that way like come through I can get you
way like come through I can get you
way like come through I can get you something too like looking off like we
something too like looking off like we
something too like looking off like we can we got all look this good okay I
can we got all look this good okay I
can we got all look this good okay I love y’all please be good to yourselves
love y’all please be good to yourselves
love y’all please be good to yourselves your magic I believe in you let’s go
your magic I believe in you let’s go
your magic I believe in you let’s go [Applause]
[Applause]
[Applause] [Music]
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