From Dissection Tables to Past Lives – The Story of a Single Identity | Dr. Gaurav Deka | TEDxNITH

so back in the early 90s the annual Book

so back in the early 90s the annual Book Fair in a small city like WA hottie what

Fair in a small city like WA hottie what

Fair in a small city like WA hottie what – she was affair and I remember I loved

– she was affair and I remember I loved

– she was affair and I remember I loved looking at those pictures of this child

looking at those pictures of this child

looking at those pictures of this child more than just reading and my father

more than just reading and my father

more than just reading and my father would make it a point to buy me those

would make it a point to buy me those

would make it a point to buy me those books I would spend my winter evenings

books I would spend my winter evenings

books I would spend my winter evenings flipping over those pages again and

flipping over those pages again and

flipping over those pages again and again I also remember that during that

again I also remember that during that

again I also remember that during that time there was this uncle of mine who

time there was this uncle of mine who

time there was this uncle of mine who would come home on certain weekends this

would come home on certain weekends this

would come home on certain weekends this is the kind of uncle that you find in

is the kind of uncle that you find in

is the kind of uncle that you find in weddings social events gatherings who

weddings social events gatherings who

weddings social events gatherings who would grab hold of a child and force and

would grab hold of a child and force and

would grab hold of a child and force and force the child to repeat the same poem

force the child to repeat the same poem

force the child to repeat the same poem recited every time they meet the child

recited every time they meet the child

recited every time they meet the child so I also had the inner fate of having

so I also had the inner fate of having

so I also had the inner fate of having such an uncle and I remember he had come

such an uncle and I remember he had come

such an uncle and I remember he had come home and asked me to pick up a book from

