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Reclaiming Agency: My Journey as an Undocumented American | New Latthivongskorn | TEDxBerkeley


I am one of eleven million undocumented

I am one of eleven million undocumented immigrants living here in America I am

immigrants living here in America I am

immigrants living here in America I am one of eight hundred thousand daca

one of eight hundred thousand daca

one of eight hundred thousand daca recipients and I am one of one hundred

recipients and I am one of one hundred

recipients and I am one of one hundred undocumented students in medical school

undocumented students in medical school

undocumented students in medical school training to become a doctor though these

training to become a doctor though these

training to become a doctor though these numbers are the facts of my life they

numbers are the facts of my life they

numbers are the facts of my life they obscure the complexity of how I got here

obscure the complexity of how I got here

obscure the complexity of how I got here and what the future holds for me now one

and what the future holds for me now one

and what the future holds for me now one of the earliest memories I had after

of the earliest memories I had after

of the earliest memories I had after moving to America was of a cramped but

moving to America was of a cramped but

moving to America was of a cramped but cozy living room over five of a

cozy living room over five of a

cozy living room over five of a one-bedroom apartment where the five of

one-bedroom apartment where the five of

one-bedroom apartment where the five of us began a new chapter together we’re

us began a new chapter together we’re

us began a new chapter together we’re aren’t we aren’t going back to Thailand

aren’t we aren’t going back to Thailand

aren’t we aren’t going back to Thailand my parents told my brother sister and I

my parents told my brother sister and I

my parents told my brother sister and I we’re staying here in America as Robin

we’re staying here in America as Robin

we’re staying here in America as Robin Hood’s

Hood’s

Hood’s that’s the Thai saying for becoming

that’s the Thai saying for becoming

that’s the Thai saying for becoming undocumented for overstaying or tourist

undocumented for overstaying or tourist

undocumented for overstaying or tourist visas which were set to expire within a

visas which were set to expire within a

visas which were set to expire within a few months after an economic crash in

few months after an economic crash in

few months after an economic crash in Southeast Asia my parents found

Southeast Asia my parents found

Southeast Asia my parents found themselves rebuilding their lives once

themselves rebuilding their lives once

themselves rebuilding their lives once again and though we didn’t truly

again and though we didn’t truly

again and though we didn’t truly understand what being undocumented would

understand what being undocumented would

understand what being undocumented would have meant we knew that this is what we

have meant we knew that this is what we

have meant we knew that this is what we had to do as a family for a better

had to do as a family for a better

had to do as a family for a better future so my parents Scott work at local

future so my parents Scott work at local

future so my parents Scott work at local Thai restaurants right here in the Bay

Thai restaurants right here in the Bay

Thai restaurants right here in the Bay Area and they would come home late and I

Area and they would come home late and I

Area and they would come home late and I would wait up to say hi to them and as

would wait up to say hi to them and as

would wait up to say hi to them and as they entered the apartment I would run

they entered the apartment I would run

they entered the apartment I would run up to them and hug them put my arms

up to them and hug them put my arms

up to them and hug them put my arms around their waists before they could

around their waists before they could

around their waists before they could even take their aprons off and I would

even take their aprons off and I would

even take their aprons off and I would remember this

remember this

remember this the fish sauce and curry spices and let

the fish sauce and curry spices and let

the fish sauce and curry spices and let me tell you you don’t forget the smell

me tell you you don’t forget the smell

