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18042: Here I stand. I can not do otherwise. | Bonnie Winfield | TEDxLafayetteCollege


[Applause]

[Applause] so my name is Bonnie Winfield I am the

so my name is Bonnie Winfield I am the

so my name is Bonnie Winfield I am the director of community partnerships here

director of community partnerships here

director of community partnerships here at Lafayette College I’m also a Posse

at Lafayette College I’m also a Posse

at Lafayette College I’m also a Posse mentor and I see my Posse here cool yay

mentor and I see my Posse here cool yay

mentor and I see my Posse here cool yay I’m also a creative artist I have a

I’m also a creative artist I have a

I’m also a creative artist I have a thing called the journey home where I

thing called the journey home where I

thing called the journey home where I work with women from the local jail and

work with women from the local jail and

work with women from the local jail and Lafayette students and some of the

Lafayette students and some of the

Lafayette students and some of the students here are part of that so my

students here are part of that so my

students here are part of that so my talk is one eight zero four two here I

talk is one eight zero four two here I

talk is one eight zero four two here I stand I cannot do otherwise and I

stand I cannot do otherwise and I

stand I cannot do otherwise and I thought I’d do a little mindfulness

thought I’d do a little mindfulness

thought I’d do a little mindfulness exercise and that is for everybody to

exercise and that is for everybody to

exercise and that is for everybody to stand up and join me in one 8:04 to here

stand up and join me in one 8:04 to here

stand up and join me in one 8:04 to here I stand I cannot do otherwise so if you

I stand I cannot do otherwise so if you

I stand I cannot do otherwise so if you could just repeat that one eight zero

could just repeat that one eight zero

could just repeat that one eight zero four two here I stand I cannot do

four two here I stand I cannot do

four two here I stand I cannot do otherwise okay you can sit down so when

otherwise okay you can sit down so when

otherwise okay you can sit down so when I was asked to do this TED talk that’s

I was asked to do this TED talk that’s

I was asked to do this TED talk that’s what came to my mind this one eight zero

what came to my mind this one eight zero

what came to my mind this one eight zero four two does anyone know what that is

four two does anyone know what that is

four two does anyone know what that is zip code right and so that’s why I

zip code right and so that’s why I

zip code right and so that’s why I wanted you to stand with me because this

wanted you to stand with me because this

wanted you to stand with me because this is where we are right now in this moment

is where we are right now in this moment

is where we are right now in this moment and unless we are like beam me up Scotty

