listen but good today I think I’m going
to do is explain his have talked about
fear and I am dying right now
of fear and the truth is that from the
school has always been the girl most
shy of the world every time they did
social authority poetry of that kind of
things and from then on he hid in the
bathroom makes the crazy until the teacher
he forgets that it was my turn but one
of the things you have discovered in these
years has been that the most things
wonderful is far beyond the
fear
so with all the balls to the
homes of the world I will give my chest and
try not to die trying
well my name if I look 24 years old
I am a mother of a six year old girl
if they do their calculations they will give
mind that I had it the 17 was a
little bit precocious that I was always precocious
for everything you can ask my mom
that I am in the audience
I walked at nine months I removed the
diaper in the eight months had a daughter
before having blue dni and also
I started to die before time
in September 2013 I did an exam
routine and when I saw the results the
numbers were more red than my notebook
high school and I got really scared so
I remember I went with my mom while
I was not washing the dishes and I told him
mom I think I have cancer because I know
it went through my head and my mom or esteo and
with that character that characterizes
managed well studied he could not sustain
that’s what I told my mom is fine then my
Dad came on a trip I told him I told him
also the same thing I said dad I think
I have cancer or I do not have an infection
the kick but I have it and he told me already
let’s go to a doctor to see what we
they say
we went to the internist and jet
of leg and in we were sitting there my
dad my mom yo
my daughter and I was there are rival the
guy flirting teaching memorama
until the between the paper and the smile
flirtatious of the missing boy
completely
instead of asking for my whatsapp he asked me for a
lots of more blood tests and my
dads grabbed and told me you know that
This is the query for a while because
let’s talk to the doctor
I hope that like half an hour outside and
when my dad left the consultation
they came out in automatic
I remember that he did not even turn to
look less to just walk or I
it did not exist and they left
I was running behind them
I remember we got to the garage and in
the garage as it stops them dry and
I told them what was and who is coming
needed to be told that I have
no and when and their faces already supposed it not
and remembered that among voices cut by
the pain and wanting to cry my dad
said that I had sing and well I think
yes
well what my dad told me and I
promised was that we were going to come out of that
he did not tell me do not worry because the
ibex and there did not start all my super
crossing with the cancer that has lasted
four years
as soon as they diagnosed me they started
all my analyzes and my crazy things
aspire to the marrow and I took a
biopsy speaking in Christian what I
they did was get me into abuse of this
size by the hip and take out a piece
of bone and liquid from here also well
nice are not a bit bizarre my
Mom almost faints when I do not see anything
Well, then came the worst that was the
chemotherapy
I have a leukemia that is very rare
normally when you imagine a
person with cancer
Can you imagine someone who in
chemotherapy the vein does not drop
hair and everything goes wrong
well my chemotherapy was not like that and that
I would take piano insisted on pills
pills that I had to take all the
holy days and in the ribs had
adverse effects so all the
vials I took and every day I
I was vomiting in the bathroom
the bathroom was very skinny all over and this time at
year
I really had red spots
my whole body swelled me from places
that he did not even know that they could
sometimes casting dawned with the mouth of
this precious size and days happened to me from
everything and has become a person to
the one that they did not give him and the flu to happen to be
a person who is sick of everything is
that is not only horrible especially has
20 years and there came a time when
I just got depressed and said no longer
I want more memory that I told my
dads know that I’m going to leave the
treatment
let me die in peace and I do not want to
this is over
I remember that I had my bed not me
I did not eat, I did not change, it was a
vegetable lying on a bed wrapped in
a polar pink and spent a week
in which my mom holds me like this and
after the week my mom had in the
balls that I did not have and he took me from the
hairs that I still had took me to the
shower with ice water and told me you’re going
enough size and look and I remember
that while I fell in the grandmother’s
shower
I had an awesome catharsis and I gave myself
account that for more than richter that
I did as much as I will struggle for more
that does not position the case that I
stop head
the cancer is not going to go and the only one
I was wasting time for it and
I want to make a special effort point
in this because while I was
depressed me first cry did not want
cry because he feels that now he is going to
be worse and it’s a lie and now it’s fine
reach the human being I think that when
you go through things like cancer or losing
someone or losing a job in the
opportunity or when something does not come out
well cry is human
we have to vote bad things for
that good things but in all
our lives
I believe that pain clears and leaves us
bring good things again so if
something happens
I cried I screamed and Mali Ghana insulted him
who want
hit someone not the penalty in goal
criminal or there is no legitimacy said the coup
in something but it’s fine is not right
getting frustrated is the most normal thing in the world
after that in highs and lows during
these four years I was sick
last year my body stopped
react to the treatments and my
doctor gave me two options he told me or
you stop the treatment and you die in two
years
ot transplanted the medullary and
you probably live a happy life and
quiet did not give me many options and
I said good, well behind each
time I’m going to do that there may be a
agreement and that was with my dad and
consult and we both sit down and I
He said everything that could happen to me
they transplanted told me you can die
you can be invalid you can stay
blind after they do with novices
do not walk horrible bellies well well
tétrico to explain things
however sign the consent and
I said yes
one of the things that I asked my
doctor when we talked about the transplant was
if I was going to lose my hair during all
the time it takes chemotherapy
my hair never fell because the
oral chemotherapy does not make it was already
that my hair and there my doctor
knowing it vain and perica that I am
with all the pain in the world he told me if
you’re going to drop all the coffee or all
sides and I said good at least I’m not leaving
to have that of pillar and another one by machine
try to take with humor has told us is
a low blow not because the society of
somehow it ‘s like wetting hair
Long pretty woman to talk or woman
sexy long hair and when I found out
that I was going to run out of hair was like
what the hell and now what am I going to do?
