
[Music] I have these holes but I am a paradox
I have these holes but I am a paradox
I have these holes but I am a paradox I’m a woman in stem a black engineer and
I’m a woman in stem a black engineer and
I’m a woman in stem a black engineer and the Christian proponent of science now
the Christian proponent of science now
the Christian proponent of science now you don’t have to tell a minority that
you don’t have to tell a minority that
you don’t have to tell a minority that they’re a minority especially in my case
they’re a minority especially in my case
they’re a minority especially in my case I knew I was I didn’t see people that
I knew I was I didn’t see people that
I knew I was I didn’t see people that looked like me
looked like me
looked like me in classes or labs but I was interested
in classes or labs but I was interested
in classes or labs but I was interested to see the statistics for myself so I
to see the statistics for myself so I
to see the statistics for myself so I turned to the National Center for
turned to the National Center for
turned to the National Center for science and engineering statistics out
science and engineering statistics out
science and engineering statistics out of all engineers hired in America 85%
of all engineers hired in America 85%
of all engineers hired in America 85% are men and only 15% are women taking it
are men and only 15% are women taking it
are men and only 15% are women taking it a step further out of all the engineers
a step further out of all the engineers
a step further out of all the engineers in America only 3.4 percent are black
in America only 3.4 percent are black
in America only 3.4 percent are black men and black women 0.9% we don’t get a
men and black women 0.9% we don’t get a
men and black women 0.9% we don’t get a full percent so I guess it is unlikely
full percent so I guess it is unlikely
full percent so I guess it is unlikely statistically that I would be an
statistically that I would be an
statistically that I would be an engineer and perhaps because of Who I am
engineer and perhaps because of Who I am
engineer and perhaps because of Who I am a human link of unlike things
a human link of unlike things
a human link of unlike things I’m fascinated when I find things that
I’m fascinated when I find things that
I’m fascinated when I find things that I’m able to connect that might not
I’m able to connect that might not
I’m able to connect that might not ordinarily be connected and one of my
ordinarily be connected and one of my
ordinarily be connected and one of my favorite examples of this is the golden
favorite examples of this is the golden
favorite examples of this is the golden ratio now the golden ratio is the
ratio now the golden ratio is the
ratio now the golden ratio is the approximate ratio between the numbers in
approximate ratio between the numbers in
approximate ratio between the numbers in the Fibonacci sequence and the Fibonacci
the Fibonacci sequence and the Fibonacci
the Fibonacci sequence and the Fibonacci sequence appears all over the place in
sequence appears all over the place in
sequence appears all over the place in nature so through this ratio a pine comb
nature so through this ratio a pine comb
nature so through this ratio a pine comb has something in common with an ancient
has something in common with an ancient
has something in common with an ancient creature and the human ear has something
creature and the human ear has something
creature and the human ear has something in common with a hurricane and the
in common with a hurricane and the
in common with a hurricane and the golden ratio is not simply just this
golden ratio is not simply just this
golden ratio is not simply just this spiral it can also be applied to not
spiral it can also be applied to not
spiral it can also be applied to not only just physical nature that you know
only just physical nature that you know
only just physical nature that you know we interact with every day but one of
we interact with every day but one of
we interact with every day but one of the biggest things that we can visualize
the biggest things that we can visualize
the biggest things that we can visualize the galaxy is in our universe and one of
the galaxy is in our universe and one of
the galaxy is in our universe and one of the smallest things we can visualize
the smallest things we can visualize
the smallest things we can visualize electrons and positrons moving and
electrons and positrons moving and
electrons and positrons moving and colliding and hydrogen neon bubble
colliding and hydrogen neon bubble
colliding and hydrogen neon bubble chamber both of these things on opposite
chamber both of these things on opposite
chamber both of these things on opposite spectrums of science and zeis combines
spectrums of science and zeis combines
spectrums of science and zeis combines by their spiral like tendencies
by their spiral like tendencies
by their spiral like tendencies resembling the golden ratio and this
resembling the golden ratio and this
resembling the golden ratio and this golden ratio while a spiral is also a
golden ratio while a spiral is also a
golden ratio while a spiral is also a specifically proportioned rectangle
specifically proportioned rectangle
specifically proportioned rectangle which allows it to be applied to other
which allows it to be applied to other
which allows it to be applied to other things in nature including DNA
things in nature including DNA
things in nature including DNA you know the proportions in your arm and
you know the proportions in your arm and
you know the proportions in your arm and in your fingers but also to architecture
in your fingers but also to architecture
in your fingers but also to architecture and art two cornerstones of the human
and art two cornerstones of the human
