Is my voice audible?
I was the sweetest one and the smartest one and the most important one.
Almost all of my requests were answered.
Until a little boy was born he took everything from me.
I felt this feeling twice.
The first time: when my little sister was born when I was three years old. Welcome to Nada.
The second time: when I became a mother when I was 23 years old.
For the first time, feelings were justified. The sensation was in place.
Anger is a concept.
They bring you a gift in the hospital of the child.
They give you more time with adults.
But the second time it was strange.
Irrational, not in place.
It was a very embarrassing sensation.
How I am a mother for the first time, my health is good and my son is okay.
Why do I have this sensation?
It was a very embarrassing and shameful feeling, and it was a great secret I did not even admit to myself.
Many of the feelings that we feel in our times are not necessarily born of the moment.
Childhood and adolescence are passed through experiences and experiences
Her feelings are very strong and we did not deal with her.
They become like glasses that see life through them.
And what happens with us is something called transformation.
The first to speak about this principle is the Austrian scientist Freud.
Or in Arabic, convey a feeling we felt in the past to the moment, now.
Example: A respectable, high-ranking employee is happy in his work,
At the manager meeting he said a simple comment on his performance.
Suddenly this comment in a moment reminds him of something his father had told him as a child.
Feeling angry, feeling much more than the situation.
And the disposition out of which he developed.
Feeling familiar, right?
Then he says, “I was not myself, I do not know why I did not.”
And enter into a state of self-hatred.
It is possible that a small position such as this loses him his job, or it is possible to spend a week embarrassed by him afterwards.
But what happens with us is that we live with the idea that what has gone is gone.
We do not pay attention to the things that happen in our lives today and can be as a moving puppet motor
And makes us do the acts that we say about them I do not know did not do so,
Or do not know did not go out of my way, or do not hold myself.
Who am I and myself?
For me, in my experience there are two signs of something that show me that this experience is related to the past.
First, the feeling is very exaggerated.
Second, the reaction is greater than the situation and the logic does not accept it.
The result is often embarrassing.
In my short trip to reconcile myself,
I understood that I could not take any step forward without reconciling with Nov
Who is 16 years old and took her hand,
I reconcile myself to four-year-old Nov and take her with my second hand.
One of my experiences of reconciliation with the past was that I wrote a letter to 16-year-old Nauf.
“Dear Nov, I know it is strange that you read my message but stay with me.
I want to tell you some things.
I want to tell you that you are beautiful.
Your weight is not a plus, and you do not need any cosmetic surgery
Your nose is good.
I want to tell you that your eyes have planets and stars.
Your smile is angelic.
And that your heart, despite its worries, carries the light of the whole world.
I know that the days are slow,
I know you do not feel safe,
I know that you are still afraid of darkness.
I know you have learned to hear your words and be diligent.
I said yes, until you are satisfied.
I know you are trying to please your family, and you fail.
I know you are trying to make friends at school, and you fail.
I know that you are firmly attached to the idea of a Lord, and try to be satisfied with this Lord,
And fail.
I know that failure is not an option for you, but you still fail.
Let me tell you some things.
Adults, although they are good intentions, do not always know what they are doing.
They often try different things until they see what works.
So you feel them, ask them about their childhood, ask them about their adolescence, about their difficult days.
Because a person who injures another, is often wounded.
No, I’m not a pedant, your high intuition and your excessive sensitivity that you always make fun of
Your energies are supernatural.
Nov, your womb is the womb of the universe, is the center of the divine puff.
From it generate the daughters of your thoughts, and in it create a thousand life and life.
Your monthly habit, which you are embarrassed about, is connected to the moon’s houses.
I want to assure you that your needs are real.
Your dreams are dreamy.
That your soul is pure.
Do not claim anyone else tells you this.
Giving excess at the expense of yourself will never make you get love.
Only when you love yourself and want to love.
It’s normal to get a person. I will say it, something natural.
You will learn with time the difference between friendship, love and admiration.
Nov, marriage may be a new beginning, but not necessarily have a happy ending.
Cartoons, fairy tales, movies we grew up on ends with the marriage of two people,
Not always end, this is the beginning.
If you look in the mirror you will know that you are the masked knight you are waiting for.
You will not marry the first person you love,
Which is not a condition to be the last person you love.
I want to tell you that your dialect is nice.
You will always be different in your surroundings, and will not necessarily be compatible with all people.
Because when you are real, you will find someone who looks like you.
Consult your mind but your judgment is your guide.
Finally, I want to tell you that your body is your holy valley.
In this place you and I meet,
In this place the drop meets the ocean, and the ocean encounters the drop.
It is from this place that you and life are one.
Nov, you are important, and your life is important,
Your story is inspiring to me, and perhaps to others. “
Thank.
”
Be First to Comment