when my wife and I sit down to watch a horror movie
horror movie
horror movie we have two very different approaches I
we have two very different approaches I
we have two very different approaches I tend to think about how I could defeat
tend to think about how I could defeat
tend to think about how I could defeat the monster that could come in handy in
the monster that could come in handy in
the monster that could come in handy in real life I also like to think that
real life I also like to think that
real life I also like to think that maybe that makes me a realist my wife
maybe that makes me a realist my wife
maybe that makes me a realist my wife thinks I’m an optimist when it comes to
thinks I’m an optimist when it comes to
thinks I’m an optimist when it comes to defeating fake threats but she spends
defeating fake threats but she spends
defeating fake threats but she spends that time trying not to get too attached
that time trying not to get too attached
that time trying not to get too attached to the characters and I know this
to the characters and I know this
to the characters and I know this because she’s a vocal movie watcher for
because she’s a vocal movie watcher for
because she’s a vocal movie watcher for every character that wanders off alone
every character that wanders off alone
every character that wanders off alone she announces with confidence and
she announces with confidence and
she announces with confidence and certainty that they’re done for they
certainty that they’re done for they
certainty that they’re done for they shouldn’t have left the group the
shouldn’t have left the group the
shouldn’t have left the group the monster can see them and they’re never
monster can see them and they’re never
monster can see them and they’re never coming out of the garage I think she
coming out of the garage I think she
coming out of the garage I think she does this so she’s not surprised if they
does this so she’s not surprised if they
does this so she’s not surprised if they get a little bit murdered but the funny
get a little bit murdered but the funny
get a little bit murdered but the funny thing is she thinks she’s a realist too
thing is she thinks she’s a realist too
thing is she thinks she’s a realist too but that’s the point of a movie to be on
but that’s the point of a movie to be on
but that’s the point of a movie to be on the edge of your seat that uncertainty
the edge of your seat that uncertainty
the edge of your seat that uncertainty makes for a more entertaining story and
makes for a more entertaining story and
makes for a more entertaining story and though I feel I could defeat some of
though I feel I could defeat some of
though I feel I could defeat some of those villains I prefer a little less
those villains I prefer a little less
those villains I prefer a little less excitement in real life unfortunately we
excitement in real life unfortunately we
excitement in real life unfortunately we got our scare in a different way my wife
got our scare in a different way my wife
got our scare in a different way my wife suffers from cystic fibrosis and more
suffers from cystic fibrosis and more
suffers from cystic fibrosis and more scary than any horror movie was watching
scary than any horror movie was watching
scary than any horror movie was watching her suffer through heart failure
her suffer through heart failure
her suffer through heart failure respiratory failure and then six months
respiratory failure and then six months
respiratory failure and then six months on a ventilator when that became my
on a ventilator when that became my
on a ventilator when that became my reality I struggled to find a way to
reality I struggled to find a way to
reality I struggled to find a way to stay realistic but also have a sense of
stay realistic but also have a sense of
stay realistic but also have a sense of optimism and I learned that that
optimism and I learned that that
optimism and I learned that that perspective of realistic optimism had
perspective of realistic optimism had
perspective of realistic optimism had even more value in a struggle lasted
even more value in a struggle lasted
even more value in a struggle lasted month after month after month now
month after month after month now
month after month after month now Rebecca had always suffered from CF and
Rebecca had always suffered from CF and
Rebecca had always suffered from CF and we’d expected that at some point she
we’d expected that at some point she
we’d expected that at some point she would have a decline and require a lung
would have a decline and require a lung
would have a decline and require a lung transplant but when that decline started
transplant but when that decline started
transplant but when that decline started it still took us off-guard she was
it still took us off-guard she was
it still took us off-guard she was working from her hospital room just a
working from her hospital room just a
working from her hospital room just a few hours before she went into
few hours before she went into
