you know when you’re on the bus on your way to work or school Monday morning and
way to work or school Monday morning and
way to work or school Monday morning and it feels so good sitting right there by
it feels so good sitting right there by
it feels so good sitting right there by the window looking out and I usually
the window looking out and I usually
the window looking out and I usually listen to a playlist on Spotify with
listen to a playlist on Spotify with
listen to a playlist on Spotify with songs that I used to like but I’m tired
songs that I used to like but I’m tired
songs that I used to like but I’m tired of listening to all the time but I still
of listening to all the time but I still
of listening to all the time but I still do because it’s the only play list I
do because it’s the only play list I
do because it’s the only play list I have that’s available offline and I
have that’s available offline and I
have that’s available offline and I always forget downloading something new
always forget downloading something new
always forget downloading something new when I get to a place with Wi-Fi and I’m
when I get to a place with Wi-Fi and I’m
when I get to a place with Wi-Fi and I’m thinking yes new week new day while I’m
thinking yes new week new day while I’m
thinking yes new week new day while I’m also worrying about all the work I
also worrying about all the work I
also worrying about all the work I should have finished by Friday but
should have finished by Friday but
should have finished by Friday but that’s why I love sitting there in the
that’s why I love sitting there in the
that’s why I love sitting there in the vacuum of things I should have done but
vacuum of things I should have done but
vacuum of things I should have done but can’t do anything about right now
can’t do anything about right now
can’t do anything about right now because I can’t go anywhere the bus is a
because I can’t go anywhere the bus is a
because I can’t go anywhere the bus is a place of solitude it’s a moving bench in
place of solitude it’s a moving bench in
place of solitude it’s a moving bench in the park where I have nothing and
the park where I have nothing and
the park where I have nothing and everything no future no past and I’m
everything no future no past and I’m
everything no future no past and I’m thinking I wish this moment could last I
thinking I wish this moment could last I
thinking I wish this moment could last I wish I had a little more cash so I could
wish I had a little more cash so I could
wish I had a little more cash so I could take some time off I wish I had a little
take some time off I wish I had a little
take some time off I wish I had a little more time for traveling hanging with my
more time for traveling hanging with my
more time for traveling hanging with my friends working out I wish my facebook
friends working out I wish my facebook
friends working out I wish my facebook didn’t consist of people that I don’t
didn’t consist of people that I don’t
didn’t consist of people that I don’t really know but I know everything about
really know but I know everything about
really know but I know everything about I wish I would stop making the same
I wish I would stop making the same
I wish I would stop making the same choices while expecting things to go
choices while expecting things to go
choices while expecting things to go differently I wish I would think before
differently I wish I would think before
differently I wish I would think before I spoke at least then I would have the
I spoke at least then I would have the
I spoke at least then I would have the ability to lead a normal conversation
ability to lead a normal conversation
ability to lead a normal conversation when that doesn’t go like this you asked
when that doesn’t go like this you asked
when that doesn’t go like this you asked me for information about you know
me for information about you know
me for information about you know whatever it’s something my answer to you
whatever it’s something my answer to you
whatever it’s something my answer to you has nothing to do with what you asked
has nothing to do with what you asked
has nothing to do with what you asked you look at me like this I realize I’ve
you look at me like this I realize I’ve
you look at me like this I realize I’ve said something wrong but instead of
said something wrong but instead of
said something wrong but instead of asking what he really wants to know I
asking what he really wants to know I
asking what he really wants to know I keep talking even though I have no idea
keep talking even though I have no idea
keep talking even though I have no idea what this conversation is about you’re
what this conversation is about you’re
what this conversation is about you’re not saying anything but you’re still
not saying anything but you’re still
not saying anything but you’re still being polite and kind the silence is
being polite and kind the silence is
being polite and kind the silence is extremely awkward but I don’t mind so I
extremely awkward but I don’t mind so I
extremely awkward but I don’t mind so I keep talking
keep talking
keep talking your eyes leap towards the exit sign
your eyes leap towards the exit sign
your eyes leap towards the exit sign signalizing that you want to keep
signalizing that you want to keep
signalizing that you want to keep walking I don’t take the hint you try to
walking I don’t take the hint you try to
walking I don’t take the hint you try to get through but you’re disrupting me
