“Nothing is worth a regret” | Mueanprae Rattanadit | TEDxThammasatU

today I’d like to take us out on a

today I’d like to take us out on a journey but this journey we’re going to

journey but this journey we’re going to

journey but this journey we’re going to go step by step and let’s see where this

go step by step and let’s see where this

go step by step and let’s see where this journey takes us the first path that I

journey takes us the first path that I

journey takes us the first path that I want to bring all of us to is a path

want to bring all of us to is a path

want to bring all of us to is a path that I would like to call it a childhood

that I would like to call it a childhood

that I would like to call it a childhood path now I want all of you guys in this

path now I want all of you guys in this

path now I want all of you guys in this room to close your eyes close your eyes

room to close your eyes close your eyes

room to close your eyes close your eyes and imagine that outfit that you would

and imagine that outfit that you would

and imagine that outfit that you would choose when you are first allowed to

choose when you are first allowed to

choose when you are first allowed to choose any type of outfit keep that in

choose any type of outfit keep that in

choose any type of outfit keep that in mind and I’ll close your eye I mean open

mind and I’ll close your eye I mean open

mind and I’ll close your eye I mean open your eyes I’m pretty sure that we have

your eyes I’m pretty sure that we have

your eyes I’m pretty sure that we have various of flashbacks some of you may

various of flashbacks some of you may

various of flashbacks some of you may have flashbacks of your favorite t-shirt

have flashbacks of your favorite t-shirt

have flashbacks of your favorite t-shirt of your favorite cartoon character while

of your favorite cartoon character while

of your favorite cartoon character while some of you may think about your

some of you may think about your

some of you may think about your favorite colors but mine’s looked a

favorite colors but mine’s looked a

favorite colors but mine’s looked a little bit like this

yes I was very good with contrasting

yes I was very good with contrasting colors pink and purple way to go grace

colors pink and purple way to go grace

colors pink and purple way to go grace right second picture looked like this

doesn’t that look like me I swore by

doesn’t that look like me I swore by this outfit no matter how cold the

this outfit no matter how cold the

this outfit no matter how cold the weather was I would beg my mom to wear

weather was I would beg my mom to wear

weather was I would beg my mom to wear this outfit even in the snow and lastly

this outfit even in the snow and lastly

this outfit even in the snow and lastly this one I remembered that this picture

this one I remembered that this picture

this one I remembered that this picture was I mean this outfit was the outfit

was I mean this outfit was the outfit

was I mean this outfit was the outfit that I tried to choose during picture

that I tried to choose during picture

that I tried to choose during picture day in my elementary school this picture

day in my elementary school this picture

day in my elementary school this picture contained my favorite colors which is

contained my favorite colors which is

contained my favorite colors which is obviously hot pink but I wish that I

obviously hot pink but I wish that I

obviously hot pink but I wish that I kept that whole colorful self of mine

kept that whole colorful self of mine

kept that whole colorful self of mine screwing up because actually the whole

screwing up because actually the whole

screwing up because actually the whole time I was growing up and ever looked

time I was growing up and ever looked

time I was growing up and ever looked something like that now you know a

something like that now you know a

something like that now you know a little bit about me and you know that

little bit about me and you know that

little bit about me and you know that I’m a very colorful person but you know

I’m a very colorful person but you know

I’m a very colorful person but you know in this path as I got older and as I

in this path as I got older and as I

in this path as I got older and as I kept on walking I realized one thing I

kept on walking I realized one thing I

kept on walking I realized one thing I realized that once I walked in this path

realized that once I walked in this path

realized that once I walked in this path I started letting go of my parents hands