few hours before she went into respiratory failure it was New Year’s
respiratory failure it was New Year’s
respiratory failure it was New Year’s Eve when she was placed on a ventilator
Eve when she was placed on a ventilator
Eve when she was placed on a ventilator in a chemically induced coma
in a chemically induced coma
in a chemically induced coma as the is past her odds for survival
as the is past her odds for survival
as the is past her odds for survival began to decrease and as the weeks
began to decrease and as the weeks
began to decrease and as the weeks passed I witnessed one scare after
passed I witnessed one scare after
passed I witnessed one scare after another and I remember how I felt when
another and I remember how I felt when
another and I remember how I felt when they told me she probably wouldn’t
they told me she probably wouldn’t
they told me she probably wouldn’t survive I did not feel optimistic cuz to
survive I did not feel optimistic cuz to
survive I did not feel optimistic cuz to me optimistic people just knew things
me optimistic people just knew things
me optimistic people just knew things would be fine they had this blind faith
would be fine they had this blind faith
would be fine they had this blind faith that everything would work out but I
that everything would work out but I
that everything would work out but I wasn’t so sure and I’d much rather hear
wasn’t so sure and I’d much rather hear
wasn’t so sure and I’d much rather hear a harsh reality then get a watered down
a harsh reality then get a watered down
a harsh reality then get a watered down version of the truth so when the doctors
version of the truth so when the doctors
version of the truth so when the doctors gave me the opportunity to participate
gave me the opportunity to participate
gave me the opportunity to participate in morning rounds I took them up on it I
in morning rounds I took them up on it I
in morning rounds I took them up on it I wanted to learn as much as possible
wanted to learn as much as possible
wanted to learn as much as possible because even though I wasn’t an expert I
because even though I wasn’t an expert I
because even though I wasn’t an expert I wanted to help figure out how we were
wanted to help figure out how we were
wanted to help figure out how we were going to defeat this monster
Rebecca’s condition stayed borderline
Rebecca’s condition stayed borderline for months and I’d update friends and
for months and I’d update friends and
for months and I’d update friends and family every day they started to call me
family every day they started to call me
family every day they started to call me optimistic and I knew it wasn’t blind
optimistic and I knew it wasn’t blind
optimistic and I knew it wasn’t blind optimism so I recognized it as something
optimism so I recognized it as something
optimism so I recognized it as something else
else
else realistic optimism I wasn’t telling them
realistic optimism I wasn’t telling them
realistic optimism I wasn’t telling them that everything would be fine but I was
that everything would be fine but I was
that everything would be fine but I was telling them what her path to success
telling them what her path to success
telling them what her path to success look like
look like
look like I didn’t cherry-pick the positive but I
I didn’t cherry-pick the positive but I
I didn’t cherry-pick the positive but I did try to see a silver lining through
did try to see a silver lining through
did try to see a silver lining through all the negative and there were a lot of
all the negative and there were a lot of
all the negative and there were a lot of bad update first she was placed on a
bad update first she was placed on a
bad update first she was placed on a ventilator
ventilator
ventilator then she aspirated into her Airways
then she aspirated into her Airways
then she aspirated into her Airways meaning her stomach contents got into
meaning her stomach contents got into
meaning her stomach contents got into her lungs that caused another pneumonia
her lungs that caused another pneumonia
her lungs that caused another pneumonia they told me she wouldn’t survive
they told me she wouldn’t survive
they told me she wouldn’t survive without a lung transplant then they said
without a lung transplant then they said
without a lung transplant then they said that she was too sick to qualify for one
that she was too sick to qualify for one
that she was too sick to qualify for one but there was some good news mixed in
but there was some good news mixed in
but there was some good news mixed in with a bad when she cultured a bad
with a bad when she cultured a bad
with a bad when she cultured a bad bacteria it would later clear when her
bacteria it would later clear when her
bacteria it would later clear when her kidney numbers came back worse one day
kidney numbers came back worse one day
kidney numbers came back worse one day another day they might come back better
another day they might come back better
another day they might come back better and when she required more support from