get through but you’re disrupting me
get through but you’re disrupting me trying to run off my monologue so I
trying to run off my monologue so I
trying to run off my monologue so I interrupt you I just want a chance to
interrupt you I just want a chance to
interrupt you I just want a chance to explain to you that there is a point to
explain to you that there is a point to
explain to you that there is a point to what I’m saying so you can’t intervene
what I’m saying so you can’t intervene
what I’m saying so you can’t intervene but I realized there is no point to what
but I realized there is no point to what
but I realized there is no point to what I’m saying at all so I closed the whole
I’m saying at all so I closed the whole
I’m saying at all so I closed the whole thing off with do you know what I mean
thing off with do you know what I mean
thing off with do you know what I mean even though I know that you don’t know
even though I know that you don’t know
even though I know that you don’t know what I mean because I have no idea what
what I mean because I have no idea what
what I mean because I have no idea what I mean I wish I were you know a type of
I mean I wish I were you know a type of
I mean I wish I were you know a type of person who works out regularly
person who works out regularly
person who works out regularly I wish the gym weren’t as lit up as well
I wish the gym weren’t as lit up as well
I wish the gym weren’t as lit up as well me during the holidays and speaking of
me during the holidays and speaking of
me during the holidays and speaking of being drunk during the holidays all the
being drunk during the holidays all the
being drunk during the holidays all the people is the only group of people who
people is the only group of people who
people is the only group of people who doesn’t have to stand in line for the
doesn’t have to stand in line for the
doesn’t have to stand in line for the equipment because they can work out when
equipment because they can work out when
equipment because they can work out when no one else has the time I wish I were
no one else has the time I wish I were
no one else has the time I wish I were an old person I wish I weren’t afraid of
an old person I wish I weren’t afraid of
an old person I wish I weren’t afraid of getting older I’m not ready you know to
getting older I’m not ready you know to
getting older I’m not ready you know to become a grown-up with responsibilities
become a grown-up with responsibilities
become a grown-up with responsibilities but I don’t want to go back either I
but I don’t want to go back either I
but I don’t want to go back either I don’t want to be 18 again not for real
don’t want to be 18 again not for real
don’t want to be 18 again not for real and that should be a perfect base for
and that should be a perfect base for
and that should be a perfect base for being present in this moment right but I
being present in this moment right but I
being present in this moment right but I still want to see if the future is
still want to see if the future is
still want to see if the future is better and I want to go back in time to
better and I want to go back in time to
better and I want to go back in time to understand why life didn’t go as planned
understand why life didn’t go as planned
understand why life didn’t go as planned to see how I would handle the struggle
to see how I would handle the struggle
to see how I would handle the struggle how I would fight with the knowledge I
how I would fight with the knowledge I
how I would fight with the knowledge I have now and tell the little Evelyn from
have now and tell the little Evelyn from
have now and tell the little Evelyn from the past bed everything is going to be
the past bed everything is going to be
the past bed everything is going to be alright
alright
alright trust me I know what you’re going
trust me I know what you’re going
trust me I know what you’re going through and it’s hard but it has taught
through and it’s hard but it has taught
through and it’s hard but it has taught me to be strong you are the reason I am
me to be strong you are the reason I am
me to be strong you are the reason I am Who I am so just hold on I wish I could
Who I am so just hold on I wish I could
Who I am so just hold on I wish I could say that to myself now and actually
say that to myself now and actually
say that to myself now and actually believe it believe there is a meaning I
believe it believe there is a meaning I
believe it believe there is a meaning I wish my head were done screaming I wish
wish my head were done screaming I wish
wish my head were done screaming I wish I could stop the grind I wish I was able
I could stop the grind I wish I was able
I could stop the grind I wish I was able to meditate and still my mind I wish I
to meditate and still my mind I wish I
to meditate and still my mind I wish I didn’t have to rewind conversations in
didn’t have to rewind conversations in
didn’t have to rewind conversations in my head like I think I can change what
my head like I think I can change what
my head like I think I can change what I’ve said I wish I were more like
I’ve said I wish I were more like
I’ve said I wish I were more like Instagram me
Instagram me
Instagram me I wish I were that person I want
I wish I were that person I want
I wish I were that person I want everyone to see in there
everyone to see in there
everyone to see in there we’re all happy perfect fit and
we’re all happy perfect fit and
