[Applause] hi everyone I’m one of those people who
hi everyone I’m one of those people who
hi everyone I’m one of those people who don’t remember their childhood well
don’t remember their childhood well
don’t remember their childhood well unlike my best friend who not only
unlike my best friend who not only
unlike my best friend who not only remembers her childhood but reflects
remembers her childhood but reflects
remembers her childhood but reflects back to every past event with the
back to every past event with the
back to every past event with the precise asian you like in 2003 when I
precise asian you like in 2003 when I
precise asian you like in 2003 when I was four years old and my imaginary dog
was four years old and my imaginary dog
was four years old and my imaginary dog was six months old I lost my first red
was six months old I lost my first red
was six months old I lost my first red color pencil but in spite of not
color pencil but in spite of not
color pencil but in spite of not remembering most of my childhood one
remembering most of my childhood one
remembering most of my childhood one thing I clearly remember from 2009 when
thing I clearly remember from 2009 when
thing I clearly remember from 2009 when I was ten years old is getting chicken
I was ten years old is getting chicken
I was ten years old is getting chicken pox now you might be wondering why
pox now you might be wondering why
pox now you might be wondering why chicken pox don’t I have anything more
chicken pox don’t I have anything more
chicken pox don’t I have anything more eventful to remember well I can weekly
eventful to remember well I can weekly
eventful to remember well I can weekly recall fracturing both of my wrists and
recall fracturing both of my wrists and
recall fracturing both of my wrists and one of my knees but doesn’t stick in my
one of my knees but doesn’t stick in my
one of my knees but doesn’t stick in my mind as much as the chicken pox did why
mind as much as the chicken pox did why
mind as much as the chicken pox did why because I thought I was going to die and
because I thought I was going to die and
because I thought I was going to die and when that realization had hit me I had
when that realization had hit me I had
when that realization had hit me I had cried but then I stopped because I
cried but then I stopped because I
cried but then I stopped because I didn’t die but over the years that
didn’t die but over the years that
didn’t die but over the years that incident made me think why didn’t I want
incident made me think why didn’t I want
incident made me think why didn’t I want to die at that point why did I want to
to die at that point why did I want to
to die at that point why did I want to live and a flowing was so important for
live and a flowing was so important for
live and a flowing was so important for me what kind of life did I want to live
me what kind of life did I want to live
me what kind of life did I want to live a life of survival a life of success so
a life of survival a life of success so
a life of survival a life of success so I started putting an effort to make my
I started putting an effort to make my
I started putting an effort to make my life successful but they weren’t
life successful but they weren’t
life successful but they weren’t amounting to much I used to ask myself
amounting to much I used to ask myself
amounting to much I used to ask myself isn’t effort the key to everything then
isn’t effort the key to everything then
isn’t effort the key to everything then one day my question was answered as I
one day my question was answered as I
one day my question was answered as I was going through one of the Diaries
was going through one of the Diaries
was going through one of the Diaries which I used to keep her the child as I
which I used to keep her the child as I
which I used to keep her the child as I flipped through the pages i saw heading
flipped through the pages i saw heading
flipped through the pages i saw heading which read the 12 Peas I must have
which read the 12 Peas I must have
which read the 12 Peas I must have gotten in from someone or somewhere but
gotten in from someone or somewhere but
gotten in from someone or somewhere but I had completely forgotten about it but
I had completely forgotten about it but
I had completely forgotten about it but when I read through my own handwriting
when I read through my own handwriting
when I read through my own handwriting in that page on that page I realized
in that page on that page I realized
in that page on that page I realized that effort was important but the right
that effort was important but the right
that effort was important but the right kind of effort was crucial so what would
kind of effort was crucial so what would
kind of effort was crucial so what would these 12 Peas not these with these and
these 12 Peas not these with these and
these 12 Peas not these with these and the trick here was to practice the first
the trick here was to practice the first
the trick here was to practice the first nine piece in order to achieve the last
nine piece in order to achieve the last
nine piece in order to achieve the last three as rewards so I began my
three as rewards so I began my
three as rewards so I began my only pursuing the purpose of life I ask
only pursuing the purpose of life I ask
only pursuing the purpose of life I ask myself what is it that is worth so many
myself what is it that is worth so many
myself what is it that is worth so many years of struggle of my life achieving
