my name is tishanna and the title of my poem is fully understood see I was
poem is fully understood see I was
poem is fully understood see I was raised by a single mother not only was
raised by a single mother not only was
raised by a single mother not only was she a single mother she was a single
she a single mother she was a single
she a single mother she was a single black mother see I was raised my mother
black mother see I was raised my mother
black mother see I was raised my mother who wasn’t the richest but made sure we
who wasn’t the richest but made sure we
who wasn’t the richest but made sure we had it all a mother who would always be
had it all a mother who would always be
had it all a mother who would always be this when she got that call a mother
this when she got that call a mother
this when she got that call a mother who’s not only a mother to me but
who’s not only a mother to me but
who’s not only a mother to me but someone to joke with and tell secrets so
someone to joke with and tell secrets so
someone to joke with and tell secrets so that they almost lost my mother was
that they almost lost my mother was
that they almost lost my mother was tragic just wouldn’t believe it but look
tragic just wouldn’t believe it but look
tragic just wouldn’t believe it but look this isn’t a sob story I don’t want a
this isn’t a sob story I don’t want a
this isn’t a sob story I don’t want a pat on the back I just want to see if
pat on the back I just want to see if
pat on the back I just want to see if who collected his pain my mother shot
who collected his pain my mother shot
who collected his pain my mother shot right in front of me on the streets of
right in front of me on the streets of
right in front of me on the streets of Chicago on accident no but with the bear
Chicago on accident no but with the bear
Chicago on accident no but with the bear of the game is a kill shot on hit I hear
of the game is a kill shot on hit I hear
of the game is a kill shot on hit I hear you but even with the bullets firing if
you but even with the bullets firing if
you but even with the bullets firing if someone pulling the trigger I stand
someone pulling the trigger I stand
someone pulling the trigger I stand there froze my heart trusts my head
there froze my heart trusts my head
there froze my heart trusts my head spending I can’t breathe I dropped to my
spending I can’t breathe I dropped to my
spending I can’t breathe I dropped to my knees and I yelled God please see this
knees and I yelled God please see this
knees and I yelled God please see this pain heard it I think more than any
pain heard it I think more than any
pain heard it I think more than any other I couldn’t lose my mother this way
other I couldn’t lose my mother this way
other I couldn’t lose my mother this way not the same way I lost my dad shot down
not the same way I lost my dad shot down
not the same way I lost my dad shot down three balute a chest with no bulletproof
three balute a chest with no bulletproof
three balute a chest with no bulletproof vest on he’s saying streets of Chicago
vest on he’s saying streets of Chicago
vest on he’s saying streets of Chicago so young at the time I couldn’t really
so young at the time I couldn’t really
so young at the time I couldn’t really understand why even as I get older the
understand why even as I get older the
understand why even as I get older the pain still lingers inside of you see I
pain still lingers inside of you see I
pain still lingers inside of you see I grew up without a father and only a
grew up without a father and only a
grew up without a father and only a mother beside me I was doing what she
mother beside me I was doing what she
mother beside me I was doing what she had to to make sure me and my brother
had to to make sure me and my brother
had to to make sure me and my brother were good I feel as if my story’s
were good I feel as if my story’s
were good I feel as if my story’s complex it can never be fully understood
complex it can never be fully understood
complex it can never be fully understood no one ever did nothing for me except my
no one ever did nothing for me except my
no one ever did nothing for me except my mom so how could I lose her I just never
mom so how could I lose her I just never
mom so how could I lose her I just never become sore knees hard times I pray that
become sore knees hard times I pray that
become sore knees hard times I pray that my mama stay happy and lived
my mama stay happy and lived
my mama stay happy and lived I love my mother to the definitely this
I love my mother to the definitely this
I love my mother to the definitely this world already took a piece of me mama
world already took a piece of me mama
world already took a piece of me mama please don’t take the recipe hey even
please don’t take the recipe hey even
please don’t take the recipe hey even today is still hard for me to think back
today is still hard for me to think back
today is still hard for me to think back on the day that I almost lost you weeks
on the day that I almost lost you weeks
on the day that I almost lost you weeks and weeks of therapy we had to go
and weeks of therapy we had to go
and weeks of therapy we had to go through let’s talk about it they said 10
through let’s talk about it they said 10
through let’s talk about it they said 10 was on your mind they said are you
was on your mind they said are you
was on your mind they said are you scared they said any suicidal thoughts
scared they said any suicidal thoughts
scared they said any suicidal thoughts they said four even week after week no I
they said four even week after week no I
they said four even week after week no I don’t want to talk now I’m not scared
don’t want to talk now I’m not scared
don’t want to talk now I’m not scared and on suicidal thoughts why die when
and on suicidal thoughts why die when
and on suicidal thoughts why die when I’m already dead I said and nothing’s on
I’m already dead I said and nothing’s on
I’m already dead I said and nothing’s on my mind but hey hey for this world we
my mind but hey hey for this world we
my mind but hey hey for this world we living in this place we call home this
living in this place we call home this
living in this place we call home this place that almost took my mother away
place that almost took my mother away
place that almost took my mother away from me night after night I had
from me night after night I had
from me night after night I had flashback after flash like PTSD they
flashback after flash like PTSD they
flashback after flash like PTSD they call it wondering should I have called
call it wondering should I have called
call it wondering should I have called that shoot Adele for my college I felt I
that shoot Adele for my college I felt I
that shoot Adele for my college I felt I need a revenge my mind hasn’t been the
need a revenge my mind hasn’t been the
need a revenge my mind hasn’t been the same since by even in that same sense I
same since by even in that same sense I
same since by even in that same sense I hold my mother closer she’s my main
hold my mother closer she’s my main
hold my mother closer she’s my main chick so in these hearts hands I just
chick so in these hearts hands I just
chick so in these hearts hands I just want to tell you don’t push the people
want to tell you don’t push the people
want to tell you don’t push the people you’ve loved
you’ve loved
you’ve loved wait that here were men had gone in the
wait that here were men had gone in the
wait that here were men had gone in the next day so to all of our members I lost
next day so to all of our members I lost
next day so to all of our members I lost about these years I seen you on my love
about these years I seen you on my love
about these years I seen you on my love what I hope at these tears
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