Be Recovered: Breaking free from the Disease of Addiction | Dean Taraborelli | TEDxSedona

beautiful introduction and the one part

beautiful introduction and the one part that wasn’t on there is I have this 30

that wasn’t on there is I have this 30

that wasn’t on there is I have this 30 year history with addiction and during

year history with addiction and during

year history with addiction and during that time I learned that addiction was a

that time I learned that addiction was a

that time I learned that addiction was a lifelong incurable disease I heard a

lifelong incurable disease I heard a

lifelong incurable disease I heard a thousands of times and I believed it and

thousands of times and I believed it and

thousands of times and I believed it and I’m here to tell you that maybe that’s

I’m here to tell you that maybe that’s

I’m here to tell you that maybe that’s not true just like science and takes a

not true just like science and takes a

not true just like science and takes a while to catch up maybe that’s not true

while to catch up maybe that’s not true

while to catch up maybe that’s not true maybe addiction is a call for something

maybe addiction is a call for something

maybe addiction is a call for something else

else

else and since we’re talking about addiction

and since we’re talking about addiction

and since we’re talking about addiction you know we often think of the person

you know we often think of the person

you know we often think of the person that’s hit rock bottom and you know the

that’s hit rock bottom and you know the

that’s hit rock bottom and you know the homeless people ten percent of the u.s.

homeless people ten percent of the u.s.