me tell you you don’t forget the smell of fish sauce and as I looked into their

of fish sauce and as I looked into their

of fish sauce and as I looked into their eyes and see they’re tired expressions

eyes and see they’re tired expressions

eyes and see they’re tired expressions after a hard day’s work I would ask them

after a hard day’s work I would ask them

after a hard day’s work I would ask them what can I do to help focus on your job

what can I do to help focus on your job

what can I do to help focus on your job they would say and my job as a young

they would say and my job as a young

they would say and my job as a young child there is it was to do well in

child there is it was to do well in

child there is it was to do well in school

school

school and we all looked to education as the

and we all looked to education as the

and we all looked to education as the key to success we all looked to

key to success we all looked to

key to success we all looked to education as a way to our American Dream

education as a way to our American Dream

education as a way to our American Dream and after witnessing everything that my

and after witnessing everything that my

and after witnessing everything that my parents were willing to sacrifice for

parents were willing to sacrifice for

parents were willing to sacrifice for the opportunities that they never had I

the opportunities that they never had I

the opportunities that they never had I channeled their work ethic into years of

channeled their work ethic into years of

channeled their work ethic into years of diligence I immersed myself in my

diligence I immersed myself in my

diligence I immersed myself in my studies I eventually learned and

studies I eventually learned and

studies I eventually learned and mastered the English language excelled

mastered the English language excelled

mastered the English language excelled in AP classes and graduated as

in AP classes and graduated as

in AP classes and graduated as highschool salutatorian all the while

highschool salutatorian all the while

highschool salutatorian all the while working 30 hours a week thank you thank

working 30 hours a week thank you thank

working 30 hours a week thank you thank you

you

you although while working 30 hours a week

although while working 30 hours a week

although while working 30 hours a week at our family’s Thai restaurant I apply

at our family’s Thai restaurant I apply

at our family’s Thai restaurant I apply to five u C’s for college I was accepted

to five u C’s for college I was accepted

to five u C’s for college I was accepted to all of them UC Davis in particular

to all of them UC Davis in particular

to all of them UC Davis in particular offered me a Regent scholarship which

offered me a Regent scholarship which

offered me a Regent scholarship which was the full tuition scholarship offered

was the full tuition scholarship offered

was the full tuition scholarship offered to an exceptional few I was relieved all

to an exceptional few I was relieved all

to an exceptional few I was relieved all of those days spent writing world

of those days spent writing world

of those days spent writing world history papers in the back room and

history papers in the back room and

history papers in the back room and running to the front when the restaurant

running to the front when the restaurant

running to the front when the restaurant was busy were worth it I could go to

was busy were worth it I could go to

was busy were worth it I could go to college and afford it because otherwise

college and afford it because otherwise

college and afford it because otherwise I was ineligible for any financial aid

I was ineligible for any financial aid

I was ineligible for any financial aid as

as

as undocumented student three months before

undocumented student three months before

undocumented student three months before the start of college I was called into

the start of college I was called into

the start of college I was called into the financial aid office they wanted to

the financial aid office they wanted to

the financial aid office they wanted to see proof of my citizenship and legal

see proof of my citizenship and legal

see proof of my citizenship and legal immigration status when I told them that

immigration status when I told them that

immigration status when I told them that I did not have a green card and I didn’t

