[Applause] maya angelou an american poet memoirs
maya angelou an american poet memoirs
maya angelou an american poet memoirs and civil rights activists once said
and civil rights activists once said
and civil rights activists once said there is no greater agony than bearing
there is no greater agony than bearing
there is no greater agony than bearing it an adult story inside you so here is
it an adult story inside you so here is
it an adult story inside you so here is mine I’m a 20 years old I’m a 20 years
mine I’m a 20 years old I’m a 20 years
mine I’m a 20 years old I’m a 20 years old girl who is lost in this big old
old girl who is lost in this big old
old girl who is lost in this big old crowd there is the world I’m different
crowd there is the world I’m different
crowd there is the world I’m different get the same I see and think things
get the same I see and think things
get the same I see and think things differently because I feel everything so
differently because I feel everything so
differently because I feel everything so deeply but as many of you as many of you
deeply but as many of you as many of you
deeply but as many of you as many of you life had made me go through tough
life had made me go through tough
life had made me go through tough experiences which made me become a
experiences which made me become a
experiences which made me become a better me but I still feel like a mess
better me but I still feel like a mess
better me but I still feel like a mess like I’m incomplete I was naive too
like I’m incomplete I was naive too
like I’m incomplete I was naive too sensitive and shy person with no
sensitive and shy person with no
sensitive and shy person with no self-confidence as a tour of cards hard
self-confidence as a tour of cards hard
self-confidence as a tour of cards hard to build yet easy to crash but I still
to build yet easy to crash but I still
to build yet easy to crash but I still feel like a mess a mess that is torn
feel like a mess a mess that is torn
feel like a mess a mess that is torn between the four quadrants of our brain
between the four quadrants of our brain
between the four quadrants of our brain analytical creative organized and
analytical creative organized and
analytical creative organized and sensitive I’m analytical so I always
sensitive I’m analytical so I always
sensitive I’m analytical so I always overthink everything sometimes even the
overthink everything sometimes even the
overthink everything sometimes even the silliest things I’m organized or at
silliest things I’m organized or at
silliest things I’m organized or at least I’m trying to be in fact sorry
least I’m trying to be in fact sorry
least I’m trying to be in fact sorry sorry in fact I enjoy having everything
sorry in fact I enjoy having everything
sorry in fact I enjoy having everything perfectly planned in advance and I’m
perfectly planned in advance and I’m
perfectly planned in advance and I’m creative well seeking creativity through
creative well seeking creativity through
creative well seeking creativity through drawings singing rapping dancing and
drawings singing rapping dancing and
drawings singing rapping dancing and writing and last but not least I am
writing and last but not least I am
writing and last but not least I am sensitive it is certain that i have long
sensitive it is certain that i have long
sensitive it is certain that i have long battled with this quadrant in my life
battled with this quadrant in my life
battled with this quadrant in my life and I did by going through the five
and I did by going through the five
and I did by going through the five stages that we go through in every
stages that we go through in every
stages that we go through in every situation first denial then anger fear
situation first denial then anger fear
situation first denial then anger fear depression and finally x
depression and finally x
depression and finally x septons but I finally come to the point
septons but I finally come to the point
septons but I finally come to the point where I’ve mastered it it’s neither a
where I’ve mastered it it’s neither a
where I’ve mastered it it’s neither a quality nor a flaw it’s a part of who I
quality nor a flaw it’s a part of who I
quality nor a flaw it’s a part of who I am with all of this it may seem that I
am with all of this it may seem that I
am with all of this it may seem that I have everything figured out but I could
have everything figured out but I could
have everything figured out but I could have been more wrong and more lost than
have been more wrong and more lost than
have been more wrong and more lost than I already a.m. see when you have a brain
I already a.m. see when you have a brain
I already a.m. see when you have a brain like mine that overthinks everything
like mine that overthinks everything
like mine that overthinks everything over and over again and the lives and
over and over again and the lives and
over and over again and the lives and everything creating answers for my
everything creating answers for my
everything creating answers for my unanswerable questions and feeling
unanswerable questions and feeling
unanswerable questions and feeling literally everything you inevitably end