I started letting go of my parents hands

I started letting go of my parents hands and once I started letting go of my

and once I started letting go of my

and once I started letting go of my parents hands I stepped out of my

parents hands I stepped out of my

parents hands I stepped out of my comfort zone once you step out of your

comfort zone once you step out of your

comfort zone once you step out of your comfort zone it means that you engaged

comfort zone it means that you engaged

comfort zone it means that you engaged to society much more and you start to

to society much more and you start to

to society much more and you start to listen and see new things and whatever

listen and see new things and whatever

listen and see new things and whatever is around you and once I started

is around you and once I started

is around you and once I started listening to people and perceiving many

listening to people and perceiving many

listening to people and perceiving many other things

other things

other things this is what it turned me into don’t

this is what it turned me into don’t

this is what it turned me into don’t worry I don’t have stage fights anymore

worry I don’t have stage fights anymore

worry I don’t have stage fights anymore although I looked very hectic in this

although I looked very hectic in this

although I looked very hectic in this picture but actually this is one of my

picture but actually this is one of my

picture but actually this is one of my very first MC events and although before

very first MC events and although before

very first MC events and although before for those who don’t know what MCS are

for those who don’t know what MCS are

for those who don’t know what MCS are they’re basically moderators at events

they’re basically moderators at events

they’re basically moderators at events and it’s basically that one person where

and it’s basically that one person where

and it’s basically that one person where all eyes are going to be on you although

all eyes are going to be on you although

all eyes are going to be on you although I enjoyed the whole attention that I had

I enjoyed the whole attention that I had

I enjoyed the whole attention that I had I looked hectic and I also looked

I looked hectic and I also looked

I looked hectic and I also looked frantic I was very afraid on how people

frantic I was very afraid on how people

frantic I was very afraid on how people would perceive my big legs and how they

would perceive my big legs and how they

would perceive my big legs and how they would think about my frizzy hair or the

would think about my frizzy hair or the

would think about my frizzy hair or the makeup that I just learned to put on

makeup that I just learned to put on

makeup that I just learned to put on after a couple of YouTube videos that

after a couple of YouTube videos that

after a couple of YouTube videos that night actually in this picture I

night actually in this picture I

night actually in this picture I shouldn’t be looking so worried because

shouldn’t be looking so worried because

shouldn’t be looking so worried because I did all the hacks that we told each

I did all the hacks that we told each

I did all the hacks that we told each other I wore black to accentuate my

other I wore black to accentuate my

other I wore black to accentuate my waist I wore heels to give myself a

waist I wore heels to give myself a

waist I wore heels to give myself a little lift and I also wore what we call

little lift and I also wore what we call

little lift and I also wore what we call a swing skirt in order for you not to

a swing skirt in order for you not to

a swing skirt in order for you not to see my thighs rubbing each other but I

see my thighs rubbing each other but I

see my thighs rubbing each other but I imagine that a girl who grew up loving

imagine that a girl who grew up loving

imagine that a girl who grew up loving colors loving anything that contained

colors loving anything that contained

colors loving anything that contained mermaids and unicorns and rainbows who

mermaids and unicorns and rainbows who

mermaids and unicorns and rainbows who was so confident and all of those color

was so confident and all of those color

was so confident and all of those color all of those colors no matter what age

all of those colors no matter what age

all of those colors no matter what age or what size she was as a kid is now

or what size she was as a kid is now

or what size she was as a kid is now telling you that she should be confident

telling you that she should be confident

telling you that she should be confident in wearing black in this path believe it

