
my mother um she’s a sudden woman from the Virginia area and I’m what I found
the Virginia area and I’m what I found
the Virginia area and I’m what I found out later and I’m I only can remember
out later and I’m I only can remember
out later and I’m I only can remember for a small period of some small real
for a small period of some small real
for a small period of some small real small increment of my life that I lived
small increment of my life that I lived
small increment of my life that I lived in bedford-stuyvesant in the early
in bedford-stuyvesant in the early
in bedford-stuyvesant in the early middle 70s eventually we had to move we
middle 70s eventually we had to move we
middle 70s eventually we had to move we were evicted we had to leave the house
were evicted we had to leave the house
were evicted we had to leave the house all of our friends would really politely
all of our friends would really politely
all of our friends would really politely decorated the concrete outside so we had
decorated the concrete outside so we had
decorated the concrete outside so we had to me my brother I guess we had to sit
to me my brother I guess we had to sit
to me my brother I guess we had to sit on the furniture the way to my mother
on the furniture the way to my mother
on the furniture the way to my mother can give a play so we discussed to stay
can give a play so we discussed to stay
can give a play so we discussed to stay and it was just after that was pretty
and it was just after that was pretty
and it was just after that was pretty much hard times welfare when we walked
much hard times welfare when we walked
much hard times welfare when we walked around we which was a much more
around we which was a much more
around we which was a much more aggressive neighborhood and it just
aggressive neighborhood and it just
aggressive neighborhood and it just wasn’t good it was just some
wasn’t good it was just some
wasn’t good it was just some crime-infested drug-infested
crime-infested drug-infested
crime-infested drug-infested neighborhood and it was very aggressive
neighborhood and it was very aggressive
neighborhood and it was very aggressive and my mother had know a lot of men her
and my mother had know a lot of men her
and my mother had know a lot of men her enough friends know a lot of men there
enough friends know a lot of men there
enough friends know a lot of men there wouldn’t be um it wouldn’t be a normal
wouldn’t be um it wouldn’t be a normal
wouldn’t be um it wouldn’t be a normal for me to uh come from one of my friends
for me to uh come from one of my friends
for me to uh come from one of my friends house becoming outsider a man and the
house becoming outsider a man and the
house becoming outsider a man and the woman is in my one of my mother’s room I
woman is in my one of my mother’s room I
woman is in my one of my mother’s room I my mother’s in a row on a man in a woman
my mother’s in a row on a man in a woman
my mother’s in a row on a man in a woman and we can’t go in the room but we have
and we can’t go in the room but we have
and we can’t go in the room but we have to stay outside in the kitchen perhaps
to stay outside in the kitchen perhaps
to stay outside in the kitchen perhaps of the living room we can’t go in the
of the living room we can’t go in the
of the living room we can’t go in the back of the room until I finish
back of the room until I finish
back of the room until I finish [Music]
[Music]
[Music] and that’s just how our life’s been and
and that’s just how our life’s been and
and that’s just how our life’s been and as time went on I’ve learned tongue to
as time went on I’ve learned tongue to
as time went on I’ve learned tongue to what people were in the back that I
what people were in the back that I
what people were in the back that I would um and they fell asleep I will go
would um and they fell asleep I will go
would um and they fell asleep I will go in their pockets and take their money
in their pockets and take their money
in their pockets and take their money and that’s just how it’s been that’s
and that’s just how it’s been that’s
and that’s just how it’s been that’s just what it was all about I learned how
just what it was all about I learned how
just what it was all about I learned how to steal at a younger younger younger my
to steal at a younger younger younger my
to steal at a younger younger younger my mother friends were in the house they
mother friends were in the house they
mother friends were in the house they were drinking I went to go in their
were drinking I went to go in their
were drinking I went to go in their house and the fights came and robbed the
house and the fights came and robbed the
house and the fights came and robbed the house where they were downstairs
house where they were downstairs
house where they were downstairs drinking with my mother and that’s just
drinking with my mother and that’s just
drinking with my mother and that’s just some swelling to do
some swelling to do
some swelling to do [Music]
[Music]
[Music] I had gum I would fall a great
I had gum I would fall a great
I had gum I would fall a great perception if it came from my street
perception if it came from my street
perception if it came from my street life from being locked up from stealing
life from being locked up from stealing
life from being locked up from stealing and facing unbelievable are the young
and facing unbelievable are the young
and facing unbelievable are the young kid had great perception and once I
kid had great perception and once I
kid had great perception and once I watched this guy fight I just knew it
watched this guy fight I just knew it
watched this guy fight I just knew it was a matter of time but I know of them
was a matter of time but I know of them
was a matter of time but I know of them my time will soon come
my time will soon come
my time will soon come [Music]
I know I would have to paint my goal
I know I would have to paint my goal before it existed I knew that I knew I
before it existed I knew that I knew I
before it existed I knew that I knew I would be champ of the world before I
would be champ of the world before I
would be champ of the world before I died I know I wasn’t gonna die before I
died I know I wasn’t gonna die before I
died I know I wasn’t gonna die before I became champ you know
became champ you know
became champ you know dying is just as glorious as living when
dying is just as glorious as living when
dying is just as glorious as living when you really think about it
you really think about it
you really think about it because you couldn’t have a life if you
because you couldn’t have a life if you
because you couldn’t have a life if you didn’t have death and you can’t have
didn’t have death and you can’t have
didn’t have death and you can’t have death without life so how can death be
death without life so how can death be
death without life so how can death be less glorious in life they both wanted
less glorious in life they both wanted