home and asked me to pick up a book from

home and asked me to pick up a book from a pile of that pile and he asked me to

a pile of that pile and he asked me to

a pile of that pile and he asked me to read and recite to him and I picked up

read and recite to him and I picked up

read and recite to him and I picked up this book which in Assamese was called

this book which in Assamese was called

this book which in Assamese was called Mikey home which in Assamese means would

Mikey home which in Assamese means would

Mikey home which in Assamese means would I like to be when I grew up

I like to be when I grew up

I like to be when I grew up and this book had this particular child

and this book had this particular child

and this book had this particular child character called Ranjan and Ranjan who

character called Ranjan and Ranjan who

character called Ranjan and Ranjan who dream of various vocations on every page

dream of various vocations on every page

dream of various vocations on every page in one he was a doctor in the other an

in one he was a doctor in the other an

in one he was a doctor in the other an astronaut in some other he was an

astronaut in some other he was an

astronaut in some other he was an engineer while I had already developed a

engineer while I had already developed a

engineer while I had already developed a lot of aversion against this particular

lot of aversion against this particular

lot of aversion against this particular uncle of mine for he repeatedly asked me

uncle of mine for he repeatedly asked me

uncle of mine for he repeatedly asked me who would I want to become when I grow

who would I want to become when I grow

who would I want to become when I grow up would I want to be an engineer like

up would I want to be an engineer like

up would I want to be an engineer like my father or him would I want to be a

my father or him would I want to be a

my father or him would I want to be a doctor because we didn’t have doctor in

doctor because we didn’t have doctor in

doctor because we didn’t have doctor in the family or would I want to be I’m

the family or would I want to be I’m

the family or would I want to be I’m just for that was fancy I remember not

just for that was fancy I remember not

just for that was fancy I remember not answering him gawking at him and

answering him gawking at him and

answering him gawking at him and wondering who is this Mauro asking me to

wondering who is this Mauro asking me to

wondering who is this Mauro asking me to become someone else when I already am

become someone else when I already am

become someone else when I already am Who I am so how many of you have faced

Who I am so how many of you have faced

Who I am so how many of you have faced this question as children who would you

this question as children who would you

this question as children who would you like to be when you grow up maybe a

like to be when you grow up maybe a

like to be when you grow up maybe a raise of hands yes and how many of you

raise of hands yes and how many of you

raise of hands yes and how many of you remember you know looking at that

remember you know looking at that

remember you know looking at that annoying asking adult and wondering why

annoying asking adult and wondering why

annoying asking adult and wondering why do I need to become someone when I

do I need to become someone when I

do I need to become someone when I already am Who I am

already am Who I am

already am Who I am so yeah apart from the temporal fallacy

so yeah apart from the temporal fallacy

so yeah apart from the temporal fallacy and the ambiguity of becoming someone

and the ambiguity of becoming someone

and the ambiguity of becoming someone when you already are who you are I feel

when you already are who you are I feel

when you already are who you are I feel the greater fallacy lies in the question

the greater fallacy lies in the question

the greater fallacy lies in the question itself imagine if you are asked what

itself imagine if you are asked what

itself imagine if you are asked what kind of life would you like to have

kind of life would you like to have

kind of life would you like to have would your answer still be the same

would your answer still be the same

would your answer still be the same maybe not because as children we would

maybe not because as children we would

maybe not because as children we would have wished for a much happier life a

have wished for a much happier life a

have wished for a much happier life a merrier life a life full of excitement

merrier life a life full of excitement

merrier life a life full of excitement and adventure and not merely the kind of

and adventure and not merely the kind of

and adventure and not merely the kind of life where you come back from office and

life where you come back from office and

life where you come back from office and in the evening you’re washing plates

in the evening you’re washing plates

in the evening you’re washing plates till you wife to come back home or

till you wife to come back home or

till you wife to come back home or waking up on Monday mornings and

waking up on Monday mornings and

waking up on Monday mornings and wondering if the maid will come or not

wondering if the maid will come or not

wondering if the maid will come or not or say was I’m going to your office and

or say was I’m going to your office and

or say was I’m going to your office and seeing the face of that wretched boss

seeing the face of that wretched boss

seeing the face of that wretched boss every single day it was only during the

every single day it was only during the

every single day it was only during the first year of my medical school that I

first year of my medical school that I

first year of my medical school that I found myself falling indecipherable and

found myself falling indecipherable and

found myself falling indecipherable and profound depression I did not know what

profound depression I did not know what

profound depression I did not know what I was feeling all my colleagues my

I was feeling all my colleagues my

I was feeling all my colleagues my friends would come up to me and

friends would come up to me and

friends would come up to me and me what had gone wrong and I would not

me what had gone wrong and I would not

me what had gone wrong and I would not be able to tell them because at that

be able to tell them because at that

be able to tell them because at that moment I was diagnosed with clinical

moment I was diagnosed with clinical

moment I was diagnosed with clinical depression and obsessive-compulsive

depression and obsessive-compulsive

depression and obsessive-compulsive disorder I only remember that my grades

disorder I only remember that my grades

disorder I only remember that my grades had started falling and from being that

had started falling and from being that

had started falling and from being that Fame topper I found my name in the

Fame topper I found my name in the

Fame topper I found my name in the compartmental list my everyday job would

compartmental list my everyday job would

compartmental list my everyday job would be to go to the anatomy dissection hall

be to go to the anatomy dissection hall

be to go to the anatomy dissection hall and slice out the lungs and the heart

and slice out the lungs and the heart

and slice out the lungs and the heart from a cadaver and wonder is this all to

from a cadaver and wonder is this all to

from a cadaver and wonder is this all to life something about the disintegrating

life something about the disintegrating

life something about the disintegrating pack of muscles the unclocked organs and

pack of muscles the unclocked organs and

pack of muscles the unclocked organs and the drying blood the very fact that the

the drying blood the very fact that the

the drying blood the very fact that the human body has the remarkable ability to

human body has the remarkable ability to

human body has the remarkable ability to hold itself together when it’s alive and