stop being pretty and again through
two options or I expected my hair
fell only because of chemotherapy or
I grabbed in rapallo room and as I am a
crazy related we bring to the hairdresser and
I shaved my head on my own and where everything
fit
and when I called and peeled it was in fact
shocking and I had hair up here
and see you peel front made
horrible not and I remember that I put myself
to look as if some or some kind
of referent of woman veiled sexy
empowered and I found lemon or the
Kidney or more
I did not find any none none
none and that did not seem fair to me
I remember that I started crying
like three days I do not face
saying my hair my hair peels and at
final I for the mirror I looked and I
I said look you are more good than bread
with chicken you do not need hair you can
come out three heads if you want but to
keep being pretty and there I realized
that we are all what we transmit
if we feel good with
ourselves
people will see us that way if
you believe that people will believe
because that is our magic
we are what we transmit to people
we are energy and so we can continue
go ahead and then came and horrible
transplant
the bone marrow transplant although the
Most believe that you part manuel neck
lies is really like a
blood transfusion
the problem is that the transfusion of
blood lasts approximately two months
that has to be locked in a
isolation cell in that room
isolation that although I learned rapa nui
and I met again one more time because
It was a very powerful experience I
They did 38 chemotherapies in seven days
it was brutal
my eyebrows and eyelashes fell
hair all the weight that the body had
it seems 1% acetic acid my organs
they started to collapse and the last day
that I had to put active that was the
sixth day I fainted twice the
first time I fainted myself and when
I tried to go alone to the bathroom but all the
force to return to my bed and fall
there and it opens our eyes and I did not leave
carry because I felt that the
eyes no longer wake up going back to the
the second time I fainted
It was that same day when my mom went to
see me the clinical form and re for that
then it could do nothing alone does not
he had not even the strength to
lift the spoon and feed me
Mommy has to give me everything so my
mom took me to the bathroom sat me in the
bathroom and the only thing I remember is that everything
it got January and hear my mom screaming
and there yes let me go and I did not want to fight
I was tired and out of nowhere I started
have flash is plagiarism of my half life
very young my teenager and my
my dads brothers am and 6 pm and
also a lot of things for that
is what they say when you die
all your life passes before your eyes me
Methia has really happened happens and the pp
nothing formidable is not the last thing
last I could see in that in this
moment in which I really felt that I
he was dying he was listening to the
my daughter’s cry through my head
that crying when I was little and I
I had to go to college and she
I got on my leg because I did not want to
that I go and it was his crying in which
somehow it woke me up and I
brought back to reality and once
who becomes aware again and was
wake up after having seen in my
life passes in front of my eyes I gave myself
mind that I had a life
fucking wonderful I had it all
I had always had everything while
sanz has been sick always had
had everything had my family had my
daughter had death had everything and all the
life I had spent complaining to me and it ‘s
stupid that we have to get to the
point of having to be dying not
to realize that she is not hungry
to see guatemala villosa and we have everything
what we need
so I also want to tell everyone
you who saw in your life fully and
They are extremely grateful to all that
have and do not obsess thinking about
the things that they think they need because
they already have everything
After this transplant them I can
tell me to teach me cancer
the truth is that I thought cancer
I had removed many things removed me
my hair and my body pazo took me away
my the fugitive who disappeared the
same day of 1,000 transplants can
play eternal best seriously can send
the motorcycle if they want
but the truth is that it has also
taught many things
cancer taught me that I am a person
pretty resilient I know I can
fall
I know I can get to pieces, I know that I
I can stumble and I can complain and put
leg and and all everything you could me
be debris like this but as he could
rebuild me and I know that of those
debris that I made several times
because the truth is that I will dedicate the
life a lot of times of those
angel debris and fitch have congratulated
my bases as a woman as a person as
human being reaches for me has
self – taught
because as I said, we are what
We transmit if you believe that you are the
page flame jet of water for more
sensual
people are going to really believe inah like
I tell everyone not to let their
problems
change its essence I can have cancer
also you have a problem with your
boss with his wife with her husband with your
children with your brothers but do not let
it’s included in your life and it ‘s lost
it’s a bad life it’s a bad day and believe me
when I tell them that bad things do not
they are here to stay
bad things come to teach you
something and once you learn and how you
I also say to the whole world
If I have cancer , cancer does not have me
I will never have
Thank you
and
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