I don’t come from picks mine factor don’t have really any connection to
don’t have really any connection to
don’t have really any connection to peace more I once drove here and bought
peace more I once drove here and bought
peace more I once drove here and bought some chewing gum from a shop up the road
some chewing gum from a shop up the road
some chewing gum from a shop up the road and these Lots said that was okay I mean
and these Lots said that was okay I mean
and these Lots said that was okay I mean so I actually did work in social work
so I actually did work in social work
so I actually did work in social work and this was one of my areas and before
and this was one of my areas and before
and this was one of my areas and before I went crazy I didn’t actually go crazy
I went crazy I didn’t actually go crazy
I went crazy I didn’t actually go crazy here that was in gleadless but I did
here that was in gleadless but I did
here that was in gleadless but I did work this area so that’s my only two
work this area so that’s my only two
work this area so that’s my only two connections to this area but I’m so
connections to this area but I’m so
connections to this area but I’m so pleased to be here tonight and you know
pleased to be here tonight and you know
pleased to be here tonight and you know what I’m actually thinking why don’t I
what I’m actually thinking why don’t I
what I’m actually thinking why don’t I live here you’re all brilliantly mental
live here you’re all brilliantly mental
live here you’re all brilliantly mental it’s fantastic so I’m going to tell you
it’s fantastic so I’m going to tell you
it’s fantastic so I’m going to tell you like my talk really was about how your
like my talk really was about how your
like my talk really was about how your life can change within three seconds and
life can change within three seconds and
life can change within three seconds and my life really did change within three
my life really did change within three
my life really did change within three seconds I was their child protection
seconds I was their child protection
seconds I was their child protection social worker i worked in rather him
social worker i worked in rather him
social worker i worked in rather him social work in the middle of all the
social work in the middle of all the
social work in the middle of all the mess that you will have heard about on
mess that you will have heard about on
mess that you will have heard about on the television and in the newspapers in
the television and in the newspapers in
the television and in the newspapers in two thousand and then i came i bailed
two thousand and then i came i bailed
two thousand and then i came i bailed out with rather women came to work in
out with rather women came to work in
out with rather women came to work in sheffield in 2003 and i worked on the
sheffield in 2003 and i worked on the
sheffield in 2003 and i worked on the refill and assessment team at redvers
refill and assessment team at redvers
refill and assessment team at redvers house and social work is really real a
house and social work is really real a
house and social work is really real a really difficult profession to be in and
really difficult profession to be in and
really difficult profession to be in and it you know you get hit from all angles
it you know you get hit from all angles
it you know you get hit from all angles really it’s a lot of negativity
really it’s a lot of negativity
really it’s a lot of negativity surrounds you and you have to cope with
surrounds you and you have to cope with
surrounds you and you have to cope with in that and something happened to me
in that and something happened to me
in that and something happened to me that I didn’t expect to happen I
that I didn’t expect to happen I
that I didn’t expect to happen I expected to go to university and
expected to go to university and
expected to go to university and graduate and have a career by my house
graduate and have a career by my house
graduate and have a career by my house and you know be ok but actually for many
and you know be ok but actually for many
and you know be ok but actually for many many years what I didn’t realize is that
many years what I didn’t realize is that
many years what I didn’t realize is that I’d been struggling with a mental health
I’d been struggling with a mental health
I’d been struggling with a mental health issue and I hadn’t slept for 27 years
issue and I hadn’t slept for 27 years
issue and I hadn’t slept for 27 years and I had a dad who had an careful itís
and I had a dad who had an careful itís
and I had a dad who had an careful itís and he was disabled and I stopped
and he was disabled and I stopped
and he was disabled and I stopped sleeping around the age of 5 i’m not
sleeping around the age of 5 i’m not
sleeping around the age of 5 i’m not going to go too much into the back story
going to go too much into the back story
going to go too much into the back story of that but i’d used alcohol most of my
of that but i’d used alcohol most of my
of that but i’d used alcohol most of my life to sleep I didn’t but I didn’t
life to sleep I didn’t but I didn’t