hold itself together when it’s alive and

hold itself together when it’s alive and rot away when it’s not questioned my

rot away when it’s not questioned my

rot away when it’s not questioned my rational empirical mind for the first

rational empirical mind for the first

rational empirical mind for the first time I was plagued with the idea of the

time I was plagued with the idea of the

time I was plagued with the idea of the soul and its inhabitable ‘ti inside the

soul and its inhabitable ‘ti inside the

soul and its inhabitable ‘ti inside the body and yet my medical mind did not let

body and yet my medical mind did not let

body and yet my medical mind did not let me yes so this is the soul basically

me yes so this is the soul basically

me yes so this is the soul basically which was I was plagued with so my

which was I was plagued with so my

which was I was plagued with so my medical mind did not allow me to pursue

medical mind did not allow me to pursue

medical mind did not allow me to pursue that idea at that moment of time because

that idea at that moment of time because

that idea at that moment of time because all such inquiries would either end up

all such inquiries would either end up

all such inquiries would either end up in religious discourses or Theosophical

in religious discourses or Theosophical

in religious discourses or Theosophical or philosophically pacers and I wondered

or philosophically pacers and I wondered

or philosophically pacers and I wondered why I could not be Theosophical

why I could not be Theosophical

why I could not be Theosophical philosopher at the same time at the time

philosopher at the same time at the time

philosopher at the same time at the time when I was a doctor as well why could

when I was a doctor as well why could

when I was a doctor as well why could the two identities not exist I realized

the two identities not exist I realized

the two identities not exist I realized I had lost my path because I had relied

I had lost my path because I had relied

I had lost my path because I had relied too much of importance on becoming

too much of importance on becoming

too much of importance on becoming someone in this case that of a doctor

someone in this case that of a doctor

someone in this case that of a doctor that I thought I must become in order to

that I thought I must become in order to

that I thought I must become in order to have a good life the urgency and the

have a good life the urgency and the

have a good life the urgency and the immediacy of that identity was so

immediacy of that identity was so

immediacy of that identity was so compelling that I did not even think for

compelling that I did not even think for

compelling that I did not even think for once if I would like becoming that

once if I would like becoming that

once if I would like becoming that person or not in my practice today

person or not in my practice today

person or not in my practice today as a psychotherapist I find a lot of

as a psychotherapist I find a lot of

as a psychotherapist I find a lot of people who are abusers sorry who are

people who are abusers sorry who are

people who are abusers sorry who are survivors or our victims of sexual abuse

survivors or our victims of sexual abuse

survivors or our victims of sexual abuse rape and molestation

what I commonly find in them is that a

what I commonly find in them is that a lot of these people are carrying the

lot of these people are carrying the

lot of these people are carrying the unfilled shame and the Unseld guilt of

unfilled shame and the Unseld guilt of

unfilled shame and the Unseld guilt of their abusers and their perpetrators

their abusers and their perpetrators

their abusers and their perpetrators because logically it’s the perpetrators

because logically it’s the perpetrators

because logically it’s the perpetrators and the and the abusers who should have

and the and the abusers who should have

and the and the abusers who should have felt the shame and guilt but the very

felt the shame and guilt but the very

felt the shame and guilt but the very fact that they could roam scot-free and

fact that they could roam scot-free and

fact that they could roam scot-free and dump their unfurls negative feelings of

dump their unfurls negative feelings of

dump their unfurls negative feelings of guilt and shame on their victims made me

guilt and shame on their victims made me

guilt and shame on their victims made me question how much of what we feel is

question how much of what we feel is

question how much of what we feel is truly ours dr. Dane here the famous life

truly ours dr. Dane here the famous life

truly ours dr. Dane here the famous life coach from this organization called

coach from this organization called

coach from this organization called access consciousness tells us that 99%

access consciousness tells us that 99%

access consciousness tells us that 99% of what we feel is not even ours to

of what we feel is not even ours to

of what we feel is not even ours to begin with so this is his question who

begin with so this is his question who

begin with so this is his question who does this belong to the moment you

does this belong to the moment you

does this belong to the moment you identify that a disturbing negative

identify that a disturbing negative

identify that a disturbing negative feeling in your body is not yours

feeling in your body is not yours

feeling in your body is not yours you need to ask this question who does

you need to ask this question who does

you need to ask this question who does this belong to the moment you identify

this belong to the moment you identify

this belong to the moment you identify again that it is not yours you could

again that it is not yours you could

again that it is not yours you could just say that send it back to the sender

just say that send it back to the sender

just say that send it back to the sender with all the consciousness attached

with all the consciousness attached

with all the consciousness attached that’s his line but I believe the

that’s his line but I believe the

that’s his line but I believe the philosophy is so strong to even you know

philosophy is so strong to even you know

philosophy is so strong to even you know understand the fact that we are as human