I did not have a green card and I didn’t

I did not have a green card and I didn’t have a social security number the

have a social security number the

have a social security number the officer looked at me and said let us

officer looked at me and said let us

officer looked at me and said let us know when your status changes and just

know when your status changes and just

know when your status changes and just like that the scholarship offer was

like that the scholarship offer was

like that the scholarship offer was withdrawn the formula for the American

withdrawn the formula for the American

withdrawn the formula for the American Dream had failed me I listened to my

Dream had failed me I listened to my

Dream had failed me I listened to my parents I did my job

parents I did my job

parents I did my job I earned this scholarship opportunity

I earned this scholarship opportunity

I earned this scholarship opportunity and yet I came to find the fear American

and yet I came to find the fear American

and yet I came to find the fear American dream for me was the false promise and

dream for me was the false promise and

dream for me was the false promise and it was the first time that I came face

it was the first time that I came face

it was the first time that I came face to face with an institutional barrier

to face with an institutional barrier

to face with an institutional barrier created by my immigration status that I

created by my immigration status that I

created by my immigration status that I couldn’t face alone thankfully I have my

couldn’t face alone thankfully I have my

couldn’t face alone thankfully I have my family and they helped support me

family and they helped support me

family and they helped support me through the first year of college while

through the first year of college while

through the first year of college while I bussed tables and hunted for private

I bussed tables and hunted for private

I bussed tables and hunted for private scholarships oh by the way I ended up

scholarships oh by the way I ended up

scholarships oh by the way I ended up here at UC Berkeley

because it would have cost the same

because it would have cost the same anyways and we all know it is the

anyways and we all know it is the

anyways and we all know it is the weather school so but going up

weather school so but going up

weather school so but going up I actually was isolated and afraid of

I actually was isolated and afraid of

I actually was isolated and afraid of the constant threat of deportation if

the constant threat of deportation if

the constant threat of deportation if anyone learned I was undocumented same

anyone learned I was undocumented same

anyone learned I was undocumented same for my family I remember holding my

for my family I remember holding my

for my family I remember holding my breath every time a police car drove by

breath every time a police car drove by

breath every time a police car drove by or I heard a siren in the second year of

or I heard a siren in the second year of

or I heard a siren in the second year of my college I met other undocumented

my college I met other undocumented

my college I met other undocumented folks other undocumented immigrants for

folks other undocumented immigrants for

folks other undocumented immigrants for the first time and it changed my life on

the first time and it changed my life on

the first time and it changed my life on a bright sunny day on a rooftop deck

a bright sunny day on a rooftop deck

a bright sunny day on a rooftop deck overlooking Lake Merritt my family and I

overlooking Lake Merritt my family and I

overlooking Lake Merritt my family and I arrived to a scholarship ceremony and we

arrived to a scholarship ceremony and we

arrived to a scholarship ceremony and we looked around and we saw other families

looked around and we saw other families

looked around and we saw other families there and we leaned to each other and

there and we leaned to each other and

there and we leaned to each other and whispered are all these other people

whispered are all these other people

whispered are all these other people undocumented too and later on the

undocumented too and later on the

undocumented too and later on the afternoon the reception would celebrate

afternoon the reception would celebrate

afternoon the reception would celebrate young scholars with our families by our

young scholars with our families by our

young scholars with our families by our side and I saw for the first time that

side and I saw for the first time that

side and I saw for the first time that being undocumented could be filled with

being undocumented could be filled with

being undocumented could be filled with so much joy so much support rather than

so much joy so much support rather than

so much joy so much support rather than the shame and the stigma and the

the shame and the stigma and the

the shame and the stigma and the positive energy that day was unlike

positive energy that day was unlike

positive energy that day was unlike anything I had ever before associated

anything I had ever before associated

anything I had ever before associated with being a documented that was in 2010

with being a documented that was in 2010

with being a documented that was in 2010 and that year was important because I

and that year was important because I

and that year was important because I would continue to go on this journey of

would continue to go on this journey of

would continue to go on this journey of redefining what it would mean to be an

redefining what it would mean to be an

redefining what it would mean to be an undocumented immigrant I enrolled in

undocumented immigrant I enrolled in

undocumented immigrant I enrolled in Professor Tyrone Hayes

Professor Tyrone Hayes

Professor Tyrone Hayes since class actually here at Berkeley

since class actually here at Berkeley

since class actually here at Berkeley intro to endocrinology and it was during

intro to endocrinology and it was during

intro to endocrinology and it was during that class that students protested the

that class that students protested the

that class that students protested the tuition hikes that were happening that

tuition hikes that were happening that

tuition hikes that were happening that year by having a UC walk out day while I

year by having a UC walk out day while I

year by having a UC walk out day while I was in solidarity I didn’t come to

was in solidarity I didn’t come to

was in solidarity I didn’t come to America to miss class and so I went to

America to miss class and so I went to

America to miss class and so I went to class but what professor Hayes did next

class but what professor Hayes did next

class but what professor Hayes did next would stay with me forever instead of

would stay with me forever instead of

would stay with me forever instead of lecturing he shared with us his story of

lecturing he shared with us his story of

lecturing he shared with us his story of being one of the few African American

being one of the few African American

being one of the few African American students an Ivy League institution he

students an Ivy League institution he

students an Ivy League institution he shared with us the importance of carving

shared with us the importance of carving

shared with us the importance of carving your own path when you are first so that

your own path when you are first so that

your own path when you are first so that others could be there too he put up iron

others could be there too he put up iron

others could be there too he put up iron signs words those who have the privilege