less glorious in life they both wanted intertwine with one another
intertwine with one another
intertwine with one another [Music]
[Music]
[Music] yeah they used to bullying in school and
yeah they used to bullying in school and
yeah they used to bullying in school and so I never went back to school so well
so I never went back to school so well
so I never went back to school so well my mother sent me to school I would yes
my mother sent me to school I would yes
my mother sent me to school I would yes we will hanging around the school
we will hanging around the school
we will hanging around the school walking around the school and this is
walking around the school and this is
walking around the school and this is you know normally we have security guard
you know normally we have security guard
you know normally we have security guard the truant officer they see me I would
the truant officer they see me I would
the truant officer they see me I would take off and run
take off and run
take off and run I hide in the building I bet in the
I hide in the building I bet in the
I hide in the building I bet in the building but I’m normally um my
building but I’m normally um my
building but I’m normally um my mother-in-law wasn’t going to school
mother-in-law wasn’t going to school
mother-in-law wasn’t going to school then I met some guys one day and they
then I met some guys one day and they
then I met some guys one day and they did the food too ripping me off and they
did the food too ripping me off and they
did the food too ripping me off and they really they have no money
really they have no money
really they have no money and then I’m but on lunch time I used to
and then I’m but on lunch time I used to
and then I’m but on lunch time I used to go in school eating lunch and then leave
go in school eating lunch and then leave
go in school eating lunch and then leave school again so I’m smoking what happens
school again so I’m smoking what happens
school again so I’m smoking what happens meatballs and spaghetti so um one time
meatballs and spaghetti so um one time
meatballs and spaghetti so um one time these guys um they wanted to rip me off
these guys um they wanted to rip me off
these guys um they wanted to rip me off and I had no money today actually do you
and I had no money today actually do you
and I had no money today actually do you want to fly birds with me so I said what
want to fly birds with me so I said what
want to fly birds with me so I said what do you mean did you want to fly with us
do you mean did you want to fly with us
do you mean did you want to fly with us and then I realized that the M it took
and then I realized that the M it took
and then I realized that the M it took me this abandoned building but they
me this abandoned building but they
me this abandoned building but they wanted me to get my milk the milk
wanted me to get my milk the milk
wanted me to get my milk the milk climbed the fence and throw milk crates
climbed the fence and throw milk crates
climbed the fence and throw milk crates over to them and I didn’t understand why
over to them and I didn’t understand why
over to them and I didn’t understand why they wanted to milk crates but I did it
they wanted to milk crates but I did it
they wanted to milk crates but I did it anyway because kind of scared but and
anyway because kind of scared but and
anyway because kind of scared but and then they had to go to this abandoned
then they had to go to this abandoned
then they had to go to this abandoned building I didn’t know what there wasn’t
building I didn’t know what there wasn’t
building I didn’t know what there wasn’t me in that building you know so when I
me in that building you know so when I
me in that building you know so when I want to be I throw on the roof to have
want to be I throw on the roof to have
want to be I throw on the roof to have pigeons and then after that I never went
pigeons and then after that I never went
pigeons and then after that I never went to the UM I never went to school again
to the UM I never went to school again
to the UM I never went to school again once I found that had a pigeon coop and
once I found that had a pigeon coop and
once I found that had a pigeon coop and I could beat these guys flunky then go
I could beat these guys flunky then go
I could beat these guys flunky then go to the store for them and if the birds
to the store for them and if the birds
to the store for them and if the birds will Harbor in horrible conditions for
will Harbor in horrible conditions for
will Harbor in horrible conditions for the birds will fly for a little while
the birds will fly for a little while
the birds will fly for a little while and land on another roof and then make
and land on another roof and then make
and land on another roof and then make me get up and go on that roof shootings
me get up and go on that roof shootings
me get up and go on that roof shootings get the bird off the roof so I would go
get the bird off the roof so I would go
get the bird off the roof so I would go to all these rules that the lady birds
to all these rules that the lady birds
to all these rules that the lady birds flew on and scare the birds off hoping
flew on and scare the birds off hoping
flew on and scare the birds off hoping that they would go back to the roof
that they would go back to the roof
that they would go back to the roof where the guys were and I thought that
where the guys were and I thought that
where the guys were and I thought that pretty cool because I saw one and
pretty cool because I saw one and
pretty cool because I saw one and because at least somebody wanted me to
because at least somebody wanted me to
because at least somebody wanted me to do something for so the next day instead
do something for so the next day instead
do something for so the next day instead of go back around walking around school
of go back around walking around school
of go back around walking around school I went to the pigeon coop and the guy
I went to the pigeon coop and the guy
I went to the pigeon coop and the guy saw me and he said excuse me young man
saw me and he said excuse me young man
saw me and he said excuse me young man they said what the fuck are you doing
they said what the fuck are you doing
they said what the fuck are you doing and they started throwing works at me
and they started throwing works at me
and they started throwing works at me and while they were on the roof and I
and while they were on the roof and I
and while they were on the roof and I said hey hey I just came around and see
said hey hey I just came around and see
said hey hey I just came around and see guys need me to do anything for y’all
guys need me to do anything for y’all
guys need me to do anything for y’all today like help with the birds or go to
today like help with the birds or go to
today like help with the birds or go to the store for you that’s all but they
the store for you that’s all but they
the store for you that’s all but they had thought that I was coming back