literally everything you inevitably end
literally everything you inevitably end up finding yourself lost nevertheless I
up finding yourself lost nevertheless I
up finding yourself lost nevertheless I have came to a point where I don’t want
have came to a point where I don’t want
have came to a point where I don’t want to live as we’re supposed to be in our
to live as we’re supposed to be in our
to live as we’re supposed to be in our little comfort zone when you need to
little comfort zone when you need to
little comfort zone when you need to study to get a good job and gain money
study to get a good job and gain money
study to get a good job and gain money and have a family of your own no I want
and have a family of your own no I want
and have a family of your own no I want to be more than that I want to make a
to be more than that I want to make a
to be more than that I want to make a change I want to make this world a
change I want to make this world a
change I want to make this world a better place and what a better way to
better place and what a better way to
better place and what a better way to start to make a change then by getting
start to make a change then by getting
start to make a change then by getting real about our topic that has badly been
real about our topic that has badly been
real about our topic that has badly been characterized for a long time by the
characterized for a long time by the
characterized for a long time by the whole society this latter is depression
whole society this latter is depression
whole society this latter is depression many people linked it to Stannis but
many people linked it to Stannis but
many people linked it to Stannis but it’s in fact a major depressive disorder
it’s in fact a major depressive disorder
it’s in fact a major depressive disorder and I first thought of giving you the
and I first thought of giving you the
and I first thought of giving you the whole definition of a major depressive
whole definition of a major depressive
whole definition of a major depressive disorder but it’s something that anyone
disorder but it’s something that anyone
disorder but it’s something that anyone can find on the internet so instead I’m
can find on the internet so instead I’m
can find on the internet so instead I’m going to put you on the shoes of a
going to put you on the shoes of a
going to put you on the shoes of a depressed person and showing you how
depressed person and showing you how
depressed person and showing you how depression messes up your mind from the
depression messes up your mind from the
depression messes up your mind from the moment you open your eyes to the moment
moment you open your eyes to the moment
moment you open your eyes to the moment you go to bed let’s take as an example a
you go to bed let’s take as an example a
you go to bed let’s take as an example a college student so as many of us can
college student so as many of us can
college student so as many of us can relate it’s Monday you’re tired you will
relate it’s Monday you’re tired you will
relate it’s Monday you’re tired you will complete for class and you’re still
complete for class and you’re still
complete for class and you’re still at a slow motion but that’s only the
at a slow motion but that’s only the
at a slow motion but that’s only the surface you got deep inside depression
surface you got deep inside depression
surface you got deep inside depression is whispering in your ears look at you
is whispering in your ears look at you
is whispering in your ears look at you really this is the best you could do
really this is the best you could do
really this is the best you could do today you’re such a lost case and now
today you’re such a lost case and now
today you’re such a lost case and now you’re really wearing this you look so
you’re really wearing this you look so
you’re really wearing this you look so fat in that outfit and don’t get me
fat in that outfit and don’t get me
fat in that outfit and don’t get me started with your hair looks like you’ve
started with your hair looks like you’ve
started with your hair looks like you’ve been held hostage in a cave but then you
been held hostage in a cave but then you
been held hostage in a cave but then you manage to go to class but depression
manage to go to class but depression
manage to go to class but depression never stops it’s like a service working
never stops it’s like a service working
never stops it’s like a service working for 24 hours for seven days it’s
for 24 hours for seven days it’s
for 24 hours for seven days it’s shouting look at these people see how
shouting look at these people see how
shouting look at these people see how their social funny and happy with their
their social funny and happy with their
their social funny and happy with their lives not in near what you are why do
lives not in near what you are why do
lives not in near what you are why do you even bother to go to class anyways
you even bother to go to class anyways
you even bother to go to class anyways you’re stupid slatka it’s not like you
you’re stupid slatka it’s not like you
you’re stupid slatka it’s not like you will achieve anything in your life your
will achieve anything in your life your