and when she required more support from
and when she required more support from the ventilator one week the next week
the ventilator one week the next week
the ventilator one week the next week she might require less there were
she might require less there were
she might require less there were definitely weeks
definitely weeks
definitely weeks where the bad news outweighed the good
where the bad news outweighed the good
where the bad news outweighed the good but I saw no reason not to celebrate the
but I saw no reason not to celebrate the
but I saw no reason not to celebrate the good I didn’t consider myself blind
good I didn’t consider myself blind
good I didn’t consider myself blind optimistic but I thought the positive
optimistic but I thought the positive
optimistic but I thought the positive was at least as important to share as
was at least as important to share as
was at least as important to share as the negative in February
the negative in February
the negative in February Rebecca woke from the coma our first
Rebecca woke from the coma our first
Rebecca woke from the coma our first conversation didn’t go as expected
conversation didn’t go as expected
conversation didn’t go as expected because she was still on the ventilator
because she was still on the ventilator
because she was still on the ventilator it connected through a trach placed
it connected through a trach placed
it connected through a trach placed below her vocal cords so she literally
below her vocal cords so she literally
below her vocal cords so she literally had no voice but I could learn to read
had no voice but I could learn to read
had no voice but I could learn to read lips and I soon found out that we had
lips and I soon found out that we had
lips and I soon found out that we had bigger problems she had experienced
bigger problems she had experienced
bigger problems she had experienced severe muscle atrophy from weeks of
severe muscle atrophy from weeks of
severe muscle atrophy from weeks of immobility and could only lift her hand
immobility and could only lift her hand
immobility and could only lift her hand a few shaky inches off the bed
a few shaky inches off the bed
a few shaky inches off the bed she couldn’t even reach up and scratch
she couldn’t even reach up and scratch
she couldn’t even reach up and scratch her own cheek we knew she needed to get
her own cheek we knew she needed to get
her own cheek we knew she needed to get stronger to be a good transplant
stronger to be a good transplant
stronger to be a good transplant candidate she needed to be stronger not
candidate she needed to be stronger not
candidate she needed to be stronger not only to survive a transplant but simply
only to survive a transplant but simply
only to survive a transplant but simply be considered for evaluation excuse me
be considered for evaluation excuse me
be considered for evaluation excuse me and at the time she was vulnerable
and at the time she was vulnerable
and at the time she was vulnerable dependent on a ventilator for every
dependent on a ventilator for every
dependent on a ventilator for every breath she had diabetes they could turn
breath she had diabetes they could turn
breath she had diabetes they could turn life-threatening like and she also had
life-threatening like and she also had
life-threatening like and she also had no voice to call for help in an
no voice to call for help in an
no voice to call for help in an emergency so our first strength goal was
emergency so our first strength goal was
emergency so our first strength goal was simple and functional be able to press
simple and functional be able to press
simple and functional be able to press the call button in an emergency when she
the call button in an emergency when she
the call button in an emergency when she can do that it became to stand and then
can do that it became to stand and then
can do that it became to stand and then walk and then walk further walking
walk and then walk further walking
walk and then walk further walking wasn’t just exercise it was the
wasn’t just exercise it was the
wasn’t just exercise it was the demonstration of that strength and we
demonstration of that strength and we
demonstration of that strength and we wanted to show the hospitals that she
wanted to show the hospitals that she
wanted to show the hospitals that she was driven and that she could survive at
was driven and that she could survive at
was driven and that she could survive at this point it was unlikely still that
this point it was unlikely still that
this point it was unlikely still that they would list somebody as sick as
they would list somebody as sick as
they would list somebody as sick as Rebecca but it was possible
Rebecca but it was possible
Rebecca but it was possible we were realistically optimistic we
we were realistically optimistic we
we were realistically optimistic we needed to be and we learned that you
needed to be and we learned that you
needed to be and we learned that you could have a good day in a hospital it