years of struggle of my life achieving
years of struggle of my life achieving what would I consider a fair enough
what would I consider a fair enough
what would I consider a fair enough price paid back to me by life and those
price paid back to me by life and those
price paid back to me by life and those days I had read it recently read a
days I had read it recently read a
days I had read it recently read a really nice coat which said if you don’t
really nice coat which said if you don’t
really nice coat which said if you don’t wish to be forgotten once you are dead
wish to be forgotten once you are dead
wish to be forgotten once you are dead and rotten write something worth reading
and rotten write something worth reading
and rotten write something worth reading or do something worth writing so with
or do something worth writing so with
or do something worth writing so with that new wanting to be remembered
that new wanting to be remembered
that new wanting to be remembered enthusiasm I quickly jot it down
enthusiasm I quickly jot it down
enthusiasm I quickly jot it down astronomer astronaut neurosurgeon
astronomer astronaut neurosurgeon
astronomer astronaut neurosurgeon chemist and teacher and let’s be honest
chemist and teacher and let’s be honest
chemist and teacher and let’s be honest here how many of you have not gone
here how many of you have not gone
here how many of you have not gone through the dilemma of choosing your
through the dilemma of choosing your
through the dilemma of choosing your courier like me I’m sure most of us have
courier like me I’m sure most of us have
courier like me I’m sure most of us have felt one of the two emotions either I
felt one of the two emotions either I
felt one of the two emotions either I can pursue all of these careers are I
can pursue all of these careers are I
can pursue all of these careers are I can’t pursue any of these couriers but
can’t pursue any of these couriers but
can’t pursue any of these couriers but wish every road you take whichever train
wish every road you take whichever train
wish every road you take whichever train you take it dumps you on the same
you take it dumps you on the same
you take it dumps you on the same station and I was there I didn’t know
station and I was there I didn’t know
station and I was there I didn’t know what to do so I pondered and this is an
what to do so I pondered and this is an
what to do so I pondered and this is an important p to think to reflect to allow
important p to think to reflect to allow
important p to think to reflect to allow yourself to be undecided I pondered on
yourself to be undecided I pondered on
yourself to be undecided I pondered on what potentials I was sent down with so
what potentials I was sent down with so
what potentials I was sent down with so there I was standing in the middle of my
there I was standing in the middle of my
there I was standing in the middle of my room the Katniss Everdeen of my own
room the Katniss Everdeen of my own
room the Katniss Everdeen of my own arena center by capital which turned out
arena center by capital which turned out
arena center by capital which turned out to be my parents and only possessing a
to be my parents and only possessing a
to be my parents and only possessing a bag which I like to call the bag of
bag which I like to call the bag of
bag which I like to call the bag of potentials luckily I didn’t have to
potentials luckily I didn’t have to
potentials luckily I didn’t have to fight to grab this vital tool but it
fight to grab this vital tool but it
fight to grab this vital tool but it came along with me the day I was
came along with me the day I was
came along with me the day I was earthbound so when I opened my bag of
earthbound so when I opened my bag of
earthbound so when I opened my bag of potentials and I looked inside other
potentials and I looked inside other
potentials and I looked inside other than a masters and stalking skills and a
than a masters and stalking skills and a
than a masters and stalking skills and a few other talents I realized that I
few other talents I realized that I
few other talents I realized that I didn’t want to pursue a career in
didn’t want to pursue a career in
didn’t want to pursue a career in physics so astronomy and astronaut were
physics so astronomy and astronaut were
physics so astronomy and astronaut were strike tough then the image of one of
strike tough then the image of one of
strike tough then the image of one of the miserable teachers of our school
the miserable teachers of our school
the miserable teachers of our school flashed in my mind and to save myself
flashed in my mind and to save myself
flashed in my mind and to save myself from the same horror I dropped teaching
from the same horror I dropped teaching
from the same horror I dropped teaching as well so now I was three down two more
as well so now I was three down two more
as well so now I was three down two more to go and while I was deciding between
to go and while I was deciding between
to go and while I was deciding between chemist and neurosurgeon organic
chemist and neurosurgeon organic
chemist and neurosurgeon organic chemistry happened and I was left with
chemistry happened and I was left with
chemistry happened and I was left with neurosurgery so that became my purpose
neurosurgery so that became my purpose
neurosurgery so that became my purpose of life but that was my bad
of life but that was my bad
of life but that was my bad of potentials you to have a skill set
of potentials you to have a skill set