had thought that I was coming back
had thought that I was coming back around and steal their birds
around and steal their birds
around and steal their birds I had no concept of stealing birds back
I had no concept of stealing birds back
I had no concept of stealing birds back then I went someplace to hang out
then I went someplace to hang out
then I went someplace to hang out instead of walking around the streets
instead of walking around the streets
instead of walking around the streets all day and some weird guy be asking me
all day and some weird guy be asking me
all day and some weird guy be asking me to get in the car and suck your dick I
to get in the car and suck your dick I
to get in the car and suck your dick I let them suck my biggest son when I was
let them suck my biggest son when I was
let them suck my biggest son when I was outside of waiting for school to come
outside of waiting for school to come
outside of waiting for school to come out of waiting for the lunch to appear
out of waiting for the lunch to appear
out of waiting for the lunch to appear so I will be on the roof with these guys
so I will be on the roof with these guys
so I will be on the roof with these guys who I didn’t know who might have killed
who I didn’t know who might have killed
who I didn’t know who might have killed me also right so um this year go and
me also right so um this year go and
me also right so um this year go and then they throw down some occultist or
then they throw down some occultist or
then they throw down some occultist or get some stickers and get a knee-high
get some stickers and get a knee-high
get some stickers and get a knee-high solder after don’t bricks at me you know
solder after don’t bricks at me you know
solder after don’t bricks at me you know it’s our goal stiff and so the guys go
it’s our goal stiff and so the guys go
it’s our goal stiff and so the guys go like this school is over and stuff but
like this school is over and stuff but
like this school is over and stuff but they tell me um we going to the center
they tell me um we going to the center
they tell me um we going to the center tonight we’re going to go to them after
tonight we’re going to go to them after
tonight we’re going to go to them after school center this is where I don’t know
school center this is where I don’t know
school center this is where I don’t know poverty is choking people people living
poverty is choking people people living
poverty is choking people people living the prizes we have a center there your
the prizes we have a center there your
the prizes we have a center there your Center and they go to end their playing
Center and they go to end their playing
Center and they go to end their playing is I mean they got a jam in the center
is I mean they got a jam in the center
is I mean they got a jam in the center so we’re going to go to the center and
so we’re going to go to the center and
so we’re going to go to the center and so um oh man I’m listening so that’s
so um oh man I’m listening so that’s
so um oh man I’m listening so that’s okay I want to go to can I go and I say
okay I want to go to can I go and I say
okay I want to go to can I go and I say okay yeah sure you can come but I’m I’m
okay yeah sure you can come but I’m I’m
okay yeah sure you can come but I’m I’m a young cadet no concept of you have to
a young cadet no concept of you have to
a young cadet no concept of you have to wash yeah and so when I went to the
wash yeah and so when I went to the
wash yeah and so when I went to the semis all fuck
semis all fuck
semis all fuck I still have the bird show me if I still
I still have the bird show me if I still
I still have the bird show me if I still have the bird shit of all the stuff
have the bird shit of all the stuff
have the bird shit of all the stuff guitar I stopped from getting the
guitar I stopped from getting the
guitar I stopped from getting the pinnacle hoping to build a coupe so you
pinnacle hoping to build a coupe so you
pinnacle hoping to build a coupe so you know we have tar paper so we had to put
know we have tar paper so we had to put
know we have tar paper so we had to put tar to put the tar people in the pool
tar to put the tar people in the pool
tar to put the tar people in the pool when we go back I never went home and
when we go back I never went home and
when we go back I never went home and washed I had the same clothes I had all
washed I had the same clothes I had all
washed I had the same clothes I had all of you and when I went to the kids that
of you and when I went to the kids that
of you and when I went to the kids that was on the roof that brought me to him
was on the roof that brought me to him
was on the roof that brought me to him they all had new clothes on and they all
they all had new clothes on and they all
they all had new clothes on and they all laughed at me and everybody felt
laughed at me and everybody felt
laughed at me and everybody felt laughingly and I was skin and bad
laughingly and I was skin and bad
laughingly and I was skin and bad laughter laughing – and one of the guys
laughter laughing – and one of the guys
laughter laughing – and one of the guys that was on the roof he had said um what
that was on the roof he had said um what
that was on the roof he had said um what the fuck you dirty little motherfucker
the fuck you dirty little motherfucker
the fuck you dirty little motherfucker with you come around here look like this
with you come around here look like this
with you come around here look like this in general wash and he said you better
in general wash and he said you better
in general wash and he said you better meet me at the most leaving tomorrow
meet me at the most leaving tomorrow
meet me at the most leaving tomorrow motherfucker meeting after roof with a
motherfucker meeting after roof with a
motherfucker meeting after roof with a burglar you met me today even though
burglar you met me today even though
burglar you met me today even though that guy wasn’t his pigeon but he was
that guy wasn’t his pigeon but he was
that guy wasn’t his pigeon but he was there he was looking for one of those
there he was looking for one of those
there he was looking for one of those other guy his brother he was older you
other guy his brother he was older you
other guy his brother he was older you can meet me at the roof you hear me sure
can meet me at the roof you hear me sure
can meet me at the roof you hear me sure they meet me at the fucking picnic where
they meet me at the fucking picnic where
they meet me at the fucking picnic where you were today and I’m when I’m a
you were today and I’m when I’m a
you were today and I’m when I’m a schmuck I’m like else schmuck oh so um I
schmuck I’m like else schmuck oh so um I
schmuck I’m like else schmuck oh so um I want to I met him early in the morning
want to I met him early in the morning
want to I met him early in the morning just like we’re going to school so I met
just like we’re going to school so I met
