I always knew as a kid that I was a writer but I never really knew what I
writer but I never really knew what I
writer but I never really knew what I wanted to do whenever you see me
wanted to do whenever you see me
wanted to do whenever you see me somewhere succeeding in one area of my
somewhere succeeding in one area of my
somewhere succeeding in one area of my life
life
life that almost certainly means I am failing
that almost certainly means I am failing
that almost certainly means I am failing in another area of my life literally not
in another area of my life literally not
in another area of my life literally not allowed to play Scrabble in my house
allowed to play Scrabble in my house
allowed to play Scrabble in my house because of because of fights that break
because of because of fights that break
because of because of fights that break out I tried to write a novel like a
out I tried to write a novel like a
out I tried to write a novel like a really intricate Toni Morrison esque
really intricate Toni Morrison esque
really intricate Toni Morrison esque novel and it is terrible
novel and it is terrible
novel and it is terrible she’s a television producer and writer
she’s a television producer and writer
she’s a television producer and writer she’s a creator head writer and
she’s a creator head writer and
she’s a creator head writer and executive producer of the hit medical
executive producer of the hit medical
executive producer of the hit medical drama series Grey’s Anatomy she was
drama series Grey’s Anatomy she was
drama series Grey’s Anatomy she was named one of Time Magazine’s 100 people
named one of Time Magazine’s 100 people
named one of Time Magazine’s 100 people who helped shape the world
who helped shape the world
who helped shape the world she Shonda Rhimes and here’s my take on
she Shonda Rhimes and here’s my take on
she Shonda Rhimes and here’s my take on her top ten rules of success rule number
her top ten rules of success rule number
her top ten rules of success rule number ten is my personal favorite and I’m
ten is my personal favorite and I’m
ten is my personal favorite and I’m curious to figure out which one you guys
curious to figure out which one you guys
curious to figure out which one you guys liked the most also a Shonda is talking
liked the most also a Shonda is talking
liked the most also a Shonda is talking if she says something that really really
if she says something that really really
if she says something that really really deeply resonates with you please leave
deeply resonates with you please leave
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quotes around it so other people can be
quotes around it so other people can be inspired as well
I spent a lot of time and a lot of
I spent a lot of time and a lot of people spend a lot of time thinking of
people spend a lot of time thinking of
people spend a lot of time thinking of all the things they want to do and
all the things they want to do and
all the things they want to do and talking about it but the idea that
talking about it but the idea that
talking about it but the idea that you’re not actually doing anything to
you’re not actually doing anything to
you’re not actually doing anything to get to where you want to go you’re
get to where you want to go you’re
get to where you want to go you’re waiting for some sort of big magical
waiting for some sort of big magical
waiting for some sort of big magical moment or some door to open or some I
moment or some door to open or some I
moment or some door to open or some I don’t know some interesting illuminating
don’t know some interesting illuminating
don’t know some interesting illuminating thing to happen is very different from
thing to happen is very different from
thing to happen is very different from the hard day to day slogging through
the hard day to day slogging through
the hard day to day slogging through step by step I’m going to climb this
step by step I’m going to climb this
step by step I’m going to climb this ladder here’s an opportunity I’m going
ladder here’s an opportunity I’m going
ladder here’s an opportunity I’m going to run for it
to run for it
to run for it any little small moment oh they want me
any little small moment oh they want me
any little small moment oh they want me no I want to be a writer somebody what’s
no I want to be a writer somebody what’s
no I want to be a writer somebody what’s going to be an intern at their
going to be an intern at their
going to be an intern at their production company I will go do that
production company I will go do that
production company I will go do that somebody wants me to go you know work at
somebody wants me to go you know work at
somebody wants me to go you know work at this job I will do that oh I’m going to
this job I will do that oh I’m going to
this job I will do that oh I’m going to go work at this sort of awful job
go work at this sort of awful job
go work at this sort of awful job because it’s going to pay the bill so I
because it’s going to pay the bill so I
because it’s going to pay the bill so I can write at night well I’m going to do
can write at night well I’m going to do
can write at night well I’m going to do that because that’s a way to get where I
that because that’s a way to get where I
that because that’s a way to get where I want to go people to want to do those
want to go people to want to do those
want to go people to want to do those things because I think that they’re
things because I think that they’re
things because I think that they’re waiting for the big break and I think
waiting for the big break and I think
waiting for the big break and I think that hard work and being a doer and
that hard work and being a doer and
that hard work and being a doer and taking every opportunity that comes your
taking every opportunity that comes your
taking every opportunity that comes your way whether or not it seems like the
way whether or not it seems like the
way whether or not it seems like the most amazing one is the way to go I
most amazing one is the way to go I
most amazing one is the way to go I always knew as a kid that I was a writer
always knew as a kid that I was a writer
always knew as a kid that I was a writer but I never really knew what I wanted to
but I never really knew what I wanted to
but I never really knew what I wanted to do I always believed that that wasn’t a
do I always believed that that wasn’t a
do I always believed that that wasn’t a real job so I thought that all of the
real job so I thought that all of the
real job so I thought that all of the things that interested me like maybe I’d
things that interested me like maybe I’d
things that interested me like maybe I’d be a doctor maybe I’d be a lawyer maybe
be a doctor maybe I’d be a lawyer maybe
be a doctor maybe I’d be a lawyer maybe I’d go work in Washington I always
I’d go work in Washington I always
I’d go work in Washington I always thought that those were the things that
thought that those were the things that
thought that those were the things that I actually wanted to do for a living
I actually wanted to do for a living
I actually wanted to do for a living instead of understanding that those were
instead of understanding that those were
instead of understanding that those were the things I wanted to research and
the things I wanted to research and
the things I wanted to research and write about for a living as you try to
write about for a living as you try to
write about for a living as you try to figure out the impossible task of
figure out the impossible task of
figure out the impossible task of juggling work and family and you hear
juggling work and family and you hear
juggling work and family and you hear over and over and over again that you
over and over and over again that you
over and over and over again that you just need a lot of help we just need to
just need a lot of help we just need to
just need a lot of help we just need to be organized we need to try a little bit
be organized we need to try a little bit
be organized we need to try a little bit harder as a very successful woman a
harder as a very successful woman a
harder as a very successful woman a single mother of three who constantly
single mother of three who constantly
single mother of three who constantly gets asked the question how do you do it
gets asked the question how do you do it
gets asked the question how do you do it all for once I’m going to answer that
all for once I’m going to answer that
all for once I’m going to answer that question with 100% honesty here for you
question with 100% honesty here for you
question with 100% honesty here for you now because it’s just us because it’s
now because it’s just us because it’s
now because it’s just us because it’s our fireside chat because somebody has
our fireside chat because somebody has
our fireside chat because somebody has to tell you the truth Shonda how do you
to tell you the truth Shonda how do you
to tell you the truth Shonda how do you do it all the answer is this I don’t
do it all the answer is this I don’t
do it all the answer is this I don’t whenever you see me somewhere succeeding
whenever you see me somewhere succeeding
whenever you see me somewhere succeeding in one area of my life that almost
in one area of my life that almost
in one area of my life that almost certainly means I am failing in another
certainly means I am failing in another
certainly means I am failing in another area of my life if I am killing it on a
area of my life if I am killing it on a
area of my life if I am killing it on a scandal script for work I am probably
scandal script for work I am probably
scandal script for work I am probably missing bath and storytime at home if I
missing bath and storytime at home if I
missing bath and storytime at home if I am at home sewing my kids Halloween
am at home sewing my kids Halloween
am at home sewing my kids Halloween costumes I’m probably blowing off a
costumes I’m probably blowing off a
costumes I’m probably blowing off a rewrite I was supposed to turn in if I’m
rewrite I was supposed to turn in if I’m
rewrite I was supposed to turn in if I’m accepting a prestigious award
accepting a prestigious award
accepting a prestigious award I’m missing my babies for a swim lesson
I’m missing my babies for a swim lesson
I’m missing my babies for a swim lesson if I met my daughter’s debut in her
