thank you, it’s true that I’m from
gringolandia but it’s not my fault
I was reflecting this week on
what I wanted to share with you and
I almost want all my talk because I do not
I want to be a hypocrite
get here saying that I have the
answers because I have overcome my fears
because I still have one of the things
it costs me more work and be
brave made today in the morning I was
playing with the idea of going to the airport
and long changed and should maya but
it would just evade and postpone until
another challenge will come to me then what I
would like to do today is to share with
you a little bit of my story and like me
I have faced certain moments of
fear in my life
after photography in 2004
I did not want to live anymore
I was in the city of new york paul j
I had neither work nor money nor a camera
in which to sleep in the mornings was a
support center and at night I
I took to sleep I did not see life anymore
colors and black and white what I
I saw was an endless gray a cloud
dark that I was heavy I suffocated
then I hit bottom and one day I killed him
to my dad because at that time I
concerns that I was going to take away
life without saying goodbye
him and my mom then mark him for
confess about my depression talk about
my thoughts and my feelings and
in this talk that my dad had me
he said something that would change my life for
always my son gets to win your things
and 20 to mexico with us
My parents had changed
united states here to chapala jalisco
when I arrived with them I did not know
what to do with my life I was
completely lost because even though I
they had taken out of a situation
depressive the depre was still
inside of me my dad bought a
camera and I still have it and although I
I did not feel anything motivated the camera
aroused a curiosity about me and me
I started to leave the house with the
camera and the camera was slowly made
as a tool of consciousness
that impelled me to be more present
then before if I was like a
turtle with my head tucked in now
I was seeing my eyes or the camera and
Seeing the world around me
my first photos were very bad
because I was taking them with a lot
scared afraid of approaching people
afraid to leave myself because
I was so used to being
engrossed in my little test but
where I was walking the streets of
chapala and I saw a lady so
interesting and icing and dj if you do not
you approach her to take a picture of him so
less
talk to her to try
I’m never going to you but forgive bastard
then add the entity and I went with
this lady and I crouched like that because
I feel that when we are taking a
picture or communicating with someone what
better to communicate at your level
then Maria was called Maria
sitting on a sidewalk and I arrived with
her and I crouched so practice and
we started talking and I told him Mary
I could take a picture and tell me I’m not
so ugly that it’s going to break down
break down your camera and the two of us
we laughed but we became friends and
we started to practice more and while
we talked to him he took pictures and he told me
that of how he climbed the hill
looking for them parents told me about his life
as they said Maria violins because
his children were musicians and he asks his
age told me 87 years
three years later he did the same
question and he told me 87 years with the photo
of Mary
I felt to do more courage
because it was really the first moment
that I was interacting with someone
giving and receiving then I started going
to photograph more visits and old people
because I felt that there was a
wisdom that my life so badly needed
this lady was told the mud used
from afi and if you are wondering
how old were in this photo
I’m going to tell you how many she told me
all is the same lady the loving
a few seconds after total joy
I went to live a time in santa
cecilia the neighborhood in guadalajara and
while I was there and I began to document
to the gang members because if I
I valued my life I wanted to understand
because they did not give this boy
they say the bug is from a gang that
called those of pacheta I fought in
against the florence and evaluation in
several times in the belly but
he survived
this is my friend pepe pepe was not
gangster but he sold drugs and little
time after taking the photo what
they killed leaving their house
I went to the streets to document the
prostitution because if I did not value
in my body
I wanted to understand why they did not either
the good pimp I guess this picture
It’s from a pimp because I was walking
through the streets of san juan de dios
taking pictures of prostitution and
I entered an alley and thought of it
to the pimp picture there looking for chamba
for your girls but month I was scared
because I did not know how to get there and I said
guau marchesín principality tele me
I would love to take a picture but
then fast
I thought of a plan and my plan was to
think of a plan
then there were some mariachis in the
corner and said I’m going with these
mariachis to see if he took some pictures
and while I’m doing this
I can think about how I’m going to get with
this channel
so I went with them and they tell me that if
everything is fine I’m taking pictures of the
Mariachis and suddenly heard a scream
of the flight pattern for sailing and oxygen
It’s already worth moms will kill me but I went
with him and you know what my son told me
and when you finish with them they took me
the pictures of me clear let’s go because
when we start two and it’s a project
or a new company or a photograph does not
we can know how the
things but almost always come out better
what we imagined
I approached death because I wanted to
understand the importance of life
and I approached the faith because I wanted
understand that if they had faith because
I do not
I know that this picture they see the father is
covering the face
I do not know who was confessing this
poor sir but god help him
I started traveling in different countries
this is a picture I wanted to share
with you because it was a moment of
very afraid
for me it was a superport
I was traveling in South America and I wanted to
enter the Amazon jungle but I do not
I knew how then I went to a
town that is called house that is in
Ecuador is right on the border of the
from the jungle and without knowing how to do it
I went to a travel agency because it’s
where a novelty starts and there was a
sir there and and I say to Mr.
or the photographer this and no longer just me
would like to enter the jungle to
photographing with the tribes and history
true
he tells me there were some guys from there
your land did that a few years ago and
they did not find their bodies
they found their heads
it was at that moment that I said no mames
ue but you know I could have grabbed
my things and flight truth is to the great
city but listening to myself to
my intuition
I felt that I had to stay there
strong there was something important that I
I had to experiment for myself
I had to live it and, well, not
I wanted to surrender to this challenge
so I stayed in the town and they look for
one way and I found a woman who
It reached a big three ship calls
the users and she was of the tribute to
I all made friends with her and she
convinced to take me with them
these children had not seen one
camera then when I arrived with
they did not want to come as a whole
ready
I gave the camera to them and they
teaches taking pictures of me and suddenly
it was made like a whole game and all
they wanted more photos and everyone wanted
be in the pictures and I was
completely free to take photos
I started looking for beauty
everywhere in the dark and in the
light in solitude and in humor
to this gentleman he told him the pp retired
I have not been able to reach prosperity without
first go through the jungle of myself
and although I still live with depression
Now I understand that it is not the search for
smiles that will take me to happiness
it’s the practice of being brave and of
celebrate the beauty of life and
I learned this in Mexico thanks
Mexico
after the war
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