just like we’re going to school so I met him at the pigeon coop and snowman and
him at the pigeon coop and snowman and
him at the pigeon coop and snowman and from then on me and him started robbing
from then on me and him started robbing
from then on me and him started robbing houses if I was younger than him so he
houses if I was younger than him so he
houses if I was younger than him so he would tell me to knock on the door by
would tell me to knock on the door by
would tell me to knock on the door by knock on the door and if someone comes
knock on the door and if someone comes
knock on the door and if someone comes over say you’re looking for this guy
over say you’re looking for this guy
over say you’re looking for this guy here give me a Jewish name listen I’ll
here give me a Jewish name listen I’ll
here give me a Jewish name listen I’ll give me something he is knew what to say
give me something he is knew what to say
give me something he is knew what to say the right stuff of what neighborhoods
the right stuff of what neighborhoods
the right stuff of what neighborhoods and um I didn’t know I didn’t then they
and um I didn’t know I didn’t then they
and um I didn’t know I didn’t then they found on the way there he would pick the
found on the way there he would pick the
found on the way there he would pick the locks he wept he picked the locks
locks he wept he picked the locks
locks he wept he picked the locks we were going every wrong with my money
we were going every wrong with my money
we were going every wrong with my money guns Jimmy it was just why I was just
guns Jimmy it was just why I was just
guns Jimmy it was just why I was just such a Rus being into my house and you
such a Rus being into my house and you
such a Rus being into my house and you see them that luxury and it’s yours and
see them that luxury and it’s yours and
see them that luxury and it’s yours and I’m he didn’t give me much money but he
I’m he didn’t give me much money but he
I’m he didn’t give me much money but he bought me a lot of clankers and clothes
bought me a lot of clankers and clothes
bought me a lot of clankers and clothes he said you go back to the center
he said you go back to the center
he said you go back to the center looking like this don’t forget you hear
looking like this don’t forget you hear
looking like this don’t forget you hear me motherfuckers over looking like this
me motherfuckers over looking like this
me motherfuckers over looking like this and then I went to that Center than
and then I went to that Center than
and then I went to that Center than those are
those are
those are it was a whole different up it was
it was a whole different up it was
it was a whole different up it was totally different and they used to call
totally different and they used to call
totally different and they used to call me dirty Mike dirty Ike and it wasn’t
me dirty Mike dirty Ike and it wasn’t
me dirty Mike dirty Ike and it wasn’t because I had bad cold always has the
because I had bad cold always has the
because I had bad cold always has the best clothes but I always had was on the
best clothes but I always had was on the
best clothes but I always had was on the pigeon come I always got him dirty and
pigeon come I always got him dirty and
pigeon come I always got him dirty and paw and I would never change my clothes
paw and I would never change my clothes
paw and I would never change my clothes and wear I would never do that I would
and wear I would never do that I would
and wear I would never do that I would never change my clothes to put on some
never change my clothes to put on some
never change my clothes to put on some raggedy clothes and be seen and raggedy
raggedy clothes and be seen and raggedy
raggedy clothes and be seen and raggedy clothes because I’ve been traumatized
clothes because I’ve been traumatized
clothes because I’ve been traumatized from that experience when I went to the
from that experience when I went to the
from that experience when I went to the the daycares and after school center so
the daycares and after school center so
the daycares and after school center so I’ve always just wear my nice clothes on
I’ve always just wear my nice clothes on
I’ve always just wear my nice clothes on the pinnacle and they always get dirty
the pinnacle and they always get dirty
the pinnacle and they always get dirty and I would just go home and change
and I would just go home and change
and I would just go home and change changing some new nice clothes you know
changing some new nice clothes you know
changing some new nice clothes you know this time till this day I’m the same
this time till this day I’m the same
this time till this day I’m the same well with me should I have nice clothes
well with me should I have nice clothes
well with me should I have nice clothes on no matter where I go I’m playing with
on no matter where I go I’m playing with
on no matter where I go I’m playing with pigeons as I’m playing soccer I’m
pigeons as I’m playing soccer I’m
pigeons as I’m playing soccer I’m picking up the garbage and it’s just hum
picking up the garbage and it’s just hum
picking up the garbage and it’s just hum I might just have been the scholar mean
I might just have been the scholar mean
I might just have been the scholar mean system guys just humiliated me anything
makeup even though the street kids and I
makeup even though the street kids and I would come weather like a tough day I
would come weather like a tough day I
would come weather like a tough day I never had the ego I was never really
never had the ego I was never really
never had the ego I was never really jealous of anybody I never really
jealous of anybody I never really
jealous of anybody I never really thought most of myself much of myself
thought most of myself much of myself
thought most of myself much of myself but when I met cousin so I was talking
but when I met cousin so I was talking
but when I met cousin so I was talking to cus I’m he made me believe that I was
to cus I’m he made me believe that I was
to cus I’m he made me believe that I was a god they made me believe that I’m
a god they made me believe that I’m
a god they made me believe that I’m Frances consul faded now to cuffs cuz
Frances consul faded now to cuffs cuz
Frances consul faded now to cuffs cuz the saying are you till you hear this
the saying are you till you hear this
the saying are you till you hear this cuz cuz I had a really problem I had
cuz cuz I had a really problem I had
cuz cuz I had a really problem I had this really um megalomania ego say let
this really um megalomania ego say let
this really um megalomania ego say let me tell you something all the prophets
me tell you something all the prophets
me tell you something all the prophets all the gods you ever know about if they
all the gods you ever know about if they
all the gods you ever know about if they had a son that something beat my fighter
had a son that something beat my fighter
had a son that something beat my fighter know why cause he’s my fighter