if I met my daughter’s debut in her
if I met my daughter’s debut in her school musical I am missing Sandra Oh’s
school musical I am missing Sandra Oh’s
school musical I am missing Sandra Oh’s last seen ever being filmed at Grey’s
last seen ever being filmed at Grey’s
last seen ever being filmed at Grey’s Anatomy
Anatomy
Anatomy if I am succeeding at one I am
if I am succeeding at one I am
if I am succeeding at one I am inevitably failing at the other that is
inevitably failing at the other that is
inevitably failing at the other that is the trade-off
the trade-off
the trade-off that’s the Faustian bargain one makes
that’s the Faustian bargain one makes
that’s the Faustian bargain one makes with the devil that comes with being a
with the devil that comes with being a
with the devil that comes with being a powerful working woman who is also a
powerful working woman who is also a
powerful working woman who is also a powerful mother you never feel 100% okay
powerful mother you never feel 100% okay
powerful mother you never feel 100% okay you never get your sea legs you’re
you never get your sea legs you’re
you never get your sea legs you’re always a little nauseous something is
always a little nauseous something is
always a little nauseous something is always lost something is always missing
always lost something is always missing
always lost something is always missing and yet I want my daughters to see me
and yet I want my daughters to see me
and yet I want my daughters to see me and know me as a woman who works
and know me as a woman who works
and know me as a woman who works I want that example set for them I like
I want that example set for them I like
I want that example set for them I like how proud they’re um they come to my
how proud they’re um they come to my
how proud they’re um they come to my offices and know that they come to Shaun
offices and know that they come to Shaun
offices and know that they come to Shaun to land there is a land and it is named
to land there is a land and it is named
to land there is a land and it is named after their mother in their world
after their mother in their world
after their mother in their world mothers run companies in their world
mothers run companies in their world
mothers run companies in their world mothers own Thursday nights in their
mothers own Thursday nights in their
mothers own Thursday nights in their world mothers work and I am a better
world mothers work and I am a better
world mothers work and I am a better mother for it the woman I am because I
mother for it the woman I am because I
mother for it the woman I am because I get to run shaundalyn because I get to
get to run shaundalyn because I get to
get to run shaundalyn because I get to ride all day because I get to spend my
ride all day because I get to spend my
ride all day because I get to spend my days making things up that woman is a
days making things up that woman is a
days making things up that woman is a better person and a better mother
better person and a better mother
better person and a better mother because that woman is happy that woman
because that woman is happy that woman
because that woman is happy that woman is fulfilled
is fulfilled
is fulfilled that woman is whole I wouldn’t want them
that woman is whole I wouldn’t want them
that woman is whole I wouldn’t want them to know than me who didn’t get to do
to know than me who didn’t get to do
to know than me who didn’t get to do this all day long
this all day long
this all day long I didn’t wouldn’t want them to get to
I didn’t wouldn’t want them to get to
I didn’t wouldn’t want them to get to know the me who wasn’t doing so lesson
know the me who wasn’t doing so lesson
know the me who wasn’t doing so lesson number three is it anyone who tells you
number three is it anyone who tells you
number three is it anyone who tells you they’re doing it all perfectly is a liar
they’re doing it all perfectly is a liar
they’re doing it all perfectly is a liar that inner critic you’re not good enough
that inner critic you’re not good enough
that inner critic you’re not good enough you failed you’re not a good enough
you failed you’re not a good enough
you failed you’re not a good enough mother you’re not a good enough person
mother you’re not a good enough person
mother you’re not a good enough person is rampant or was rampant in you how did
is rampant or was rampant in you how did
is rampant or was rampant in you how did you silence that so like you ate the
you silence that so like you ate the
you silence that so like you ate the fried chicken you suck I’m you know like
fried chicken you suck I’m you know like
fried chicken you suck I’m you know like I would do that
I would do that
I would do that yeah and then you’re like okay I ate the
yeah and then you’re like okay I ate the
yeah and then you’re like okay I ate the fried chicken I might as well eat a pint
fried chicken I might as well eat a pint
fried chicken I might as well eat a pint of you know ice cream that I might as
of you know ice cream that I might as
of you know ice cream that I might as well yeah and so and then the circle
well yeah and so and then the circle
well yeah and so and then the circle begins I can’t do anything I’m a loser
begins I can’t do anything I’m a loser
begins I can’t do anything I’m a loser and then there it goes it’s but it’s
and then there it goes it’s but it’s
and then there it goes it’s but it’s true we I think we all have that in us
true we I think we all have that in us
true we I think we all have that in us and I I am an extraordinarily
and I I am an extraordinarily
and I I am an extraordinarily competitive person I come from so many
competitive person I come from so many
competitive person I come from so many some letters I come from a big family my
some letters I come from a big family my
some letters I come from a big family my big family is very competitive we’re
big family is very competitive we’re
big family is very competitive we’re literally not allowed to play Scrabble
literally not allowed to play Scrabble
literally not allowed to play Scrabble in my house because I because of fights
in my house because I because of fights
in my house because I because of fights that break out my mother’s like you’re
that break out my mother’s like you’re
that break out my mother’s like you’re not allowed and because of that
not allowed and because of that
not allowed and because of that competitiveness I’m really hard on
competitiveness I’m really hard on
competitiveness I’m really hard on myself and I’m the youngest of six so
myself and I’m the youngest of six so
myself and I’m the youngest of six so I’ve sort of been the bottom of that
I’ve sort of been the bottom of that
I’ve sort of been the bottom of that competitiveness and so you’re always
competitiveness and so you’re always
competitiveness and so you’re always pushing harder that thing makes you
pushing harder that thing makes you
pushing harder that thing makes you intense and it makes you really really
intense and it makes you really really
intense and it makes you really really sort of OCD and hard on yourself part of
sort of OCD and hard on yourself part of
sort of OCD and hard on yourself part of what I tried to do was let it be okay to
what I tried to do was let it be okay to
what I tried to do was let it be okay to mess up and give myself permission and
mess up and give myself permission and
mess up and give myself permission and think how would I treat somebody else
think how would I treat somebody else
think how would I treat somebody else why could I treat other people better
why could I treat other people better
why could I treat other people better than I could treat myself because I
than I could treat myself because I
than I could treat myself because I could I could fight for anybody who
could I could fight for anybody who
could I could fight for anybody who worked for me I could laddie ate for
worked for me I could laddie ate for
worked for me I could laddie ate for anybody at work and tell anybody off and
anybody at work and tell anybody off and
anybody at work and tell anybody off and for anybody else I could treat anybody
for anybody else I could treat anybody
for anybody else I could treat anybody else wonderfully but when it came to
else wonderfully but when it came to
else wonderfully but when it came to myself I let people treat me like crap
myself I let people treat me like crap
myself I let people treat me like crap and I treated myself that way and it
and I treated myself that way and it
and I treated myself that way and it felt like I respected myself far less
felt like I respected myself far less
felt like I respected myself far less than I respected everybody else and so I
than I respected everybody else and so I
than I respected everybody else and so I just tried to respect myself easier said
just tried to respect myself easier said
just tried to respect myself easier said the done how do you begin to quote
the done how do you begin to quote
the done how do you begin to quote respect yourself um little bit of it was
respect yourself um little bit of it was
respect yourself um little bit of it was the self care the more you say yes and
the self care the more you say yes and
the self care the more you say yes and the more you realize that you’re
the more you realize that you’re
the more you realize that you’re succeeding and that you’re overcoming
succeeding and that you’re overcoming
succeeding and that you’re overcoming something the better you feel the more
something the better you feel the more
something the better you feel the more powerful you feel the more successful
powerful you feel the more successful
powerful you feel the more successful you feel and the better you feel about
you feel and the better you feel about
you feel and the better you feel about yourself honestly when I conquered being
yourself honestly when I conquered being
yourself honestly when I conquered being afraid of public speaking I started to
afraid of public speaking I started to
afraid of public speaking I started to feel like oh I’m good at that okay well
feel like oh I’m good at that okay well
feel like oh I’m good at that okay well it’s work it works you start to feel
it’s work it works you start to feel
it’s work it works you start to feel like you’re in control as opposed to