in wearing black in this path believe it

in wearing black in this path believe it or not it was something that was really

or not it was something that was really

or not it was something that was really strange because although contradicting I

strange because although contradicting I

strange because although contradicting I learned one very important lesson I

learned one very important lesson I

learned one very important lesson I learned to love myself loving myself

learned to love myself loving myself

learned to love myself loving myself enough to be true to my feelings loving

enough to be true to my feelings loving

enough to be true to my feelings loving myself in order to do what I wanted to

myself in order to do what I wanted to

myself in order to do what I wanted to do at that time

do at that time

do at that time and growing up walking in that path the

and growing up walking in that path the

and growing up walking in that path the very first path of minds of a childhood

very first path of minds of a childhood

very first path of minds of a childhood all I wanted was to be perceived as

all I wanted was to be perceived as

all I wanted was to be perceived as mediocre I never wanted to be seen as

mediocre I never wanted to be seen as

mediocre I never wanted to be seen as someone that was standing out someone

someone that was standing out someone

someone that was standing out someone that was weird

that was weird

that was weird but I guess that I succeeded on that so

but I guess that I succeeded on that so

but I guess that I succeeded on that so it led me to my second path once I

it led me to my second path once I

it led me to my second path once I started being accepted for a while I

started being accepted for a while I

started being accepted for a while I kept on walking and it led me to one of

kept on walking and it led me to one of

kept on walking and it led me to one of my very favorite paths which is called

my very favorite paths which is called

my very favorite paths which is called the

the

the of love I’m pretty sure that a lot of us

of love I’m pretty sure that a lot of us

of love I’m pretty sure that a lot of us in this room have already had their

in this room have already had their

in this room have already had their first true love it doesn’t have to be

first true love it doesn’t have to be

first true love it doesn’t have to be your first boyfriend or girlfriend but

your first boyfriend or girlfriend but

your first boyfriend or girlfriend but it’s just that one person you see and

it’s just that one person you see and

it’s just that one person you see and you just know that they give you

you just know that they give you

you just know that they give you butterflies as cliche as that sound but

butterflies as cliche as that sound but

butterflies as cliche as that sound but for my first true love it was the very

for my first true love it was the very

for my first true love it was the very first time that someone could mean so

first time that someone could mean so

first time that someone could mean so much to you in so little time it was the

much to you in so little time it was the

much to you in so little time it was the first time that I let down my guards and

first time that I let down my guards and

first time that I let down my guards and laughed at the most silliest nonsense

laughed at the most silliest nonsense

laughed at the most silliest nonsense joke ever and then I end up snore snore

joke ever and then I end up snore snore

joke ever and then I end up snore snore snorting and then i snort again and

snorting and then i snort again and

snorting and then i snort again and again and again it’s the first time that

again and again it’s the first time that

again and again it’s the first time that you know that the person who you’re with

you know that the person who you’re with

you know that the person who you’re with is giving you that irreplaceable young

is giving you that irreplaceable young

is giving you that irreplaceable young love because that person is giving you

love because that person is giving you

love because that person is giving you full of discoveries but also innocence

full of discoveries but also innocence

full of discoveries but also innocence at the same time it’s that person that

at the same time it’s that person that

at the same time it’s that person that although you knew you were young you

although you knew you were young you

although you knew you were young you never questioned or doubt if you were

never questioned or doubt if you were

never questioned or doubt if you were ever in love but as I walked in the

ever in love but as I walked in the

ever in love but as I walked in the second path of Mines I realized that the

second path of Mines I realized that the

second path of Mines I realized that the path is not straight anymore but it’s so

