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there’s only one guarantee that I can

there’s only one guarantee that I can give you when you’ve heard me speak and

give you when you’ve heard me speak and

give you when you’ve heard me speak and that’s that you’re going to die not

that’s that you’re going to die not

that’s that you’re going to die not right away of course but you are going

right away of course but you are going

right away of course but you are going to die before that point in time though

to die before that point in time though

to die before that point in time though I’m here to ask you to live as full a

I’m here to ask you to live as full a

I’m here to ask you to live as full a life as possible and I’m here to talk to

life as possible and I’m here to talk to

life as possible and I’m here to talk to you today about how I’m trying to do

you today about how I’m trying to do

you today about how I’m trying to do just that

just that

just that now I get that I don’t look like

now I get that I don’t look like

now I get that I don’t look like weight-loss inspiration standing on

weight-loss inspiration standing on

weight-loss inspiration standing on stage right here at the moment but back

stage right here at the moment but back

stage right here at the moment but back in 2012 I weighed over 43 and a half

in 2012 I weighed over 43 and a half

in 2012 I weighed over 43 and a half stone I was told that was going to die

stone I was told that was going to die

stone I was told that was going to die by the time I was 35 I am 35 I began

by the time I was 35 I am 35 I began

by the time I was 35 I am 35 I began documenting my journey for survival if

documenting my journey for survival if

documenting my journey for survival if you like which sounds quite dramatic but

you like which sounds quite dramatic but

you like which sounds quite dramatic but it was actually pretty accurate in a bid