like you’re in control as opposed to
like you’re in control as opposed to feeling like it’s just set that you’re a
feeling like it’s just set that you’re a
feeling like it’s just set that you’re a loser or something I’m a writer I’m
loser or something I’m a writer I’m
loser or something I’m a writer I’m supposed to be behind the scenes and
supposed to be behind the scenes and
supposed to be behind the scenes and everybody else is supposed to be in
everybody else is supposed to be in
everybody else is supposed to be in front of the stuff now she’s finally in
front of the stuff now she’s finally in
front of the stuff now she’s finally in front of the cameras the famously
front of the cameras the famously
front of the cameras the famously private woman talking about her epic
private woman talking about her epic
private woman talking about her epic struggles with anxiety and her fear of
struggles with anxiety and her fear of
struggles with anxiety and her fear of public speaking
public speaking
public speaking what physiologically happens when you’re
what physiologically happens when you’re
what physiologically happens when you’re having that
having that
having that stage-four panic attack there’s a little
stage-four panic attack there’s a little
stage-four panic attack there’s a little bit of panicked breathing there’s a lot
bit of panicked breathing there’s a lot
bit of panicked breathing there’s a lot of pacing back and forth and mumbling to
of pacing back and forth and mumbling to
of pacing back and forth and mumbling to myself despite being invited to every
myself despite being invited to every
myself despite being invited to every glamorous party in Hollywood she’d make
glamorous party in Hollywood she’d make
glamorous party in Hollywood she’d make excuses saying she was just too busy
excuses saying she was just too busy
excuses saying she was just too busy until one day her sister provoked her I
until one day her sister provoked her I
until one day her sister provoked her I was sort of going on and on and on about
was sort of going on and on and on about
was sort of going on and on and on about like all of the invitations that I’d
like all of the invitations that I’d
like all of the invitations that I’d received and my sister finally sort of
received and my sister finally sort of
received and my sister finally sort of cut in and said are you going to say yes
cut in and said are you going to say yes
cut in and said are you going to say yes to any of these things and I remember
to any of these things and I remember
to any of these things and I remember being very taken aback and saying no I’m
being very taken aback and saying no I’m
being very taken aback and saying no I’m busy I can’t and her sort of looking at
busy I can’t and her sort of looking at
busy I can’t and her sort of looking at me like that’s insane and at some point
me like that’s insane and at some point
me like that’s insane and at some point just saying you never say yes to
just saying you never say yes to
just saying you never say yes to anything and those words really sticking
anything and those words really sticking
anything and those words really sticking with me because she was right and so
with me because she was right and so
with me because she was right and so this became a campaign to say yes to the
this became a campaign to say yes to the
this became a campaign to say yes to the things that scared you yeah it’s a yes
things that scared you yeah it’s a yes
things that scared you yeah it’s a yes the things that freaks me out and when
the things that freaks me out and when
the things that freaks me out and when you started saying yes what started to
you started saying yes what started to
you started saying yes what started to happen it’s the doing of the thing that
happen it’s the doing of the thing that
happen it’s the doing of the thing that sort of undoes the fear the idea now to
sort of undoes the fear the idea now to
sort of undoes the fear the idea now to me that I wanted to be Toni Morrison
me that I wanted to be Toni Morrison
me that I wanted to be Toni Morrison seems very sad really because you write
seems very sad really because you write
seems very sad really because you write Toni Morrison’s not giving up her job
Toni Morrison’s not giving up her job
Toni Morrison’s not giving up her job Toni Morrison’s what busy being Toni
Toni Morrison’s what busy being Toni
Toni Morrison’s what busy being Toni Morrison that job opening is not
Morrison that job opening is not
Morrison that job opening is not available and it sort of led me to being
available and it sort of led me to being
available and it sort of led me to being more authentically me actually by really
more authentically me actually by really
more authentically me actually by really just sort of finding a path that was
just sort of finding a path that was
just sort of finding a path that was like here’s an opening I’m gonna go for
like here’s an opening I’m gonna go for
like here’s an opening I’m gonna go for that and that’s how I discovered writing
that and that’s how I discovered writing
that and that’s how I discovered writing in television and that’s how I
in television and that’s how I
in television and that’s how I discovered you know what kind of writing
discovered you know what kind of writing
discovered you know what kind of writing fit me because you didn’t expect to do
fit me because you didn’t expect to do
fit me because you didn’t expect to do this when you’re at Dartmouth no and let
this when you’re at Dartmouth no and let
this when you’re at Dartmouth no and let me tell you I tried to write a novel
me tell you I tried to write a novel
me tell you I tried to write a novel like a really intricate Toni Morrison
like a really intricate Toni Morrison
like a really intricate Toni Morrison esque novel and it is terrible I am NOT
esque novel and it is terrible I am NOT
esque novel and it is terrible I am NOT Toni Morrison but this feels right to me
Toni Morrison but this feels right to me
Toni Morrison but this feels right to me and when I started writing television it
and when I started writing television it
and when I started writing television it felt like oh this is what I should have
felt like oh this is what I should have
felt like oh this is what I should have been doing all my life it was like a
been doing all my life it was like a
been doing all my life it was like a light bulb went off what makes a good
light bulb went off what makes a good
light bulb went off what makes a good leader in your mind what have you
leader in your mind what have you
leader in your mind what have you learned about leadership and what does
learned about leadership and what does
learned about leadership and what does it take away for people hear about a
it take away for people hear about a
it take away for people hear about a first step towards being a better leader
first step towards being a better leader
first step towards being a better leader I don’t think that you have to be me I
I don’t think that you have to be me I
I don’t think that you have to be me I really only feel like I started truly
really only feel like I started truly
really only feel like I started truly learning how to be a leader about two or
learning how to be a leader about two or
learning how to be a leader about two or three years ago when partially when this
three years ago when partially when this
three years ago when partially when this process started when I got braver about
process started when I got braver about
process started when I got braver about it I think it’s a willingness to
it I think it’s a willingness to
it I think it’s a willingness to to really delve into this stuff to have
to really delve into this stuff to have
to really delve into this stuff to have the difficult conversations that’s
the difficult conversations that’s
the difficult conversations that’s another part of the book of really being
another part of the book of really being
another part of the book of really being willing to have those conversations that
willing to have those conversations that
willing to have those conversations that nobody wants to have that we spend all
nobody wants to have that we spend all
nobody wants to have that we spend all of our time avoiding sitting down with
of our time avoiding sitting down with
of our time avoiding sitting down with people you work with and saying here’s
people you work with and saying here’s
people you work with and saying here’s the deal or what’s going on or you know
the deal or what’s going on or you know
the deal or what’s going on or you know all those things that we spend all of
all those things that we spend all of
all those things that we spend all of our time avoiding just jumping right in
our time avoiding just jumping right in
our time avoiding just jumping right in and those things solve problems those
and those things solve problems those
and those things solve problems those things make life so much easier those
things make life so much easier those
things make life so much easier those things cross bridges in ways that you
things cross bridges in ways that you
things cross bridges in ways that you never thought would happen that for me
never thought would happen that for me
never thought would happen that for me has been the single greatest thing that
has been the single greatest thing that
has been the single greatest thing that has changed the way I work with
has changed the way I work with
has changed the way I work with everybody because now everyone feels
everybody because now everyone feels
everybody because now everyone feels like a I’m going to tell them the truth
like a I’m going to tell them the truth
like a I’m going to tell them the truth and B they can tell me anything I love
and B they can tell me anything I love
and B they can tell me anything I love the idea that I’m not somebody that
the idea that I’m not somebody that
the idea that I’m not somebody that they’re afraid of there’s some weird
they’re afraid of there’s some weird
they’re afraid of there’s some weird world in which anybody gives you a
world in which anybody gives you a
world in which anybody gives you a compliment your response is oh it’s not
compliment your response is oh it’s not
compliment your response is oh it’s not that big of a deal and even you shonda
that big of a deal and even you shonda