path is not straight anymore but it’s so

path is not straight anymore but it’s so odd because this path had many other

odd because this path had many other

odd because this path had many other paths along the way but I never really

paths along the way but I never really

paths along the way but I never really understood what those paths what were

understood what those paths what were

understood what those paths what were they what they were for but I just kept

they what they were for but I just kept

they what they were for but I just kept on walking but I knew one thing was that

on walking but I knew one thing was that

on walking but I knew one thing was that my path wasn’t consistent anymore nor

my path wasn’t consistent anymore nor

my path wasn’t consistent anymore nor was the person that I was walking with

was the person that I was walking with

was the person that I was walking with that person that who became the first of

that person that who became the first of

that person that who became the first of my everything became second thirds and

my everything became second thirds and

my everything became second thirds and then he became last then it was the very

then he became last then it was the very

then he became last then it was the very first time that I questioned that if

first time that I questioned that if

first time that I questioned that if this irreplaceable young love was ever

this irreplaceable young love was ever

this irreplaceable young love was ever real in this path people told me along

real in this path people told me along

real in this path people told me along the way that I should just let go of him

the way that I should just let go of him

the way that I should just let go of him you know you’re in this toxic

you know you’re in this toxic

you know you’re in this toxic relationship and you’re just hurting

relationship and you’re just hurting

relationship and you’re just hurting yourself but believe it or not in this

yourself but believe it or not in this

yourself but believe it or not in this path I learned one very important lesson

path I learned one very important lesson

path I learned one very important lesson that is to love myself love myself

that is to love myself love myself

that is to love myself love myself enough to be true to my genuine feelings

enough to be true to my genuine feelings

enough to be true to my genuine feelings that time because all I ever wanted in

that time because all I ever wanted in

that time because all I ever wanted in the second path was to walk with someone

the second path was to walk with someone

the second path was to walk with someone that I wanted to walk at the end of my

that I wanted to walk at the end of my

that I wanted to walk at the end of my journey I wanted to walk with this one

journey I wanted to walk with this one

journey I wanted to walk with this one person and never let him go although our

person and never let him go although our

person and never let him go although our paths had to be something that was

paths had to be something that was

paths had to be something that was separated I would always tell people

separated I would always tell people

separated I would always tell people around me that I wanted to keep on

around me that I wanted to keep on

around me that I wanted to keep on walking because I’m this happy girl I

walking because I’m this happy girl I

walking because I’m this happy girl I told myself at that time I remember that

told myself at that time I remember that

told myself at that time I remember that in tears I told myself that I was this

in tears I told myself that I was this

in tears I told myself that I was this happy girl this happy girl that would

happy girl this happy girl that would

happy girl this happy girl that would still take selfies and pictures of every

still take selfies and pictures of every

still take selfies and pictures of every single meal she ate but then deleting

single meal she ate but then deleting

single meal she ate but then deleting them one by one because that’s when she

them one by one because that’s when she

them one by one because that’s when she actually realized that he’s probably

actually realized that he’s probably

actually realized that he’s probably having a face-to-face meal with someone

having a face-to-face meal with someone

having a face-to-face meal with someone else but I still told myself that I was

else but I still told myself that I was

else but I still told myself that I was that happy girl I was that same old girl

that happy girl I was that same old girl

that happy girl I was that same old girl no matter how long time to pass and I

no matter how long time to pass and I

no matter how long time to pass and I was the same old person I would send the

was the same old person I would send the

was the same old person I would send the same old texts this used to be a

same old texts this used to be a

same old texts this used to be a reciprocal statement meaning that I

reciprocal statement meaning that I

reciprocal statement meaning that I would send it to him and he would send

would send it to him and he would send

would send it to him and he would send it to me back but as I said nothing is

it to me back but as I said nothing is

it to me back but as I said nothing is ever consistent not even the person

ever consistent not even the person

ever consistent not even the person words or feelings after I saw this

words or feelings after I saw this

words or feelings after I saw this message I finally understood what

message I finally understood what

message I finally understood what shattered mean and because of this

shattered mean and because of this

shattered mean and because of this message I I knew that I was dead for

message I I knew that I was dead for

message I I knew that I was dead for some of you a may sound that I’m over

some of you a may sound that I’m over

some of you a may sound that I’m over exaggerating but believe it or not us

exaggerating but believe it or not us

exaggerating but believe it or not us people we do have our tolerance and I

people we do have our tolerance and I

people we do have our tolerance and I guess that that was the end of my