and unless we are like beam me up Scotty

and unless we are like beam me up Scotty right we’re here right now in this if

right we’re here right now in this if

right we’re here right now in this if code so I started thinking about why is

code so I started thinking about why is

code so I started thinking about why is this one eight zero four two here I

this one eight zero four two here I

this one eight zero four two here I stand important to me right and so I

stand important to me right and so I

stand important to me right and so I realize that it is about this journey

realize that it is about this journey

realize that it is about this journey I’ve been on and this journey started in

I’ve been on and this journey started in

I’ve been on and this journey started in Syracuse it went to Nicaragua came back

Syracuse it went to Nicaragua came back

Syracuse it went to Nicaragua came back it keeps moving on me

it keeps moving on me

it keeps moving on me came back to Binghamton New York and

came back to Binghamton New York and

came back to Binghamton New York and then to Tennessee and now to Easton so

then to Tennessee and now to Easton so

then to Tennessee and now to Easton so it began in Syracuse I was taking an

it began in Syracuse I was taking an

it began in Syracuse I was taking an urban geography class and the professor

urban geography class and the professor

urban geography class and the professor asked me and other students to go to

asked me and other students to go to

asked me and other students to go to some place in the city sit on the corner

some place in the city sit on the corner

some place in the city sit on the corner and to think about the soul of the city

and to think about the soul of the city

and to think about the soul of the city in that place so I went down to the

in that place so I went down to the

in that place so I went down to the corner of Harrison

corner of Harrison

corner of Harrison and Adams streets in Syracuse and I sat

and Adams streets in Syracuse and I sat

and Adams streets in Syracuse and I sat there and what I saw were cars and

there and what I saw were cars and

there and what I saw were cars and trucks zooming by going to the highway

trucks zooming by going to the highway

trucks zooming by going to the highway I saw across the street the housing

I saw across the street the housing

I saw across the street the housing projects called the bricks behind me was

projects called the bricks behind me was

projects called the bricks behind me was a big parking lot and the museum and I

a big parking lot and the museum and I

a big parking lot and the museum and I kept looking at all of this right I

kept looking at all of this right I

kept looking at all of this right I didn’t see any people I saw cars going

didn’t see any people I saw cars going

didn’t see any people I saw cars going places going nowhere actually seemed

places going nowhere actually seemed

places going nowhere actually seemed like while I was sitting there I

like while I was sitting there I

like while I was sitting there I realized my father told me a story about

realized my father told me a story about

realized my father told me a story about walking down driving down Harrison

walking down driving down Harrison

walking down driving down Harrison Street on his way to the hospital with

Street on his way to the hospital with

Street on his way to the hospital with my mom who was pregnant for me and the

my mom who was pregnant for me and the

my mom who was pregnant for me and the hospital was just a few blocks away he

hospital was just a few blocks away he

hospital was just a few blocks away he described a very different Street he

described a very different Street he

described a very different Street he described a community where there were

described a community where there were

described a community where there were stores and houses and barber shops and

stores and houses and barber shops and

stores and houses and barber shops and bars and all different kinds of things

bars and all different kinds of things

bars and all different kinds of things churches it was a community right and

churches it was a community right and

churches it was a community right and that’s where I was born it was a very

that’s where I was born it was a very

that’s where I was born it was a very different place than what I was feeling

different place than what I was feeling

different place than what I was feeling when I was watching all of these cars

when I was watching all of these cars

when I was watching all of these cars zooming by to go to the highway and I

zooming by to go to the highway and I

zooming by to go to the highway and I started thinking about that and I

started thinking about that and I

started thinking about that and I started thinking about what the urban

started thinking about what the urban

started thinking about what the urban development and urban renewal did to our

development and urban renewal did to our

development and urban renewal did to our communities and where were those other

communities and where were those other

communities and where were those other little babies that were born in that

little babies that were born in that

little babies that were born in that hospital were they able to like me move

hospital were they able to like me move

hospital were they able to like me move out of that area with my family to a

out of that area with my family to a

out of that area with my family to a village outside 30 miles away

village outside 30 miles away

village outside 30 miles away I feared not unless their skin was white

I feared not unless their skin was white

I feared not unless their skin was white like mine and realized that that sense

like mine and realized that that sense

like mine and realized that that sense of place was very important at the same

of place was very important at the same

of place was very important at the same time I was part of the National Congress

time I was part of the National Congress

time I was part of the National Congress and neighborhood women National Congress

and neighborhood women National Congress

and neighborhood women National Congress neighborhood Women is all over the world