signs words those who have the privilege

signs words those who have the privilege to act do know have the duty to act and

to act do know have the duty to act and

to act do know have the duty to act and it was all a moment of clarity for me

it was all a moment of clarity for me

it was all a moment of clarity for me for years I’ve been watching

for years I’ve been watching

for years I’ve been watching undocumented youth speak up publicly

undocumented youth speak up publicly

undocumented youth speak up publicly while people like my parents were

while people like my parents were

while people like my parents were working day in and day out how could I

working day in and day out how could I

working day in and day out how could I sit here in this lecture hall and do

sit here in this lecture hall and do

sit here in this lecture hall and do nothing

nothing

nothing no it was my duty to speak up about

no it was my duty to speak up about

no it was my duty to speak up about being undocumented to influence the very

being undocumented to influence the very

being undocumented to influence the very policies that affected my communities

policies that affected my communities

policies that affected my communities and so I became deeply involved

and so I became deeply involved

and so I became deeply involved immigrant rights activism I vote about

immigrant rights activism I vote about

immigrant rights activism I vote about my immigration story I testified at the

my immigration story I testified at the

my immigration story I testified at the State Capitol and in support of in-state

State Capitol and in support of in-state

State Capitol and in support of in-state financial aid here in California and to

financial aid here in California and to

financial aid here in California and to limit ice and police collaboration and I

limit ice and police collaboration and I

limit ice and police collaboration and I learned through all of that that if we

learned through all of that that if we

learned through all of that that if we come together as a community even as

come together as a community even as

come together as a community even as undocumented immigrants

undocumented immigrants

undocumented immigrants we could reclaim our agency and in 2012

we could reclaim our agency and in 2012

we could reclaim our agency and in 2012 two years later I graduated with honors

two years later I graduated with honors

two years later I graduated with honors from Berkeley and molecular and cell

from Berkeley and molecular and cell

from Berkeley and molecular and cell biology thank you now by this point I

biology thank you now by this point I

biology thank you now by this point I knew that I wanted to become a doctor

knew that I wanted to become a doctor

knew that I wanted to become a doctor from personal experiences of having very

from personal experiences of having very

from personal experiences of having very little or no access to health care I

little or no access to health care I

little or no access to health care I wanted to become a physician who would

wanted to become a physician who would

wanted to become a physician who would change policies and influence the status

change policies and influence the status

change policies and influence the status quo of how healthcare was delivered and

quo of how healthcare was delivered and

quo of how healthcare was delivered and thereby impacting uninsured low-income

thereby impacting uninsured low-income

thereby impacting uninsured low-income homeless immigrant communities the very

homeless immigrant communities the very

homeless immigrant communities the very same I was a part of and have worked

same I was a part of and have worked

same I was a part of and have worked with yet there were so many unanswered

with yet there were so many unanswered

with yet there were so many unanswered questions is it even possible for me to

questions is it even possible for me to

questions is it even possible for me to go to med school how would I do it and

go to med school how would I do it and

go to med school how would I do it and at that point I always used to joke that

at that point I always used to joke that

at that point I always used to joke that undocumented medical students were like

undocumented medical students were like

undocumented medical students were like unicorns because we would ask around and

unicorns because we would ask around and

unicorns because we would ask around and somebody would say that I had heard of

somebody would say that I had heard of

somebody would say that I had heard of someone that had known of somebody that

someone that had known of somebody that

someone that had known of somebody that went to med school but no one could

went to med school but no one could

went to med school but no one could actually ever find the person and I just

actually ever find the person and I just

actually ever find the person and I just thought they simply didn’t exist and

thought they simply didn’t exist and

thought they simply didn’t exist and that was when I co-founded pre-health

that was when I co-founded pre-health

that was when I co-founded pre-health dreamers an organization with a mission

dreamers an organization with a mission

dreamers an organization with a mission of supporting and document immigrant

of supporting and document immigrant

of supporting and document immigrant students in their health and science

students in their health and science

students in their health and science careers with my colleagues Denise Rojas

careers with my colleagues Denise Rojas

careers with my colleagues Denise Rojas and angel ku and what began as a quest

and angel ku and what began as a quest

and angel ku and what began as a quest to find a unicorn became a community