could have a good day in a hospital it
could have a good day in a hospital it wasn’t all about the living you were
wasn’t all about the living you were
wasn’t all about the living you were going to do later it was about the
going to do later it was about the
going to do later it was about the living we were doing right then and
living we were doing right then and
living we were doing right then and there we could listen to music I could
there we could listen to music I could
there we could listen to music I could bring in her cat Paul for a visit
bring in her cat Paul for a visit
bring in her cat Paul for a visit we could take we could get takeout as an
we could take we could get takeout as an
we could take we could get takeout as an alternative to hospital food one thing I
alternative to hospital food one thing I
alternative to hospital food one thing I learned was that Rebecca
learned was that Rebecca
learned was that Rebecca like alternatives to hospital food and
like alternatives to hospital food and
like alternatives to hospital food and at a time when her condition was
at a time when her condition was
at a time when her condition was borderline we recognized we had a choice
borderline we recognized we had a choice
borderline we recognized we had a choice we could either begin grieving early or
we could either begin grieving early or
we could either begin grieving early or make the best of these days and what I
make the best of these days and what I
make the best of these days and what I learned was that these days between
learned was that these days between
learned was that these days between prognosis and conclusion whatever that
prognosis and conclusion whatever that
prognosis and conclusion whatever that might be
might be
might be they had value staying motivated was
they had value staying motivated was
they had value staying motivated was still a challenge and what 15 years
still a challenge and what 15 years
still a challenge and what 15 years leading projects had taught me was that
leading projects had taught me was that
leading projects had taught me was that sometimes short time short-term
sometimes short time short-term
sometimes short time short-term successes could provide a little
successes could provide a little
successes could provide a little motivation
it wasn’t usually about some big
it wasn’t usually about some big surprise victory was about chipping away
surprise victory was about chipping away
surprise victory was about chipping away at a goal short-term successes and it
at a goal short-term successes and it
at a goal short-term successes and it was tempting just to step back and be
was tempting just to step back and be
was tempting just to step back and be overwhelmed by the mountain in front of
overwhelmed by the mountain in front of
overwhelmed by the mountain in front of us Henry Ford once said obstacles are
us Henry Ford once said obstacles are
us Henry Ford once said obstacles are those frightful things you see when you
those frightful things you see when you
those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal but what do
take your eyes off your goal but what do
take your eyes off your goal but what do you focus on when your goal is so far
you focus on when your goal is so far
you focus on when your goal is so far away well back at work and in the
away well back at work and in the
away well back at work and in the hospital there were many steps between
hospital there were many steps between
hospital there were many steps between where we were and where we wanted to be
where we were and where we wanted to be
where we were and where we wanted to be and if we could recognize each of those
and if we could recognize each of those
and if we could recognize each of those steps for what they were successes then
steps for what they were successes then
steps for what they were successes then the journey itself could provide a
the journey itself could provide a
the journey itself could provide a little motivation to keep us going
little motivation to keep us going
little motivation to keep us going when Rebecca woke from the coma and we
when Rebecca woke from the coma and we
when Rebecca woke from the coma and we had that first conversation that was a
had that first conversation that was a
had that first conversation that was a victory when she became strong enough to
victory when she became strong enough to
victory when she became strong enough to pick things from her bedside table that
pick things from her bedside table that
pick things from her bedside table that was a victory and when UPMC transplant
was a victory and when UPMC transplant
was a victory and when UPMC transplant program agreed to evaluate her after
program agreed to evaluate her after
program agreed to evaluate her after five consecutive hospitals declined –
five consecutive hospitals declined –
five consecutive hospitals declined – that was a victory I have to admit
that was a victory I have to admit
that was a victory I have to admit though in a beginning I was celebrating