that big of a deal and even you shonda rhimes creator of all this fabulousness
rhimes creator of all this fabulousness
rhimes creator of all this fabulousness was like oh no I was lucky it makes you
was like oh no I was lucky it makes you
was like oh no I was lucky it makes you feel arrogant to sort of somehow
feel arrogant to sort of somehow
feel arrogant to sort of somehow acknowledge that you’ve had some part in
acknowledge that you’ve had some part in
acknowledge that you’ve had some part in it which is ridiculous own who you are
it which is ridiculous own who you are
it which is ridiculous own who you are and what you’ve done be proud of it you
and what you’ve done be proud of it you
and what you’ve done be proud of it you talk in the book about that you used to
talk in the book about that you used to
talk in the book about that you used to shy away from difficult conversations
shy away from difficult conversations
shy away from difficult conversations and that you realize that the more you
and that you realize that the more you
and that you realize that the more you you know youyou wanted to say something
you know youyou wanted to say something
you know youyou wanted to say something but you didn’t so you ate it oh really
but you didn’t so you ate it oh really
but you didn’t so you ate it oh really you ate it so nammed right and that the
you ate it so nammed right and that the
you ate it so nammed right and that the first time you actually said to somebody
first time you actually said to somebody
first time you actually said to somebody like that doesn’t work for me
like that doesn’t work for me
like that doesn’t work for me or you gave yourself permission to say
or you gave yourself permission to say
or you gave yourself permission to say no in the year of yes that all of a
no in the year of yes that all of a
no in the year of yes that all of a sudden you felt free people are afraid
sudden you felt free people are afraid
sudden you felt free people are afraid to say that doesn’t work for me
to say that doesn’t work for me
to say that doesn’t work for me or no because they’ll lose a friend they
or no because they’ll lose a friend they
or no because they’ll lose a friend they may lose a spouse they may lose a child
may lose a spouse they may lose a child
may lose a spouse they may lose a child tough love as we call it or saying that
tough love as we call it or saying that
tough love as we call it or saying that doesn’t work for me is a really hard
doesn’t work for me is a really hard
doesn’t work for me is a really hard thing to say but the thing that we fear
thing to say but the thing that we fear
thing to say but the thing that we fear will happen you’re still fearing it
will happen you’re still fearing it
will happen you’re still fearing it while you’re avoiding it so the entire
while you’re avoiding it so the entire
while you’re avoiding it so the entire time you’re not doing that having the
time you’re not doing that having the
time you’re not doing that having the conversation or saying the thing you
conversation or saying the thing you
conversation or saying the thing you need to say you’re basically terrified
need to say you’re basically terrified
need to say you’re basically terrified that that thing’s going to happen so
that that thing’s going to happen so
that that thing’s going to happen so it’s in there and on you and pressing on
it’s in there and on you and pressing on
it’s in there and on you and pressing on you and for me I was just eating a whole
you and for me I was just eating a whole
you and for me I was just eating a whole lot of stuff
lot of stuff
lot of stuff but once you have the conversation I had
but once you have the conversation I had
but once you have the conversation I had one really hard conversation that ended
one really hard conversation that ended
one really hard conversation that ended with a really close friend of mine just
with a really close friend of mine just
with a really close friend of mine just saying some of the worst things to me I
saying some of the worst things to me I
saying some of the worst things to me I never heard anybody say and instead of
never heard anybody say and instead of
never heard anybody say and instead of feeling awful I found myself feeling
feeling awful I found myself feeling
feeling awful I found myself feeling invigorated and relieved and a little
invigorated and relieved and a little
invigorated and relieved and a little bit exhilarated because I had told her
bit exhilarated because I had told her
bit exhilarated because I had told her how I felt and she had told me who she
how I felt and she had told me who she
how I felt and she had told me who she was and now that I knew that I was like
was and now that I knew that I was like
was and now that I knew that I was like this is like a superpower because you
this is like a superpower because you
this is like a superpower because you unmasked people immediately and that was
unmasked people immediately and that was
unmasked people immediately and that was such a relief and felt so simple the
such a relief and felt so simple the
such a relief and felt so simple the across the field of a difficult
across the field of a difficult
across the field of a difficult conversation lies peace so a while ago I
conversation lies peace so a while ago I
conversation lies peace so a while ago I tried an experiment for one year I would
tried an experiment for one year I would
tried an experiment for one year I would say yes to all the things that scared me
say yes to all the things that scared me
say yes to all the things that scared me anything that made me nervous
anything that made me nervous
anything that made me nervous took me out of my comfort zone I forced
took me out of my comfort zone I forced
took me out of my comfort zone I forced myself to say yes to did I want to speak
myself to say yes to did I want to speak
myself to say yes to did I want to speak in public no but yes did I want to be on
in public no but yes did I want to be on
in public no but yes did I want to be on live TV no but yes did I want to try
live TV no but yes did I want to try
live TV no but yes did I want to try acting no no no but yes yes yes
acting no no no but yes yes yes
acting no no no but yes yes yes and a crazy thing happened the very act
and a crazy thing happened the very act
and a crazy thing happened the very act of doing the thing that scared me
of doing the thing that scared me
of doing the thing that scared me undid the fear made it not scary my fear
undid the fear made it not scary my fear
undid the fear made it not scary my fear of public speaking my social anxiety
of public speaking my social anxiety
of public speaking my social anxiety poof gone it’s amazing the power of one
poof gone it’s amazing the power of one
poof gone it’s amazing the power of one word yes changed my life yes changed me
word yes changed my life yes changed me
word yes changed my life yes changed me but there was one particular yes that
but there was one particular yes that
but there was one particular yes that affected my life in the most profound
affected my life in the most profound
affected my life in the most profound way in a way I never imagined and it
way in a way I never imagined and it
way in a way I never imagined and it started with a question from my toddler
started with a question from my toddler
started with a question from my toddler I have these three amazing daughters
I have these three amazing daughters
I have these three amazing daughters Harper Beckett and Emerson and ever
Harper Beckett and Emerson and ever
Harper Beckett and Emerson and ever since a toddler who inexplicably refers
since a toddler who inexplicably refers
since a toddler who inexplicably refers to everyone as honey as though she’s a
to everyone as honey as though she’s a
to everyone as honey as though she’s a Southern waitress
Southern waitress
Southern waitress honey I’m gonna need some milk from a
honey I’m gonna need some milk from a
honey I’m gonna need some milk from a sippy cup the southern waitress asked me
sippy cup the southern waitress asked me
sippy cup the southern waitress asked me to play with her one evening when I was
to play with her one evening when I was
to play with her one evening when I was on my way somewhere and I said yes and
on my way somewhere and I said yes and
on my way somewhere and I said yes and that yes was the beginning of a new way
that yes was the beginning of a new way
that yes was the beginning of a new way of life for my family I made a vow that
of life for my family I made a vow that
of life for my family I made a vow that from now on every time what if my
from now on every time what if my
from now on every time what if my children asks me to play no matter what
children asks me to play no matter what
children asks me to play no matter what I’m doing or where I’m going I say yes
I’m doing or where I’m going I say yes
I’m doing or where I’m going I say yes every single time
every single time
every single time almost I’m not perfect at it but I try
almost I’m not perfect at it but I try
almost I’m not perfect at it but I try hard to practice it and it’s had a
hard to practice it and it’s had a
hard to practice it and it’s had a magical effect on me on my children on
magical effect on me on my children on
magical effect on me on my children on our family but it’s also had a stunning
our family but it’s also had a stunning
our family but it’s also had a stunning side effect and it wasn’t until recently
side effect and it wasn’t until recently
side effect and it wasn’t until recently that I fully understood it that I
that I fully understood it that I
that I fully understood it that I understood that saying yes to playing
understood that saying yes to playing
understood that saying yes to playing with my children likely saved my career
with my children likely saved my career
with my children likely saved my career see I have what most people would call a
see I have what most people would call a
see I have what most people would call a dream job I’m a writer I imagine I make
dream job I’m a writer I imagine I make
dream job I’m a writer I imagine I make stuff up for a living dream job no I’m a
stuff up for a living dream job no I’m a
stuff up for a living dream job no I’m a Titan dream job I create television I