homeless people ten percent of the u.s. population is addicted and I can tell

population is addicted and I can tell

population is addicted and I can tell you it’s way more pervasive than that

you it’s way more pervasive than that

you it’s way more pervasive than that because it’s shame-based we hide it so

because it’s shame-based we hide it so

because it’s shame-based we hide it so at the end of the day an addiction is

at the end of the day an addiction is

at the end of the day an addiction is when I’m doing something that I don’t

when I’m doing something that I don’t

when I’m doing something that I don’t want to do and I can’t stop doing it

want to do and I can’t stop doing it

want to do and I can’t stop doing it regardless of the consequences and I

regardless of the consequences and I

regardless of the consequences and I think we can all resonate with that so

think we can all resonate with that so

think we can all resonate with that so here’s how I got so interested in all of

here’s how I got so interested in all of

here’s how I got so interested in all of this when I was 12 years old you know

this when I was 12 years old you know

this when I was 12 years old you know I’m a guy I’m riding my bike the next

I’m a guy I’m riding my bike the next

I’m a guy I’m riding my bike the next thing I know I have a joint my hand and

thing I know I have a joint my hand and

thing I know I have a joint my hand and a fast forward 30 years and at the

a fast forward 30 years and at the

a fast forward 30 years and at the height of my addiction I had a $200,000

height of my addiction I had a $200,000

height of my addiction I had a $200,000 a year drug habit that went on for I

a year drug habit that went on for I

a year drug habit that went on for I don’t know six seven years and I can

don’t know six seven years and I can

don’t know six seven years and I can tell you I could fill a book the size of

tell you I could fill a book the size of

tell you I could fill a book the size of world war in peace with all the drama

world war in peace with all the drama

world war in peace with all the drama trauma

trauma

trauma you know injuries accidents herds

you know injuries accidents herds

you know injuries accidents herds near-death experiences hospitalizations

near-death experiences hospitalizations

near-death experiences hospitalizations overdoses you know I’ll spare all that

overdoses you know I’ll spare all that

overdoses you know I’ll spare all that but my dark night of the soul

but my dark night of the soul

but my dark night of the soul you know I the last six or seven years

you know I the last six or seven years

you know I the last six or seven years of this process I’m in my dark night

of this process I’m in my dark night

of this process I’m in my dark night which means I don’t know what to do and

which means I don’t know what to do and

which means I don’t know what to do and I’m all alone and nobody knows I’m

I’m all alone and nobody knows I’m

I’m all alone and nobody knows I’m working everyday and I’m doing my stuff

working everyday and I’m doing my stuff

working everyday and I’m doing my stuff and I’m in this inner hell and I don’t

and I’m in this inner hell and I don’t

and I’m in this inner hell and I don’t know whether to kill myself or whether

know whether to kill myself or whether

know whether to kill myself or whether I’m gonna overdose or whether I’m gonna

I’m gonna overdose or whether I’m gonna

I’m gonna overdose or whether I’m gonna smash my head through a windshield again

smash my head through a windshield again

smash my head through a windshield again but something’s going to happen and

but something’s going to happen and

but something’s going to happen and those are a lot of sleepless nights and

those are a lot of sleepless nights and

those are a lot of sleepless nights and as I was getting very close to the end

as I was getting very close to the end

as I was getting very close to the end of

of

of my life and you know when it’s coming

my life and you know when it’s coming

my life and you know when it’s coming the thing that bothered me the most was

the thing that bothered me the most was

the thing that bothered me the most was that I was not gonna fulfill my purpose

that I was not gonna fulfill my purpose

that I was not gonna fulfill my purpose and I didn’t even know what it was but

and I didn’t even know what it was but

and I didn’t even know what it was but that hurt me enough to get to my last

that hurt me enough to get to my last

that hurt me enough to get to my last treatment experience and at the same

treatment experience and at the same

treatment experience and at the same time when this wasn’t working I was

time when this wasn’t working I was

time when this wasn’t working I was going to treatment so I spent 20 years

going to treatment so I spent 20 years

going to treatment so I spent 20 years in treatment and I’ve been to every kind

in treatment and I’ve been to every kind

in treatment and I’ve been to every kind of treatment there is for months on end

of treatment there is for months on end

of treatment there is for months on end I’ve been to doctors and on all kinds of

I’ve been to doctors and on all kinds of

I’ve been to doctors and on all kinds of medication and experimental protocols

medication and experimental protocols

medication and experimental protocols and I’ve been to inpatient outpatient

and I’ve been to inpatient outpatient

and I’ve been to inpatient outpatient outpatient outpatient you know you name

outpatient outpatient you know you name

outpatient outpatient you know you name it I did it and when that wasn’t working

it I did it and when that wasn’t working

it I did it and when that wasn’t working I scoured the globe I’ve been to 50 60

I scoured the globe I’ve been to 50 60

I scoured the globe I’ve been to 50 60 countries on planet Earth talking to

countries on planet Earth talking to

countries on planet Earth talking to shamans mystics and clerics and teachers

shamans mystics and clerics and teachers

shamans mystics and clerics and teachers and doctors and anybody that I thought

and doctors and anybody that I thought

and doctors and anybody that I thought could help and here’s what I came up

could help and here’s what I came up

could help and here’s what I came up with treatment isn’t working the model

with treatment isn’t working the model

with treatment isn’t working the model of treatment and I don’t mean just

of treatment and I don’t mean just

of treatment and I don’t mean just inpatient treatment the way we handle

inpatient treatment the way we handle

inpatient treatment the way we handle this situation is not working because I

this situation is not working because I

this situation is not working because I wanted to get well and I paid very close

wanted to get well and I paid very close

wanted to get well and I paid very close attention in treatment when I went to my

attention in treatment when I went to my

attention in treatment when I went to my first treatment experience I said tell

first treatment experience I said tell

first treatment experience I said tell me what to do and I’ll do it and I did

me what to do and I’ll do it and I did

me what to do and I’ll do it and I did it right up at the time I got high again

it right up at the time I got high again

it right up at the time I got high again and I was watching everybody and I

and I was watching everybody and I

and I was watching everybody and I thought I noticed that I wasn’t the only

thought I noticed that I wasn’t the only

thought I noticed that I wasn’t the only one not getting it nobody was getting it

