I have a foam heart is a pretty
sentence to start a beeksma tea
but it’s true in addition to passersby
to their sweets I was born with a
cardiac malformation and two months
after my birth
I was opened my heart we repaired this
that was wrong and we just put a
little piece of foam without which I
will not be here to talk to you
today I am 22 years old and still
that’s only now that I have
realized the luck that I have
to be alive when I was little I
thought that because of this chorus in
foam I will not be able to feel
no emotion
except that it was just the opposite I
Feel too much emotion and
I had a constant need for them
Express
it was like breathing for me
did not bother
and against that it quickly brought me
to know their school education
because I was in opposition to the
mass that mass it’s played at the
law of the strongest and that the strongest
it’s the one who did not show his
emotions
so
I did everything to make it
stops I tried to maintain
conventional relationships with people
I arrived in the morning and I could just
say hello okay we like what course
today
and it would have stopped there I
could not because it was not me
that I arrived I said hello
I hope you’re fine but after I
can understand
I can understand that it’s hard to
express your emotions
but still what good ah and so
it has complicated things and I have everything
known this fear in every hallway
every classroom this constant noise
in your in your ears
this sensation that we speak in your
back that you judge every moment
I was balancing on the wire the
finest of the world
and when I discovered my sexuality
and who discovered them my sexuality
there was more balanced I could
no more dealing with people who
did not understand how I could
feel such emotions for them
I have a friend
it’s annie is called bilal and so if
you want to say hello
bilal
here and bilal every time I
see he makes me maxim you are beautiful maxim
I love you and salif and this to all
five minutes one every five minutes
I love you and I am fascinated
by his ability to express his
emotions and to say what he feels to
to go deep within him
this little thing and to express it
fully open is hard it’s
hard to do and you know what is
Well, we have places for that
has concert scenes we have our
social networks we jumped x here
today
and then we have the movie theaters
first time my parents told me
taken away I knew that I would like more
never leave again it was as if the
room speaks to me and she told me everything
okay here you can feel what you
want you can laugh you can cry
we are not here to judge anyone of
glass you’re just in the darkness of
the room with the light of the screen
step be ashamed you know why
because the people who are around
you are here for that too
maybe that’s why my
parents take me there for the first time
times I always had trouble
communicate my emotions and with
adolescence with all this violence
with all these
all these new questions on my
sexuality
I could not go east to and then
had the cinema with the cinema I
could talk to them that this is a movie
thirty years old that I had seen the day before
you from whoever was going out in
two weeks that I was waiting with
impatience
it was as if as if to arrive
to communicate my emotions with them I
went through the one we felt in
watching the movie and that it made a
bridge between us so when I
stopped my studies at 18 that I
been broken by schooling by any
this hatred that I had taken in the
mouth I could not communicate anymore
with people
I had expressed more to anyone
what I felt then I decided
to do the same with my parents I
decided to make my own movies for
to create a bridge with them I launched my
little youtube channel to my name because
that I am not someone very
original
so I’m going to call grandjean and
I started by doing some pretty
little videos I was filming gay pride
is pretty blue sky and people who
were watching these videos tell me wow
it’s beautiful what you do your life must
to be so happy
I was there and I said no
no I’m not well I’m filled
doubt of neurosis that never loses constant
the void of the band
so good to breathe I was hurting
I was in pain because I had been wearing
years of pain that I
could not get rid of it and
I needed to externalize them
so I decided to raise
start to really rebuild myself
I made some short videos on
bullying school and I have everything
let go I have all this violence this
hate this disgust we want to make you
feel
I have everything but I shared my
experience to others I got
released from a weight
after I released his videos a
former of my college came to me
talk and he told me you know I was
harassed I hurt you but it’s
why because I had the same
sexuality that you in opposition to the
mass and I do not want me to
strikes then I played the law of
the harder it is you that I hit
throw
ap ap a pleasure i was ready because
that I was scared you saw as
it’s vicious is seen as it is
vicious how violence is created
more is that here we told you
you were told that you were
spectators but also actor I would
make a call that is a test to
to pass a test that must pass I
would like to invite people to do like
me to become aware of fear and
to get up if people here have
been victims of school bullying
if the same black people get themselves
is because he did not want this
either they who are harassed would like
just that these people get up
six people get up it does not matter
but if people have been victims
school bullying
I invite them to get up here and
now I ‘m already going a person
who stood up another at the bottom
the company
thank you thank you to those who are the
[Applause]
live like it’s rhine getting up
as hard to express our emotions when
this person came to tell me his
history
I realized that me too
I was scared I still had this fear
to communicate my emotions to people
who are dear to me I decided to
change that I started since
some time a real job for
go more and more to the I have some
ideas by doing that to send a
message to those who wanted me
belittle you think I could
have no friends you think that
I was dead for everything you have
said think I’ll always be everything
alone
no I have my friends around me around
of my content
I managed to gather almost 9000
people I would obviously like
thank you all tonight and especially I
I’m alive I’m here
and there you could say ah that’s
that made him aware
that he was alive and has not yet
no no no no no no what made me
to become aware of this is that I
I did not stand up alone I got
not rebuilt alone I had my
close to me my friends my
family they were there they have
always been there and I never had the
force to thank them for that so
already I would like to do tonight
and then I would like to call you to
do something when you go out
of sata dicks you are going to call
someone who counts for you go him
send a message you will tell him
everything you feel to go
for him you’ll say everything that
I had in the heart of your little
heart to the mosses and you ‘re going to tell him
what you have ever managed to him
say how much you feel
deep in you I am 22 years old
and thanks to this foam heart since
all this time I can get up every
mornings and be with people who
count for me they are there they are
in my life and they make my life have them
by my side
that’s what made me take
aware of how lucky I am to be
living
[Applause]
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