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Don’t Call My Brother a Junkie | Tamra Tills | TEDxFlourCity


I once knew someone who touched my soul

I once knew someone who touched my soul transcendent in his ways is witty remark

transcendent in his ways is witty remark

transcendent in his ways is witty remark sense of humor and infectious laugh to

sense of humor and infectious laugh to

sense of humor and infectious laugh to get a whole world roaring a young man

get a whole world roaring a young man

get a whole world roaring a young man who would walk into a room and light it

who would walk into a room and light it

who would walk into a room and light it up with just a smile people freezer

up with just a smile people freezer

up with just a smile people freezer someone always out for the underdog star

someone always out for the underdog star

someone always out for the underdog star soccer player and junior amateur golfer

soccer player and junior amateur golfer

soccer player and junior amateur golfer with the opportunity to go pro the

with the opportunity to go pro the

with the opportunity to go pro the expelled in work and at school an organ

expelled in work and at school an organ

expelled in work and at school an organ donor whose heart gave life to another

donor whose heart gave life to another

donor whose heart gave life to another but beneath all this good there was a

but beneath all this good there was a

but beneath all this good there was a dark side to him his addiction to heroin

dark side to him his addiction to heroin

dark side to him his addiction to heroin consumed his soul and changed him into

consumed his soul and changed him into

consumed his soul and changed him into someone I no longer recognized and

someone I no longer recognized and

someone I no longer recognized and although he stole and lied and

although he stole and lied and

although he stole and lied and prioritized drugs I could still see the

prioritized drugs I could still see the

prioritized drugs I could still see the glimmer of his heart during his spells

glimmer of his heart during his spells

glimmer of his heart during his spells of sobriety

of sobriety

of sobriety I saw the guilt and shame that

I saw the guilt and shame that

I saw the guilt and shame that accompanied every relapse as you would

accompanied every relapse as you would

accompanied every relapse as you would lie in bed for days hiding his

lie in bed for days hiding his

lie in bed for days hiding his excruciatingly withdrawal symptoms from

excruciatingly withdrawal symptoms from

excruciatingly withdrawal symptoms from a world desensitized to addiction I saw

a world desensitized to addiction I saw

a world desensitized to addiction I saw the fear in his eyes as he talked about

the fear in his eyes as he talked about

the fear in his eyes as he talked about death and what his children would do

death and what his children would do

death and what his children would do without him I know my brother did not

without him I know my brother did not

without him I know my brother did not choose that life there are 25 million

choose that life there are 25 million

choose that life there are 25 million people suffering with addiction and of

people suffering with addiction and of

people suffering with addiction and of those 25 million only 2.5 million will

those 25 million only 2.5 million will

those 25 million only 2.5 million will receive help that leaves too many people

receive help that leaves too many people

receive help that leaves too many people like me with a broken heart the public

like me with a broken heart the public

like me with a broken heart the public perceives addiction as a moral failing

perceives addiction as a moral failing

perceives addiction as a moral failing or as a choice even though scientific

or as a choice even though scientific

or as a choice even though scientific research has proven time and again that

research has proven time and again that

research has proven time and again that addiction is a chronic disease of the

addiction is a chronic disease of the

addiction is a chronic disease of the brain even the American Medical

brain even the American Medical

brain even the American Medical Association says that addiction results

Association says that addiction results

Association says that addiction results from a combination of genetic

from a combination of genetic

from a combination of genetic predisposition brain chemistry and

predisposition brain chemistry and

predisposition brain chemistry and environment so on one side we have

environment so on one side we have

environment so on one side we have science confirming addiction as a

science confirming addiction as a

science confirming addiction as a disease and on the other we have public

disease and on the other we have public

disease and on the other we have public perception which sees right past the

perception which sees right past the

perception which sees right past the facts of science

facts of science

facts of science looks at an individual with a genetic

looks at an individual with a genetic

looks at an individual with a genetic predisposition and suggests that he or

predisposition and suggests that he or

predisposition and suggests that he or she made a rational choice to be an

she made a rational choice to be an

she made a rational choice to be an addict when in reality being an addict

addict when in reality being an addict

addict when in reality being an addict is not a choice and I can assure you no