it was actually pretty accurate in a bid

it was actually pretty accurate in a bid to help me work through some of the

to help me work through some of the

to help me work through some of the issues and challenges that I was facing

issues and challenges that I was facing

issues and challenges that I was facing a therapy of sorts if you like I also

a therapy of sorts if you like I also

a therapy of sorts if you like I also figured that if I kept my fingers busy

figured that if I kept my fingers busy

figured that if I kept my fingers busy typing they’d be less likely to find

typing they’d be less likely to find

typing they’d be less likely to find their way into a packet of crisps what I

their way into a packet of crisps what I

their way into a packet of crisps what I hadn’t planned on was the journey that

hadn’t planned on was the journey that

hadn’t planned on was the journey that it would take me on the past few years

it would take me on the past few years

it would take me on the past few years have been fraught with ups and downs and

have been fraught with ups and downs and

have been fraught with ups and downs and I’ve put myself in some incredibly

I’ve put myself in some incredibly

I’ve put myself in some incredibly challenging situations it’s being one of

challenging situations it’s being one of

challenging situations it’s being one of the hot chili I started a brutally

the hot chili I started a brutally

the hot chili I started a brutally honest yet online so to be brutally

honest yet online so to be brutally

honest yet online so to be brutally honest online social media account and

honest online social media account and

honest online social media account and what I wanted to do was hopefully share

what I wanted to do was hopefully share

what I wanted to do was hopefully share my story in the hopes that maybe a

my story in the hopes that maybe a

my story in the hopes that maybe a couple of people or a handful of people

couple of people or a handful of people

couple of people or a handful of people or in my situation would be able to

or in my situation would be able to

or in my situation would be able to relate to that story I was struggling

relate to that story I was struggling

relate to that story I was struggling along for a couple of years I had been

along for a couple of years I had been

along for a couple of years I had been told that I’d got type 2 diabetes I’d

told that I’d got type 2 diabetes I’d

told that I’d got type 2 diabetes I’d been told that I got cancerous cells I

been told that I got cancerous cells I

been told that I got cancerous cells I was in quite a bad place so I fought as

was in quite a bad place so I fought as

was in quite a bad place so I fought as hard as I could and I managed to shift

hard as I could and I managed to shift

hard as I could and I managed to shift 21 stone

21 stone

21 stone I managed to gain 13 of that back rather

I managed to gain 13 of that back rather

I managed to gain 13 of that back rather epically in the space of a year however

epically in the space of a year however

epically in the space of a year however so it’s not all being plain sailing

so it’s not all being plain sailing

so it’s not all being plain sailing I did manage to ditch my type 2 diabetes

I did manage to ditch my type 2 diabetes

I did manage to ditch my type 2 diabetes and I did manage to ditch the cancerous

and I did manage to ditch the cancerous

and I did manage to ditch the cancerous cells along the way as well but all of

cells along the way as well but all of

cells along the way as well but all of that stuff is minor in comparison to

that stuff is minor in comparison to

that stuff is minor in comparison to what I actually learned about myself and

what I actually learned about myself and

what I actually learned about myself and other people that face the same

other people that face the same

other people that face the same challenges that I do I struggled I I

challenges that I do I struggled I I

challenges that I do I struggled I I would eat my breakfast and I would be

would eat my breakfast and I would be

would eat my breakfast and I would be planning lunch as I was eating breakfast

planning lunch as I was eating breakfast

planning lunch as I was eating breakfast and I’d also be planning what I was

and I’d also be planning what I was

and I’d also be planning what I was going to have between breakfast and

going to have between breakfast and

going to have between breakfast and lunch and this cycle went on but I’d