we’re all happy perfect fit and successful famous rich and everyone’s
successful famous rich and everyone’s
successful famous rich and everyone’s hating thinking I’m not it and is this
hating thinking I’m not it and is this
hating thinking I’m not it and is this it and life becomes a hurricane
it and life becomes a hurricane
it and life becomes a hurricane consisting of roles I can’t fulfill that
consisting of roles I can’t fulfill that
consisting of roles I can’t fulfill that pulls me in and pushes me down but so
pulls me in and pushes me down but so
pulls me in and pushes me down but so slowly I don’t realize what’s going on
slowly I don’t realize what’s going on
slowly I don’t realize what’s going on until I’m on the ground looking up and I
until I’m on the ground looking up and I
until I’m on the ground looking up and I want to rise but what’s the point when
want to rise but what’s the point when
want to rise but what’s the point when every thought you have someone else has
every thought you have someone else has
every thought you have someone else has popped through and everything you do
popped through and everything you do
popped through and everything you do someone else is already done only they
someone else is already done only they
someone else is already done only they did it better than you so I conclude
did it better than you so I conclude
did it better than you so I conclude with I will never be enough but I can
with I will never be enough but I can
with I will never be enough but I can have enough I can consume and get better
have enough I can consume and get better
have enough I can consume and get better costumes prettier masks bigger castles
costumes prettier masks bigger castles
costumes prettier masks bigger castles where I don’t need to deal with the
where I don’t need to deal with the
where I don’t need to deal with the world I wish the world were a beautiful
world I wish the world were a beautiful
world I wish the world were a beautiful place where we acknowledged our mistakes
place where we acknowledged our mistakes
place where we acknowledged our mistakes and could learn from the past I wish the
and could learn from the past I wish the
and could learn from the past I wish the world were a beautiful place where
world were a beautiful place where
world were a beautiful place where rivers of oil didn’t run so fast that
rivers of oil didn’t run so fast that
rivers of oil didn’t run so fast that clean drinking water lost the battle I
clean drinking water lost the battle I
clean drinking water lost the battle I wish the world were a beautiful place
wish the world were a beautiful place
wish the world were a beautiful place where we did not need the Paris
where we did not need the Paris
where we did not need the Paris agreement to achieve the goals of the
agreement to achieve the goals of the
agreement to achieve the goals of the Paris agreement and I wish the world
Paris agreement and I wish the world
Paris agreement and I wish the world were a beautiful place where we could
were a beautiful place where we could
were a beautiful place where we could comprehend the power of what we are
comprehend the power of what we are
comprehend the power of what we are reading where I chose al-jazeera instead
reading where I chose al-jazeera instead
reading where I chose al-jazeera instead of what a certain precedent is tweeting
of what a certain precedent is tweeting
of what a certain precedent is tweeting instead I’m eating fake news like it was
instead I’m eating fake news like it was
instead I’m eating fake news like it was a Big Mac meal I know it’s full of
a Big Mac meal I know it’s full of
a Big Mac meal I know it’s full of but it’s cheap and available and it
but it’s cheap and available and it
but it’s cheap and available and it tastes good but only while I’m eating it
I’m sorry I just wish that what I’m
I’m sorry I just wish that what I’m saying to you guys right now wouldn’t
saying to you guys right now wouldn’t
saying to you guys right now wouldn’t matter you know I just wish it was
matter you know I just wish it was
matter you know I just wish it was enough to talk about what I need to do I
enough to talk about what I need to do I
enough to talk about what I need to do I wish I would stop buying lies on sale
wish I would stop buying lies on sale
wish I would stop buying lies on sale instead of trying to deal with the truth
instead of trying to deal with the truth
instead of trying to deal with the truth I wish I weren’t see-through I wish one
I wish I weren’t see-through I wish one
I wish I weren’t see-through I wish one person on this bus would see me Here I
person on this bus would see me Here I
person on this bus would see me Here I am looking out of the window with plugs
am looking out of the window with plugs
am looking out of the window with plugs in my ears listening to songs I’ve heard
in my ears listening to songs I’ve heard
in my ears listening to songs I’ve heard a million times before that I don’t even
a million times before that I don’t even
a million times before that I don’t even want to hear I’m wishing for a change
want to hear I’m wishing for a change
want to hear I’m wishing for a change while I’m doing exactly the same and our
while I’m doing exactly the same and our
while I’m doing exactly the same and our bus is still moving until one day
bus is still moving until one day
bus is still moving until one day it stops thank you
it stops thank you
it stops thank you [Applause]
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