of potentials you to have a skill set find your skill set your bag of
find your skill set your bag of
find your skill set your bag of potentials would be completely different
potentials would be completely different
potentials would be completely different other than the Masters and stalking
other than the Masters and stalking
other than the Masters and stalking because Cambridge owns the skill well
because Cambridge owns the skill well
because Cambridge owns the skill well what now now I planned I planned my life
what now now I planned I planned my life
what now now I planned I planned my life in accordance to the use of my talents
in accordance to the use of my talents
in accordance to the use of my talents in order to realize my purpose you might
in order to realize my purpose you might
in order to realize my purpose you might be wondering we can’t even plan an
be wondering we can’t even plan an
be wondering we can’t even plan an outing with friends without someone
outing with friends without someone
outing with friends without someone messing everything up either before the
messing everything up either before the
messing everything up either before the Planning even begins are at the last
Planning even begins are at the last
Planning even begins are at the last minute so how did this one girl plan out
minute so how did this one girl plan out
minute so how did this one girl plan out her whole huge life well I plan broadly
her whole huge life well I plan broadly
her whole huge life well I plan broadly and I was prepared to change plans if
and I was prepared to change plans if
and I was prepared to change plans if they didn’t work out sadly robbing out
they didn’t work out sadly robbing out
they didn’t work out sadly robbing out of school didn’t quite fit with
of school didn’t quite fit with
of school didn’t quite fit with neurosurgery so the first plan was to
neurosurgery so the first plan was to
neurosurgery so the first plan was to graduate with dignity and to do so I and
graduate with dignity and to do so I and
graduate with dignity and to do so I and to do so I set priorities I knew my
to do so I set priorities I knew my
to do so I set priorities I knew my family was a priority my friends also
family was a priority my friends also
family was a priority my friends also were a priority because what if life of
were a priority because what if life of
were a priority because what if life of not getting tagged in dank memes but at
not getting tagged in dank memes but at
not getting tagged in dank memes but at that time the biggest priority seemed to
that time the biggest priority seemed to
that time the biggest priority seemed to be the I GCSE examinations and when I
be the I GCSE examinations and when I
be the I GCSE examinations and when I looked at the calendar in December 2015
looked at the calendar in December 2015
looked at the calendar in December 2015 I realized that there were only five
I realized that there were only five
I realized that there were only five months left until made the month of may
months left until made the month of may
months left until made the month of may we pass the exams and I hadn’t done a
we pass the exams and I hadn’t done a
we pass the exams and I hadn’t done a moro past paper it’s not that I had been
moro past paper it’s not that I had been
moro past paper it’s not that I had been taking studying lightly I had just
taking studying lightly I had just
taking studying lightly I had just wasted my whole summer break when
wasted my whole summer break when
wasted my whole summer break when everybody else had been working partly
everybody else had been working partly
everybody else had been working partly because we had gone to Pakistan for
because we had gone to Pakistan for
because we had gone to Pakistan for vacations and partly because I was tired
vacations and partly because I was tired
vacations and partly because I was tired of finding it if only finding X was half
of finding it if only finding X was half
of finding it if only finding X was half as exciting as finding Dory but I
as exciting as finding Dory but I
as exciting as finding Dory but I realized that there was no time to waste
realized that there was no time to waste
realized that there was no time to waste now so I pulled myself killed nerve
now so I pulled myself killed nerve
now so I pulled myself killed nerve cells burned calories every day and
cells burned calories every day and
cells burned calories every day and prayed because I knew that I was nothing
prayed because I knew that I was nothing
prayed because I knew that I was nothing without the almighty and his help so as
without the almighty and his help so as
without the almighty and his help so as the months passed by the intensity of my
the months passed by the intensity of my
the months passed by the intensity of my panic became inversely proportional to
panic became inversely proportional to
panic became inversely proportional to time left until I juice until I realized
time left until I juice until I realized
time left until I juice until I realized that if I didn’t want to become a
that if I didn’t want to become a
that if I didn’t want to become a cardiac patient I would better be
cardiac patient I would better be
cardiac patient I would better be patient so I did that
patient so I did that
patient so I did that I started observing patients I barely
I started observing patients I barely
I started observing patients I barely passed that Matt’s test with patients a