mm I was a young kid I was getting put
mm I was a young kid I was getting put on the front cover of maybe Ring
on the front cover of maybe Ring
on the front cover of maybe Ring Magazine at the time a big time magazine
Magazine at the time a big time magazine
Magazine at the time a big time magazine it was could’ve been Sports Illustrated
it was could’ve been Sports Illustrated
it was could’ve been Sports Illustrated but one of these magazines I got put on
but one of these magazines I got put on
but one of these magazines I got put on the magazine and it was a bunch of
the magazine and it was a bunch of
the magazine and it was a bunch of cameras around then I was feeling myself
cameras around then I was feeling myself
cameras around then I was feeling myself I was while smiling laughs with the guys
I was while smiling laughs with the guys
I was while smiling laughs with the guys like oh the big shot and then right
like oh the big shot and then right
like oh the big shot and then right after that cus said I’m grabbed a broom
after that cus said I’m grabbed a broom
after that cus said I’m grabbed a broom a mop and sweep clean the gym
a mop and sweep clean the gym
a mop and sweep clean the gym and I whoa and that’s just what I had to
and I whoa and that’s just what I had to
and I whoa and that’s just what I had to do you know I used to do my place with
do you know I used to do my place with
do you know I used to do my place with him it’s still my place
him it’s still my place
him it’s still my place you know they think I would say with
you know they think I would say with
you know they think I would say with other people I would never say with him
other people I would never say with him
other people I would never say with him you only had to call me one time and I
you only had to call me one time and I
you only had to call me one time and I will be there it was never like hey beat
will be there it was never like hey beat
will be there it was never like hey beat in a minute I wanted to make us proud
in a minute I wanted to make us proud
in a minute I wanted to make us proud I was with my whole existence for fine I
I was with my whole existence for fine I
I was with my whole existence for fine I want to make them proud I never know
want to make them proud I never know
want to make them proud I never know what I would like to have a fighter I’m
what I would like to have a fighter I’m
what I would like to have a fighter I’m little skinny a father so now I
little skinny a father so now I
little skinny a father so now I understand what some kids might feel
understand what some kids might feel
understand what some kids might feel when they can’t make their fathers happy
when they can’t make their fathers happy
when they can’t make their fathers happy because he would do anything for me
because he would do anything for me
because he would do anything for me I was just some element I don’t think
I was just some element I don’t think
I was just some element I don’t think that way now I was just um I was just
that way now I was just um I was just
that way now I was just um I was just disappointed that it kills them back
disappointed that it kills them back
disappointed that it kills them back then because that was just my main
then because that was just my main
then because that was just my main objective because I wanted to succeed so
objective because I wanted to succeed so
objective because I wanted to succeed so bad and I was held and um the fear of
bad and I was held and um the fear of
bad and I was held and um the fear of not succeeding was worse than dying so I
not succeeding was worse than dying so I
not succeeding was worse than dying so I just wanted to make sure they never got
just wanted to make sure they never got
just wanted to make sure they never got up and I’m at any fight someone said
up and I’m at any fight someone said
up and I’m at any fight someone said something negative about me his old man
something negative about me his old man
something negative about me his old man he would attack them you won’t let
he would attack them you won’t let
he would attack them you won’t let nobody Lao any negativity to even sleep
nobody Lao any negativity to even sleep
nobody Lao any negativity to even sleep through my arm he speaks to my psychic
through my arm he speaks to my psychic
through my arm he speaks to my psychic everything was that I’m I’m invincible
everything was that I’m I’m invincible
everything was that I’m I’m invincible my fabric I’m ferocious smarter savage I
my fabric I’m ferocious smarter savage I
my fabric I’m ferocious smarter savage I don’t even think that way anymore
even Lee from fighting was um your
even Lee from fighting was um your opponent surrender his total destruction
opponent surrender his total destruction
opponent surrender his total destruction and he then think of it as um even
and he then think of it as um even
and he then think of it as um even though he said it with savage and
though he said it with savage and
though he said it with savage and ferociously you had to do with it in
ferociously you had to do with it in
ferociously you had to do with it in such a relaxed and calm state you know
such a relaxed and calm state you know
such a relaxed and calm state you know without any emotions that’s what he was
without any emotions that’s what he was
without any emotions that’s what he was all about you know I mean a really
all about you know I mean a really
all about you know I mean a really scientific way of destroying to be in PR
scientific way of destroying to be in PR
scientific way of destroying to be in PR him Wow
him Wow
him Wow he enjoyed hurting the opponent he wants
he enjoyed hurting the opponent he wants
he enjoyed hurting the opponent he wants them to never have a chance to believe
them to never have a chance to believe
them to never have a chance to believe they compete you know it wasn’t about
they compete you know it wasn’t about
they compete you know it wasn’t about anything our whole life wasn’t about
anything our whole life wasn’t about
anything our whole life wasn’t about making money wasn’t about being rich it
making money wasn’t about being rich it
making money wasn’t about being rich it was about um and then weighing the
was about um and then weighing the
was about um and then weighing the planet could beat us that was everything
planet could beat us that was everything
planet could beat us that was everything my whole life is best fight in the world
my whole life is best fight in the world
my whole life is best fight in the world best light in the world there’s nobody
best light in the world there’s nobody
best light in the world there’s nobody on the planet that could be my could be
on the planet that could be my could be
on the planet that could be my could be anybody in a plant and a fair fight and
anybody in a plant and a fair fight and
anybody in a plant and a fair fight and that’s what I always believed you know I