will achieve anything in your life your existence means nothing but then you’re
existence means nothing but then you’re
existence means nothing but then you’re in class you can’t follow anything there
in class you can’t follow anything there
in class you can’t follow anything there is a war going on in your head and it
is a war going on in your head and it
is a war going on in your head and it just doesn’t seem to end but it’s not
just doesn’t seem to end but it’s not
just doesn’t seem to end but it’s not just in class it’s not just in class or
just in class it’s not just in class or
just in class it’s not just in class or in your room when you’re alone it’s
in your room when you’re alone it’s
in your room when you’re alone it’s everywhere wherever you go it’s
everywhere wherever you go it’s
everywhere wherever you go it’s following you like your shadow at night
following you like your shadow at night
following you like your shadow at night constantly reminding you that you’re
constantly reminding you that you’re
constantly reminding you that you’re worthless hopeless and helpless days
worthless hopeless and helpless days
worthless hopeless and helpless days passes we expensive than months so you
passes we expensive than months so you
passes we expensive than months so you start to lose appetite or gain depending
start to lose appetite or gain depending
start to lose appetite or gain depending on how you feel you lose based on how on
on how you feel you lose based on how on
on how you feel you lose based on how on the things and activities used to love
the things and activities used to love
the things and activities used to love you lose motivation to do anything you
you lose motivation to do anything you
you lose motivation to do anything you lose hope but the biggest challenge is
lose hope but the biggest challenge is
lose hope but the biggest challenge is that you know that the voices inside
that you know that the voices inside
that you know that the voices inside your head are not really it’s not
your head are not really it’s not
your head are not really it’s not working
but you know but you know that the
but you know but you know that the voices inside your head are not real but
voices inside your head are not real but
voices inside your head are not real but maybe they’re so persuasive and or then
maybe they’re so persuasive and or then
maybe they’re so persuasive and or then again so persistent that you start to
again so persistent that you start to
again so persistent that you start to believe that more and more as time goes
believe that more and more as time goes
believe that more and more as time goes by till it becomes your truth in your
by till it becomes your truth in your
by till it becomes your truth in your head and as if this all of this wasn’t
head and as if this all of this wasn’t
head and as if this all of this wasn’t hard and horrible enough you still need
hard and horrible enough you still need
hard and horrible enough you still need to deal with the fact that depression is
to deal with the fact that depression is
to deal with the fact that depression is stigmatized by the whole society which
stigmatized by the whole society which
stigmatized by the whole society which leaves you unable to talk and open up
leaves you unable to talk and open up
leaves you unable to talk and open up about it about your illness yes an
about it about your illness yes an
about it about your illness yes an illness depression is a disorder that
illness depression is a disorder that
illness depression is a disorder that affects you mentally and physically and
affects you mentally and physically and
affects you mentally and physically and it’s not like when you have the flu or a
it’s not like when you have the flu or a
it’s not like when you have the flu or a stomachache you just you know you just
stomachache you just you know you just
stomachache you just you know you just don’t can heal from it quickly and
don’t can heal from it quickly and
don’t can heal from it quickly and there’s no quick cure for it but that’s
there’s no quick cure for it but that’s
there’s no quick cure for it but that’s not the only problem the thing that gets
not the only problem the thing that gets
not the only problem the thing that gets on my nerves is that societies have
on my nerves is that societies have
on my nerves is that societies have built up a little box around depression
built up a little box around depression
built up a little box around depression a box of shame deny and rejection shame
a box of shame deny and rejection shame
a box of shame deny and rejection shame because you shouldn’t be depressed in
because you shouldn’t be depressed in
because you shouldn’t be depressed in the first place as if you could control
the first place as if you could control
the first place as if you could control it as if you could end it whenever you
it as if you could end it whenever you
it as if you could end it whenever you want it as if it just if it was just a
want it as if it just if it was just a
want it as if it just if it was just a fail and deny because you’re not
fail and deny because you’re not
fail and deny because you’re not depressed you’re just stressed or tired
depressed you’re just stressed or tired
