when I tell people that I am
a transgender woman
the reaction I have good varies
It is usually wow how brave not
manches what a hard life you have
poor dear
and I also have answers like ok
what is that the truth is that we live in
a society where the subject of
transgender and transgender people
it’s still a taboo even though
this year there was a boom about
theme with different different models
artists that came to public light
with its transition but still follows
being a subject that not many know for
what then there is no direct contact
people live hidden people
transgender we are like trying to
mix in society without giving
account
but that is not my house I will tell you
a story that happened to me some ago
years when the transition began
I had about six months eight months or more
unless I started my treatment
hormonal and this was that
I was in the bathroom of a square
very large commercial well- known in
Mexico and it ‘s where I worked and strolled
who was in the bathroom was washing
hands and a woman fits me
in a very strange way if as if
I was doing a satanic ritual
with babies or something like that and I’m just
trying to pee sorry and in that
two security guards enter and I
they ask me to leave because the bathroom
that you are using exclusively for
women
for this I stay this way of I am
just trying to ping
I’m not hurting anyone
and in that I was escorted to nine policemen
outside the shopping plaza where I
I worked like I was a criminal
as he had stolen something I think there’s
more important things to attend to
a person who is trying to do
I peed in the bathroom for nine
policemen know
for me this kind of thing not only
happen to me once or twice are things that
unfortunately you have to
to accustom should not be related
nobody should get used to having
afraid to go to the public toilet nobody me
I think that here of you has happened
they say that I want to pee
but I do not go to the bathroom because they’re going to
get down and that’s something that
transgender people pass us all the
weather
unfortunately and there are even laws that
prohibit transgender people
antenna the public toilets and they give
permission people to hit the ive
have accuse us of nothing if they are
aggressive with them which I think
atrocious and this was something that happened the year
past
these things like that of the example of
bath are things that are causing you a
trauma like a scar but it’s not
Visible is a scar on your self-esteem
it’s a scar on your soul in your
heart and little by little it’s going to be a
collection of scars all in its
self-esteem and after a very person
fragile and there is a person with many
traumas and with many fears things like
the bathroom suddenly becomes longer a
social paranoia that happened to me in
where I did not want to leave my house anymore
I did not want to go out with my friends because
if maybe at a glance the
people do not realize but once
that you enter the bathroom once you start
to talk people start to notice things
that maybe he did not notice if people
it starts there because you have the voice so
thick or because your hands are so
big or stay looking at the face as
trying to examine you and obviously you
you are very nervous
this kind of thing happens to us all the
time and they make us some very very people
insecure
I was like that and the truth is that it is not
father
I remember once I was in a
birthday party of a friend in
a very big party with many
people and in that a group of men and
a girl that they were watching me and
I said oh my god they already realized
that he transacted quiet keith to see
what are we going to do good I think that already
I’m leaving but I want to pee
no no better I go and then I was
very sure I was not enjoying the
party everyone was
having fun sitting and in that you are
girls approach and tell me hey how are you
and I well thank you and treated like that
I did not notice anything
hiding and in that he says to me hey look
what happens is that I have the friends that
they like you are those who are the
back if they want to see then which
of the two you like because he wants
invite to dance
at that time it was like
I felt so bad about the level of
insecurity that I already had and phobia
social and paranoia where I thought
that and everyone was talking about
me but also at the same time I said
You can already take two men and I felt
how this need to ok victory
enough to feel insecure enough to be
hiding enough that you feel sorry
show you how you are
At the end of the day it ‘s my life I decide
how I want to live it so it’s nothing
easy to make that decision
I think society often you
push as to live as is right
They know how blue is not child’s
rubbing of girls not your dad studied
right your grandfather studied law well
that you are also going to study law
long hair and only for
women or if you are a woman must
make up p
things like that are social stigmas that
we should be removing and then to the
trans people puts us like in this
this taboo that we exaggerate a
surgery so we have to
we have to be a certain way happens to me
when people ask me if
they surprise me that I am a trans woman and
llopis month they stay watching like this
others that you do not notice me is that as
I should see how it is how
it says that I should be noticed is the
true a very strange question things
like this one in the bathroom and in the
situation that happened in the list of my
friends made me live the life of a
differently because I was sick
tired of living life if I said you know that
I’m ready to enjoy my life
ready to let the opinions of
I care about people but seriously and
he learned a very important lesson
that we can all choose how we want
see things how we want to take the
lifetime
and it’s not so easy sometimes you get
Negative things but you can say good
I stay here depressed I feel bad
By myself
I’m sad or I live my life as it is
ready and what’s next
you accept your current situation and change
what you do not like and that’s what I did
there are times that we ourselves are
our worst judges
I believe that the majority here knows what
that what I’m talking about is always
as criticizing not always and this voice
inside that they tell us no is not
enough you can not do it
not not good is to do this better
stay in your safe place we
we criticize we judge ourselves but sometimes
we forget that this voice also that we
they say no it’s not the same voice that sometimes
it does not say clearly that it can bland
You are a fucking person you can
do because not then like the lupi
olave peep on in make know we can