that’s what I always believed you know I
that’s what I always believed you know I know he would dream think about that now
know he would dream think about that now
know he would dream think about that now but just to be in that state of mind I
but just to be in that state of mind I
but just to be in that state of mind I could be anybody that I’m not one day
could be anybody that I’m not one day
could be anybody that I’m not one day after this and I’m went through her I’m
after this and I’m went through her I’m
after this and I’m went through her I’m so I’m so happy that I don’t think that
so I’m so happy that I don’t think that
so I’m so happy that I don’t think that way anymore I was having an interview
way anymore I was having an interview
way anymore I was having an interview and I and I start thinking about cooks
and I and I start thinking about cooks
and I and I start thinking about cooks because it’s pretty you know arrogant
because it’s pretty you know arrogant
because it’s pretty you know arrogant and custard and I said what a customer
and custard and I said what a customer
and custard and I said what a customer that’s it I was being interviewed and I
that’s it I was being interviewed and I
that’s it I was being interviewed and I said how many people in the plough many
said how many people in the plough many
said how many people in the plough many people in this planet after what around
people in this planet after what around
people in this planet after what around five billion people six billion I
five billion people six billion I
five billion people six billion I thought could be every one of them in a
thought could be every one of them in a
thought could be every one of them in a fair fight and that’s what I believed at
fair fight and that’s what I believed at
fair fight and that’s what I believed at the time
but this guy always tell me says I’m on
but this guy always tell me says I’m on my mind to get the better of me your
my mind to get the better of me your
my mind to get the better of me your mind you don’t have your mind on your
mind you don’t have your mind on your
mind you don’t have your mind on your work you’re not being discipline he
work you’re not being discipline he
work you’re not being discipline he really really knew that he always
really really knew that he always
really really knew that he always believed that his mind could heal
believed that his mind could heal
believed that his mind could heal anything
anything
anything he believed if he had cancer is mine
he believed if he had cancer is mine
he believed if he had cancer is mine Cahill can’t he was a strong believer
Cahill can’t he was a strong believer
Cahill can’t he was a strong believer that your body only purpose was to cover
that your body only purpose was to cover
that your body only purpose was to cover your brain you know he was just some
your brain you know he was just some
your brain you know he was just some amazing
I respect the person who’s willing to
I respect the person who’s willing to die for what he truly wants even if it’s
die for what he truly wants even if it’s
die for what he truly wants even if it’s love even this is a woman whatever is it
love even this is a woman whatever is it
love even this is a woman whatever is it that he truly believed in and that I
that he truly believed in and that I
that he truly believed in and that I believe that he he um it transcends him
believe that he he um it transcends him
believe that he he um it transcends him to that um then leveled to UM demand for
to that um then leveled to UM demand for
to that um then leveled to UM demand for lovely sensitive for instance um I look
lovely sensitive for instance um I look
lovely sensitive for instance um I look at love as a command to just rise to
at love as a command to just rise to
at love as a command to just rise to your greatest potential you know and
your greatest potential you know and
your greatest potential you know and that’s how people should feel the
that’s how people should feel the
that’s how people should feel the objective should be derived to the best
objective should be derived to the best
objective should be derived to the best potential in life if it’s to lose thirty
potential in life if it’s to lose thirty
potential in life if it’s to lose thirty pounds if it’s the passive test it
pounds if it’s the passive test it
pounds if it’s the passive test it should be um to win a fight the to be
should be um to win a fight the to be
should be um to win a fight the to be admired by people all over the world it
admired by people all over the world it
admired by people all over the world it should allow you to rise to your
should allow you to rise to your
should allow you to rise to your greatest potential don’t you look at
greatest potential don’t you look at
greatest potential don’t you look at yourself in the most grandest fashion
yourself in the most grandest fashion
yourself in the most grandest fashion [Music]
[Music]
[Music] I’ve never um I’m never um I would never
I’ve never um I’m never um I would never
I’ve never um I’m never um I would never able to understand the concept of
able to understand the concept of
able to understand the concept of greatness
greatness
greatness I just never was able to understand that
I just never was able to understand that
I just never was able to understand that concept of greatness and as time went on
concept of greatness and as time went on
concept of greatness and as time went on and I’ve gotten older and I’ve um I’ve
and I’ve gotten older and I’ve um I’ve
and I’ve gotten older and I’ve um I’ve met many journeys on people that I met
met many journeys on people that I met
met many journeys on people that I met on my journey and people who I’ve read
on my journey and people who I’ve read
on my journey and people who I’ve read about on my journey I read that um all
about on my journey I read that um all
about on my journey I read that um all greatness
greatness
greatness the majority of greatness in the self
the majority of greatness in the self
the majority of greatness in the self doesn’t come with goodness the two don’t
doesn’t come with goodness the two don’t
doesn’t come with goodness the two don’t coexist with one another and I spent all
coexist with one another and I spent all
coexist with one another and I spent all my life trying to become great because I
my life trying to become great because I
my life trying to become great because I have such a low self-esteem and and I
have such a low self-esteem and and I
have such a low self-esteem and and I realized I’m late in life well
realized I’m late in life well
realized I’m late in life well thankfully fail the late in my life that
thankfully fail the late in my life that
thankfully fail the late in my life that I’m all great men are not good man and
I’m all great men are not good man and
I’m all great men are not good man and then so I try to embark on a whole
then so I try to embark on a whole
then so I try to embark on a whole different career and try to become good