life to sleep I didn’t but I didn’t really like alcohol I don’t drink at all
really like alcohol I don’t drink at all
really like alcohol I don’t drink at all now but I used it to get to sleep and
now but I used it to get to sleep and
now but I used it to get to sleep and basically over the years I became more
basically over the years I became more
basically over the years I became more and more poor legs now in march two
and more poor legs now in march two
and more poor legs now in march two thousand four while i was working on the
thousand four while i was working on the
thousand four while i was working on the referral
referral
referral team at redfers house I completely lost
team at redfers house I completely lost
team at redfers house I completely lost the plot and I did it very very publicly
the plot and I did it very very publicly
the plot and I did it very very publicly and everybody knew that I was very and
and everybody knew that I was very and
and everybody knew that I was very and well so apart from me I I had no idea
well so apart from me I I had no idea
well so apart from me I I had no idea how ill I was and I was having a
how ill I was and I was having a
how ill I was and I was having a brilliant time I was trying to change
brilliant time I was trying to change
brilliant time I was trying to change the world I’d set up a community project
the world I’d set up a community project
the world I’d set up a community project within two weeks I’ve got all these kids
within two weeks I’ve got all these kids
within two weeks I’ve got all these kids in the community and got them all
in the community and got them all
in the community and got them all t-shirts we went into school we were
t-shirts we went into school we were
t-shirts we went into school we were shouting that we needed some big changes
shouting that we needed some big changes
shouting that we needed some big changes and I was out to change the world
and I was out to change the world
and I was out to change the world unbeknown to me that I was so ill a lot
unbeknown to me that I was so ill a lot
unbeknown to me that I was so ill a lot of people were behind me I was glowing
of people were behind me I was glowing
of people were behind me I was glowing like 100 watt bulb and attracting lots
like 100 watt bulb and attracting lots
like 100 watt bulb and attracting lots of attention and lots of people people
of attention and lots of people people
of attention and lots of people people in social services were very very
in social services were very very
in social services were very very nervous of me and quite rightly so
nervous of me and quite rightly so
nervous of me and quite rightly so because i was completely bonkers i built
because i was completely bonkers i built
because i was completely bonkers i built a 9-foot penis in my garden with all the
a 9-foot penis in my garden with all the
a 9-foot penis in my garden with all the children in the community actually in
children in the community actually in
children in the community actually in peace more that would go down quite well
peace more that would go down quite well
peace more that would go down quite well in gleadless it didn’t know everybody
in gleadless it didn’t know everybody
in gleadless it didn’t know everybody was very very concerned then took their
was very very concerned then took their
was very very concerned then took their children in and don’t go near that
children in and don’t go near that
children in and don’t go near that mental woman and a huge big ass you know
mental woman and a huge big ass you know
mental woman and a huge big ass you know to tell tony blair to shove it up his
to tell tony blair to shove it up his
to tell tony blair to shove it up his ass over the iraq war and i want a child
ass over the iraq war and i want a child
ass over the iraq war and i want a child so I really thought we had a chance to
so I really thought we had a chance to
so I really thought we had a chance to get that in the saatchi gallery sadly
get that in the saatchi gallery sadly
get that in the saatchi gallery sadly rained and it went very limp my car so
rained and it went very limp my car so
rained and it went very limp my car so that was that and Social Services came
that was that and Social Services came
that was that and Social Services came round to see me now I was a bit nervous
round to see me now I was a bit nervous
round to see me now I was a bit nervous of coming here tonight so notice on the
of coming here tonight so notice on the
of coming here tonight so notice on the facebook site that one of the names was
facebook site that one of the names was
facebook site that one of the names was actually my old manager she was sat in
actually my old manager she was sat in
actually my old manager she was sat in marshall room she’s in my book so if you
marshall room she’s in my book so if you
marshall room she’s in my book so if you are here tonight sorry I do apologize
are here tonight sorry I do apologize
are here tonight sorry I do apologize that I was so crazy you are in the book
that I was so crazy you are in the book
that I was so crazy you are in the book and Social Services said Catherine your
and Social Services said Catherine your