passed that Matt’s test with patients a
passed that Matt’s test with patients a blankly stare at the history book with
blankly stare at the history book with
blankly stare at the history book with patients I spoke wrong Arabic again and
patients I spoke wrong Arabic again and
patients I spoke wrong Arabic again and again and again with patients but that
again and again with patients but that
again and again with patients but that didn’t mean that I didn’t do anything it
didn’t mean that I didn’t do anything it
didn’t mean that I didn’t do anything it meant that I embraced my results even
meant that I embraced my results even
meant that I embraced my results even the poor results but I worked harder for
the poor results but I worked harder for
the poor results but I worked harder for the next time and as much as the
the next time and as much as the
the next time and as much as the patients was helping me in the present I
patients was helping me in the present I
patients was helping me in the present I was scared about the future but if I
was scared about the future but if I
was scared about the future but if I didn’t get the grades I wanted but if
didn’t get the grades I wanted but if
didn’t get the grades I wanted but if everybody around this world was so smart
everybody around this world was so smart
everybody around this world was so smart and thresholds were really high but if I
and thresholds were really high but if I
and thresholds were really high but if I didn’t feel prepared enough an anchor
didn’t feel prepared enough an anchor
didn’t feel prepared enough an anchor the exam hall and so to avoid these
the exam hall and so to avoid these
the exam hall and so to avoid these negative thoughts I started thinking
negative thoughts I started thinking
negative thoughts I started thinking positively and one thing that really
positively and one thing that really
positively and one thing that really helped me practice positive thinking was
helped me practice positive thinking was
helped me practice positive thinking was a skate I remember doing with my friends
a skate I remember doing with my friends
a skate I remember doing with my friends in junior school so in the story it was
in junior school so in the story it was
in junior school so in the story it was a king a minister and half a dozen
a king a minister and half a dozen
a king a minister and half a dozen soldiers I was one of the soldiers
soldiers I was one of the soldiers
soldiers I was one of the soldiers because everybody doubted my acting
because everybody doubted my acting
because everybody doubted my acting skills except me myself so this minister
skills except me myself so this minister
skills except me myself so this minister had a favorite phrase which was
had a favorite phrase which was
had a favorite phrase which was everything happens for a reason every
everything happens for a reason every
everything happens for a reason every time the King used to be sad or stressed
time the King used to be sad or stressed
time the King used to be sad or stressed used to say the same words in hist used
used to say the same words in hist used
used to say the same words in hist used to help calm the king but one day when
to help calm the king but one day when
to help calm the king but one day when the king went on a hunting trip with the
the king went on a hunting trip with the
the king went on a hunting trip with the minister in half a dozen soldiers
minister in half a dozen soldiers
minister in half a dozen soldiers something came and hit is I started to
something came and hit is I started to
something came and hit is I started to bleed and he went blind with one arm
bleed and he went blind with one arm
bleed and he went blind with one arm this time when the minister said the
this time when the minister said the
this time when the minister said the same words he was like yeah more like to
same words he was like yeah more like to
same words he was like yeah more like to see less of that ugly face of yours and
see less of that ugly face of yours and
see less of that ugly face of yours and he got him locked in the prison I feel
he got him locked in the prison I feel
he got him locked in the prison I feel like the forest was somehow jinxed
like the forest was somehow jinxed
like the forest was somehow jinxed because the next time again when the
because the next time again when the
because the next time again when the king went back on a hunting trip they
king went back on a hunting trip they
king went back on a hunting trip they were of cannibals and they don’t
were of cannibals and they don’t
were of cannibals and they don’t everybody has a prisoner except the King
everybody has a prisoner except the King
everybody has a prisoner except the King because he had an injured I so the king
because he had an injured I so the king
because he had an injured I so the king was saved because of his injured I and
was saved because of his injured I and
was saved because of his injured I and the minister was saved because he said
the minister was saved because he said
the minister was saved because he said that everything happens for a reason now
that everything happens for a reason now
that everything happens for a reason now did you all notice that the minister was
did you all notice that the minister was
did you all notice that the minister was persistent in his positive thinking well
persistent in his positive thinking well
persistent in his positive thinking well I did probably because I was so used to
I did probably because I was so used to