understand the fact that we are as human

understand the fact that we are as human being walking talking Bluetooth

being walking talking Bluetooth

being walking talking Bluetooth absorbing and picking up emotions from

absorbing and picking up emotions from

absorbing and picking up emotions from everywhere now going back to the story

everywhere now going back to the story

everywhere now going back to the story of victims and survivors a lot of these

of victims and survivors a lot of these

of victims and survivors a lot of these people do not want to give up the pain

people do not want to give up the pain

people do not want to give up the pain the damage and the brokenness that they

the damage and the brokenness that they

the damage and the brokenness that they have suffered because that’s a

have suffered because that’s a

have suffered because that’s a significant part of their identity

significant part of their identity

significant part of their identity significant part of their story they are

significant part of their story they are

significant part of their story they are what they are today because of those

what they are today because of those

what they are today because of those experiences and contrary to popular

experiences and contrary to popular

experiences and contrary to popular belief of courage and bravery such

belief of courage and bravery such

belief of courage and bravery such notions could at times be dangerous

notions could at times be dangerous

notions could at times be dangerous because it doesn’t let them become

because it doesn’t let them become

because it doesn’t let them become anything else apart from the life of the

anything else apart from the life of the

anything else apart from the life of the survivor or the life of the victim I

survivor or the life of the victim I

survivor or the life of the victim I thought of myself as a victim – for the

thought of myself as a victim – for the

thought of myself as a victim – for the longest time in my medical school I kept

longest time in my medical school I kept

longest time in my medical school I kept thinking that I was just a victim and I

thinking that I was just a victim and I

thinking that I was just a victim and I would like to digress and say that being

would like to digress and say that being

would like to digress and say that being a victim is actually easy in the drama

a victim is actually easy in the drama

a victim is actually easy in the drama triangle one could be a victim one could

triangle one could be a victim one could

triangle one could be a victim one could be a prosecutor one could be a rescuer

be a prosecutor one could be a rescuer

be a prosecutor one could be a rescuer and the victim is the only one

and the victim is the only one

and the victim is the only one who can just sit and relax while the

who can just sit and relax while the

who can just sit and relax while the other two at work so I also decided to

other two at work so I also decided to

other two at work so I also decided to sit and relax and be a victim I guess I

sit and relax and be a victim I guess I

sit and relax and be a victim I guess I had relied too much of importance on

had relied too much of importance on

had relied too much of importance on becoming a doctor and how a doctor’s

becoming a doctor and how a doctor’s

becoming a doctor and how a doctor’s life should be so much so that when that

life should be so much so that when that

life should be so much so that when that dream identity was growing on the dream

dream identity was growing on the dream

dream identity was growing on the dream life attached to it was also gone but I

life attached to it was also gone but I

life attached to it was also gone but I guess I got lucky

guess I got lucky

guess I got lucky because I stumbled upon this book on

because I stumbled upon this book on

because I stumbled upon this book on past lives it was the fresh Brian wise

past lives it was the fresh Brian wise

past lives it was the fresh Brian wise doctor Brian wise free pervading through

doctor Brian wise free pervading through

doctor Brian wise free pervading through the spiritual junkie market and one of

the spiritual junkie market and one of

the spiritual junkie market and one of my friends came up and told me that why

my friends came up and told me that why

my friends came up and told me that why should why should I not read this book

should why should I not read this book

should why should I not read this book now Brian wise and this book talks about

now Brian wise and this book talks about

now Brian wise and this book talks about going back to past life and which is

going back to past life and which is

going back to past life and which is previous lifetime and resolving present

previous lifetime and resolving present

previous lifetime and resolving present life issues and that’s what we call as

life issues and that’s what we call as

life issues and that’s what we call as regression therapy the word regression

regression therapy the word regression

regression therapy the word regression means going back in time you can go back

means going back in time you can go back

means going back in time you can go back in time to yesterday you can go back in

in time to yesterday you can go back in

in time to yesterday you can go back in time today before yesterday back in time

time today before yesterday back in time

time today before yesterday back in time to ten years hundred years it doesn’t

to ten years hundred years it doesn’t

to ten years hundred years it doesn’t matter as regression therapies we come

matter as regression therapies we come

matter as regression therapies we come from the school of thought that are