guess that that was the end of my

guess that that was the end of my tolerance but in the second path I

tolerance but in the second path I

tolerance but in the second path I learned that I loved myself as I’ve told

learned that I loved myself as I’ve told

learned that I loved myself as I’ve told you and that was probably enough to be

you and that was probably enough to be

you and that was probably enough to be honest bringing this story I was really

honest bringing this story I was really

honest bringing this story I was really hard because it’s something that is very

hard because it’s something that is very

hard because it’s something that is very nostalgic to me something that was in

nostalgic to me something that was in

nostalgic to me something that was in the past and a lot of you might see MIT

the past and a lot of you might see MIT

the past and a lot of you might see MIT as a mistake as a teenage mistake that

as a mistake as a teenage mistake that

as a mistake as a teenage mistake that everybody makes but it’s really hard for

everybody makes but it’s really hard for

everybody makes but it’s really hard for me to share to the rest of the world on

me to share to the rest of the world on

me to share to the rest of the world on how I walked my journey and what I

how I walked my journey and what I

how I walked my journey and what I walked myself into and it’s going to be

walked myself into and it’s going to be

walked myself into and it’s going to be pretty hard for some of you to

pretty hard for some of you to

pretty hard for some of you to understand what I’m trying to convey by

understand what I’m trying to convey by

understand what I’m trying to convey by two paths so today I have a ver

two paths so today I have a ver

two paths so today I have a ver a special guest who is going to recap

a special guest who is going to recap

a special guest who is going to recap all of these two paths and we’re going

all of these two paths and we’re going

all of these two paths and we’re going to move on to the third path which is

to move on to the third path which is

to move on to the third path which is look which is a path that I’d like to

look which is a path that I’d like to

look which is a path that I’d like to call the path of realization

this is go home go home is 19 years old

this is go home go home is 19 years old and she grew up in America she’s been to

and she grew up in America she’s been to

and she grew up in America she’s been to over 10 countries she and I used to be

over 10 countries she and I used to be

over 10 countries she and I used to be travel buddies growing up and people

travel buddies growing up and people

travel buddies growing up and people would always tell us that we’re very

would always tell us that we’re very

would always tell us that we’re very cute and we look kind of similar we have

cute and we look kind of similar we have

cute and we look kind of similar we have big brown eyes and we have love for the

big brown eyes and we have love for the

big brown eyes and we have love for the color red growing up in this third path

color red growing up in this third path

color red growing up in this third path she and I we we were seen as buddies and

she and I we we were seen as buddies and

she and I we we were seen as buddies and she was the solution to every single

she was the solution to every single

she was the solution to every single problem of mines every time that I cried

problem of mines every time that I cried

problem of mines every time that I cried or had the worst nightmares she was the

or had the worst nightmares she was the

or had the worst nightmares she was the one that was handed to me every single

one that was handed to me every single

one that was handed to me every single time but as I walked along the way and

time but as I walked along the way and

time but as I walked along the way and when we both got a little bit older we

when we both got a little bit older we

when we both got a little bit older we kept on listening and seeing the things

kept on listening and seeing the things

kept on listening and seeing the things that we see in our journeys weird enough

that we see in our journeys weird enough

that we see in our journeys weird enough she was then seen as this burden to

she was then seen as this burden to

she was then seen as this burden to traveling she was then seen as this

traveling she was then seen as this

traveling she was then seen as this filthy old doll that smelled like

filthy old doll that smelled like

filthy old doll that smelled like Gracie’s rule but people along the way

Gracie’s rule but people along the way

Gracie’s rule but people along the way told me to just throw her away you’re a

told me to just throw her away you’re a

told me to just throw her away you’re a young lady you shouldn’t be holding a

young lady you shouldn’t be holding a

young lady you shouldn’t be holding a doll you should be caring about fashion

doll you should be caring about fashion

doll you should be caring about fashion and makeup you should actually it’s

and makeup you should actually it’s

and makeup you should actually it’s about time for you to do your own makeup

about time for you to do your own makeup

about time for you to do your own makeup but I guess that was never me but

but I guess that was never me but

but I guess that was never me but because I loved myself as I’ve told you

because I loved myself as I’ve told you

because I loved myself as I’ve told you I followed what I told myself inside

I followed what I told myself inside

I followed what I told myself inside what I really wanted and at that time I

what I really wanted and at that time I

what I really wanted and at that time I was eager to be seen as a young woman so

was eager to be seen as a young woman so

was eager to be seen as a young woman so I guess I did no different later that

I guess I did no different later that

I guess I did no different later that night I ripped going home into two

night I ripped going home into two

night I ripped going home into two pieces and I guess that she’s no

pieces and I guess that she’s no

pieces and I guess that she’s no different from all of the wardrobes and