different career and try to become good
different career and try to become good but what’s the concept of good being a
but what’s the concept of good being a
but what’s the concept of good being a floor mat I never said understood the
floor mat I never said understood the
floor mat I never said understood the concept of good so how do we live in
concept of good so how do we live in
concept of good so how do we live in those two dimensions at once you want
those two dimensions at once you want
those two dimensions at once you want that greatness for self gratification
that greatness for self gratification
that greatness for self gratification but you want goodness from a human
but you want goodness from a human
but you want goodness from a human perspective and I and I really have no
perspective and I and I really have no
perspective and I and I really have no idea no clue how though I am how do I
idea no clue how though I am how do I
idea no clue how though I am how do I juggle both of them and be in harmony
juggle both of them and be in harmony
juggle both of them and be in harmony and then in all actuality they don’t
and then in all actuality they don’t
and then in all actuality they don’t exist you would have to pick a side
exist you would have to pick a side
exist you would have to pick a side [Music]
[Music]
[Music] the lion in the Fox you know me I call
the lion in the Fox you know me I call
the lion in the Fox you know me I call so I could beat the vicious guys and I
so I could beat the vicious guys and I
so I could beat the vicious guys and I got was smarter slicksters so I was um
got was smarter slicksters so I was um
got was smarter slicksters so I was um I’m pretty much died deck – and after
I’m pretty much died deck – and after
I’m pretty much died deck – and after that apartment pretty much but the what
that apartment pretty much but the what
that apartment pretty much but the what really was um the turning point is that
really was um the turning point is that
really was um the turning point is that there was nobody that could reach the
there was nobody that could reach the
there was nobody that could reach the core like us could
core like us could
core like us could no one could I’m inspired me
I don’t know I don’t think it’s that
I don’t know I don’t think it’s that amazing I’m the things I say I don’t
amazing I’m the things I say I don’t
amazing I’m the things I say I don’t think this profound is what many people
think this profound is what many people
think this profound is what many people may think is the fire you think about my
may think is the fire you think about my
may think is the fire you think about my feelings of what I felt at the
feelings of what I felt at the
feelings of what I felt at the particular moment you know I know I
particular moment you know I know I
particular moment you know I know I always had I always had a very arm
always had I always had a very arm
always had I always had a very arm complex life and I always have it I
complex life and I always have it I
complex life and I always have it I never had a good psychological opinion
never had a good psychological opinion
never had a good psychological opinion about myself and that’s because of my
about myself and that’s because of my
about myself and that’s because of my upbringing and my um my view on my life
upbringing and my um my view on my life
upbringing and my um my view on my life and my view on this um my whole
and my view on this um my whole
and my view on this um my whole barometer as a person and so I um I
barometer as a person and so I um I
barometer as a person and so I um I never grasped that um that love of that
never grasped that um that love of that
never grasped that um that love of that I that particular identity of myself
[Music]
[Music] I gave my all fighting arm it’s time to
I gave my all fighting arm it’s time to
I gave my all fighting arm it’s time to give it up it’s time to stop them let go
give it up it’s time to stop them let go
give it up it’s time to stop them let go and let God I did all I can do humanly
and let God I did all I can do humanly
and let God I did all I can do humanly and now it was time for me to let God
and now it was time for me to let God
and now it was time for me to let God leave the way
leave the way
leave the way [Music]
I say well I’m responsible now I have to
I say well I’m responsible now I have to be pregnant for my family and my
be pregnant for my family and my
be pregnant for my family and my children but when I’m when that feeling
children but when I’m when that feeling
children but when I’m when that feeling comes you know you have no control over
comes you know you have no control over
comes you know you have no control over it I might want to die tomorrow you know
it I might want to die tomorrow you know
it I might want to die tomorrow you know and that’s just what it is
and that’s just what it is
and that’s just what it is and that’s how my mind works maybe
and that’s how my mind works maybe
and that’s how my mind works maybe something may have me I might get into I
something may have me I might get into I
something may have me I might get into I might um get into an argument myself in
might um get into an argument myself in
might um get into an argument myself in my head I might want to die tomorrow and
my head I might want to die tomorrow and
my head I might want to die tomorrow and I might want to live I might kill myself
I might want to live I might kill myself
I might want to live I might kill myself already um I don’t know how that goes
already um I don’t know how that goes
already um I don’t know how that goes you know um maybe I want to die because
you know um maybe I want to die because
you know um maybe I want to die because I want to know what it’s like to die I
I want to know what it’s like to die I
I want to know what it’s like to die I want to know if it’s just dark like when
want to know if it’s just dark like when
want to know if it’s just dark like when you have one of those dead sleeps and
you have one of those dead sleeps and
you have one of those dead sleeps and you you wake up and you wouldn’t know if
you you wake up and you wouldn’t know if
you you wake up and you wouldn’t know if you were dead or not if you didn’t wake
you were dead or not if you didn’t wake
you were dead or not if you didn’t wake up so um I don’t know I don’t know what
up so um I don’t know I don’t know what
up so um I don’t know I don’t know what I want to do is go right now I want to
I want to do is go right now I want to
I want to do is go right now I want to live and experience license and I don’t
live and experience license and I don’t
live and experience license and I don’t know what life has in store for me but
know what life has in store for me but
know what life has in store for me but I’m not afraid to find out
I’m not trying to even the score I’m
I’m not trying to even the score I’m moving on to other places which are
moving on to other places which are