from the school of thought that are

from the school of thought that are presenting problems are not the real

presenting problems are not the real

presenting problems are not the real problems our presented problems are a

problems our presented problems are a

problems our presented problems are a gateway to reach the original problem

gateway to reach the original problem

gateway to reach the original problem which can be mediated through the

which can be mediated through the

which can be mediated through the process of regression by going back in

process of regression by going back in

process of regression by going back in time now it doesn’t matter whether these

time now it doesn’t matter whether these

time now it doesn’t matter whether these different lifetimes that we see in an

different lifetimes that we see in an

different lifetimes that we see in an experience of regression are true or

experience of regression are true or

experience of regression are true or false whether they are valid whether

false whether they are valid whether

false whether they are valid whether they’re authentic it doesn’t matter what

they’re authentic it doesn’t matter what

they’re authentic it doesn’t matter what matters when you move through this

matters when you move through this

matters when you move through this experience you also realize that the

experience you also realize that the

experience you also realize that the event of trauma happened then and this

event of trauma happened then and this

event of trauma happened then and this is now you realize that there is a

is now you realize that there is a

is now you realize that there is a distinction between the trauma happening

distinction between the trauma happening

distinction between the trauma happening then and happening now which is also a

then and happening now which is also a

then and happening now which is also a healing process and that’s what that’s

healing process and that’s what that’s

healing process and that’s what that’s the kind of work I do but then again at

the kind of work I do but then again at

the kind of work I do but then again at that time I kept thinking that all of

that time I kept thinking that all of

that time I kept thinking that all of these metaphysical experiences of going

these metaphysical experiences of going

these metaphysical experiences of going to different lifetimes was nothing but

to different lifetimes was nothing but

to different lifetimes was nothing but imagination without question whether

imagination without question whether

imagination without question whether image

image

image can also be a part of this same physical

can also be a part of this same physical

can also be a part of this same physical reality Neurosci tell us that in the

reality Neurosci tell us that in the

reality Neurosci tell us that in the traditional model of vision perception

traditional model of vision perception

traditional model of vision perception results from processing of data that

results from processing of data that

results from processing of data that comes from the object streams to the

comes from the object streams to the

comes from the object streams to the eyes and goes in the appropriate region

eyes and goes in the appropriate region

eyes and goes in the appropriate region of cortex as the famous neuroscientist

of cortex as the famous neuroscientist

of cortex as the famous neuroscientist David Eagleman says that despite the

David Eagleman says that despite the

David Eagleman says that despite the simplicity of this idea of light going

simplicity of this idea of light going

simplicity of this idea of light going through the eyes and going to the cortex

through the eyes and going to the cortex

through the eyes and going to the cortex this model is incorrect because the

this model is incorrect because the

this model is incorrect because the brain generates its own reality

brain generates its own reality

brain generates its own reality even before the sensory information

even before the sensory information

even before the sensory information reaches the brain and this is what is

reaches the brain and this is what is

reaches the brain and this is what is called as the internal model so the

called as the internal model so the

called as the internal model so the basis of this internal model can be

basis of this internal model can be

basis of this internal model can be found in the anatomy of the brain itself

found in the anatomy of the brain itself

found in the anatomy of the brain itself there is a region of the brain called

there is a region of the brain called

there is a region of the brain called the thalamus and the thalamus sits

the thalamus and the thalamus sits

the thalamus and the thalamus sits between the two eyes in front of the

between the two eyes in front of the

between the two eyes in front of the head and behind at the back of the head

head and behind at the back of the head

head and behind at the back of the head at the cortex now when you are looking

at the cortex now when you are looking

at the cortex now when you are looking at an object a lot of light ray

at an object a lot of light ray

at an object a lot of light ray information is passing through the eyes

information is passing through the eyes

information is passing through the eyes then through the thalamus and going to

then through the thalamus and going to

then through the thalamus and going to the visual cortex so a lot of sensory

the visual cortex so a lot of sensory

the visual cortex so a lot of sensory information connections move through the

information connections move through the

information connections move through the thalamus to end in the visual cortex but