different from all of the wardrobes and

different from all of the wardrobes and all the cute outfits that I wore she

all the cute outfits that I wore she

all the cute outfits that I wore she found her value but it was the value

found her value but it was the value

found her value but it was the value only in here the donation box

that exact same night I question to

that exact same night I question to myself I questioned to myself that Wow I

myself I questioned to myself that Wow I

myself I questioned to myself that Wow I why am i crying aren’t I doing the

why am i crying aren’t I doing the

why am i crying aren’t I doing the things that I told myself that I wanted

things that I told myself that I wanted

things that I told myself that I wanted to do

to do

to do wasn’t i that person who kept on walking

wasn’t i that person who kept on walking

wasn’t i that person who kept on walking and believing in myself that’s when I

and believing in myself that’s when I

and believing in myself that’s when I realized that the people who tells you

realized that the people who tells you

realized that the people who tells you to throw away things that or you don’t

to throw away things that or you don’t

to throw away things that or you don’t belong here you don’t fit with that

belong here you don’t fit with that

belong here you don’t fit with that those people are temporary because the

those people are temporary because the

those people are temporary because the people who told me didn’t join me with

people who told me didn’t join me with

people who told me didn’t join me with all of the three paths that I walked

all of the three paths that I walked

all of the three paths that I walked myself into and if I had to please every

myself into and if I had to please every

myself into and if I had to please every single individual in each and every path

single individual in each and every path

single individual in each and every path that I walked myself into how much more

that I walked myself into how much more

that I walked myself into how much more did I have to throw away because growing

did I have to throw away because growing

did I have to throw away because growing up all I could remember was buying

up all I could remember was buying

up all I could remember was buying things and then throwing them away

things and then throwing them away

things and then throwing them away buying things and throwing them away and

buying things and throwing them away and

buying things and throwing them away and finding their value in there I guess

finding their value in there I guess

finding their value in there I guess that night I something in my inside of

that night I something in my inside of

that night I something in my inside of me just told myself that grace you’re

me just told myself that grace you’re

me just told myself that grace you’re the most craziest girl ever she means so

the most craziest girl ever she means so

the most craziest girl ever she means so much to you and how could you do

much to you and how could you do

much to you and how could you do something like that and I guess it was

something like that and I guess it was

something like that and I guess it was mom to the rescue because later that

mom to the rescue because later that

mom to the rescue because later that night I told my mom mom flew home needs

night I told my mom mom flew home needs

night I told my mom mom flew home needs stitches you need to take her to the

stitches you need to take her to the

stitches you need to take her to the hospital anywhere please I’m begging you

hospital anywhere please I’m begging you

hospital anywhere please I’m begging you I need her back in my life and my mom

I need her back in my life and my mom

I need her back in my life and my mom got her stitches and guess what she’s

got her stitches and guess what she’s

got her stitches and guess what she’s the best friend who is here with me in

the best friend who is here with me in

the best friend who is here with me in TED talk actually the stitches that I

TED talk actually the stitches that I

TED talk actually the stitches that I see on going home it’s always going to

see on going home it’s always going to

see on going home it’s always going to be with me and hopefully that it

be with me and hopefully that it

be with me and hopefully that it illustrates that these stitches are

illustrates that these stitches are

illustrates that these stitches are always going to be with us because these

always going to be with us because these

always going to be with us because these stitches are like the scars at our

stitches are like the scars at our

stitches are like the scars at our hearts scars of unwise decisions that

hearts scars of unwise decisions that

hearts scars of unwise decisions that all of us make in our own journeys in

all of us make in our own journeys in

all of us make in our own journeys in our own invisible maze see no matter how

our own invisible maze see no matter how

our own invisible maze see no matter how confident one may be or one may feel the

confident one may be or one may feel the

confident one may be or one may feel the reason why I picked up this topic to

reason why I picked up this topic to

reason why I picked up this topic to choose is because a lot of people

choose is because a lot of people

choose is because a lot of people perceive me as someone that is so

perceive me as someone that is so

perceive me as someone that is so confident someone that is that her life

confident someone that is that her life

confident someone that is that her life is filled with roses and petals and

is filled with roses and petals and

is filled with roses and petals and everything that’s beautiful

everything that’s beautiful

everything that’s beautiful is laid in front of her but believe it

is laid in front of her but believe it

is laid in front of her but believe it or not I’m just human I’m just this one

or not I’m just human I’m just this one

or not I’m just human I’m just this one person who keeps on struggling and don’t

person who keeps on struggling and don’t

person who keeps on struggling and don’t even know what’s in front of her but she