I did probably because I was so used to finding righteous effects in English
finding righteous effects in English
finding righteous effects in English past papers even when there weren’t any
past papers even when there weren’t any
past papers even when there weren’t any effects so I noticed it started
effects so I noticed it started
effects so I noticed it started following it
following it
following it I persistently worked each day putting
I persistently worked each day putting
I persistently worked each day putting in all the effort in terms of energy
in all the effort in terms of energy
in all the effort in terms of energy dedication and time I found the anger
dedication and time I found the anger
dedication and time I found the anger with which I would look at bullying X
with which I would look at bullying X
with which I would look at bullying X from a 40-foot tree in math I saw the
from a 40-foot tree in math I saw the
from a 40-foot tree in math I saw the fate of the McDonald’s burgers as burger
fate of the McDonald’s burgers as burger
fate of the McDonald’s burgers as burger as it turned into feces I drew imaginary
as it turned into feces I drew imaginary
as it turned into feces I drew imaginary magnetic field lines and imaginary
magnetic field lines and imaginary
magnetic field lines and imaginary orbits in orbitals memorized Kennedy’s
orbits in orbitals memorized Kennedy’s
orbits in orbitals memorized Kennedy’s options in cuban missile crisis without
options in cuban missile crisis without
options in cuban missile crisis without an option and i did all these things
an option and i did all these things
an option and i did all these things persistently then one fine day came the
persistently then one fine day came the
persistently then one fine day came the exam day and nothing was fine anymore I
exam day and nothing was fine anymore I
exam day and nothing was fine anymore I remember trying to force that feeling of
remember trying to force that feeling of
remember trying to force that feeling of being prepared it was taking too much
being prepared it was taking too much
being prepared it was taking too much effort sizes let go and accepted the
effort sizes let go and accepted the
effort sizes let go and accepted the fact that I wasn’t feeling like our last
fact that I wasn’t feeling like our last
fact that I wasn’t feeling like our last exam I accepted imperfection but wyd for
exam I accepted imperfection but wyd for
exam I accepted imperfection but wyd for perfection even on days when I thought I
perfection even on days when I thought I
perfection even on days when I thought I couldn’t and wouldn’t but I did
couldn’t and wouldn’t but I did
couldn’t and wouldn’t but I did alhamdulillah I took eight subjects and
alhamdulillah I took eight subjects and
alhamdulillah I took eight subjects and I got 8 a stars but that’s not all that
I got 8 a stars but that’s not all that
I got 8 a stars but that’s not all that the nine-piece had to offer me because
the nine-piece had to offer me because
the nine-piece had to offer me because the 10 11 and 12 Peas are peace power
the 10 11 and 12 Peas are peace power
the 10 11 and 12 Peas are peace power and possibility where possibility refers
and possibility where possibility refers
and possibility where possibility refers to the endless potential of life but
to the endless potential of life but
to the endless potential of life but that was just my story you have a
that was just my story you have a
that was just my story you have a different story a different bag of
different story a different bag of
different story a different bag of potentials different plan different
potentials different plan different
potentials different plan different priorities I know that we are all
priorities I know that we are all
priorities I know that we are all sitting here that all of us sitting here
sitting here that all of us sitting here
sitting here that all of us sitting here are equally talented in our own rooms
are equally talented in our own rooms
are equally talented in our own rooms unique irreplaceable empowered I just
unique irreplaceable empowered I just
unique irreplaceable empowered I just shared my life as a template the peas as
shared my life as a template the peas as
shared my life as a template the peas as guiding stars in the sky to follow and
guiding stars in the sky to follow and
guiding stars in the sky to follow and reach your destination but your
reach your destination but your
reach your destination but your destination is different and it’s yours
destination is different and it’s yours
destination is different and it’s yours alone the turning point of my life or
alone the turning point of my life or
alone the turning point of my life or something as silly as chickenpox so you
something as silly as chickenpox so you
something as silly as chickenpox so you don’t have to wait for something great
don’t have to wait for something great
don’t have to wait for something great to happen because the greatest lessons
to happen because the greatest lessons
to happen because the greatest lessons in life have already happened you just
in life have already happened you just
in life have already happened you just need to search for them because the
need to search for them because the
need to search for them because the greatest thing that could happen in your
greatest thing that could happen in your
greatest thing that could happen in your life has already happened you thank you
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