five years ago I had an encounter with
death
I had an accident that changed my life
world my body and my soul and I
transformed this person into this
fernanda who is in these moments
in front of you I decided to go and take a
Hot stone massage for
relax and being there
reclining on the massage table with the
head was upside down with his head
within the donut of the table
massage say a simultaneous blow that
it caused also cerebral
still to this day I do not know how it was
that the masseuse hit me with the stones
but that led me to make hospitals
hospitalized
there in the hospital to make it worse
who mismanage a medication and
I have an anaphylactic shock for no
be familiar with the term is
when your body feels something that is
harmful to him and on the path of
defend yourself can take your life
I still remember how I was surrounded by
doctors nurses who came and went
as if I were in a movie in
a television series while my
brain vote my heart was beating and I felt
the substance go seeing through my
veins and arteries of my wanting to leave
my system until I left me
I fainted to wake up hours later in
intensive therapy
from that moment my life changed and
I became prey to my body can not
walk
I could not stop me I could not write no
could be near devices
electronics by radiation in order
entered a state of decadence that
It also entails a crisis where the
body goes off and somehow I
I can go not knowing what is happening to
around me but I can not open the
eyes I can not speak I can not move
couple of this something happens with my senses
It is very curious but they are sensitized
very much in fact I go out with
hyperacusis and with hypersensitivity to
light from the hospital when I arrived at my house
to the first months because they were
many years of recovery almost all the
time I was looking at the ceiling and I was using
as a canvas and thought of everything that
he had lived everything he had done and
how I was going to face 45 years of
recovery to be like me again
was before
between all these discomforts and problems
as I told them my meaning was going
as agonizing but I eat everything
the time locked in the department
I did not perceive it that much until it came out
to the street where suddenly the colors
they will be very vibrant
It hurts me, it’s worth people talking
I was super sensitive and for
complicate the matter
the doctors did not understand what I
I had I was doctor doctors and some
they did not believe what was happening to me
I had to cause one
a crisis in front of him to see
that my body did not turn off and
another for example when I told him everything
this topic of my sense of my
sensitivity and everything told me that I
I was depressed and I was a psychiatrist
that if not I would not attend then
I had to go to a psychiatrist so that
I will examine and that’s where he told me that
not that I did not have anything that followed
he found he meditated all his life and meditated and
I always thought I was going to get ahead
it did not matter how long it would take I was going
to get ahead I knew it and he told me
keep meditating you have nothing
you are not depressed past more or
less than 17 8 months for the arrival of
doctor who pulled me forward who
understood that what was happening with
my body because it went off what will be
those crises did not and that gave me the
medication that complemented the others
that they give me for epilepsy and that
made feel and act in a more
normal
additional to this I started talking
with him of everything that happened to me
it is very very strange for me not the
topic to see with so much for so much
unit with so much volume with so much light
So much luminosity with the colors so
vibrant not and I said still remember
it was very very funny that moment is not
what dr
grabbed my cat and I got rich I was
makes the mouth water makes succulent
ie I do not know how to explain how I feel
as icing sugar in the mouth until
months do not granites and cleaning
comment also because I came by the
Hyper accuse I was a long time without
to be able to listen to music when I
I start to listen because I start to see
how colors like as they mix
as if the final painting melted
a very strange way and also I
they start to smell and they know the colors that
I see
he explains to me that that is called
synesthesia call the diagnose me
says that we are all born with synesthesia
but how did it go?
growing the senses are going to accommodate
and then we are the way we know
then normal quotes do not then
There are many people who have good in
the world in general
spock to people who have
synesthesia and there are many people who put
obviously he was losing it to the
time goes by then he does not tell me to be
enjoy your condition do not pay it to
use do not suffer write about the
communicate to the world that experience is
an unparalleled experience many people
it has to be repealed to live it has
that take hallucinogenic mushrooms do
many things and you live it day by day
learn from him and communicate and that’s why
that I become a writer to be able
communicate through my novels of my
characters
all this sensory trip I live day
with day
all that adventure that is he the feeling of
a different way than sometimes and at
start especially it was somehow
stormy but that come to enjoy
and what makes me
if in fact still be in a
parallel reality of the people but a
reality that has become wonderful
full of contrasts and full of
learning and wisdom in many
aspects that is what I learned with
this experience
good that life has ways of
get us on the path of transformation
where chaos teaches us the sense of
our existence
sometimes we have to lose ourselves
to meet us for an accident
a relationship for a job can be
destroy our visa our life
get shredded
but it is an opportunity for growth and
is where the infinite possibilities are
they open us up and we really understand
what are we here and live and experience
these kinds of situations make us
grow internally and they make us
connect with that unconditional love
that unconditional love that makes
let’s go forward so we can stop when
we fall that we know that we are going to leave
well of the problems that we are
having and that makes us understand life
In a different way
I discovered that by accepting this
condition what is synesthesia what
had happened to me with the accident
at that moment all my life all the
decisions stopped being good or bad
they simply became
decisions in decisions that
transform in this person that I am in
this moment and that has brought out the best
version of myself and have the ability
of accepting ourselves
of accepting what happens to us from facing the
life and the challenges of destiny with the
open heart receiving all that love
what can we feel in the soul
when we have to move forward not
has a price
if I am synesthetic I have synesthesia
but now I enjoy it and it’s a
wonder
the power to share it with you many
Thank you
[Applause]
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