lunch and this cycle went on but I’d

lunch and this cycle went on but I’d planned my weight-loss journey down to

planned my weight-loss journey down to

planned my weight-loss journey down to the nth degree and I was treating myself

the nth degree and I was treating myself

the nth degree and I was treating myself like a project at work yet something

like a project at work yet something

like a project at work yet something wasn’t clicking for me in fact these

wasn’t clicking for me in fact these

wasn’t clicking for me in fact these little cards that I’ve got here was

little cards that I’ve got here was

little cards that I’ve got here was something that I wrote way back when I

something that I wrote way back when I

something that I wrote way back when I was first trying to shift my weight and

was first trying to shift my weight and

was first trying to shift my weight and I’ll read them out to you when I’ve lost

I’ll read them out to you when I’ve lost

I’ll read them out to you when I’ve lost weight I’ll enjoy cooking nice healthy

weight I’ll enjoy cooking nice healthy

weight I’ll enjoy cooking nice healthy meals for my family and friends as I’ll

meals for my family and friends as I’ll

meals for my family and friends as I’ll be more confident and will feel more

be more confident and will feel more

be more confident and will feel more sociable happier when I lose my weight

sociable happier when I lose my weight

sociable happier when I lose my weight I’ll be able to enjoy trying out

I’ll be able to enjoy trying out

I’ll be able to enjoy trying out different activities that will make me

different activities that will make me

different activities that will make me feel happy healthy and alive my life

feel happy healthy and alive my life

feel happy healthy and alive my life will be full of fun things to do when

will be full of fun things to do when

will be full of fun things to do when I’ve lost my weight I was putting my

I’ve lost my weight I was putting my

I’ve lost my weight I was putting my life on hold when I’ve lost weight I’ll

life on hold when I’ve lost weight I’ll

life on hold when I’ve lost weight I’ll go rock climbing when I’ve lost weight

go rock climbing when I’ve lost weight

go rock climbing when I’ve lost weight I’m going to go swimming when I’ve lost

I’m going to go swimming when I’ve lost

I’m going to go swimming when I’ve lost weight I’m going to buy a bike and when

weight I’m going to buy a bike and when

weight I’m going to buy a bike and when I’ve lost weight I’ll wear a vest top

I’ve lost weight I’ll wear a vest top

I’ve lost weight I’ll wear a vest top because I won’t have my bingo wings

because I won’t have my bingo wings

because I won’t have my bingo wings anymore it was a struggle as I said you

anymore it was a struggle as I said you

anymore it was a struggle as I said you know there were ups and downs along the

know there were ups and downs along the

know there were ups and downs along the way but one of the things that I started

way but one of the things that I started

way but one of the things that I started to realize was that I needed to try and

to realize was that I needed to try and

to realize was that I needed to try and live life now instead of putting it on

live life now instead of putting it on

live life now instead of putting it on hold and I remember the lightboard

hold and I remember the lightboard

hold and I remember the lightboard moment it’s going to sound really simple

moment it’s going to sound really simple

moment it’s going to sound really simple but I actually took my niece and nephew

but I actually took my niece and nephew

but I actually took my niece and nephew to the park oh yeah

to the park oh yeah

to the park oh yeah fabulous little monsters I took my niece

fabulous little monsters I took my niece

fabulous little monsters I took my niece and nephew to the park and I had the

and nephew to the park and I had the

and nephew to the park and I had the most amount of fern in that space of

most amount of fern in that space of

most amount of fern in that space of time I’d had in in a long long time and

time I’d had in in a long long time and

time I’d had in in a long long time and I got home and I realized something he

I got home and I realized something he

I got home and I realized something he didn’t actually think about food so what

didn’t actually think about food so what

didn’t actually think about food so what had consumed my every waking moment when