Titan dream job I create television I
Titan dream job I create television I executive produced television I make
executive produced television I make
executive produced television I make television a great deal of television in
television a great deal of television in
television a great deal of television in one way or another this TV season I’m
one way or another this TV season I’m
one way or another this TV season I’m responsible for bringing about 70 hours
responsible for bringing about 70 hours
responsible for bringing about 70 hours of programming to the world for
of programming to the world for
of programming to the world for television programs 70 hours of TV three
television programs 70 hours of TV three
television programs 70 hours of TV three shows in production at a time sometimes
shows in production at a time sometimes
shows in production at a time sometimes for each show creates hundreds of jobs
for each show creates hundreds of jobs
for each show creates hundreds of jobs that didn’t exist before the budget for
that didn’t exist before the budget for
that didn’t exist before the budget for one episode of network television can be
one episode of network television can be
one episode of network television can be anywhere from three to six million
anywhere from three to six million
anywhere from three to six million dollars let’s just say five a new
dollars let’s just say five a new
dollars let’s just say five a new episode made every nine days times for
episode made every nine days times for
episode made every nine days times for show so every nine days at twenty
show so every nine days at twenty
show so every nine days at twenty million dollars worth of television four
million dollars worth of television four
million dollars worth of television four television programs seventy hours of TV
television programs seventy hours of TV
television programs seventy hours of TV three shows in production at a time
three shows in production at a time
three shows in production at a time sometimes for 16 episodes going on at
sometimes for 16 episodes going on at
sometimes for 16 episodes going on at all times 24 episodes of gray’s 21
all times 24 episodes of gray’s 21
all times 24 episodes of gray’s 21 episodes of scandal 15 episodes how to
episodes of scandal 15 episodes how to
episodes of scandal 15 episodes how to get away with murder two episodes the
get away with murder two episodes the
get away with murder two episodes the catch that’s 70 hours of TV that’s 350
catch that’s 70 hours of TV that’s 350
catch that’s 70 hours of TV that’s 350 million dollars for a season in America
million dollars for a season in America
million dollars for a season in America my television shows are back to back to
my television shows are back to back to
my television shows are back to back to back on Thursday night around the world
back on Thursday night around the world
back on Thursday night around the world my shows air 256 territories and 67
my shows air 256 territories and 67
my shows air 256 territories and 67 languages for an audience of 30 million
languages for an audience of 30 million
languages for an audience of 30 million people my brain is global and 45 hours
people my brain is global and 45 hours
people my brain is global and 45 hours of that seven hours of TV are shows I
of that seven hours of TV are shows I
of that seven hours of TV are shows I personally created and not just produced
personally created and not just produced
personally created and not just produced so on top of everything else I need to
so on top of everything else I need to
so on top of everything else I need to find time real quiet creative time to
find time real quiet creative time to
find time real quiet creative time to gather my fans around the campfire and
gather my fans around the campfire and
gather my fans around the campfire and tell my stories for television programs
tell my stories for television programs
tell my stories for television programs the hours of TV three shows in
the hours of TV three shows in
the hours of TV three shows in production at a time sometimes for 350
production at a time sometimes for 350
production at a time sometimes for 350 million dollars campfires burning all
million dollars campfires burning all
million dollars campfires burning all over the world you know who else is
over the world you know who else is
over the world you know who else is doing that
doing that
doing that nobody so like I said I’m a Titan dream
nobody so like I said I’m a Titan dream
nobody so like I said I’m a Titan dream job now I don’t tell you this to impress
job now I don’t tell you this to impress
job now I don’t tell you this to impress you I tell you this because I know what
you I tell you this because I know what
you I tell you this because I know what you think of when you hear the word
you think of when you hear the word
you think of when you hear the word writer I tell you this so that all of
writer I tell you this so that all of
writer I tell you this so that all of you out there who work so hard whether
you out there who work so hard whether
you out there who work so hard whether you run a company or a country or a
you run a company or a country or a
you run a company or a country or a classroom or a store or a home take me
classroom or a store or a home take me
classroom or a store or a home take me seriously when I talk about working so
seriously when I talk about working so
seriously when I talk about working so you’ll get that I don’t peck at a
you’ll get that I don’t peck at a
you’ll get that I don’t peck at a computer and imagine all day
computer and imagine all day
computer and imagine all day so you’ll hear me when I say that I
so you’ll hear me when I say that I
so you’ll hear me when I say that I understand that a dream job is not about
understand that a dream job is not about
understand that a dream job is not about dreaming it’s all job all work all
dreaming it’s all job all work all
dreaming it’s all job all work all reality all blood all sweat no tears I
reality all blood all sweat no tears I
reality all blood all sweat no tears I work a lot very hard and I love it when
work a lot very hard and I love it when
work a lot very hard and I love it when I am hard at work when I am deep in it
I am hard at work when I am deep in it
I am hard at work when I am deep in it there is no other feeling for me my work
there is no other feeling for me my work
there is no other feeling for me my work is at all times building a nation out of
is at all times building a nation out of
is at all times building a nation out of thin air it is Manning the troops it is
thin air it is Manning the troops it is
thin air it is Manning the troops it is painting a canvas it is hitting every
painting a canvas it is hitting every
painting a canvas it is hitting every high note it is running a marathon it is
high note it is running a marathon it is
high note it is running a marathon it is being beyond say and it is all of those
being beyond say and it is all of those
being beyond say and it is all of those things at the same time I love working
things at the same time I love working
things at the same time I love working it is creative and mechanical and
it is creative and mechanical and
it is creative and mechanical and exhausting and exhilarating and
exhausting and exhilarating and
exhausting and exhilarating and hilarious and disturbing and clinical
hilarious and disturbing and clinical
hilarious and disturbing and clinical and maternal and cruel and judicious and
and maternal and cruel and judicious and
and maternal and cruel and judicious and what makes it also good is the hum there
what makes it also good is the hum there
what makes it also good is the hum there is some kind of shift inside me when the
is some kind of shift inside me when the
is some kind of shift inside me when the work gets good a hum begins in my brain
work gets good a hum begins in my brain
work gets good a hum begins in my brain and it grows and it grows and that hum
and it grows and it grows and that hum
and it grows and it grows and that hum sounds like the open road and I could
sounds like the open road and I could
sounds like the open road and I could drive it forever and a lot of people
drive it forever and a lot of people
drive it forever and a lot of people when I try to explain the hum they
when I try to explain the hum they
when I try to explain the hum they assume that I’m talking about the
assume that I’m talking about the
assume that I’m talking about the writing that my writing brings me joy
writing that my writing brings me joy
writing that my writing brings me joy and don’t get me wrong it does but the
and don’t get me wrong it does but the
and don’t get me wrong it does but the hum it wasn’t until I started making
hum it wasn’t until I started making
hum it wasn’t until I started making television that I started working
television that I started working
television that I started working working and making and building and
working and making and building and
working and making and building and creating and collaborating that I
creating and collaborating that I
creating and collaborating that I discovered this thing this buzz this
discovered this thing this buzz this
discovered this thing this buzz this rush this hum the hum is more than
rush this hum the hum is more than
rush this hum the hum is more than writing the hum is action and activity
writing the hum is action and activity
writing the hum is action and activity the hum is a drug the hum is music the
the hum is a drug the hum is music the
the hum is a drug the hum is music the hum is light and air the hum is God’s
hum is light and air the hum is God’s
hum is light and air the hum is God’s whisper right in my ear and when you
whisper right in my ear and when you
whisper right in my ear and when you have a hum
have a hum
have a hum that you can’t help but strive for
that you can’t help but strive for
that you can’t help but strive for greatness that feeling you can’t help
greatness that feeling you can’t help
greatness that feeling you can’t help but stifle greatness at any cost that’s
but stifle greatness at any cost that’s
but stifle greatness at any cost that’s called the hum or maybe it’s called
called the hum or maybe it’s called
called the hum or maybe it’s called being a workaholic maybe it’s called