though in a beginning I was celebrating
though in a beginning I was celebrating many of these milestones alone when she
many of these milestones alone when she
many of these milestones alone when she had gone into the coma she could walk
had gone into the coma she could walk
had gone into the coma she could walk talk and breathe on her own now she
talk and breathe on her own now she
talk and breathe on her own now she could do none of that I remember one
could do none of that I remember one
could do none of that I remember one night when I told her I was proud of her
night when I told her I was proud of her
night when I told her I was proud of her and she said I believe you’re proud of
and she said I believe you’re proud of
and she said I believe you’re proud of me but I’m not proud of myself
she’d always been an overachiever but
she’d always been an overachiever but she was comparing herself to
she was comparing herself to
she was comparing herself to possible standard but that was her
possible standard but that was her
possible standard but that was her opinion and I couldn’t change that
opinion and I couldn’t change that
opinion and I couldn’t change that directly the best I could do was make a
directly the best I could do was make a
directly the best I could do was make a case for her accomplishments now full
case for her accomplishments now full
case for her accomplishments now full disclosure my track record at convincing
disclosure my track record at convincing
disclosure my track record at convincing my wife of things mediocre at best but I
my wife of things mediocre at best but I
my wife of things mediocre at best but I knew one thing and I used it my wife is
knew one thing and I used it my wife is
knew one thing and I used it my wife is a science nerd so I learned to include a
a science nerd so I learned to include a
a science nerd so I learned to include a fact with every compliment it was great
fact with every compliment it was great
fact with every compliment it was great that she’d completed two more exercise
that she’d completed two more exercise
that she’d completed two more exercise sessions than the prior week walk 10
sessions than the prior week walk 10
sessions than the prior week walk 10 feet further than a few days ago or done
feet further than a few days ago or done
feet further than a few days ago or done 15 more reps than yesterday I hoped that
15 more reps than yesterday I hoped that
15 more reps than yesterday I hoped that she would start to build a new baseline
she would start to build a new baseline
she would start to build a new baseline a new measure for success and then one
a new measure for success and then one
a new measure for success and then one night I told her I was proud of her and
night I told her I was proud of her and
night I told her I was proud of her and she said I’m proud too that mindset was
she said I’m proud too that mindset was
she said I’m proud too that mindset was critical at a time when her drive to
critical at a time when her drive to
critical at a time when her drive to survive meant everything at this point
survive meant everything at this point
survive meant everything at this point we didn’t know if she would get listed
we didn’t know if she would get listed
we didn’t know if she would get listed but we were optimistic we still hit some
but we were optimistic we still hit some
but we were optimistic we still hit some hurdles though after waking from the
hurdles though after waking from the
hurdles though after waking from the coma building up her strength and
coma building up her strength and
coma building up her strength and transferring to Pittsburgh for
transferring to Pittsburgh for
transferring to Pittsburgh for evaluation
evaluation
evaluation Rebecca crashed
her heart rate dropped to 41 beats a
her heart rate dropped to 41 beats a minute her blood pressure dropped to 57
minute her blood pressure dropped to 57
minute her blood pressure dropped to 57 over 30 and her oxygen level dropped to
over 30 and her oxygen level dropped to
over 30 and her oxygen level dropped to 29%
29%
29% she almost died waiting to be listed the
she almost died waiting to be listed the
she almost died waiting to be listed the staff reacted quickly though they put
staff reacted quickly though they put
staff reacted quickly though they put her on something called ECMO now this
her on something called ECMO now this
her on something called ECMO now this machine continuously pump blood from a
machine continuously pump blood from a
machine continuously pump blood from a vein in her neck through a device that
vein in her neck through a device that
vein in her neck through a device that added oxygen and remove carbon dioxide
added oxygen and remove carbon dioxide
added oxygen and remove carbon dioxide before returning it to her now these
before returning it to her now these
before returning it to her now these tubes couldn’t kink or pull out without
tubes couldn’t kink or pull out without
tubes couldn’t kink or pull out without detrimental effect so she wore a