and Social Services said Catherine your medical you are mental and I really
medical you are mental and I really
medical you are mental and I really could not take that on board me mental
could not take that on board me mental
could not take that on board me mental absolutely no way am I meant oh you know
absolutely no way am I meant oh you know
absolutely no way am I meant oh you know this is my penis and you know and and
this is my penis and you know and and
this is my penis and you know and and they gave me the number of em and what
they gave me the number of em and what
they gave me the number of em and what they called an EAP which is an
they called an EAP which is an
they called an EAP which is an employment assistance program in and
employment assistance program in and
employment assistance program in and most or big organizations NHS social
most or big organizations NHS social
most or big organizations NHS social says have them and they gave me this
says have them and they gave me this
says have them and they gave me this number and I phoned it was counselor and
number and I phoned it was counselor and
number and I phoned it was counselor and I knew the minute that that person
I knew the minute that that person
I knew the minute that that person answered the phone that I was in love
answered the phone that I was in love
answered the phone that I was in love I loved him and he said hello my name’s
I loved him and he said hello my name’s
I loved him and he said hello my name’s Barry my name is Barry White and I knew
Barry my name is Barry White and I knew
Barry my name is Barry White and I knew that me and beret were made for each
that me and beret were made for each
that me and beret were made for each other in that split second a
other in that split second a
other in that split second a psychotically ill as I was I knew I
psychotically ill as I was I knew I
psychotically ill as I was I knew I loved him and me and Barry went on a
loved him and me and Barry went on a
loved him and me and Barry went on a journey together in the whole of my book
journey together in the whole of my book
journey together in the whole of my book is based around my non relationship with
is based around my non relationship with
is based around my non relationship with this man who I created this journey with
this man who I created this journey with
this man who I created this journey with him and it took me to Oxford which is
him and it took me to Oxford which is
him and it took me to Oxford which is where Barry was based where the light
where Barry was based where the light
where Barry was based where the light house that I bought from an antique
house that I bought from an antique
house that I bought from an antique shopping rather my chops it in my car
shopping rather my chops it in my car
shopping rather my chops it in my car abandoned my trial with a neighbor and
abandoned my trial with a neighbor and
abandoned my trial with a neighbor and drove off down to Oxford I had already
drove off down to Oxford I had already
drove off down to Oxford I had already spent months and months and months in my
spent months and months and months in my
spent months and months and months in my community being very ill I got arrested
community being very ill I got arrested
community being very ill I got arrested twice they got arrested in being q4
twice they got arrested in being q4
twice they got arrested in being q4 thrown white ain around over a case of
thrown white ain around over a case of
thrown white ain around over a case of false advertising I thought was quite
false advertising I thought was quite
false advertising I thought was quite justified I got arrested in ponds forge
justified I got arrested in ponds forge
justified I got arrested in ponds forge by laying on the floor shouting open
by laying on the floor shouting open
by laying on the floor shouting open swimming but you did again I
swimming but you did again I
swimming but you did again I thought that was fairly justified and if
thought that was fairly justified and if
thought that was fairly justified and if you read my book you will know why if
you read my book you will know why if
you read my book you will know why if you are a swimmer so am I ended up down
you are a swimmer so am I ended up down
you are a swimmer so am I ended up down in Oxford with this lighthouse me in my
in Oxford with this lighthouse me in my
in Oxford with this lighthouse me in my life has to cut a very long because I
life has to cut a very long because I
life has to cut a very long because I only have 10 minutes they sought usually
only have 10 minutes they sought usually
only have 10 minutes they sought usually takes an hour so me and my lighthouse
takes an hour so me and my lighthouse
takes an hour so me and my lighthouse went to Oxford we got on the park and
went to Oxford we got on the park and
went to Oxford we got on the park and ride the light else was on the seat next
ride the light else was on the seat next
ride the light else was on the seat next to me and off we when I camped there on
to me and off we when I camped there on
to me and off we when I camped there on my own I was extremely vulnerable