and art two cornerstones of the human experience intertwined with math another
experience intertwined with math another
experience intertwined with math another unlikely pair is music and neuroscience
unlikely pair is music and neuroscience
unlikely pair is music and neuroscience after a quick google search of music and
after a quick google search of music and
after a quick google search of music and the brain we can see the correlations
the brain we can see the correlations
the brain we can see the correlations between studying music and studying its
between studying music and studying its
between studying music and studying its effects on the human brain so on your
effects on the human brain so on your
effects on the human brain so on your left you have a pair of images the first
left you have a pair of images the first
left you have a pair of images the first being the brain at rest and the second
being the brain at rest and the second
being the brain at rest and the second being the brain when stimulated by music
being the brain when stimulated by music
being the brain when stimulated by music and you can see the increased activity
and you can see the increased activity
and you can see the increased activity on the other side you can compare the
on the other side you can compare the
on the other side you can compare the functional and structural differences
functional and structural differences
functional and structural differences between the brains of musicians and
between the brains of musicians and
between the brains of musicians and non-musicians so in this way music helps
non-musicians so in this way music helps
non-musicians so in this way music helps us learn about how the brain was made
us learn about how the brain was made
us learn about how the brain was made how it functions and how it processes
how it functions and how it processes
how it functions and how it processes information and this somehow led me into
information and this somehow led me into
information and this somehow led me into engineering so I didn’t want to be an
engineering so I didn’t want to be an
engineering so I didn’t want to be an engineer my first passion was and is
engineer my first passion was and is
engineer my first passion was and is music and while I liked tinkering with
music and while I liked tinkering with
music and while I liked tinkering with things was good at problem-solving and
things was good at problem-solving and
things was good at problem-solving and was always interested in little ways the
was always interested in little ways the
was always interested in little ways the world works I was gonna choose one
world works I was gonna choose one
world works I was gonna choose one passion and my passion was music then I
passion and my passion was music then I
passion and my passion was music then I was exposed to the 14 grand challenges
was exposed to the 14 grand challenges
was exposed to the 14 grand challenges of engineering released by the National
of engineering released by the National
of engineering released by the National of engineering one of these challenges
of engineering one of these challenges
of engineering one of these challenges was reverse engineering the brain but
was reverse engineering the brain but
was reverse engineering the brain but the way that it was told to me was a way
the way that it was told to me was a way
the way that it was told to me was a way to combine music and engineering because
to combine music and engineering because
to combine music and engineering because studying music and its effects in the
studying music and its effects in the
studying music and its effects in the brain tell us about the brain and being
brain tell us about the brain and being
brain tell us about the brain and being told things I brought the brain will let
told things I brought the brain will let
told things I brought the brain will let us be able to develop drugs to combat
us be able to develop drugs to combat
us be able to develop drugs to combat the gender of brain diseases or drug
the gender of brain diseases or drug
the gender of brain diseases or drug delivery systems or anything imaginable
delivery systems or anything imaginable
delivery systems or anything imaginable so I could combine my two passions and I
so I could combine my two passions and I
so I could combine my two passions and I was over the moon because this is my
was over the moon because this is my
was over the moon because this is my dream but this is when I started to
dream but this is when I started to
dream but this is when I started to realize the fact that I was a minority I
realize the fact that I was a minority I
realize the fact that I was a minority I didn’t have peers walking alongside me
didn’t have peers walking alongside me
didn’t have peers walking alongside me in my advanced classes I was discouraged
in my advanced classes I was discouraged
in my advanced classes I was discouraged by people my own age not to pursue
by people my own age not to pursue
by people my own age not to pursue scientific ventures because oh as a girl
scientific ventures because oh as a girl
scientific ventures because oh as a girl you know I can’t be taking it seriously
you know I can’t be taking it seriously
you know I can’t be taking it seriously this is for real scientists and Anna you
this is for real scientists and Anna you
this is for real scientists and Anna you know I was told a woman belongs in the
know I was told a woman belongs in the
know I was told a woman belongs in the home and not pursuing higher education
home and not pursuing higher education
home and not pursuing higher education excuse me sir you’re a whole adult okay
excuse me sir you’re a whole adult okay
excuse me sir you’re a whole adult okay okay but as an adult and me seventh