moving on to other places which are probably talking places I’ve never been
probably talking places I’ve never been
probably talking places I’ve never been before but I’m not afraid to go there
before but I’m not afraid to go there
before but I’m not afraid to go there I’m not afraid I’m I’m not afraid I’m
I’m not afraid I’m I’m not afraid I’m
I’m not afraid I’m I’m not afraid I’m losing life I’m not afraid to doing me I
losing life I’m not afraid to doing me I
losing life I’m not afraid to doing me I won’t do anything that’s like I won’t do
won’t do anything that’s like I won’t do
won’t do anything that’s like I won’t do anything that’s like like my show
anything that’s like like my show
anything that’s like like my show there’s nothing I would do unless I have
there’s nothing I would do unless I have
there’s nothing I would do unless I have one possibility of being humiliated if I
one possibility of being humiliated if I
one possibility of being humiliated if I can’t be humiliated on if I fail I don’t
can’t be humiliated on if I fail I don’t
can’t be humiliated on if I fail I don’t want to do it because only by doing that
want to do it because only by doing that
want to do it because only by doing that I would rise to my highest potential
I would rise to my highest potential
I would rise to my highest potential without what the fact that I might be
without what the fact that I might be
without what the fact that I might be humiliated and I don’t want that to
humiliated and I don’t want that to
humiliated and I don’t want that to happen but when it does happen then I
happen but when it does happen then I
happen but when it does happen then I will truly be humiliated because when I
will truly be humiliated because when I
will truly be humiliated because when I succeed I truly succeed and that’s why
succeed I truly succeed and that’s why
succeed I truly succeed and that’s why I’m here with you
I’m here with you
I’m here with you [Music]
I’ve always felt comfort from my pigeons
I’ve always felt comfort from my pigeons no matter where I live always have them
no matter where I live always have them
no matter where I live always have them and I’ve collected special breeds of
and I’ve collected special breeds of
and I’ve collected special breeds of pigeon
pigeon
pigeon they’re called roller pigeons Sir
they’re called roller pigeons Sir
they’re called roller pigeons Sir Anthony Hopkins played Hannibal Lecter
Anthony Hopkins played Hannibal Lecter
Anthony Hopkins played Hannibal Lecter in that great movie he talked about them
in that great movie he talked about them
in that great movie he talked about them do you know that a roller pigeon is you
do you know that a roller pigeon is you
do you know that a roller pigeon is you know what a roller pigeon is Bonnie
know what a roller pigeon is Bonnie
know what a roller pigeon is Bonnie they claim they climb high and fat and
they claim they climb high and fat and
they claim they climb high and fat and they roll over and fall justice just as
they roll over and fall justice just as
they roll over and fall justice just as fast towards the earth there are stairs
fast towards the earth there are stairs
fast towards the earth there are stairs stairs shallow rollers and there are
stairs shallow rollers and there are
stairs shallow rollers and there are deep rolling
deep rolling
deep rolling you can breathe too deep rollers or the
you can breathe too deep rollers or the
you can breathe too deep rollers or the young ruler will roll all the way down
young ruler will roll all the way down
young ruler will roll all the way down and hit and die it is no surprise that I
and hit and die it is no surprise that I
and hit and die it is no surprise that I have an affinity for rollers it is
have an affinity for rollers it is
have an affinity for rollers it is really something it is really something
really something it is really something
really something it is really something to watch some fly high-end and all them
to watch some fly high-end and all them
to watch some fly high-end and all them and then all the other birds they fly
and then all the other birds they fly
and then all the other birds they fly hiding all the other big birds way up on
hiding all the other big birds way up on
hiding all the other big birds way up on the top of the sky and the Queen the
the top of the sky and the Queen the
the top of the sky and the Queen the clouds and they just roll and roll and
clouds and they just roll and roll and
clouds and they just roll and roll and roll down and if they’re lucky they pull
roll down and if they’re lucky they pull
roll down and if they’re lucky they pull out in time before they crash and
out in time before they crash and
out in time before they crash and headfirst into the ground the rollers
headfirst into the ground the rollers
headfirst into the ground the rollers who are the offsprings of two pairs of
who are the offsprings of two pairs of
who are the offsprings of two pairs of deep rollers can do that they wrote so
deep rollers can do that they wrote so
deep rollers can do that they wrote so fast that they create a suction and they
fast that they create a suction and they
fast that they create a suction and they can’t open their wings and sticks and if
can’t open their wings and sticks and if
can’t open their wings and sticks and if they explode on impact and looks at
they explode on impact and looks at
they explode on impact and looks at rific to us but this but if um we put
rific to us but this but if um we put
rific to us but this but if um we put ourselves and we put ourselves into the
ourselves and we put ourselves into the
ourselves and we put ourselves into the heart of that bird there’s nothing like
heart of that bird there’s nothing like
heart of that bird there’s nothing like that feeling plumb luring down and
that feeling plumb luring down and
that feeling plumb luring down and rolling it is a smorgasbord of endurance
rolling it is a smorgasbord of endurance
rolling it is a smorgasbord of endurance and endorphins and adult fermion and a
and endorphins and adult fermion and a
and endorphins and adult fermion and a drilling adrenaline and a little like
drilling adrenaline and a little like
drilling adrenaline and a little like snorting coke and drinking Hennessy
snorting coke and drinking Hennessy
snorting coke and drinking Hennessy while being hooked up in the morphine
while being hooked up in the morphine
while being hooked up in the morphine drip both of my parents with these
drip both of my parents with these
drip both of my parents with these rollers I was bred to climb high and
rollers I was bred to climb high and
rollers I was bred to climb high and high into the sky and tumble down I am
high into the sky and tumble down I am
high into the sky and tumble down I am truly grateful that I found my wings
truly grateful that I found my wings
truly grateful that I found my wings before I hit the ground
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