neighborhood Women is all over the world

neighborhood Women is all over the world and it’s women in in communities get

and it’s women in in communities get

and it’s women in in communities get together in neighborhoods to make a

together in neighborhoods to make a

together in neighborhoods to make a difference and one thing they were doing

difference and one thing they were doing

difference and one thing they were doing is they were looking at housing in the

is they were looking at housing in the

is they were looking at housing in the center of Syracuse we got together and

center of Syracuse we got together and

center of Syracuse we got together and we sat in circles this is when the first

we sat in circles this is when the first

we sat in circles this is when the first starts of my like sitting in circles

starts of my like sitting in circles

starts of my like sitting in circles right and we talked with these women

right and we talked with these women

right and we talked with these women about what it would

about what it would

about what it would – in the bricks to make their sense of

– in the bricks to make their sense of

– in the bricks to make their sense of place and sense of home better and they

place and sense of home better and they

place and sense of home better and they talked about planning followers and

talked about planning followers and

talked about planning followers and putting up little picket fences on the

putting up little picket fences on the

putting up little picket fences on the sidewalk and maybe having a rocking

sidewalk and maybe having a rocking

sidewalk and maybe having a rocking chair out there where they could talk to

chair out there where they could talk to

chair out there where they could talk to their neighbors

their neighbors

their neighbors two weeks later I sat with those same

two weeks later I sat with those same

two weeks later I sat with those same women in a in a city hall meeting where

women in a in a city hall meeting where

women in a in a city hall meeting where we sat in rows like this and open-front

we sat in rows like this and open-front

we sat in rows like this and open-front were for white men standing in suits

were for white men standing in suits

were for white men standing in suits telling us that they were going to tear

telling us that they were going to tear

telling us that they were going to tear down the bricks we don’t need this

down the bricks we don’t need this

down the bricks we don’t need this public housing anymore we need to do

public housing anymore we need to do

public housing anymore we need to do something different so again I realized

something different so again I realized

something different so again I realized whoa what is this sense of place and

whoa what is this sense of place and

whoa what is this sense of place and what is happening and I realized that

what is happening and I realized that

what is happening and I realized that when we did that Orban renewal we took

when we did that Orban renewal we took

when we did that Orban renewal we took away that sense of place I then did a

away that sense of place I then did a

away that sense of place I then did a dissertation on public housing women who

dissertation on public housing women who

dissertation on public housing women who lived in public housing and bought

lived in public housing and bought

lived in public housing and bought houses through a public-private

houses through a public-private

houses through a public-private partnership this represents one of those

partnership this represents one of those

partnership this represents one of those houses around that time I had this great

houses around that time I had this great

houses around that time I had this great experience to go to Nicaragua this was

experience to go to Nicaragua this was

experience to go to Nicaragua this was right after the Revolution when I was in

right after the Revolution when I was in

right after the Revolution when I was in Nicaragua I went up to the mountains to

Nicaragua I went up to the mountains to

Nicaragua I went up to the mountains to a clinic before I went up there I saw a

a clinic before I went up there I saw a

a clinic before I went up there I saw a baby that was dying of malnutrition this

baby that was dying of malnutrition this

baby that was dying of malnutrition this baby was only nine months old she was

baby was only nine months old she was

baby was only nine months old she was dying of malnutrition because of the

dying of malnutrition because of the

dying of malnutrition because of the United States because of our economic

United States because of our economic

United States because of our economic boycott they couldn’t get the little

boycott they couldn’t get the little

boycott they couldn’t get the little tiny needles that were necessary for her

tiny needles that were necessary for her

tiny needles that were necessary for her transfusions at the same time I was the

transfusions at the same time I was the

transfusions at the same time I was the director of infant foster care at

director of infant foster care at

director of infant foster care at Syracuse Catholic Charities and we had

Syracuse Catholic Charities and we had

Syracuse Catholic Charities and we had another little baby nine months old who

another little baby nine months old who

another little baby nine months old who was not able to be adopted

was not able to be adopted

was not able to be adopted we named her Holly my teenage sons

we named her Holly my teenage sons

we named her Holly my teenage sons bought her little sneakers they wanted

bought her little sneakers they wanted

bought her little sneakers they wanted to adopt her she couldn’t be adopted

to adopt her she couldn’t be adopted

to adopt her she couldn’t be adopted because her mother was 13 and was raped

because her mother was 13 and was raped

because her mother was 13 and was raped by her uncle who was a drug addict and

by her uncle who was a drug addict and

by her uncle who was a drug addict and the baby was black so I started putting

the baby was black so I started putting

the baby was black so I started putting these things together and it was really

these things together and it was really

these things together and it was really really troublesome and I was crying the

really troublesome and I was crying the

really troublesome and I was crying the whole time I was in Nick

whole time I was in Nick

whole time I was in Nick so we go up to this clinic and the

so we go up to this clinic and the

so we go up to this clinic and the director the clinic’s talking and he

director the clinic’s talking and he

director the clinic’s talking and he seemed like he was talking to me because

seemed like he was talking to me because

seemed like he was talking to me because he I think he thought whoa this woman is

he I think he thought whoa this woman is

he I think he thought whoa this woman is going to do something so I said what can

going to do something so I said what can

going to do something so I said what can I do for you what can I do for your

I do for you what can I do for your

I do for you what can I do for your people right he said well what you can

people right he said well what you can

people right he said well what you can even do you can go back to your place go

even do you can go back to your place go

even do you can go back to your place go back to your place and teach your people