okay but as an adult and me seventh
okay but as an adult and me seventh eighth grade what he said had to be
eighth grade what he said had to be
eighth grade what he said had to be right and so I was fighting within
right and so I was fighting within
right and so I was fighting within myself trying to choose the parts of me
myself trying to choose the parts of me
myself trying to choose the parts of me that I subscribed to the most and I
that I subscribed to the most and I
that I subscribed to the most and I found myself in a very dark place but in
found myself in a very dark place but in
found myself in a very dark place but in the midst of discrimination and
the midst of discrimination and
the midst of discrimination and self-doubt I turned to another passion
self-doubt I turned to another passion
self-doubt I turned to another passion of mine my faith after some searching I
of mine my faith after some searching I
of mine my faith after some searching I found over and over again my god being
found over and over again my god being
found over and over again my god being displayed through weather through the
displayed through weather through the
displayed through weather through the sky and the stars in nature as a whole I
sky and the stars in nature as a whole I
sky and the stars in nature as a whole I have found a link between
and my faith well now I was all-in and
and my faith well now I was all-in and so instead of fighting within myself I
so instead of fighting within myself I
so instead of fighting within myself I redirected the fight and fought against
redirected the fight and fought against
redirected the fight and fought against the forces trying to stifle my
the forces trying to stifle my
the forces trying to stifle my distinctive voice and the strength that
distinctive voice and the strength that
distinctive voice and the strength that I used to fight this fight did not come
I used to fight this fight did not come
I used to fight this fight did not come from me thinking oh you know I’m
from me thinking oh you know I’m
from me thinking oh you know I’m brilliant so I’m gonna be an engineer
brilliant so I’m gonna be an engineer
brilliant so I’m gonna be an engineer and I’m gonna be the best engineer and
and I’m gonna be the best engineer and
and I’m gonna be the best engineer and yet no I don’t feel that way but the
yet no I don’t feel that way but the
yet no I don’t feel that way but the conviction you have in your idea and the
conviction you have in your idea and the
conviction you have in your idea and the yearning you have to solve the problems
yearning you have to solve the problems
yearning you have to solve the problems faced by humanity will be your embolden
faced by humanity will be your embolden
faced by humanity will be your embolden Engraving force necessary to go after
Engraving force necessary to go after
Engraving force necessary to go after your passions and help solve those
your passions and help solve those
your passions and help solve those challenges my conviction came from
challenges my conviction came from
challenges my conviction came from seeing the combination of my passions
seeing the combination of my passions
seeing the combination of my passions and seeing them come together in a
and seeing them come together in a
and seeing them come together in a beautiful way and help me solve
beautiful way and help me solve
beautiful way and help me solve challenges my conviction came from
challenges my conviction came from
challenges my conviction came from seeing how my background as a young
seeing how my background as a young
seeing how my background as a young black female engineer let me have a
black female engineer let me have a
black female engineer let me have a unique perspective on solving problems
unique perspective on solving problems
unique perspective on solving problems and addressing solutions and even
and addressing solutions and even
and addressing solutions and even defining issues which actually made me
defining issues which actually made me
defining issues which actually made me an asset in lab projects and teams and
I’m reconvince every time I walk in a
I’m reconvince every time I walk in a lab I feel the same flutter that I felt
lab I feel the same flutter that I felt
lab I feel the same flutter that I felt that first day in sixth grade where my
that first day in sixth grade where my
that first day in sixth grade where my dream began and the last day when the
dream began and the last day when the
dream began and the last day when the final puzzle pieces combined and I saw
final puzzle pieces combined and I saw
final puzzle pieces combined and I saw all of my passions linking together in
all of my passions linking together in
all of my passions linking together in this one challenge so I am an
this one challenge so I am an
this one challenge so I am an untraditional engineer who came to love
untraditional engineer who came to love
untraditional engineer who came to love engineering in a non-traditional way and
engineering in a non-traditional way and
engineering in a non-traditional way and although it is unlikely that I’d be an
although it is unlikely that I’d be an
although it is unlikely that I’d be an engineer I don’t want to seem like a
engineer I don’t want to seem like a
engineer I don’t want to seem like a contradiction but instead want to change
contradiction but instead want to change
contradiction but instead want to change the definition of what an engineer
the definition of what an engineer
the definition of what an engineer actually is so don’t view me
actually is so don’t view me
actually is so don’t view me as a paradox but rather as an emerging
as a paradox but rather as an emerging
as a paradox but rather as an emerging paradigm
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