I Am Not Dead | Jermaine Hughes | TEDxSoMa

I know that by this time I was supposed

I know that by this time I was supposed to have been silent I was supposed to

to have been silent I was supposed to

to have been silent I was supposed to have closed my plans folded my hands and

have closed my plans folded my hands and

have closed my plans folded my hands and stood silent but notice I stand scoping

stood silent but notice I stand scoping

stood silent but notice I stand scoping the stands holding mic stands quite

the stands holding mic stands quite

the stands holding mic stands quite vibrant open ice and focused on grand

vibrant open ice and focused on grand

vibrant open ice and focused on grand the prizes I am not dead people the

the prizes I am not dead people the

the prizes I am not dead people the belief exchange there were weak stuck in

belief exchange there were weak stuck in

belief exchange there were weak stuck in grief and pain painted over holding on

grief and pain painted over holding on

grief and pain painted over holding on to bleak memories that say that I’m an

to bleak memories that say that I’m an

to bleak memories that say that I’m an embarrassment

embarrassment

embarrassment that ought to tarry in a territory

that ought to tarry in a territory

that ought to tarry in a territory boarded up hugging the chair that’s been

boarded up hugging the chair that’s been

boarded up hugging the chair that’s been discarded buried in scary areas staring

discarded buried in scary areas staring

discarded buried in scary areas staring and utter darkness pardon me but I’m a

and utter darkness pardon me but I’m a

and utter darkness pardon me but I’m a wishing that I would die wishing that I

wishing that I would die wishing that I

wishing that I would die wishing that I had military connections so I could

had military connections so I could

had military connections so I could build a very complex thing that would

build a very complex thing that would

build a very complex thing that would allow me to blow my brains up to the sky

allow me to blow my brains up to the sky

allow me to blow my brains up to the sky that would make a red cloud and rain

that would make a red cloud and rain

that would make a red cloud and rain down pieces of AI but somewhere I read

down pieces of AI but somewhere I read

down pieces of AI but somewhere I read how someone special came down the terror

how someone special came down the terror

how someone special came down the terror special drape now there’s no distance

special drape now there’s no distance

special drape now there’s no distance between him and I and so instead of me

between him and I and so instead of me

between him and I and so instead of me blowing my brains up I’m throwing my

blowing my brains up I’m throwing my

blowing my brains up I’m throwing my hands up thinking I’m grateful for the

hands up thinking I’m grateful for the

hands up thinking I’m grateful for the Savior because I and not dead

Savior because I and not dead

Savior because I and not dead see how I move these are not the

see how I move these are not the

see how I move these are not the movements of a dude who lose this too

movements of a dude who lose this too

movements of a dude who lose this too often huge has been cooled and removed

often huge has been cooled and removed

often huge has been cooled and removed with blues and his music his mood as

with blues and his music his mood as

with blues and his music his mood as subdued as dudes off the fluid but it’s

subdued as dudes off the fluid but it’s

subdued as dudes off the fluid but it’s over no more morning every morning

over no more morning every morning

over no more morning every morning poring over missed opportunities this

poring over missed opportunities this

poring over missed opportunities this stops because I list off every fixed

stops because I list off every fixed

stops because I list off every fixed thought pursuing me this stuff is new to

thought pursuing me this stuff is new to

thought pursuing me this stuff is new to me but I’m renewed every noon viewing

me but I’m renewed every noon viewing

me but I’m renewed every noon viewing with new view removed the blues under my

with new view removed the blues under my

with new view removed the blues under my shoes duly screwing me so everything

shoes duly screwing me so everything

shoes duly screwing me so everything that was meant to be a tune for me I

that was meant to be a tune for me I

that was meant to be a tune for me I transform it and make it a womb for me

transform it and make it a womb for me

transform it and make it a womb for me and remove for me the flu was that soon

and remove for me the flu was that soon

and remove for me the flu was that soon would be consuming me and bloom for me

would be consuming me and bloom for me

would be consuming me and bloom for me beautifully dude you see I and not dead

beautifully dude you see I and not dead

beautifully dude you see I and not dead but I am alive like Frankenstein raised

but I am alive like Frankenstein raised

but I am alive like Frankenstein raised with rhymes electrified by divine grace

with rhymes electrified by divine grace

with rhymes electrified by divine grace strength and pride days and nights grace

strength and pride days and nights grace

strength and pride days and nights grace my eyes with hate dis million crime but

my eyes with hate dis million crime but

my eyes with hate dis million crime but I survived because grace makes hate

I survived because grace makes hate

I survived because grace makes hate subside say and I am not dead

subside say and I am not dead

subside say and I am not dead I am not death

I am not death

I am not death Steffan addiction limping broke going

Steffan addiction limping broke going

Steffan addiction limping broke going nowhere with hopelessness in my eyes I

nowhere with hopelessness in my eyes I

nowhere with hopelessness in my eyes I have seen the king and I cling to his

have seen the king and I cling to his

have seen the king and I cling to his feet as he leads me to the skies I will

feet as he leads me to the skies I will

feet as he leads me to the skies I will not populate the prison occupy the

not populate the prison occupy the

not populate the prison occupy the hospital operate in sin or walk towards

hospital operate in sin or walk towards

hospital operate in sin or walk towards my demise I we’re not feeding to being

my demise I we’re not feeding to being

my demise I we’re not feeding to being blue needing new ginger shoes seeking to

blue needing new ginger shoes seeking to

blue needing new ginger shoes seeking to seem real cool just as a disguise this

seem real cool just as a disguise this

seem real cool just as a disguise this guy is guys inside the Christ abiding

guy is guys inside the Christ abiding

guy is guys inside the Christ abiding flag inside the vine right ting I am not

flag inside the vine right ting I am not

flag inside the vine right ting I am not dead I am not dead I am not done

dead I am not dead I am not done

dead I am not dead I am not done diminishing death dangerously driving

diminishing death dangerously driving

diminishing death dangerously driving down demons resounds before opening

down demons resounds before opening

down demons resounds before opening wounds that would wear me down damn for

wounds that would wear me down damn for

wounds that would wear me down damn for tears peering into the eyes of those

tears peering into the eyes of those

tears peering into the eyes of those that would tear me down I am stronger so

that would tear me down I am stronger so

that would tear me down I am stronger so it’s not easy for them to bear me now I

it’s not easy for them to bear me now I

it’s not easy for them to bear me now I have made it in my mind I’m led I have

have made it in my mind I’m led I have

have made it in my mind I’m led I have prayed up until my eyes are red I have

prayed up until my eyes are red I have

prayed up until my eyes are red I have stayed up so it must be said that I am

stayed up so it must be said that I am

stayed up so it must be said that I am not dead thank you