is not a choice and I can assure you no

is not a choice and I can assure you no substance abuser will tell you their

substance abuser will tell you their

substance abuser will tell you their goal in life to grow up and become

goal in life to grow up and become

goal in life to grow up and become physically dependent on the drug about

physically dependent on the drug about

physically dependent on the drug about three years ago I found a piece of paper

three years ago I found a piece of paper

three years ago I found a piece of paper on my brother’s nightstand just days

on my brother’s nightstand just days

on my brother’s nightstand just days after he’d overdosed on heroin written

after he’d overdosed on heroin written

after he’d overdosed on heroin written on this piece of paper was a list of

on this piece of paper was a list of

on this piece of paper was a list of goals he had hoped to achieve in life

goals he had hoped to achieve in life

goals he had hoped to achieve in life starting with being a good and loving

starting with being a good and loving

starting with being a good and loving father but nowhere on this list did he

father but nowhere on this list did he

father but nowhere on this list did he revealed that becoming an addict was a

revealed that becoming an addict was a

revealed that becoming an addict was a goal because it wasn’t the negative

goal because it wasn’t the negative

goal because it wasn’t the negative views in assumptions we have are rarely

views in assumptions we have are rarely

views in assumptions we have are rarely based on facts but rather serve as a

based on facts but rather serve as a

based on facts but rather serve as a scapegoat for a disease that society

scapegoat for a disease that society

scapegoat for a disease that society fails to properly address how many times

fails to properly address how many times

fails to properly address how many times have you heard someone referred to a

have you heard someone referred to a

have you heard someone referred to a person with substance use disorder as a

person with substance use disorder as a

person with substance use disorder as a crackhead a junkie a lowlife these

crackhead a junkie a lowlife these

crackhead a junkie a lowlife these labels are all too familiar and

labels are all too familiar and

labels are all too familiar and perpetuate the stigma surrounding

perpetuate the stigma surrounding

perpetuate the stigma surrounding addiction terms like these to humanize

addiction terms like these to humanize

addiction terms like these to humanize them take away from their identity tell

them take away from their identity tell

them take away from their identity tell them they are not good enough and

them they are not good enough and

them they are not good enough and instill an insecurity that is hard to

instill an insecurity that is hard to

instill an insecurity that is hard to recover from the idea that people with

recover from the idea that people with

recover from the idea that people with addictive disorders are weak and

addictive disorders are weak and

addictive disorders are weak and deserving of their fate is so deeply

deserving of their fate is so deeply

deserving of their fate is so deeply embedded into our psyche that we have

embedded into our psyche that we have

embedded into our psyche that we have trouble recognizing the catastrophic

trouble recognizing the catastrophic

trouble recognizing the catastrophic harm these beliefs have on society as a

harm these beliefs have on society as a

harm these beliefs have on society as a whole all of these combined

whole all of these combined

whole all of these combined stigmatization detract people from

stigmatization detract people from

stigmatization detract people from obtaining treatment and if they do get

obtaining treatment and if they do get

obtaining treatment and if they do get help what is currently available was

help what is currently available was

help what is currently available was over 500,000 Americans addicted to

over 500,000 Americans addicted to

over 500,000 Americans addicted to heroin the opioid epidemic warrants

heroin the opioid epidemic warrants

heroin the opioid epidemic warrants research dedicated to better treatments

research dedicated to better treatments

research dedicated to better treatments take the box on her example which the

take the box on her example which the

take the box on her example which the New York Times called the blockbuster

New York Times called the blockbuster

New York Times called the blockbuster drug most people have never heard of the

drug most people have never heard of the

drug most people have never heard of the article goes on to describe that its

article goes on to describe that its

article goes on to describe that its success is fueled by the exploding

success is fueled by the exploding

success is fueled by the exploding opioid epidemic and by federal officials

opioid epidemic and by federal officials

opioid epidemic and by federal officials who have promoted it as a safer less

who have promoted it as a safer less

who have promoted it as a safer less stigmatized alternative to methadone and

stigmatized alternative to methadone and

stigmatized alternative to methadone and suboxone is partly an opioid itself it

suboxone is partly an opioid itself it

suboxone is partly an opioid itself it can produce euphoria and cause

can produce euphoria and cause

can produce euphoria and cause dependency the high hopes presented to