my own I was extremely vulnerable
my own I was extremely vulnerable extremely psychotic and ended up the
extremely psychotic and ended up the
extremely psychotic and ended up the church not dissimilar to this actually
church not dissimilar to this actually
church not dissimilar to this actually we have lots of screens around me and at
we have lots of screens around me and at
we have lots of screens around me and at the end of the service me and my
the end of the service me and my
the end of the service me and my lighthouse was that right at the back
lighthouse was that right at the back
lighthouse was that right at the back the lighthouse said a chair on its own
the lighthouse said a chair on its own
the lighthouse said a chair on its own and at the end of the service the vicar
and at the end of the service the vicar
and at the end of the service the vicar said has anybody got anything they want
said has anybody got anything they want
said has anybody got anything they want to say to God while I actually firmly
to say to God while I actually firmly
to say to God while I actually firmly believed that was the moment the berry
believed that was the moment the berry
believed that was the moment the berry because obviously we were telepathically
because obviously we were telepathically
because obviously we were telepathically connected why wouldn’t you be that he
connected why wouldn’t you be that he
connected why wouldn’t you be that he was going to be in that church for me he
was going to be in that church for me he
was going to be in that church for me he was going to marry me that was it and I
was going to marry me that was it and I
was going to marry me that was it and I just went on the stage and there was
just went on the stage and there was
just went on the stage and there was lots of other people are pushed out the
lots of other people are pushed out the
lots of other people are pushed out the way and I got on stage not dissimilar
way and I got on stage not dissimilar
way and I got on stage not dissimilar today
today
today this is a bit scary and I started
this is a bit scary and I started
this is a bit scary and I started talking and I said I know he loves me
talking and I said I know he loves me
talking and I said I know he loves me and the whole place went quiet I know he
and the whole place went quiet I know he
and the whole place went quiet I know he speaks to me at night and then people
speaks to me at night and then people
speaks to me at night and then people started standing up going hallelujah
started standing up going hallelujah
started standing up going hallelujah praise the Lord and I know he’s with me
praise the Lord and I know he’s with me
praise the Lord and I know he’s with me he breathes with me he feels me he loves
he breathes with me he feels me he loves
he breathes with me he feels me he loves me he is with me every step of my
me he is with me every step of my
me he is with me every step of my journey and I was very serious and they
journey and I was very serious and they
journey and I was very serious and they were very serious because they were all
were very serious because they were all
were very serious because they were all on their feet shouting hallelujah praise
on their feet shouting hallelujah praise
on their feet shouting hallelujah praise the Lord and at the end of it I said
the Lord and at the end of it I said
the Lord and at the end of it I said Barry White reveal yourself well I
Barry White reveal yourself well I
Barry White reveal yourself well I didn’t realize that they thought I was
didn’t realize that they thought I was
didn’t realize that they thought I was talking about Jesus completely and
talking about Jesus completely and
talking about Jesus completely and utterly went over my head that they
utterly went over my head that they
utterly went over my head that they thought that I would be talking about
thought that I would be talking about
thought that I would be talking about Jesus and of course Barry didn’t come
Jesus and of course Barry didn’t come
Jesus and of course Barry didn’t come and actually was the moment stood on
and actually was the moment stood on
and actually was the moment stood on that stage that I realized how sick I
that stage that I realized how sick I
that stage that I realized how sick I actually was and as funny as that
actually was and as funny as that
actually was and as funny as that chapter ism it was actually one of the
chapter ism it was actually one of the
chapter ism it was actually one of the most difficult chapters to write in the
most difficult chapters to write in the
most difficult chapters to write in the whole book because it was the
whole book because it was the
whole book because it was the realization that stood there naked to
realization that stood there naked to
realization that stood there naked to the world but actually I had some big
the world but actually I had some big
the world but actually I had some big problems and I’d been off work for quite
problems and I’d been off work for quite
problems and I’d been off work for quite a long time at this point and the mental
a long time at this point and the mental
