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Trusting the music within you | Monica Buckland | TEDxNewnham


we all have music within us and we

we all have music within us and we communicate it with every gesture we

communicate it with every gesture we

communicate it with every gesture we make I’m not talking about dancers

make I’m not talking about dancers

make I’m not talking about dancers although of all people they’re probably

although of all people they’re probably

although of all people they’re probably the most aware of the intimate

the most aware of the intimate

the most aware of the intimate connection between physical movement and

connection between physical movement and

connection between physical movement and sound and I’m not just talking about

sound and I’m not just talking about

sound and I’m not just talking about conductors although obviously other

conductors although obviously other

conductors although obviously other conductor that’s going to be my starting

conductor that’s going to be my starting

conductor that’s going to be my starting point people often asked me what exactly

point people often asked me what exactly

point people often asked me what exactly does a conductor do well it’s our job to

does a conductor do well it’s our job to

does a conductor do well it’s our job to take the notes written by a composer and

take the notes written by a composer and

take the notes written by a composer and give them an emotional shape to convey

give them an emotional shape to convey

give them an emotional shape to convey the composer’s ideas to get from what’s

the composer’s ideas to get from what’s

the composer’s ideas to get from what’s in the head of say Jay s bar up there on

in the head of say Jay s bar up there on

in the head of say Jay s bar up there on his cloud or Judith who might be sitting