one not getting it nobody was getting it

one not getting it nobody was getting it barely anybody was making I had been to

barely anybody was making I had been to

barely anybody was making I had been to treatment with thousands of people

nobody was getting so I did a little

nobody was getting so I did a little googles because I wanted to just check

googles because I wanted to just check

googles because I wanted to just check it out and make sure it wasn’t in my

it out and make sure it wasn’t in my

it out and make sure it wasn’t in my head and I googled the success rate and

head and I googled the success rate and

head and I googled the success rate and treatment which is terrible at the time

treatment which is terrible at the time

treatment which is terrible at the time when I was doing that I came up with

when I was doing that I came up with

when I was doing that I came up with something called spontaneous remission

something called spontaneous remission

something called spontaneous remission and I thought wait a second what’s that

and I thought wait a second what’s that

and I thought wait a second what’s that so that’s where people just decide to

so that’s where people just decide to

so that’s where people just decide to stop using and they do and I thought I

stop using and they do and I thought I

stop using and they do and I thought I want to do that I want to be recovered

want to do that I want to be recovered

want to do that I want to be recovered recovery is not working for me I want to

recovery is not working for me I want to

recovery is not working for me I want to be recovered so and while I was Google

be recovered so and while I was Google

be recovered so and while I was Google and I came up also upon a word

and I came up also upon a word

and I came up also upon a word iatrogenic and I answer Genesis means

iatrogenic and I answer Genesis means

iatrogenic and I answer Genesis means death by

death by

death by medicine and medicine it’s the third

medicine and medicine it’s the third

medicine and medicine it’s the third leading cause of death in the United

leading cause of death in the United

leading cause of death in the United States and that means I go in I have

States and that means I go in I have

States and that means I go in I have problem a and I die of complication B so

problem a and I die of complication B so

problem a and I die of complication B so staph infection you know I’d go out to

staph infection you know I’d go out to

staph infection you know I’d go out to the hospital to take my appendix out

the hospital to take my appendix out

the hospital to take my appendix out I get staff and die that’s an iatrogenic

I get staff and die that’s an iatrogenic

I get staff and die that’s an iatrogenic response so medicine wait a second I

response so medicine wait a second I

response so medicine wait a second I can’t just go to my doctor and go to the

can’t just go to my doctor and go to the

can’t just go to my doctor and go to the treatment center and say here tell me

treatment center and say here tell me

treatment center and say here tell me what to do and do it there third leading

what to do and do it there third leading

what to do and do it there third leading cause of death holy smokes

cause of death holy smokes

cause of death holy smokes so let’s go back to treatment for a

so let’s go back to treatment for a

so let’s go back to treatment for a second why isn’t it working well one

second why isn’t it working well one

second why isn’t it working well one thing I noticed is that treatment and

thing I noticed is that treatment and

thing I noticed is that treatment and the medical model is pathologizing

the medical model is pathologizing

the medical model is pathologizing normal life processes so the pain the

normal life processes so the pain the

normal life processes so the pain the loss the grief of life which we need to

loss the grief of life which we need to

loss the grief of life which we need to grow and process and those are things of

grow and process and those are things of

grow and process and those are things of the soul we now have turned them into

the soul we now have turned them into

the soul we now have turned them into diagnoseable mental illness followed by

diagnoseable mental illness followed by

diagnoseable mental illness followed by a pill and somebody was sharing with me

a pill and somebody was sharing with me

a pill and somebody was sharing with me yesterday they’re watching a commercial

yesterday they’re watching a commercial

yesterday they’re watching a commercial of you know a family’s packing up to

of you know a family’s packing up to

of you know a family’s packing up to move to a new city and their little

move to a new city and their little

move to a new city and their little son’s in the back of the car and he’s

son’s in the back of the car and he’s

son’s in the back of the car and he’s waving to his best friend and oh my god

waving to his best friend and oh my god

waving to his best friend and oh my god he’s crying and of course he needs a

he’s crying and of course he needs a

he’s crying and of course he needs a pill not wow how’s it going to navigate

pill not wow how’s it going to navigate

pill not wow how’s it going to navigate life how will he deal with that loss and

life how will he deal with that loss and

life how will he deal with that loss and change and friends so I keep in touch

change and friends so I keep in touch

change and friends so I keep in touch all the all the questions of life you

all the all the questions of life you

all the all the questions of life you know lets medicate him and medication

know lets medicate him and medication

know lets medicate him and medication here to tell you you don’t have no

here to tell you you don’t have no

here to tell you you don’t have no qualms with medication but unfortunately

qualms with medication but unfortunately

qualms with medication but unfortunately medication has become a lifestyle it’s

medication has become a lifestyle it’s

medication has become a lifestyle it’s no longer an intervention it’s now a

no longer an intervention it’s now a

no longer an intervention it’s now a lifestyle how many times have we heard

lifestyle how many times have we heard

lifestyle how many times have we heard people say you know you’ll be on this

people say you know you’ll be on this

people say you know you’ll be on this the rest of your life and the problem

the rest of your life and the problem

the rest of your life and the problem with that is side effects and every

with that is side effects and every

with that is side effects and every medication has a side effect and some of

medication has a side effect and some of

medication has a side effect and some of those side effects are worse than the

those side effects are worse than the

those side effects are worse than the actual condition that I’m taking the

actual condition that I’m taking the

actual condition that I’m taking the medication for and we hear them on TV

medication for and we hear them on TV

medication for and we hear them on TV these are fairly drastic side effects

these are fairly drastic side effects

these are fairly drastic side effects you know death heart disease your heads

you know death heart disease your heads

you know death heart disease your heads going to blow off you’re going to kill

going to blow off you’re going to kill

going to blow off you’re going to kill your parents that

your parents that

your parents that stuff and people say you know what I’m

stuff and people say you know what I’m

stuff and people say you know what I’m hurting

hurting

hurting I’ll take it anyway that won’t happen to

I’ll take it anyway that won’t happen to

I’ll take it anyway that won’t happen to me that’s not that much different than a