detrimental effect so she wore a
detrimental effect so she wore a headband to keep one in place and the
headband to keep one in place and the
headband to keep one in place and the other was stitched a per right leg as a
other was stitched a per right leg as a
other was stitched a per right leg as a result she could only move a few degrees
result she could only move a few degrees
result she could only move a few degrees in any direction and I couldn’t imagine
in any direction and I couldn’t imagine
in any direction and I couldn’t imagine how horrible this was for her to top it
how horrible this was for her to top it
how horrible this was for her to top it off they told us it was unlikely she’d
off they told us it was unlikely she’d
off they told us it was unlikely she’d survive more than two weeks without a
survive more than two weeks without a
survive more than two weeks without a transplant and she wasn’t even listed it
transplant and she wasn’t even listed it
transplant and she wasn’t even listed it was more than just discouraging it was
was more than just discouraging it was
was more than just discouraging it was terrifying and I’ve read many things
terrifying and I’ve read many things
terrifying and I’ve read many things from her lips over the previous months
from her lips over the previous months
from her lips over the previous months but I’ll never forget what I read after
but I’ll never forget what I read after
but I’ll never forget what I read after she was placed on ECMO I’m in hell she
she was placed on ECMO I’m in hell she
she was placed on ECMO I’m in hell she told me she had this look of desperation
told me she had this look of desperation
told me she had this look of desperation in her eyes when she said I’m done I
in her eyes when she said I’m done I
in her eyes when she said I’m done I want to die
she was done fighting done working so
she was done fighting done working so hard toward a gold that would never be
hard toward a gold that would never be
hard toward a gold that would never be realized this was what it looked like
realized this was what it looked like
realized this was what it looked like when all hope was gone but all hope
when all hope was gone but all hope
when all hope was gone but all hope wasn’t gone that’s the thing about the
wasn’t gone that’s the thing about the
wasn’t gone that’s the thing about the future we don’t know what it’ll bring
future we don’t know what it’ll bring
future we don’t know what it’ll bring even though we spend our entire lives
even though we spend our entire lives
even though we spend our entire lives trying to predict it she could be listed
trying to predict it she could be listed
trying to predict it she could be listed at any point and I told her this but
at any point and I told her this but
at any point and I told her this but she’d heard it before I tried to paint
she’d heard it before I tried to paint
she’d heard it before I tried to paint this vision of us sitting on a couch
this vision of us sitting on a couch
this vision of us sitting on a couch watching a movie post-transplant but she
watching a movie post-transplant but she
watching a movie post-transplant but she wasn’t buying it
wasn’t buying it
wasn’t buying it and when we finished that conversation
and when we finished that conversation
and when we finished that conversation she just stared off there was no
she just stared off there was no
she just stared off there was no conclusion no optimism in an unknowable
conclusion no optimism in an unknowable
conclusion no optimism in an unknowable future then my phone rang in one
future then my phone rang in one
future then my phone rang in one conversation our entire trajectory
conversation our entire trajectory
conversation our entire trajectory changed
Rebecca was listed now as the next
Rebecca was listed now as the next short-term success and no guarantee of
short-term success and no guarantee of
short-term success and no guarantee of anything but it meant everything she was
anything but it meant everything she was
anything but it meant everything she was so sick that she was in the number one
so sick that she was in the number one
so sick that she was in the number one position on that list and as I told her
position on that list and as I told her
position on that list and as I told her I watched the despair fade and the hope
I watched the despair fade and the hope
I watched the despair fade and the hope returned to her eyes in just a few hours
returned to her eyes in just a few hours
returned to her eyes in just a few hours we had gone from the lowest low to an
we had gone from the lowest low to an
we had gone from the lowest low to an incredible high but even then we had a
incredible high but even then we had a
incredible high but even then we had a choice we could choose to be upset that
choice we could choose to be upset that
choice we could choose to be upset that she had declined so far or we could
she had declined so far or we could
she had declined so far or we could choose to be happy that she had a chance