back to your place and teach your people

back to your place and teach your people about what their government is doing

about what their government is doing

about what their government is doing because we believe that the people who

because we believe that the people who

because we believe that the people who live in your place would not want this

live in your place would not want this

live in your place would not want this to happen so I said yes Here I am

to happen so I said yes Here I am

to happen so I said yes Here I am sitting in the mountains of Nicaragua

sitting in the mountains of Nicaragua

sitting in the mountains of Nicaragua saying yes this man I will do this I

saying yes this man I will do this I

saying yes this man I will do this I will go back to the United States and

will go back to the United States and

will go back to the United States and teach all these people right here I am

teach all these people right here I am

teach all these people right here I am entry-level job Catholic Charities never

entry-level job Catholic Charities never

entry-level job Catholic Charities never been to college two teenage sons single

been to college two teenage sons single

been to college two teenage sons single mom and I come back and I get on the

mom and I come back and I get on the

mom and I come back and I get on the little circle way right the highway that

little circle way right the highway that

little circle way right the highway that goes around Syracuse and I just kept

goes around Syracuse and I just kept

goes around Syracuse and I just kept driving around I was like what am I

driving around I was like what am I

driving around I was like what am I going to do how am I going to do this

going to do how am I going to do this

going to do how am I going to do this where am I going to get off where is my

where am I going to get off where is my

where am I going to get off where is my sense of place so not to be in place is

sense of place so not to be in place is

sense of place so not to be in place is not only to be nowhere it is not to

not only to be nowhere it is not to

not only to be nowhere it is not to exist that is what our urban renewal did

exist that is what our urban renewal did

exist that is what our urban renewal did to people right moving to the suburbs

to people right moving to the suburbs

to people right moving to the suburbs all of that so I decided I was going to

all of that so I decided I was going to

all of that so I decided I was going to college went to college and decided was

college went to college and decided was

college went to college and decided was going to be a professor and when I was a

going to be a professor and when I was a

going to be a professor and when I was a professor I decided I was going to teach

professor I decided I was going to teach

professor I decided I was going to teach about democracy now question is right

about democracy now question is right

about democracy now question is right this why of what this theme is what does

this why of what this theme is what does

this why of what this theme is what does that have to do with 18 1 8 0 for 2 what

that have to do with 18 1 8 0 for 2 what

that have to do with 18 1 8 0 for 2 what does teaching about democracy have to do

does teaching about democracy have to do

does teaching about democracy have to do with sense of place so in BAM 10 I got a

with sense of place so in BAM 10 I got a

with sense of place so in BAM 10 I got a grant from the University to open a

grant from the University to open a

grant from the University to open a storefront similar to what I did here

storefront similar to what I did here

storefront similar to what I did here right

right

right I opened a storefront called embracing

I opened a storefront called embracing

I opened a storefront called embracing the soul and students from the college

the soul and students from the college

the soul and students from the college people from the community all came down

people from the community all came down

people from the community all came down to that storefront to make art because I

to that storefront to make art because I

to that storefront to make art because I believe making art together makes a big

believe making art together makes a big

believe making art together makes a big difference and it had to do with living

difference and it had to do with living

difference and it had to do with living there on that

there on that

there on that Eitan in that town around the same time

Eitan in that town around the same time

Eitan in that town around the same time 9/11 happened and some of my friends and

9/11 happened and some of my friends and

9/11 happened and some of my friends and I got together and we thought we need to