being a workaholic maybe it’s called
being a workaholic maybe it’s called genius
genius
genius maybe it’s called ego maybe it’s just
maybe it’s called ego maybe it’s just
maybe it’s called ego maybe it’s just fear of failure I don’t know I just know
fear of failure I don’t know I just know
fear of failure I don’t know I just know that I’m not built for failure and I
that I’m not built for failure and I
that I’m not built for failure and I just know that I love the hum I just
just know that I love the hum I just
just know that I love the hum I just know that I want to tell you I’m a Titan
know that I want to tell you I’m a Titan
know that I want to tell you I’m a Titan and I know that I don’t want to question
and I know that I don’t want to question
and I know that I don’t want to question it but here’s the thing the more
it but here’s the thing the more
it but here’s the thing the more successful I become the more shows the
successful I become the more shows the
successful I become the more shows the more episodes the more barriers broken
more episodes the more barriers broken
more episodes the more barriers broken the more work there is to do the more
the more work there is to do the more
the more work there is to do the more balls in the air the more eyes on me the
balls in the air the more eyes on me the
balls in the air the more eyes on me the more history stares the more
more history stares the more
more history stares the more expectations there are the more I work
expectations there are the more I work
expectations there are the more I work to be successful the more I need to work
to be successful the more I need to work
to be successful the more I need to work and what did I say about work I love
and what did I say about work I love
and what did I say about work I love working write the nation I’m building
working write the nation I’m building
working write the nation I’m building the marathon i’m running the troops the
the marathon i’m running the troops the
the marathon i’m running the troops the canvas the high note the hum hum the hum
canvas the high note the hum hum the hum
canvas the high note the hum hum the hum I like that hum I love that hum I need
I like that hum I love that hum I need
I like that hum I love that hum I need that hum I am that hum am i nothing but
that hum I am that hum am i nothing but
that hum I am that hum am i nothing but that hum and then the hum stopped
that hum and then the hum stopped
that hum and then the hum stopped overworked overused overdone burned-out
overworked overused overdone burned-out
overworked overused overdone burned-out the hum stopped though my three
the hum stopped though my three
the hum stopped though my three daughters are used to the truth that
daughters are used to the truth that
daughters are used to the truth that their mother is a single working Titan
their mother is a single working Titan
their mother is a single working Titan Harper tells people my mom won’t be
Harper tells people my mom won’t be
Harper tells people my mom won’t be there but you can text my nanny and
there but you can text my nanny and
there but you can text my nanny and Emerson says honey I’m wanting to go to
Emerson says honey I’m wanting to go to
Emerson says honey I’m wanting to go to shondaland they’re children of a Titan
shondaland they’re children of a Titan
shondaland they’re children of a Titan their baby titans they were 12 three and
their baby titans they were 12 three and
their baby titans they were 12 three and one when the hum stopped the hum of the
one when the hum stopped the hum of the
one when the hum stopped the hum of the engine died I stopped loving work
engine died I stopped loving work
engine died I stopped loving work I couldn’t restart the engine the hum
I couldn’t restart the engine the hum
I couldn’t restart the engine the hum would not come back
would not come back
would not come back my hum was broken I was doing the same
my hum was broken I was doing the same
my hum was broken I was doing the same things I always did all the same Titan
things I always did all the same Titan
things I always did all the same Titan work 15 hour days working straight
work 15 hour days working straight
work 15 hour days working straight through the weekends no regrets never
through the weekends no regrets never
through the weekends no regrets never surrender a Titan never sleeps a Titan
surrender a Titan never sleeps a Titan
surrender a Titan never sleeps a Titan never quits full hearts clear eyes yada
never quits full hearts clear eyes yada
never quits full hearts clear eyes yada whatever
whatever
whatever but there was no hum inside me was
but there was no hum inside me was
but there was no hum inside me was silence for television program 70 hours
silence for television program 70 hours
silence for television program 70 hours of TV free shows in production at a time
of TV free shows in production at a time
of TV free shows in production at a time sometimes for for television programs 70
sometimes for for television programs 70
sometimes for for television programs 70 hours of TV shows in production at the
hours of TV shows in production at the
hours of TV shows in production at the time sometimes for I was the perfect
time sometimes for I was the perfect
time sometimes for I was the perfect Titan I was a Titan you could take home
Titan I was a Titan you could take home
Titan I was a Titan you could take home to your mother all the colors were the
to your mother all the colors were the
to your mother all the colors were the same and I was no longer having any fun
same and I was no longer having any fun
same and I was no longer having any fun and it was my life it was all I did I
and it was my life it was all I did I
and it was my life it was all I did I was the hum and the hum was me so what
was the hum and the hum was me so what
was the hum and the hum was me so what do you do in the thing you do the work
do you do in the thing you do the work
do you do in the thing you do the work you love starts to taste like dust now I
you love starts to taste like dust now I
you love starts to taste like dust now I know somebody’s out there thinking cry
know somebody’s out there thinking cry
know somebody’s out there thinking cry me a river stupid writer Titan lady but
me a river stupid writer Titan lady but
me a river stupid writer Titan lady but you know you do if you make if you work
you know you do if you make if you work
you know you do if you make if you work if you love what you do being a teacher
if you love what you do being a teacher
if you love what you do being a teacher being a banker being a mother being a
being a banker being a mother being a
being a banker being a mother being a painter being Bill Gates if you simply
painter being Bill Gates if you simply
painter being Bill Gates if you simply love another person if that gives you
love another person if that gives you
love another person if that gives you the hum if you know the hum if you know
the hum if you know the hum if you know
the hum if you know the hum if you know what the hum feels like if you have been
what the hum feels like if you have been
what the hum feels like if you have been to the hum when the hum stops who are
to the hum when the hum stops who are
to the hum when the hum stops who are you what are you what am I am I is still
you what are you what am I am I is still
you what are you what am I am I is still a Titan if the song of my heart ceases
a Titan if the song of my heart ceases
a Titan if the song of my heart ceases to play can I survive in the silence and
to play can I survive in the silence and
to play can I survive in the silence and then my southern waitress toddler asks
then my southern waitress toddler asks
then my southern waitress toddler asks me a question I’m on my way out the door
me a question I’m on my way out the door
me a question I’m on my way out the door I’m late and she says mama want to play
I’m late and she says mama want to play
I’m late and she says mama want to play and I’m just about to say no when I
and I’m just about to say no when I
and I’m just about to say no when I realized two things one I’m supposed to
realized two things one I’m supposed to
realized two things one I’m supposed to say yes to everything and to my southern
say yes to everything and to my southern
say yes to everything and to my southern waitress didn’t call me honey
waitress didn’t call me honey
waitress didn’t call me honey she’s not calling everyone honey anymore
she’s not calling everyone honey anymore
she’s not calling everyone honey anymore when did that happen
when did that happen
when did that happen I’m missing it being a Titan than
I’m missing it being a Titan than
I’m missing it being a Titan than mourning my hum and here she is changing
mourning my hum and here she is changing
mourning my hum and here she is changing right before my eyes
right before my eyes
right before my eyes and so she says mama want to play and I
and so she says mama want to play and I
and so she says mama want to play and I say yes there’s nothing special about it
say yes there’s nothing special about it
say yes there’s nothing special about it we play and we’re joined by her sisters
we play and we’re joined by her sisters
we play and we’re joined by her sisters and there’s a lot of laughing and I give
and there’s a lot of laughing and I give
and there’s a lot of laughing and I give a dramatic reading from the book
a dramatic reading from the book
a dramatic reading from the book everybody poops nothing out of the
everybody poops nothing out of the
everybody poops nothing out of the ordinary
ordinary
ordinary and yet it is extraordinary because in
and yet it is extraordinary because in
and yet it is extraordinary because in my pain and my panic in the homelessness
my pain and my panic in the homelessness
my pain and my panic in the homelessness of my homelessness I have nothing to do
of my homelessness I have nothing to do
of my homelessness I have nothing to do but pay attention I focus I am still the
but pay attention I focus I am still the
but pay attention I focus I am still the nation on building the marathon i’m
nation on building the marathon i’m
nation on building the marathon i’m running the troops the canvass behind
running the troops the canvass behind
running the troops the canvass behind does not exist all that exists are