choose to be happy that she had a chance
choose to be happy that she had a chance at transplant but if we had a choice why
at transplant but if we had a choice why
at transplant but if we had a choice why not be optimistic
Rebecca faced those next weeks with a
Rebecca faced those next weeks with a drive and determination that I had never
drive and determination that I had never
drive and determination that I had never seen from anyone she had this look in
seen from anyone she had this look in
seen from anyone she had this look in her eye a resolve at this point there
her eye a resolve at this point there
her eye a resolve at this point there was no delusion about our current
was no delusion about our current
was no delusion about our current condition there was simply a realistic
condition there was simply a realistic
condition there was simply a realistic optimism
and as I look back it’s more clear than
and as I look back it’s more clear than ever
ever
ever Rebecca is the strongest person I know
on June 18th 2015
on June 18th 2015 Rebecca received a double lung
Rebecca received a double lung
Rebecca received a double lung transplant that saved her life thanks to
transplant that saved her life thanks to
transplant that saved her life thanks to great care she received in Cincinnati a
great care she received in Cincinnati a
great care she received in Cincinnati a hospital in Pittsburgh that took a
hospital in Pittsburgh that took a
hospital in Pittsburgh that took a chance on her a donor and their selfless
chance on her a donor and their selfless
chance on her a donor and their selfless family
family
family Rebecca’s two and a half years post
Rebecca’s two and a half years post
Rebecca’s two and a half years post transplant and breathing strong but even
transplant and breathing strong but even
transplant and breathing strong but even now though worry creeps in the average
now though worry creeps in the average
now though worry creeps in the average life expectancy at five years post
life expectancy at five years post
life expectancy at five years post transplant is not much better than 50%
transplant is not much better than 50%
transplant is not much better than 50% so yet again we’re living in those days
so yet again we’re living in those days
so yet again we’re living in those days between prognosis and conclusion but if
between prognosis and conclusion but if
between prognosis and conclusion but if we can have a good day in the hospital
we can have a good day in the hospital
we can have a good day in the hospital we can certainly have a good day outside
we can certainly have a good day outside
we can certainly have a good day outside of it and who’s to say what the future
of it and who’s to say what the future
of it and who’s to say what the future will bring I’ve become no better at
will bring I’ve become no better at
will bring I’ve become no better at predicting it and now we can face that
predicting it and now we can face that
predicting it and now we can face that future sitting on a couch and watching a
future sitting on a couch and watching a
future sitting on a couch and watching a movie Rebecca still thinks the worse for
movie Rebecca still thinks the worse for
movie Rebecca still thinks the worse for those poor supporting characters in
those poor supporting characters in
those poor supporting characters in horror movies but their stories are
horror movies but their stories are
horror movies but their stories are already written and as pessimistic as
already written and as pessimistic as
already written and as pessimistic as you want to be you’ll only think the
you want to be you’ll only think the
you want to be you’ll only think the worst for about two hours while you
worst for about two hours while you
worst for about two hours while you watch that movie in reality you could
watch that movie in reality you could
watch that movie in reality you could think the worst for three days for four
think the worst for three days for four
think the worst for three days for four months or five years so if those days
months or five years so if those days
months or five years so if those days between prognosis and conclusion can be
between prognosis and conclusion can be
between prognosis and conclusion can be good days then they have value and if
good days then they have value and if
good days then they have value and if those days in between matter then
those days in between matter then
those days in between matter then optimism can cause a real effect and
optimism can cause a real effect and
optimism can cause a real effect and just maybe choosing realistic optimism
just maybe choosing realistic optimism
just maybe choosing realistic optimism can drive a better result than you ever
can drive a better result than you ever
can drive a better result than you ever thought possible
thought possible
thought possible and if that’s true I’ll ask why not be
and if that’s true I’ll ask why not be
and if that’s true I’ll ask why not be optimistic
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