I got together and we thought we need to

I got together and we thought we need to have some kind of festival because

have some kind of festival because

have some kind of festival because everyone is feeling what you can imagine

everyone is feeling what you can imagine

everyone is feeling what you can imagine right after 9/11 so we had healing our

right after 9/11 so we had healing our

right after 9/11 so we had healing our city and healing our city was drumming

city and healing our city was drumming

city and healing our city was drumming and dancing and storytelling and all of

and dancing and storytelling and all of

and dancing and storytelling and all of these things that helped us realize what

these things that helped us realize what

these things that helped us realize what could happen in that place this is just

could happen in that place this is just

could happen in that place this is just an article from the local newspaper that

an article from the local newspaper that

an article from the local newspaper that talked about the importance of that

talked about the importance of that

talked about the importance of that activity in that experience for people

activity in that experience for people

activity in that experience for people we also had music in that place we had

we also had music in that place we had

we also had music in that place we had drumming there is still a drum circle

drumming there is still a drum circle

drumming there is still a drum circle that 15 years later is happening every

that 15 years later is happening every

that 15 years later is happening every Tuesday night and that is the drum

Tuesday night and that is the drum

Tuesday night and that is the drum circle that I started so I realized that

circle that I started so I realized that

circle that I started so I realized that wherever you stand I can be the soul and

wherever you stand I can be the soul and

wherever you stand I can be the soul and you can be the soul of that place my

you can be the soul of that place my

you can be the soul of that place my next stop on this little journey was

next stop on this little journey was

next stop on this little journey was Greenville Tennessee it’s a beautiful

Greenville Tennessee it’s a beautiful

Greenville Tennessee it’s a beautiful place but I really had a hard time

place but I really had a hard time

place but I really had a hard time finding my sense of place there but that

finding my sense of place there but that

finding my sense of place there but that didn’t stop me I realized that I could

didn’t stop me I realized that I could

didn’t stop me I realized that I could help other people figure out what was

help other people figure out what was

help other people figure out what was their sense of place at the same time as

their sense of place at the same time as

their sense of place at the same time as today people were struggling with what

today people were struggling with what

today people were struggling with what does it mean to be an American

does it mean to be an American

does it mean to be an American so students at Tusculum college and I

so students at Tusculum college and I

so students at Tusculum college and I went to a couple of elementary schools

went to a couple of elementary schools

went to a couple of elementary schools and we worked with the children there

and we worked with the children there

and we worked with the children there and their parents and made murals on

and their parents and made murals on

and their parents and made murals on what it means to be an American and we

what it means to be an American and we

what it means to be an American and we did this in two different places whoops

did this in two different places whoops

did this in two different places whoops now we get to one eight zero four two so

now we get to one eight zero four two so

now we get to one eight zero four two so here we are came back here I came here

here we are came back here I came here

here we are came back here I came here to Easton and again here I stand and

to Easton and again here I stand and

to Easton and again here I stand and here I sit down it’s circle so what is

here I sit down it’s circle so what is

here I sit down it’s circle so what is this what is this winning 0 for 2 how’d

this what is this winning 0 for 2 how’d

this what is this winning 0 for 2 how’d this all happen right and what happened

this all happen right and what happened

this all happen right and what happened was I heard students talking about oh

was I heard students talking about oh

was I heard students talking about oh I’m going to go downtown to Easton I’m

I’m going to go downtown to Easton I’m

I’m going to go downtown to Easton I’m going to go to Easton right I’m like

going to go to Easton right I’m like

going to go to Easton right I’m like wait a minute you are in East End Easton

wait a minute you are in East End Easton

wait a minute you are in East End Easton it Lafayette is in East End right and so