even know what’s in front of her but she

even know what’s in front of her but she keeps on doing on what she loves but

keeps on doing on what she loves but

keeps on doing on what she loves but don’t forget that every path no matter

don’t forget that every path no matter

don’t forget that every path no matter how beautiful a rose is every rose has

how beautiful a rose is every rose has

how beautiful a rose is every rose has its thorns but those thorns are

its thorns but those thorns are

its thorns but those thorns are something that we all overlook but these

something that we all overlook but these

something that we all overlook but these scars no matter what age or race or

scars no matter what age or race or

scars no matter what age or race or experience that we all have they’re

experience that we all have they’re

experience that we all have they’re always going to be with us we have at

always going to be with us we have at

always going to be with us we have at least that one scar of ours whether if

least that one scar of ours whether if

least that one scar of ours whether if it’s from our clumsiness from our

it’s from our clumsiness from our

it’s from our clumsiness from our childhood memories from memories of

childhood memories from memories of

childhood memories from memories of families or friends we’re going to look

families or friends we’re going to look

families or friends we’re going to look at that scar and we’re gonna laugh at it

at that scar and we’re gonna laugh at it

at that scar and we’re gonna laugh at it and we’re just gonna be like oh my gosh

and we’re just gonna be like oh my gosh

and we’re just gonna be like oh my gosh why was I so clumsy at that moment why

why was I so clumsy at that moment why

why was I so clumsy at that moment why did I do something like that and we’re

did I do something like that and we’re

did I do something like that and we’re going to smile and laugh and we’re going

going to smile and laugh and we’re going

going to smile and laugh and we’re going to have thousands of stories to tell

to have thousands of stories to tell

to have thousands of stories to tell each other Hey look see this is

each other Hey look see this is

each other Hey look see this is something that I did in the past and I

something that I did in the past and I

something that I did in the past and I was so done for that

was so done for that

was so done for that that’s because life throws you in the

that’s because life throws you in the

that’s because life throws you in the most hard situation you just they throw

most hard situation you just they throw

most hard situation you just they throw you in this invisible maze assuming that

you in this invisible maze assuming that

you in this invisible maze assuming that you’d probably make it but like I told

you’d probably make it but like I told

you’d probably make it but like I told you that nothing is ever easy and

you that nothing is ever easy and

you that nothing is ever easy and nothing is ever consistent but in this

nothing is ever consistent but in this

nothing is ever consistent but in this maze it’s not easy but it’s not hard

maze it’s not easy but it’s not hard

maze it’s not easy but it’s not hard because it’s either you go the right way

because it’s either you go the right way

because it’s either you go the right way you see rainbows and unicorns or you go

you see rainbows and unicorns or you go

you see rainbows and unicorns or you go the wrong way and then you fall and then

the wrong way and then you fall and then

the wrong way and then you fall and then you tumble you hurt yourself you cry but

you tumble you hurt yourself you cry but

you tumble you hurt yourself you cry but at the end you get back up again

whenever I see the stitches of glue home

whenever I see the stitches of glue home or every scar that I have on my body the

or every scar that I have on my body the

or every scar that I have on my body the only thing I feel that is it’s weird but

only thing I feel that is it’s weird but

only thing I feel that is it’s weird but I feel thankful I feel thankful for even