thalamus to end in the visual cortex but

thalamus to end in the visual cortex but there is a surprise here 10 times as

there is a surprise here 10 times as

there is a surprise here 10 times as many such connections run in the

many such connections run in the

many such connections run in the opposite direction which means from the

opposite direction which means from the

opposite direction which means from the cortex thalamus into the eyes which

cortex thalamus into the eyes which

cortex thalamus into the eyes which means at any moment whatever you’re

means at any moment whatever you’re

means at any moment whatever you’re experiencing as seen realize less on the

experiencing as seen realize less on the

experiencing as seen realize less on the amount of light streaming into your eyes

amount of light streaming into your eyes

amount of light streaming into your eyes and go into your cortex and more on

and go into your cortex and more on

and go into your cortex and more on what’s already inside and this is what

what’s already inside and this is what

what’s already inside and this is what was happening to me

was happening to me

was happening to me in a session of regression it was locked

in a session of regression it was locked

in a session of regression it was locked in a state of trance and my external

in a state of trance and my external

in a state of trance and my external world was shut hence my internal model

world was shut hence my internal model

world was shut hence my internal model was generating feelings ideas vivid

was generating feelings ideas vivid

was generating feelings ideas vivid sounds with colors and vivid emotions so

sounds with colors and vivid emotions so

sounds with colors and vivid emotions so at the absence of an external world the

at the absence of an external world the

at the absence of an external world the internal model was able to run free and

internal model was able to run free and

internal model was able to run free and wild

the experience this experience of

the experience this experience of metaphysical experience backed with

metaphysical experience backed with

metaphysical experience backed with neurological understanding helped me

neurological understanding helped me

neurological understanding helped me change my attitude towards past lives I

change my attitude towards past lives I

change my attitude towards past lives I realized that all these different life

realized that all these different life

realized that all these different life that I was seeing

that I was seeing

that I was seeing we’re scattered and forgotten parts of

we’re scattered and forgotten parts of

we’re scattered and forgotten parts of me but at the same time I realized that

me but at the same time I realized that

me but at the same time I realized that these past life demanded me so many

these past life demanded me so many

these past life demanded me so many thing that at the same amount of time at

thing that at the same amount of time at

thing that at the same amount of time at the same point of time these were lives

the same point of time these were lives

the same point of time these were lives which I did not either desire to live or

which I did not either desire to live or

which I did not either desire to live or life that I wanted to live but at the

life that I wanted to live but at the

life that I wanted to live but at the very core it gave me a glimpse of the

very core it gave me a glimpse of the

very core it gave me a glimpse of the fact that I could be so many people and

fact that I could be so many people and

fact that I could be so many people and so many identities in one given moment

so many identities in one given moment

so many identities in one given moment of time and I call these many selves as

of time and I call these many selves as

of time and I call these many selves as the different personal selves trans

the different personal selves trans

the different personal selves trans means beyond personal is the ego or the

means beyond personal is the ego or the

means beyond personal is the ego or the self okay the transparent and if a

self okay the transparent and if a

self okay the transparent and if a Kairos like calcium or Roberto

Kairos like calcium or Roberto

Kairos like calcium or Roberto asaji Olli D the psychiatrist who came

asaji Olli D the psychiatrist who came

asaji Olli D the psychiatrist who came up post Freud if they were alive they

up post Freud if they were alive they

up post Freud if they were alive they would have called these parts of us as

would have called these parts of us as

would have called these parts of us as sub personalities for they were also

sub personalities for they were also

sub personalities for they were also involved in the experiencing the

involved in the experiencing the

involved in the experiencing the metaphysical in therapeutic framework so

metaphysical in therapeutic framework so

metaphysical in therapeutic framework so going back to the point where I said