his cloud or Judith who might be sitting

his cloud or Judith who might be sitting in the hall behind me these ideas have

in the hall behind me these ideas have

in the hall behind me these ideas have to be transmitted through the medium of

to be transmitted through the medium of

to be transmitted through the medium of print and then filtered through my body

print and then filtered through my body

print and then filtered through my body and the bodies of the musicians I use

and the bodies of the musicians I use

and the bodies of the musicians I use gestures to draw the music out of the

gestures to draw the music out of the

gestures to draw the music out of the players or the singers in a way that I

players or the singers in a way that I

players or the singers in a way that I think conveys what the composer is

think conveys what the composer is

think conveys what the composer is trained to say now I say I think but

trained to say now I say I think but

trained to say now I say I think but actually I’m not just relying on my own

actually I’m not just relying on my own

actually I’m not just relying on my own ideas in the world of Western classical

ideas in the world of Western classical

ideas in the world of Western classical music pieces written by composers

music pieces written by composers

music pieces written by composers generally give us a very good idea of

generally give us a very good idea of

generally give us a very good idea of how to play them I’ll have a conducting

how to play them I’ll have a conducting

how to play them I’ll have a conducting score in France for me with the whole

score in France for me with the whole

score in France for me with the whole piece in it the musicians will have

piece in it the musicians will have

piece in it the musicians will have their own individual parts on their

their own individual parts on their

their own individual parts on their music stands and they’ll play what they

music stands and they’ll play what they

music stands and they’ll play what they read so not just the notes but also

read so not just the notes but also

read so not just the notes but also detailed instructions about how fast or

detailed instructions about how fast or

detailed instructions about how fast or how loud to play them what kind of

how loud to play them what kind of

how loud to play them what kind of attack to use and so on there are a lot

attack to use and so on there are a lot

attack to use and so on there are a lot of clues in there about how to realize

of clues in there about how to realize

of clues in there about how to realize the composer’s ideas so you may ask

the composer’s ideas so you may ask

the composer’s ideas so you may ask what’s the point of having a conductor

what’s the point of having a conductor

what’s the point of having a conductor at all

at all

at all well aren’t your byzant trivial even

well aren’t your byzant trivial even

well aren’t your byzant trivial even just on the level of coordination we do

just on the level of coordination we do

just on the level of coordination we do have to give a certain amount of traffic

have to give a certain amount of traffic

have to give a certain amount of traffic signals after all it’s important that

signals after all it’s important that

signals after all it’s important that the musicians all start together

and stop together thank you but beyond

and stop together thank you but beyond that we’re trying to communicate the

that we’re trying to communicate the

that we’re trying to communicate the essence of the music I’d like to

essence of the music I’d like to

essence of the music I’d like to demonstrate that by taking out the

demonstrate that by taking out the

demonstrate that by taking out the elements of reading the clues

elements of reading the clues

elements of reading the clues if a piece hasn’t already been written

if a piece hasn’t already been written

if a piece hasn’t already been written down is there an essence that we can

down is there an essence that we can

down is there an essence that we can draw out of thin air an emotional impact

draw out of thin air an emotional impact

draw out of thin air an emotional impact that doesn’t depend on the notes when

that doesn’t depend on the notes when

that doesn’t depend on the notes when musicians improvise together in a small

musicians improvise together in a small

musicians improvise together in a small group we can shift our focus from

group we can shift our focus from

group we can shift our focus from reading what’s in front of us to

reading what’s in front of us to

reading what’s in front of us to listening to one another by reacting to

listening to one another by reacting to

listening to one another by reacting to what we hear someone else playing maybe

what we hear someone else playing maybe

what we hear someone else playing maybe taking their idea and developing it

taking their idea and developing it

taking their idea and developing it running away with it bouncing it back

running away with it bouncing it back

running away with it bouncing it back and forth the group creates a piece of

and forth the group creates a piece of

and forth the group creates a piece of music together

music together

music together the musicians listen in a different way

the musicians listen in a different way

the musicians listen in a different way responding to one another rather than

responding to one another rather than

responding to one another rather than planning out how they’re going to play

planning out how they’re going to play

planning out how they’re going to play what’s in front of them I’ll show you

what’s in front of them I’ll show you

what’s in front of them I’ll show you what I mean um Sofia start us off with a

what I mean um Sofia start us off with a

what I mean um Sofia start us off with a bass line just something jaunty

okay loathe as I am to interrupt you and

okay loathe as I am to interrupt you and they could go on for quite a while I’ve

they could go on for quite a while I’ve

they could go on for quite a while I’ve heard them working together and it’s

heard them working together and it’s

heard them working together and it’s lovely but I want to introduce a new

lovely but I want to introduce a new

lovely but I want to introduce a new element which is I’d like to I’ll ask

element which is I’d like to I’ll ask

element which is I’d like to I’ll ask them now to respond to what I’m doing

them now to respond to what I’m doing

them now to respond to what I’m doing so they’re going to be converting my

so they’re going to be converting my

so they’re going to be converting my physical gestures into musical ones is

physical gestures into musical ones is

physical gestures into musical ones is exactly what they do when there is music

exactly what they do when there is music

exactly what they do when there is music on the stand in front of them but we’ve

on the stand in front of them but we’ve

on the stand in front of them but we’ve taken that away so this is what’s left

taken that away so this is what’s left

taken that away so this is what’s left so for example if I make a gesture like

so for example if I make a gesture like

so for example if I make a gesture like this it’s going to have a very different

this it’s going to have a very different

this it’s going to have a very different effect from this

[Music]

[Music] [Applause]

[Applause]

[Applause] thank you but beyond that I’m asking how

thank you but beyond that I’m asking how

thank you but beyond that I’m asking how it happens what’s just happened there

it happens what’s just happened there

it happens what’s just happened there and it was all improvised is this some

and it was all improvised is this some

and it was all improvised is this some kind of magic trick am I perhaps someone

kind of magic trick am I perhaps someone

kind of magic trick am I perhaps someone with a superpower can anyone do it or do

with a superpower can anyone do it or do

with a superpower can anyone do it or do you have to be a musician well I believe

you have to be a musician well I believe

you have to be a musician well I believe that you don’t have to be what you might

that you don’t have to be what you might

that you don’t have to be what you might think of as musical in order to make

think of as musical in order to make

think of as musical in order to make music out of thin air with these

music out of thin air with these

music out of thin air with these musicians reacting to you your physical

musicians reacting to you your physical

musicians reacting to you your physical presence will translate into sound do I

presence will translate into sound do I

presence will translate into sound do I have a volunteer to test out this theory

have a volunteer to test out this theory

have a volunteer to test out this theory come on then I’ve become

if you wouldn’t mind just standing there

if you wouldn’t mind just standing there do anything I might stop you but feel

do anything I might stop you but feel

do anything I might stop you but feel free

free

free [Music]

[Music]