I feel thankful I feel thankful for even

I feel thankful I feel thankful for even the smallest cuts on my bodies or the

the smallest cuts on my bodies or the

the smallest cuts on my bodies or the biggest scars that I have which is on

biggest scars that I have which is on

biggest scars that I have which is on going home if I were to play 20

going home if I were to play 20

going home if I were to play 20 questions which is a very popular game

questions which is a very popular game

questions which is a very popular game and the most popular question is what

and the most popular question is what

and the most popular question is what would you do if you could rewind back

would you do if you could rewind back

would you do if you could rewind back time and change anything my answer would

time and change anything my answer would

time and change anything my answer would probably be I want to

probably be I want to

probably be I want to amazing I would still be that young girl

amazing I would still be that young girl

amazing I would still be that young girl that would throw her wardrobe and throw

that would throw her wardrobe and throw

that would throw her wardrobe and throw her outfits piece by piece throwing them

her outfits piece by piece throwing them

her outfits piece by piece throwing them in the donation box replacing them with

in the donation box replacing them with

in the donation box replacing them with these black clothes in order to know

these black clothes in order to know

these black clothes in order to know that my love for colors is real I would

that my love for colors is real I would

that my love for colors is real I would still lie to myself that this person

still lie to myself that this person

still lie to myself that this person that I’m with I’m gonna force myself and

that I’m with I’m gonna force myself and

that I’m with I’m gonna force myself and I’m just going to love him I’m so happy

I’m just going to love him I’m so happy

I’m just going to love him I’m so happy even if I’m in tears in order for me to

even if I’m in tears in order for me to

even if I’m in tears in order for me to know what true love really is and for me

know what true love really is and for me

know what true love really is and for me to know the genuine meaning of happiness

to know the genuine meaning of happiness

to know the genuine meaning of happiness I would still rip boy home into two

I would still rip boy home into two

I would still rip boy home into two pieces in order for me to know that no

pieces in order for me to know that no

pieces in order for me to know that no matter how expensive a toy or doll that

matter how expensive a toy or doll that

matter how expensive a toy or doll that my parents buy me no matter how popular

my parents buy me no matter how popular

my parents buy me no matter how popular a person walks into my life they will

a person walks into my life they will

a person walks into my life they will never replace going home because she was

never replace going home because she was

never replace going home because she was with me each and every night of Mines

with me each and every night of Mines

with me each and every night of Mines and each and every nightmare and worst

and each and every nightmare and worst

and each and every nightmare and worst moments of my life see every time that

moments of my life see every time that

moments of my life see every time that you see these scars what I want you to

you see these scars what I want you to

you see these scars what I want you to do is smile smile at whatever it

do is smile smile at whatever it

do is smile smile at whatever it happened in your life because although

happened in your life because although

happened in your life because although it gave you so much pain at that time

it gave you so much pain at that time

it gave you so much pain at that time whether from relationships or from

whether from relationships or from

whether from relationships or from clumsiness as I’ve told you just be

clumsiness as I’ve told you just be

clumsiness as I’ve told you just be thankful for because at the least the

thankful for because at the least the

thankful for because at the least the very least what it taught you is how for

very least what it taught you is how for

very least what it taught you is how for you to avoid pain is how for you to walk

you to avoid pain is how for you to walk

you to avoid pain is how for you to walk in this invisible math maze that nobody

in this invisible math maze that nobody

in this invisible math maze that nobody ever knows what’s going to be in front

ever knows what’s going to be in front

ever knows what’s going to be in front of you not even me who’s kind of trying

of you not even me who’s kind of trying

of you not even me who’s kind of trying to preach you right now I don’t know

to preach you right now I don’t know

to preach you right now I don’t know what’s going to be in front of me and I

what’s going to be in front of me and I

what’s going to be in front of me and I don’t know what’s going to be in front

don’t know what’s going to be in front

don’t know what’s going to be in front of you but I know now that no matter

of you but I know now that no matter

of you but I know now that no matter what happens I choose to love myself I

what happens I choose to love myself I

what happens I choose to love myself I choose to be true to myself and

choose to be true to myself and

choose to be true to myself and hopefully I’ll walk in this invisible

hopefully I’ll walk in this invisible

hopefully I’ll walk in this invisible maze happily and now it’s your turn to

maze happily and now it’s your turn to

maze happily and now it’s your turn to walk in it thank you very much

walk in it thank you very much

walk in it thank you very much you

you

you [Applause]

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