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[Music] everybody go back in time to go back in
everybody go back in time to go back in
everybody go back in time to go back in time with me when you were a teenager
time with me when you were a teenager
time with me when you were a teenager it’s New Years Eve it’s almost midnight
it’s New Years Eve it’s almost midnight
it’s New Years Eve it’s almost midnight everybody’s getting excited because it’s
everybody’s getting excited because it’s
everybody’s getting excited because it’s getting closer to that time the DJ’s
getting closer to that time the DJ’s
getting closer to that time the DJ’s pumping you’re in a gown
pumping you’re in a gown
pumping you’re in a gown everybody had a formal dinner you can’t
everybody had a formal dinner you can’t
everybody had a formal dinner you can’t imagine wearing that same dress again so
imagine wearing that same dress again so
imagine wearing that same dress again so you tell your friends I’m gonna go I’m
you tell your friends I’m gonna go I’m
you tell your friends I’m gonna go I’m gonna go change I’ll be right back
gonna go change I’ll be right back
gonna go change I’ll be right back there’s nothing to this right you’ve
there’s nothing to this right you’ve
there’s nothing to this right you’ve been up and down that hotel room back
been up and down that hotel room back
been up and down that hotel room back and forth for the past few days the same
and forth for the past few days the same
and forth for the past few days the same way pulled out that keycard you
way pulled out that keycard you
way pulled out that keycard you approached that room thinking you’re
approached that room thinking you’re
approached that room thinking you’re gonna change you stick that key card in
gonna change you stick that key card in
gonna change you stick that key card in same slot see the green light you press
same slot see the green light you press
same slot see the green light you press the door handle down you don’t even
the door handle down you don’t even
the door handle down you don’t even realize that this running person behind
realize that this running person behind
realize that this running person behind you and it’s not really a run it seems
you and it’s not really a run it seems
you and it’s not really a run it seems but a long stride a power walk and it
but a long stride a power walk and it
but a long stride a power walk and it doesn’t go past you it stops before you
doesn’t go past you it stops before you
doesn’t go past you it stops before you know it as you’re holding that door
know it as you’re holding that door
know it as you’re holding that door about to get into that dark room you
about to get into that dark room you
about to get into that dark room you feel a loud pressure and it’s a punch
feel a loud pressure and it’s a punch
feel a loud pressure and it’s a punch right on the back and you’re thrown on
right on the back and you’re thrown on
right on the back and you’re thrown on the ground legs kicked in door closes
the ground legs kicked in door closes
the ground legs kicked in door closes behind you and all you see is darkness
behind you and all you see is darkness
behind you and all you see is darkness and you’re on your stomach
and you’re on your stomach
and you’re on your stomach what happens in that darkness marks you
what happens in that darkness marks you
what happens in that darkness marks you for life and labels you a victim forever
for life and labels you a victim forever
for life and labels you a victim forever brands you New Year’s Eve will never be
brands you New Year’s Eve will never be
brands you New Year’s Eve will never be the same you’ll never wear that dress
the same you’ll never wear that dress
the same you’ll never wear that dress again you’ll never see your body in the
again you’ll never see your body in the
again you’ll never see your body in the same way again and you will never trust
same way again and you will never trust
same way again and you will never trust anybody again
fast forward a fast word sixteen years
fast forward a fast word sixteen years you’re an adult maybe you have kids
you’re an adult maybe you have kids
you’re an adult maybe you have kids maybe even a daughter
maybe even a daughter
maybe even a daughter you’ve done your best to get past this
you’ve done your best to get past this
you’ve done your best to get past this traumatic thing in your life you’ve
traumatic thing in your life you’ve
traumatic thing in your life you’ve buried it in there you’ve never had real
buried it in there you’ve never had real
buried it in there you’ve never had real relationships never really did trust
relationships never really did trust
relationships never really did trust anybody divorce separation and all that
anybody divorce separation and all that
anybody divorce separation and all that stuff you you’ve convinced yourself
stuff you you’ve convinced yourself
stuff you you’ve convinced yourself you’ve gone through it and you really
you’ve gone through it and you really
you’ve gone through it and you really have it all that forgetting all that
have it all that forgetting all that
have it all that forgetting all that therapy everything you’ve been through
therapy everything you’ve been through
therapy everything you’ve been through is gone everything comes back to the
is gone everything comes back to the
is gone everything comes back to the surface and you’re forced to deal with
surface and you’re forced to deal with
surface and you’re forced to deal with that forests and forest and again and
that forests and forest and again and
that forests and forest and again and again and again what you do with a life
again and again what you do with a life
again and again what you do with a life like that you’re forced to face it what
like that you’re forced to face it what
like that you’re forced to face it what do you do you do you just lose