dependency the high hopes presented to

dependency the high hopes presented to our communities have been tempered by a

our communities have been tempered by a

our communities have been tempered by a messy reality

messy reality

messy reality Suboxone has become both medication and

Suboxone has become both medication and

Suboxone has become both medication and dope a treatment with considerable

dope a treatment with considerable

dope a treatment with considerable successes and also failures it is

successes and also failures it is

successes and also failures it is diverted and misused it is sold on the

diverted and misused it is sold on the

diverted and misused it is sold on the black market and it can have serious

black market and it can have serious

black market and it can have serious medical consequences some other approach

medical consequences some other approach

medical consequences some other approach is warranted here there is a drug that

is warranted here there is a drug that

is warranted here there is a drug that is being used as an alternative medicine

is being used as an alternative medicine

is being used as an alternative medicine treatment for drug addiction in other

treatment for drug addiction in other

treatment for drug addiction in other countries ibogaine which may sound

countries ibogaine which may sound

countries ibogaine which may sound foreign to you is making sound in

foreign to you is making sound in

foreign to you is making sound in countries such as Mexico New Zealand it

countries such as Mexico New Zealand it

countries such as Mexico New Zealand it is naturally derived from a plant

is naturally derived from a plant

is naturally derived from a plant indigenous to West Africa it is not an

indigenous to West Africa it is not an

indigenous to West Africa it is not an opioid it is not addictive but it is a

opioid it is not addictive but it is a

opioid it is not addictive but it is a hallucinogenic in the United States it

hallucinogenic in the United States it

hallucinogenic in the United States it is classified as a schedule 1 drug

is classified as a schedule 1 drug

is classified as a schedule 1 drug therefore there’s no government funding

therefore there’s no government funding

therefore there’s no government funding Hertz research with the limited research

Hertz research with the limited research

Hertz research with the limited research that has been done of ibogaine appears

that has been done of ibogaine appears

that has been done of ibogaine appears to have shown a cessation of withdrawal

to have shown a cessation of withdrawal

to have shown a cessation of withdrawal symptoms and cravings following one

symptoms and cravings following one

symptoms and cravings following one single dose but these limited studies

single dose but these limited studies

single dose but these limited studies are not enough to consider it as

are not enough to consider it as

are not enough to consider it as treatment we need more research to

treatment we need more research to

treatment we need more research to determine if it is in fact an effective

determine if it is in fact an effective

determine if it is in fact an effective form of treatment the point is we

form of treatment the point is we

form of treatment the point is we shouldn’t be done looking we need to be

shouldn’t be done looking we need to be

shouldn’t be done looking we need to be aware of and open-minded to the

aware of and open-minded to the

aware of and open-minded to the alternative medicines that are out there

alternative medicines that are out there

alternative medicines that are out there without research though none of this is

without research though none of this is

without research though none of this is possible regardless of whether or not I

possible regardless of whether or not I

possible regardless of whether or not I began is legalized community will always

began is legalized community will always

began is legalized community will always be the backbone of recovery there’s a

be the backbone of recovery there’s a

be the backbone of recovery there’s a powerful documentary out there called

powerful documentary out there called

powerful documentary out there called the anonymous people which illustrates

the anonymous people which illustrates

the anonymous people which illustrates the importance of community support and

the importance of community support and

the importance of community support and people who are in recovery as I was

people who are in recovery as I was

people who are in recovery as I was watching this documentary there was an

watching this documentary there was an

watching this documentary there was an analogy that stuck with me and it went

analogy that stuck with me and it went

analogy that stuck with me and it went something like this today we look at

something like this today we look at

something like this today we look at addiction as a sick and dying tree we

addiction as a sick and dying tree we

addiction as a sick and dying tree we dig the tree up move it to another area

dig the tree up move it to another area

dig the tree up move it to another area or in this case a community we replant

or in this case a community we replant

or in this case a community we replant it in healthy soil nurture it give it

it in healthy soil nurture it give it

it in healthy soil nurture it give it all the love water and Sun that it needs

all the love water and Sun that it needs

all the love water and Sun that it needs and when it comes alive and it’s vibrant