does not exist all that exists are
does not exist all that exists are sticky fingers and gooey kisses and tiny
sticky fingers and gooey kisses and tiny
sticky fingers and gooey kisses and tiny voices and crayons and that song about
voices and crayons and that song about
voices and crayons and that song about letting go of whatever it is that frozen
letting go of whatever it is that frozen
letting go of whatever it is that frozen girl needs to let go of it’s all peace
girl needs to let go of it’s all peace
girl needs to let go of it’s all peace and simplicity the air is so rare in
and simplicity the air is so rare in
and simplicity the air is so rare in this place for me that i can barely
this place for me that i can barely
this place for me that i can barely breathe i can barely believe i’m
breathe i can barely believe i’m
breathe i can barely believe i’m breathing
breathing
breathing play is the opposite of work and i am
play is the opposite of work and i am
play is the opposite of work and i am happy something in me loosens a door in
happy something in me loosens a door in
happy something in me loosens a door in my brain swings open and a rush of
my brain swings open and a rush of
my brain swings open and a rush of energy comes and it’s not instantaneous
energy comes and it’s not instantaneous
energy comes and it’s not instantaneous but it happens it does happen i feel it
but it happens it does happen i feel it
but it happens it does happen i feel it a hum creeps back not at full volume
a hum creeps back not at full volume
a hum creeps back not at full volume barely there it’s quiet not to stay very
barely there it’s quiet not to stay very
barely there it’s quiet not to stay very still to hear it but it is there not v
still to hear it but it is there not v
still to hear it but it is there not v hum but a hum and now i feel like i know
hum but a hum and now i feel like i know
hum but a hum and now i feel like i know a very magical secret well let’s not get
a very magical secret well let’s not get
a very magical secret well let’s not get carried away it’s just love that’s all
carried away it’s just love that’s all
carried away it’s just love that’s all it is no magic no secret it’s just love
it is no magic no secret it’s just love
it is no magic no secret it’s just love just something we forgot the hum the
just something we forgot the hum the
just something we forgot the hum the work hum the hum of the titan that’s
work hum the hum of the titan that’s
work hum the hum of the titan that’s just a replacement if i have to ask you
just a replacement if i have to ask you
just a replacement if i have to ask you who i am if i have to tell you who I am
who i am if i have to tell you who I am
who i am if i have to tell you who I am if I describe myself in terms of shows
if I describe myself in terms of shows
if I describe myself in terms of shows and hours of television and how globally
and hours of television and how globally
and hours of television and how globally badass my brain is I have forgotten what
badass my brain is I have forgotten what
badass my brain is I have forgotten what the real hum is the hum is not power and
the real hum is the hum is not power and
the real hum is the hum is not power and the hum is not work specific the hum is
the hum is not work specific the hum is
the hum is not work specific the hum is joy specific the real hum is love
joy specific the real hum is love
joy specific the real hum is love specific the hum is the electricity that
specific the hum is the electricity that
specific the hum is the electricity that comes from being excited by life the
comes from being excited by life the
comes from being excited by life the real hum is confidence and peace
real hum is confidence and peace
real hum is confidence and peace the real hum ignores the stare of
the real hum ignores the stare of
the real hum ignores the stare of history and the balls in the air and the
history and the balls in the air and the
history and the balls in the air and the expectation and the pressure the real
expectation and the pressure the real
expectation and the pressure the real calm is singular and original
calm is singular and original
calm is singular and original the real hum is God’s whisper in my ear
the real hum is God’s whisper in my ear
the real hum is God’s whisper in my ear but maybe God was whispering the wrong
but maybe God was whispering the wrong
but maybe God was whispering the wrong words because which one of the gods was
words because which one of the gods was
words because which one of the gods was telling me I was a Titan it’s just love
telling me I was a Titan it’s just love
telling me I was a Titan it’s just love we could all use a little more love a
we could all use a little more love a
we could all use a little more love a lot more love anytime my child asked me
lot more love anytime my child asked me
lot more love anytime my child asked me to play I will say yes I make it a firm
to play I will say yes I make it a firm
to play I will say yes I make it a firm rule for one reason to give myself
rule for one reason to give myself
rule for one reason to give myself permission to free me from all of my
permission to free me from all of my
permission to free me from all of my workaholic guilt it’s a law so I don’t
workaholic guilt it’s a law so I don’t
workaholic guilt it’s a law so I don’t have a choice and I don’t have a choice
have a choice and I don’t have a choice
have a choice and I don’t have a choice not if I want to feel the hum I wish it
not if I want to feel the hum I wish it
not if I want to feel the hum I wish it were that easy but I’m not good at
were that easy but I’m not good at
were that easy but I’m not good at playing I don’t like it I’m not
playing I don’t like it I’m not
playing I don’t like it I’m not interested in doing it the way I am
interested in doing it the way I am
interested in doing it the way I am interested in doing work the truth is
interested in doing work the truth is
interested in doing work the truth is incredibly humbling and humiliating to
incredibly humbling and humiliating to
incredibly humbling and humiliating to face I don’t like playing I work all the
face I don’t like playing I work all the
face I don’t like playing I work all the time because I like working I like
time because I like working I like
time because I like working I like working more than I like being at home
working more than I like being at home
working more than I like being at home facing that fact is incredibly difficult
facing that fact is incredibly difficult
facing that fact is incredibly difficult to handle because what kind of person
to handle because what kind of person
to handle because what kind of person likes working more than being at home
likes working more than being at home
likes working more than being at home well me I mean let’s be honest I call
well me I mean let’s be honest I call
well me I mean let’s be honest I call myself a Titan I’ve got issues
myself a Titan I’ve got issues
and one of those issues isn’t that I am
and one of those issues isn’t that I am too relaxed we run around the yard up
too relaxed we run around the yard up
too relaxed we run around the yard up and back and up and back we have 30
and back and up and back we have 30
and back and up and back we have 30 second dance parties we sing show tunes
second dance parties we sing show tunes
second dance parties we sing show tunes we play with balls
we play with balls
we play with balls I blow bubbles and they pop them and I
I blow bubbles and they pop them and I
I blow bubbles and they pop them and I feel stiff and delirious and confused
feel stiff and delirious and confused
feel stiff and delirious and confused most of the time I H for my cell phone
most of the time I H for my cell phone
most of the time I H for my cell phone always but it is okay my tiny human show
always but it is okay my tiny human show
always but it is okay my tiny human show me how to live and the hum of the
me how to live and the hum of the
me how to live and the hum of the universe fills me up I play and I play
universe fills me up I play and I play
universe fills me up I play and I play until I begin to wonder why we ever
until I begin to wonder why we ever
until I begin to wonder why we ever stopped playing in the first place you
stopped playing in the first place you
stopped playing in the first place you can do it to say yes every time your
can do it to say yes every time your
can do it to say yes every time your child asks you to play are you thinking
child asks you to play are you thinking
child asks you to play are you thinking maybe that I’m an idiot and diamond
maybe that I’m an idiot and diamond
maybe that I’m an idiot and diamond shoes you’re right but you can still do
shoes you’re right but you can still do
shoes you’re right but you can still do this you have time you know why because
this you have time you know why because
this you have time you know why because you’re not Rihanna and you’re not a
you’re not Rihanna and you’re not a
you’re not Rihanna and you’re not a muppet your child does not think you’re
muppet your child does not think you’re
muppet your child does not think you’re that interesting you only need 15
that interesting you only need 15
that interesting you only need 15 minutes my two and four-year-old only
minutes my two and four-year-old only
minutes my two and four-year-old only ever want to play with me for about 15
ever want to play with me for about 15
ever want to play with me for about 15 minutes or so before they think to
minutes or so before they think to
minutes or so before they think to themselves they want to do something
themselves they want to do something
themselves they want to do something else it’s an amazing 15 minutes but it’s
else it’s an amazing 15 minutes but it’s
else it’s an amazing 15 minutes but it’s 15 minutes I’m not a ladybug or a piece
15 minutes I’m not a ladybug or a piece
15 minutes I’m not a ladybug or a piece of candy I’m invisible
of candy I’m invisible
of candy I’m invisible after 15 minutes and my 13 year old if I
after 15 minutes and my 13 year old if I
after 15 minutes and my 13 year old if I can get a 13 year old to talk to me for
can get a 13 year old to talk to me for
can get a 13 year old to talk to me for 15 minutes
15 minutes