[Music] well done

hey go so how did that feel very nice

hey go so how did that feel very nice very nice any sort of adjective and it

very nice any sort of adjective and it

very nice any sort of adjective and it was pleasurable to be able to feel so

was pleasurable to be able to feel so

was pleasurable to be able to feel so the pleasure was in the response that

the pleasure was in the response that

the pleasure was in the response that you got from them yeah thank you

you got from them yeah thank you

you got from them yeah thank you anyone else again if you just stand

anyone else again if you just stand

anyone else again if you just stand there and off you go

[Music]

[Music] [Applause]

[Applause]

[Applause] [Music]

[Music]

[Music] [Applause]

[Applause]

[Applause] [Music]

[Music]

[Music] [Applause]

[Applause]

[Applause] [Music]

[Music]

[Music] [Applause]

thank you very much thanks I wish we had

thank you very much thanks I wish we had time for everyone to have a go because

time for everyone to have a go because

time for everyone to have a go because it really is a lot of fun and thank you

it really is a lot of fun and thank you

it really is a lot of fun and thank you one of the words that people often use

one of the words that people often use

one of the words that people often use when they have this experience and I say

when they have this experience and I say

when they have this experience and I say what did it feel like they say

what did it feel like they say

what did it feel like they say empowering because sometimes we get

empowering because sometimes we get

empowering because sometimes we get empowerment from quite unexpected

empowerment from quite unexpected

empowerment from quite unexpected quarters and I’d like to take that idea

quarters and I’d like to take that idea

quarters and I’d like to take that idea and ask you for a moment to think about

and ask you for a moment to think about

and ask you for a moment to think about power not in it’s hierarchical meaning

power not in it’s hierarchical meaning

power not in it’s hierarchical meaning but in the sense of electricity because

but in the sense of electricity because

but in the sense of electricity because what we’re doing here is switching on

what we’re doing here is switching on

what we’re doing here is switching on the power or plugging into the power

the power or plugging into the power

the power or plugging into the power supply and then conducting this

supply and then conducting this

supply and then conducting this electricity into the group of people in

electricity into the group of people in

electricity into the group of people in front of us our hands our faces and in

front of us our hands our faces and in

front of us our hands our faces and in fact our whole bodies become a conduit

fact our whole bodies become a conduit

fact our whole bodies become a conduit for this power and this is where what I

for this power and this is where what I

for this power and this is where what I do with music is something we will do

do with music is something we will do

do with music is something we will do you all do in your daily lives in

you all do in your daily lives in

you all do in your daily lives in various work or social situations your

various work or social situations your

various work or social situations your having a job interview you’re teaching a

having a job interview you’re teaching a

having a job interview you’re teaching a class about Shakespeare or the spinning

class about Shakespeare or the spinning

class about Shakespeare or the spinning jenny you’re in a committee meeting

jenny you’re in a committee meeting

jenny you’re in a committee meeting you’re having coffee with a group of

you’re having coffee with a group of

you’re having coffee with a group of friends we all conduct our relationships

friends we all conduct our relationships

friends we all conduct our relationships with individuals and with groups of

with individuals and with groups of

with individuals and with groups of people how we create music in the world

people how we create music in the world

people how we create music in the world is very much dependent on how we occupy

is very much dependent on how we occupy

is very much dependent on how we occupy space what we do in and with the space

space what we do in and with the space

space what we do in and with the space between us and other people simply how

between us and other people simply how

between us and other people simply how we are in a very physical sense it’s

we are in a very physical sense it’s

we are in a very physical sense it’s fundamentally part of communication so

fundamentally part of communication so

fundamentally part of communication so all the time we have the opportunity to

all the time we have the opportunity to

all the time we have the opportunity to communicate the music within us whether

communicate the music within us whether

communicate the music within us whether it’s how violent or angry or joyful or

it’s how violent or angry or joyful or

it’s how violent or angry or joyful or just tired and miserable

just tired and miserable

just tired and miserable whatever the music inside you you are

whatever the music inside you you are

whatever the music inside you you are already conducting something of your

already conducting something of your

already conducting something of your essence to the people around you and for

essence to the people around you and for

essence to the people around you and for them because part of what you’re doing

them because part of what you’re doing