me that’s not that much different than a

me that’s not that much different than a heroin addict that knows he’s gonna get

heroin addict that knows he’s gonna get

heroin addict that knows he’s gonna get in trouble too but the one side effect

in trouble too but the one side effect

in trouble too but the one side effect that we don’t hear about is the side

that we don’t hear about is the side

that we don’t hear about is the side effect of numbness so I have something

effect of numbness so I have something

effect of numbness so I have something in my external world some condition

in my external world some condition

in my external world some condition that’s making me unhappy so I take a

that’s making me unhappy so I take a

that’s making me unhappy so I take a pill so I can live with it and not have

pill so I can live with it and not have

pill so I can live with it and not have to manage it unfortunately then I’m numb

to manage it unfortunately then I’m numb

to manage it unfortunately then I’m numb to other things love and life and my

to other things love and life and my

to other things love and life and my intuition I’m disconnected from that so

intuition I’m disconnected from that so

intuition I’m disconnected from that so I take more pills for the numbness

I take more pills for the numbness

I take more pills for the numbness because numbness is painful so I

because numbness is painful so I

because numbness is painful so I realized in treatment that we were not

realized in treatment that we were not

realized in treatment that we were not getting to the core issue that we were

getting to the core issue that we were

getting to the core issue that we were managing symptoms it’s all about symptom

managing symptoms it’s all about symptom

managing symptoms it’s all about symptom management so I’ll let you know that

management so I’ll let you know that

management so I’ll let you know that anxiety and depression and Bill Wilson

anxiety and depression and Bill Wilson

anxiety and depression and Bill Wilson that founder of a band said alcoholism

that founder of a band said alcoholism

that founder of a band said alcoholism is a symptom it’s not the problem it is

is a symptom it’s not the problem it is

is a symptom it’s not the problem it is a symptom so we’re not getting to the

a symptom so we’re not getting to the

a symptom so we’re not getting to the root root cause and I didn’t even think

root root cause and I didn’t even think

root root cause and I didn’t even think I had a root cause you know I grew up I

I had a root cause you know I grew up I

I had a root cause you know I grew up I my family was kind to me I was fed I

my family was kind to me I was fed I

my family was kind to me I was fed I thank you I was cared for you know all

thank you I was cared for you know all

thank you I was cared for you know all that I didn’t have the trauma that I

that I didn’t have the trauma that I

that I didn’t have the trauma that I heard all these other guys in treatment

heard all these other guys in treatment

heard all these other guys in treatment had so I thought I don’t have a core

had so I thought I don’t have a core

had so I thought I don’t have a core issue but everybody that’s doing

issue but everybody that’s doing

issue but everybody that’s doing something that’s dis drug has a core

something that’s dis drug has a core

something that’s dis drug has a core issue and what we do is we hide our

issue and what we do is we hide our

issue and what we do is we hide our wounds we protect them so if I were

wounds we protect them so if I were

wounds we protect them so if I were standing here and I twisted my ankle my

standing here and I twisted my ankle my

standing here and I twisted my ankle my body would reorganize itself to take

body would reorganize itself to take

body would reorganize itself to take weight off of that ankle so it could

weight off of that ankle so it could

weight off of that ankle so it could heal something hurts me deeply I will

heal something hurts me deeply I will

heal something hurts me deeply I will hide it so no people don’t inflame it

hide it so no people don’t inflame it

hide it so no people don’t inflame it I’m gonna protect it and eventually it

I’m gonna protect it and eventually it

I’m gonna protect it and eventually it gets relegated to the unconscious mind

gets relegated to the unconscious mind

gets relegated to the unconscious mind where I forget about it now but it does

where I forget about it now but it does

where I forget about it now but it does not forget about me so I thought root

not forget about me so I thought root

not forget about me so I thought root cause we got to get to the root cause so

cause we got to get to the root cause so

cause we got to get to the root cause so I’m sitting in treatment I think to

I’m sitting in treatment I think to

I’m sitting in treatment I think to myself wait a second I know what to do

myself wait a second I know what to do

myself wait a second I know what to do I’m gonna leave treatment

I’m gonna leave treatment

I’m gonna leave treatment and I because I have been scoured

and I because I have been scoured

and I because I have been scoured worldwide I know more about treatment

worldwide I know more about treatment

worldwide I know more about treatment than anybody that I’ve ever met

than anybody that I’ve ever met

than anybody that I’ve ever met including most of the counselors that

including most of the counselors that

including most of the counselors that I’ve sat with plus all these healers and

I’ve sat with plus all these healers and

I’ve sat with plus all these healers and all these different things I’ve got this