a long time at this point and the mental health team um hadn’t been very
health team um hadn’t been very
health team um hadn’t been very supportive and it was complicated
supportive and it was complicated
supportive and it was complicated getting help to me was complicated and I
getting help to me was complicated and I
getting help to me was complicated and I think there was a general feeling that
think there was a general feeling that
think there was a general feeling that nobody really knew what to do with me
nobody really knew what to do with me
nobody really knew what to do with me and were a bit scared and so basically i
and were a bit scared and so basically i
and were a bit scared and so basically i won’t i came back chef i took this pill
won’t i came back chef i took this pill
won’t i came back chef i took this pill and I after months and months and months
and I after months and months and months
and I after months and months and months of feet going going becoming very
of feet going going becoming very
of feet going going becoming very suicidal I started looking for serial
suicidal I started looking for serial
suicidal I started looking for serial killers because I saw God you know I
killers because I saw God you know I
killers because I saw God you know I don’t know how to kill myself if I could
don’t know how to kill myself if I could
don’t know how to kill myself if I could find a Harold Shipman to do it then at
find a Harold Shipman to do it then at
find a Harold Shipman to do it then at least that would evoke more sympathy
least that would evoke more sympathy
least that would evoke more sympathy than a suicide and I was looking for
than a suicide and I was looking for
than a suicide and I was looking for flats to jump off for a long time what
flats to jump off for a long time what
flats to jump off for a long time what seemed like a long time actual fact I
seemed like a long time actual fact I
seemed like a long time actual fact I think it was just weeks and my mom said
think it was just weeks and my mom said
think it was just weeks and my mom said you know what Cathy need to go back to
you know what Cathy need to go back to
you know what Cathy need to go back to work
work
work so I did I lied to get back to work
so I did I lied to get back to work
so I did I lied to get back to work because i needed that structure i
because i needed that structure i
because i needed that structure i thought i needed that store chair walked
thought i needed that store chair walked
thought i needed that store chair walked in to read verse house sat at my desk
in to read verse house sat at my desk
in to read verse house sat at my desk knowing that I was very unsafe and I was
knowing that I was very unsafe and I was
knowing that I was very unsafe and I was very unwell and I SAT there and open
very unwell and I SAT there and open
very unwell and I SAT there and open these files and they were really serious
these files and they were really serious
these files and they were really serious child protection incidences and they
child protection incidences and they
child protection incidences and they were children that had been sexually
were children that had been sexually
were children that had been sexually abused they were children that had been
abused they were children that had been
abused they were children that had been physically abused and I even went out on
physically abused and I even went out on
physically abused and I even went out on a visit to see one of these families I
a visit to see one of these families I
a visit to see one of these families I was so poorly I was very frightened I
was so poorly I was very frightened I
was so poorly I was very frightened I knew I couldn’t cope and I felt trapped
knew I couldn’t cope and I felt trapped
knew I couldn’t cope and I felt trapped I felt trapped in will but I didn’t know
I felt trapped in will but I didn’t know
I felt trapped in will but I didn’t know where I belonged anymore and to put very
where I belonged anymore and to put very
where I belonged anymore and to put very long story short I went to work one day
long story short I went to work one day
long story short I went to work one day I stood on top of a car park in
I stood on top of a car park in
I stood on top of a car park in Sheffield town centre and I jumped off I
Sheffield town centre and I jumped off I
Sheffield town centre and I jumped off I jumped off approximately 90 feet
jumped off approximately 90 feet
jumped off approximately 90 feet obviously I didn’t get a tape measure
obviously I didn’t get a tape measure
obviously I didn’t get a tape measure out and measure it I’ve been told it’s
out and measure it I’ve been told it’s
out and measure it I’ve been told it’s about 90 feet I landed on my feet I move
about 90 feet I landed on my feet I move
about 90 feet I landed on my feet I move around quite a bit just to take the way
around quite a bit just to take the way
around quite a bit just to take the way on each foot but I I made a real mess of
on each foot but I I made a real mess of
on each foot but I I made a real mess of my body I broke my spine in four places
my body I broke my spine in four places