do you do you do you just lose
do you do you do you just lose everything it’s not just you anymore
everything it’s not just you anymore
everything it’s not just you anymore you’ve got kids right you got a daughter
you’ve got kids right you got a daughter
you’ve got kids right you got a daughter and she’s got a look at you and she’s
and she’s got a look at you and she’s
and she’s got a look at you and she’s gonna say you know how did my mom deal
gonna say you know how did my mom deal
gonna say you know how did my mom deal with that one day she’s gonna see this
with that one day she’s gonna see this
with that one day she’s gonna see this exact thing she’s just saying how did my
exact thing she’s just saying how did my
exact thing she’s just saying how did my mom deal with that that was three years
mom deal with that that was three years
mom deal with that that was three years ago a week and a half ago what did I do
ago a week and a half ago what did I do
ago a week and a half ago what did I do I got up I didn’t have a choice I got up
I got up I didn’t have a choice I got up
I got up I didn’t have a choice I got up and I said I will not let these two
and I said I will not let these two
and I said I will not let these two things affect me do you just fall apart
things affect me do you just fall apart
things affect me do you just fall apart everybody’s expectation and that
everybody’s expectation and that
everybody’s expectation and that trajectory right you’re supposed to fall
trajectory right you’re supposed to fall
trajectory right you’re supposed to fall apart
apart
apart and everybody looks at you and they feel
and everybody looks at you and they feel
and everybody looks at you and they feel sorry for you and they say oh I can’t
sorry for you and they say oh I can’t
sorry for you and they say oh I can’t believe she went through that but really
believe she went through that but really
believe she went through that but really is that all there is for the rest of my
is that all there is for the rest of my
is that all there is for the rest of my life no no wait hell no you you changed
life no no wait hell no you you changed
life no no wait hell no you you changed that trajectory you change your path
that trajectory you change your path
that trajectory you change your path change that path that rhythm that
change that path that rhythm that
change that path that rhythm that everybody expected me to be I’m gonna be
everybody expected me to be I’m gonna be
everybody expected me to be I’m gonna be something else cuz I’m still here same
something else cuz I’m still here same
something else cuz I’m still here same way no matter what happened the night
way no matter what happened the night
way no matter what happened the night before no matter what happened in your
before no matter what happened in your
before no matter what happened in your past when you were a little child in the
past when you were a little child in the
past when you were a little child in the dark on your stomach’s close your eyes
dark on your stomach’s close your eyes
dark on your stomach’s close your eyes everybody just join me for a minute just
everybody just join me for a minute just
everybody just join me for a minute just indulge me and just close your eyes
indulge me and just close your eyes
indulge me and just close your eyes think of yourself as a child in the dark
think of yourself as a child in the dark
think of yourself as a child in the dark now think about all the things have you
now think about all the things have you
now think about all the things have you been through trauma things that have
been through trauma things that have
been through trauma things that have hurt you affected you told you I can’t
hurt you affected you told you I can’t
hurt you affected you told you I can’t get up today I can’t I can’t face people
get up today I can’t I can’t face people
get up today I can’t I can’t face people today we’ve gone through our own range
today we’ve gone through our own range
today we’ve gone through our own range of traumas not like this some to even
of traumas not like this some to even
of traumas not like this some to even more worse than this more exaggerated
more worse than this more exaggerated
more worse than this more exaggerated things like this more more drastic
things like this more more drastic
things like this more more drastic things than this and we are still here
things than this and we are still here
things than this and we are still here we’re still here I’m still here we don’t
we’re still here I’m still here we don’t
we’re still here I’m still here we don’t have to fall apart we are lucky enough
have to fall apart we are lucky enough
have to fall apart we are lucky enough to have the choices every day to make it
to have the choices every day to make it
to have the choices every day to make it to be what we want to be to rebrand
to be what we want to be to rebrand
to be what we want to be to rebrand ourselves to be the best parents we can
ourselves to be the best parents we can
ourselves to be the best parents we can be to be the best examples in life we
be to be the best examples in life we
be to be the best examples in life we can be so we’re still here guys
can be so we’re still here guys
can be so we’re still here guys you close your eyes and wake up in the
you close your eyes and wake up in the
you close your eyes and wake up in the morning say it you know to yourselves
morning say it you know to yourselves
morning say it you know to yourselves we’re still here it’s not that as bad as
we’re still here it’s not that as bad as
we’re still here it’s not that as bad as we want that he could have been over
we want that he could have been over
we want that he could have been over we’re still here thank you guys thank
we’re still here thank you guys thank
we’re still here thank you guys thank you
you
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