all these different things I’ve got this

all these different things I’ve got this gigantic body of wisdom I am going to go

gigantic body of wisdom I am going to go

gigantic body of wisdom I am going to go recover and I am going to develop a

recover and I am going to develop a

recover and I am going to develop a program to help other people recover and

program to help other people recover and

program to help other people recover and so of course I called my parents right

so of course I called my parents right

so of course I called my parents right and I told them a great idea they were a

and I told them a great idea they were a

and I told them a great idea they were a little skeptical so I leave treatment

little skeptical so I leave treatment

little skeptical so I leave treatment for the last time and I come to Sedona

for the last time and I come to Sedona

for the last time and I come to Sedona and I actually go through this process

and I actually go through this process

and I actually go through this process which was the fountain the foundation of

which was the fountain the foundation of

which was the fountain the foundation of what we’re doing now and I got well I

what we’re doing now and I got well I

what we’re doing now and I got well I recovered and when I say that what do I

recovered and when I say that what do I

recovered and when I say that what do I mean by that well thirty years I would

mean by that well thirty years I would

mean by that well thirty years I would tell you that 90% of my life force my

tell you that 90% of my life force my

tell you that 90% of my life force my time my energy my thoughts my money went

time my energy my thoughts my money went

time my energy my thoughts my money went to using and I got to tell you I don’t

to using and I got to tell you I don’t

to using and I got to tell you I don’t even think about it anymore

even think about it anymore

even think about it anymore it doesn’t cross my mind I’m in the

it doesn’t cross my mind I’m in the

it doesn’t cross my mind I’m in the business of recovery and it still

business of recovery and it still

business of recovery and it still doesn’t cross my mind to go do that so

doesn’t cross my mind to go do that so

doesn’t cross my mind to go do that so here’s the model and the model has to do

here’s the model and the model has to do

here’s the model and the model has to do with integration we are integrated

with integration we are integrated

with integration we are integrated beings and we have become disintegrative

beings and we have become disintegrative

beings and we have become disintegrative so we have a body a mind a soul and a

so we have a body a mind a soul and a

so we have a body a mind a soul and a spirit and these things work together in

spirit and these things work together in

spirit and these things work together in a very synergistic way and unless we

a very synergistic way and unless we

a very synergistic way and unless we work on them in a synergistic way we’re

work on them in a synergistic way we’re

work on them in a synergistic way we’re missing we’re missing the power so you

missing we’re missing the power so you

missing we’re missing the power so you know holistic or integration it’s all

know holistic or integration it’s all

know holistic or integration it’s all the buzz now it’s a great marketing

the buzz now it’s a great marketing

the buzz now it’s a great marketing thing and when I began this process

thing and when I began this process

thing and when I began this process we’re the only holistic center out there

we’re the only holistic center out there

we’re the only holistic center out there you Google it was like us that’s it and

you Google it was like us that’s it and

you Google it was like us that’s it and now there’s it’s coming on which is

now there’s it’s coming on which is

now there’s it’s coming on which is great people are catching on and you

great people are catching on and you

great people are catching on and you know throw a little green juice and some

know throw a little green juice and some

know throw a little green juice and some yoga in the mix and some mindfulness and

yoga in the mix and some mindfulness and

yoga in the mix and some mindfulness and but unless these practices are

but unless these practices are

but unless these practices are integrated so the body the mind and the

integrated so the body the mind and the

integrated so the body the mind and the soul and the spirit are sharing

soul and the spirit are sharing

soul and the spirit are sharing information they’re like a database that

information they’re like a database that

information they’re like a database that shares information so we have to work on

shares information so we have to work on

shares information so we have to work on them all if I want to clear any of it so

