how are y’all feeling today have we had a good time so far that’s
have we had a good time so far that’s
have we had a good time so far that’s good I’m really happy that I can see
good I’m really happy that I can see
good I’m really happy that I can see everyone’s faces and usually I’m not so
everyone’s faces and usually I’m not so
everyone’s faces and usually I’m not so you know today’s a day um yeah so if you
you know today’s a day um yeah so if you
you know today’s a day um yeah so if you didn’t go to primary school with me you
didn’t go to primary school with me you
didn’t go to primary school with me you probably wouldn’t know that I lost my
probably wouldn’t know that I lost my
probably wouldn’t know that I lost my little sister when I was 9 years old and
little sister when I was 9 years old and
little sister when I was 9 years old and I distinctly remember the feeling of
I distinctly remember the feeling of
I distinctly remember the feeling of knowing that she was never going to come
knowing that she was never going to come
knowing that she was never going to come back but also expect him to see her in
back but also expect him to see her in
back but also expect him to see her in her cot when I went home and like other
her cot when I went home and like other
her cot when I went home and like other expressions of this was not crying at
expressions of this was not crying at
expressions of this was not crying at her funeral not crying when I went back
her funeral not crying when I went back
her funeral not crying when I went back to school but also being really open
to school but also being really open
to school but also being really open with talking about it when people did
with talking about it when people did
with talking about it when people did ask and so one day when I was in year 9
ask and so one day when I was in year 9
ask and so one day when I was in year 9 and someone asked me how many siblings
and someone asked me how many siblings
and someone asked me how many siblings do you have
do you have
do you have and for the first time I hesitated I
and for the first time I hesitated I
and for the first time I hesitated I didn’t know whether I should say two
didn’t know whether I should say two
didn’t know whether I should say two little sisters or three little sisters
little sisters or three little sisters
little sisters or three little sisters but one died and it was a bit of a wild
but one died and it was a bit of a wild
but one died and it was a bit of a wild one for the next 7 years I denied myself
one for the next 7 years I denied myself
one for the next 7 years I denied myself of the chance to grieve I mean we’ve all
of the chance to grieve I mean we’ve all
of the chance to grieve I mean we’ve all heard that saying like no no parent
heard that saying like no no parent
heard that saying like no no parent wants to like bury their own child and I
wants to like bury their own child and I
wants to like bury their own child and I internalized that notion feeling that I
internalized that notion feeling that I
internalized that notion feeling that I needed to be strong for my mom and my
needed to be strong for my mom and my
needed to be strong for my mom and my dad but it broke me like it literally
dad but it broke me like it literally
dad but it broke me like it literally broke me I actually couldn’t function
broke me I actually couldn’t function
broke me I actually couldn’t function through little-little since sentences
through little-little since sentences
through little-little since sentences like what’s your household like or
like what’s your household like or
like what’s your household like or what’s the dynamic between you and your
what’s the dynamic between you and your
what’s the dynamic between you and your family I would always just imagine what
family I would always just imagine what
family I would always just imagine what would it be like if my little sister was
would it be like if my little sister was
would it be like if my little sister was there two days after my 21st birthday I
there two days after my 21st birthday I
there two days after my 21st birthday I sat down and I started to write in a
sat down and I started to write in a
sat down and I started to write in a faded wanderer by the shore she counted
faded wanderer by the shore she counted
faded wanderer by the shore she counted her steps ten thousand and forty four
her steps ten thousand and forty four
her steps ten thousand and forty four and I had visions of me and my little
and I had visions of me and my little
and I had visions of me and my little sister running up and down the beach
sister running up and down the beach
sister running up and down the beach eating ice cream kicking her feet in the
eating ice cream kicking her feet in the
eating ice cream kicking her feet in the sea do you want to ride on the donkeys
sea do you want to ride on the donkeys
sea do you want to ride on the donkeys and it was through right in that that I
and it was through right in that that I
and it was through right in that that I realized that it’s okay to be strong and
realized that it’s okay to be strong and
realized that it’s okay to be strong and it’s okay to be vulnerable but it’s also
it’s okay to be vulnerable but it’s also
it’s okay to be vulnerable but it’s also okay to be both
okay to be both
okay to be both and in hide-and-seek I find my soul ace
and in hide-and-seek I find my soul ace
and in hide-and-seek I find my soul ace and this song acknowledges that my
and this song acknowledges that my
and this song acknowledges that my sister’s never coming back
sister’s never coming back
sister’s never coming back but for my closure I bask in the belief
but for my closure I bask in the belief
but for my closure I bask in the belief that she’s only just hiding from me so
that she’s only just hiding from me so
that she’s only just hiding from me so this is my song hide-and-seek
this is my song hide-and-seek
this is my song hide-and-seek [Applause]
fada wanderer by the show she counted
fada wanderer by the show she counted her steps 2044 she bowed a service till
her steps 2044 she bowed a service till
her steps 2044 she bowed a service till the combs was no more the Sun could fall
the combs was no more the Sun could fall
the combs was no more the Sun could fall rise again while she cuz then she feels
rise again while she cuz then she feels
rise again while she cuz then she feels past all the seas I want of an unknown
past all the seas I want of an unknown
past all the seas I want of an unknown degree then she say
degree then she say
degree then she say [Music]
Emma’s still why are you hiding it from
Emma’s still why are you hiding it from me
me
me I’m still why are you hiding it from me
[Music]
[Music] then she try to fake it for a while she
then she try to fake it for a while she
then she try to fake it for a while she screams give up and know where you were
screams give up and know where you were
screams give up and know where you were you can come out now it’s time to go
you can come out now it’s time to go
you can come out now it’s time to go home don’t take your time now or I’ll
home don’t take your time now or I’ll
home don’t take your time now or I’ll leave you alone but her luck was too
leave you alone but her luck was too
leave you alone but her luck was too short and finally she called her she
short and finally she called her she
short and finally she called her she knew that the game was over
knew that the game was over
knew that the game was over so she say
so she say
so she say [Music]
number still why are you
number still why are you hiding from me I’m still why are you
hiding from me I’m still why are you
hiding from me I’m still why are you hiding from me darling I love you oh how
hiding from me darling I love you oh how
hiding from me darling I love you oh how I miss you
and still I can’t you I’m still why
and still I can’t you I’m still why can’t you come back to me
[Music]
[Music] thank you very much cool
thank you very much cool
thank you very much cool [Applause]
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