had consumed my every waking moment when

had consumed my every waking moment when I was out there having fern I didn’t

I was out there having fern I didn’t

I was out there having fern I didn’t think about it

think about it

think about it so I made it my mission right there and

so I made it my mission right there and

so I made it my mission right there and then to have a bit of fun to stop

then to have a bit of fun to stop

then to have a bit of fun to stop putting life on hold so I joined the gym

putting life on hold so I joined the gym

putting life on hold so I joined the gym I find it fern don’t shoot me I quite

I find it fern don’t shoot me I quite

I find it fern don’t shoot me I quite like the gym met some amazing trainers

like the gym met some amazing trainers

like the gym met some amazing trainers that have helped me out along the way

that have helped me out along the way

that have helped me out along the way I started going out more to comedy gigs

I started going out more to comedy gigs

I started going out more to comedy gigs to the theatre actually snuck onstage at

to the theatre actually snuck onstage at

to the theatre actually snuck onstage at the RSC once it was fantastic I’m sure

the RSC once it was fantastic I’m sure

the RSC once it was fantastic I’m sure I’m going to be on stage somewhere along

I’m going to be on stage somewhere along

I’m going to be on stage somewhere along the lines and you know and I drink

the lines and you know and I drink

the lines and you know and I drink cocktails yes there’s a few there and

cocktails yes there’s a few there and

cocktails yes there’s a few there and yes I’ll be having some later on I went

yes I’ll be having some later on I went

yes I’ll be having some later on I went rock climbing so I didn’t wait I went

rock climbing so I didn’t wait I went

rock climbing so I didn’t wait I went rock climbing

rock climbing

rock climbing I’ve been canoeing canoe safari for a

I’ve been canoeing canoe safari for a

I’ve been canoeing canoe safari for a whole day my delightful liver heart was

whole day my delightful liver heart was

whole day my delightful liver heart was taking the photos from behind me and

taking the photos from behind me and

taking the photos from behind me and Mitch later on in the day I realized

Mitch later on in the day I realized

Mitch later on in the day I realized that he actually wasn’t doing any

that he actually wasn’t doing any

that he actually wasn’t doing any canoeing at all he was leaving the hard

canoeing at all he was leaving the hard

canoeing at all he was leaving the hard work to me I went walking in the

work to me I went walking in the

work to me I went walking in the highlands and I got lost in the

highlands and I got lost in the

highlands and I got lost in the highlands and we sat on the rocket Aires

highlands and we sat on the rocket Aires

highlands and we sat on the rocket Aires I have to realizing I’ve gone three

I have to realizing I’ve gone three

I have to realizing I’ve gone three miles in the wrong direction and had to

miles in the wrong direction and had to

miles in the wrong direction and had to walk three miles back again and I went

walk three miles back again and I went

walk three miles back again and I went clay pigeon shooting and I’m actually a

clay pigeon shooting and I’m actually a

clay pigeon shooting and I’m actually a pretty good shot so so I did all of that

pretty good shot so so I did all of that

pretty good shot so so I did all of that canister I also bought a bike and I

canister I also bought a bike and I

canister I also bought a bike and I pedaled my way around the Warwickshire

pedaled my way around the Warwickshire

pedaled my way around the Warwickshire countryside despite it looking like my

countryside despite it looking like my

countryside despite it looking like my backside is trying to eat the bike and I

backside is trying to eat the bike and I

backside is trying to eat the bike and I ended up in a ditch and again why

ended up in a ditch and again why

ended up in a ditch and again why delightfully other half rather than

delightfully other half rather than

delightfully other half rather than helping me out of that ditch decided it

helping me out of that ditch decided it

helping me out of that ditch decided it was a great photo moment so and I did a

was a great photo moment so and I did a

was a great photo moment so and I did a mud run now I’d like to talk you through

mud run now I’d like to talk you through

mud run now I’d like to talk you through the process of this mud run mid-walk

the process of this mud run mid-walk

the process of this mud run mid-walk should I say I didn’t run I would only

should I say I didn’t run I would only

should I say I didn’t run I would only run if there was an ice cream van in

run if there was an ice cream van in

run if there was an ice cream van in front of me

front of me

front of me I I entered this madryn mint cements

I I entered this madryn mint cements

I I entered this madryn mint cements before and I didn’t that typical Sarah

before and I didn’t that typical Sarah

before and I didn’t that typical Sarah thing of saying its final if lost layers

thing of saying its final if lost layers

thing of saying its final if lost layers await by the time the murdering arrived

await by the time the murdering arrived

await by the time the murdering arrived so ok I can go out there and do it but I

so ok I can go out there and do it but I

so ok I can go out there and do it but I didn’t so I had to do it anyway and I

didn’t so I had to do it anyway and I

didn’t so I had to do it anyway and I was in the first wave of people that

was in the first wave of people that

was in the first wave of people that were running that day and I was right at

were running that day and I was right at

were running that day and I was right at the front the warmup killed me so I

the front the warmup killed me so I

the front the warmup killed me so I stood there at the front with quite a

stood there at the front with quite a

stood there at the front with quite a lot of trepidation and anticipation and

lot of trepidation and anticipation and

lot of trepidation and anticipation and I set off everybody in the first wave

I set off everybody in the first wave

I set off everybody in the first wave overtook me rather quickly people in the

overtook me rather quickly people in the

overtook me rather quickly people in the second wave caught me up rather quickly

second wave caught me up rather quickly

second wave caught me up rather quickly just worried from being quite honest

just worried from being quite honest

just worried from being quite honest with you and my friends were in the

with you and my friends were in the

with you and my friends were in the second wave they caught up with me and

second wave they caught up with me and

second wave they caught up with me and they slowed down to walk with me and I

they slowed down to walk with me and I

they slowed down to walk with me and I said carry on carry on I don’t we’ll

said carry on carry on I don’t we’ll

said carry on carry on I don’t we’ll told you what you carry on and they’ve

told you what you carry on and they’ve

told you what you carry on and they’ve finished and they came back to get me so

finished and they came back to get me so

finished and they came back to get me so he could do the last couple of obstacles