my body I broke my spine in four places my feet were smashed to bits I survived
my feet were smashed to bits I survived
my feet were smashed to bits I survived we went through hell and it was a very
we went through hell and it was a very
we went through hell and it was a very dark place and you have to go through
dark place and you have to go through
dark place and you have to go through darkness to see the lie you can’t see
darkness to see the lie you can’t see
darkness to see the lie you can’t see light until you’ve experienced darkness
light until you’ve experienced darkness
light until you’ve experienced darkness and we did I did as a fam leg you know
and we did I did as a fam leg you know
and we did I did as a fam leg you know it was a very difficult time for all of
it was a very difficult time for all of
it was a very difficult time for all of us I survived what I knew about what had
us I survived what I knew about what had
us I survived what I knew about what had happened was that there was a huge
happened was that there was a huge
happened was that there was a huge amount of stigma attached to this and
amount of stigma attached to this and
amount of stigma attached to this and actually all like cancer or unlike
actually all like cancer or unlike
actually all like cancer or unlike anything any other illness or disease
anything any other illness or disease
anything any other illness or disease Parkinson’s ms people don’t accommodate
Parkinson’s ms people don’t accommodate
Parkinson’s ms people don’t accommodate you very well when you have a mental
you very well when you have a mental
you very well when you have a mental health problem you know I used to be
health problem you know I used to be
health problem you know I used to be quite sexy used to have lots of male
quite sexy used to have lots of male
quite sexy used to have lots of male attention now I just get like fetish men
attention now I just get like fetish men
attention now I just get like fetish men men that want me to like jump off a sofa
men that want me to like jump off a sofa
men that want me to like jump off a sofa and demonstrate that’s a joke by the way
and demonstrate that’s a joke by the way
and demonstrate that’s a joke by the way you have n to love her nothing really
you have n to love her nothing really
you have n to love her nothing really fat addo gaining man i was just so david
fat addo gaining man i was just so david
fat addo gaining man i was just so david guetta fetish man the first each man
guetta fetish man the first each man
guetta fetish man the first each man will be nicely fight have just been
will be nicely fight have just been
will be nicely fight have just been fumbled with
fumbled with
fumbled with I’m not gonna knickers on hello actually
I’m not gonna knickers on hello actually
I’m not gonna knickers on hello actually nobody phenyl there for a really long
nobody phenyl there for a really long
nobody phenyl there for a really long time so you know stigma is about you
time so you know stigma is about you
time so you know stigma is about you know I had this M I know I’ve gotta go
know I had this M I know I’ve gotta go
know I had this M I know I’ve gotta go soon I’m going to get told off but I had
soon I’m going to get told off but I had
soon I’m going to get told off but I had this in mental health worker that came
this in mental health worker that came
this in mental health worker that came and SAT with me for two years she came
and SAT with me for two years she came
and SAT with me for two years she came and I told her every every couple of
and I told her every every couple of
and I told her every every couple of weeks to get on writing this book i’m
weeks to get on writing this book i’m
weeks to get on writing this book i’m writing this book i started writing
writing this book i started writing
writing this book i started writing cultivating mad cow in the middle of my
cultivating mad cow in the middle of my
cultivating mad cow in the middle of my illness so it really is written from the
illness so it really is written from the
illness so it really is written from the eye of the storm it has got a lot of
eye of the storm it has got a lot of
eye of the storm it has got a lot of swearing be prepared it’s not for your
swearing be prepared it’s not for your
swearing be prepared it’s not for your children and I’d be telling it about
children and I’d be telling it about
children and I’d be telling it about this book and then one day she came and
this book and then one day she came and
this book and then one day she came and I printed it all out on the table and I
I printed it all out on the table and I
I printed it all out on the table and I was so proud and I said you know this is
was so proud and I said you know this is
was so proud and I said you know this is my boss there’s all 15 chapters and she
my boss there’s all 15 chapters and she
my boss there’s all 15 chapters and she said you free in a book I was like I
said you free in a book I was like I
said you free in a book I was like I keep telling you this for two and a half
keep telling you this for two and a half
keep telling you this for two and a half years yeah but Katherine I thought he