them all if I want to clear any of it so

them all if I want to clear any of it so we

we

we talk about the body so the body is this

talk about the body so the body is this

talk about the body so the body is this colony of trail cells and every time I

colony of trail cells and every time I

colony of trail cells and every time I have a thought it tells the body how to

have a thought it tells the body how to

have a thought it tells the body how to feel so if I think about something a lot

feel so if I think about something a lot

feel so if I think about something a lot I’m instructing my body how to feel and

I’m instructing my body how to feel and

I’m instructing my body how to feel and especially if I have something traumatic

especially if I have something traumatic

especially if I have something traumatic than I’m thinking about bit so he

than I’m thinking about bit so he

than I’m thinking about bit so he sometimes think about that over and over

sometimes think about that over and over

sometimes think about that over and over and over and over and over again I’m

and over and over and over again I’m

and over and over and over again I’m instructing my body so then when I

instructing my body so then when I

instructing my body so then when I forget about it my body reminds me you

forget about it my body reminds me you

forget about it my body reminds me you know I’m on the beach and I’m having a

know I’m on the beach and I’m having a

know I’m on the beach and I’m having a great time and my body goes oh yeah

great time and my body goes oh yeah

great time and my body goes oh yeah you’re depressed remember oh yeah okay

you’re depressed remember oh yeah okay

you’re depressed remember oh yeah okay so we have to clear that we gotta clear

so we have to clear that we gotta clear

so we have to clear that we gotta clear the cellular memory in the body we got

the cellular memory in the body we got

the cellular memory in the body we got to detoxify the body so we’ve heard

to detoxify the body so we’ve heard

to detoxify the body so we’ve heard earlier today food a lot of the food

earlier today food a lot of the food

earlier today food a lot of the food that we’re eating is toxic which means

that we’re eating is toxic which means

that we’re eating is toxic which means it’s laden with chemicals and hormones

it’s laden with chemicals and hormones

it’s laden with chemicals and hormones and antibiotics that my body can’t

and antibiotics that my body can’t

and antibiotics that my body can’t recognize and it creates inflammation

recognize and it creates inflammation

recognize and it creates inflammation and inflammation is affecting all of my

and inflammation is affecting all of my

and inflammation is affecting all of my organs and they’re sending signals to

organs and they’re sending signals to

organs and they’re sending signals to the brain that I am NOT okay and I can’t

the brain that I am NOT okay and I can’t

the brain that I am NOT okay and I can’t perceive those signals but they are

perceive those signals but they are

perceive those signals but they are creating this underlying feeling that

creating this underlying feeling that

creating this underlying feeling that I’m not alright so there is a ton of now

I’m not alright so there is a ton of now

I’m not alright so there is a ton of now peer-reviewed science about the

peer-reviewed science about the

peer-reviewed science about the condition of the gut and conditions like

condition of the gut and conditions like

condition of the gut and conditions like depression and anxiety ad D I was

depression and anxiety ad D I was

depression and anxiety ad D I was reading the other day that bipolar

reading the other day that bipolar

reading the other day that bipolar disorder has a link to mitochondrial

disorder has a link to mitochondrial

disorder has a link to mitochondrial dysfunction Wow my cells affected how I

dysfunction Wow my cells affected how I

dysfunction Wow my cells affected how I feel at the end of the day our brain

feel at the end of the day our brain

feel at the end of the day our brain needs nutrients and minerals to

needs nutrients and minerals to

needs nutrients and minerals to metabolize and to function well if I’m

metabolize and to function well if I’m

metabolize and to function well if I’m not getting them then my brain is gonna

not getting them then my brain is gonna

not getting them then my brain is gonna begin to falter so I gotta work on the

begin to falter so I gotta work on the

begin to falter so I gotta work on the body and I have to change my

body and I have to change my

body and I have to change my relationship with food and the things I

relationship with food and the things I

relationship with food and the things I put in there so then we have the mind

put in there so then we have the mind

put in there so then we have the mind body mind and most of time we think

body mind and most of time we think

body mind and most of time we think about the mind that’s what I’m using to

about the mind that’s what I’m using to

about the mind that’s what I’m using to deliver this talk actually that’s about

deliver this talk actually that’s about

deliver this talk actually that’s about 5% of my mind the other 95% is back here

5% of my mind the other 95% is back here

5% of my mind the other 95% is back here it’s unconscious and my unconscious mind

it’s unconscious and my unconscious mind

it’s unconscious and my unconscious mind is programmed like a computer so all the

is programmed like a computer so all the

is programmed like a computer so all the programs are running in the background

programs are running in the background

programs are running in the background and they make me react so I watch my

and they make me react so I watch my

and they make me react so I watch my parents when I’m growing

parents when I’m growing

parents when I’m growing and I say you know I will never grow up

and I say you know I will never grow up

and I say you know I will never grow up to be like my dad

to be like my dad

to be like my dad anybody ever hear somebody say that and

anybody ever hear somebody say that and

anybody ever hear somebody say that and of course what happens they grow up

of course what happens they grow up

of course what happens they grow up exactly like their dad because they’re

exactly like their dad because they’re

exactly like their dad because they’re programmed when I have a situation on my

programmed when I have a situation on my

programmed when I have a situation on my hands a trauma something I develop a

hands a trauma something I develop a

hands a trauma something I develop a reaction I devise a strategy to deviate

reaction I devise a strategy to deviate

reaction I devise a strategy to deviate to deal with it then that files in my

to deal with it then that files in my

to deal with it then that files in my brain so I know later the brain is

brain so I know later the brain is

brain so I know later the brain is efficient so it stores things it says oh

efficient so it stores things it says oh

efficient so it stores things it says oh that I thought happened then I know what