them because part of what you’re doing is channeling your music but at the same

is channeling your music but at the same

is channeling your music but at the same time you’re empowering other people to

time you’re empowering other people to

time you’re empowering other people to express the music within them now I

express the music within them now I

express the music within them now I don’t want you to think that when I’m

don’t want you to think that when I’m

don’t want you to think that when I’m conducting a piece of music it’s

conducting a piece of music it’s

conducting a piece of music it’s necessarily my emotions that I’m

necessarily my emotions that I’m

necessarily my emotions that I’m transmitting to the musicians and in

transmitting to the musicians and in

transmitting to the musicians and in fact sometimes what I’m feeling couldn’t

fact sometimes what I’m feeling couldn’t

fact sometimes what I’m feeling couldn’t be further from what’s in the music I’ll

be further from what’s in the music I’ll

be further from what’s in the music I’ll give you an example some years ago I was

give you an example some years ago I was

give you an example some years ago I was conducting a concert of lovely Christmas

conducting a concert of lovely Christmas

conducting a concert of lovely Christmas music I came back after the rehearsal

music I came back after the rehearsal

music I came back after the rehearsal and I took a phone call to tell me that

and I took a phone call to tell me that

and I took a phone call to tell me that my little godson who had been ill for

my little godson who had been ill for

my little godson who had been ill for some time had just died

some time had just died

some time had just died well I raged and I cried but the show

well I raged and I cried but the show

well I raged and I cried but the show must go on

must go on

must go on so I did what performers do I put on my

so I did what performers do I put on my

so I did what performers do I put on my concert suit picked up my baton and went

concert suit picked up my baton and went

concert suit picked up my baton and went on stage I have very little memory of

on stage I have very little memory of

on stage I have very little memory of that concert but curiously people who

that concert but curiously people who

that concert but curiously people who were there said things like how well I

were there said things like how well I

were there said things like how well I brought the music across I mean how on

brought the music across I mean how on

brought the music across I mean how on earth could this happen

earth could this happen

earth could this happen the music was serene it was Julius so I

the music was serene it was Julius so I

the music was serene it was Julius so I was clearly not communicating what I was

was clearly not communicating what I was

was clearly not communicating what I was actually feeling inside which was shock

actually feeling inside which was shock

actually feeling inside which was shock and grief nor do I think I was putting

and grief nor do I think I was putting

and grief nor do I think I was putting my feelings away in a box I think that’s

my feelings away in a box I think that’s

my feelings away in a box I think that’s something that’s really unhelpful for

something that’s really unhelpful for

something that’s really unhelpful for musicians to do because we are trying to

musicians to do because we are trying to

musicians to do because we are trying to be a pure channel for the music and if

be a pure channel for the music and if

be a pure channel for the music and if we lock our emotions away we are

we lock our emotions away we are

we lock our emotions away we are blocking that channel what I think was

blocking that channel what I think was

blocking that channel what I think was going on was that the immediacy of these

going on was that the immediacy of these

going on was that the immediacy of these very strong emotions the sheer power of

very strong emotions the sheer power of

very strong emotions the sheer power of them not the feelings themselves had

them not the feelings themselves had

them not the feelings themselves had somehow opens me up so that I was able

somehow opens me up so that I was able

somehow opens me up so that I was able to transmit the spirit of the music

to transmit the spirit of the music

to transmit the spirit of the music so the thoughts I’d like to leave you is

so the thoughts I’d like to leave you is

so the thoughts I’d like to leave you is ah believe that you to have music within

ah believe that you to have music within

ah believe that you to have music within you

you

you however literally all metaphorically you

however literally all metaphorically you

however literally all metaphorically you want to take that and don’t be afraid of

want to take that and don’t be afraid of

want to take that and don’t be afraid of your feelings because they can empower

your feelings because they can empower

your feelings because they can empower you with your own electricity

you with your own electricity

you with your own electricity you’ll challenge then is to trust that

you’ll challenge then is to trust that

you’ll challenge then is to trust that you are conducting your own music

you are conducting your own music

you are conducting your own music through your own power lines in your

through your own power lines in your

through your own power lines in your relationships and out into the world

relationships and out into the world

relationships and out into the world make it matter

make it matter

make it matter [Applause]

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