it Lafayette is in East End right and so

it Lafayette is in East End right and so then I started this whole little like

then I started this whole little like

then I started this whole little like thing of telling everybody so I thought

thing of telling everybody so I thought

thing of telling everybody so I thought a first-year seminar and in my first

a first-year seminar and in my first

a first-year seminar and in my first year seminar we went down and we met in

year seminar we went down and we met in

year seminar we went down and we met in this other storefront that I that I

this other storefront that I that I

this other storefront that I that I started here and we made art with people

started here and we made art with people

started here and we made art with people this is us making a rug we wove a rug

this is us making a rug we wove a rug

this is us making a rug we wove a rug with women from the local jail

with women from the local jail

with women from the local jail we made murals as part of the first-year

we made murals as part of the first-year

we made murals as part of the first-year seminar on what it means to be part of

seminar on what it means to be part of

seminar on what it means to be part of East End this was from a Jane’s walk I

East End this was from a Jane’s walk I

East End this was from a Jane’s walk I have all kinds of artwork based on this

have all kinds of artwork based on this

have all kinds of artwork based on this having people get a sense of what it

having people get a sense of what it

having people get a sense of what it means here I stand right these are more

means here I stand right these are more

means here I stand right these are more pictures of us making murals so I began

pictures of us making murals so I began

pictures of us making murals so I began to wonder how does this all come

to wonder how does this all come

to wonder how does this all come together like how does my saying yes in

together like how does my saying yes in

together like how does my saying yes in the mountains of Nicaragua how does that

the mountains of Nicaragua how does that

the mountains of Nicaragua how does that connect that teaching about democracy

connect that teaching about democracy

connect that teaching about democracy how does that connect to that sense of

how does that connect to that sense of

how does that connect to that sense of place that I realized when I was sitting

place that I realized when I was sitting

place that I realized when I was sitting in the corner of Syracuse on those

in the corner of Syracuse on those

in the corner of Syracuse on those streets this is where I integrate

streets this is where I integrate

streets this is where I integrate citizenship and sense of place according

citizenship and sense of place according

citizenship and sense of place according to Irish Marian young citizens

to Irish Marian young citizens

to Irish Marian young citizens citizenship must involve among other

citizenship must involve among other

citizenship must involve among other things the capacity to engage those who

things the capacity to engage those who

things the capacity to engage those who are different and yet share the same

are different and yet share the same

are different and yet share the same place in a liberal arts college we must

place in a liberal arts college we must

place in a liberal arts college we must take on the challenge to develop a

take on the challenge to develop a

take on the challenge to develop a critical pedagogy of place at the most

critical pedagogy of place at the most

critical pedagogy of place at the most general level a critical pedagogy must

general level a critical pedagogy must

general level a critical pedagogy must be a pedagogy of place it must address

be a pedagogy of place it must address

be a pedagogy of place it must address the specificities of the experience

the specificities of the experience

the specificities of the experience problems languages and histories that

problems languages and histories that

problems languages and histories that community rely upon to construct a

community rely upon to construct a

community rely upon to construct a narrative of collective identity we must

narrative of collective identity we must

narrative of collective identity we must give the students most of you a lens to

give the students most of you a lens to

give the students most of you a lens to help you see and connect to the world

help you see and connect to the world

help you see and connect to the world right this can be done at its best in

right this can be done at its best in

right this can be done at its best in the place and embodied practice it’s why

the place and embodied practice it’s why

the place and embodied practice it’s why had you stand right and feel what it was

had you stand right and feel what it was

had you stand right and feel what it was like to stand in one 8:04 to developing

like to stand in one 8:04 to developing

like to stand in one 8:04 to developing a sense of place where you realize the

a sense of place where you realize the

a sense of place where you realize the impact of your acts

impact of your acts

impact of your acts and what it has on the local community

and what it has on the local community

and what it has on the local community that is life and that is important if we

that is life and that is important if we

that is life and that is important if we seek to develop active citizens which is

seek to develop active citizens which is

seek to develop active citizens which is part of the Lafayette mission yes my yes

part of the Lafayette mission yes my yes

part of the Lafayette mission yes my yes in the mountains of Nicaragua the

in the mountains of Nicaragua the

in the mountains of Nicaragua the opportunity to connect what they are

opportunity to connect what they are

opportunity to connect what they are learning to how they live rather than

learning to how they live rather than

learning to how they live rather than what they will do we ask that right I

what they will do we ask that right I

what they will do we ask that right I heard some questions at lunch what are

heard some questions at lunch what are

heard some questions at lunch what are you going to do you graduate what you’re

you going to do you graduate what you’re

you going to do you graduate what you’re going to do let’s start asking how are

going to do let’s start asking how are

going to do let’s start asking how are you going to live we can begin with how

you going to live we can begin with how

you going to live we can begin with how they live in the present moment how they

they live in the present moment how they

they live in the present moment how they live and connect in 1804 to because give

live and connect in 1804 to because give

live and connect in 1804 to because give me a place to stand

me a place to stand

me a place to stand and I you all will move the world

and I you all will move the world

and I you all will move the world [Applause]

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