that I thought happened then I know what

that I thought happened then I know what to do I’m gonna react so most of our

to do I’m gonna react so most of our

to do I’m gonna react so most of our lives are actually unconscious reactions

lives are actually unconscious reactions

lives are actually unconscious reactions so we got to get to the unconscious part

so we got to get to the unconscious part

so we got to get to the unconscious part cognitive behavioral therapy is great

cognitive behavioral therapy is great

cognitive behavioral therapy is great but it’s only dealing with the 5% I

but it’s only dealing with the 5% I

but it’s only dealing with the 5% I gotta get down here and now the soul and

gotta get down here and now the soul and

gotta get down here and now the soul and this is where the juice is so I’ve sat

this is where the juice is so I’ve sat

this is where the juice is so I’ve sat with hundreds of people over the years I

with hundreds of people over the years I

with hundreds of people over the years I say what’s this soul and they say you

say what’s this soul and they say you

say what’s this soul and they say you know it’s the my essential self

know it’s the my essential self

know it’s the my essential self it’s my authentic truest self and I ask

it’s my authentic truest self and I ask

it’s my authentic truest self and I ask people well give me some words to

people well give me some words to

people well give me some words to describe that invariably they’ll say

describe that invariably they’ll say

describe that invariably they’ll say love and passion and community and

love and passion and community and

love and passion and community and contribution these are all things that

contribution these are all things that

contribution these are all things that sound like luxuries as we’re on death’s

sound like luxuries as we’re on death’s

sound like luxuries as we’re on death’s doorstep or I’m stressed out in the day

doorstep or I’m stressed out in the day

doorstep or I’m stressed out in the day but these are basic life necessities

but these are basic life necessities

but these are basic life necessities these are important to who we are an

these are important to who we are an

these are important to who we are an example as young people that will join

example as young people that will join

example as young people that will join gangs so they join a gang and all of a

gangs so they join a gang and all of a

gangs so they join a gang and all of a sudden they have structure and meaning

sudden they have structure and meaning

sudden they have structure and meaning and purpose and they have rules and

and purpose and they have rules and

and purpose and they have rules and regulations and structure all the things

regulations and structure all the things

regulations and structure all the things they don’t have at home and they’ll take

they don’t have at home and they’ll take

they don’t have at home and they’ll take massive chances to get in these things

massive chances to get in these things

massive chances to get in these things and break the law and could go to jail

and break the law and could go to jail

and break the law and could go to jail forever but they do it anyway it’s that

forever but they do it anyway it’s that

forever but they do it anyway it’s that important another example is people in

important another example is people in

important another example is people in tragedy crisis 911 and hurricanes people

tragedy crisis 911 and hurricanes people

tragedy crisis 911 and hurricanes people come together and there’s no more race

come together and there’s no more race

come together and there’s no more race or socio-economic differences we are at

or socio-economic differences we are at

or socio-economic differences we are at our best I’m at my highest in crisis why

our best I’m at my highest in crisis why

our best I’m at my highest in crisis why do we have to wait till crisis so the

do we have to wait till crisis so the

do we have to wait till crisis so the soul and when we are disconnected from

soul and when we are disconnected from

soul and when we are disconnected from our authentic nature we get something

our authentic nature we get something

our authentic nature we get something called soul sickness and soul sickness

called soul sickness and soul sickness

called soul sickness and soul sickness as I was getting ready to die that was

as I was getting ready to die that was

as I was getting ready to die that was my big issue that I wasn’t going to do

my big issue that I wasn’t going to do

my big issue that I wasn’t going to do what I came here

what I came here

what I came here do body mind soul spirit so we live in

do body mind soul spirit so we live in

do body mind soul spirit so we live in the sea of energy if you want to talk

the sea of energy if you want to talk

the sea of energy if you want to talk about the Earth’s magnetic field or even

about the Earth’s magnetic field or even

about the Earth’s magnetic field or even the whole quantum field and the field

the whole quantum field and the field

the whole quantum field and the field affects everything that’s in the field

affects everything that’s in the field

affects everything that’s in the field so I have an energy field that’s

so I have an energy field that’s

so I have an energy field that’s generated by my nervous system and this

generated by my nervous system and this

generated by my nervous system and this field interacts with the ‘greater field

field interacts with the ‘greater field

field interacts with the ‘greater field but it doesn’t consciously I can’t sense

but it doesn’t consciously I can’t sense

but it doesn’t consciously I can’t sense this field with my five senses I have to