and when it comes alive and it’s vibrant

and when it comes alive and it’s vibrant again we dig it up bring it back plant

again we dig it up bring it back plant

again we dig it up bring it back plant it into the same hole and become shocked

it into the same hole and become shocked

it into the same hole and become shocked when the tree gets sick again because

when the tree gets sick again because

when the tree gets sick again because community is a backbone of recovery the

community is a backbone of recovery the

community is a backbone of recovery the way we choose to respond to people who

way we choose to respond to people who

way we choose to respond to people who are in treatment are just getting out of

are in treatment are just getting out of

are in treatment are just getting out of treatment is not only good going to

treatment is not only good going to

treatment is not only good going to affect their well-being but it is going

affect their well-being but it is going

affect their well-being but it is going to have a huge impact on their desire to

to have a huge impact on their desire to

to have a huge impact on their desire to stay sober being in recovery and

stay sober being in recovery and

stay sober being in recovery and treatment and staying sober is such a

treatment and staying sober is such a

treatment and staying sober is such a beautiful thing it’s an accomplishment

beautiful thing it’s an accomplishment

beautiful thing it’s an accomplishment that deserves to be celebrated so the

that deserves to be celebrated so the

that deserves to be celebrated so the question then becomes where do we serve

question then becomes where do we serve

question then becomes where do we serve how can we change public perception

how can we change public perception

how can we change public perception because asking someone to change the way

because asking someone to change the way

because asking someone to change the way they think proves to be an extremely

they think proves to be an extremely

they think proves to be an extremely typical task to accomplish and because

typical task to accomplish and because

typical task to accomplish and because assumptions generally stem from a

assumptions generally stem from a

assumptions generally stem from a personal bias self-awareness is the

personal bias self-awareness is the

personal bias self-awareness is the first step we need to take take a moment

first step we need to take take a moment

first step we need to take take a moment to yourself and self reflect ask

to yourself and self reflect ask

to yourself and self reflect ask yourself do I have a personal bias do i

yourself do I have a personal bias do i

yourself do I have a personal bias do i scroll past that facebook article titled

scroll past that facebook article titled

scroll past that facebook article titled young girl dies apparent overdose and

young girl dies apparent overdose and

young girl dies apparent overdose and think to myself she did it to herself do

think to myself she did it to herself do

think to myself she did it to herself do I believe that an addict is unhelpful

I believe that an addict is unhelpful

I believe that an addict is unhelpful and deserving of their fate do I assume

and deserving of their fate do I assume

and deserving of their fate do I assume do I assume that addiction results from

do I assume that addiction results from

do I assume that addiction results from a lack of willpower asking these

a lack of willpower asking these

a lack of willpower asking these questions is hard but it allows us to be

questions is hard but it allows us to be

questions is hard but it allows us to be honest with ourselves and helps us

honest with ourselves and helps us

honest with ourselves and helps us recognize a bias we may never know we

recognize a bias we may never know we

recognize a bias we may never know we had we cannot sit idly aside while

had we cannot sit idly aside while

had we cannot sit idly aside while perfectly good people fall help pick

perfectly good people fall help pick

perfectly good people fall help pick them up withhold judgment and educate

them up withhold judgment and educate

them up withhold judgment and educate others along the way too so that moving

others along the way too so that moving

others along the way too so that moving forward my brother will no longer be

forward my brother will no longer be

forward my brother will no longer be referred to as the junkie who killed

referred to as the junkie who killed

referred to as the junkie who killed himself but rather as a young man who

himself but rather as a young man who

himself but rather as a young man who lost his life to a disease let’s instill

lost his life to a disease let’s instill

lost his life to a disease let’s instill hope and knows who our victim of this

hope and knows who our victim of this

hope and knows who our victim of this monster hope that one day there will be

monster hope that one day there will be

monster hope that one day there will be no more labels or assumptions associated

no more labels or assumptions associated

no more labels or assumptions associated with drug use hope that an alternative

with drug use hope that an alternative

with drug use hope that an alternative medicine will emerge to break the deadly

medicine will emerge to break the deadly

medicine will emerge to break the deadly cycle of addiction and hope God hope

cycle of addiction and hope God hope

cycle of addiction and hope God hope that your children never find comfort in

that your children never find comfort in

that your children never find comfort in a needle thank you

a needle thank you

a needle thank you [Applause]

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