he could do the last couple of obstacles

he could do the last couple of obstacles together which was marvelous of them so

together which was marvelous of them so

together which was marvelous of them so I just I’d crawled in the net so she can

I just I’d crawled in the net so she can

I just I’d crawled in the net so she can see from the delightful pictures there

see from the delightful pictures there

see from the delightful pictures there I’d clambered over things through tires

I’d clambered over things through tires

I’d clambered over things through tires second from last obstacle I had to climb

second from last obstacle I had to climb

second from last obstacle I had to climb into a pit of mud crawl under a net job

into a pit of mud crawl under a net job

into a pit of mud crawl under a net job done got out the other side walked to

done got out the other side walked to

done got out the other side walked to the last obstacle which was this cargo

the last obstacle which was this cargo

the last obstacle which was this cargo net I stood at the bottom thinking oh it

net I stood at the bottom thinking oh it

net I stood at the bottom thinking oh it looks like Everest to me and I very

looks like Everest to me and I very

looks like Everest to me and I very slowly indeed tried to climb the cargo

slowly indeed tried to climb the cargo

slowly indeed tried to climb the cargo net now for those of you who’ve done mud

net now for those of you who’ve done mud

net now for those of you who’ve done mud runs I’m sure you’re kind of health and

runs I’m sure you’re kind of health and

runs I’m sure you’re kind of health and safety people out there as well well

safety people out there as well well

safety people out there as well well know that they let a few people attempt

know that they let a few people attempt

know that they let a few people attempt the obstacle at any given point in time

the obstacle at any given point in time

the obstacle at any given point in time so they were holding everybody back and

so they were holding everybody back and

so they were holding everybody back and I had my cousin on one side of me and my

I had my cousin on one side of me and my

I had my cousin on one side of me and my friend on the other side of me and they

friend on the other side of me and they

friend on the other side of me and they were actually helping me get my feet

were actually helping me get my feet

were actually helping me get my feet into the right places because my poor

into the right places because my poor

into the right places because my poor little feet had swollen up and my

little feet had swollen up and my

little feet had swollen up and my fingers had swollen up like sausages

fingers had swollen up like sausages

fingers had swollen up like sausages what I failed to tell you it was the

what I failed to tell you it was the

what I failed to tell you it was the hottest day of the summer nightmare

hottest day of the summer nightmare

hottest day of the summer nightmare and I made it about a third of the way

and I made it about a third of the way

and I made it about a third of the way up the cargo net and I stood there I

up the cargo net and I stood there I

up the cargo net and I stood there I didn’t stand I was clinging on for dear

didn’t stand I was clinging on for dear

didn’t stand I was clinging on for dear life actually just don’t know how I can

life actually just don’t know how I can

life actually just don’t know how I can do this genuinely did not think I would

do this genuinely did not think I would

do this genuinely did not think I would be able to do it my cousin said to me

be able to do it my cousin said to me

be able to do it my cousin said to me Sara do you want to get down I said no

Sara do you want to get down I said no

Sara do you want to get down I said no give me a moment give me a moment so I

give me a moment give me a moment so I

give me a moment give me a moment so I clung on a bit longer I just I can’t I

clung on a bit longer I just I can’t I

clung on a bit longer I just I can’t I haven’t got any strength left my legs

haven’t got any strength left my legs

haven’t got any strength left my legs are about to give up my little fat

are about to give up my little fat

are about to give up my little fat sausage fingers just couldn’t hold on

sausage fingers just couldn’t hold on

sausage fingers just couldn’t hold on for very much longer I was covered in

for very much longer I was covered in

for very much longer I was covered in mud and I just wanted to go home

mud and I just wanted to go home

mud and I just wanted to go home so I made a little movement as if I was

so I made a little movement as if I was

so I made a little movement as if I was going to get down and the people who

going to get down and the people who

going to get down and the people who were backed up it looked like there

were backed up it looked like there

were backed up it looked like there about as many of them behind me as there

about as many of them behind me as there

about as many of them behind me as there are here in this audience and the crowd

are here in this audience and the crowd

are here in this audience and the crowd started to cheer me on her I can’t

started to cheer me on her I can’t

started to cheer me on her I can’t effing get down now can I

and I don’t quite know how I did it but

and I don’t quite know how I did it but I somehow managed to get to the top of

I somehow managed to get to the top of

I somehow managed to get to the top of that cargo net what I didn’t tell you is

that cargo net what I didn’t tell you is

that cargo net what I didn’t tell you is that the other side of the cargo net was

that the other side of the cargo net was

that the other side of the cargo net was a slide into a pit of mud and as I’d

a slide into a pit of mud and as I’d

a slide into a pit of mud and as I’d approach the car gonna I could see all

approach the car gonna I could see all

approach the car gonna I could see all of these lovely gazelle-like creatures

of these lovely gazelle-like creatures

of these lovely gazelle-like creatures running along clambering up the net

running along clambering up the net

running along clambering up the net sitting on the top of it spinning around

sitting on the top of it spinning around

sitting on the top of it spinning around holding hands and we down the other side