depressed you’re just stressed or tired and rejection because you’re not fun to
and rejection because you’re not fun to
and rejection because you’re not fun to be around you’re always you always look
be around you’re always you always look
be around you’re always you always look sad and you do not fit in the criteria
sad and you do not fit in the criteria
sad and you do not fit in the criteria of society you’re just a weirdo but if
of society you’re just a weirdo but if
of society you’re just a weirdo but if you still can’t get my point let me give
you still can’t get my point let me give
you still can’t get my point let me give you an example you’re with your
you an example you’re with your
you an example you’re with your supposedly friends and here she looks at
supposedly friends and here she looks at
supposedly friends and here she looks at you and say come on cheer up you’re fine
you and say come on cheer up you’re fine
you and say come on cheer up you’re fine and you reply with a smile but inside
and you reply with a smile but inside
and you reply with a smile but inside it’s a big fake smile because you want
it’s a big fake smile because you want
it’s a big fake smile because you want to cry you want to shout but it just it
to cry you want to shout but it just it
to cry you want to shout but it just it just feel like you’re you take an
just feel like you’re you take an
just feel like you’re you take an eternity to explain yourself so you just
eternity to explain yourself so you just
eternity to explain yourself so you just reply within and saying yeah yeah I’m
reply within and saying yeah yeah I’m
reply within and saying yeah yeah I’m just tired it’s okay but you can’t
just tired it’s okay but you can’t
just tired it’s okay but you can’t understand how people can get the way
understand how people can get the way
understand how people can get the way you are so it’s killing you slowly
you are so it’s killing you slowly
you are so it’s killing you slowly inside and slowly killing you inside
inside and slowly killing you inside
inside and slowly killing you inside because you want to get this all out of
because you want to get this all out of
because you want to get this all out of your head but you can’t and and
your head but you can’t and and
your head but you can’t and and depression is depression is still in
depression is depression is still in
depression is depression is still in control and it’s whispering are you
control and it’s whispering are you
control and it’s whispering are you crazy do you want to tell people about
crazy do you want to tell people about
crazy do you want to tell people about your problems you’re lonely and boring
your problems you’re lonely and boring
your problems you’re lonely and boring go kill yourself already it will give us
go kill yourself already it will give us
go kill yourself already it will give us all a break yes my speech may be harsh
all a break yes my speech may be harsh
all a break yes my speech may be harsh but we need to get real about depression
but we need to get real about depression
but we need to get real about depression because if we do not break the hush
because if we do not break the hush
because if we do not break the hush depression will keep on taking more in
depression will keep on taking more in
depression will keep on taking more in more lives every year but for those of
more lives every year but for those of
more lives every year but for those of you who know who’s a friend who’s
you who know who’s a friend who’s
you who know who’s a friend who’s depressed but don’t know how to act
depressed but don’t know how to act
depressed but don’t know how to act don’t worry you don’t have to prepare a
don’t worry you don’t have to prepare a
don’t worry you don’t have to prepare a speech for it you just need to say the
speech for it you just need to say the
speech for it you just need to say the following five words I am here for you
following five words I am here for you
following five words I am here for you and mean them and then just let them
and mean them and then just let them
and mean them and then just let them come to you and explain themselves and
come to you and explain themselves and
come to you and explain themselves and for those of you hard feeling depressed
for those of you hard feeling depressed
for those of you hard feeling depressed listen to my words carefully I have been
listen to my words carefully I have been
listen to my words carefully I have been there and I know how it feels but you
there and I know how it feels but you
there and I know how it feels but you need to stand and fight because this is
need to stand and fight because this is
need to stand and fight because this is not the last chapter of your life this
not the last chapter of your life this
not the last chapter of your life this is not the end because you’re better
is not the end because you’re better
is not the end because you’re better than this because you’re strong and
than this because you’re strong and
than this because you’re strong and worthy of a happy life because you are
worthy of a happy life because you are
worthy of a happy life because you are enough thank
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