going back to the point where I said

going back to the point where I said that I could be so many things at one

that I could be so many things at one

that I could be so many things at one given moment of time I could be so many

given moment of time I could be so many

given moment of time I could be so many things that I wasn’t in this current

things that I wasn’t in this current

things that I wasn’t in this current life made me realize that what about

life made me realize that what about

life made me realize that what about this identity that I have today did it

this identity that I have today did it

this identity that I have today did it at all

at all

at all matter who I was today perhaps not

matter who I was today perhaps not

matter who I was today perhaps not mattered is what life was I willing to

mattered is what life was I willing to

mattered is what life was I willing to choose what kind of light did I desire

choose what kind of light did I desire

choose what kind of light did I desire this life this current life and that

this life this current life and that

this life this current life and that question became my portal to move out of

question became my portal to move out of

question became my portal to move out of that monstrous inside as depression that

that monstrous inside as depression that

that monstrous inside as depression that all my friends my colleagues and my

all my friends my colleagues and my

all my friends my colleagues and my parents thought I will never be able to

parents thought I will never be able to

parents thought I will never be able to get out so

get out so

get out so that became my actual portal my talisman

that became my actual portal my talisman

that became my actual portal my talisman I would say human beings I believe are

I would say human beings I believe are

I would say human beings I believe are multi-dimensional beings psychologically

multi-dimensional beings psychologically

multi-dimensional beings psychologically emotionally physically spiritually our

emotionally physically spiritually our

emotionally physically spiritually our brains and bodies change over time all

brains and bodies change over time all

brains and bodies change over time all the time our red blood cells are

the time our red blood cells are

the time our red blood cells are replaced within a span of 120 days our

replaced within a span of 120 days our

replaced within a span of 120 days our skin cells are replaced within a few

skin cells are replaced within a few

skin cells are replaced within a few weeks every atom that you have in your

weeks every atom that you have in your

weeks every atom that you have in your body will be replaced in a span of seven

body will be replaced in a span of seven

body will be replaced in a span of seven years so physically we are constantly a

years so physically we are constantly a

years so physically we are constantly a new I so why stick to one identity I

new I so why stick to one identity I

new I so why stick to one identity I would like to believe that one should

would like to believe that one should

would like to believe that one should first decide what kind of life one would

first decide what kind of life one would

first decide what kind of life one would like to have and then figure out what

like to have and then figure out what

like to have and then figure out what are the different identities can pursue

are the different identities can pursue

are the different identities can pursue to have that life can you be a doctor

to have that life can you be a doctor

to have that life can you be a doctor and have that life can you loss over it

and have that life can you loss over it

and have that life can you loss over it have that life can you be a sex worker

have that life can you be a sex worker

have that life can you be a sex worker and have that life can you be a pole

and have that life can you be a pole

and have that life can you be a pole dancer and have that life

dancer and have that life

dancer and have that life unfortunately when all my colleagues

unfortunately when all my colleagues

unfortunately when all my colleagues feared taking up subjects like pathology

feared taking up subjects like pathology

feared taking up subjects like pathology microbiology or physiology for that

microbiology or physiology for that

microbiology or physiology for that would not allow them to have the

would not allow them to have the

would not allow them to have the stethoscope hanging around their neck

stethoscope hanging around their neck

stethoscope hanging around their neck because it had non clinical subjects

because it had non clinical subjects

because it had non clinical subjects like if I ask you right now

like if I ask you right now

like if I ask you right now what is the actual image of a doctor and

what is the actual image of a doctor and

what is the actual image of a doctor and you would say or someone wearing a white