to find a unicorn became a community

to find a unicorn became a community around the nation that engaged in peer

around the nation that engaged in peer

around the nation that engaged in peer advising in resource sharing and in

advising in resource sharing and in

advising in resource sharing and in advocacy

we pictured to ourselves and asked what

we pictured to ourselves and asked what if and document students could be

if and document students could be

if and document students could be considered equally in their admissions

considered equally in their admissions

considered equally in their admissions to graduate and professional schools

to graduate and professional schools

to graduate and professional schools what if institutions would recognize

what if institutions would recognize

what if institutions would recognize that our lived experiences leave us well

that our lived experiences leave us well

that our lived experiences leave us well equipped to provide exceptional health

equipped to provide exceptional health

equipped to provide exceptional health care and change the systems that have

care and change the systems that have

care and change the systems that have kept us out what if we could recreate

kept us out what if we could recreate

kept us out what if we could recreate that positive energy that I had felt on

that positive energy that I had felt on

that positive energy that I had felt on that rooftop that day at that ceremony

that rooftop that day at that ceremony

that rooftop that day at that ceremony and the more we believed it the more

and the more we believed it the more

and the more we believed it the more schools we apply to the more hearts we

schools we apply to the more hearts we

schools we apply to the more hearts we engage the more champions we found and

engage the more champions we found and

engage the more champions we found and the more policies we changed and six

the more policies we changed and six

the more policies we changed and six years later I am now one of 100 and

years later I am now one of 100 and

years later I am now one of 100 and documented medical students around the

documented medical students around the

documented medical students around the country

[Applause]

[Applause] when I first gone to UCSF I made sure to

when I first gone to UCSF I made sure to

when I first gone to UCSF I made sure to share my story far and wide because I

share my story far and wide because I

share my story far and wide because I wanted every single undocumented student

wanted every single undocumented student

wanted every single undocumented student to know that it was possible and that

to know that it was possible and that

to know that it was possible and that they are not alone

they are not alone

they are not alone and luckily along the way I was able to

and luckily along the way I was able to

and luckily along the way I was able to have everybody that has helped me to

have everybody that has helped me to

have everybody that has helped me to that point be with me I am one of eleven

that point be with me I am one of eleven

that point be with me I am one of eleven million I am one of eight hundred

million I am one of eight hundred

million I am one of eight hundred thousand I’m one of one hundred we’ve

thousand I’m one of one hundred we’ve

thousand I’m one of one hundred we’ve been for the past year in a chapter of

been for the past year in a chapter of

been for the past year in a chapter of crises everyday as an undocumented

crises everyday as an undocumented

crises everyday as an undocumented policies and politics attempt to define

policies and politics attempt to define

policies and politics attempt to define my world the 2016 election wondering

my world the 2016 election wondering

my world the 2016 election wondering which executive order would rescind anka

which executive order would rescind anka

which executive order would rescind anka whether or not Congress will or will not

whether or not Congress will or will not

whether or not Congress will or will not do something these are all examples of

do something these are all examples of

do something these are all examples of that reality but everybody here today

that reality but everybody here today

that reality but everybody here today may not have been undocumented but we

may not have been undocumented but we

may not have been undocumented but we are all a part of a community that has

are all a part of a community that has

are all a part of a community that has faced injustice that have experienced

faced injustice that have experienced

faced injustice that have experienced our rights being questioned and

our rights being questioned and

our rights being questioned and experienced health inequities and so we

experienced health inequities and so we

experienced health inequities and so we must remember that crises are also

must remember that crises are also

must remember that crises are also opportunities we could give up turn the

opportunities we could give up turn the

opportunities we could give up turn the other way or we could take no for an

other way or we could take no for an

other way or we could take no for an answer and use our agency for change so

answer and use our agency for change so

answer and use our agency for change so the question today is how are we all

the question today is how are we all

the question today is how are we all going to engage in the policies and

going to engage in the policies and

going to engage in the policies and politics that allow people like me to

politics that allow people like me to

politics that allow people like me to become American thank you

become American thank you

become American thank you you

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