years yeah but Katherine I thought he
years yeah but Katherine I thought he was all in your head uh-huh I was a
was all in your head uh-huh I was a
was all in your head uh-huh I was a social worker for God’s sake I went in
social worker for God’s sake I went in
social worker for God’s sake I went in court I was a professional person I
court I was a professional person I
court I was a professional person I don’t suddenly become stupid because
don’t suddenly become stupid because
don’t suddenly become stupid because I’ve had a mental health problem you
I’ve had a mental health problem you
I’ve had a mental health problem you know I’m an intelligent person that’s
know I’m an intelligent person that’s
know I’m an intelligent person that’s had problems of course i can write a
had problems of course i can write a
had problems of course i can write a book you know that’s what stigma looks
book you know that’s what stigma looks
book you know that’s what stigma looks like stigma looks like when you’re not
like stigma looks like when you’re not
like stigma looks like when you’re not allowed to sit on a jury when you can’t
allowed to sit on a jury when you can’t
allowed to sit on a jury when you can’t go to another country without having
go to another country without having
go to another country without having excessive travel insurance you know
excessive travel insurance you know
excessive travel insurance you know stigma looks like when your family
stigma looks like when your family
stigma looks like when your family doesn’t even want to read your book
doesn’t even want to read your book
doesn’t even want to read your book because they can’t face what you’ve done
because they can’t face what you’ve done
because they can’t face what you’ve done if I’d have had cancer that would be
if I’d have had cancer that would be
if I’d have had cancer that would be different but you know what I’m not
different but you know what I’m not
different but you know what I’m not ashamed I am not ashamed that I couldn’t
ashamed I am not ashamed that I couldn’t
ashamed I am not ashamed that I couldn’t cope working in an environment that was
cope working in an environment that was
cope working in an environment that was abnormal and not ashamed that I can’t
abnormal and not ashamed that I can’t
abnormal and not ashamed that I can’t cope working in a system a situation and
cope working in a system a situation and
cope working in a system a situation and a society that actually makes people
a society that actually makes people
a society that actually makes people feel that they have to do so many things
feel that they have to do so many things
feel that they have to do so many things just survive life is so expensive and
just survive life is so expensive and
just survive life is so expensive and when you’re a woman I was a single
when you’re a woman I was a single
when you’re a woman I was a single parent working full-time my trail was in
parent working full-time my trail was in
parent working full-time my trail was in a mess you know I’m not ashamed that I
a mess you know I’m not ashamed that I
a mess you know I’m not ashamed that I can’t go with that
can’t go with that
can’t go with that nobody could cope with what I had to go
nobody could cope with what I had to go
nobody could cope with what I had to go with and what all these social workers
with and what all these social workers
with and what all these social workers have to go with day in day out and other
have to go with day in day out and other
have to go with day in day out and other professionals working on full wine
professionals working on full wine
professionals working on full wine services I am not ashamed and I’m here
services I am not ashamed and I’m here
services I am not ashamed and I’m here today to say that that I’m out and proud
today to say that that I’m out and proud
today to say that that I’m out and proud that I’ve survived and I’m proud that i
that I’ve survived and I’m proud that i
that I’ve survived and I’m proud that i have written this book and I’m proud
have written this book and I’m proud
have written this book and I’m proud that it’s going to be made into a film
that it’s going to be made into a film
that it’s going to be made into a film because I think mental illness isn’t
because I think mental illness isn’t
because I think mental illness isn’t talked about enough and I think we talk
talked about enough and I think we talk
talked about enough and I think we talk about certain aspects are comfortable
about certain aspects are comfortable
about certain aspects are comfortable but I think the most uncomfortable
but I think the most uncomfortable
but I think the most uncomfortable aspects the mental when people like me
aspects the mental when people like me
aspects the mental when people like me that don’t usually survive to stand here
that don’t usually survive to stand here
that don’t usually survive to stand here and tell this story that is
and tell this story that is
and tell this story that is uncomfortable to hear but thank you
uncomfortable to hear but thank you
uncomfortable to hear but thank you thank you for inviting me
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