you would say or someone wearing a white

you would say or someone wearing a white coat and anaesthetise cocaine on the

coat and anaesthetise cocaine on the

coat and anaesthetise cocaine on the neck and they thought that by perceiving

neck and they thought that by perceiving

neck and they thought that by perceiving this non-current clinical subject they

this non-current clinical subject they

this non-current clinical subject they would not be able to have that

would not be able to have that

would not be able to have that particular idea of who a doctor should

particular idea of who a doctor should

particular idea of who a doctor should look like and how a doctor should be and

look like and how a doctor should be and

look like and how a doctor should be and in truth they were running behind these

in truth they were running behind these

in truth they were running behind these identities and not perhaps happiness

identities and not perhaps happiness

identities and not perhaps happiness they gave themselves this rigid

they gave themselves this rigid

they gave themselves this rigid identities of a surgeon or a

identities of a surgeon or a

identities of a surgeon or a gynecologist or a neurosurgeon and in

gynecologist or a neurosurgeon and in

gynecologist or a neurosurgeon and in that process they had to give up those

that process they had to give up those

that process they had to give up those skills that came easily to them and they

skills that came easily to them and they

skills that came easily to them and they picked up skills that were difficult and

picked up skills that were difficult and

picked up skills that were difficult and challenging for they only believed that

challenging for they only believed that

challenging for they only believed that the difficult identity of a surgeon of a

the difficult identity of a surgeon of a

the difficult identity of a surgeon of a gynecologist of a cardiologist would

gynecologist of a cardiologist would

gynecologist of a cardiologist would give them a good life as if that was the

give them a good life as if that was the

give them a good life as if that was the most imperative thing in this

most imperative thing in this

most imperative thing in this and like most of them we don’t care

and like most of them we don’t care

and like most of them we don’t care about happiness we don’t care about what

about happiness we don’t care about what

about happiness we don’t care about what like we would like to have what we care

like we would like to have what we care

like we would like to have what we care about is this rigid identity of who I am

about is this rigid identity of who I am

about is this rigid identity of who I am today

today

today and that’s the problem with believing in

and that’s the problem with believing in

and that’s the problem with believing in a single identity because once you

a single identity because once you

a single identity because once you believe in that identity you will use

believe in that identity you will use

believe in that identity you will use that identity to create a life which in

that identity to create a life which in

that identity to create a life which in the end will not turn out to be the life

the end will not turn out to be the life

the end will not turn out to be the life that you actually desire so when these

that you actually desire so when these

that you actually desire so when these same colleagues come up to me today as

same colleagues come up to me today as

same colleagues come up to me today as patients fortunately unfortunately and

patients fortunately unfortunately and

patients fortunately unfortunately and they tell me that oh you know life is so

they tell me that oh you know life is so

they tell me that oh you know life is so stressful it’s so challenging this job

stressful it’s so challenging this job

stressful it’s so challenging this job is so stressful my inner voice answers

is so stressful my inner voice answers

is so stressful my inner voice answers well precisely yes it is stressful

well precisely yes it is stressful

well precisely yes it is stressful because this the seed of this difficult

because this the seed of this difficult

because this the seed of this difficult life this stressful life is laid long

life this stressful life is laid long

life this stressful life is laid long back when you begin to think what

back when you begin to think what

back when you begin to think what identity would I like to have who would

identity would I like to have who would

identity would I like to have who would I like to become when I grow up instead

I like to become when I grow up instead

I like to become when I grow up instead of thinking what kind of life would I

of thinking what kind of life would I

of thinking what kind of life would I like to have and the latter I’m sure you

like to have and the latter I’m sure you

like to have and the latter I’m sure you all will agree is so much lighter the

all will agree is so much lighter the

all will agree is so much lighter the latter question so I leave it on all of

latter question so I leave it on all of

latter question so I leave it on all of you to explore discover and figure out

you to explore discover and figure out

you to explore discover and figure out your many different multi-dimensional

your many different multi-dimensional

your many different multi-dimensional identities and your transpersonal selves

identities and your transpersonal selves

identities and your transpersonal selves and understand that once you are ready

and understand that once you are ready

and understand that once you are ready to embrace and own these many parts of

to embrace and own these many parts of

to embrace and own these many parts of you the scattered fragmented parts of

you the scattered fragmented parts of

you the scattered fragmented parts of you you can be so many things in one

you you can be so many things in one

you you can be so many things in one given moment of time and then maybe the

given moment of time and then maybe the

given moment of time and then maybe the essential nature of life need not always

essential nature of life need not always

essential nature of life need not always be grave it can be an easier one – thank

be grave it can be an easier one – thank

be grave it can be an easier one – thank you

you

you [Applause]