holding hands and we down the other side

holding hands and we down the other side I did not do that I got to the top I

I did not do that I got to the top I

I did not do that I got to the top I just clambered over the top I slid down

just clambered over the top I slid down

just clambered over the top I slid down on my stomach got myself up at the

on my stomach got myself up at the

on my stomach got myself up at the bottom my cousin came down behind me hit

bottom my cousin came down behind me hit

bottom my cousin came down behind me hit the back of me and I went back down into

the back of me and I went back down into

the back of me and I went back down into the mud but I did it we crossed the

the mud but I did it we crossed the

the mud but I did it we crossed the finish line together and it was at that

finish line together and it was at that

finish line together and it was at that point I realized I’d forgotten my change

point I realized I’d forgotten my change

point I realized I’d forgotten my change of clothes and had to drive home in my

of clothes and had to drive home in my

of clothes and had to drive home in my knickers I mean right off wasn’t the

knickers I mean right off wasn’t the

knickers I mean right off wasn’t the best of days but actually it’s probably

best of days but actually it’s probably

best of days but actually it’s probably one of my fondest memories of the things

one of my fondest memories of the things

one of my fondest memories of the things I’ve done you know it was a challenge

I’ve done you know it was a challenge

I’ve done you know it was a challenge and I did it now all of that stuff that

and I did it now all of that stuff that

and I did it now all of that stuff that I’ve shown you the rock climbing the

I’ve shown you the rock climbing the

I’ve shown you the rock climbing the canoeing or swimming I didn’t tell you

canoeing or swimming I didn’t tell you

canoeing or swimming I didn’t tell you about swimming I guess swimming and I

about swimming I guess swimming and I

about swimming I guess swimming and I don’t hide in a towel I sashay around

don’t hide in a towel I sashay around

don’t hide in a towel I sashay around the edge of the pool like Beyonce would

the edge of the pool like Beyonce would

the edge of the pool like Beyonce would and say there’s the swimming this is

and say there’s the swimming this is

and say there’s the swimming this is cycling mr. canoeing this is a

cycling mr. canoeing this is a

cycling mr. canoeing this is a rock-climbing there’s all of this sort

rock-climbing there’s all of this sort

rock-climbing there’s all of this sort of stuff I’ve done that pretty much

of stuff I’ve done that pretty much

of stuff I’ve done that pretty much around the 30 stone mark while in excess

around the 30 stone mark while in excess

around the 30 stone mark while in excess of 20 stone probably closer to 30 stone

of 20 stone probably closer to 30 stone

of 20 stone probably closer to 30 stone I just want people to realize that you

I just want people to realize that you

I just want people to realize that you don’t have to put life on hold

don’t have to put life on hold

don’t have to put life on hold I think I’d been waiting for this

I think I’d been waiting for this

I think I’d been waiting for this Cinderella story I’ve been waiting for

Cinderella story I’ve been waiting for

Cinderella story I’ve been waiting for life to be perfect before I took action

I’m not so bad about Cinderella story

I’m not so bad about Cinderella story anymore if I’m being quite honest with

anymore if I’m being quite honest with

anymore if I’m being quite honest with you because I’m out there creating my

you because I’m out there creating my

you because I’m out there creating my own story life isn’t about perfection

own story life isn’t about perfection

own story life isn’t about perfection life is about progress life is about

life is about progress life is about

life is about progress life is about having fun life is about going out there

having fun life is about going out there

having fun life is about going out there and doing it now

and doing it now

and doing it now you can my plea to you today is to go

you can my plea to you today is to go

you can my plea to you today is to go out there and inspire as many people as

out there and inspire as many people as

out there and inspire as many people as you can with your imperfections thank

you can with your imperfections thank

you can with your imperfections thank you

you

you [Applause]

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