15 minutes I’m parent of the year
I’m parent of the year
I’m parent of the year fifteen minutes is all you need I can
fifteen minutes is all you need I can
fifteen minutes is all you need I can totally pull off 15 minutes of
totally pull off 15 minutes of
totally pull off 15 minutes of uninterrupted time on my worst day
uninterrupted time on my worst day
uninterrupted time on my worst day uninterrupted is the key no cell phone
uninterrupted is the key no cell phone
uninterrupted is the key no cell phone no laundry no anything you busy life you
no laundry no anything you busy life you
no laundry no anything you busy life you have to get dinner on the table you have
have to get dinner on the table you have
have to get dinner on the table you have to force them to bathe but you can do 15
to force them to bathe but you can do 15
to force them to bathe but you can do 15 minutes my kids are my happy place
minutes my kids are my happy place
minutes my kids are my happy place they’re my world but it doesn’t have to
they’re my world but it doesn’t have to
they’re my world but it doesn’t have to be your kids the fuel that feeds your
be your kids the fuel that feeds your
be your kids the fuel that feeds your home the place where life feels more
home the place where life feels more
home the place where life feels more good than not good it’s not about
good than not good it’s not about
good than not good it’s not about playing with your kids it’s about joy
playing with your kids it’s about joy
playing with your kids it’s about joy it’s about playing in general give
it’s about playing in general give
it’s about playing in general give yourself the 15 minutes find what makes
yourself the 15 minutes find what makes
yourself the 15 minutes find what makes you feel good just figure it out
you feel good just figure it out
you feel good just figure it out and play in that arena I’m not perfect
and play in that arena I’m not perfect
and play in that arena I’m not perfect at it in fact I fail as often as I
at it in fact I fail as often as I
at it in fact I fail as often as I succeed seeing friends reading books
succeed seeing friends reading books
succeed seeing friends reading books staring into space what a place starts
staring into space what a place starts
staring into space what a place starts to become shorthand for indulging myself
to become shorthand for indulging myself
to become shorthand for indulging myself in ways I’d given up on right around the
in ways I’d given up on right around the
in ways I’d given up on right around the time I got my first TV show right around
time I got my first TV show right around
time I got my first TV show right around the time I became a Titan in training
the time I became a Titan in training
the time I became a Titan in training right around the time I started
right around the time I started
right around the time I started competing with myself for ways unknown
competing with myself for ways unknown
competing with myself for ways unknown 15 minutes what could be wrong with
15 minutes what could be wrong with
15 minutes what could be wrong with giving myself my full attention for 15
giving myself my full attention for 15
giving myself my full attention for 15 minutes turns out nothing the very act
minutes turns out nothing the very act
minutes turns out nothing the very act of not working has made it possible for
of not working has made it possible for
of not working has made it possible for the hum to return as if the hums engine
the hum to return as if the hums engine
the hum to return as if the hums engine could only refuel while I was away
could only refuel while I was away
could only refuel while I was away work doesn’t work without play it takes
work doesn’t work without play it takes
work doesn’t work without play it takes a little time but after a few months one
a little time but after a few months one
a little time but after a few months one day the floodgates open and there’s a
day the floodgates open and there’s a
day the floodgates open and there’s a rush and I find myself standing in my
rush and I find myself standing in my
rush and I find myself standing in my office filled with an unfamiliar melody
office filled with an unfamiliar melody
office filled with an unfamiliar melody full on groove inside me and around me
full on groove inside me and around me
full on groove inside me and around me and it sends me spinning with ideas and
and it sends me spinning with ideas and
and it sends me spinning with ideas and the humming road is open and I can drive
the humming road is open and I can drive
the humming road is open and I can drive it and drive it and I love working again
it and drive it and I love working again
it and drive it and I love working again but now I like that hum but I don’t love
but now I like that hum but I don’t love
but now I like that hum but I don’t love that hum I don’t need that hum I am NOT
that hum I don’t need that hum I am NOT
that hum I don’t need that hum I am NOT that hum that hum is not me not anymore
that hum that hum is not me not anymore
that hum that hum is not me not anymore I am bubbles and sticky fingers and
I am bubbles and sticky fingers and
I am bubbles and sticky fingers and dinners with friends I am that hum
dinners with friends I am that hum
dinners with friends I am that hum life’s hum love’s hum works hum is still
life’s hum love’s hum works hum is still
life’s hum love’s hum works hum is still a piece of me it is just no longer all
a piece of me it is just no longer all
a piece of me it is just no longer all of me and I am so grateful
of me and I am so grateful
of me and I am so grateful and I don’t give a crap about being a
and I don’t give a crap about being a
and I don’t give a crap about being a Titan because I’ve never once seen a
Titan because I’ve never once seen a
Titan because I’ve never once seen a Titan play Red Rover Red Rover I said
Titan play Red Rover Red Rover I said
Titan play Red Rover Red Rover I said yes to less work and more play and
yes to less work and more play and
yes to less work and more play and somehow I still run my world my brain is
somehow I still run my world my brain is
somehow I still run my world my brain is still global my campfire still burn the
still global my campfire still burn the
still global my campfire still burn the more I play the happier I am and happier
more I play the happier I am and happier
more I play the happier I am and happier my kids are the more I play the more I
my kids are the more I play the more I
my kids are the more I play the more I feel like a good mother
feel like a good mother
feel like a good mother the more I play the free or my mind
the more I play the free or my mind
the more I play the free or my mind becomes the more I play the better I
becomes the more I play the better I
becomes the more I play the better I work the more I play the more I feel the
work the more I play the more I feel the
work the more I play the more I feel the hum the nation on building the marathon
hum the nation on building the marathon
hum the nation on building the marathon i’m running the troops the canvas the
i’m running the troops the canvas the
i’m running the troops the canvas the hideout the hum the hum the other hum
hideout the hum the hum the other hum
hideout the hum the hum the other hum the real hum life’s hum the more I feel
the real hum life’s hum the more I feel
the real hum life’s hum the more I feel that hum the more this strange quivering
that hum the more this strange quivering
that hum the more this strange quivering unka kun awkward brand new alive non
unka kun awkward brand new alive non
unka kun awkward brand new alive non Titan feels like me the more I feel that
Titan feels like me the more I feel that
Titan feels like me the more I feel that hum the more I Know Who I am
hum the more I Know Who I am
hum the more I Know Who I am I’m a writer I make stuff up by imagine
I’m a writer I make stuff up by imagine
I’m a writer I make stuff up by imagine that part of the job that’s living the
that part of the job that’s living the
that part of the job that’s living the dream that’s the dream of the job
dream that’s the dream of the job
dream that’s the dream of the job because a dream job should be a little
because a dream job should be a little
because a dream job should be a little bit dreaming I said yes to less work and
bit dreaming I said yes to less work and
bit dreaming I said yes to less work and more play Titans need not apply
more play Titans need not apply
more play Titans need not apply want to play thank you
thank you guys so much for watching I
thank you guys so much for watching I made this video because to hear a Barney
made this video because to hear a Barney
made this video because to hear a Barney asked me to so if there’s a famous
asked me to so if there’s a famous
asked me to so if there’s a famous entrepreneur that you would like me to
entrepreneur that you would like me to
entrepreneur that you would like me to profile next please leave it down the
profile next please leave it down the
profile next please leave it down the comments below and I’ll see what I can
comments below and I’ll see what I can
comments below and I’ll see what I can do
do
do I’d also love to know what the trying to
I’d also love to know what the trying to
I’d also love to know what the trying to say that really had a big impact on you
say that really had a big impact on you
say that really had a big impact on you what was your favorite clip what lesson
what was your favorite clip what lesson
what was your favorite clip what lesson did you learn and why please leave it
did you learn and why please leave it
did you learn and why please leave it down in the comments below I’m going to
down in the comments below I’m going to
down in the comments below I’m going to join in the discussion thank you again
join in the discussion thank you again
join in the discussion thank you again for watching I believe in you I hope you
for watching I believe in you I hope you
for watching I believe in you I hope you continue to believe in yourself in
continue to believe in yourself in
continue to believe in yourself in whatever your one word is much love I’ll
whatever your one word is much love I’ll
whatever your one word is much love I’ll see you soon
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