this field with my five senses I have to

this field with my five senses I have to do it with my intuition my awareness

do it with my intuition my awareness

do it with my intuition my awareness through my energy system and when my

through my energy system and when my

through my energy system and when my energy system is compromised then I’m

energy system is compromised then I’m

energy system is compromised then I’m not taking in that prana that

not taking in that prana that

not taking in that prana that information that informs all of life to

information that informs all of life to

information that informs all of life to make you know to sperm and a permanent

make you know to sperm and a permanent

make you know to sperm and a permanent egg come together a moment of conception

egg come together a moment of conception

egg come together a moment of conception and a baby comes out you know all the

and a baby comes out you know all the

and a baby comes out you know all the birds fly south at the same time the the

birds fly south at the same time the the

birds fly south at the same time the the song of life that’s my antenna so body

song of life that’s my antenna so body

song of life that’s my antenna so body mind soul spirit these are not new

mind soul spirit these are not new

mind soul spirit these are not new concepts but we have to work on them in

concepts but we have to work on them in

concepts but we have to work on them in a synergistic way and when we do we can

a synergistic way and when we do we can

a synergistic way and when we do we can get out of recovery and actually be

get out of recovery and actually be

get out of recovery and actually be recovered so people ask me a lot at

recovered so people ask me a lot at

recovered so people ask me a lot at these kind of conferences okay so if I’m

these kind of conferences okay so if I’m

these kind of conferences okay so if I’m recovered can I go use again and these

recovered can I go use again and these

recovered can I go use again and these are counselors that ask me this mostly

are counselors that ask me this mostly

are counselors that ask me this mostly right so I’m like look if there’s

right so I’m like look if there’s

right so I’m like look if there’s something wrong with the present moment

something wrong with the present moment

something wrong with the present moment and you want to go in just a solvent to

and you want to go in just a solvent to

and you want to go in just a solvent to change it you might need a little bit

change it you might need a little bit

change it you might need a little bit more recovery because for me being

more recovery because for me being

more recovery because for me being recovered means that I am aligned with

recovered means that I am aligned with

recovered means that I am aligned with my highest purpose that I am no longer

my highest purpose that I am no longer

my highest purpose that I am no longer defined by the past and I can let go of

defined by the past and I can let go of

defined by the past and I can let go of the past and people keep talking about

the past and people keep talking about

the past and people keep talking about the past because they haven’t resolved

the past because they haven’t resolved

the past because they haven’t resolved the past so I’ve resolved the past now I

the past so I’ve resolved the past now I

the past so I’ve resolved the past now I can be defined by Who I am becoming and

can be defined by Who I am becoming and

can be defined by Who I am becoming and what is possible for me that’s my new

what is possible for me that’s my new

what is possible for me that’s my new definition and being recovered means

definition and being recovered means

definition and being recovered means that I go from chaos to peace that I go

that I go from chaos to peace that I go

that I go from chaos to peace that I go from scarcity to abundance that I am on

from scarcity to abundance that I am on

from scarcity to abundance that I am on my hero’s journey and the journey of the

my hero’s journey and the journey of the

my hero’s journey and the journey of the hero is where we take our deepest

hero is where we take our deepest

hero is where we take our deepest darkest problems

darkest problems

darkest problems then we turn them into medicine and

then we turn them into medicine and

then we turn them into medicine and that’s the journey that we all must go

that’s the journey that we all must go

that’s the journey that we all must go through as part of life so addiction

through as part of life so addiction

through as part of life so addiction might just be the wake-up call to step

might just be the wake-up call to step

might just be the wake-up call to step into your hero’s journey and become more

into your hero’s journey and become more

into your hero’s journey and become more than you ever thought that you could be

than you ever thought that you could be

than you ever thought that you could be and when we do that then we are

and when we do that then we are

and when we do that then we are recovered and we’re gonna tell you that

recovered and we’re gonna tell you that

recovered and we’re gonna tell you that you only have one journey and you get to

you only have one journey and you get to

you only have one journey and you get to decide live with passion be recovered

decide live with passion be recovered

decide live with passion be recovered thank you

thank you

thank you [Applause]