my grandfather shot himself
what way to think a terex talk
while preparing this talk I thought
in the audience that is going to have and was
virtual in my head now they are here
They are faces that are watching me with eyes
and I want to ask you never anyone
none of you wanted to finish a
Once a girlfriend all the comparencia
someone you love
I never have a friend who calls me
phone has actually become
reiterative called me and told me
I want to die I want to kill myself badly
loves divorce when it starts to miss
the silver return to see the husband high
blonde with blue eyes and then call me
and I want to die I want to kill are
different things I do not want to kill
as these had been repeated many
I said sometimes to see how if you choose a
bullet the scattering is important
more than everything because you consider if
choose the thick ratio pills and
try not to guard the gypsy
urgency neither Saturday nor holidays and
Save parties
because between activated carbon but
have to leave and when they go out with
witnesses so you do not stick your head
on the tiles and if choose one and lion
scalpel to trim televen
burns a lot and warned that it burns
you ‘re going to do about 32 jobs before the
conversation ended very fast I did not
He called again but I know he’s doing very well
all right
if my grandfather says is that he stuck the
shot would have left something a role
written I would have read it first and
then you will see past in the language what
would have abolished would have scraped with the
nail the letter to see what’s underneath
the intention of the one who had taken the
pen
but on the bedside table only the
your card and your document and a
little piece of paper that said new
pharmacy never got along never
my grandfather took the Spanish well
Slovenian senile dementia said the doctor
sadness in the soul said others
senile dementia left his house with the
green hat with the one that took me to
cinema when I was a girl two movies
We left with gunpowder in the
shoulders to the sun in that order of the party
Sunday
senile dementia left his house he took
the collective bought the gun returned
he put it through the window that was
left open hitting the door entered
I greet the whole family that went to their
piece please save me this in a
pocket of the soul because the soul has
Pockets for the things that matter
many years ago almost that I
it seems another life that I was cut
threads that call depression started
indifference added to that I have the gene
of melancholy in our family the
joy is an exotic plant that
take care of the sun from the air currents
Happiness is a great job for
who carries the DNA of the migrants
gone through water in those who stay
without a map and you have to invent your own
with blood and with nerves
so the doctor who treated me
gave a pill and prescribed a
Mayan writing workshop was Wednesday
after Wednesday a dali watch
dragging that sadness but force me
discouragement with the soul on the side of
out one day from so much crushing the
letters between the lines and started to
appear like those desert plants
resilient a phrase a chapter other
chapter a novel my first novel
kept our pocket made
like 12 years ago I had no idea it’s not
what I think k 12 years in sun operate
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it’s just to tell
to graph the story was in a
moment of my personal life had
born the children had planted the
trees and he had written the books
there had to be something more
I had and I have a big house that
it was molding its inhabitants
Suddenly each of them flew to his
own sky literally some and
I also had a title
university that takes me through the
hospitals then I knew the pain in
the stiff muscle ankylosed
paralyzed
now it was necessary to look for the meaning
find meaning in life and what
experience we call life in japan
He called raison d’etre and the IGAE and Kika
reason for being if you do what you love what
what you need for which you were created
that is his reason for being and if he does
Well, in addition, they will pay you for
it
so gather all the pains
achievements marriages crowds
experience
even having cried and buried my
loved ones and know what is the day
later because in every thing when you
part the lightning has to know how the
day later as the perfumer gathers
how do you put together the kilos of petals
flowers to make a drop of perfume
so along with my experience it was time to
back it was time to agree that
I told them that they will keep me when
cut the threads was time to power
help others
I had gone through depression and I
they had saved the written words
for who would this be we have something in
common we all come from a belly where
we are warm where we hear the
voice of our mother
the beat of your heart
but one day we have to leave and for the
delivery channel by caesarean section we went out and the
hostile world
there are lights we are punctured measure us
they weigh the first time the
lung of air
it hurts but then they wrap us up and we
they put the chest of our
mother we would have what is the
happiness
If we had not known the
suffering and then we did not spend all
life searching is the place where we
make occupy a place like that
I wanted to create in the big house roof of
wood glaze a lot green table
long as a white whale enancados
in that whale, afternoon after afternoon, we’re going
to the darkest depths and
we come back from there but with happiness
lengthening the triumphant jet relieved
of mandates of pressure decrees
social
write to grow write to
repair my mother did it with the
sewing machine they touched me the
words every afternoon the adventure begins
to drink the milk is served and
they come and I see it arrive with your doubts with
your fears we do aroma workshop
full of aromas the natalina table and
my grandmother’s wardrobe homemade tangerines
the stolen and sold out party
there is nothing that calms the fear more than
the smell of freshly baked bread in my
home but to be able to enter the heart
of them I had to get me remangar
I also mud its powerful force
they govern the world
fear and love one afternoon I said that
she was a lonely girl, only she was not
I went to nobody’s house or nobody came to
my house to sleep because I did not stand
in the bed
writing said that on the long table a
head one hand
me too me too
take out to heal to take out to repair
the words in the room like locusts
that they are eating the pain one that
He says I do not want him anymore to my husband
but where am I going to this age
I do not feel like caring for my grandchildren
all day I want to live I want to travel
another that showed a ring look at this
initial and this one was small my husband
32 years who want the finger choose
another told me by phone to
which is the workshop five and a half to eight and
mean because I have to feed him
my husband some some accident some
disability
not because I see the spoon I have
that feeding my husband laughed and
scored
I wonder if you have a job opportunity to
my
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of all those those precious cases that
they passed friendly people I have one in the
memory Mario Mario called me
phone and he told me he was
quadriplegic because one is not
quadriplegic he was quadriplegic
and I said what I do is he had to warn
the others and then I thought also you
I had to warn Mario that all
we are a little crazy
so the only thing I did was run
the pots and make room for your chair with
most glorious experience we had
several taught us that in order to be
happy you have to learn to lose because
failed contains everything was batman and robin
with his nurse at this base and he went to
after having chatted with us
to know the study and there with a
devotional program and I was just do
is to come to share a day overturned
coffee at the table and nurse said that
Mario, you think laughter laughter
he wrote the book saw his
children a legendary day if I could
move I wanted to hug my kids go to
bathroom only
3 nurse every Wednesday life
shows the brave teeth another day we
he smiles but we take care
all this that I am telling you the
absolute certainty of what I am
counting I had it at the conference marul
a day of wind
We arrived with my friend Marta
conference held in the lounge
municipal with zinc roof next to the
from the train station
we crossed to see how it was and when
We returned to the hotel where we had been
stayed the wind moved the hair like this and
a truck passes saying today
cristina crockery the night municipal health
glorious to share the responsibility
to speak before an audience
we got a lot of Piedmontese in marble
many quiet men the brand k
where the sun when the hat is removed
the beret the woman holding her jail
as if they had a fixed term
and I spoke already blay speak to me friend marta
been very nervous next lived
It looked like I could take out a kidney
is for organ donation and I
I said no I’m not arriving
it arrived was coming and it was inside
of your heart at a time in the
first row a man that I know what
that you are talking about I was going to
kill me
my wife had died of cancer and I
I did not want to continue and with the shotgun
put the shed and said I have to leave
something written and I started writing everything
what happened to me what I felt the pain
from my heart I do not finish writing
Mrs
download the shotgun I tell them me
my grandfather’s agreement a paper and a
pencil can save your life many
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the letters
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