decide whether to live in reality or equal
we can start to form
our own reality, I always know
I said that they are not reality is
as we want to do it
things that happen to us in life
we decide and we want to see them
as elections or do we want to
regret and make us a victim and
so I’m going to tell you another story is
something very personal
good not so personal because he’s in
all social networks and documented it
on youtube from day 1 but it’s
about my transition
I was born as a child in a body of
child but from very very very little I
I knew something was not right I did not know
exactly there is if they know that
mom step and trans
but I knew there was something not me
they identified and with the children either
I identified with the girls was something
very weird and this feeling is terrible
because it starts causing you these
scars that I talked about a while ago
these insecurities
and you feel like you do not belong and the
At the end of the day we are human beings and
all we want is like
belong
What we want is that they accept us
they want us but when you have a life
like mine
people spend their time judging you remember
when I was in swimming practice
swimming for several years
from very small and had like seven
years but obviously I could not
change me only in the dressing room of
children so my mom took me from
girls and I told my mom mom
when I’m going to have one of those and when
I’m going to other women not changing and mom
what are you talking about, yes, when
I will fall what I have and I will
have one more time my mom was then not
it’s not that it’s not going sometimes it’s not going to happen and
me as well as how is it not but
well happened that happened the time starts
at school have sex education and
you realize even if I ‘m not
a girl
I am a child ok in that time went by
I had this theory where he said
that I was born as a girl but my
dads wanted a child so he
I told the doctor
Hey, well, put something in there that is a child and
I said clearly that at 18 they will leave me
pubis
so I go to my parents who do their
evil plan then you will have to
fix this that is not my fault and
obviously that never happened I’m still flat
as a table
but I showed up the afternoon of
sexual orientation sexual identity a
this age
I did not know what it meant to be gay
and what they said to me gay in school
since I can remember
like all the words on which
can imagine and at 14 I decided
how to get out of the closet like that and I said
Well, I’m a boy, I’m effeminate
I like men because then I am
gay so I came out of the closet like that
at 14 years old and I started living a
life as a homosexual going out with others
guys but I could not no no I do not
they liked
I remember the time he heads to one of
they may be less than going left
watching and sees that and not me cuidadito
They opened the car door when they pass
for my new brother and then I gave
mind that something different happened with me
but I did not know who he was then
I moved to the great city of Mexico to
18 years old and had a job like
makeup artist so I had contact with
many people
then I went to a client and she told me
oh how pretty you are at that moment
How do you feel a very satisfying
big inside when someone
I confused with a woman but I was
cyclically instantly
no no I am not a woman I am a child I am
beautiful but I am a girl and in that I am
I think you have not seen well in a
mirror really do not talk like a child does not
you move like a child you are not a child and
I do not know if I’m a child, honey, do not look
I understand that I am a trans woman
I know what they are in a body that does not
it’s yours but I swear that the day
begins to live life as like you
you are really going to know the difference
for me that was like I do not understand
what’s happening so I went
running home to my computer and
I started watching youtube and start having
thousands and thousands of people who are
happening the same thing that I was going through
testimonies of people in states
united in europe so
I started to investigate more and it was like no
I know if you remember those little cartoons
little dots and numbers that he is assuming and
then you discover the figure like that was
uniting all the events of my life
and everything that had happened and all the
things he’d said my mom all
kind of things and I realized
this clear in the wrong body have not
I took action and started my therapy
hormone began to see a psychologist
everything was clicking from inside and the
people
luckily that is around me
they already knew before that I
I said I am a trans person to them
victories and we already knew we are
waiting for everything to come out is like your
denial but with this they also come
many taboos and many insecurities the
older than I had was who is going to
want a person like me who is going to
to be a person a woman who before
was child
this was my biggest concern and not the
I work not the other things but then
things are different as I started
realize that many men like me
they paid attention and in the neighborhood the
Coffee and I, though, and well, very well, but
this changes when the people then
they just want to play with you when
nothing else is a fetish and then wine
also a surgery that I did in the
likes to appear more feminine
and to please people more and
this was the worst and the best decision of
my life
the worst because I operated to like
the others to accept me something
that nobody needs I do not need that
nobody accepts me that nobody approves me
when you are sure of yourself
How do you like yourself as you accept with your
defects and with your virtues
then stop importing what the
People think of you as they like you
fall well in the end is your life
then they did not have to remove by
complications that I had and from this
I learned the great lesson that
It is accepted, it wants you, do not let it
nobody has power over you nobody
only you can choose what is it
that will feel for you I have a base of
followers of millions of followers and
The most beautiful thing about this is that you can
take the message that I want to give you the
message that I will always give you is that
each and every one of you are valuable
I do not know many of you from
those who watch my videos are not
I know but what I know is that everyone
has something very valuable inside something that
It makes them worthwhile
something very special is not easy
find it but when they find it
hold on to that, hold on and you’ve won
grow
thank you very much
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